Previously on "Felicity"...
I was just, uh, thinking about Thanksgiving last year.
- It feels like yesterday. - Really?
Yeah.
I think I left my matches in my coat poc...
That was Professor Sherman.
OK. Let's open this up for discussion.
Felicity.
I'm not sure. Maybe the perspective is off?
I can't quite put my finger on it, but something feels wrong.
Oh. There's definitely something wrong here, but it isn't the perspective.
Is it the shading?
Perhaps...
or could it be the fact...
that you are a manipulator and a liar?
- Whoa. - What?
Not to mention a bit of a slut.
- Harsh. - Bruce.
- You didn't deserve that. - I know. Can you believe her?
W-what are you doing?
Why'd you push me away?
I... I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to push you away. I was just...
- Drunk. - Confused.
Because you're still in love with me.
Dear Sally...
So the dreams started Thanksgiving night.
Noel's kiss...
it's just stirring up feelings I guess I've been trying to avoid.
The monday after break, I could barely even look at him.
- Hi. - Hi. How's it going?
Oh, I'm still recovering from my 200-proof hangover.
Totally.
Look. I just wanted to say about, uh, what happened...
- The kiss. - Yeah.
Uh... it was a really stupid drunken
mistake that I totally regret.
I feel guilty about it.
Me, too.
Yeah? OK.
I mean, not to mention the trouble we're in now with Sherman.
She's not gonna hold this against us.
- Of course she will. - No, she won't.
She's not gonna give us a bad grade because of what happened over Thanksgiving.
OK. We're dead.
Dead.
The three weeks since Thanksgiving have been unbelievably frustrating...
and not just because of finals.
Even though I decided against being in a serious relationship...
my unconscious mind just wouldn't cooperate.
It wouldn't let go of Noel.
Noel...
That kiss... that kiss has not only screwed up my sleep patterns...
it's put a giant curse on our art class.
Felicity?
Sorry.
Pay attention, please.
So we should all be getting our final projects ready.
I want you to do two portraits of yourself.
One as you see yourself and one as you
think the outside world perceives you.
Then pair off with a partner...
and you'll be doing each other's portraits.
I expect to see at least five of the techniques
that we have worked with this past semester.
Choose a face that you like.
You're gonna be spending a lot of time looking at it.
If you want to use color. That's fine.
Just don't get fancy. Keep it simple.
You may want to use a mirror for the self-portraits.
So let's get your materials together, go for it...
I really want to do this with you.
Yeah?
Well, I mean, unless...
No. I want to. Of course.
Good. OK.
- Hi. - Hi.
Noel and I are going to be partners.
That's OK, right?
Yes, of course.
Good, um...
and we just wanted to let you know...
that what happened at Thanksgiving, um...
What you saw had nothing to do with David.
That's true.
It was your punch that did it.
I'm just leaving.
Do you have a class-related question?
I really admire you as a teacher.
Obviously, I've learned so much from you this semester, and...
I just wanted to make sure that what happened...
isn't going to affect our teacher/student relationship.
I'm going to pretend you didn't just ask me that.
OK.
I'll see you on Thursday.
Oh. My God. That's just fantastic!
I... no. Yes. I can bring samples over tomorrow afternoon.
Uh... absolutely.
Yes, sir.
As much as you'd like. What...
OK.
Yes!
What?
I don't believe this.
What... what... what happened?
OK, um, you know how...
how I was giving away Smoothaise samples on Thanksgiving?
Yes.
Well, apparently, there's this investor guy... and he, uh, totally flipped out.
Total Smoothaise fanatic...
and he wants to distribute it to restaurant chains.
Oh, my God.
- That's amazing! - Isn't that great?
- Congratulations! - Thank you.
You know, I'm gonna buy you a drink tonight at Epstein Bar.
Oh, you're playing?
Yes, I'm playing.
Wow! That's great.
You absolutely have to come...
because I sent out, like, a million flyers...
and there might be music people there.
Oh, music people.
- Hey. - Hey.
What's wrong?
Nothing!
