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Scientists devour textbooks and data
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in an attempt to understand the world...
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...to gain confidence or clarity...
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...to be prepared.
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Surgeons are the worst offenders.
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We study for decades
and stare down the barrel
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of worst-case scenarios...
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- Could be the hospital.
- It's not.
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It's not or you don't want it to be?
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Both.
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Hm.
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Mm-hmm. Well, all right.
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Where are you going?
Yours isn't even dinging.
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Don't want it to be.
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I'm so sorry.
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I forgot how much I missed you
breaking all my stuff.
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Welcome home.
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We ignore sleep and friends
and food and sex
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and actual real life
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so that we're ready for anything...
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...so we know what to expect
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...and know there's nothing...
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...we can't handle.
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Oh.
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So, Catherine sent for you, too, huh?
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Told me she needed a VIP consult.
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Yeah, and she needed the
smartest neuro god she knows.
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General, but the same.
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Something to drink, Dr. Koracick?
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Double espresso,
dash of cinnamon, lots of sugar.
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Of course.
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Ah.
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I'm sure, if you asked nicely,
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that flight attendant could
scrounge up a kickass sedative,
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just knock you right out.
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If you knew my history on planes,
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you would not be making jokes.
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So, what do you think
Catherine's got for us?
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Rock star with a spinal schwannoma?
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Mm. Oh, please, we could
do that in our sleep.
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Chooramani technique?
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What... you know the
Chooramani technique, Dr. Grey?
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You impress me.
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I dabbled in neuro for a bit.
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What... What made you give it up?
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I...
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could have possibly ruined
my husband's Alzheimer's trial.
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Oh. I heard about that.
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Yeah, I met him
on the conference circuit.
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He thought it was fitting
that my name had the word "ass"
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right smack in the middle of it.
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- That sounds like him.
- Yeah.
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Oh.
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- We're next in line for takeoff.
- Mm.
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Don't forget to buckle up.
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Do you want me to talk or shut up?
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Talk.
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Chief, good, you're here.
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I haven't been the chief
in years, Frankie.
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You'll always be my chief.
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Room 3 needs you.
Your intern doesn't know
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a wound-vac from his ass.
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And here I thought motherhood
would soften your edges.
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Who needs soft edges
when you're always right?
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You know, when I hired you,
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I knew you were gonna be nothing
but a pain in my...
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When you hired me, I was first
in my class at nursing school
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and knew my way around a central line
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better than anyone, including you.
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Pain in my...
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Careful, or I'm not gonna let you
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put money down on baby names.
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Ginger put that up, thinking
she could make a quick buck.
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She knows I'm just gonna wind up
calling it "Chicken."
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Or L'il Pancake.
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L'il Pancake is not a name.
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Now, Richard, that's a name.
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- Very distinguished.
- Ah.
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Wise.
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All right.
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Frankie?
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Aah!
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Frankie.
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Aah! Aah!
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Somebody get me a gurney!
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Frankie?
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Okay, we got you.
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Have you had any other
symptoms... pain, dizziness?
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I'm 28 weeks' pregnant at a crazy-ass job
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where people feed me cupcakes all day.
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I just thought it was indigestion.
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Aah-aah, damn it.
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Frankie.
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What do you need?
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No, I'm...
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Dr. Webber's just checking me out.
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Pulse is strong, but she's tachycardic.
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What are we thinking?
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Ginger. Hi. Ginger.
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Over here. Hi.
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Richard is taking care of me.
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Richard is good.
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We like Richard.
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So...
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- Stand down?
- It would be appreciated.
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You've got a hell of a village there.
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My whole life, you know,
I've had an order in my head...
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job, dog, house...
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- Ring, husband, baby.
- ...ring, husband, baby.
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Exactly.
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And I'm skating towards 40
with a killer job,
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but no ring, no husband,
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no human man in sight.
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So I made my own damn order.
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And me and L'il Pancake
are gonna be a helluva team.
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And we've got our village.
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L'il Pancake is not a name.
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Well, I never saw a challenge
you couldn't rise to.
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And your baby has
a nice, strong heartbeat,
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just like we like it.
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So then... Aah, damn it.
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- What's wrong?
- Uh, it's your spleen.
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Where?
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There.
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It is a wandering spleen.
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It's torqued around itself,
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and it's cutting off the blood supply.
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So I'm gonna get you up to the OR.
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No, no, no, no, hold on.
