1 00:00:05,305 --> 00:00:08,297 DR. HERMAN: I don't like questions without any answers, 2 00:00:08,375 --> 00:00:10,809 like, "Where do we go when we die?" 3 00:00:10,877 --> 00:00:14,074 I mean, I know what happens physiologically speaking, 4 00:00:14,147 --> 00:00:16,047 but beyond that, what really happens? 5 00:00:16,816 --> 00:00:17,976 Anything? 6 00:00:18,051 --> 00:00:20,952 That's what you start asking yourself when you live on a clock. 7 00:00:21,021 --> 00:00:23,956 All these questions without any answers, 8 00:00:24,024 --> 00:00:26,288 they'll drive you nuts. 9 00:00:26,926 --> 00:00:30,726 That's why I like what I do, fixing babies, birthing babies. 10 00:00:30,797 --> 00:00:33,994 No ambiguity there, no questions, just answers, 11 00:00:34,067 --> 00:00:36,228 clear, precise, obvious answers. 12 00:00:36,302 --> 00:00:39,169 And life, beautiful new life. 13 00:00:39,239 --> 00:00:40,399 Hope for the future. 14 00:00:40,473 --> 00:00:41,997 God, I miss that. 15 00:00:42,108 --> 00:00:44,406 - (KNOCKING ON DOOR) - Morning! 16 00:00:44,477 --> 00:00:47,002 Robbins, are you ever not chirpy? 17 00:00:47,680 --> 00:00:48,738 Does that ever happen? 18 00:00:48,815 --> 00:00:50,806 Are you ever not snarky? 19 00:00:50,884 --> 00:00:52,078 Also, you snore. 20 00:00:52,152 --> 00:00:54,416 I can't crash here again tonight without earplugs. 21 00:00:54,487 --> 00:00:58,184 Okay, so, we have seven cases today. The first one is in two hours. 22 00:00:58,258 --> 00:01:01,022 Also, it's Friday, so that's MRI day. You know the drill. 23 00:01:01,094 --> 00:01:04,689 47 minutes of my very limited life-span wasted. 24 00:01:04,764 --> 00:01:06,629 Come on, come on. 25 00:01:06,699 --> 00:01:07,723 God! I'm coming. 26 00:01:07,801 --> 00:01:09,894 - Stop chirping. - Stop snarking. 27 00:01:09,969 --> 00:01:12,199 After this, we've got the diaphragmatic hernia. 28 00:01:12,272 --> 00:01:14,263 Baby's 27 weeks. We'll do a tracheal balloon occlusion... 29 00:01:14,340 --> 00:01:15,364 (SIGHS) Hey. 30 00:01:15,442 --> 00:01:16,807 Figured you could use this... 31 00:01:16,876 --> 00:01:18,309 Which should, if we're lucky, ensure the blood... 32 00:01:18,378 --> 00:01:20,209 ...before the big lecture. 33 00:01:20,280 --> 00:01:22,214 Um, thanks. Thank you. 34 00:01:24,050 --> 00:01:26,450 ARIZONA: They already scheduled a follow-up procedure 35 00:01:26,519 --> 00:01:28,350 on the baby, as well. 36 00:01:28,421 --> 00:01:30,855 You're cultivating quite a bit of buzz, you know? 37 00:01:30,924 --> 00:01:31,913 Really? 38 00:01:31,991 --> 00:01:35,449 I heard from two hospitals wanting us to record your talk. 39 00:01:35,528 --> 00:01:36,688 (SIGHS) 40 00:01:38,098 --> 00:01:39,929 ARIZONA: ... but we won't be too close to the due date. 41 00:01:39,999 --> 00:01:41,728 - And if... - I have a lot on my plate right now, 42 00:01:41,801 --> 00:01:44,861 just with Herman and her tumor. 43 00:01:44,938 --> 00:01:46,428 Her surgery. 44 00:01:46,506 --> 00:01:49,339 I really need to focus... 45 00:01:49,409 --> 00:01:50,535 On the tumor. 46 00:01:51,578 --> 00:01:54,206 Don't need any distractions, and you're... 47 00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:56,214 Very hard to ignore. 48 00:01:56,282 --> 00:01:57,749 Hey, I... It was just coffee. 49 00:01:57,817 --> 00:01:59,546 No, I... I so appreciate the coffee. 50 00:01:59,619 --> 00:02:02,110 I was just getting some coffee for myself, and... 51 00:02:02,188 --> 00:02:05,021 It's good coffee. It's great coffee. 52 00:02:05,091 --> 00:02:08,356 I can just get my own if you... 53 00:02:08,428 --> 00:02:10,589 I mean, you can get your own so easily. 54 00:02:10,663 --> 00:02:12,460 I don't want to get my own coffee. I... 55 00:02:12,532 --> 00:02:15,729 I mean, I do. I can. I will. 56 00:02:15,802 --> 00:02:18,168 I can get my own coffee all day long. I just... 57 00:02:19,038 --> 00:02:20,027 Owen. (SIGHS) 58 00:02:20,974 --> 00:02:23,602 Thank you for bringing me the coffee. 59 00:02:24,744 --> 00:02:26,371 I really like it. 60 00:02:26,579 --> 00:02:27,568 (CHUCKLES) 61 00:02:28,481 --> 00:02:29,505 You're welcome. 62 00:02:29,582 --> 00:02:32,346 So, how's my head? 63 00:02:33,119 --> 00:02:34,814 The tumor seems stable. 64 00:02:34,888 --> 00:02:36,583 I was worried about the inferomedial margin, 65 00:02:36,656 --> 00:02:38,715 but the good news is, there's no sign of growth. 66 00:02:38,791 --> 00:02:41,021 It hasn't invaded the optic nerve yet. 67 00:02:41,094 --> 00:02:42,391 Well, how long till it does? 68 00:02:42,462 --> 00:02:44,760 I need a number, Shepherd. I have things to plan. 69 00:02:44,831 --> 00:02:46,890 About six weeks, maybe eight 70 00:02:46,966 --> 00:02:49,594 if you go in for the localized radiation treatments I've prescribed for you. 71 00:02:49,669 --> 00:02:51,193 I'd like for those to start today. 72 00:02:51,271 --> 00:02:53,330 No, no, no, no. I tried that. Hated it. 73 00:02:53,406 --> 00:02:54,532 Doctor's orders. 74 00:02:54,607 --> 00:02:57,770 It is our best chance to shrink the part of the tumor on your optic chiasm. 75 00:02:57,844 --> 00:02:59,334 - Crap. - MIRANDA: Glenda Castillo! 76 00:02:59,412 --> 00:03:01,573 We're headed to surgery, Dr. Bailey. No time to talk. 77 00:03:01,648 --> 00:03:02,774 But you haven't given me an answer. 78 00:03:02,849 --> 00:03:04,316 Actually, I have. It was no. 79 00:03:04,384 --> 00:03:05,681 But you haven't given me the right answer. 80 00:03:05,752 --> 00:03:06,776 You could at least meet with her. 81 00:03:06,853 --> 00:03:08,320 I've seen the case, okay? 82 00:03:08,388 --> 00:03:11,186 I'm sorry, but I'm working on a very limited time frame 83 00:03:11,257 --> 00:03:14,283 with a very specific list of surgeries to teach Robbins, 84 00:03:14,360 --> 00:03:15,918 and Glenda Castillo isn't one of them. 85 00:03:15,995 --> 00:03:18,486 Okay, well, as a personal favor to me, just me... 86 00:03:18,565 --> 00:03:20,533 I have no time to make it personal. 87 00:03:20,600 --> 00:03:22,033 It's a no. I'm sorry. 88 00:03:22,101 --> 00:03:23,659 I'll get you some names, good people. 89 00:03:23,736 --> 00:03:25,260 She can see one of them. 90 00:03:27,006 --> 00:03:28,405 Um, sorry. 91 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:38,000 Ripped By mstoll 92 00:03:39,919 --> 00:03:41,443 (MONITOR BEEPING) 93 00:03:44,557 --> 00:03:47,117 DR. HERMAN: Three down, all these to go. 94 00:03:47,193 --> 00:03:48,956 ARIZONA: We've got four months' worth of surgeries up here. 95 00:03:49,028 --> 00:03:50,825 I mean, how are we gonna get four months of surgeries 96 00:03:50,897 --> 00:03:51,989 done in eight weeks? 97 00:03:52,065 --> 00:03:53,930 We just do, I suppose. 98 00:03:54,000 --> 00:03:55,592 You'll do the next one yourself. I'll watch. 99 00:03:55,668 --> 00:03:56,692 What? 100 00:03:56,769 --> 00:03:58,999 No. No, thank you. I appreciate the vote of confidence, 101 00:03:59,072 --> 00:04:00,539 but I'm not even actually sure that I know how... 102 00:04:00,607 --> 00:04:04,338 I need to see what you've learned, what you can and can't do on your own 103 00:04:04,410 --> 00:04:07,208 while I'm still around to fix it when you screw up. 104 00:04:07,280 --> 00:04:08,542 Gee, thanks. 105 00:04:08,615 --> 00:04:09,980 It's not a vote of confidence. It's a necessity. 106 00:04:10,049 --> 00:04:12,040 Training wheels are off, Robbins. 107 00:04:12,118 --> 00:04:13,312 Time is up. What's next? 108 00:04:13,386 --> 00:04:15,513 - Your radiation treatment. - Ugh. 109 00:04:15,588 --> 00:04:16,919 Radiation hasn't worked yet. 110 00:04:16,990 --> 00:04:19,584 I don't see why it's suddenly supposed to start working. 