My American Lit final's due in 48 hours and I haven't
even started yet. That's why I slammed the door.
That's why I'm gonna go slam it again.
OK.
I thought with time the dreams would stop...
but they haven't.
In fact, they've just gotten more intense.
I've missed you so much.
I had her first.
You can never take that away from me no matter how much you love her.
I'm the one who really taught her how to make love.
I'm her soul mate.
No. I am.
Lucky?
Je m'appelle Chance.
What are you doing here?
I am a metaphor for your sexual
ambivalence and confusion.
You OK?
Yeah. Yeah. I was, um...
I was just... thinking about this dream I had.
It's nothing.
No. Tell me. I want to know what you were dreaming.
No. It doesn't even make sense at all.
I don't even remember the details.
It's just stupid.
I'm dreading doing this self-portrait, sitting in
front of a mirror, studying every pore of my face.
Yuck.
Oh, I'm gonna have to disagree on that one.
I mean, drawing you is...
Well, "yuck" is not the word I'd use to describe it.
How's, uh... how's Ruby?
Still in L.A. She'll be back in a couple of weeks, but she's, uh...
totally unimpressed with the whole Hollywood scene.
You must miss her.
Yeah.
I was pretty sure I was making something out of nothing...
that Noel wasn't really sending out signals. I was just imagining them.
But then something happened.
Late Wednesday night, mid-final sketch...
we took a TV break.
I guess we were both exhausted because we passed out.
When woke up
I could feel his breath against my neck...
and Noel had his arm around me.
So what happened when you woke up?
Nothing. I got up first, and
he didn't say anything about it.
I don't know if he did it on purpose. We just went back to drawing.
What happened to "I don't want to date anyone right now"?
I know, but...
when I said it to David, I meant it.
Last year, I had a chance to be with Noel...
and if I have the chance again...
I just...
I don't want to make the same mistake again.
I mean, unless this is all wishful thinking anyway.
Are... are Ruby and Noel...
you know, are they serious?
I think he likes her.
I mean, I don't know. I mean...
you guys have a history. It's a whole different thing.
Plus, she's been out of town for weeks.
- What does that mean? - I mean, how serious can it be?
Do you think I should tell him about the dreams?
You two have been dancing around this long enough.
You might as well.
I couldn't take it anymore.
My dreams, our nap... all these things were
adding up to some pretty unmistakable conclusions.
I had to confront Noel and I just have to live with the consequences.
Hi.
Ruby.
- It's so good to see you. - Uh, yeah.
They rearranged my shooting schedule so I could come back for my Econ final.
Come on in. Noel's in the shower.
I...
I'm thirsty. Aren't you?
No.
OK. I'm just, uh... Portrait break.
Good. I'm getting carpal tunnel.
Can you believe it's already Christmas?
I mean, I swear that time's going faster than it used to.
I know. What happened to fall?
It's like it skipped and went directly from summer to winter.
What's this, Christmas shopping? How non-procrastinating of you.
- Or is this Elena's? - No. It's mine.
Oh, wow. Which teacher are you trying to butter up?
Actually, that's maybe for Ruby.
Maybe.
Yeah. I'm not sure. I can't decide what the hell to do.
No. I'm sure she'll love it.
I don't know. Hey. Uh...
is this better?
Uh... that's really pretty.
Or... this.
Too much?
No.
It's too much, isn't it?
But is the Palm Pilot too impersonal?
Because she's always complaining about being disorganized...
and my brother got one and said it completely changed his life...
and that made me want one.
So I just... What do you think?
Noel, I...
You can say anything you want. They're all returnable.
I can't tell you what to give Ruby.
No. I just want your opinion.
I think they're all really good.
OK. Well, just tell me which one you would want.
What? What's going on?
I could probably tell you what to give Ruby...
if I didn't have a personal interest at stake.
I want to go out with you again.
I don't even know how serious you and Ruby are...
or even if you'd be interested in dating me if you weren't dating anyone else.
Oh, my God.
I'm reeling. I'm physically reeling.
I know. This was, like, a bombshell.
