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Previously on Awkward...
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[Crowd groans]
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I fucked your girlfriend.
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Everyone is talking about you.
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Your secret blog--
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Not so secret anymore.
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You humiliated me.
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[Horn honks, brakes screech]
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Jenna Hamilton
tried to kill herself!
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Again!
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I was dead.
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Metaphorically speaking.
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Like Sylvia Plath,
I'd taken my own life.
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Except while hers
ended in an oven,
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mine ended on the internet.
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My blog was no longer
a safe haven,
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so there was only one way
I could take refuge
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from the internal slaughter
in my head.
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I had to put pen to paper.
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Turns out, releasing
my blog to the public
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was not the answer
to my problems.
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Once again, I was a pariah.
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And even though
I hadn't forgiven
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my mom for writing the letter,
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she was wise to my guilt trips.
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So I couldn't expect
she would let me stay home,
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which meant I had to ensure it.
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Mom, I have a fever!
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My hand wasn't the only thing
getting hot and bothered.
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[Lacey giggling]
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My mom was too.
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Suddenly I didn't need
to play sick anymore.
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I was sick,
and I needed to escape
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before I was confronted
with what I expected to see--
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My mother with a...
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Dad?
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Sync and corrections by n17t01
www.addic7ed.com
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How are you feeling?
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- Uncomfortable.
- Understandable.
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It's probably a little shocking
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to see us together.
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Mm-hmm.
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Just talk to us.
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What's going through your head?
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Your boobs.
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Might want to belt up.
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I thought you were
dating Hannah.
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So did I.
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I wasn't.
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Which is why I came over
to clear things up.
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- And you did.
- [Growls softly]
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Are you guys back together?
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We're working it out.
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Right, there's still
work to do.
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And if that work was gonna
happen in the house,
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I had to vacate the premises.
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Right, well, I am feeling
much better now,
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so I'm gonna head to school.
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- Well, let me get dressed.
- She can drive herself.
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She is not driving
the slut-wagon.
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The thing will only
bring her negative attention.
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Car or no car,
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negative attention
was about the only attention
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I could expect.
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You sure you're feeling okay?
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You don't look so good.
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I'm fine.
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I wasn't, but how
do you tell your mom
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you're about to walk into
a public lynching?
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Really?
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Well, there are
a couple small things
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that happened recently
which are making me
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a wee bit apprehensive.
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- Bitch!
- Like that.
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Don't call my daughter a bitch!
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Not her, you.
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What's going on?
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So Jake broke up with me
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and then caught me
making out with Matty,
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which shouldn't
have been a thing,
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'cause I was
technically single,
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but he thinks I'm a cheater
because he didn't know
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that I was with Matty
before I was with him,
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so he thought that we
were seeing each other
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while I was seeing him,
that "him" being Jake.
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Following?
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So I exposed my blog
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and basically
everything about myself,
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and I didn't realize that there
would be collateral damage,
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which I guess sort of
definitely involves you
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and the letter.
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Everyone knows
I wrote the letter?
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You're disgusting.
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I know it seems
like I did this on purpose
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because things aren't
resolved between us.
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I didn't mean to hurt you.
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Have a nice day, honey.
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We need to talk.
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I can't.
Not now.
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Please, let me say my piece.
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Writing that letter
to Jenna was terrible.
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- Agreed.
- And cruel.
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- I get it.
- No, you don't.
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But I do, because despite
how together I may seem
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I was once a misfit too.
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Yeah, I know
it's hard to believe,
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but things weren't always
smooth sailing
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for this old kimosabe.
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And do you know who always
lifted me up?
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- Your mother.
- That's right.
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And let me tell you,
I was pretty heavy back then.
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I had a tendency
to eat my feelings,
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but no matter how heavy my load
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or my ass,
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my mother could always
lighten it
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with her unconditional love
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because that is
what good mothers do.
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They love their kids.
They don't tear them down.
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L-Dawg, I really expected
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we were on the road
to being besties,
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but now I--
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I don't think I can
even be your friend.
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[Sighs]
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What kinda day
are we looking at,
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lunch in the bathroom?
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Nope, I'm clear
for quad exposure.
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I'm back in
with the mafia, big time.
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They got my parents
to buy me a car.
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You're kidding.
Why?
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It's a peace offering.
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Becca's scared shitless of you,
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and by proxy, now me.
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Why is she scared of me?
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'Cause putting yourself up
for public consumption
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is, like, batshizat on crack.