111 00:04:19,659 --> 00:04:20,683 Radiation is bull... 112 00:04:20,760 --> 00:04:22,557 Shepherd says that it's necessary. 113 00:04:22,629 --> 00:04:24,597 She's the doctor here. 114 00:04:25,198 --> 00:04:26,859 (INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS) 115 00:04:29,802 --> 00:04:31,099 (CONVERSATIONS STOP) 116 00:04:31,304 --> 00:04:32,737 "Life will out." 117 00:04:33,906 --> 00:04:38,240 The origins and lessons of life and evolution are long and complex, 118 00:04:38,311 --> 00:04:41,644 but what they basically boil down to is, life will out. 119 00:04:42,815 --> 00:04:47,115 Life will always find a way to continue. Always. 120 00:04:47,186 --> 00:04:49,984 Life... Will... Out. 121 00:04:51,724 --> 00:04:55,421 This is a massive grade IV astrocytoma. 122 00:04:55,495 --> 00:04:57,486 I want you to take a look at it. 123 00:04:57,563 --> 00:04:59,497 Really look. 124 00:04:59,565 --> 00:05:01,294 Look at its size. 125 00:05:01,367 --> 00:05:03,927 Look at the way it invades healthy tissue. 126 00:05:04,003 --> 00:05:06,096 Look at its vasculature. 127 00:05:06,172 --> 00:05:09,903 It is blood and tissue and flesh. 128 00:05:11,144 --> 00:05:12,133 - It's growing, - (MONITOR BEEPS) 129 00:05:12,211 --> 00:05:16,614 Adapting to its environment, struggling to survive, to stay alive. 130 00:05:17,784 --> 00:05:19,115 It is alive. 131 00:05:19,185 --> 00:05:21,085 We don't like to think of it that way, 132 00:05:21,154 --> 00:05:24,021 but it's nested in the womb of a human brain, 133 00:05:24,090 --> 00:05:28,254 feeding on its host, growing and fighting for life, 134 00:05:28,328 --> 00:05:29,352 almost like a fetus. 135 00:05:29,429 --> 00:05:30,623 No, scratch that. 136 00:05:30,697 --> 00:05:34,133 Let's just for science and giggles say exactly like a fetus. 137 00:05:34,200 --> 00:05:37,328 Because like a healthy fetus, it is thriving. 138 00:05:37,403 --> 00:05:40,497 You know, there are even some types of tumors that grow teeth, 139 00:05:40,573 --> 00:05:42,268 - hair, - (AUDIENCE MURMURS) 140 00:05:42,342 --> 00:05:43,741 A stray eye. 141 00:05:43,810 --> 00:05:45,710 - (AUDIENCE GROANS LOUDLY) - (CHUCKLES) 142 00:05:46,846 --> 00:05:47,835 Have I repulsed you? 143 00:05:47,914 --> 00:05:50,178 - It's gross, right? - WOMAN: Yeah. 144 00:05:50,249 --> 00:05:52,809 I mean, that is a problem. (SIGHS) 145 00:05:52,885 --> 00:05:55,445 Nobody wants something that nasty in their head. 146 00:05:56,489 --> 00:06:00,425 I'd like you for one moment to consider the idea 147 00:06:00,493 --> 00:06:03,189 that, to the tumor, we are the problem, 148 00:06:04,697 --> 00:06:07,427 we are the invader. We are the danger. 149 00:06:07,500 --> 00:06:10,264 To the tumor, we are the cancer. 150 00:06:10,837 --> 00:06:12,634 And the tumor? 151 00:06:12,705 --> 00:06:16,197 Well, the tumor sees itself as a sweet, cute, fat-cheeked baby 152 00:06:16,275 --> 00:06:18,300 just trying to make its way into the world, 153 00:06:18,378 --> 00:06:21,108 and we want to stop it, destroy it, 154 00:06:21,180 --> 00:06:24,308 tear it from its happy little home like barbarians. 155 00:06:25,485 --> 00:06:26,850 To the tumor, 156 00:06:26,919 --> 00:06:29,786 we are the soulless, murderous monsters. 157 00:06:30,590 --> 00:06:32,217 Why do I do this? 158 00:06:32,291 --> 00:06:35,488 Why do I call it "baby" and talk about killing it? 159 00:06:36,362 --> 00:06:38,762 Because this kind of tumor deserves respect. 160 00:06:40,333 --> 00:06:42,198 It deserves a little humanity. 161 00:06:42,702 --> 00:06:44,761 DR. HERMAN: Charming, isn't it? 162 00:06:44,837 --> 00:06:47,067 They put clouds on the ceiling to distract you. 163 00:06:47,140 --> 00:06:50,041 Least they could do is put something interesting up there, 164 00:06:50,109 --> 00:06:51,235 like porn. 165 00:06:51,310 --> 00:06:52,299 (CHUCKLES) 166 00:06:54,313 --> 00:06:56,008 It's not just a tumor. 167 00:06:57,383 --> 00:06:58,714 It's ingenuity. 168 00:06:58,785 --> 00:07:00,150 It's strength. 169 00:07:00,219 --> 00:07:01,584 It's adaptability. 170 00:07:01,654 --> 00:07:03,713 It's poetry. 171 00:07:03,790 --> 00:07:06,384 It's one of God's masterpieces. 172 00:07:06,459 --> 00:07:08,950 It is alive. 173 00:07:18,070 --> 00:07:19,867 (CLIPS FASTENING) 174 00:07:22,875 --> 00:07:25,207 (BREATHING RAPIDLY) 175 00:07:27,513 --> 00:07:28,502 You okay? 176 00:07:29,949 --> 00:07:31,678 Sure. 177 00:07:31,751 --> 00:07:34,185 AMELIA: And like any living thing, it wants to stay alive. 178 00:07:34,253 --> 00:07:37,848 Like any living thing, it is going to fight like hell to survive. 179 00:07:37,924 --> 00:07:41,223 And when I saw open that skull and come face-to-face with it, 180 00:07:41,294 --> 00:07:45,526 with that tumor, with that living thing, it will be almost impossible to remove... 181 00:07:46,566 --> 00:07:48,557 Well, I'll see you after. 182 00:07:50,736 --> 00:07:53,500 AMELIA: ... because it would rather destroy the brain that holds it 183 00:07:53,573 --> 00:07:56,098 than go gently into that good night. 184 00:07:58,344 --> 00:07:59,743 (BREATHING RAPIDLY) 185 00:08:13,493 --> 00:08:14,892 AMELIA: It is alive. 186 00:08:17,196 --> 00:08:19,687 And what's it all come down to? 187 00:08:19,765 --> 00:08:21,130 Life... 188 00:08:21,200 --> 00:08:22,895 Will... 189 00:08:22,969 --> 00:08:24,334 Out. 190 00:08:40,319 --> 00:08:46,155 AMELIA: So, our fat-cheeked-baby tumor that's nestled in that brain, 191 00:08:46,225 --> 00:08:47,624 it's a creature of habit. 192 00:08:47,693 --> 00:08:51,493 It has the same routine day in and day out. 193 00:08:51,564 --> 00:08:55,125 To grow, to spread out, to take up space. 194 00:08:55,201 --> 00:08:56,691 - (MACHINE BEEPS, WHIRS) - That's it. 195 00:08:57,637 --> 00:09:02,131 At this point, our baby tumor is so enmeshed, so invasive, 196 00:09:03,276 --> 00:09:05,676 it's touching virtually every single brain structure. 197 00:09:05,745 --> 00:09:07,508 It's pushed existing tissue aside, 198 00:09:07,580 --> 00:09:10,879 shoved brain matter out of the way to find room for itself. 199 00:09:12,485 --> 00:09:16,182 How do you remove it without destroying the brain around it? 200 00:09:16,255 --> 00:09:18,815 How do you kill the baby without killing the mother? 201 00:09:20,226 --> 00:09:23,923 I stare at these scans, and the tumor stares back at me, 202 00:09:24,864 --> 00:09:27,025 daring me to try to extract it. 203 00:09:28,100 --> 00:09:30,534 I mean, this tumor is bold and brazen. 204 00:09:30,603 --> 00:09:34,903 This tumor thinks it's in charge. This tumor thinks it owns the place. 205 00:09:34,974 --> 00:09:36,874 I don't have to explain myself to you. 206 00:09:36,943 --> 00:09:38,171 You missed your radiation session this morning. 207 00:09:38,244 --> 00:09:40,109 I told you, I'm not doing that anymore. 208 00:09:40,179 --> 00:09:41,441 That is not your call. 209 00:09:41,514 --> 00:09:44,210 My tumor, my head... It absolutely is my call. 210 00:09:44,283 --> 00:09:48,083 The tumor will be exponentially easier to remove after the radiation. 211 00:09:48,154 --> 00:09:50,247 Nicole, please. 212 00:09:50,323 --> 00:09:51,449 Go to radiation! 213 00:09:51,524 --> 00:09:53,082 I will think about it. 214 00:09:53,159 --> 00:09:54,217 Okay. 215 00:09:54,293 --> 00:09:57,888 AMELIA: The thing about a tumor like this is, you can't let it intimidate you. 216 00:09:57,964 --> 00:10:02,833 The tumor isn't smarter than you. You just need a plan of attack. 217 00:10:03,336 --> 00:10:04,667 DR. HERMAN: Here. Feel that? 218 00:10:04,737 --> 00:10:05,897 - You must be methodical. - (MONITOR BEEPING) 219 00:10:05,972 --> 00:10:08,099 DR. HERMAN: You want to find a spot with just the right amount of give. 220 00:10:08,174 --> 00:10:09,971 That's where you want to cut. Scalpel. 