I don't... I...
I can't really feel my legs.
This is bad timing, what you're saying.
Yeah.
I saw this guy on the news when I was a kid...
a stunt guy...
and he was. Uh... he was on a motorcycle...
and he was doing this insane jump...
over, like, 60 school buses or something ridiculous, you know?
And he tried it, and he missed.
He broke, like, 80% of the bones
of his body on the roof of bus 59...
and I remember they interviewed him from the hospital.
He had bandages and gauze all over him.
He looked up, and you could only see his eyes...
and they asked him if he was gonna try it again and he said, "No."
And they said, "Why not?"
And he said, "Because I really missed the first time."
You just said the perfect thing...
and... thank you for being honest back.
Now I feel weird.
It's like reverse reeling.
No. Don't. We should both feel really good.
We just... got it out there.
We certainly did.
Now we can just move on.
Give her the bracelet.
You think?
It's what I'd want.
♪ I know by now ♪
♪ Better be this time ♪
♪ Give me love. Give me life ♪
♪ I've been traveling for so long ♪
♪ Overdrive. Hundred miles ♪
♪ I deserve a little bit of this life ♪
♪ A little smile ♪
♪ I deserve a little bit of you ♪
- Good job, Julie. - Thanks.
Hey.
Hi.
I found your flyer in my in-box, and I decided on a whim...
to come check out your show, and I'm really glad I did.
That was a great set.
- Thank you. Thanks. - Welcome. I'm Eric Kidd.
Julie Emrick.
- Oh, you know that. You got the flyer. - Yes.
I'm head of A&R at Pop Rocks Records.
- I don't... - Yeah. Well, we're growing.
You know, we have a lot of great acts and we're really into developing new talent.
So I was wondering, have you made any recordings?
Me?
- Yeah. - No.
Well, I've made a couple of really cheesy tapes for myself.
I borrowed a 4-track from my friend.
There was, like, a dog barking in the background, but...
I would love to hear it, canine backup and all.
Maybe I could pass it along to my partners.
Are you kidding?
No. I'm dead serious. Really.
Look. Can I buy you a drink or something?
Oh, God. I would love to but I'm in the middle of
finals right now and I should not even be here, so...
- Hey! - OK.
You were amazing.
- Thank you. - Amazing.
Sean, this is Eric. Eric, this is Sean.
Be really nice because he's from a record company.
- Nice to meet you. - Yeah. You, too.
Well, look, why don't you give me a call?
I would love to hear those tapes. Really.
- Here's my card. - OK. Thanks.
No problem. It was nice meeting you.
- Thanks for coming. - Nice to meet you.
Yeah.
Oh, my God. Pop Rocks.
- What's up? - Noel's the greatest.
Um, Gwen, this is Felicity, my old lab partner.
Felicity, this is Gwen, your replacement.
It's nice to meet you.
Gwen, why don't you continue with the assignment and I'll be just a sec.
I'll go get...
- The beaker. - The beaker.
She's the, uh, slow talker?
She's not the fast talker.
What's wrong?
Noel just dumped me.
Since when were you dating?
I, uh...
told him I wanted to see him again...
and he said no.
He likes Ruby.
Oh, honey, I'm sorry.
No, no, don't be.
I told him how I felt, and he made a choice.
It's weird. I, uh...
I guess I should be miserable or something but...
I really respect his decision.
That only makes you want him more.
Damn right.
It sucks how that happens.
Yeah.
Merry Christmas.
Oh, my God. What is this?
Open it.
I didn't get you anything yet.
- That's OK. - OK.
A Palm Pilot. I totally need one of these.
Yeah?
I'm so disorganized.
Or unorganized?
Whichever one's right.
You sure you like it? Because I have the receipt.
- We can return it. - No. I love it.
Yeah, here, let's return it.
Noel, stop. This is perfect.
Really?
Really.
You're the sweetest.
- Good. I'm glad you like it. - Wow.
OK. Please, now hook it up.
Hook it up? Oh, that was nice.
- Hey. - Hello.
