Previously, on "Felicity..."
I feel like now I know.
I think I'm supposed to have this baby.
Think you can handle picking up some pamphlets from the printer?
I might be a com-serve, but I'm not an idiot.
- I never said you were an idiot. - No. You just keep implying it.
I wanted to apologize for the other day...
at the health center.
I wasn't there 'cause I wanted to be there.
I was there 'cause of you.
Sorry.
You want to talk about it?
Talk about what?
That mood you're in.
It's just Greg.
He's so unbelievably arrogant, you know?
And you're just realizing that?
It's like he gets pleasure out of pushing people around.
Yeah. He does. So quit. No, because that's exactly what he wants me to do.
- So what? - So I'm not gonna give him that satisfaction.
He can keep pushing but I'm gonna keep pushing back.
Whatever. I'm no good with authority. Javier's about as much as I can handle.
Yeah. What's going on with your community service?
- Nothin'. I'm just, I'm avoiding it as long as I can. - So I have to deal with
- Greg Stenson but you're doing nothing. - No. No.
Pavone's really riding my ass now.
Now she's making me take some philosophy class.
Where you goin'
Elena's painting our apartment and I'm gonna help her pick out colors.
Sorry.
Bye.
I'm a first-time patient.
Yes.
I'm on my parents' insurance. But could I pay by check?
Yeah? Oh. 3:00.
Ok. Hold on.
Is 3:00 ok for you?
Noel.
3:00 on Friday. Is that ok?
Yeah.
Ok.
We have our first prenatal appointment.
God, I can't believe I just said that.
Do you want to go together or should we just meet there?
Either way.
You know...
you don't have to go with me if you don't want to.
It's fine. I said I'd go.
- But you don't want to. - Ruby.
Just tell me the truth.
- There's nothin' to tell. - Say it. You don't want to go.
Look, no one's forcing you to do anything.
Ok? I'm gonna go to the doctor on Friday. You can do whatever you want.
Can I?
Because...
what I really want to do is disappear.
Or trade places with someone else.
I want this not to be my life.
I would love... I would...
I would love to be that guy who stands by your side and
blindly goes along with this whole thing but...
I can't.
I just... I can't be that guy, Ruby.
I'm sorry.
We can start Friday after class. Make it into a little party.
A painting party. That sounds like fun.
- Did you ask Noel about this? - He'll love it.
- He hates the wallpaper more than I do. - I just...
Noel and Ruby are kind of, you know, going through a rough spot...
and I just don't think it's the best time for a party, you know?
Come on. A party will cheer him up. It'll be good for him.
Besides, those 2 are such a couple. They'll be fine.
I invited Tracy.
Oh, your sexy new lab partner?
Would everybody stop calling him that?
How's it going with him?
So far, just a lot of "pass the magnesium sulfate."
But hopefully this party will change all of that.
- I really want one of these. - Meet me at the ATM. - All right.
Could I please have one with lots and lots of mustard?
Hey, you gonna invite Eric to the painting party?
Actually,
that didn't really work out. We're not really talking anymore.
Really?
So what about the record deal?
That's just... It's not really gonna happen.
- What? - Thank you.
It's not a big deal. Come on.
You don't have to eat that chip, you know.
Well, if it's all right with you I've made an executive decision...
to have a painting party on Friday.
A painting party.
Not a party party. Just hanging out.
We'll get a few people in here to help get rid of this ugly wallpaper.
We only have 3 months left in this place.
That's 3 months too long. It's hideous in here.
Ahh. Whatever. Have your party.
You know, maybe it's the wallpaper that's making you so depressed.
They've done studies. People with blue walls
are much happier than people with black walls.
- Who has black walls? - It has an effect...
warm colors vs. Gloomy colors.
No, it's not the wallpaper.
Then why are you so depressed?
Noel?
Because Ruby's pregnant.
Or maybe it's the wallpaper.
I'm pretty sure it's the first one.
And she wants to keep the baby.
And I'm totally screwin' everything up.
She's not even talkin' to me right now. I don't blame her.
You the T. A.?
Yeah.
Yeah, my guidance counselor is makin' me take this class.
I guess I'm supposed to get you to sign this.