221 00:10:10,042 --> 00:10:12,067 Point of access is key. 222 00:10:12,144 --> 00:10:13,771 - You're up, Robbins. - ARIZONA: I know. 223 00:10:13,846 --> 00:10:15,108 I've never done that part before. 224 00:10:15,181 --> 00:10:17,945 So, um, you were really serious about that? 225 00:10:18,017 --> 00:10:19,348 It's time. Make the cut. 226 00:10:19,418 --> 00:10:20,407 But I don't know... I've never... 227 00:10:20,486 --> 00:10:21,953 Make the cut. 228 00:10:25,224 --> 00:10:26,384 (CLEARS THROAT) 229 00:10:30,196 --> 00:10:31,925 AMELIA: And then you start. 230 00:10:34,166 --> 00:10:36,464 That is the most daunting step, 231 00:10:37,570 --> 00:10:40,630 pushing a blade into that first squishy blob of flesh... 232 00:10:42,875 --> 00:10:45,173 Because the first cut is what sets the tone. 233 00:10:46,512 --> 00:10:50,107 It determines every single move from that point on. 234 00:10:52,084 --> 00:10:54,678 So, you have to be careful. 235 00:10:54,754 --> 00:10:56,051 You have to be sure. 236 00:10:57,590 --> 00:10:59,387 Or you're in trouble. 237 00:11:02,495 --> 00:11:03,723 - DR. HERMAN: It's like a... - (LAUGHS) 238 00:11:03,796 --> 00:11:04,785 Just look at them. 239 00:11:04,864 --> 00:11:06,024 ALEX: Who? 240 00:11:06,098 --> 00:11:08,328 Arizona and Herman, they're practically joined at the hip. 241 00:11:08,401 --> 00:11:09,425 ARIZONA: I'll take one of those, too. 242 00:11:09,502 --> 00:11:10,594 Well, she is Herman's fellow. 243 00:11:10,670 --> 00:11:12,604 Isn't she sort of supposed to follow Herman around? 244 00:11:12,672 --> 00:11:14,936 - They're laughing all the time. - (LAUGHS) 245 00:11:15,007 --> 00:11:16,907 And Arizona seems so... 246 00:11:17,843 --> 00:11:19,367 Happy, like really happy. 247 00:11:19,445 --> 00:11:20,469 So? 248 00:11:20,546 --> 00:11:22,343 You seem happy... Ish. 249 00:11:22,415 --> 00:11:24,474 - What do you even care? - I don't, obviously. 250 00:11:24,550 --> 00:11:27,041 I'm just making conversation. 251 00:11:27,420 --> 00:11:28,614 (LAUGHS) 252 00:11:29,121 --> 00:11:30,918 Don't you guys think it's weird how they're always together? 253 00:11:30,990 --> 00:11:32,218 They're not always together. 254 00:11:32,291 --> 00:11:33,815 They do bunk up together sometimes. 255 00:11:33,893 --> 00:11:34,882 - What? - Alex. 256 00:11:34,960 --> 00:11:35,949 ALEX: Robbins has been crashing with Herman. 257 00:11:36,028 --> 00:11:37,017 She hasn't slept at the house all week. 258 00:11:37,096 --> 00:11:38,085 CALLIE: What? MEREDITH: Alex. 259 00:11:38,164 --> 00:11:39,324 ALEX: I don't mean like that. 260 00:11:39,398 --> 00:11:40,865 They're not together together, and you know that. 261 00:11:40,933 --> 00:11:41,957 Mmm-hmm. 262 00:11:42,234 --> 00:11:44,168 CALLIE: Arizona used to hate her. Now they're having sleepovers? 263 00:11:44,236 --> 00:11:46,704 Well, it's a good thing, right, that they're getting along? 264 00:11:46,772 --> 00:11:48,706 Herman's not exactly the warmest person, so... 265 00:11:48,774 --> 00:11:49,763 CALLIE: Yeah, whatever. 266 00:11:49,842 --> 00:11:50,831 When you talk to Derek tonight, 267 00:11:50,910 --> 00:11:53,242 would you ask him something for me without saying it's for me? 268 00:11:53,312 --> 00:11:54,506 I don't know that I... 269 00:11:54,580 --> 00:11:56,605 Just ask him what he'd use 270 00:11:56,682 --> 00:11:58,582 to avoid disrupting the Gratiolet radiations 271 00:11:58,651 --> 00:12:00,209 off the geniculate body of the thalamus. 272 00:12:00,286 --> 00:12:01,412 - Why don't you ask him that? - No, no, no. 273 00:12:01,487 --> 00:12:04,320 No, no. That's the point. You ask him. I can't ask him for help. 274 00:12:04,390 --> 00:12:06,688 I cannot listen to the smugness in his voice. 275 00:12:06,759 --> 00:12:08,056 You can hear it. 276 00:12:08,127 --> 00:12:10,220 He has transcontinental smugness. You know what? 277 00:12:10,296 --> 00:12:12,321 Forget it. I'm fine. I don't need him. 278 00:12:12,398 --> 00:12:14,866 I don't need Derek. I will figure it out myself. 279 00:12:14,934 --> 00:12:16,595 When did this happen? 280 00:12:16,669 --> 00:12:20,571 She found the perfect rebound without having to actually find a rebound. 281 00:12:20,639 --> 00:12:22,766 (LAUGHS) I mean, she just gets all the good times and the fun, 282 00:12:22,842 --> 00:12:26,403 none of the bad times or the mess, no chance of getting hurt. 283 00:12:26,479 --> 00:12:28,674 You don't even have to wax. It's not fair! 284 00:12:28,748 --> 00:12:29,737 (SLURPS) 285 00:12:30,015 --> 00:12:32,347 Oh, my God. Am I seriously wishing for a sexless relationship 286 00:12:32,418 --> 00:12:34,682 where I don't have to groom myself? Is that where I am now? 287 00:12:34,754 --> 00:12:35,914 It sounds good to me. 288 00:12:35,988 --> 00:12:37,182 Welcome to my life these days. 289 00:12:37,256 --> 00:12:38,553 You two chicks need to get laid. 290 00:12:38,624 --> 00:12:39,852 - That also sounds good to me. - (SIGHS) 291 00:12:39,925 --> 00:12:41,790 Not without the grooming. 292 00:12:41,861 --> 00:12:43,590 It's in there. He can find it. 293 00:12:43,662 --> 00:12:44,959 What, he can't do a little work first? 294 00:12:45,030 --> 00:12:46,019 (CHUCKLES) I like her. 295 00:12:47,099 --> 00:12:48,088 (CHUCKLES) 296 00:12:52,371 --> 00:12:53,463 MIRANDA: Eddie. 297 00:12:53,539 --> 00:12:55,063 ARIZONA: Excuse me? 298 00:12:55,141 --> 00:12:57,939 Glenda Castillo, the patient you and Herman turned down last week, 299 00:12:58,010 --> 00:12:59,875 her husband's name was Eddie. 300 00:12:59,945 --> 00:13:02,311 I lost him six months ago 301 00:13:02,381 --> 00:13:05,373 after he was injured in a head-on collision. 302 00:13:05,451 --> 00:13:08,909 My hands were inside of his body when his heart stopped beating. 303 00:13:08,988 --> 00:13:12,924 My hands held Glenda's when I told her Eddie died on my watch. 304 00:13:12,992 --> 00:13:15,358 Three weeks later, she found out she was pregnant. 305 00:13:15,427 --> 00:13:18,885 She's not insured, but she remembered me and this hospital, 306 00:13:18,964 --> 00:13:22,092 so, she came here to see if I could give her some prenatal care, 307 00:13:22,168 --> 00:13:23,863 and guess what we found out. 308 00:13:23,936 --> 00:13:26,598 Her baby has a tumor, 309 00:13:26,672 --> 00:13:30,403 a large, dangerous tumor 310 00:13:30,476 --> 00:13:33,104 that's not just messing with the baby's system, 311 00:13:33,179 --> 00:13:34,373 it's messing with hers. 312 00:13:34,446 --> 00:13:38,507 (SIGHS) I couldn't save her husband's life, but I can help save her baby. 313 00:13:38,584 --> 00:13:40,518 I owe this woman that much. 314 00:13:40,586 --> 00:13:43,817 Herman has to take her on as a patient. 315 00:13:43,889 --> 00:13:45,447 Just have her meet Glenda, all right? 316 00:13:45,524 --> 00:13:47,048 - Then she'll... - I can't, I can't! 317 00:13:47,126 --> 00:13:49,253 I can't trick her into seeing a patient she doesn't want to treat. 318 00:13:49,328 --> 00:13:50,317 Who's in charge of her schedule? 319 00:13:50,396 --> 00:13:52,125 Who tells her where to go and when? 320 00:13:52,198 --> 00:13:56,328 Who tells her what surgery or post-op or anonymous consult 321 00:13:56,402 --> 00:13:58,165 - she should see next? - (SIGHS) 322 00:14:00,306 --> 00:14:01,330 (HEARTBEAT) 323 00:14:01,407 --> 00:14:03,102 I'm concerned about her blood pressure. 324 00:14:03,175 --> 00:14:05,837 It's increased to 140 systolic in the past week, 325 00:14:05,911 --> 00:14:07,606 and her swelling's gotten worse. 326 00:14:07,680 --> 00:14:08,772 GLENDA: I used to have ankles. 