CHILD GIGGLES
Abigail.
PHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE
PHONE RINGS LOUDER
'I have had it with you!'
WIND HOWLS, DISCONNECT TONE
Abigail?
PANICKED: Abigail.
Abigail! Abigail! DRAMATIC MUSIC
INAUDIBLE
HEAVY BREATHING
PILLS RATTLE
EERIE MUSIC
MUSIC GROWS OMINOUS
MATCH STRIKES, LIGHTER CLICKS
SINISTER MUSIC SUBSIDES, BIRDS TWEET
Don't say it.
Say what?
The job's too much for me.
Wasn't going to.
You said you needed to be up early.
I am absolutely fine.
I know what day it is, love.
How on earth did we all squeeze into there?
HE SNIFFS I'll see you downstairs.
Heavy goods vehicle.
Cool. I am on a roll.
Caravan... CONNIE SIGHS
Will you please just fuck off?
DOOR BEEPS Oil tanker...
Ah, Dr Robertson! I need your advice.
Would I be able to talk to you about night shifts at some point?
Not right now, Addy, thank you.
Good morning, Constance. Let's get started.
I'd like you to take a look at these.
UNZIPPING
You're being very assertive today.
Very Helen Mirren.
It's quite sexy. SCOFFS
You need to try and remember anything at all from that night.
I've been looking at the weather reports.
That storm was pretty severe.
The rain would have been blowing across the bridge in strong gusts.
However insignificant, Connie, it doesn't matter.
What is it?
You're not going to throw up again, are you?
I don't think DCI Tennison would have done that.
You still don't get it, do you?
Right now, your alternatives are looking pretty grim.
Life in prison, or life in a psychiatric hospital.
Did you sleep badly?
You're being very irritable. OK.
Ah. I can see that you started on the antidepressants three years ago.
And then in May, you were put on corticosteroids for hair loss
and lorazepam for extreme anxiety and insomnia. Is that correct?
If you say so.
Did you know that hair can fall out from stress?
Or shock.
Can it?
Had something happened?
Just one little question first. Of course.
Who's Kenneth Baines?
OK.
Let's get back to Ness.
What do you want to know?
Did we have sex?
I'm jolly glad to see this.
It's very important, darling...
DOORBELL RINGS ..a healthy sex life.
Yep. Is anyone gonna get that?
MUFFLED MALE VOICES God knows, I'm slacking.
Your father and I hardly ever do it these days.
DOORBELL RINGS Well, maybe once a fortnight.
It's all right, I'll get it (!)
Hello! How nice to see you!
What's up? Come in, come in.
Are you all right? Um...
Are you all right? What's wrong?
She's gone. Leah's left us.
What? Shit!
Darling, why don't you go upstairs? Annie's up there.
Darling, go on. Connie?
It's all right, Mum.
What happened?
WHISPERING: She says she's miserable.
Well, she's always bloody miserable. Mm.
NESS SOBS Oh, darling, it's all right.
Oh, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. It's all right.
I'm gonna be one of those single people
no-one invites to dinner parties.
We'll invite you.
You can have dinner with us every night.
GLASSES CLXNK
Am I unlovable?
Ness, no, don't be silly. Of course not!
SHE GROANS
WATER BUBBLES, THEY LAUGH
Connie! Connie!
Why doesn't she come?
Who? Ness? No, my mum. Where is she?
I need to see her. I feel all... wobbly without her.
I'll give you something for the anxiety.
Sit down, I'll get you some water.
Where did you get this?
It's mine.
Underneath that chilly veneer, I reckon you've got quite a temper.
What are you so angry about? Don't talk to me like you know me.
You do not know me. No?
I know you got pretty wrecked at dinner on Thursday.
And I know you ordered a bad of cam-free sh“ on Ocado.
I also know when “Si hubby“ has orchestra.
So you can have a furtive fiddle to some MILF-y porn.
Hide notifications, Ems. Schoolgirl error.
You can be very tedious, Connie. Oh, “tedious", am I (?)
I'm sorry, have I lost my gloss (?)
Do you think it's inevitable in female friendships
that after all the stories have been told and secrets have been shared,
that a kind of sisterly irritation takes hold?
I'm not your sister, and I'm not your friend.
I'm your forensic psychiatrist.
And let's not forget,
I'm not the one who drove a car into the river...
You've wanted to, though, haven't you?
...with children in the back. No!
That is not what fucking happened!
What did fucking happen, then, Connie?! I'm waiting!
CONNIE GASPS
There...
...I knew you had a temper.
CHILDREN'S VOICES
SWING SQUEAKS
HEIGHTENED SOUND OF BIKE TIRES ON ROAD
Emma?
Emma Davies?!
Oh, my God - Dougie Thompson! HE LAUGHS
I thought I recognised that girl!
Do you live round here? Yeah, it's me, Em. You look great!
