Previously on "Felicity",
- Julie doesn't have a boyfriend. - Is Ben invisible to you?.
I invited Ben to the party.
He said you had already asked him.
We are just friends.
So, you like Ben, too?.
It's complicated. I think Ben likes me.
God, wow!
Really?.
Yeah.
So, we'll take a rain check on that dance.
Which is OK.
Dear Sally, I've never been more confused in my life,
Something has happened, something I don't even know how to talk about,
Noel and I were hanging out one night,
I've told you a million times,
he was pretty much the most comforting part of being in New York,
Don't look at my page.
I felt I could go to him with anything
and that he could come to me,
We had an understanding,
Now you're cheating.
I'm not. I'm finished writing now.
You go first.
These are the words from the non-cheater.
- Street. - Got it.
- Take. - Yep.
Taker.
Excellent. Clue.
Stake.
Crete. Which I know is a proper noun. I just...
Hick.
And hickey.
OK, wait, Hold on,
I got to back up here.
I think that Ben and I have been getting closer.
Which, granted, isn't saying much.
How's it going?.
- I hate these things. - What?.
Did you get a pre-approved credit card?.
Yeah. I got the same thing.
They charge 50 percent interest.
Yeah, I know. I think they target college students.
Yeah. I'm tempted to just take it and use it.
What would you buy?.
I don't know.
So, are you going to dinner now?. Cafeteria?.
I'm not eating. I gotta go train. I got tryouts on Friday.
For the track team.
Yeah. When you won the regionals last year?.
The 800-metre?. That was really great.
Thank you.
I was there. So, anyway, good luck.
Like you need it.
No, I do. I need it.
But, I'll see you in class.
Yeah, I know what I'd buy.
Running shoes.
I'd buy a couple of really good pairs.
Julie and I are at an impasse, which I'm sure will be fine,
I just don't know how exactly,
Hi.
Do you want to borrow a dryer sheet?.
No, thanks. I use softener.
OK.
You really can't beat dryer sheets for static cling.
God, I was such a jerk. Obviously. I mean...
I accused you of lying
when you were being the best friend I could hope for.
I am... I'm sorry. I really am.
OK?.
You kept reminding me I could do whatever I wanted with Ben.
You know?. But I was so busy making sure you weren't going to get hurt
that I sort of lost what I wanted.
Which was what?.
I had a good time with Ben. I really did.
And that's the absolute, really honest truth.
If you want to date Ben, then...
Then I should.
Yeah. I'm going to listen to what you've said from the beginning.
And instead of you prodding me to do something and me not doing it
and just feeling crappy, I'm just gonna do what I want to do.
Damn it! Some jerk put food colouring in the washing machine
or dye or something.
That is so... God!
- Have you washed this before?. - I've never washed anything before.
As a general rule, you might not want to wash whites with colours.
They should say on the box.
They actually do.
Thanks.
- I feel much better. - Me, too.
Everything's pink
Today's lab will demonstrate
quantitative relations in chemical reactions.
How many molecules of substance A
react with how many molecules of substance B
to get how many molecules of product C?.
Select a lab partner.
Make it someone you don't despise too much, OK?.
Trust me. Let's pair up. Get started.
No, I don't.
Does anyone want to pair with me?.
Alright.
So, you went to private school, right?.
What?. No. Why?.
But you're good at this stuff?. Properties of matter?. Atomic theory?.
Determination of molecular weight?.
You're asking if I am going to drag down your grade?.
Yeah.
You'll be relieved to know I got A's in AP chemistry.
You can't get mad because I asked you that.
- I'm not mad. - You're a little pissed.
- You're just... - Straightforward.
- I have questions. I ask them. - Apparently.
Are you sleeping with our resident advisor?.
- What?. - Noel, the RA.
You are unbelievable.
Look, say it's none of my business.
It's obviously none of your business.
- Fine. - And I'm not sleeping with him.
- He's cute. - Who?.
The guy you are not sleeping with.
Really?. What do you mean?.
White guys don't usually do it for me.
But Noel does?. He does it for you?.
I didn't see it at first. But that day I signed up for the lottery,
Noel took my sign-up sheet.
And I found myself wondering if he had a girlfriend.
I know I'm jumping around. But this is important.
There's a used dorm-room refrigerator programme.
Whoever wants one signs up, It's a lottery system,
And Noel was in charge,
I guess he looked cute that day, I don't remember,
Elena might have thought something was going on.
But I swear there was nothing.
And you know why there was nothing?. Because Noel and I are friends.
New, really good friends.
Which brings me back to where I started,
I mean, all we were doing was sitting there playing Boggle,
Hick.
And hickey.
- Wait. - What?.
I'm just...
- I'm just gonna... - Yeah.