327 00:14:08,848 --> 00:14:12,079 - Now I have balloons with toes. - (LAUGHTER) 328 00:14:12,351 --> 00:14:15,843 So, your baby has a large tumor in his lower back. 329 00:14:15,921 --> 00:14:17,047 It's most likely benign, 330 00:14:17,122 --> 00:14:19,522 but because of its size and vascular nature, 331 00:14:19,592 --> 00:14:22,925 it could cause an accumulation of fluids in the baby. 332 00:14:22,995 --> 00:14:25,361 But the tumor can be removed, right? 333 00:14:26,165 --> 00:14:28,156 Dr. Bailey says amazing things about you, 334 00:14:28,234 --> 00:14:29,997 that you're one of the best. 335 00:14:30,502 --> 00:14:31,799 Bailey said that? 336 00:14:31,871 --> 00:14:33,498 How flattering. 337 00:14:33,572 --> 00:14:34,971 That was Glenda Castillo. 338 00:14:35,040 --> 00:14:37,668 I told you no twice now. 339 00:14:37,743 --> 00:14:40,507 And you, how am I supposed to trust you at all 340 00:14:40,579 --> 00:14:41,603 when you pull something like that? 341 00:14:41,680 --> 00:14:42,669 She didn't do anything 342 00:14:42,748 --> 00:14:46,275 except try to get your help on a patient who needs your help. 343 00:14:46,352 --> 00:14:48,650 But if you heard her story, if you knew she was... 344 00:14:48,721 --> 00:14:50,518 Is that how Bailey convinced you? 345 00:14:50,589 --> 00:14:54,525 It's a tactic, Robbins, appealing to your sad, bleeding heart. 346 00:14:55,461 --> 00:14:56,826 Doesn't work with me. 347 00:14:56,896 --> 00:14:58,363 Well, then, let me appeal to your ego. 348 00:14:58,430 --> 00:15:01,399 You walk around here telling anyone who will listen that you're the best. 349 00:15:01,467 --> 00:15:03,526 Well, then, be the best. 350 00:15:03,602 --> 00:15:07,766 You can save her baby's life, so save that baby's life! 351 00:15:11,010 --> 00:15:12,238 No. 352 00:15:17,650 --> 00:15:19,242 - What the hell? - Robbins, drop it. 353 00:15:19,318 --> 00:15:21,286 No, I get that I've seen tumors like that before, 354 00:15:21,353 --> 00:15:22,820 but this can't all be about my education. 355 00:15:22,888 --> 00:15:24,048 I mean, at some point, I have to... 356 00:15:24,123 --> 00:15:26,523 At some point, we have to make decisions and stick to them. 357 00:15:26,592 --> 00:15:28,719 I wish we had time, but we don't. 358 00:15:28,794 --> 00:15:31,058 We have very little control over the time we have, 359 00:15:31,130 --> 00:15:32,722 and we have a plan. 360 00:15:32,798 --> 00:15:33,890 Can't we make an exception? 361 00:15:33,966 --> 00:15:35,627 Can't we just, you know, sort of adjust the plan? 362 00:15:35,701 --> 00:15:37,601 You... Fine. You want to? 363 00:15:37,670 --> 00:15:39,570 Adjust the plan. 364 00:15:39,638 --> 00:15:41,367 What are you doing? 365 00:15:41,440 --> 00:15:44,307 Take down one of these cards so we have time to help Mrs. Castillo. 366 00:15:44,376 --> 00:15:45,365 Which one? 367 00:15:45,444 --> 00:15:48,038 How about Meghan Carlson, congenital airway obstruction? 368 00:15:48,113 --> 00:15:49,478 Her husband's in Iraq right now. 369 00:15:49,548 --> 00:15:52,073 Or Julie Hall, vasa previa. 370 00:15:52,151 --> 00:15:54,244 She went through two years of fertility treatments. 371 00:15:54,320 --> 00:15:55,412 So, pick one. 372 00:15:55,487 --> 00:15:57,819 Decide which baby doesn't get to live 373 00:15:57,890 --> 00:15:59,949 so Glenda Castillo's does. 374 00:16:00,025 --> 00:16:01,049 Go ahead. 375 00:16:01,126 --> 00:16:03,390 Pick a card. You choose. 376 00:16:08,434 --> 00:16:09,901 That's what I thought. 377 00:16:29,121 --> 00:16:31,021 (MONITOR BEEPS, MACHINERY WHIRRING) 378 00:16:34,760 --> 00:16:36,193 No. 379 00:16:36,261 --> 00:16:37,285 No. 380 00:16:38,797 --> 00:16:39,786 Get me out! 381 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:42,323 Get me out of here! 382 00:16:42,401 --> 00:16:43,390 Get me out! 383 00:16:43,469 --> 00:16:44,936 - You have to. - I don't. 384 00:16:45,004 --> 00:16:46,528 The radiation treatments are going to help. 385 00:16:46,605 --> 00:16:48,095 They are gonna shrink the borders of the tumor, 386 00:16:48,173 --> 00:16:50,266 which will make it easier to resect. 387 00:16:50,342 --> 00:16:51,707 It's a minimal gain for you. 388 00:16:51,777 --> 00:16:54,473 I will take what I can get. I am trying to save your life! 389 00:16:54,546 --> 00:16:57,106 You are making me feel like I've already died. 390 00:16:57,182 --> 00:16:58,945 I'm sick. I'm losing my hair. 391 00:16:59,018 --> 00:17:01,350 I refuse to spend the last few months of my life 392 00:17:01,420 --> 00:17:02,717 feeling like a pile of crap. 393 00:17:02,788 --> 00:17:03,777 No more. 394 00:17:03,856 --> 00:17:05,323 That's final. 395 00:17:06,692 --> 00:17:07,852 WOMAN: (OVER PA) Dr. Stanley, please report... 396 00:17:07,926 --> 00:17:10,588 I am going to give you more than a few months. 397 00:17:10,662 --> 00:17:13,358 I am going to save your life. 398 00:17:13,432 --> 00:17:16,026 And I am about to get up in front of a bunch of people 399 00:17:16,101 --> 00:17:18,126 and tell them how I plan on doing it. 400 00:17:18,203 --> 00:17:21,070 It makes it really hard for me to do that 401 00:17:21,140 --> 00:17:24,576 or even care about doing that when you don't seem to care at all! 402 00:17:24,643 --> 00:17:26,838 Well, that's your problem. 403 00:17:27,012 --> 00:17:28,001 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 404 00:17:29,681 --> 00:17:31,205 (INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS) 405 00:17:32,217 --> 00:17:34,310 RICHARD: Well, the word's spreading. 406 00:17:34,386 --> 00:17:38,345 This was a good idea, Hunt, a master class in neurosurgery. 407 00:17:38,424 --> 00:17:40,585 This is gonna put Amelia Shepherd on the map. 408 00:17:40,659 --> 00:17:41,717 Unless it fails. 409 00:17:41,794 --> 00:17:43,159 It won't. 410 00:17:43,662 --> 00:17:45,027 If it does, 411 00:17:45,898 --> 00:17:48,128 there's a lesson in that, too. 412 00:17:51,770 --> 00:17:53,829 So, she just spitballs this stuff with you? 413 00:17:53,906 --> 00:17:56,773 It's just the two of you hanging out, talking tumor? 414 00:17:56,842 --> 00:17:57,968 Pretty much. 415 00:17:58,043 --> 00:17:59,704 - I want to talk tumor! - (CHUCKLES) 416 00:17:59,778 --> 00:18:01,712 I want to talk tumor so bad. 417 00:18:03,015 --> 00:18:05,313 - Oh, my God. Look at that thing. - Yeah. 418 00:18:05,384 --> 00:18:08,842 Previous attempts to treat Dr. Herman's tumor with radiation 419 00:18:08,921 --> 00:18:10,946 proved unsuccessful. 420 00:18:11,023 --> 00:18:12,285 I had hoped 421 00:18:12,357 --> 00:18:15,554 to use high radioactive doses to reduce the margins, 422 00:18:15,627 --> 00:18:20,428 but at this juncture, that course seems to be unrealistic. 423 00:18:21,934 --> 00:18:23,959 But that's not enough to make me quit. 424 00:18:24,036 --> 00:18:29,770 This tumor is fierce and intimidating and aggressive, 425 00:18:29,842 --> 00:18:31,139 but so am I. 426 00:18:35,414 --> 00:18:36,904 DR. HERMAN: Now, the trick to this is, 427 00:18:36,982 --> 00:18:38,950 you can't touch the vessel while you're lasering the mass, 428 00:18:39,017 --> 00:18:41,008 not even a little bit. If you do... 429 00:18:41,086 --> 00:18:43,418 ARIZONA: The field fills with blood, obscuring the camera, 430 00:18:43,489 --> 00:18:45,116 and visualization is compromised. 431 00:18:45,190 --> 00:18:48,353 First, I need to see the tumor, all of it, 432 00:18:48,427 --> 00:18:51,396 every margin, every last ripple and ridge. 433 00:18:51,463 --> 00:18:53,431 So, what do you do? 434 00:18:53,499 --> 00:18:54,557 I have two choices, 435 00:18:54,633 --> 00:18:56,533 open her up and stop the bleeding if I can, 436 00:18:56,602 --> 00:18:59,230 or deliver the baby regardless of how early. 