- You look great. - Thanks.
Any special occasion?
No. I was just dropping off my tape... to that record guy.
- Who, Eric? - Mm-hmm.
How'd that go?
He seems really interested.
Well, that's great. You want a sandwich or something?
No. Actually, I just had lunch with him in his office.
He ordered a pizza.
Really?
Oh, God, I am so excited.
OK. He's thinking about doing this thing called a demo deal...
where they pay to have, like, three or four songs recorded...
and then if they like what they hear...
they may actually sign me.
But you didn't sign anything with him yet, did you?
- No. Why? - I don't know. I just kind of got a bad feeling from him.
- What? Yeah. I mean, to be honest, he just seemed like he was a
little more interested in hitting on you than helping your career.
- What are you talking about? - I'm just telling you what I saw.
I don't believe you. I'm standing here telling you something that just happened
to me, and all you can talk about is how you think that he was hitting on me?
OK. I'm sorry. Maybe I'm wrong.
You know. When you told me about your stupid
Smoothaise investor I was just happy for you.
Wait a minute. Stupid Smoothaise investor?
He's got two partners. They own a record company.
- The guy is legit. - The guy is a little slimy, OK?
You don't even know him.
I don't need to know him. I met him.
You think just because I am a girl that he's trying to scam on me...
and I don't have any business sense whatsoever.
BEN. OK. OK. OK.
I'm staring at a blank computer screen panicked,
trying to write a paper on a topic I don't understand.
So, please, shut up.
That's fine because I'm leaving.
No. Julie. Come on.
I hope what I said earlier didn't freak you out.
No. No, no, no.
It's, uh...
it was the nicest thing you've ever said to me.
OK.
So did you end up giving Ruby the bracelet?
Actually, I gave her the Palm Pilot.
Really?
How did she take it?
- Seemed to like it. - Good.
- All right. You're too hard. - Let me see it.
No. I made you look like a really cute tomato.
I think I finally got your eyes right.
- Hey, can I try something? - What?
Bruce, that guy from class...
Yeah. You know, he was in a dream I had recently.
Disturbing. Wow.
Uh, anyway, he was telling me about this technique...
where, before you draw,
you get close and stare deeply into the other person's eyes, like, nonstop.
The eyes being the window to the soul, that kind of thing?
Yeah. You know, sort of like looking for the inner essence of your subject.
He says he does it when he gets blocked and I thought he was hitting on me at first...
but then I met his girlfriend and realized...
that it's an actual artistic exercise, so...
- do you mind? - No.
OK. Uh, well, why don't you come over here...
and we'll stare?
MAN. * It must be true *
♪ It must be true ♪
♪ We belong to us ♪
♪ And I belong to you ♪
♪ Oh. We belong to... ♪
What?
You two were about to kiss, that's what.
- Elena. - It's OK. Go ahead and get it over with.
- We were not about to kiss. - It's all right with me.
It doesn't have to be Thanksgiving.
Last night's dream was the most unsettling so far.
Oh, no.
I really wanted that bracelet.
Me, too.
You, too?
Interesting.
So, was this your idea?
Sally. You know that feeling when you're driving somewhere...
and you can't remember exactly how you got there?
Well. I just took my French Lit final...
and I have no idea what the question was.
Hey, Roger Clemens, what's your problem?
Nothing.
You know. I know what that's like when you just want
to throw a Hi-Lite across the room. That makes sense.
American Literature.
- Things You Learn In College. - No. It's my final paper.
- It's impossible. - No, no. Final papers are a hassle, OK?
Paying for life is impossible.
I swear to God. If I could switch places with you, I almost would.
No, thanks. What, you got money trouble?
No. Nothing. It's just R&D's very expensive. OK?
But when Smoothaise hits, which I know it will...
no question about it I'm gonna look back on this
period of my life and I'm gonna laugh about it.
I'm already looking at this period of life and laughing.
What's your paper?
It's The Invisible Man.
What? "Examine the theme that American society
willfully ignores and oppresses African-Americans."