Oh, my God. I'm leaving.
I should...
I don't care what you do.
- I'm leaving. - I'll call.
- The letters. - I'll get them.
Alright. OK.
I think it's premium.
- What?. - You having a forbidden affair.
I'm not having a forbidden affair.
I had you pegged for this uptight, no-fun
follow-the-rules kiss-ass bore.
That's much closer to my personality.
You and the RA.
You just went up,like, a notch.
Sally, you know me, I don't get confused easily,
Well, that's not true. But nothing compares to this. Nothing.
I'm so screwed up, I don't know what I'm feeling.
I'm just on edge.
- Who is it?. - Frigerator.
Are you Feticiry Porter?.
Felicity?. Yeah.
- Is that for me?. - That's why I'm here.
- Where do you want it?. - Over there, I guess.
I've never had one before. My own fridge.
Yeah. It's a sort of symbol of independence,
owning a frigerator.
Being able to make the call. What gets cold. What doesn't.
You got a fridge.
- Yeah. Did you?. - No.
You might get picked. I'm sure there are others.
No. That's the last frigerator. Congratulations.
- I'll see you in class. - Yeah.
Anyway, I've thought this whole Noel thing through,
Extensively,
I believe the most mature way to handle it for the moment...
...is to avoid Noel at all costs for as long as possible,
Excuse me.
Which is actually a really sad feeling,
Avoiding someone who might be your best friend,
The third point is what I wanted to talk to you about.
How's it going?.
- Have you tried bleach?. - Yeah, twice.
I mean... Pink, it's fine.
It was my whole wardrobe, too.
People refer to me as the pink guy.
- No. - Yeah.
Even my jeans, you know?.
- My favourite pair. - Really?.
Yeah. They've got this pink glow.
At least now you know. For the future.
I'll never forget you, if only because of that.
Where are you sitting?.
- Hi. - Hello.
We gotta talk.
Exactly. I'm a big believer in dealing with issues.
OK. When?.
Usually immediately the issue occurs.
- I mean, when can we talk?. - Shortly. For sure.
OK. Tonight?.
Tonight?. I have this chemistry lab.
So, maybe after?.
- After the lab?. Interesting. - Is that...
- What's tomorrow?. - Wednesday.
Because today's Tuesday.
- Is Wednesday better?. - I'll check.
And then I'll know.
- And then you'll come and tell me?. - Right. That's the process.
I will check and then come tell you. And then, we can talk.
Just for the record, you've never been weirder.
I know.
It's really competitive. The film school.
But I get to use the 16mm equipment
and hang around some pretentious people,
which apparently builds character.
- Are you showing it to people?. - My movie?. No.
It's a work in progress.
You've seen my underwear, so...
- It's pink. - Right.
And that is already pretty personal.
The track was on my way home, I just dropped by,
I didn't know if he'd be there, practising for his tryouts,
I remember in high school watching Ben run
and wondering how he ever learnt to run like that,
Come in.
Have you seen Felicity?.
She's probably in Noel's room, getting some.
Getting some what?.
- A little RA ass or whatever. - What?.
She's doing the RA.
Felicity?.
I know. I didn't think she had it in here either.
- So, how's that fridge?. - What?.
Your new fridge. Are you enjoying your new fridge?.
- Yeah. It's fine. - Good.
Is it cold, inside, deep down,
your new fridge you just happened to get?.
- What's your obsession with it?. - I don't care about the damn fridge.
We seem to be talking about it a lot.
- It's how you got the thing. - What?.
I signed up for the fridge by the book.
I filled out an application and handed it in.
So did I.
Are you really this upset they picked my name and not yours?.
It's just another example, that's all.
Of what?. A refrigerator lottery?.
- You don't think he's attractive. - The delivery man?.
I know about you and the resident advisor.
Don't deny it. You went whiter than usual.
Who told you that?.
That Halloween costume you live with.
Want to know why I'm upset?.
If a procedure as benign as a fridge lottery
is susceptible to sexual conspiracy, what does it say about the system?.
I'm dating Noel to get an appliance?.
You are dating Noel and getting an appliance.
We need to talk.
I came to you and said the same thing and you were a cyborg.
- Could we...?. - Yeah.
People are saying things about us.
- People are?. Like what?. - That we're dating.
And how do you feel about that?.
I just... I think we need to figure out what's going on here.
I agree. That's why I made dinner reservations for tomorrow night.
Eight o'clock.
- What?. - You and me.
We're going out. We're gonna talk.
Like, you mean, like a date?.
Let's just call it what it is. A dinner reservation.
We'll have a discussion in the restaurant
and determine why we're there.
Tomorrow night at eight. No options.
- No options?. - Well, unless you can't make it.