437 00:18:59,304 --> 00:19:00,293 Very good. 438 00:19:00,372 --> 00:19:05,139 So, I will employ fluorescein dye to delineate every border of the tumor, 439 00:19:05,210 --> 00:19:09,909 to help me anticipate every possible problem before I get to it. 440 00:19:10,616 --> 00:19:13,176 I don't want to leave anything up to chance. 441 00:19:13,252 --> 00:19:14,742 - (MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY) - What happened? 442 00:19:14,820 --> 00:19:15,878 MAGGIE: The pressure's dropped. 443 00:19:15,954 --> 00:19:17,512 She's in a lot of pain, and she's cramping. 444 00:19:17,589 --> 00:19:19,386 It hurts! It hurts, it hurts! 445 00:19:19,458 --> 00:19:20,755 It's okay, Julie. We've got you, we've got you. 446 00:19:20,826 --> 00:19:22,020 She has a vasa previa. 447 00:19:22,094 --> 00:19:23,425 She's scheduled for an ablation tomorrow. 448 00:19:23,495 --> 00:19:25,622 I've been trying to get her pressure back up, 449 00:19:25,697 --> 00:19:27,324 but there is no fetal heartbeat. 450 00:19:29,001 --> 00:19:31,026 Damn it. Where's her husband? 451 00:19:32,404 --> 00:19:33,769 JULIE: Is that blood? I'm bleeding? 452 00:19:33,839 --> 00:19:35,773 Gown me. Keep him out of here. 453 00:19:35,841 --> 00:19:38,537 Robbins, you're gonna get this baby out right here, right now. 454 00:19:38,610 --> 00:19:39,599 Here? 455 00:19:39,678 --> 00:19:41,373 DR. HERMAN: We need a C-section tray set up in here. 456 00:19:41,446 --> 00:19:42,606 Call peds. Get an incubator, stat. 457 00:19:42,681 --> 00:19:44,171 Wait! What? I'm gonna have the baby now? 458 00:19:44,249 --> 00:19:46,547 Julie, I'm gonna give you something to calm you down, okay? 459 00:19:46,618 --> 00:19:48,518 ARIZONA: I never had to do a crash "C" on my own before, okay? 460 00:19:48,587 --> 00:19:49,986 - I mean, not like this. - DR. HERMAN: You know what to do. 461 00:19:50,055 --> 00:19:52,853 It's the same three basic steps, just like any other C-section, 462 00:19:52,925 --> 00:19:54,722 open the abdomen, open the uterus, deliver. 463 00:19:54,793 --> 00:19:55,953 Okay, I'm okay. 464 00:19:56,028 --> 00:19:57,552 Pressure's steady at 100-60. 465 00:19:57,629 --> 00:19:58,960 - Okay, I can do this. - Betadine. 466 00:19:59,031 --> 00:20:00,020 ARIZONA: Okay. 467 00:20:01,400 --> 00:20:02,833 - DR. HERMAN: Robbins? - I'll do... I'll do this. 468 00:20:02,901 --> 00:20:05,165 It's fine, Robbins. I'll do it. 469 00:20:05,237 --> 00:20:06,465 Scalpel. 470 00:20:11,577 --> 00:20:12,839 - I'm so sorry. - (SOBBING) 471 00:20:12,911 --> 00:20:15,141 We did everything we could do. 472 00:20:16,215 --> 00:20:17,546 (SOBBING CONTINUES) 473 00:20:17,616 --> 00:20:19,083 I'm so sorry. 474 00:20:25,023 --> 00:20:26,012 (SOBBING CONTINUES) 475 00:20:29,127 --> 00:20:31,118 Good job. Let's go. 476 00:20:34,633 --> 00:20:36,328 (SOBBING) 477 00:20:36,501 --> 00:20:38,025 - (DOOR CLOSES) - Stop crying. 478 00:20:38,637 --> 00:20:39,729 For the love of... 479 00:20:39,805 --> 00:20:41,534 - Stop crying! - I'm... 480 00:20:41,607 --> 00:20:42,596 Stop it now! Just... 481 00:20:43,842 --> 00:20:45,503 Stop it right now. 482 00:20:50,215 --> 00:20:51,978 There's no time for crying. 483 00:20:53,485 --> 00:20:54,747 We have work to do. 484 00:21:00,459 --> 00:21:02,393 What? How... How can you even... 485 00:21:02,461 --> 00:21:03,860 'Cause that's the way it goes, Robbins. 486 00:21:05,230 --> 00:21:06,254 (SIGHS) 487 00:21:06,331 --> 00:21:07,958 Call Bailey. 488 00:21:08,033 --> 00:21:09,022 Tell her we're on. 489 00:21:28,553 --> 00:21:30,145 AMELIA: Now, arguably, 490 00:21:30,222 --> 00:21:34,090 the most important part of the brain is the part that makes us hope, 491 00:21:35,060 --> 00:21:36,220 dream, 492 00:21:37,496 --> 00:21:39,123 imagine. 493 00:21:39,197 --> 00:21:42,064 One singular, almost immeasurable part 494 00:21:42,134 --> 00:21:45,160 is what makes you you 495 00:21:46,471 --> 00:21:48,530 and me me, 496 00:21:48,607 --> 00:21:50,973 and everyone, everyone. 497 00:21:51,043 --> 00:21:53,307 It's technically called the fornix, 498 00:21:54,713 --> 00:21:56,408 but I call it the "dream box." 499 00:21:58,884 --> 00:22:00,909 - The question is - (MONITOR BEEPS) 500 00:22:01,586 --> 00:22:04,851 What happens when the dream box is being invaded, 501 00:22:04,923 --> 00:22:08,825 when a tumor is so large, so demanding, 502 00:22:09,861 --> 00:22:11,886 it's sucking the dream box dry? 503 00:22:11,963 --> 00:22:15,865 It's taking over, it's stealing away hopes and dreams. 504 00:22:17,969 --> 00:22:21,461 Imagine, when that tumor is removed, what... 505 00:22:22,207 --> 00:22:24,038 What will actually be left? 506 00:22:25,644 --> 00:22:27,612 Or, rather, who is left? 507 00:22:29,314 --> 00:22:30,576 Anything? 508 00:22:32,050 --> 00:22:33,278 Anyone? 509 00:22:34,853 --> 00:22:39,085 I remember my mom telling me once that when we die, we go to heaven. 510 00:22:39,157 --> 00:22:40,954 I couldn't picture it. 511 00:22:41,026 --> 00:22:44,154 All I could imagine was what we see in cartoons, 512 00:22:44,229 --> 00:22:46,925 little people in robes with wings, sitting on clouds. 513 00:22:47,866 --> 00:22:50,426 But nobody really knows what's up there, do they? 514 00:22:50,502 --> 00:22:53,562 When I was a kid, I used to think that we were like dandelions, 515 00:22:53,638 --> 00:22:56,505 like, the part that makes us us 516 00:22:56,575 --> 00:22:59,976 would just blow away and land and grow into... 517 00:23:00,045 --> 00:23:02,240 I don't want to be buried, by the way. Have me cremated. 518 00:23:02,314 --> 00:23:03,781 Excuse me? 519 00:23:03,849 --> 00:23:05,714 If I survive the surgery but don't wake up, 520 00:23:05,784 --> 00:23:08,582 give me five days, a week, tops, 521 00:23:08,653 --> 00:23:10,018 - then pull the plug. - This is... 522 00:23:10,088 --> 00:23:11,385 We don't need to be talking about this. 523 00:23:11,456 --> 00:23:15,358 If I do wake up but I'm dependent on vents or tubes, pull the plug then, too. 524 00:23:15,427 --> 00:23:17,622 You know what? You're not... You're not dying. 525 00:23:17,696 --> 00:23:18,720 You're not gonna wake up gorked. 526 00:23:18,797 --> 00:23:20,321 Shepherd knows what she's doing. She does. 527 00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:21,388 - Okay. - Sure. 528 00:23:21,466 --> 00:23:23,161 - She does! - I heard you. 529 00:23:24,803 --> 00:23:26,168 - (SIGHS) - (WINGS FLUTTERING) 530 00:23:26,238 --> 00:23:28,001 That bird is gonna poop on us. 531 00:23:28,073 --> 00:23:29,097 (BIRD CHIRPS) 532 00:23:29,174 --> 00:23:30,300 What's next today? 533 00:23:30,375 --> 00:23:31,399 Glenda Castillo. 534 00:23:31,843 --> 00:23:33,743 GLENDA: I'm so glad you brought me back in. 535 00:23:33,812 --> 00:23:35,211 - (HEARTBEAT) - Have a look. 536 00:23:36,181 --> 00:23:40,447 Well, the teratoma has grown. It's showing early signs of hydrops. 537 00:23:40,519 --> 00:23:41,543 Is everything okay? 538 00:23:41,620 --> 00:23:45,647 Glenda, your baby's retaining fluid, which is starting to affect his heart. 539 00:23:45,724 --> 00:23:47,885 I'm recommending we do the surgery tonight. 540 00:23:47,959 --> 00:23:50,553 Tonight? No, that's way too soon. 541 00:23:50,629 --> 00:23:52,790 DR. HERMAN: The tumor is creating pressure on your placenta. 542 00:23:52,864 --> 00:23:56,595 It's not only endangering the baby, but now it's putting you at risk. 543 00:23:56,668 --> 00:23:58,966 But my baby wouldn't survive, would he, 544 00:23:59,037 --> 00:24:01,005 if you suddenly had to deliver? 545 00:24:01,072 --> 00:24:02,699 'Cause I'm only 24 weeks along, 546 00:24:02,774 --> 00:24:04,901 and I know that it would help him if he had time to grow, right? 547 00:24:04,976 --> 00:24:06,603 If I could just hold on for a few more weeks... 