Yeah. In 5,000 words.
See, all I can think about is that when this guy makes
himself invisible it's like some sort of a metaphor.
- You know what I mean? - Metaphor. - Yeah.
This guy comes in to Sidderbridge and he's all dressed up in bandages...
and everybody's, like, "Hey, what a freak."
- H.G. Wells. - Yeah.
So I'm thinking that that's what it's like for some people...
but I have no idea. I feel like a total idiot.
- I think you are an idiot... - Thanks.
But not for the reason that you're thinking.
- Sean, come on, that's not funny. - Oh, no, it's not funny.
See, you're supposed to be reading...
Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison.
There's another Invisible Man?
Two books with the same name, Sean?
That is so stupid.
No. That's a metaphor, Ben.
Shut up!
You know what? I shouldn't have told you.
I cannot believe I read the wrong freaking book.
Just so you know...
Eric Kidd gave my tape to his partners...
- and they loved it. - Who's Eric Kidd?
Oh. Just the guy who wants to get in my pants.
What, so they're signing you? That's great.
I know. Eric still has to hear from one guy...
but once he does, he's gonna draw up a contract.
Well, congratulations.
Thank you. Where are you going?
- Bookstore. - Bookstore.
I'm sorry. I, um...
I was just being a little overprotective.
I get to record my songs.
I know. How much fun is that gonna be?
Hey, if you need anybody to play the oboe...
High-school band.
I didn't mean to be so...
No. Hey, forget it. Come on.
That was...
The Smoothaise investor, OK, wasn't actually the investor.
He was a liaison, or a secretary, it turns out, so...
Yeah. It totally fell apart...
which is actually, you know, a good thing...
because the guy was talking to me about signing
over all the rights and I never would have done that.
- Yeah, of course you wouldn't. - No.
I'm sorry.
Yeah, well, whatever.
Congratulations, though. Seriously.
Thank you.
I'm gonna go call my parents.
- Sorry. - No. That's, uh... Hi.
I wasn't just staring at myself. I'm actually doing a self-portrait for class.
Oh, I know. Noel told me about the assignment.
Do you have a second?
Yeah. Yeah, of course. Come in.
I'm sort of having a stupid crisis.
Is it about finals?
No. It's about Noel.
I wasn't even gonna ask you, because you dated him...
but then I realized that's why I should ask you.
All this does is show how lame I am with guys.
You know I'm doing that movie, right?
Right, which is great.
I guess it is.
It just seems sort of like it's not me, but...
So they're giving me this thing called per diem, which is money.
It's, like, free money, on top of what they're already paying me...
so I'm thinking of getting Noel a ticket.
What kind? A plane ti...
Yeah. To come back with me to Los Angeles.
The movie said they needed me for two more weeks...
which is insane since all I do is sit around.
Why I'm asking you is because
it seems a little extravagant.
Would it freak him out?
I don't know. I...
I don't think it would.
So if you were me. You'd give it to him?
If I were you...
yeah. I mean, you know, but don't really take my advice.
- I mean, I don't... - Oh, no, I'm gonna.
Were you going to kiss me or not?
Because it certainly seems like you were.
- Last night? - Noel!
Yes. I almost kissed you, all right?
Well, what about Ruby?
I know. God!
You throw this insane curve ball at me, you know?
You want to start dating again? Could you have chosen a worse time?
I didn't choose this time, and I only told you
because I thought you were sending me signals.
Well, maybe I was.
OK. Wait a second. Two things. First of all...
that is not fair to Ruby, and secondly...
then what are you saying?
I'm saying I'm a mess right now.
Ruby and I are just starting out. She's
been gone longer than we've been together.
Obviously, she doesn't mean more to me now than you do. She can't.
On the other hand I didn't just throw out that motorcycle story cavalierly.
You know, I'd actually thought about that and on the other hand, I think I'm...
I think I'm willing to risk it again and trust us...
you again.
Really?
- So if Elena hadn't walked in? - Yes. Yes.
I would've planted a giant, undrunk...
guilty kiss on your lips.