No, OK. You made the reservations. So let's do it.
OK.
Tomorrow night.
OK.
And so tomorrow night, at eight o'clock,
Noel and I have a maybe date,
Where Louie said it would be,
It's amazing what five bucks will buy you in this town,
We waited until they left and used the key we found on the body,
I had Sal check out the back, He said she was there,
I could only think one thing,
If she was dead, she'd never speak of the horror I'd committed,
And if she were alive, she wouldn't be for long,
That's was great.
- Come on. - Seriously.
I loved the writing and the angles.
So, do you have any ideas, any thoughts to make it better?.
- Not really. - Come on.
- Please. - I do not know a thing about movies.
As a movie-goer, you know more than you think. Go ahead.
What was that squiggly line at the end?.
That's a...
It's where I'll have an optical effect. Like a fade-out.
That's going to be a fade-out.
I feel so stupid.
No, that's great. What else?.
I didn't understand how Donny died.
Really?.
You saw that he had a gun and they were fighting.
But then the next shot, Frederick's driving the car.
And I never saw him die. It's confusing.
It was also disorienting when those guys were at the table talking.
What do you mean?.
Well, they looked like they were looking in the same direction
and not at each other.
That's a technique. You can either cross the line or not.
It was confusing. It looked like they were looking at the wall.
And what was that black thing in the dinner scene?.
That was a microphone.
I only have this room for three hours. I should get back to work.
- I thought it was really good. - Thanks.
- I'm sorry. I didn't... - Thanks for the popcorn.
- Are these yours?. - Yeah.
They were in my refrigerator.
I haven't done that since I was a kid. It feels so good.
Cold underwear in the morning.
Could you do me a favour and not put your underwear in my fridge?.
They're not dirty.
- And also, where's my apple?. - I ate it.
I thought we had an agreement. Give and take.
You thought we had an agreement?.
We've never even had a real conversation before.
I replaced your stupid apple.
With a tub of I Can't Believe It's Not Butter?.
It tastes like butter.
That's not the point. Fake butter doesn't equal an apple.
On a bigger note, how could you tell Elena about Noel?.
Damn! I was proud of you. Sorry.
We are not dating. You are spreading false rumours.
Fine. I'll tell you what.
I'll keep my mouth shut and my underwear out of your fridge.
Thank you.
Are you OK?.
I went to see this guy Zack's movie.
The guy from the laundry room?.
- The pink guy?. - Yeah, the pink guy.
What?. Do you have a thing for the pink guy?.
I haven't seen Ben since I saw you.
You don't have to explain that.
I know. I just... You were wondering.
Yeah, I was.
Thanks.
Zack showed me his movie. I criticised it. And he got mad.
I dunno. I guess I shouldn't have done that.
What, give him your opinion?.
I might have been a little harsh.
Are you OK?.
- Noel kissed me. - Yeah. I heard.
- You heard?. - Meghan told me.
- I can't believe her. - I'm glad you told me.
So, what does this mean?.
Well, tonight Noel and I have a maybe date.
- Do you like him?. - I really like him.
But,like, in that best-guy-friend way, you know?.
I can't believe he kissed you.
I know.
Which means I'm going to have to let him down.
And just hope that we can still be friends afterwards.
Yeah. I've always managed to avoid giving that speech.
Really?. How?.
Usually I just date them all.
Until they break up with me.
Which sounds harder, but it's actually a pretty efficient system.
- So, you got my message?. - Which one?.
After tryouts tomorrow, the team is going to the White Horse Tavern.
I thought you might be interested. Are you...
I mean, do you not like me?.
Tell me. I'm running up a phone bill.
It's not because I don't like you.
Or because I didn't have a really great time with you.
You're afraid of having too good a time?. You couldn't handle it?.
We both know where this would go.
We would go out for a few weeks...
- We might like each other. - For a while.
Then it would get ugly or boring and we'd break up.
Then, for the next four years, every time we see each other,
it would be awkward and uncomfortable.
Let's just feel awkward
with the other people we'll date and break up with.
Don't you think?.
Are you at all doing this because of Felicity?.
I think you are a special guy. I want to keep on thinking that.
And that you're not just pursuing me because I don't return your calls.
You know that's not true.
Now I always will.
- What?. - Nothing.
- Would you excuse me for a minute?. - Sure.
- Hello?. - Hi. It's me.
- I'm at the restaurant with Noel. - Are you OK?.
- It's weird, - What?.
He just... He looks really cute tonight.
What?.
Am I crazy?.
Are you drinking?. Not that I don't think he's handsome. I'm just...
No, we haven't had anything.
I'm just a little...
I had to call you.
Take a deep breath.
And just remember you can do whatever you want.