Thanks.
Felicity, I need you to put these patient charts into the data base.
Sure.
Hey, did you read the "Times" yesterday?
- Why? - There was this article on the New York Blood
Center how supply is really low right now.
It's sort of a crisis.
There's never enough blood. It's always a crisis.
Well... I was just thinking. Maybe we could do something to help.
We do. We hold blood drives every May and September.
Let me know when you're done with those. I've got more.
"Please" is nice.
Ben.
Yeah.
You never finished telling me about you and that girl.
In high school.
We'd only been goin' out for, like, a few months...
but I really liked her.
She was sweet.
Her name was Kelly.
We talked about options but we both knew what we were gonna do.
We weren't gonna have a baby.
I was supposed to pick her up and take her to the clinic.
And...
I was scared...
and some of my friends had invited me on this trip...
and I just...
I just freaked out.
I freaked out... and I went snowboarding instead.
- You didn't show. - No.
I still can't believe I did that, just chickened out like that, you know?
It's horrible.
I almost called her last year, just to apologize...
just to tell her I still think about it, you know, what that must've been like...
just sittin' there... waitin' for me to show up.
I mean, that's why I'm tellin' you this.
I know what a screwed-up situation this is.
I know how easy it is to act like an idiot... to act like a coward.
I really regret the way I acted. I really do.
I just wish I'd acted differently.
Imagine if she'd decided to keep the baby.
What do you mean?
That's what Ruby wants to do.
What would you have done?
What would I have done?
Or what should you do?
- Hey there. - Hi.
Here. Let me put this on like that.
- Are you a doctor here? - No.
- My mom's a doctor. - Yeah, I know. She works here.
I hear she's a very good doctor.
It's broken.
Here. Try... there.
I still can't hear anything.
- Can you come look at something? - Yeah.
I'll be right back, ok?
Will you fix it when you come back?
Yeah, sure.
- See that folder? - Yeah.
Do you see the files in that folder?
No.
For the last 3 weeks, we've done all this work updating
our patients' files and now the folder's empty.
I thought you had a little more experience than your friend Ben.
I don't know what happened to the files
but I don't think I even opened that folder.
You don't think?
- I know I didn't. - Well, someone did.
Do me a favor and really think about this:
Do you have the competence to continue working here or not?
I don't have to think about it.
I didn't erase your files, and I'm not quitting.
Well, I guess that's my problem.
Tell you what, why don't you go home? Come back Monday.
You know what? You might be good with patients...
but to everyone else, you're just rude.
See you Monday.
Potatoes go in quiche, right?
So I'll see you over at Elena's, right?
- I'm not going. - Going where?
Elena's having people over to paint her apartment.
What do you mean you're not going? You invited me.
Ok, I'll see you later.
I went to a painting party once.
Fell down a flight of stairs.
Julie...
you might want to talk to someone about...
whatever it is that's bothering you...
'cause it's obvious that something's bothering you.
I don't have to. That's what I have you for.
No, I'm serious. I mean, it might help if you, you know, actually
discussed things with someone who knows what they're talking about.
You know what? Ben's right. I told Elena I would go to the party.
You want to go with me?
Sure.
Ok.
Come in.
Floor calendar, as if anyone reads it. Ha ha!
Thanks.
So, how are you doing?
How are...
How are things with you and Noel?
I don't know about Noel.
He sort of bailed out on me.
What do you mean?
I don't think he wants anything to do with the baby.
I know it seems crazy what I'm doing.
I'm sure that's what everybody thinks.
I guess...
I just really thought Noel would be different.
Miss Blake?
Hi. We're ready for you now.
Ruby...
What are you doing here?
The other day, the things I said... I was just...
I was just going out of my mind for a second.
It's been without a doubt...
the most stressful week of my life.
Not that that's an excuse for any of the things I said.
All of which I regret.
Look, the point is...
I'm not going anywhere.
Ok, I'm gonna be here for you and...
and we're gonna go through this whole thing together.
Pavone alluded to some story he's got
but she wouldn't tell me what it is.
I don't care what it is. It doesn't excuse him for being such an ass.
Hey, believe me I'm not making excuses for the guy.