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You're the scariest kind
of loose cannon, Jenna.
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You're a suicide bomber.
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I wasn't trying
to blow myself up.
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Motive doesn't matter
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but mission accomplished.
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Your social suicide
scared everyone silent.
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I assumed it was merely
the calm before the storm,
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and as such I was
battening down the hatches.
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Watch it!
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- Jenna.
- Sorry, Julie.
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Julie.
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I had hit the hornets nest--
The Julies.
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They were power brokers,
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the kind of girls who could
make or break a reputation
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with a simple smile or a smirk.
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Nobody wanted
to mess with them,
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and I definitely didn't want
them to mess with me.
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- What you did was ballsy.
- And psychotic.
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It was a mistake.
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No, the mistake was ditching
Matty for Jake.
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Team Jake all the way!
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Seriously, when Matty
showed up at the dance,
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total panty drop.
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Forget you.
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Nothing trumps
the bit with Jake
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when he decked out
his mom's minivan.
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It wasn't really a bit.
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That actually happened.
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Whatever.
I just loved it.
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Anyhoo, gotta go.
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Back-up pants a-calling.
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That was strange.
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And unexpected.
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She just said
"back-up pants."
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That was her quoting you
quoting me.
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Do you realize
what just happened?
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You've just been bitch-backed
by the Julies.
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- Okay.
- You don't get it.
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You're, like,
a small cable show.
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You may not have
a budget or marketing,
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but you're interesting
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and you're catching on
with the right peeps.
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Peeps that get you
and care what you think.
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Nobody cares what I think.
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But ironically, they did.
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I had fans.
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Â♪ And I don't know, know Â♪
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Â♪ I don't know
what I can do for you Â♪
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And they wanted
dating advice...
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Psst.
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Fashion tips...
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[Overlapping talking]
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And a teenage perspective.
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Suddenly everyone needed
my opinion on their life
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and to weigh in on mine.
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It was overwhelming
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and exhilarating.
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I was a tastemaker.
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Ugh, how is the hamil-troll's
star rising while mine falls?
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The bitch
really crossed the line
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exposing my relationship
with Ricky.
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I call shenanigans.
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She didn't ho and tell.
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Everyone already knew
about you and Ricky.
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Ho and tell?
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Don't make me puke
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with that side-stooge's lingo.
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Look, I know Jenna's blog
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didn't paint you
in the best light.
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But you gotta give her credit.
She can spell.
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I'm not going
to give her credit
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for anything except
inducing my stress.
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She totally exaggerated
Ricky's past indiscretions
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on that retarded blog,
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which is why I now have
the worst breakout
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of my life.
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See?
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Tia!
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Please, stop with the slang
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or I'm gonna slap you.
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Why are you looking at me
like that?
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I don't think
you're breaking out.
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You've been making out.
That is a kiss blister.
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What the hell
is a kiss blister?
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Herpes.
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This is not that.
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It's a zit.
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Good luck with everything.
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You should say something.
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What is there to say
that hasn't already been said?
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Or read?
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Good point.
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With all
my newfound validation,
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I had almost forgotten
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the one opinion
that mattered most.
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Make that the two opinions.
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Maybe it is
a good time to talk.
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'Cause my new
positive approval rating
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could be rubbing off
on them too.
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- Right?
- I don't know about them.
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But it's definitely
rubbing off on me.
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People have been rocking
my slanguage left and right.
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I've heard three Tamara "isms"
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in the first two periods alone.
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Although Amy Dube
doesn't really get
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that a "Fail Mary"
isn't a good thing.
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Go.
Talk to them.
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What's the worst
that could happen?
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They could spit in my face.
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They could, but they won't.
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Turns out
my great expectations,
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not so great.
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Hey, do you mind
if we switch seats?
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I do.
I'm not on your team.
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I am.
You could switch with me.
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Thanks, but my objective
is to get further from someone,
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not closer.
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- Can we trade?
- No.
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You're lame.
No wonder Jenna dumped you.
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All right, frenchies,
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Miss Kang had an emergency
and had to go home,
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probably 'cause she ate some
bad creme fraiche this morning.
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Some creme not-so-fraiche,
huh?
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C'est la vie.
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Well, I didn't have time
to call in a sub,
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so you're watching a movie.
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It's called Jules and Jim.
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So in case you wanna tune out
and take a napster,
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here are the highlights.