Oh, I've put on weight and...
I saw your name in the paper. You're working on that case.
Yeah, they should never have got my name.
Amazing work you do. Oh, not sure about that.
Well, you actually make a difference.
You were always gonna do well.
Your mum once told me that you were far too good for me.
Oh, my God. My mother was a racist narcissist.
I still see the old crowd. Seriously?
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Um, Jim, Pete, Sally.
Sally P? Oh! How is she? Oh, she's great.
She's having a birthday party on Friday at The Bell.
You should come. She'd kill me if she knew I'd saw you and didn't ask.
How are you, Dougie? Me? Good. Good.
Yeah, um, married, mortgage, kids. The works. You know. And you?
Yeah.
How many?
Um... just the one, actually.
Sensible. Hm. What flavour?
Girl. Girl.
CHUCKLES How (Ad?
She, er...
...seven, today, actually. Aw!
Is she, um... is she here? Um... No, she's not. Um...
I've got to go, Dougie.
Yeah, yeah. Are you on Facebook?
No, I'm not, actually. Look, I've gotta go, too.
Get on it! All right, I will.
Get on it. LAUGHS
I can't wait to tell Sally. Bye, Dougie.
Bye... Emma Davies.
DOUG“. CHUCKLES
ELECTRONIC BLEEPS, DOOR OPENS
FOOTSTEPS APPROACH
DOOR SHUTS, DOOR LOCK BLEEPS
EMMA STEADIES HER BREATH
I'm very sorry...
...for the way that I reacted in our previous session.
It's often difficult for patients to understand, but...
the line has to be kept very clear.
This is a professional relationship.
CONNIE SCOFFS
You try so hard, don't you, Doc?
To do everything right.
To keep everything in its place.
But you know as well as I do that life is a messy business.
VOICE RECORDER BLEEPS
CONNIE SIGHS DEEPLY
So...
did Karl find out about your feelings for Ness?
EXHALES
Questions, questions, questions.
That's my job, asking questions.
Did he?
SHE SIGHS
You don't have to, Connie.
I want to.
Don't you?
Dunno.
What's the matter?
I really don't know. I just, erm...
IN HALES ..just feel like, erm...
What?
Just feel like I fell in love with you all those years ago
because you were this livewire.
This artist, with big dreams.
Full of energy. Wildness.
Wow.
I notice you're using the past tense!
Well, yeah, bubs.
Sometimes I feel like I might have clipped your wings.
You haven't, Karl. I've...
I've just had to grow up.
Don't you feel like you're not living any more,
you're just going through the motions?
Maybe it's the antidepressants.
I think they make me feel a bit numb.
Yeah, that's it, numb. I feel numb.
Don't you wanna feel alive again?
Are you having an affair? HE LAUGHS
No, I'm not having an affair.
But you fancy other people?
Well, do you?
Yes.
Now you.
Yeah.
OK, well...
...I mean, we shouldn't beat ourselves up about it.
It's natural after 15 years together.
You're brilliant, you are. HE LAUGHS
God, why are these things so hard to talk about?
SHE LAUGHS Hm?
Admit it, Con...
...you've always held a torch for that professor bloke,
Jonathan Hapgood, haven't you?
He said...
...he said What?!
He said he thought that we should take lovers.
Well, say something! You seem...
...disapproving?
Hm, no, it just sounds like Karl's trying to have his cake and eat it.
Maybe.
But this could be really good for me as well.
It means I'll be...
SIGHS
...I'm available.
CHILDREN ARGUE IN DISTANCE
So... what?
You gonna get in touch with him?
Your old professor?
Polly, no, can you not snatch that off Annie, please?
Can you give it back? Thank you.
PENSIVE MUSIC
Wow! Connie de Cadenet.
Wow, indeed, Professor Jonathan Hapgood.
THEY LAUGH
It's so good to see you. You, too.
Please. Thanks.
Er, wine? Yes, please.
Well, you look stunning. Thank you very much.
And I thought I was going to be overdressed for this interview,
but you look spectacular. I thought I'd make an effort.
It's appreciated. Thank you.
Cheers. Cheers.
SHE LAUGHS Listen, I'd better go.
W hy?
It has been a lovely evening.
I can't.
OK. Why not?
I'm kinda seeing someone.
Oh! Like, it's fairly new.
Oh, right.
I'm sorry, I should've said something. It's just...
I thought you wanted to write an article?
I do, I absolutely do.
I should go. Connie...
Yeah. I should go.
Connie...
VOICEMAIL: Leave a message, and I'll get back to you when I can.'
Hey, Karl, it's me. I guess you're still at work.
Look, I know we agreed not to talk about the details,
but that was such a disaster.
TEARFULLY: Now I feel like an idiot. I mean, what was I thinking?
OK, well, I'll talk to you about it when I see you.