Don't look at that. I know I look so ridiculous.
No, you don't. You look pretty.
You're begging her to drive across the country again?
Yeah. I thought I'd do that about once a year.
Hey, if anyone calls, we're gonna be at Elena's at a painting party.
You wanna come? A lot of paint to sniff.
There it is.
That's the baby?
That little spot right there.
You want to come look?
Can you see it?
How big is it?
It's about 2 centimeters.
About the size of a pinto bean.
You're 8 weeks pregnant.
Everything seems to be developing normally.
Fetal weight, heart function all looks great.
Eight weeks, that's 2 months.
That's impossible. You were in L.A. 2 months ago.
She's 8 weeks.
That can't be right, can it?
You had sex with another guy...
and it never crossed your mind to tell me?
It never crossed your mind that this might not be my baby?
It was 1 night, and we were safe.
No, you weren't that safe.
I don't know what happened.
I never thought it could be his.
Who is he?
He's no one.
God, I can't believe this is happening.
Is he an actor?
No, he's a producer.
A producer?
There is not a more disgusting cliche than that, Ruby.
You and I weren't really even dating yet.
We had slept together before you left.
- Yeah, but I didn't know what it meant to you. - Then ask me!
I didn't know if you really cared... about me at all.
And then I got that first letter...
and it was the sweetest thing.
But it... it had already happened.
if I say anything else, I'm gonna regret it later.
How many layers of wallpaper are there?
- I think there's like 6. - Six? We're gonna be here for a month.
I brought enough food for a month... quiche.
Quiche? You brought quiche?
I made it, ok? Anyone care to indulge, a little quiche?
- No. - No.
So, they invite us over to paint their apartment and then they don't show up?
Nice.
- Elena and Tracy will be right back. - They just went
- to go pick up some more brushes. - What about Noel?
He said he'd be here.
What the hell's going on with that guy?
He hasn't called me back in days.
Yeah. You know, I think...
he and Ruby are kind of going through a rough time right now.
You know, I warned him about her.
I knew she was trouble.
Oh, my God.
Please put a shirt on.
Carl, I'm not talking to you anymore.
It's not Carl.
Who is it?
Greg.
Are you one of my advisees?
No, I'm not.
Ahh. Then what do you want?
I'm looking for Felicity.
I have news for you...
and for everyone else looking for Felicity.
What?
You have news?
Do you know where she is?
She's... should be back any minute.
Did you want... You want to come in and wait for her?
Why don't you come in and wait for her?
Sure.
So how's the health center?
Oh, it's great. I mean, I love it.
Except the guy I work for is such a jerk.
Really?
Yeah. I don't know what his problem is.
I mean, he's actually impressive. He basically runs the place.
But he has it out for me for some reason.
So, there's counselors there and stuff, right?
Yeah. You know, doctors and counselors.
Oh, I was just wondering.
Hey.
Sorry we're late. Everybody, this is Tracy.
Hey.
What's up?
Hi.
Hey, I know you.
You're the guy that had the satellite dish in your dorm room, right?
Yeah. I'm that guy.
Hey, man, quiche?
No.
We've got real food.
Quiche.
I don't want any quiche.
It was nice of you to come help.
Actually, it's selfish.
I can't keep studying here with wallpaper this ugly.
Are you wearing perfume?
Maybe.
So that was when you knew for sure...
that you wanted to be a doctor?
Yes, during my dad's recovery.
So then what?
Then I went to college.
Here?
Yeah.
Did you apply to a lot of schools?
I did. Ha ha!
I... I think it was a total fluke that I got in here.
Not that I'm not smart.
Am I making a fool of myself?
No, no.
You know what? When Felicity gets back
could you just tell her that I stopped by?
Oh, you're leaving?
Yeah.
Oh, because...
I just... just now remembered where she is.
Where?
You know what? I'll take you there.
Come on! What are you doing?
It's supposed to be a party, right?
Where is the party? Come on, where is the party?
I've found the party.
Come on. Hit it, baby.
There you go.
What are you laughing at?
No, no.
Go, Richard!
Hi.
- How's it going? - Good.
You look like crap, man.
- You ok? - Yeah, yeah, fine.