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It could resolve on its own.
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Sometimes the spleen
turns itself back around.
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- Highly unlikely.
- No, it happened. I have seen it.
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It's possible, but, Frankie...
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At 28 weeks, the only way to make sure
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that this baby stays safely inside of me
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is to stay out of that OR.
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I...
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Aah.
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I know the risks.
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- I don't care.
- Frankie, listen to me. I...
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$41,632.
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That's what this kid costs.
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Three rounds of IVF and a miscarriage.
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I'm not telling you that
so you feel sorry for me.
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This baby is worth every dime,
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all of it.
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I am telling you because this is it.
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I literally have all of my eggs
in one basket,
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so there is no way we are risking this.
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I'm not going.
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Don't make me sic Ginger on you.
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I'm gonna check you in.
I'm gonna watch you like a hawk.
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That part we've got covered.
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I mean, we're always hoping
for the patient to be Bono,
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but at some point, the patient
has to actually be Bono, right?
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Well, I met him once.
Even his brain is cool.
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- It's annoying.
- What took you two so long?
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Catherine, this place is gorgeous.
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The patient is a 65-year-old female.
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Susan Sarandon? Helen Mirren?
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Make my dreams come true.
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She's complained of neck and back pain
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off and on for the past several weeks,
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and, yesterday,
the pain reached a fever pitch.
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Head of Ortho insisted on a C.T.
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It would be nice to have a cervical MRI
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so we know what we're dealing with.
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Already done.
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Okay.
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Oh, will you marry me?
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- Thomas, please.
- No, I'm not kidding.
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She is smart, wily.
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I mean, I have never seen a tumor
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invade both the vascular
and the nerve domains
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like that before.
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Neither have I.
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I always thought a blonde
would take me off the market,
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- but, spinal tumor...
- Tommy.
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- ...you have my...
- Tommy.
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No, I'm just saying, this tumor is
not going anywhere anytime soon.
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You know I love my women stubborn.
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We're gonna need to do a biopsy
to determine
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if it's cancer or not.
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Oh, cart, horse. Love the enthusiasm,
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but, uh, I prefer to meet
the patient first.
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You already have.
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Sorry to disappoint you, Thomas.
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No Hollywood movie stars today.
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I'm the patient.
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- Catherine, I'm sorry.
- Don't apologize.
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- I didn't... I didn't...
- You meant every word you said.
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Look. Including the part
where we don't know
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if it's cancer or not.
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Are you having any numbness
or loss of motor function?
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No, just the pain, which is
why I need a biopsy right away.
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I have things to do.
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I think a spinal tumor's
a pretty good reason
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to postpone a ribbon cutting.
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I didn't send for you
to postpone a damn thing.
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Catherine, why aren't Richard
and Jackson here?
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They don't know.
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They will know
when there's something to know.
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Now, I've reserved the IR suite.
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We can take care of the biopsy right now.
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The tumor extends into the sub-q area...
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Which makes it my dance space.
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Well, just make sure
when you finish dancing,
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I can still cut the ribbon on this place.
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Icilda!
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Icilda?
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You better not make that fun of that.
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That's my mama's name.
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Okay, I want Q two-hour
neuro checks on 3,
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and, Carla, please make sure
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that Mrs. Chen is double-gowned.
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That woman does three laps a day
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with her rear flapping in the breeze.
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- Yeah, she does.
- Yeah, she does.
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Ahh...
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Now, the only way for you to help me
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is to go do your jobs, please.
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Yeah, you heard the boss.
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Let's go.
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And so, as the boss of you...
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Here he goes.
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Um, you should be resting.
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Pulse has gone back down to normal.
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Her blood pressure is stable.
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We checked it manually twice.
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We're not all just trashy magazines
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and noise violations.
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She's good, Dr. Webber.
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Indeed.
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Now, if you all don't mind,
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I'd like to do a quick ultrasound.
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How about some privacy?
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- We'll be outside.
- Yes.
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Don't you name that baby
before we come back.
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If you do, you name it Alex.
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'Cause Alex goes both ways.
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- Oh, my God. Go away.
- No, I can't.
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- What about Minty?
- Minty?
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- Minty would be beautiful.
- It's bad.
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They mean well.
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You're exactly the boss
I always knew you would be...
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tough, fair.
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With a little bit of flair.
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You always had that.
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Is that...
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I believe it is.
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Your spleen's beginning to untwist.
