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This is Alex.
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- Your partner.
- Yeah.
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He's a genius.
He went to university at the age of 15.
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The people I work with...
are inscrutable.
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Alex?
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What kind of relationship
did you have with him?
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- Did it involve sadism?
- No.
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I could never hurt Danny.
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Because he is the only friend I have.
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This man is called Alistair.
His parents are alive.
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Is it possible you enjoyed
extreme sexual encounters
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with someone who didn't want you
to know their name?
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He worked for Ml6.
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He was a spy.
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The police were concerned you might have
taken something from the crime scene.
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A personal item?
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Something of sentimental value?
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You wouldn't have done that, would you?
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Of course not.
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No. Of course not.
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Ripped By mstoll
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The newspaper has...
reported a series of lies.
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It's not the truth.
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You need to tell them the truth!
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You need to listen to me!
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I'm here today...
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to tell you the truth.
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I'm here today to tell you the truth.
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I'm here today to tell you the truth.
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I'm here today to tell you the truth.
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You... Fuck!
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I'm here to tell you the truth!
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In your phone call,
you asked how it all works.
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We took that as negotiating payment.
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Oh, no. Um...
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I've never spoken
to a journalist before.
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I don't want money.
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I'm here to tell you the truth.
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You used the word "partners"
to describe your relationship.
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- Yeah, we were partners.
- What do you mean by that?
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Um, I wanted to spend
the rest of my life with him.
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You'd been together eight
months?
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Yeah.
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During those eight months, how many
times had you visited the attic?
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I never visited the attic.
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Apart from when I discovered...
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But that was the only time...
that was the first time.
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- But you must have known about it.
- No.
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The activities that went on up there...
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Well, that's what
I'm trying to tell you.
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I don't think anything did
go on up there.
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Um, I never saw him use those items.
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I never heard him
talk about those things.
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You were his sexual partner
for eight months.
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He never mentioned sadism,
never asked you to participate?
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Never discussed these predilections?
You know nothing?
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Why won't you ask me
what I think happened to him?
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What do you think happened to him?
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He was murdered.
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Who murdered him?
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- I don't know.
- Why did they murder him?
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Not here.
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You don't use his name.
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Is it true you didn't even know it?
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Did he ever tell you he was in danger?
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No.
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OK, I get it.
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He's a spy. He needed to be careful.
You met by chance.
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First day, he lied,
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but eight months later, you want to
spend the rest of your lives together,
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and you're still using the wrong name
to say how much you love him.
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- He told me his name was Alex.
- People lie, Danny, and they lie well.
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Guys who own rooms like that attic...
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when it comes to sex,
they know what they want
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and how they want it.
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The sex is professional.
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He didn't know what he enjoyed.
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He'd never found out.
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Do you believe me?
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It doesn't matter what I believe.
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But, yes, I do.
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Journalists make difficult bedfellows.
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You can't just tell them what to print.
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You didn't want
to discuss it with me first.
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I knew you'd try
and talk me out of it.
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Make me think what a dumb idea it was.
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What is this? Mistrust?
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It is.
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I see.
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You trusted me with your life,
but not now, not with this.
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My life is small.
This is... organizations, institutions.
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You see me as one of them, don't you?
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The suit, the education, the job...
I'm part of the establishment.
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Well, aren't you?
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How dare you, young man!
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How dare you presume to know me?
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I know you because I've heard
every secret you have to tell.
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What do you know about me?
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Answer me.
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- I know...
- You know where I live.
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You know what films I like.
You know what music I listen to.
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Did you know
that I suffer from depression?
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Did you know that in the past I drank?
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Every night, every day,
every morning, I drank,
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until a stranger could smell it on me!
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Do you know just how fucking far I am
from being part of the establishment?
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How dare you mistrust me...
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when you don't know?
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You want to know who I am?
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Who I really am?
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I'll show you.
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Where are we going?
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Come on. Then you can decide
whether you trust me or not.
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This is the spot where my career
as a spy came to an end.
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I was a spy... a long time ago...
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in a world very different to this one.
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I was recruited at Cambridge.
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I said yes partly because it wouldn't
be a normal life and regular hours.
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I was desperate to avoid
the five o'clock home time...
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whilst not being bohemian enough
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to imagine a life
without a proper profession.
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Not very patriotic motives, I suppose.
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They rather liked that about me,
an utter lack of idealism.
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Romantics make unreliable spies.
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It was my third year with Ml6.
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I was traveling back to London
on the night train.
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A handsome man entered my carriage.
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Sat opposite me.
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The tips of our shoes touched.
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Our eyes chanced.
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He asked the most mundane questions
in the most exciting way.