Excuse me.
Should... someone go talk to him?
Let's just... let's give him a minute.
He looked terrible.
- He did look bad. - Poor guy.
Why poor guy?
I don't know.
Me, neither.
Well, will someone tell me what the hell's going on?
What is going on?
Noel and Ruby are having some problems, that's all.
What do you mean problems?
Ha ha! Hi. Look who I brought.
What are you doing here?
Hi. You got a second?
Yeah, sure.
We can go in the back room.
This morning Maureen came into my office and apologized
for having deleted some files in the computer.
I know I can be a little abrupt at times
but there's a review of the health center.
Next Tuesday, some med school faculty... they come in, they evaluate the place.
Anyway, I just...
I want it to be perfect...
and it's just been really stressful.
Maureen did it?
Yeah, Maureen did it.
And I promised that I'd have all those files...
transferred to the computer before the review...
so now I'm gonna be there, like 24 hours a day getting that done.
But it's not because of you, and I just...
I wanted to come here and tell you that.
So do you need some help finishing the files before review?
That would be the greatest thing you can possibly do for a human being.
Quiche?
No, thanks.
Scraper?
- Sean. - What? Let him scrape. We need all the help we can get.
- He didn't come here to work. - No, that's ok.
I can help out for a little while.
Me, too. I... I can help.
If you need me.
What?
So when you say he's having problems...
what kind of problems? Richard, if you don't stop bugging me...
What, did she dump him? Does she have a deadly disease?
Is she pregnant?
What? Nothing.
Oh, my God, is she?
Ruby's pregnant.
Ruby's not pregnant.
Oh, my God.
Now I get it.
Poor guy.
Did anyone check on Noel or...
- I think we should just leave him alone. - Yeah, Let's just give him space.
- Yeah, just leave him alone... - Poor guy, indeed.
- Maybe we shouldn't even be here. - I can't believe she's pregnant.
- I know, I can't either. My God. - You know, I'm pissed.
- I can't believe what she's doing. - Why are you pissed off?
It's totally irresponsible to have a baby when you're a freshman in college.
Wait, she's having the baby? That's insane.
- Hey, this is none of our business. - It is our business. He's our friend.
- Most girls would not have that baby. - Actually, that's not true.
64% of pregnant teenagers will have the baby...
and about 90% of them actually raise the child.
Great. Thanks for the stats, Greg.
You know, she could put the baby up for adoption. That works, too.
My parents got married when my mom got pregnant at 17.
They're still together, they're in love and they got 3 more kids.
Well, you're lucky, but that's also an exception.
Really? What percentage of parents stay together, Greg?
- What's your problem? - My problem is that 63% of me thinks you're a dick.
Guys!
Are you saying it's wrong for her not to have the baby?
- I thought you were pro-choice. - Yeah, I am, but
that means that there's a choice, right?
You guys, we can sit here and say what we think Ruby should do...
I'm adopted. What would happen if my birth mother decided not to have me?
Well, guess what? None of us would be here
if our parents hadn't given birth to us.
The point is, Ruby has Noel trapped like a rat.
I gotta pee.
God, you guys are sitting here pitying Noel like he's the victim.
Well, I love him just as much as you guys, but guess what?
He is not the victim. Ruby is the one who has to deal with the consequences.
- That's her choice. - He got her pregnant!
No, I didn't.
It's not mine. It's not my baby.
Parties in this apartment are always so much fun.
Hey, man.
Hi. So...
could you guys keep it down?
Hi.
Can we talk?
Yeah.
- You know what? I'm gonna go. - Yeah, me, too. - I'm going with you.
- We should go. - I'm right behind you.
When we came out of the doctor's office I actually thought...
do I still want to go through with this...
knowing that it's not yours, knowing how it happened?
Yes.
It's part of me.
I can't not have this baby.
I'm trying to figure out what it's like to be you in this situation.
But I don't think I can.
I barely know what it feels like to be me anymore.
I just wanna tell you 2 things...
One, that I'm sorry...
not just that I slept with someone...
for all the wrong reasons, but...
because I didn't tell you.
I didn't tell you... because I wouldn't want you to tell me...
that just as we started dating you had
this meaningless night with some girl.