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I can see blood flowing again.
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You can say it, you know?
It won't kill you.
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You weren't wrong for waiting a while.
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Oh, that's the best you can do?
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For today.
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Hey, what gives?
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You're cranky. Your jokes are stale.
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I could fly to Paris
with the bags under your eyes.
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If you weren't my patient,
I'd have you fired.
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How's Catherine?
264
00:11:32,948 --> 00:11:34,715
She's busy, traveling a lot.
265
00:11:36,051 --> 00:11:39,153
And Maggie? Meredith?
266
00:11:39,187 --> 00:11:41,656
Everybody's fine.
267
00:11:41,690 --> 00:11:44,492
Hey, I know it was hard losing Ollie.
268
00:11:44,526 --> 00:11:45,927
Yeah, it was.
269
00:11:45,961 --> 00:11:47,862
I'll check on your vitals in a bit.
270
00:11:55,103 --> 00:11:56,437
You keep up the good work,
271
00:11:56,471 --> 00:11:59,674
our girl may name
her baby Richard after all.
272
00:12:09,084 --> 00:12:10,351
You off today?
273
00:12:10,385 --> 00:12:13,354
Um, I wish. You?
274
00:12:13,388 --> 00:12:14,622
Sort of.
275
00:12:14,656 --> 00:12:16,791
I, um... I had a dream last night
276
00:12:16,825 --> 00:12:18,559
about my rechargeable hearts...
277
00:12:18,594 --> 00:12:20,628
...which I took as a sign
that I should go in today
278
00:12:20,662 --> 00:12:22,763
and really focus on them,
which, you know,
279
00:12:22,798 --> 00:12:23,798
now that I say that out loud,
280
00:12:23,832 --> 00:12:26,400
that makes me the queen
of the science nerds.
281
00:12:27,970 --> 00:12:32,073
But I promise we'll do dinner...
282
00:12:32,107 --> 00:12:34,642
a big, huge dinner...
283
00:12:34,676 --> 00:12:35,859
all the...
284
00:12:35,860 --> 00:12:37,421
_
285
00:12:37,446 --> 00:12:38,579
wine.
286
00:12:39,982 --> 00:12:41,449
All the what, babe?
287
00:12:52,939 --> 00:12:55,727
- Maggie, listen.
- Nope.
288
00:12:55,752 --> 00:12:57,944
- Maggie.
- No.
289
00:12:57,978 --> 00:12:59,488
Will you stop for a second, please?
290
00:12:59,522 --> 00:13:01,590
Let me guess.
291
00:13:01,625 --> 00:13:02,774
"It's not what it looks like.
292
00:13:02,808 --> 00:13:04,393
We're just friends, I promise."
293
00:13:04,427 --> 00:13:07,496
Um... Okay, yes, that was
what I was gonna say.
294
00:13:07,530 --> 00:13:08,998
This isn't funny, Jackson.
295
00:13:09,032 --> 00:13:10,432
Maggie, it's what I was gonna say
296
00:13:10,467 --> 00:13:11,567
because it's the truth, all right?
297
00:13:11,601 --> 00:13:13,636
- I didn't cheat on you.
- You are too smart to say that,
298
00:13:13,670 --> 00:13:16,138
and I am too smart to believe it.
299
00:13:16,172 --> 00:13:17,239
Ow.
300
00:13:17,274 --> 00:13:19,508
And now I cut my foot, damn it!
301
00:13:19,542 --> 00:13:20,743
Just wait.
302
00:13:22,178 --> 00:13:23,579
Well, let's just forget about the fact
303
00:13:23,613 --> 00:13:24,616
that you were going through my phone.
304
00:13:24,650 --> 00:13:25,883
It kept dinging over and over again,
305
00:13:25,917 --> 00:13:27,950
and I thought it was mine,
and that is not the point.
306
00:13:27,984 --> 00:13:30,920
The point is that some woman
is missing you
307
00:13:30,954 --> 00:13:32,354
with multiple heart emojis,
308
00:13:32,389 --> 00:13:33,589
and you won't tell me the truth.
309
00:13:33,623 --> 00:13:34,670
Maggie, you want the truth?
310
00:13:34,704 --> 00:13:37,359
Okay, all right? I... I met someone...
311
00:13:37,394 --> 00:13:38,381
You met someone.
312
00:13:38,415 --> 00:13:39,662
...at... when I was at the monastery.