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When we arrived in Paddington,
I went to the gentlemen's and waited...
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in a cubicle, door ajar... hoping.
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I can't tell you
how happy I was to see him.
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It meant that I hadn't been wrong.
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And that for the next 15 minutes or so,
I wouldn't be alone.
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After all of these years,
prudishness runs deep.
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The next day, I was approached
by a Soviet operative...
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who described how the Soviet Union
welcomed men like me.
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"Under communism, we're all equals."
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Once I'd completed my mission here,
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in a country that would
always hate my kind,
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I could set up home in Moscow
and be free.
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Some men like me
actually believed that line,
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but I was not one of them.
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So, all that remained was the blackmail.
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I'd be exposed.
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Arrested.
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Disgraced.
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So, that night...
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I bought a rope and came here.
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But sitting on that branch,
noose ready...
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I thought to myself,
"There is another way."
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You told your bosses you were gay?
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That's a wonderful wrong answer.
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However, the option did not yet exist.
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No.
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I explained to my section head
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that I had been approached
by a Soviet operative,
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and I detailed the nature
of the blackmail.
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He asked if the allegations were true.
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I admitted that I had
made a mistake with a man...
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and that the operative probably
had evidence of that mistake,
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but it was only once.
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An act of disgusting madness.
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"I'm not a homosexual,
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and I'm not a traitor!"
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Hard for them to believe
the second statement
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when they knew
that the first was a lie.
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So, I proposed preposterously
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they employ someone to follow me
for the rest of my life,
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photograph my every move.
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I would never touch another man.
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I didn't discover until later
that it hadn't been a Soviet operative.
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It had been an internal investigation.
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You've heard of a mole hunt?
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Well, this was a fag hunt,
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which they saw
as more or less the same thing.
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Her Majesty's Secret Service
had had its fingers burnt
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by one too many queer spies,
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but my prompt confession saved my life.
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I was moved from Ml6
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into what was then named
the Ministry for Transport,
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where I was little more
than a pen pusher,
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whispered about by those in the know.
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Out of gratitude and fear,
I kept my end of the bargain.
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And for 11 years,
I did not touch another man.
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Will you sleep?
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Then I propose
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we stay up all night and wait
for the morning papers together.
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- My office.
- Huh?
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Drug-test me.
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I need this.
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It's from his parents.
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Mr and Mrs Turner.
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Beautiful countryside around here.
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How long have you lived here?
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Didn't Alistair tell you?
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No.
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What did he tell you about us?
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The truth... please.
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He told me you were dead.
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We weren't close.
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Bathroom's opposite. It's all yours.
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- Is one towel enough?
- Plenty.
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We've already eaten.
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We won't stand here and watch.
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- How was dinner?
- Fine.
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Alistair. Tell me about him.
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Will you be able to sleep?
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Probably not.
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Alistair suffered from insomnia.
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Well, that's why
he enjoyed running so much.
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To exhaust him.
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His mind was so busy.
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He would run so he could sleep.
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Why can't you talk to me?
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Time to talk.
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You read the article?
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We're not making any judgments.
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You see the life we lead.
We're private people.
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We don't want attention.
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The past is the past.
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What Alistair did in London
was up to him.
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He was an adult.
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Can't bring him back.
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We'd just prefer it
if there was no fuss.
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We'd both prefer it.
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I won't talk to the press again.
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That's good.
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But nobody was saying it, so I had to.
Your son was murdered.
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After breakfast,
why don't we go for a walk?
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Your son was murdered.
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My son is dead. My wife is sick.
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I'm sorry.
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Enough.
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Enough?
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We need to leave soon
if we're to catch your train.
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That... is not his bedroom.
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This is not his home.
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Have you lost your mind?
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Who are you?
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Who are you?
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Bring him.
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Who was that?
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That was Alistair's mother.
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His mother?
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- What does she want?
- To meet you.
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- How far is it?
- Not far.
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Anything else you want to see?
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Not everyone is comfortable
inviting strangers to their home.
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We thought if you saw where we lived,
you might try to extort us.
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Why do you think
I would want your money?
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Because you have none.
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You want an apology?
I gave you an explanation.
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You... I believe.
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My husband's name is Charles.
My name is Frances.
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My son's name was Alistair.
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Your name, Daniel,
we read in the paper.
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- My staff, you met.
- Where is she taking my stuff?
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00:33:24,200 --> 00:33:26,191
Well, surely,
you're going to spend the night.
262
00:33:51,080 --> 00:33:54,993
We're in the midst of restoring
the house to its former glory.
263
00:33:58,840 --> 00:34:01,593
We had hoped Alistair
would finish the task.