548 00:24:06,678 --> 00:24:08,043 DR. HERMAN: It's not what's best for you. 549 00:24:08,113 --> 00:24:09,478 I don't care about me. 550 00:24:09,548 --> 00:24:11,413 Glenda, if Dr. Herman thinks that... 551 00:24:11,483 --> 00:24:14,247 No, my husband is dead. 552 00:24:14,319 --> 00:24:19,313 But this baby that is inside of me, this baby of ours, I cannot risk his life. 553 00:24:19,391 --> 00:24:20,380 I won't. 554 00:24:20,459 --> 00:24:24,486 So, if there is a choice between helping me or helping my baby, 555 00:24:24,563 --> 00:24:26,121 I choose my baby. 556 00:24:28,200 --> 00:24:29,895 What does she think we're trying to do here? 557 00:24:29,968 --> 00:24:31,936 I am not negotiating with a patient. 558 00:24:32,003 --> 00:24:34,631 I am the doctor. I'm gonna tell her when we're... 559 00:24:34,706 --> 00:24:35,695 (LAUGHS) 560 00:24:36,775 --> 00:24:37,764 I'm sorry. 561 00:24:37,843 --> 00:24:39,333 - Robbins, what the hell? - What's funny about this? 562 00:24:39,411 --> 00:24:41,641 I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It's just... It's just... 563 00:24:41,713 --> 00:24:44,375 It's funny listening to you get so bent out of shape 564 00:24:44,449 --> 00:24:47,179 when this is the exact same thing that you've been doing to Amelia Shepherd 565 00:24:47,252 --> 00:24:49,015 ever since she offered to save her life. 566 00:24:49,087 --> 00:24:52,818 I mean, she has. Exactly. "We'll do the surgery when I'm ready." 567 00:24:52,891 --> 00:24:55,883 And it's so frustrating. It's torture, and it drives us crazy. 568 00:24:55,961 --> 00:24:57,758 So, it's just fun to watch it happen to you. 569 00:24:57,829 --> 00:24:58,853 It's like divine justice. 570 00:24:58,930 --> 00:25:01,558 Pretend that I'm not here. Keep going. 571 00:25:04,336 --> 00:25:08,773 I will give Ms. Castillo an extra week, but I want her admitted. 572 00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:11,968 And if she so much as hiccups funny, I'm taking her to surgery. 573 00:25:12,043 --> 00:25:13,237 Understood. 574 00:25:14,179 --> 00:25:16,670 Hey, thank you for taking her case. 575 00:25:19,150 --> 00:25:21,448 - (CHUCKLES) - Oh, shut up. (CHUCKLES) 576 00:25:22,621 --> 00:25:23,610 (LAUGHTER) 577 00:25:27,859 --> 00:25:29,190 (LAUGHING) I can't... 578 00:25:31,963 --> 00:25:33,157 Holy... 579 00:25:33,565 --> 00:25:34,554 (GROANS) 580 00:25:35,534 --> 00:25:40,403 How do I access that area of the brain when it's so hidden? 581 00:25:40,972 --> 00:25:43,202 And once I access that area, 582 00:25:43,275 --> 00:25:46,733 even with the perfect tools, the perfect approach, 583 00:25:48,513 --> 00:25:50,344 how do I keep from screwing it up? 584 00:25:53,685 --> 00:25:57,587 AMELIA: If there's edema, it's post-fixed. It's too narrow, too close to the fornix. 585 00:25:57,656 --> 00:25:59,647 If I hit the hypothalamus, game over. 586 00:25:59,724 --> 00:26:02,921 Not gonna work, not gonna work, not gonna work. 587 00:26:02,994 --> 00:26:04,928 Come on! 588 00:26:04,996 --> 00:26:06,156 Do you want some food? 589 00:26:06,231 --> 00:26:08,131 AMELIA: Have I figured this out yet? 590 00:26:08,199 --> 00:26:09,223 No. 591 00:26:09,301 --> 00:26:10,666 Then I don't want any food. 592 00:26:12,470 --> 00:26:14,301 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 593 00:26:17,709 --> 00:26:20,143 This has never been done before. 594 00:26:20,211 --> 00:26:21,269 All these steps 595 00:26:21,346 --> 00:26:25,908 in this order on this kind of tumor, has never been done. 596 00:26:25,984 --> 00:26:28,111 Is that a good thing or a bad thing? 597 00:26:28,186 --> 00:26:31,678 Who do I even think I am? Who am I to even try this? 598 00:26:31,756 --> 00:26:33,656 - Okay, a bad thing. - (SIGHS) 599 00:26:38,029 --> 00:26:40,361 STEPHANIE: Have you called your brother? 600 00:26:43,034 --> 00:26:44,092 What did I say about my brother? 601 00:26:44,169 --> 00:26:46,034 I know. You don't need him. 602 00:26:46,104 --> 00:26:49,073 I was just thinking you could, 603 00:26:49,140 --> 00:26:51,199 just to have someone to bounce these ideas off of 604 00:26:51,276 --> 00:26:54,905 who understands this kind of thing the way that you do, 605 00:26:54,980 --> 00:26:56,174 a peer. 606 00:26:57,582 --> 00:26:58,742 He might have a suggestion. 607 00:26:58,817 --> 00:27:00,910 I do not need my brother! 608 00:27:00,986 --> 00:27:04,478 I am not stuck! I am thinking! I am figuring it out! 609 00:27:04,556 --> 00:27:06,956 I am right on the edge of figuring it out, 610 00:27:07,025 --> 00:27:09,220 of making the breakthrough of a lifetime! 611 00:27:09,294 --> 00:27:10,318 I am this close! 612 00:27:10,395 --> 00:27:12,590 My genius is flying around this room right now, 613 00:27:12,664 --> 00:27:14,495 trying to find a clear path to land on me, 614 00:27:14,566 --> 00:27:18,434 but I can't clear the runway for landing because I can't find any quiet 615 00:27:18,503 --> 00:27:21,597 because some idiot resident keeps talking to me! 616 00:27:25,276 --> 00:27:26,641 (PAPERS RUSTLING) 617 00:27:27,646 --> 00:27:30,206 I shouldn't have said that. I didn't mean it. 618 00:27:30,281 --> 00:27:32,806 I'm tired, and I'm frustrated. I... 619 00:27:34,686 --> 00:27:36,677 I am so sorry. I just... 620 00:27:38,623 --> 00:27:40,853 This tumor is making me crazy. 621 00:27:41,493 --> 00:27:42,983 Edwards. 622 00:27:43,061 --> 00:27:45,222 As bad as you want to get that tumor, 623 00:27:45,296 --> 00:27:48,732 that's as bad as I want to watch you get that tumor. 624 00:27:48,800 --> 00:27:52,930 You're tired and frustrated and terrified, but guess what. 625 00:27:53,004 --> 00:27:55,598 I don't give a damn. You're supposed to be my mentor. 626 00:27:56,541 --> 00:27:58,668 You are my mentor. 627 00:27:58,743 --> 00:28:02,873 I believe in you, I look up to you, I want to be you. 628 00:28:03,915 --> 00:28:07,976 That's an enormous responsibility, so don't call me names. 629 00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:12,251 And stop pouting because you don't understand what to do. 630 00:28:12,323 --> 00:28:16,783 Be worthy of being believed in, of being looked up to. 631 00:28:17,696 --> 00:28:21,097 Or if you can't actually be worthy, if I am actually wasting my time, 632 00:28:21,166 --> 00:28:24,033 if there is nothing about you that is special or wise, 633 00:28:24,102 --> 00:28:28,232 for God's sake, at least have the decency to pretend that there is. 634 00:28:30,008 --> 00:28:31,873 Get it together, Dr. Shepherd. 635 00:28:38,883 --> 00:28:39,872 (DOOR CLOSES) 636 00:28:41,119 --> 00:28:42,108 (SIGHS) 637 00:28:46,191 --> 00:28:48,421 Get it together, Dr. Shepherd. 638 00:28:53,998 --> 00:28:54,987 (LAUGHS) 639 00:29:14,786 --> 00:29:16,344 (CELLPHONE CHIMING, VIBRATING) 640 00:29:18,289 --> 00:29:20,223 (LAUGHTER, INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS) 641 00:29:20,992 --> 00:29:22,459 ARIZONA: Okay, bye. 642 00:29:23,628 --> 00:29:24,686 Bye. 643 00:29:27,398 --> 00:29:29,628 Hey. Um, how are you? 644 00:29:29,701 --> 00:29:30,725 Uh, good. 645 00:29:30,802 --> 00:29:32,394 How's Dr. Herman? Is she good? Is everything good? 646 00:29:32,470 --> 00:29:34,529 Yeah, I mean, she's killing me with back-to-back surgeries but... 647 00:29:34,606 --> 00:29:36,073 Yeah, and Amelia's plan? You good with that? 648 00:29:36,808 --> 00:29:38,867 - Callie, what are you... (SIGHS) - What? 649 00:29:38,943 --> 00:29:40,911 I'm not... I'm just checking in, okay? 650 00:29:40,979 --> 00:29:44,847 I'm just seeing how you are and how... 651 00:29:44,916 --> 00:29:45,905 Callie? 