313
00:13:39,696 --> 00:13:40,820
When you were at the monastery.
314
00:13:40,854 --> 00:13:41,900
Yeah. Why are you repeating?
315
00:13:41,934 --> 00:13:43,332
I don't know. I just am. Keep going.
316
00:13:43,366 --> 00:13:44,352
All right, you have glass in your foot.
317
00:13:44,386 --> 00:13:45,492
- Can we...
- Don't change the subject.
318
00:13:45,526 --> 00:13:47,136
I'm not...
319
00:13:48,638 --> 00:13:52,274
Her name is Kate, all right?
And... you were right.
320
00:13:52,309 --> 00:13:54,176
I think you were probably right
about the PTSD,
321
00:13:54,210 --> 00:13:57,012
and it's just there's something
about nature that,
322
00:13:57,047 --> 00:13:58,647
when you're unplugged and unmoored
323
00:13:58,682 --> 00:14:00,616
and... you were right.
324
00:14:00,650 --> 00:14:02,484
So you slept with her
because you had God feelings?
325
00:14:02,519 --> 00:14:03,719
What? No.
326
00:14:03,753 --> 00:14:04,687
I didn't sleep with anybody.
327
00:14:04,721 --> 00:14:06,021
I didn't even kiss her.
328
00:14:06,055 --> 00:14:07,169
It's... It's not about that at all.
329
00:14:07,204 --> 00:14:08,398
We talked.
330
00:14:09,225 --> 00:14:10,526
Maggie, we just talked all night
331
00:14:10,560 --> 00:14:11,994
about how she lost her brother
332
00:14:12,028 --> 00:14:14,697
and how she's looking
for some kind of peace.
333
00:14:14,731 --> 00:14:15,731
Which she found in your pants?
334
00:14:15,765 --> 00:14:18,634
No. No. Maggie, no, all right?
335
00:14:18,668 --> 00:14:19,797
You're bleeding, all right?
336
00:14:19,831 --> 00:14:22,004
Will you just sit down for a
second so I can help you, please?
337
00:14:22,038 --> 00:14:23,906
Please, okay? I'll grab a first-aid kit,
338
00:14:23,940 --> 00:14:25,708
and you can just look
at the messages yourself.
339
00:14:25,742 --> 00:14:27,743
- Oh, no.
- I-I don't need to.
340
00:14:27,777 --> 00:14:29,016
I think you do, okay?
341
00:14:29,050 --> 00:14:31,213
This is not some puzzle
you need to solve, okay?
342
00:14:31,247 --> 00:14:32,314
Nothing happened.
343
00:14:32,349 --> 00:14:33,682
I didn't want anything to happen.
344
00:14:33,717 --> 00:14:35,024
She's just somebody who understood
345
00:14:35,059 --> 00:14:37,586
what I was going through, what I'd lost.
346
00:14:37,620 --> 00:14:39,588
And, honestly, she understood it
better than I did,
347
00:14:39,622 --> 00:14:41,056
and it helped.
348
00:14:41,091 --> 00:14:42,925
It helped to not feel so alone
in all this.
349
00:14:42,959 --> 00:14:44,767
Here. Come here.
350
00:14:46,062 --> 00:14:47,663
You're still talking to her.
351
00:14:47,697 --> 00:14:49,098
Last week, last couple of days,
352
00:14:49,132 --> 00:14:50,366
when you were bringing me takeout
353
00:14:50,400 --> 00:14:51,608
and asking me to trust you...
354
00:14:51,642 --> 00:14:53,769
Because you should.
You can trust me, okay?
355
00:14:53,803 --> 00:14:56,405
Jackson, my dating history
might be dubious,
356
00:14:56,439 --> 00:14:59,608
but I do know that no woman
in the history of ever
357
00:14:59,642 --> 00:15:01,543
sends "miss yous" and heart emojis
358
00:15:01,578 --> 00:15:02,478
to men she doesn't want to sleep with.
359
00:15:02,512 --> 00:15:04,613
That's not what this is,
Maggie, all right?
360
00:15:04,647 --> 00:15:06,382
I swear, okay? We talked.
361
00:15:06,416 --> 00:15:08,584
And it's just nice, honestly,
362
00:15:08,618 --> 00:15:11,754
to talk to people who've been
through the same thing.
363
00:15:13,089 --> 00:15:14,589
People?
364
00:15:15,492 --> 00:15:18,894
I just... I meant that, um...