264
00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:31,192
This is his room.
265
00:34:32,720 --> 00:34:34,472
How did you know?
266
00:34:46,760 --> 00:34:49,479
Because it's the loneliest room
I've ever been in.
267
00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:11,348
Charles was sure you'd catch
the train home today none the wiser.
268
00:35:11,480 --> 00:35:14,199
I was convinced you'd figure it out.
269
00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:17,790
It seems you did so
not with reason or deduction...
270
00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:22,798
but something akin to female intuition.
271
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:31,397
I won't sleep in here.
272
00:35:34,280 --> 00:35:35,998
I would never have allowed it.
273
00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:44,433
Dinner is at eight.
274
00:35:44,560 --> 00:35:46,391
You're embarrassed by his death.
275
00:35:48,520 --> 00:35:50,112
Yes.
276
00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:53,393
Upset too?
277
00:35:55,720 --> 00:35:58,359
Yes. More than you can imagine.
278
00:38:18,600 --> 00:38:20,875
Did you realize
your provocation was infantile
279
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:24,117
before or after you came
through that door?
280
00:38:26,720 --> 00:38:30,110
Before, I see.
But you didn't decide to change.
281
00:38:34,880 --> 00:38:36,472
Would you like me to?
282
00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:39,391
No.
283
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:41,192
I think I prefer you like that.
284
00:38:51,200 --> 00:38:52,394
Thank you.
285
00:39:08,240 --> 00:39:11,357
Alistair completed that maze unassisted,
286
00:39:11,800 --> 00:39:13,995
three months before his fifth birthday.
287
00:39:20,240 --> 00:39:22,470
Others considered him to be disturbed,
288
00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:26,036
but what they saw
as a disturbance of the mind
289
00:39:26,160 --> 00:39:28,799
was, in fact, an exceptional gift.
290
00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:32,679
However, it's not enough in this world
to be born brilliant.
291
00:39:32,800 --> 00:39:36,315
You need direction and discipline.
292
00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:38,510
You need someone
who reminds you day after day
293
00:39:38,640 --> 00:39:41,234
never to waste your talent
on triviality.
294
00:39:42,280 --> 00:39:44,999
How many brilliant minds
are out there right now
295
00:39:45,120 --> 00:39:47,588
rotting in squalor and neglect?
296
00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:53,870
It took every ounce of my strength
to make Alistair realize his potential.
297
00:39:55,720 --> 00:39:57,790
He ended up hating me for it.
298
00:40:00,200 --> 00:40:01,792
But you'd guessed that already.
299
00:40:06,480 --> 00:40:08,038
Your son was murdered.
300
00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:12,792
The attic was staged.
301
00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:19,389
Everything you read
about his death is a lie.
302
00:40:26,920 --> 00:40:29,992
After dinner, perhaps
you will join me for a drink.
303
00:40:47,600 --> 00:40:49,556
My son wasn't gay.
304
00:40:50,120 --> 00:40:53,829
Before you hold some sort of parade
through the house, hear me out.
305
00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:57,714
Alistair didn't think
like ordinary people.
306
00:40:57,840 --> 00:41:00,195
He didn't feel
what ordinary people feel.
307
00:41:01,640 --> 00:41:03,517
In his eyes, everyone was a puzzle.
308
00:41:04,120 --> 00:41:08,875
He took immense satisfaction
figuring out what a person wanted,
309
00:41:09,000 --> 00:41:12,993
and then giving it to them,
as if we were all computers...
310
00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:17,997
waiting for the correct code.
311
00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:24,956
Alistair could be anything
a person wanted him to be.
312
00:41:25,080 --> 00:41:28,436
In your case,
it appears you craved romance,
313
00:41:28,560 --> 00:41:31,074
a good old-fashioned love story.
314
00:41:31,200 --> 00:41:32,553
He gave it to you.
315
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:38,032
Meanwhile, he continued giving
other kinds of stimulation
316
00:41:38,160 --> 00:41:41,470
to other kinds of people,
men and women.
317
00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:47,790
If he was involved with someone
who hankered after risk...
318
00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:50,996
he would have provided it.
319
00:41:52,480 --> 00:41:55,233
Danger, pain, submission, domination.
320
00:41:56,120 --> 00:42:01,752
Alistair was as precocious sexually
as he was intellectually.
321
00:42:01,880 --> 00:42:03,632
To him, they were one and the same.
322
00:42:03,760 --> 00:42:06,593
Sex was just another form of decryption.
323
00:42:09,720 --> 00:42:10,994
You think I'm cruel.
324
00:42:11,720 --> 00:42:12,994
Perhaps I am.
