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Hello, Paul.
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This is Adele Brouse.
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I, uh...
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I just had
an appointment open up...
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tomorrow actually,
at 1:00...
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and I was wondering
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if you were interested
in taking it.
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We had sort of a truncated
session last Friday
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and I had some
lingering concerns.
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Perhaps you did as well.
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And so
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if you want the extra time
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to continue our talk,
let me know.
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You've got the number.
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Um, okay, thanks.
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Okay, bye.
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It's okay.
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What's okay?
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Well, I know I've told you
not to tell me
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if I look tired or old,
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but you can say it.
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I look exhausted.
I know.
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Do you feel exhausted?
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Not so much but...
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although I am starving.
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Do you have anything to eat?
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Nothing?
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- This is your house, right?
- Yes, it is.
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And you have a kitchen
in your house?
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Yes, I do.
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Okay, I get it.
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It's against the rules.
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I'm fine.
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Would you like some water?
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No, I'll be fine, really.
Don't worry.
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That's actually something
that you say quite a lot...
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"I'll be fine.
It's okay."
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Is there some message
that you want
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to communicate with me in that?
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So what happened last night?
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What didn't happen
last night?
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Oh, did you hear that?
That was my stomach.
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See, you remind me of Izzy.
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You have a certain
implacability.
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I told her about
the results to my brca1.
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- You did?
- Yeah.
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And how did she
respond to that?
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You know, hearing that
her mother was healthy,
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that she would be healthy?
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She accused me
of being a narcissist.
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Yeah, I thought I was
giving her good news...
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a gift... and she
called me a narcissist.
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Why do you think she
called you a narcissist?
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No, you tell me.
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I mean, that's essentially what you
were saying to me all last week.
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That's really what you took
away from our last session...
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that I think
you're a narcissist?
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From what recall, I didn't
say anything of the kind.
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But I do remember
strongly encouraging you
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to visit your sister.
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How did you come to talk
to Izzy last night?
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Wasn't it opening night?
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Yes yes, it was.
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- So did she...
- No, she did not come.
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So she didn't go, but you
talked to her afterwards?
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I told Izzy at the hospital.
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Patricia's in the hospital.
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She called me at the theater.
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She said she thought
she was dying,
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so I went straight
over to her house.
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And how was she?
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Eventually I did have to
take her to the hospital
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at about 3:00
in the morning.
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Russell and Izzy met me there.
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The doctors stabilized her.
They got her comfortable.
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I was waiting with Izzy
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and I told her about
the results to my brca1.
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And that's when she told me
I was a narcissist.
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Evidently she's just
finished reading some book...
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"the gift of
the dramatic child."
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"The drama
of the gifted child."
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- Oh, you know it?
- Yes, I do.
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It's sort of seminal
in this field.
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Did Izzy say why she was
reading that particular book?
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You know, Izzy thinks
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she had such
a difficult childhood.
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Izzy doesn't even know what a difficult
childhood looks like, all right?
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Are you saying that you do?
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What I'm saying is
she had it easy.
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Gifted, huh?
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Actually I think the title
is kind of misleading.
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The book doesn't have anything
to do with intellectual ability.
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Well, she loved it.
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She thinks it explains
everything...
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me.
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We were in the waiting room...
Russell and Izzy and I.
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She was sitting there in
this big baggy sweatshirt
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with her pajama pants
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and her chin up on her knees.
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I looked at her, I thought,
"Jesus, she looks so...
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she's just a kid."
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And she was really scared
when she saw tricia.
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So I thought, "I gotta
tell her something nice.
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I gotta make her feel better.
I gotta reassure her."
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So I told her that the
results of my test came back
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and that they were negative
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and that that meant
that hers were too
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and that I wasn't gonna
pass it on to her.
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I mean...
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She gave me that look
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that she's just
so very fond of.
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I mean, why couldn't
she just be grateful?
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I gave her good news
and she looked as if...
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if she's gonna hate me,
just let her hate me.
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I don't know
what to do anymore.
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Frances, how is Patricia?
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Not good.
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You said that when
she called last night,
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she thought she was dying.
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She did.
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She left a message
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right before the end
of the play. She said...
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"I'm sorry, franny,"
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I think this is it.
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I need help."
She kept apologizing,
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saying she was sorry.
She knows I don't like dealing with illness.
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So when you heard that
message, what did you do?
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I left the theater.
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I mean I just told Eddie that
I had a family emergency.
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I couldn't believe she was
apologizing for being sick.
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I told him I couldn't
make the curtain call
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and I just walked out
the stage door.
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I was still wearing my costume.
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And I just took
a cab to Brooklyn.
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I went straight to her place.
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The door was open.
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I found her...
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she was lying on the cold tile.
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She was drenched in urine.
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And I put her
in the bath and...