365
00:15:18,928 --> 00:15:21,304
Who else are you talking to?
366
00:15:21,798 --> 00:15:25,901
Just, um... April sometimes.
367
00:15:33,276 --> 00:15:34,376
What happened?
368
00:15:34,411 --> 00:15:35,711
Her blood pressure tanked,
369
00:15:35,745 --> 00:15:37,546
and her pain level's through the roof.
370
00:15:37,580 --> 00:15:39,381
What is happening?
371
00:15:39,416 --> 00:15:40,949
It's gonna be okay. My baby.
372
00:15:40,984 --> 00:15:42,384
Okay, let's take a look.
373
00:15:42,419 --> 00:15:44,653
- Your baby looks strong.
- Mnh.
374
00:15:44,687 --> 00:15:46,321
Damn it.
375
00:15:46,356 --> 00:15:48,524
There's fluid in her abdomen.
It's likely blood.
376
00:15:48,558 --> 00:15:50,826
Her splenic artery probably burst, okay?
377
00:15:50,860 --> 00:15:52,090
I'll go tell them to prep an OR.
378
00:15:52,124 --> 00:15:53,829
And shut down the gallery.
379
00:15:53,863 --> 00:15:56,645
You page Alex Karev
and the head of OB, stat.
380
00:15:56,679 --> 00:15:58,133
- If we have to take this baby out...
- Aah!
381
00:15:58,168 --> 00:15:59,735
I want the best on-hand, okay, all right?
382
00:15:59,769 --> 00:16:01,236
Wait, no. Please, no, please.
383
00:16:01,271 --> 00:16:02,438
Please...
384
00:16:02,472 --> 00:16:03,839
Listen to me, Frankie.
385
00:16:03,873 --> 00:16:06,742
There is nothing you can't handle, okay?
386
00:16:06,776 --> 00:16:08,644
Come on, let's go.
Come on. We got to move.
387
00:16:13,783 --> 00:16:15,451
Do you think it's cancer?
388
00:16:15,485 --> 00:16:19,254
Dr. Grey, that's why
we're doing the biopsy.
389
00:16:19,289 --> 00:16:20,856
Actual answers.
390
00:16:20,890 --> 00:16:22,091
Science.
391
00:16:22,125 --> 00:16:23,859
I'm asking if you have a feeling.
392
00:16:23,893 --> 00:16:25,694
I am a Big Gun.
393
00:16:25,728 --> 00:16:26,829
Yes, I know.
394
00:16:26,863 --> 00:16:28,197
You're amazing, incredible.
395
00:16:28,231 --> 00:16:30,499
There's no one in the world like you.
I get it.
396
00:16:30,533 --> 00:16:33,702
I feel so seen. Thank you.
397
00:16:33,736 --> 00:16:37,139
And we are ready to roll.
398
00:16:37,173 --> 00:16:38,674
Okay, now, you want
to be careful because you...
399
00:16:38,708 --> 00:16:39,808
Grey...
400
00:16:39,843 --> 00:16:41,176
you're not gonna backseat drive
401
00:16:41,211 --> 00:16:42,711
a simple biopsy, are you?
402
00:16:42,745 --> 00:16:44,646
- Nope.
- No? Good.
403
00:16:46,549 --> 00:16:49,718
- Be careful because...
- Da, da, no, no, no, no.
404
00:16:49,752 --> 00:16:50,819
No, no.
405
00:16:50,854 --> 00:16:53,355
People don't come to The Meredith Grey
406
00:16:53,389 --> 00:16:56,859
for appys and choles anymore, do they?
407
00:16:56,893 --> 00:16:59,068
No, they don't.
408
00:16:59,762 --> 00:17:02,898
You are a Big Gun.
409
00:17:02,932 --> 00:17:07,136
You spend your days
with the worst-case scenarios.
410
00:17:07,170 --> 00:17:10,906
You are the last stop on the Hope Train,
411
00:17:10,940 --> 00:17:15,310
and if you felt that
every hour of every day,
412
00:17:15,345 --> 00:17:17,813
well, you'd be a miserable first date.
413
00:17:17,847 --> 00:17:20,883
Big Guns worry when there's
something to worry about.
414
00:17:20,917 --> 00:17:22,784
- Put a rush on that.
- Put a rush on that.
415
00:17:27,257 --> 00:17:28,924
Hey, the nurses are lining the halls.