325
00:42:15,040 --> 00:42:17,110
But not in this instance.
326
00:42:17,240 --> 00:42:20,596
I wanted to preserve your illusions.
327
00:42:20,720 --> 00:42:22,756
We had hoped
that you would go home
328
00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:25,917
and mourn in the belief
that your relationship was perfect.
329
00:42:28,120 --> 00:42:30,076
You loved him. I see that.
330
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:34,475
However, I cannot allow you
to be unaware of the facts,
331
00:42:34,600 --> 00:42:36,670
in case you blunder
further into a situation
332
00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:38,552
you simply do not understand.
333
00:42:40,040 --> 00:42:42,076
I'm not surprised
he used a different name.
334
00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:44,156
He was playing a part,
335
00:42:44,280 --> 00:42:47,511
the part of a conventional lover.
336
00:42:51,880 --> 00:42:53,996
I haven't read many books.
337
00:42:55,600 --> 00:42:57,795
I haven't been to many places.
338
00:43:01,480 --> 00:43:04,199
But I have fucked a lot of people.
339
00:43:07,280 --> 00:43:10,989
And there's one thing
you just can't fake.
340
00:43:13,480 --> 00:43:14,993
Inexperience.
341
00:43:19,080 --> 00:43:21,799
The body's tense
when it should be relaxed.
342
00:43:23,240 --> 00:43:26,198
It hurts when it should be fun.
343
00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:30,195
And it's dirty when it should be clean.
344
00:43:33,400 --> 00:43:37,712
I don't care how smart you are.
Your muscles can't lie.
345
00:43:37,840 --> 00:43:41,879
I'm talking about
feeling his inexperience
346
00:43:42,000 --> 00:43:44,468
as clearly as I can feel this glass.
347
00:43:44,840 --> 00:43:46,592
Do you follow me, Frances?
348
00:43:48,000 --> 00:43:49,319
I can see you do.
349
00:43:49,440 --> 00:43:52,989
So, I know for a fact you're lying.
350
00:43:55,680 --> 00:44:00,800
I know for a fact your son,
the man I loved, was a virgin.
351
00:44:01,680 --> 00:44:03,910
What I don't understand
is why you're so keen
352
00:44:04,040 --> 00:44:05,996
to convince me otherwise.
353
00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:19,992
When he told me you were dead,
he wasn't lying, was he?
354
00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:26,234
Amongst all of the lies
you've heard here this weekend,
355
00:44:26,360 --> 00:44:27,873
recognize one truth.
356
00:44:28,000 --> 00:44:33,199
"No fuss" is the best piece of advice
you will ever be given.
357
00:47:08,480 --> 00:47:10,391
I prefer it down here.
358
00:47:12,720 --> 00:47:17,589
- She won't like it.
- No. I don't think she will.
359
00:47:25,320 --> 00:47:26,309
You cared about him.
360
00:47:29,760 --> 00:47:31,318
You cared for him.
361
00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:35,996
If he had a problem,
he came to you, didn't he?
362
00:47:38,200 --> 00:47:39,792
Not her.
363
00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:47,719
You loved him.
364
00:47:55,920 --> 00:47:57,114
Alex...
365
00:47:58,960 --> 00:48:00,393
Alex.
366
00:48:09,000 --> 00:48:11,150
He hated the name Alistair.
367
00:48:19,400 --> 00:48:21,231
What happened here?
368
00:48:23,800 --> 00:48:26,314
Get as far away
from these people as you can.
369
00:48:34,200 --> 00:48:35,474
He insisted.
370
00:49:56,560 --> 00:49:58,630
I want to tell you a story...
371
00:49:59,640 --> 00:50:00,993
about a man.
372
00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:07,479
While everyone was laughing
and drinking,
373
00:50:07,600 --> 00:50:09,875
he would just walk...
374
00:50:11,320 --> 00:50:14,710
until he reached the exact same spot
375
00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:17,798
where he'd sit with his back
to all those people.
376
00:50:20,960 --> 00:50:23,349
While he did everything
he possibly could
377
00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:26,313
to signal to the world
that he wanted to be left alone...
378
00:50:28,160 --> 00:50:32,312
more than anything,
he hoped that someone passing
379
00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:34,476
would understand
that what he really wanted
380
00:50:34,600 --> 00:50:36,955
was the exact opposite,
381
00:50:37,080 --> 00:50:39,992
and that this someone
would sit next to him...
382
00:50:42,320 --> 00:50:44,595
and strike up a conversation.
383
00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:49,712
I was that man...
384
00:50:51,400 --> 00:50:53,470
and you were that someone.