267
00:09:49,258 --> 00:09:52,092
"Two best friends fall in love
with the same woman,
268
00:09:52,094 --> 00:09:54,294
who leaves the insecure one
for the passionate one,
269
00:09:54,296 --> 00:09:56,163
causing friction between them.
270
00:09:56,165 --> 00:09:58,631
Then the woman drives
one of them off a bridge."
271
00:09:58,633 --> 00:10:01,634
A stupid suicidal girl
comes in between two friends.
272
00:10:01,636 --> 00:10:03,270
That sounds familiar.
273
00:10:03,272 --> 00:10:05,839
Oh, it's just like
Jenna Hamilton's life.
274
00:10:05,841 --> 00:10:07,640
Except the movie is better
275
00:10:07,642 --> 00:10:10,910
because the girl actually dies.
276
00:10:10,912 --> 00:10:12,612
I hope you're taking notes,
277
00:10:12,614 --> 00:10:15,082
'cause Matty's
not in the wrong-- You are.
278
00:10:15,084 --> 00:10:16,450
Listen,
I appreciate your opinion,
279
00:10:16,452 --> 00:10:18,118
but you don't have
all the information.
280
00:10:18,120 --> 00:10:20,053
Actually, I do.
I read the blog.
281
00:10:20,055 --> 00:10:21,621
Good for you,
but there's no way
282
00:10:21,623 --> 00:10:24,091
a stupid movie's gonna
give me a new perspective.
283
00:10:24,093 --> 00:10:27,894
I'm never talking
to that asshole again.
284
00:10:27,896 --> 00:10:30,897
[Speaking French]
285
00:10:34,002 --> 00:10:37,270
We should talk.
286
00:10:37,272 --> 00:10:39,706
Why didn't you just tell me
that the camp girl was Jenna?
287
00:10:39,708 --> 00:10:40,907
I don't know, man.
288
00:10:40,909 --> 00:10:42,309
I was still figuring it all out
289
00:10:42,311 --> 00:10:44,378
when suddenly
you were into her,
290
00:10:44,380 --> 00:10:46,446
and every time
I tried to tell you,
291
00:10:46,448 --> 00:10:47,780
it got more complicated.
292
00:10:47,782 --> 00:10:49,383
More complicated than this?
293
00:10:49,385 --> 00:10:52,252
Dude, I don't want our
friendship to go out this way.
294
00:10:52,254 --> 00:10:54,687
- Neither do I.
- So what do we do?
295
00:10:54,689 --> 00:10:56,089
We just move on.
296
00:10:56,091 --> 00:10:57,790
And we tell
each other the truth, okay?
297
00:10:57,792 --> 00:10:59,759
About everything.
298
00:10:59,761 --> 00:11:01,228
Yeah.
Good for me.
299
00:11:01,230 --> 00:11:03,296
Me too.
300
00:11:03,298 --> 00:11:04,131
Well...
301
00:11:04,133 --> 00:11:07,967
- So you should know--
- So you should know--
302
00:11:07,969 --> 00:11:11,438
- I still love Jenna.
- I still love Jenna.
303
00:11:11,440 --> 00:11:14,174
[Overlapping chatter]
304
00:11:14,176 --> 00:11:15,542
Can you help get me
somewhere safe
305
00:11:15,544 --> 00:11:16,609
and out of the spotlight?
306
00:11:16,611 --> 00:11:17,911
I got you, J.
307
00:11:17,913 --> 00:11:19,312
Back off, sycophants.
308
00:11:19,314 --> 00:11:21,048
Jenna doesn't have
all the answers.
309
00:11:21,050 --> 00:11:22,982
But you do have
all the answers.
310
00:11:22,984 --> 00:11:24,717
Have you read my blog?
311
00:11:24,719 --> 00:11:26,520
I don't.
My life is a mess.
312
00:11:26,522 --> 00:11:27,921
Au contraire.
313
00:11:27,923 --> 00:11:29,356
That's French for
"on the contrary."
314
00:11:29,358 --> 00:11:30,623
I gathered.
315
00:11:30,625 --> 00:11:32,392
Your life isn't a mess.
It's amazing.
316
00:11:32,394 --> 00:11:34,761
You have friends,
a bro-down,
317
00:11:34,763 --> 00:11:36,263
and a very nice way with words,
318
00:11:36,265 --> 00:11:38,932
which I know because I devoured
every last one of them,
319
00:11:38,934 --> 00:11:40,767
virtually speaking of course.