652 00:29:45,984 --> 00:29:46,973 Well, it just seems 653 00:29:47,051 --> 00:29:48,951 like you and Dr. Herman are getting along really, really well, 654 00:29:49,020 --> 00:29:50,749 and you used to complain that she was killing you, 655 00:29:50,822 --> 00:29:52,050 but now you're happy that she's killing you, 656 00:29:52,123 --> 00:29:54,091 and it seems like you really, really like her. 657 00:29:54,159 --> 00:29:56,627 I do. Actually, I do. (CHUCKLES) She's great. I mean, she's amazing. 658 00:29:56,694 --> 00:29:57,888 And she's sick. 659 00:29:57,962 --> 00:30:00,487 - So, I worry. - Amelia's got it covered. 660 00:30:00,565 --> 00:30:02,965 - She's gonna be fine. - I worry about you. 661 00:30:03,034 --> 00:30:04,296 I know I shouldn't. 662 00:30:04,369 --> 00:30:07,429 I know it's none of my business, but old habits. 663 00:30:07,505 --> 00:30:09,200 Well, that's, um... 664 00:30:10,375 --> 00:30:11,569 Thanks. 665 00:30:11,643 --> 00:30:13,008 (CELLPHONE CHIMES, VIBRATES) 666 00:30:14,145 --> 00:30:15,442 ARIZONA: I got to go. CALLIE: Okay, okay. 667 00:30:15,513 --> 00:30:16,502 MAN: That's tall. 668 00:30:16,581 --> 00:30:18,208 WOMAN: Yeah. Really big. 669 00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:24,753 Just so you know, the auditorium is packed. 670 00:30:24,823 --> 00:30:26,688 The fire marshal actually made me move a bunch of people 671 00:30:26,758 --> 00:30:28,726 out to an overflow room. 672 00:30:31,296 --> 00:30:32,695 Amelia. 673 00:30:32,764 --> 00:30:34,755 Just give me a minute. 674 00:30:34,833 --> 00:30:35,959 Amelia. 675 00:30:36,034 --> 00:30:37,262 Hang on. 676 00:30:38,036 --> 00:30:39,867 (BREATHING DEEPLY) 677 00:30:40,371 --> 00:30:42,100 You can talk to me. 678 00:30:42,173 --> 00:30:43,868 You're wound pretty tight. 679 00:30:44,709 --> 00:30:47,473 I just want you to know you can talk to me. 680 00:30:49,247 --> 00:30:50,236 (SIGHS) 681 00:30:52,584 --> 00:30:54,609 My whole career, I have been the other Dr. Shepherd. 682 00:30:56,287 --> 00:30:58,881 He's the real one. I'm the other one. 683 00:31:00,758 --> 00:31:03,420 Right now, this plan of mine is theoretical. 684 00:31:04,596 --> 00:31:05,756 It's just talk. 685 00:31:05,830 --> 00:31:09,857 But at some point, I am going to slice into Dr. Herman's brain, 686 00:31:09,934 --> 00:31:14,598 and I have this sick feeling that when I face that tumor, 687 00:31:16,708 --> 00:31:20,337 I will discover that I am not just the other Dr. Shepherd. 688 00:31:22,881 --> 00:31:24,974 I'm the wrong Dr. Shepherd. 689 00:31:28,086 --> 00:31:29,451 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 690 00:31:32,523 --> 00:31:34,252 Hey. 691 00:31:34,325 --> 00:31:36,122 911? What's going on? 692 00:31:39,931 --> 00:31:41,956 Look, I know you've been having me take the lead so I can learn, 693 00:31:42,033 --> 00:31:43,728 - but you need to handle this case. - Why would I do that? 694 00:31:43,801 --> 00:31:46,497 Because it's emergent, and I've never tried cutting umbilical bands. 695 00:31:46,571 --> 00:31:48,334 - First time for everything. - Well... 696 00:31:48,406 --> 00:31:51,273 Listen to me, okay? I'm not ready to take this over yet. 697 00:31:51,342 --> 00:31:52,570 Doesn't matter. 698 00:31:52,644 --> 00:31:54,703 Stop! Stop! 699 00:31:54,779 --> 00:31:57,009 You... You're not hearing me. 700 00:31:57,081 --> 00:31:58,708 It does matter. I'm not ready. 701 00:31:58,783 --> 00:32:00,717 And you think I am? 702 00:32:00,785 --> 00:32:03,083 You think this is easy for me? 703 00:32:03,154 --> 00:32:04,246 You think I'm ready? 704 00:32:05,056 --> 00:32:08,719 I was fine. I got fine with dying. 705 00:32:08,793 --> 00:32:11,193 And then you infected me with your stupid... 706 00:32:11,262 --> 00:32:14,720 With Shepherd and her plan and your stupid hope. 707 00:32:14,799 --> 00:32:17,131 (VOICE BREAKING) And now it's harder than ever 708 00:32:18,236 --> 00:32:19,703 to hand all this over. 709 00:32:20,972 --> 00:32:22,530 I don't want to. 710 00:32:22,607 --> 00:32:25,007 I'm scared to. 711 00:32:25,076 --> 00:32:28,910 And I'm scared to let go of it, and it's all your fault, so... 712 00:32:30,715 --> 00:32:33,411 I think the very least you could do is deserve it. 713 00:32:33,484 --> 00:32:36,385 Take over, do well, make me not regret it. 714 00:32:36,454 --> 00:32:37,614 Can you do that? 715 00:32:39,023 --> 00:32:40,012 Please? 716 00:32:41,392 --> 00:32:44,919 AMELIA: This is the part where things get a little fast and furious. 717 00:32:44,996 --> 00:32:48,727 It is arguably the most dangerous, 718 00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:51,667 most precarious portion of the operation. 719 00:32:51,736 --> 00:32:54,603 It also needs to happen the fastest. 720 00:32:54,672 --> 00:32:58,608 Every step, every move before this 721 00:32:58,676 --> 00:33:00,576 has laid the groundwork for this very moment, 722 00:33:00,645 --> 00:33:03,739 the moment where I place the radioactive seeds. 723 00:33:03,815 --> 00:33:05,612 It requires precision... 724 00:33:05,683 --> 00:33:07,981 I just need to slip these shears under the band. 725 00:33:08,052 --> 00:33:10,282 ...and accuracy and speed, 726 00:33:10,355 --> 00:33:12,823 things that do not go together well. 727 00:33:12,890 --> 00:33:14,517 ARIZONA: (SIGHS) I can't get the last band. 728 00:33:14,592 --> 00:33:16,150 This grip's not flexible enough. 729 00:33:16,227 --> 00:33:18,422 DR. HERMAN: Can you coax it through? 730 00:33:18,496 --> 00:33:20,623 It's not... No. It won't give. 731 00:33:20,698 --> 00:33:22,598 - You have to cut that last band. - I know. 732 00:33:22,667 --> 00:33:25,431 - Have you tried a smaller scissor? - It's not the problem. 733 00:33:25,503 --> 00:33:28,529 Imagine picking up little grains of salt 734 00:33:29,540 --> 00:33:31,007 while wearing oven mitts. 735 00:33:31,075 --> 00:33:34,567 That is what I'm doing inside somebody's brain. 736 00:33:34,645 --> 00:33:35,634 ARIZONA: Hand me a glove. 737 00:33:36,481 --> 00:33:38,176 - DR. HERMAN: What? - Somebody hand me a glove. Scissors. 738 00:33:38,249 --> 00:33:40,979 There's this thing that we used to do in peds. 739 00:33:41,052 --> 00:33:42,041 I think it'll work. 740 00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:45,112 I just need a more flexible opening, and I can make it out of a glove. 741 00:33:45,189 --> 00:33:46,554 That's not in my notes, Robbins. 742 00:33:48,993 --> 00:33:49,982 (MONITOR BEEPING) 743 00:33:58,469 --> 00:34:00,903 DR. HERMAN: Are you serious? ARIZONA: It's gonna work. 744 00:34:01,973 --> 00:34:04,100 But once I do it, 745 00:34:04,175 --> 00:34:06,507 once I place the final seed, 746 00:34:08,079 --> 00:34:09,273 well... 747 00:34:10,348 --> 00:34:12,111 It's smooth sailing. 748 00:34:12,750 --> 00:34:14,274 Ha! Did you see that? 749 00:34:14,352 --> 00:34:17,048 It worked! It absolutely worked! 750 00:34:21,092 --> 00:34:23,185 'Night, 'night, tumor baby. 751 00:34:24,328 --> 00:34:26,057 It has been lovely, 752 00:34:27,098 --> 00:34:28,087 but we are done. 753 00:34:29,067 --> 00:34:30,694 (AUDIENCE CHEERING AND APPLAUDING) 754 00:34:39,343 --> 00:34:41,834 I'd like to open things up to a few questions. 755 00:34:41,913 --> 00:34:43,403 Yes. 756 00:34:43,481 --> 00:34:44,778 Are you nervous? 757 00:34:47,452 --> 00:34:49,852 I'd be crazy not to be. 758 00:34:49,921 --> 00:34:53,049 Yes, of course I'm nervous, but I'm also very excited. 759 00:34:53,124 --> 00:34:55,285 This is history. 760 00:34:55,359 --> 00:34:57,554 This surgery will be history. 761 00:34:58,796 --> 00:35:01,094 How could I not be excited about that? 762 00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:04,566 Excellent, excellent. 763 00:35:05,269 --> 00:35:07,863 - You should be very proud of yourself. - (CHUCKLES) 764 00:35:09,674 --> 00:35:10,936 Close up now. 765 00:35:11,008 --> 00:35:13,238 Where are you going? 