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what kind of state was she in?
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She kept saying that
she didn't want to die.
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She was scared of dying.
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And I just needed her to stop.
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I needed her
to let me help her.
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And I shook her...
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Kind of hard.
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I just wanted her
to cut it out.
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I wanted her to stop talking
about dying right then.
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- Did that scare you?
- Yes, it scared me.
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Did it make you angry?
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I guess so.
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Jesus.
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What?
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No, my sister is dying
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and I'm angry
at her.
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A lot of the time fear
makes people shut down.
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It seems to have
spurred you to action.
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Maybe it did.
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D does that surprise you?
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Well, it hasn't exactly
been my pattern.
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Yes.
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I don't know where
it all came from.
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I wasn't thinking
about anything.
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I wasn't thinking about
anything at all.
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What?
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I just remembered
this director...
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when I first came
to New York, in a play.
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He said, you know,
"franny, stop worrying about
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what you're feeling so much and just
think about what you're doing."
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- That's what you did with tricia.
- Yeah.
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What am I doing?
Treat her symptoms.
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Bring the fever down.
Hydrate her.
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You know, she...
she was in the bath,
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so I got her out of the
bath and into the bed.
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And then she was cold.
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There was this short little
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period of time though...
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40 minutes maybe...
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I don't know.
It seemed almost peaceful,
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like everything
was gonna be okay.
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She was cold,
so I got her into bed,
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covered her with a blanket.
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She started to fall asleep,
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but she wanted me
to talk to her.
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So I sat next to her,
talking to her.
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And what did you talk about?
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Just nonsense,
I guess... gossip.
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I told her about
Laurie Littman...
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our fifth-grade
teacher
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who left her husband
for a woman.
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And then I told her
about the theater
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and what had happened to me
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and how I left before
the curtain call
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and the look on Eddie's
face when I told him.
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That made her smile.
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I ran out of things
to talk about, I guess,
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so I reached up
on the shelf for a book.
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I thought I'd read to her...
"Jane eyre" of all things.
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I was reading to her.
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I thought she'd fallen asleep.
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All of a sudden
she just gripped my hand.
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It really frightened me.
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She said, "I love you.
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Love you."
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That must have felt very good.
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It didn't?
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No, it did.
Of course it did.
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That's...
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that's a pretty powerful moment
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you've just described...
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to have that kind of connection
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with tricia.
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It didn't last.
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Yeah.
We fell asleep...
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I don't know how long it
was, maybe 15 minutes...
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then she woke up with a
stabbing pain in her stomach,
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worse than before.
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And she started hallucinating.
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She thought I was our mother.
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Her neighbor helped me
get her down into the car.
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I called Russell
on the way to the hospital.
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What? What?
What is that look?
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- What are you looking at me like that for?
- Like what?
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No, you're scrutinizing me.
There's something skeptical.
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Skeptical? Why would
I be skeptical, frances?
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Why... why?
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If anything,
I've been impressed
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with the way you've
handled yourself.
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You've had some distance
in the past with Patricia,
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and now her illness...
the gravity of it...
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has become very real.
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And you've experienced...
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you've experienced that
face to face.
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But I guess
I'm a little confused
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as to why you're
throwing it back on me.
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I'm trying to gauge
what's going on with you.
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I feel sad.
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I feel incredibly
scared for tricia.
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I feel tired.
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I feel hungry.
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I feel...
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What?
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I don't fucking know, okay?
Isn't that enough?
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Yes.
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When we got
to the emergency room,
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this whole crowd
descended on me...
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doctors, nurses, e. M.T.S...
I don't know.
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They just literally
pushed me out of the away.
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And then this one
enormous nurse
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starts bombarding me
with questions, you know...
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"how long has
she been like this?"
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When was the last time
she had food and water?
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"Why didn't you
bring her in sooner?"
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Can you believe that?
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It was like she
slapped me in the face.
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I definitely felt like
slapping her back.
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Did you feel like
she was accusing you?
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I was trying to help tricia.
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I... I thought
I was doing pretty well,
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but she made it sound like I kept
her home on purpose, you know,
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like I had some sick
pleasure taking care of her.
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Do you really think
that's what she thought?
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She all but said it.
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Did she?
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It just sounds to me
like the nurse made...
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she made
an insensitive comment.
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But it doesn't sound like she was
questioning your motives here. Perhaps...
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I was doing the best I could.
I'm not a doctor.
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No one... I mean,
nobody expects you to be.
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I guess I'm just wondering
if your reaction came
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from your conflicted feelings.
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Oh, there there.
Here we go, right. No, come on.
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No, you were the one who brought
up her comment, frances.
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You said that you felt pushed aside
when you got to the hospital.
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So you're accusing me too?
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No, you think
that some part of me
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got off on taking care
of tricia.