320
00:11:40,769 --> 00:11:42,135
Of course.
321
00:11:42,137 --> 00:11:43,803
So here's what I need to know.
322
00:11:43,805 --> 00:11:45,738
I was bracing myself.
323
00:11:45,740 --> 00:11:48,708
Will you help me
write my memoir?
324
00:11:48,710 --> 00:11:50,243
[Toilet flushes]
325
00:11:50,245 --> 00:11:52,011
This is getting insane.
I'm not a role model.
326
00:11:52,013 --> 00:11:54,114
No, you're a Lifetime movie.
327
00:11:54,116 --> 00:11:57,317
Seriously, we should think
about adapting your blog.
328
00:11:57,319 --> 00:11:58,985
This isn't a movie,
this is my life,
329
00:11:58,987 --> 00:12:00,554
and I don't have
a remote to take control
330
00:12:00,556 --> 00:12:03,457
or delete the traumatic episodes
involving Matty and Jake.
331
00:12:03,459 --> 00:12:05,625
They're never gonna
talk to me again.
332
00:12:05,627 --> 00:12:07,394
That's so major!
333
00:12:07,396 --> 00:12:08,728
May-jer!
334
00:12:08,730 --> 00:12:10,230
May-jor!
335
00:12:12,366 --> 00:12:13,433
May-jer, may-jor.
336
00:12:13,435 --> 00:12:15,702
Lose the E and stress the O.
337
00:12:15,704 --> 00:12:17,170
Amazeballs.
And so are you.
338
00:12:17,172 --> 00:12:19,139
You really dodged a bullet
with that Ricky reject.
339
00:12:19,141 --> 00:12:21,575
Rumor has it he's rocking
some nasty STDs
340
00:12:21,577 --> 00:12:23,410
in his sex-cretins.
341
00:12:23,412 --> 00:12:24,511
Sex-cretions.
342
00:12:24,513 --> 00:12:26,246
But he is a cretin,
that's for sure.
343
00:12:26,248 --> 00:12:27,247
[Giggling]
344
00:12:27,249 --> 00:12:30,049
See, Jenna?
Nothing to worry about.
345
00:12:30,051 --> 00:12:31,985
You're on a positively
positive upswing.
346
00:12:31,987 --> 00:12:33,620
The boys are bound
to come around.
347
00:12:33,622 --> 00:12:35,088
No doubt.
348
00:12:35,090 --> 00:12:37,224
I mean, it's not like
you gave them herpes.
349
00:12:43,331 --> 00:12:44,897
Shit.
350
00:12:44,899 --> 00:12:47,033
[Bell rings]
351
00:12:58,179 --> 00:13:00,213
Finally, the tide had turned,
352
00:13:00,215 --> 00:13:02,048
and I was about
to get the smackdown
353
00:13:02,050 --> 00:13:03,583
I had anticipated.
354
00:13:03,585 --> 00:13:06,953
Okay, here we go.
355
00:13:06,955 --> 00:13:09,189
Lay it on me.
I'm ready.
356
00:13:09,191 --> 00:13:12,592
We've decided not to let
a girl come between us.
357
00:13:12,594 --> 00:13:13,760
I understand.
358
00:13:13,762 --> 00:13:16,396
So you need to choose.
359
00:13:16,398 --> 00:13:19,399
Him or me.
360
00:13:19,401 --> 00:13:20,833
Team Jake!
361
00:13:20,835 --> 00:13:22,369
[All shouting]
362
00:13:22,371 --> 00:13:25,505
Team Jake!
Team Jake! Team Jake!
363
00:13:25,507 --> 00:13:28,141
[Shouting continues]
364
00:13:33,598 --> 00:13:35,198
I know.
365
00:13:35,200 --> 00:13:37,634
I know!
Just let me be!
366
00:13:37,636 --> 00:13:39,269
Mom?
367
00:13:39,271 --> 00:13:40,937
I'm home.
368
00:13:40,939 --> 00:13:42,004
[Phone rings]
369
00:13:42,006 --> 00:13:44,040
- Please don't.
- Hello.
370
00:13:44,042 --> 00:13:47,244
I'm fine.
371
00:13:47,246 --> 00:13:51,080
My mother is not a monster.
372
00:13:51,082 --> 00:13:52,415
Has this been happening
all day?
373
00:13:52,417 --> 00:13:54,317
Honey, don't worry about it.