God! I'm Ruby's R.A.
I'm her boyfriend.
You said "I think"...
that you "think" you're willing to risk it.
Yeah. It doesn't sound very decisive, does it?
So maybe we just think about it.
Yeah, we can do that.
I didn't dream at all last night...
not about Noel. Not about anything.
Today was our drawing final.
I woke up sort of energized...
with a weird butterflies feeling I
haven't had since sometime last year...
this exciting. Hopeful feeling...
that maybe Noel and I were getting back together.
Are you and Noel getting back together?
What?
See, the point is, is that I finally met a guy that I really like...
someone I can trust.
So, I get this ridiculous movie thing.
I don't even know what I'm doing...
and I'm staying in this way-too-modern hotel with
these GQ creepy guys in the lobby all the time...
and the only thing that really gets me through it...
are the packages Noel sends me.
Noel sent you packages?
Yeah. Really... just really great packages...
with little stuff, little cute things...
like toys and horoscopes and candy...
and he... he made some
cards on the computer...
and... it sounds really stupid talking about it.
I can't tell you how much that meant to me...
how much he means to me.
Are you and Noel getting back together?
Ruby...
Listen. Maybe it's just me being totally insecure but...
when I gave Noel that ticket, you know to go back to Los Angeles...
he was really touched, but he seemed sort of distant and, um...
and he wasn't sure if he could go...
and I didn't really know why.
He didn't give me an answer.
He didn't say that was because of me?
No, but when he talks about you...
or, you know, when you talk to him on the phone...
he's different.
It's hard to explain.
I know you guys have been hanging out a lot...
and working on your art final and...
and the point is...
I can't compete with you.
I know I just can't.
Of course I like Noel. I mean...
But...
you don't have to worry about me.
As complicated as it is...
Noel and I are just friends.
Really?
Yeah.
Oh, my God.
That's exactly what I wanted you to say.
You don't have to do this. You know.
Actually, I like typing, so...
You know what? This is a halfway decent paper.
- Is it? - Yeah.
I've been working on pure adrenaline but, yeah, it feels pretty good.
- What time is it due? - Um, in fifteen minutes.
Piece of cake.
OK. Uh, you spelled "polarized" wrong.
- All right. - Fix it?
Yeah.
- Let's go. - We lost... we lost it.
- What? - Joking.
Ah, don't do that.
Hi.
So Sherman's gonna murder us today. You ready for this?
Uh, not really.
I mean it. This is the end of our educational careers.
Ruby came to see me.
She tell you about the ticket?
Yeah.
I think you should go.
Go with Ruby.
When she came to see me, she had this tone in her voice.
It was sweet and urgent and...
a little familiar...
and I realized where I'd heard it before.
From me...
last year when Hannah came.
I was the new girlfriend, and Hannah was the old girlfriend.
That was a horrible feeling.
It's a totally different situation.
Really?
But still, I think... I think you're right.
I'm gonna go with Ruby.
Yeah, I...
All I can say is, I understand.
Of course I understand.
OK. Let's focus on the work.
First up is Felicity Porter and Noel Crane.
All right. Let's see.
Well. There are some problems here. A few obvious ones...
but clearly for these thoughtful... and skillfully drawn pieces...
the positives far outweigh the negatives.
These two drawings were obviously drawn...
by two people who could really see each other...
who felt a certain...
So it turns out, Sherman didn't destroy us at all.
She was actually...
she was actually incredibly kind.
That is a very elusive quality to have.
Now. Over here. Uh...
Excuse me.
Uh... I...
I just wanted to say thank you for, uh...
the grade and the critique.
It was really generous.
I was only critiquing the art, not the artist.
Ruby left a day early to get back to her movie.
Noel flies out to meet her tomorrow night...
the same night I fly back to Palo Alto.
I leave from Kennedy and Noel from LaGuardia.
Eh, you take this one, OK?
- You sure? - Yeah. I'll get the next one.
Going to Kennedy.
OK.
Thanks.
Thank you, sir.
So...
Have a good Christmas.
You, too.