If that's all it was, I wouldn't even want to know.
Can I have a tissue, please?
Yeah.
The other thing that I...
I wanted to say is that...
I really... thought...
that we were falling in love.
I'm hoping that we can still make this work...
despite... things.
Think about it.
I mean, I don't mean to put pressure on you.
I'm sorry if that's the way it makes you feel.
I just... I needed to say this.
Hi.
Hey.
Interesting night, huh?
Yeah. I think I sort of overreacted a little bit.
I guess that whole discussion...
I don't know, it just sort of stirred something up in me.
Everyone was stirred up, I think.
Did Ben ever... tell you what I was going through...
when I started staying with you guys last year?
No.
There was this guy Zach.
We had just started dating...
and he came back to my room one night...
and
he... sort of forced himself on me.
What does that mean?
He raped me.
He dropped out of school...
and I didn't press charges or anything, but...
I don't know. I thought I was over it, but I guess I'm not.
The same thing happened to my sister.
- Really? - Yeah.
Now there's 2 guys I wanna kill.
You know how you said that I should probably talk to somebody?
Yeah.
I need to.
Yeah.
Thank you.
For what?
Just thank you.
What? He apologized.
Yeah, but that doesn't mean you have to forgive him.
I work with him almost every day.
What do you want me to do, not accept his apology?
I wouldn't!
He's such a loser. He's such an arrogant loser.
- Need a decaf skim latte. - Decaf skim.
You're so funny about him.
Funny? No, I'm not... I'm not funny.
Yeah! It's like you're threatened or something.
No, I'm not threatened. I just see through that guy.
I see through that that stuck up, you know, that elitist crap he pulls...
and I know that apology's all part of some, like...
big manipulation or something.
Need a double espresso and a mocha.
Ok, conspiracy theorist.
I'm telling you... you watch it.
- I'll watch it. - You should.
I will. Ha!
So they're showing "Planet of the Apes" at the screening room tonight.
- Do you wanna go? - I can't.
I told Greg I'd help him input all his files.
That's exactly what I'm talking about!
What? Here.
That's why he apologized, so you'd help
him with whatever it is he needs help with.
- I offered. - He knew you'd offer.
What is it about him that bothers you so much?
- His hair. - His hair.
I don't know what it is.
Hey.
Hey. How'd everything go last night?
Ok. I mean, it was complicated.
Yeah. Can I get you some coffee?
No.
Actually, is Ben here?
Yeah. Why?
I just want to talk to him for a sec.
Sure. He's in the back room.
Ok. Thanks.
Ben.
Here.
"M."
Thanks.
- So you and Ben going out? - What?
Are you dating?
No. We're just friends. Why?
Oh, I don't know. I just figured, you know...
I mean... you were pretty upset when he left...
and you know, it's just the way he acts around you.
What do you mean? Ha ha!
I don't know. It's just sort of a sense I got.
How about you? You dating anyone?
No. I was... until last month.
Eight months.
It's a record for me.
What happened?
Nothing happened. I happened.
What does that mean?
I'm...
I'm no good. I'm a mess.
Personally, I think anyone with a massively screwed up
past shouldn't be allowed to be in relationships...
I mean, legally.
So what's your massively screwed-up past?
Well, it's depressing enough in here. I'm not about to make the moment darker.
I mean, if I walked away right now...
I'd be totally justified, wouldn't I?
I don't know.
She cheated on me.
You know, it sounds like when this happened...
you guys weren't even totally together yet.
Were ya?
Truth is, I'm relieved.
I'm totally relieved. I mean, all the pressure's off.
So why am I still so pissed off?
You still like her?
Yeah, I guess that's the thing, you know? I still care about her.
I mean, what am I supposed to do... not care about her?
Well, I thing you definitely don't wanna do is you don't
want to walk away too early before you figure it all out.
I mean, you do that...
you could regret it for a long time.
So what the hell am I supposed to do?
Shoot.
♪ Maybe I fall before your eyes ♪
♪ I won't tell too much ♪
♪ You and I ♪
♪ How I wish you would run away ♪
♪ 'Cause I wouldn't... ♪