374
00:13:54,319 --> 00:13:55,752
How 'bout a snack?
375
00:13:55,754 --> 00:13:58,788
Apparently my stigma
hadn't disappeared.
376
00:13:58,790 --> 00:14:00,923
It transferred to my mother.
377
00:14:00,925 --> 00:14:02,659
Mom, I'm so sorry.
378
00:14:02,661 --> 00:14:05,228
You have nothing
to apologize for.
379
00:14:05,230 --> 00:14:06,463
I deserve this.
380
00:14:06,465 --> 00:14:08,298
This isn't tit for tat,
I swear.
381
00:14:08,300 --> 00:14:09,699
I know.
382
00:14:09,701 --> 00:14:11,401
Because even though
you haven't forgiven me,
383
00:14:11,403 --> 00:14:13,936
you have never been cruel.
384
00:14:13,938 --> 00:14:15,605
But I have.
385
00:14:15,607 --> 00:14:19,008
That letter was cruel.
386
00:14:19,010 --> 00:14:21,311
So why did you write it?
387
00:14:24,014 --> 00:14:27,317
[Sighs]
388
00:14:27,319 --> 00:14:28,551
The day I wrote it,
389
00:14:28,553 --> 00:14:30,520
my mother laid into me,
390
00:14:30,522 --> 00:14:33,456
telling me that I wasn't
raising you right.
391
00:14:33,458 --> 00:14:36,726
And instead of tuning her out,
392
00:14:36,728 --> 00:14:38,828
I tuned her in.
393
00:14:38,830 --> 00:14:42,599
And I did what I never
wanted to do.
394
00:14:42,601 --> 00:14:46,703
I attacked you the way that
she has always attacked me,
395
00:14:46,705 --> 00:14:50,139
and it wasn't right or fair.
396
00:14:50,141 --> 00:14:51,775
It was just a family pattern
397
00:14:51,777 --> 00:14:53,943
that apparently
I couldn't break.
398
00:14:53,945 --> 00:14:55,111
We need to call dad.
399
00:14:55,113 --> 00:14:56,346
No, please don't call him.
400
00:14:56,348 --> 00:14:57,814
He can fix this.
401
00:14:57,816 --> 00:14:59,949
I know, but he can't fix me.
402
00:14:59,951 --> 00:15:01,951
I'm a monster.
403
00:15:01,953 --> 00:15:04,020
That's not true.
404
00:15:04,022 --> 00:15:06,790
Jenna.
405
00:15:06,792 --> 00:15:10,460
Your dad didn't stay
with me for me.
406
00:15:10,462 --> 00:15:11,828
He stayed for you.
407
00:15:11,830 --> 00:15:15,031
And while I will always
be your mother
408
00:15:15,033 --> 00:15:19,103
and I will always love you,
409
00:15:19,104 --> 00:15:22,972
you have a choice.
410
00:15:22,974 --> 00:15:27,544
You don't have to love me.
411
00:15:27,546 --> 00:15:30,380
Again, my life was full
of unexpected choices.
412
00:15:30,382 --> 00:15:34,251
Choices that I didn't
want to make.
413
00:15:34,553 --> 00:15:37,720
You can handle this
with medication.
414
00:15:37,722 --> 00:15:39,889
I don't want
to take medication.
415
00:15:39,891 --> 00:15:42,559
I want to wring Ricky's neck.
416
00:15:42,561 --> 00:15:43,860
And you should.
417
00:15:43,862 --> 00:15:45,728
A real man
would have disclosed.
418
00:15:45,730 --> 00:15:46,930
He's branded you for life.
419
00:15:46,932 --> 00:15:48,297
So should I break up with him?
420
00:15:48,299 --> 00:15:49,498
I don't know.
421
00:15:49,500 --> 00:15:51,701
Who else is gonna want you now?
422
00:15:51,703 --> 00:15:54,871
Actually, a lot of guys.
423
00:15:54,873 --> 00:15:56,573
According to the commercials,
424
00:15:56,575 --> 00:15:57,974
one out of every four.
425
00:15:57,976 --> 00:15:59,809
[Phone rings]
426
00:15:59,811 --> 00:16:01,377
It's my doctor.
427
00:16:01,379 --> 00:16:03,000
I'm too nervous.
Answer it.
428
00:16:03,832 --> 00:16:04,955
Hi.
429
00:16:06,824 --> 00:16:07,889
Yes, this is Sadie.