OK. Um, love you. Bye.
H ello?
RACING GAME PLAYS ON TV
I'm home.
Can you turn that off now, please?
SHE SIGHS
GAME CONTINUES, PHONE DIALS OUT
'Hi, it's Vanessa. 'Fraid I'm busy right now,
'but if you leave me a message, I'll get back to you.'
Thanks, Billie. Where's Annie?
She's dressing up. OK, thank you. I'll see you soon.
Mum, can Billie stay for one more game? No, she can't, Josh.
And I want you to clean up this mess before you go to bed.
GAME STARTS UP
SHE SIGHS Idiot.
ANNIE: Mum!
CONNIE SIGHS Mum?
Mummy?
Polly and I are going to be Catholics.
I thought you were Buddhists?
Yes, but Catholics are into blood and stuff.
Annie-pops, promise me you won't wear this nun's costume outside?
Josh says nuns do sex with Jesus' peanuts.
CONNIE LAUGHS Penis. Singular.
MOBILE RINGS
OFF TONE
PHONE RINGS
OFF TONE
PHONE RINGS
Karl?
H ello?
Sorry, darling.
It's a really bad line. Hang on.
Hold on. Hello.
'Oh, baby, oh...' VOICE MUFFLED
Hi, baby, I can't... I can't hear you properly.
Hello. 'Oh, that's so good. It's so good.'
'Oh, you're the best.' ECSTATIC PANTING
WOMAN BREATHES HEAVILY 'Oh, that's so good.'
WHISPERED MOANS 'Yeah, yeah. Oh, my God.'
'No, no, stop, stop, stop.
'I have to fuck you. Come here, come here.'
WHISPERING AND SENSUAL SIGHS
WOMAN'S VOICE: Oh, my God.'
ORGASMIC SIGHS
'You're so beautiful, Ness.
'Oh! You're so good.' BOTH MOAN BLISSFULLY
'Oh, my God.' 'Closer, Ness. Oh, yeah, like that.
'Don't stop, don't stop.' 'Yeah.'
'Closer, closer.' CONNIE RETCHES
DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
FOOTSTEPS APPROACH ON STAIRS
WHISPERS: Hi.
I left you a message. Did you?
How was work? Erm...
Yeah, good. We, erm... met in the pub, actually.
Fatal.
Which one? Coach And Horses.
Did they have a lock-in? Yeah.
You didn't stop in anywhere on your way home? Nah.
Not even Ness's?
Yeah, erm, just briefly. Her boiler was up the spout again.
And while you were fixing it,
you fell over and your cock accidentally slipped into her mouth?
What? Your phone rang me.
You stupid prick!
How could you do that to me?! Hey! Keep your voice down.
Oh! I don't ask What you're up to,
you're out shagging that Hapgood bloke. Wrong!
And that is not even the point!
This was the agreement, wasn't it? Why should you mind?
Because she's my best friend!
I knew it. You were never gonna hack this.
Whoever I chose. Oh, I was.
I fucking was. Just not HER!
ANGRY CRY
DOOR SLAMS, FOOTSTEPS RETREAT QUICKLY
So, that was the shock... Doc.
And that was when my hair thought, "That's it. I'm of
SHE TUTS
SHARP EXHALE
SHE SNIFFS
How long do you think that kite's been stuck up there,
all tangled up like that?
'Throw away the key, I say.'
RADIO HOST: Thanks for your call, Jamie.
'Ewan from Gravesend has texted in to tell us
”chat people like Mortensen are known as family annihilators.
'I've got a question. Normally, they're men, right?
'But is this just because in most divorce cases...?' Shut up.
RADIO CLICKS OFF
SHE INHALES, EXHALES DEEPLY
SHE DIALS PHONE, DIAL TONE RINGS
PHONE RINGS DISTANTLY, DIAL TONE CONTINUES
'Hi, this is Simon Robertson's voicemail. Please leave a message.'
Erm... Hi, it's me. Er...
I thought I was going to be early, but...
...it's OK, I'll meet you there.
I've got something to say.
A letter arrived on Tuesday from Kenneth Baines.
It arrived Tuesday?
Do you think he knew the date?
I'll give it to you later. I haven't read it yet. I...
SHE STEADIES HER BREATH
...wanted to wait until we were together.
PHONE CHIMES Who's that?
Do you have it here with you?
Not now. PHONE CHIMES AGAIN
Go on.
What does he want?
He wants to meet.
No.
CONNIE SNIFFLES, SIGHS
Come on.
I...
I can't remember where we are in our relationship.
We're at the end.
Oh.
How are Josh and Annie?
Brought you some magazines and stuff.
Bye.
I've got to go.
'It was as if he wished he'd never met me.'
TEARFULLY: But I'm the mother of his children.
SHE SIGHS You know what really got me?
It was the fact that I'd been left out.