- I can?. - And Noel's a great guy.
He is, isn't he?.
And just have fun tonight,
- OK. Thank you. - You're welcome.
So, when does the actual talking start?.
It can start right now.
OK.
Who first?.
Me.
OK.
I kissed you the other night. You know that.
You were there.
It was something that I've wanted to do for a long time.
Since I met you. And I can't believe that I did it.
Not just because I've wanted to do it for so long.
Or because I was so nervous.
Then why?.
I can't believe I did it because I have a girlfriend.
- What?. - She's in Chicago.
You what?.
I'm in a confused state of mind.
You have a girlfriend and you kissed me?.
It wasn't like a planned attack.
That's... I'm... Are you kidding?.
I'm telling you this cos I want to be honest.
Honest?.
- Do you know what you are?. - Yeah. A philanderer?.
A fake. A manipulative phoney. I thought I could trust you.
But you're just every long-distance girlfriend's worst nightmare.
- What is her name?. - It's Hanna.
Hanna?. Her name is Hanna.
You... You're disgusting!
He's disgusting.
Could you sit down, please?.
I feel sorry for you. And Hanna. And that's the worst part.
This poor girl is in Chicago, oblivious that the man she loves
is out on a maybe date with another woman.
Hold on. I've been a good friend to you.
- Listening. Giving you advice. - Which I can't trust.
Getting you that fridge. Everything I could to make you happy.
Getting me that fridge?.
I made sure you got one. I never wanted a thank you.
I am feeling physically and emotionally revolted.
Goodbye.
- I want you to have this. - What?.
- Take it. It's yours. - I don't want a pity fridge.
It's not a damn pity fridge. I don't use it.
So take it or I give it back for another stupid lottery.
- Yeah?. - Yeah.
You can...
You can use it whenever you want.
- Thank you. - Thank you.
And, yes, he does have a girlfriend. Noel.
- Yeah?. - Yeah.
I'll see you in lab.
It was just like high school,
One time, I watched Ben try out for the track team,
He had to come in first or second to make the team,
That day, in high school I just stood there, quietly watching,
Wanting to cheer him on, But just quietly watching,
Come forward.
He came in first that day, of course,
And here I was, in the exact same situation,
3, 000 miles away,
You didn't say "come in".
Which didn't seem to matter.
Do you know where Felicity is?.
I heard her on the phone. She's going to a track-team thing.
Maybe one of the reasons Ben runs fast
is just that he loves it,
That must be an amazing feeling,
being so good at something you love,
Who is it?.
It's the pink guy. Open up. Please.
I didn't mean to be so reactive.
You were such a grump.
I know. What I didn't tell you
was that I've never shown my movie to anyone before. No one.
There was a lot riding on every word you were saying.
You were still a grump.
I know. But I was thinking about what you said.
About Donny and that scene in the kitchen and Victor.
And I came up with some things which really make it better.
So, if you wouldn't mind watching it again
and telling me what you think?.
I'll do that.
I met Hanna in my senior year of high school. She was a junior.
We've gone out for almost two years.
She's pretty.
I know.
Last year, when I was here,...
.. Hanna was a senior in high school in Boston.
We saw each other on the weekends.
It was almost like I hadn't gone away to college.
She's at Northwestern now. So it's different.
We knew it would be tough.
We said that we could see other people if we wanted.
And that's a hard adjustment.
Hanna, she's my first girlfriend.
Why are you telling me this?.
Because you were right, what you said.
Being out with you like that wasn't fair to her.
And I wanted you to know that even though it didn't look like it,...
.. I do respect Hanna.
I love Hanna.
I kissed you for a million reasons.
But one of them, I'm sure,...
.. is that I miss my girlfriend.
And for that, I'm just really, really sorry.
Hi.
Hi. What's going on?.
I was walking back to the dorm. How about you?.
Nothing. A guy was playing ball with his dog. I was watching that.
It was a little dog.
They left a little while ago.
How's the track team?.
I just...
I just decided I didn't have time for it right now.
- Really?. - Yeah.
I've got to concentrate on class and stuff.
I'm gonna head back to the apartment. I'll see you later.
Yeah.
Dear Felicity,
It's funny, Your crisis with Noel is how John and I got together,
We met at a garage, I was getting my car checked,
He was getting a part for his motorcycle,
We became friends,
A few months later, we were at a restaurant,
To my complete shock,
John leaned across the table and kissed me,
I'm just saying, you can't know who that person is,
the person who will become your ultimate confidant,
Your soul mate or your lover,
He may be someone you've watched for years,
He might be that guy in torn jeans buying some part for his motorcycle,
Whoever he is, he starts of as a stranger,
He could be anyone.
Since John, I think about that quite a bit.