430
00:16:10,869 --> 00:16:12,071
It's not herpes.
431
00:16:13,138 --> 00:16:14,605
- So it's nothing.
- I told you so.
432
00:16:16,422 --> 00:16:20,117
I was just about to break up
with Ricky thanks to you...
433
00:16:20,731 --> 00:16:24,343
I'm gonna go
before I wring your neck.
434
00:16:26,604 --> 00:16:28,204
Dropped a new word today.
435
00:16:28,206 --> 00:16:31,207
"Adora-whore-able."
436
00:16:31,209 --> 00:16:32,675
Adora-whore-able?
What's it mean?
437
00:16:32,677 --> 00:16:34,077
Slutty yet sweet.
438
00:16:34,079 --> 00:16:35,344
You've heard it?
439
00:16:35,346 --> 00:16:36,779
Unfortunately.
440
00:16:36,781 --> 00:16:38,648
Amanda Shillingford
said it in reference to me
441
00:16:38,650 --> 00:16:40,149
on my way out of Geometry.
442
00:16:40,151 --> 00:16:43,019
God, I'm so on fire!
I'm trendsetting.
443
00:16:43,021 --> 00:16:45,254
And I'm trending
in two categories,
444
00:16:45,256 --> 00:16:47,757
hashtag Jenna-pick-Jake
and Jenna-pick-Matty.
445
00:16:47,759 --> 00:16:49,291
Why can't everyone
just mind their own business?
446
00:16:49,293 --> 00:16:50,827
You need to breathe.
447
00:16:50,829 --> 00:16:54,130
And then tell us,
who's it gonna be?
448
00:16:54,132 --> 00:16:56,733
- Is it Matty or me?
- No pressure or anything.
449
00:16:56,735 --> 00:16:58,200
I appreciate that.
450
00:16:58,202 --> 00:16:59,636
But we need to know.
451
00:16:59,638 --> 00:17:03,039
And so did everyone else.
452
00:17:03,041 --> 00:17:05,008
I just-- I can't think
like this.
453
00:17:05,010 --> 00:17:07,543
Then don't.
We'll do it for you.
454
00:17:07,545 --> 00:17:09,245
I can vouch for Matty.
455
00:17:09,247 --> 00:17:11,748
He's a good-looking guy
with a great head of hair
456
00:17:11,750 --> 00:17:13,415
and a really big heart.
457
00:17:13,417 --> 00:17:14,784
Wow.
That means a lot, man.
458
00:17:14,786 --> 00:17:16,452
And see, it's that kind
of thoughtfulness
459
00:17:16,454 --> 00:17:18,220
that makes Jake
the better contender.
460
00:17:18,222 --> 00:17:20,322
He's about the best kind
of friend to have around
461
00:17:20,324 --> 00:17:21,991
when the going gets tough.
462
00:17:21,993 --> 00:17:24,093
Well, you're no slouch
in that department either, man.
463
00:17:24,095 --> 00:17:25,662
I don't know, what would
I have done without you
464
00:17:25,664 --> 00:17:27,563
when my brother
went to rehab last year?
465
00:17:27,565 --> 00:17:29,032
And when my mom
had that cancer scare,
466
00:17:29,034 --> 00:17:30,399
you were right by my side.
467
00:17:30,401 --> 00:17:31,968
And I'll be there again.
468
00:17:33,804 --> 00:17:36,305
So?
469
00:17:36,307 --> 00:17:39,308
I've made a decision.
470
00:17:39,310 --> 00:17:40,609
You should date each other.
471
00:17:40,611 --> 00:17:42,712
[Onlookers gasp]
472
00:17:53,024 --> 00:17:54,690
Is mom coming to dinner?
473
00:17:54,692 --> 00:17:56,426
She went to bed.
474
00:17:56,428 --> 00:17:57,894
It's 6:00.
475
00:17:57,896 --> 00:17:59,496
She's had a rough
couple of days,
476
00:17:59,498 --> 00:18:02,298
and she's gonna get through it.
477
00:18:02,300 --> 00:18:04,634
With you?
478
00:18:04,636 --> 00:18:07,037
I'm not going anywhere.
479
00:18:12,076 --> 00:18:15,811
Did you only
stay with mom for me?
480
00:18:15,813 --> 00:18:17,680
Your mom tell you that?
481
00:18:17,682 --> 00:18:20,716
Yeah.