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I'm not accu... but if
it were to be true,
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it would be completely
understandable.
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I guess what I'm saying
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is that I want to explore
these feelings with you
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if that's what you want.
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All right. Okay.
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We were waiting.
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And the attending doctor
came out and told us
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that tricia had to stay
for a few days,
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but then we could
take her home,
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and that it was time
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to start hospice.
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And is that what tricia wants?
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Did he...
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did he tell you how long?
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He said it could be two weeks,
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but six at the very most.
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Christ.
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Yeah.
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I think I'm gonna
quit the play.
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Why...
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why are you gonna
quit the play?
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I'd rather stay home
and take care of Trish.
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I mean,
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I don't even really
like doing theater.
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You have that look again.
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I...
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but doesn't the hospice mean
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that tricia would have
professional care?
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Yes, Paul.
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She'll have a nurse
during the day
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and she'll have a number
to call at night.
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But I want to be there
in addition,
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and not just as a visitor.
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I want to move in with her.
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Into Patricia's home?
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Yep, the hospice nurse takes
care of her physical needs,
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but who's gonna take care
of her emotional needs?
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She doesn't have any children,
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a husband or a mother.
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I'm all she's got.
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And have you talked
to Patricia about this?
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No.
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Izzy and I were in the cab.
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We were not talking.
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We were just
processing the news.
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She was looking out the window
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and she started to cry.
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And then this bus pulled up
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right next to us
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with a big ad for my play.
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That's when I told her
I was quitting.
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So was that the moment when
it first occurred to you?
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No, but that was when it made
perfect sense to me though.
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What? What?
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I think...
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I think it's
a wonderful impulse,
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but I...
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do you think that
it might be possible
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that you are reacting
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to Izzy's attitude
towards you, her comments?
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No, I'm reacting to the fact
that my sister needs me.
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I understand.
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But by announcing that
you're leaving the job,
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do you think that you might
be making a statement?
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Oh, I get it.
Wait, you're telling me
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I'm trying to prove
Izzy wrong, yeah,
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trying to prove
I'm not a narcissist.
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- I mean, not just prove it to Izzy.
- No, really.
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No, you really think
the world of me, Paul.
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I don't mean just trying
to prove it to Izzy.
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Well, if that's what it was,
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it sure as hell backfired.
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E started to rant.
She told me
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I've been gone
for months and months.
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Now I'm just gonna make
this big entrance
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and, you know, pretend to
take care of everything.
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She said I was doing it
just for me.
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She even told me
that the nurse was right,
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that I should have
brought Trish in sooner
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and that I should do
the fucking play.
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Now I'm guessing that
you think she's right.
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No, I don't.
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No, go ahead, say it, Paul.
I don't care.
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I don't.
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You took your sister to the
hospital when she needed it.
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You also had the chance
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to spend that time with her
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and to show her...
and yourself...
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that you were up to this task
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of seeing her though
to the end.
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You should feel good about
what you did for tricia.
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At the same time,
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maybe you should think
a little more
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about what
quitting the play means
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and consider
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what might be driving
your decision here.
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She called me last night, Paul.
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I know she wants me there.
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And you will be there for
her... that's clear to me...
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whether you quit the play
or whether you don't.
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I'm just perhaps
concerned about
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where this choice
might lead you
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in the long term.
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You came to me
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with real concerns
about your career.
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And since then
you've expressed to me
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a sense of
personal loneliness...
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a deep loneliness.
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Your sister's gonna die,
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and these things that you feel
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are gonna come back more
powerfully when she's gone.
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I can see how
moving in with her
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may seem like
it's the real answer.
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You'd get to feel more of
what you felt last night...
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this connection
between you both.
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And also you...
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you get to walk away
from the play.
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So you think I'm running
from the play?
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I don't know.
What do you think?
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A month ago you thought I was
running away from tricia.
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You thought I took
the play to escape.
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God, you are so much like Izzy.
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There's no winning
with either one of you.
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You know what she said to
me in the taxi before?
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She said she felt
sorry for you,
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that it was a joke
I was even in therapy,
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that true narcissists
can never really change,
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that there's nothing
you could do to help me.
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Did she get that
from that book, Paul?
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She might have, yeah.
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So do you agree with her?
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Well, I think that it's...
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Can you excuse me for a moment?
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- Mom.
- Izzy?
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I'm sorry.
Why aren't you answering your phone?
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What are you doing here?
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00:23:30,183 --> 00:23:32,518
Dad called.
She's back in the I.C.U.
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She had a seizure or something.
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Oh God.
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- All right, I gotta go. Paul, Izzy.
- Come on.
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- Hi. - Hi.
So you're the famous Paul weston.
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Isabelle, not now.
Come on.
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So how has it been
going in here?
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