766 00:35:14,178 --> 00:35:17,238 What you're describing is seven different surgeries 767 00:35:17,315 --> 00:35:19,749 all using the hardest techniques you've ever tried. 768 00:35:19,817 --> 00:35:23,719 How long do you anticipate the entire surgery actually taking? 769 00:35:23,788 --> 00:35:25,050 18 hours. 770 00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:27,614 Give or take some hours. 771 00:35:27,725 --> 00:35:28,714 (AUDIENCE LAUGHING) 772 00:35:29,227 --> 00:35:30,558 Follow-up question. 773 00:35:30,628 --> 00:35:33,290 Do you need a second resident on the case? 774 00:35:33,364 --> 00:35:35,924 Not unless Edwards is planning to bail on me. 775 00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:37,627 You planning to bail, Edwards? 776 00:35:37,702 --> 00:35:39,101 No, ma'am. 777 00:35:45,476 --> 00:35:47,501 AMELIA: Yes, in the back. 778 00:35:47,578 --> 00:35:49,205 Will you have help? 779 00:35:49,680 --> 00:35:52,114 Um, sorry? 780 00:35:52,183 --> 00:35:53,514 Well, I'm just... 781 00:35:53,584 --> 00:35:55,814 Well, are you gonna be doing this whole surgery yourself, 782 00:35:55,887 --> 00:35:57,411 or is Derek, Dr. Shepherd coming? 783 00:35:58,222 --> 00:36:00,247 I'm... I'm just... I'm just asking. 784 00:36:00,324 --> 00:36:02,519 I mean, given everything, is it a good idea? 785 00:36:02,593 --> 00:36:04,356 Should you be doing this yourself? 786 00:36:04,962 --> 00:36:06,293 (AUDIENCE MURMURS) 787 00:36:06,364 --> 00:36:09,026 Well, I am, so... 788 00:36:11,969 --> 00:36:13,197 Next question. 789 00:36:21,612 --> 00:36:23,477 I need you to scan me. 790 00:36:24,682 --> 00:36:28,880 Something's happening. I'm experiencing symptoms. 791 00:36:28,953 --> 00:36:33,151 Fuzziness around the edges, a little like blinders, 792 00:36:33,224 --> 00:36:35,658 and it's dark... 793 00:36:35,726 --> 00:36:38,388 Darker than it should be, I think. 794 00:36:42,033 --> 00:36:43,125 Okay. 795 00:36:45,536 --> 00:36:46,798 AMELIA: Let's go. 796 00:37:11,362 --> 00:37:13,057 (MACHINE WHIRRING) 797 00:37:20,705 --> 00:37:21,729 (SIGHS) 798 00:37:21,806 --> 00:37:23,273 - ARIZONA: Bailey? - Where's Dr. Herman? 799 00:37:23,341 --> 00:37:25,434 She stepped out. What do you need? 800 00:37:25,509 --> 00:37:27,306 Uh, it's Glenda Castillo. 801 00:37:27,945 --> 00:37:28,934 (MONITOR BEEPING) 802 00:37:29,680 --> 00:37:30,942 Hey, I need Herman right now. 803 00:37:31,015 --> 00:37:32,676 Glenda Castillo's baby is in distress, 804 00:37:32,750 --> 00:37:35,446 and Glenda is severely hypertensive, showing signs of heart failure. 805 00:37:35,519 --> 00:37:39,683 We need to operate on her immediately, so if you could finish up... 806 00:37:39,757 --> 00:37:41,122 What are you doing? 807 00:37:41,192 --> 00:37:42,716 - Why are you standing there? I... - Arizona. 808 00:37:47,832 --> 00:37:48,821 Oh, God. 809 00:37:50,434 --> 00:37:51,423 It's time. 810 00:37:52,370 --> 00:37:53,428 Now? 811 00:37:58,509 --> 00:38:00,033 I'm gonna go... 812 00:38:02,113 --> 00:38:03,478 Get an OR ready. 813 00:38:03,547 --> 00:38:04,639 Okay. 814 00:38:05,716 --> 00:38:06,808 Okay. 815 00:38:08,986 --> 00:38:10,283 You ready for this? 816 00:38:13,324 --> 00:38:14,313 Mmm-hmm. 817 00:38:16,093 --> 00:38:17,117 Amelia. 818 00:38:18,963 --> 00:38:20,624 I'll get an OR prepped. 819 00:38:21,932 --> 00:38:23,797 You'll inform the patient? 820 00:38:31,275 --> 00:38:33,072 Oh, Robbins. 821 00:38:33,144 --> 00:38:34,441 (GRUNTS) Surgery's all finished? 822 00:38:34,512 --> 00:38:35,604 Yeah. 823 00:38:38,382 --> 00:38:39,406 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 824 00:38:39,483 --> 00:38:41,280 (SIGHS) I see. 825 00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:43,617 Shepherd's prepping the OR? 826 00:38:44,655 --> 00:38:45,713 Yes. 827 00:38:45,790 --> 00:38:47,087 If I had to guess, 828 00:38:47,158 --> 00:38:50,093 I'd say the tumor's invaded the optic chiasm. 829 00:38:54,965 --> 00:38:56,626 My chariot awaits. 830 00:38:58,936 --> 00:39:00,836 A little privacy, guys? 831 00:39:03,708 --> 00:39:07,269 Did you need me for something, a patient? 832 00:39:07,345 --> 00:39:08,471 Yeah. 833 00:39:08,546 --> 00:39:10,013 Glenda Castillo's baby has hydrops. 834 00:39:10,081 --> 00:39:11,844 Mom is mirroring, and she's going into CHF. 835 00:39:12,817 --> 00:39:13,806 Wow. 836 00:39:14,952 --> 00:39:16,783 Looks like a big day for both of us. 837 00:39:16,854 --> 00:39:19,152 What you need to do first 838 00:39:19,223 --> 00:39:22,124 is try to embolize the vessels fetoscopically. 839 00:39:22,193 --> 00:39:24,320 Make sure her blood pressure is stabilized. 840 00:39:24,395 --> 00:39:26,829 She has you. 841 00:39:26,897 --> 00:39:28,057 Amelia has you. 842 00:39:28,132 --> 00:39:30,396 This is the point where you trust her, okay? 843 00:39:30,468 --> 00:39:34,302 Don't go in without checking Glenda's platelet counts and crossmatching. 844 00:39:34,372 --> 00:39:37,170 This is the point where you trust her, okay? 845 00:39:38,776 --> 00:39:40,744 All set. 846 00:39:40,811 --> 00:39:42,438 Don't let Glenda's platelet count drop below... 847 00:39:42,513 --> 00:39:43,707 100. I know. 848 00:39:43,781 --> 00:39:45,681 - Will you tie me? - Yeah. 849 00:39:54,291 --> 00:39:55,280 (SIGHS) 850 00:40:04,568 --> 00:40:05,728 (SIGHS) 851 00:40:11,909 --> 00:40:13,274 Let's do this. 852 00:40:38,869 --> 00:40:42,168 DR. HERMAN: I never placed much value in wondering about an afterlife. 853 00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:45,902 My concern was always this life, what would I do with it? 854 00:40:45,976 --> 00:40:47,273 How would I make my mark? 855 00:40:47,344 --> 00:40:50,245 Be sure, be fast. You don't have half the time you imagine. 856 00:40:50,314 --> 00:40:52,509 Try to ablate all the vessels, but don't wait too long. 857 00:40:52,583 --> 00:40:54,050 Don't be afraid to make that call. 858 00:40:54,118 --> 00:40:56,052 If she's awake, she'll tell you for the 15th time 859 00:40:56,120 --> 00:40:57,747 to save her child's life before hers. 860 00:40:57,822 --> 00:41:00,882 Listen to her, let her say her piece, then you do what needs to be done. 861 00:41:00,958 --> 00:41:03,324 I don't think... I don't know... I don't know if I can do this. 862 00:41:03,394 --> 00:41:04,656 - I can't. I can't do this. - You can. 863 00:41:04,728 --> 00:41:06,389 - Nicole. - You will. 864 00:41:08,199 --> 00:41:10,463 Let's get you inside now, okay? 865 00:41:10,534 --> 00:41:12,934 DR. HERMAN: I wanted to break new ground. 866 00:41:15,573 --> 00:41:17,234 I wanted to leave a legacy. 867 00:41:18,476 --> 00:41:22,674 I wanted my life, my brain, my existence... 868 00:41:25,649 --> 00:41:27,446 To mean something. 869 00:41:31,755 --> 00:41:32,744 (AIR HISSING) 870 00:41:32,823 --> 00:41:34,688 Hey, hey, hey, you're gonna be fine, okay? 871 00:41:34,758 --> 00:41:37,249 Amelia's got this. You've got this. 872 00:41:38,062 --> 00:41:40,895 DR. HERMAN: The thing I never really thought about, though, 873 00:41:40,965 --> 00:41:44,958 the thing I never really wrapped my brain around until now was... 874 00:41:45,069 --> 00:41:46,195 (BREATHES DEEPLY) 875 00:41:47,538 --> 00:41:48,630 Wait, Robbins. 876 00:41:49,240 --> 00:41:51,435 No. Don't you dare. 877 00:41:51,509 --> 00:41:53,306 Don't you dare say it, Nicole. 878 00:41:53,377 --> 00:41:56,346 DR. HERMAN: ... in order to do that, in order to be remembered, 879 00:41:56,413 --> 00:41:58,938 in order to leave something significant behind... 880 00:42:00,150 --> 00:42:01,515 Time to go. 881 00:42:17,001 --> 00:42:18,798 ...you have to leave. 882 00:42:21,000 --> 00:42:29,000 Ripped By mstoll