482
00:18:20,718 --> 00:18:23,420
Uh, when we were younger,
483
00:18:23,422 --> 00:18:26,722
I did and said
a lot of awful things to her,
484
00:18:26,724 --> 00:18:32,662
things she's forgiven
but clearly hasn't forgotten.
485
00:18:32,664 --> 00:18:35,631
I-- I wasn't always
the best guy.
486
00:18:37,668 --> 00:18:39,069
Let's be real,
487
00:18:39,071 --> 00:18:41,171
she hasn't always
been the best either.
488
00:18:41,173 --> 00:18:42,305
No, I know.
489
00:18:42,307 --> 00:18:44,307
But you've got
to cut her some slack.
490
00:18:44,309 --> 00:18:47,777
Because what you don't know
is that I wasn't always around
491
00:18:47,779 --> 00:18:50,080
as much as I should have been.
492
00:18:50,082 --> 00:18:52,348
And when I was,
493
00:18:52,350 --> 00:18:54,384
you didn't want me to hold you.
494
00:18:54,386 --> 00:18:55,851
That's not true.
495
00:18:55,853 --> 00:18:57,787
You were the only one
who could put me to sleep.
496
00:18:57,789 --> 00:18:59,389
With your mom's song.
497
00:18:59,391 --> 00:19:02,058
Singing that lullaby
498
00:19:02,060 --> 00:19:05,661
was the only way
to get you to calm down.
499
00:19:05,663 --> 00:19:08,998
So your mom taught it to me.
500
00:19:09,000 --> 00:19:11,367
She wanted me to be your hero.
501
00:19:11,369 --> 00:19:13,636
You are my hero, dad.
502
00:19:13,638 --> 00:19:16,939
And your mom is mine.
503
00:19:22,613 --> 00:19:24,847
In an unexpected
turn of events,
504
00:19:24,849 --> 00:19:27,683
I was neither
a winner nor a loser.
505
00:19:27,685 --> 00:19:29,352
I was a chooser.
506
00:19:29,354 --> 00:19:30,520
But someone had to win.
507
00:19:30,522 --> 00:19:31,988
Someone had to lose.
508
00:19:31,990 --> 00:19:33,823
And I was still left to choose.
509
00:19:33,825 --> 00:19:35,391
It was a big decision
510
00:19:35,393 --> 00:19:37,527
and not an easy one to make.
511
00:19:37,529 --> 00:19:38,694
[Computer beeps]
512
00:19:44,568 --> 00:19:47,270
So I had chosen...
513
00:19:49,640 --> 00:19:52,275
my mom.
514
00:19:55,179 --> 00:20:00,517
Â♪ Special wonderful surprise Â♪
515
00:20:00,519 --> 00:20:03,486
Â♪ rest your eyes Â♪
516
00:20:03,488 --> 00:20:06,756
Â♪ rest your eyes Â♪
517
00:20:06,758 --> 00:20:12,328
Â♪ what a blessing
you will make Â♪
518
00:20:12,330 --> 00:20:14,930
Both: Â♪ when you wake Â♪
519
00:20:14,932 --> 00:20:18,000
Â♪ when you wake Â♪
520
00:20:18,002 --> 00:20:23,439
Â♪ strong and beautiful
you'll be Â♪
521
00:20:23,441 --> 00:20:26,409
Â♪ next to me Â♪
522
00:20:26,411 --> 00:20:30,079
Â♪ next to me Â♪
523
00:20:30,659 --> 00:20:31,945
Next on Awkward...
524
00:20:32,091 --> 00:20:34,150
"If you had to do-over,
how would you handle it?"
525
00:20:34,152 --> 00:20:36,018
A do-over-- It was
an interesting concept.
526
00:20:36,020 --> 00:20:37,420
I was afraid
you weren't gonna show.
527
00:20:37,422 --> 00:20:39,556
Wait.
528
00:20:39,558 --> 00:20:41,224
"Enough about Matty.
I'm pro-Jake."
529
00:20:41,226 --> 00:20:42,792
So I'll break it off
with Matty,
530
00:20:42,794 --> 00:20:44,126
you get rid of Lissa,
and we can be together.
531
00:20:44,128 --> 00:20:45,461
Cool.
532
00:20:45,463 --> 00:20:47,029
I didn't have to choose
between Matty or Jake,
533
00:20:47,031 --> 00:20:48,198
but I wanted to.
534
00:20:48,200 --> 00:20:52,000
And I finally knew
who it would be with.