The two people closest to me had started a club without me.
I felt like such a fool.
Thank God you had your mum.
Horse. Apple. Tuesday.
That's it. All right, Mrs de Cadenet.
Erm... What day of the week is it today?
Tuesday.
No, it's Thursday, Mum.
But that's not really fair, because you just said Tuesday.
Don't worry. It's OK.
Erm... What might I put up in the rain?
A shelter. You could light a fire. OK. All right.
And what is nine plus five?
Nine plus five...
Come on, Julia, you know this.
It's all right, don't worry.
And what are the three words I asked you to remember?
Come on, Mum. Think of...
galloping across the fields.
Starlight! Starlight.
She had a pony called Starlight. That counts, right?
Yes, very good. You're doing really well, Mum.
I think I need the loo.
It's just through that door there, first on the left.
Well, we...
It's OK to say you're not coping, Connie.
I feel so low!
Despite the anti-depressants?
I'm so tired.
I haven't slept in nine days. My hair is falling out.
My chest feels like it's exploding.
We have something for the hair loss, no problem.
And the insomnia is also anxiety, Connie.
I've got just the thing for you.
Lorazepam.
Between you and me, Leah Worthington swears by these little beauties.
MUSIC: The End Of The World' by Skeeter Davis
♪ Why does the sun go on shining? ♪
'Beauties was the right word.'
'I felt like someone had taken my brain out of my aching skull
'and put it in a warm, soapy bath.'
♪ Cos you don't love me Any more... ♪
'It's massaged away all the pain.'
♪ Why do the birds go on singing? ♪
'But I don't need to tell you that, do I, Doctor?
'How the second one is never quite the same.'
You're always chasing that elusive feeling...
...until you find you need a pill just to feel normal.
And then right when you really, really...
...need to ask for help...
...you don't have the strength to do it.
Can we stop now?
I don't want to do any more. Of course.
You've done really, really well.
Emma...
...who is Kenneth Baines?
He's a lorry driver.
DOORBELL RINGS
H ello?
Hello, Mrs de Cadenet? KNOCKING
Hello? The door's open.
Are you here for the books? Er, no, I'm...
I tried the front door. I left a few messages.
I'm Emma Robertson, Connie's doctor. What?
Is Mrs de Cadenet in?
We were having a clear-out.
It's so hard, deciding.
Yes. Yes, it is.
Is it just you in, then?
'Fraid so. HE BREATHES HEAVILY
Let me help you with that.
Here. PHONE RINGS
PHONE CONTINUES RINGING
Would you like me to get that?
Oh, I never answer the phone.
PHONE CONTINUES RINGING
You're here to collect the books?
No, I... I'm here to talk about Connie.
I'm her psychiatrist.
Of course you are.
ANSWER MACHINE: 'This is Julia de Cadenet...'
Terrible.
It's... terrible.
Although I'm more than happy to take some bags to the charity shop,
if that would help?
Karl said you call it...
...something fancy.
Connie's condition. Yes. Dissociative amnesia.
It's a mechanism that the brain has to cope with trauma.
Like locking events away in a box and then burying the box.
HE CHUCKLES Sounds damn sensible to me.
What good does more pain do?
HE BREATH ES RAPIDLY
SOBBING: But I just don't understand this.
How could she do that?
Those poor little girls!
Well...
...that's what we're trying to find out, Mr de Cadenet.
We must have done something terribly wrong!
No, no, you did nothing wrong.
Perhaps it might help to visit her.
I can't. I wouldn't know what to say to her.
Julia always knows what to do when things go wrong.
Well, where is she? I told Connie I'd bring her mother to visit.
Where is she?
She's dead.
Julia died before all this.
Thank God!
I am so sorry.
He's in urgent need of home care.
He's showing signs of confusion and living in squalor,
and I need to know what's being put in place.
Please call me on this number as soon as possible.
OTHER CALL BEEPS THROUGH
Phil?
No, I'm not.
Why was this not on our notes, for Christ's sake?
Her mother had just died.
Didn't somebody perhaps think that that might be a contributory factor?
DOOR BEEPS, OPENS
Ah, Doctor! Did you mention the night shifts?
Leave us alone.
Sit down, Connie.
Connie...
...do you remember your mother died six weeks ago?
Did I know this?
Yes, you did.
She took a lot of paracetamol accidentally.
Just kept forgetting that she'd taken them.
What was her name?
What was whose name?
Your daughter.
Please keep my daughter out of this.
How can I...
...when your grief runs through every syllable you utter?
We are the wrecked people.
You and I.
Abigail.
CHILDREN PLAYING AND LAUGHING ECHOES
CHILDREN'S SQUEALS ECHO
PHONE RINGING
LIVELY CHATTER
Happy birthday!
You look great. Thank you.
Do you want a drink? Yeah, I'll have one. Thank you.