385
00:50:56,000 --> 00:50:58,195
I have a sweet tooth.
386
00:51:01,520 --> 00:51:04,193
It's easier to quit smoking, I swear.
387
00:51:10,200 --> 00:51:13,272
Not very British
talking to strangers, is it?
388
00:51:13,400 --> 00:51:17,393
I've worked in your country
for ten years now.
389
00:51:18,520 --> 00:51:19,589
Hmm.
390
00:51:27,480 --> 00:51:28,754
Do you own a house?
391
00:51:29,760 --> 00:51:30,749
No.
392
00:51:31,600 --> 00:51:33,238
A car?
393
00:51:33,360 --> 00:51:35,112
No, nothing.
394
00:51:35,240 --> 00:51:36,639
You have your health.
395
00:51:40,000 --> 00:51:42,560
That's the most precious asset of all.
396
00:51:43,400 --> 00:51:44,389
My health?
397
00:51:50,400 --> 00:51:52,834
Lots of people think
they have nothing to lose...
398
00:51:54,480 --> 00:51:56,357
but in my professional experience,
399
00:51:57,200 --> 00:51:59,395
they just haven't thought it through.
400
00:51:59,880 --> 00:52:02,792
- Are you threatening me?
- Threatening?
401
00:52:04,040 --> 00:52:06,349
My, oh, my.
402
00:52:06,480 --> 00:52:08,596
This is just a conversation.
403
00:52:08,720 --> 00:52:10,790
A chit-chat.
404
00:52:10,920 --> 00:52:13,514
Two people passing in the night.
405
00:52:14,240 --> 00:52:16,515
I can see why you're so confused.
406
00:52:16,640 --> 00:52:19,996
Over the years, I've adopted
quite a few of your country's customs,
407
00:52:20,120 --> 00:52:22,714
but that great British reserve
escapes me.
408
00:52:22,840 --> 00:52:24,592
I enjoy talking too much.
409
00:52:26,000 --> 00:52:31,074
Once in a while, someone unexpected
tells you something...
410
00:52:32,080 --> 00:52:35,038
that might save your life.
411
00:52:42,240 --> 00:52:44,549
Be sure to put that card someplace safe.
412
00:54:18,800 --> 00:54:22,076
- You think my house is bugged?
- I've just been threatened.
413
00:54:22,680 --> 00:54:24,750
They heard us.
414
00:54:24,880 --> 00:54:27,474
- Who?
- The people who murdered Alex.
415
00:54:29,320 --> 00:54:30,389
Alright.
416
00:54:32,520 --> 00:54:35,512
Suppose he was murdered,
suppose you're right.
417
00:54:35,640 --> 00:54:39,872
Follow it through...
the implications of what you're saying.
418
00:54:40,720 --> 00:54:45,555
You know nothing about them.
They will know everything about you.
419
00:54:45,680 --> 00:54:48,797
Every action you take will have
been predicted, planned for,
420
00:54:48,920 --> 00:54:50,399
even coming here tonight.
421
00:54:53,960 --> 00:54:56,554
And if they don't kill you,
it'll be for one reason.
422
00:54:57,200 --> 00:54:59,998
They consider you
less of a nuisance alive than dead.
423
00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:04,671
If you're insulted by the idea of your
insignificance, you shouldn't be.
424
00:55:04,800 --> 00:55:06,518
You should cherish it.
425
00:55:06,640 --> 00:55:10,952
No daring journalist is going to come
to your aid. No rogue police officer.
426
00:55:11,080 --> 00:55:16,632
It's just you, you alone, Danny.
Ask yourself. Honestly, who are you?
427
00:55:16,760 --> 00:55:20,673
You're friends with everyone,
you trust everyone, and you know no one.
428
00:55:20,800 --> 00:55:23,473
- You know these people.
- I knew them 30 years ago.
429
00:55:23,600 --> 00:55:24,874
Help me.
430
00:55:28,800 --> 00:55:32,270
One way or another,
I've been afraid for much of my life.
431
00:55:32,400 --> 00:55:35,756
It's a privilege to spend time with
a man who's never afraid of anything,
432
00:55:35,880 --> 00:55:38,678
and that's not because
you were born in a different time.
433
00:55:38,800 --> 00:55:40,392
You're fearless.
434
00:55:41,520 --> 00:55:44,956
I've always wondered
how that must feel, but, Danny,
435
00:55:45,080 --> 00:55:48,038
occasionally, it's right to be afraid.
436
00:55:49,000 --> 00:55:50,991
Leave this alone.
437
00:55:52,120 --> 00:55:53,394
Promise me.
438
00:55:56,500 --> 00:56:04,500
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