416
00:17:28,958 --> 00:17:29,858
Can I help?
417
00:17:29,893 --> 00:17:31,260
Yeah. Get in here.
418
00:17:31,294 --> 00:17:32,895
We need to get this spleen out.
419
00:17:32,929 --> 00:17:35,230
She's hypotensive.
We need to take the baby out.
420
00:17:35,265 --> 00:17:37,032
The baby's only 28 weeks.
421
00:17:37,066 --> 00:17:39,067
You're talking months in the NICU
422
00:17:39,102 --> 00:17:41,270
and a potential lifetime of deficits.
423
00:17:41,304 --> 00:17:43,772
- Dr. Webber...
- My judgment is not clouded.
424
00:17:43,806 --> 00:17:45,774
Suction.
425
00:17:45,808 --> 00:17:47,014
The nurses in our hospital
426
00:17:47,039 --> 00:17:48,445
put their own needs...
427
00:17:48,479 --> 00:17:51,747
...their own lives aside
every hour of every day
428
00:17:51,781 --> 00:17:53,348
for the good of their patients.
429
00:17:53,383 --> 00:17:54,999
Clamp.
430
00:17:55,985 --> 00:17:59,354
So I owe it to them
to do everything in my power
431
00:17:59,389 --> 00:18:02,465
to keep that baby right where he belongs.
432
00:18:03,593 --> 00:18:05,194
Okay, retract back.
433
00:18:05,228 --> 00:18:06,895
Okay, scissors.
434
00:18:06,930 --> 00:18:08,197
Thank you.
435
00:18:09,799 --> 00:18:11,867
More. Good.
436
00:18:16,239 --> 00:18:18,974
There. It's out.
437
00:18:19,008 --> 00:18:20,909
And the bleeding's under control.
438
00:18:20,944 --> 00:18:23,011
- Well done, sir.
- Thank you.
439
00:18:25,815 --> 00:18:27,082
Damn it!
440
00:18:27,116 --> 00:18:28,617
Is your vascular clamp still in place?
441
00:18:28,651 --> 00:18:30,713
Maybe it's the short gastric arteries.
442
00:18:30,748 --> 00:18:31,787
Her pressure's tanking.
443
00:18:31,821 --> 00:18:33,622
Okay. Suction.
444
00:18:33,656 --> 00:18:35,724
Right.
445
00:18:35,758 --> 00:18:38,660
There's too much blood. I can't
tell where it's coming from.
446
00:18:38,695 --> 00:18:40,629
Dr. Webber, baby's in distress.
447
00:18:40,663 --> 00:18:43,065
Sir, we need to get this baby out now.
448
00:18:43,099 --> 00:18:44,266
Dr. Webber.
449
00:18:48,204 --> 00:18:49,338
Then do it.
450
00:18:49,372 --> 00:18:50,772
Some pads.
451
00:19:00,866 --> 00:19:01,966
Baby's out.
452
00:19:02,001 --> 00:19:04,302
Okay, where the hell is
all this blood coming from?
453
00:19:04,336 --> 00:19:05,970
I need suction and intubation, stat.
454
00:19:06,005 --> 00:19:07,772
Oh, she's going into DIC.
455
00:19:07,806 --> 00:19:09,738
Let's hang FFP.
456
00:19:10,342 --> 00:19:12,276
Karev, how you doing over there?
457
00:19:13,812 --> 00:19:15,146
Karev?
458
00:19:17,852 --> 00:19:18,865
Karev!
459
00:19:18,899 --> 00:19:21,285
Got an airway, but no movement.
460
00:19:22,388 --> 00:19:25,390
Come on, buddy. Come on,
come on, come on, come on.
461
00:19:25,424 --> 00:19:26,457
We got movement!
462
00:19:26,492 --> 00:19:27,859
We got it.
463
00:19:27,893 --> 00:19:30,050
Sats are improving.
464
00:19:30,496 --> 00:19:32,497
We got him. We're good.
465
00:19:32,531 --> 00:19:33,631
Did you hear that, Frankie?
466
00:19:33,665 --> 00:19:35,500
Your baby boy's okay. He's okay.
467
00:19:35,534 --> 00:19:36,901
I need you to stay with him.
468
00:19:38,170 --> 00:19:39,137
We need that crash cart!
469
00:19:39,171 --> 00:19:40,671
Get him in the NICU now, stat.
470
00:19:45,411 --> 00:19:46,978
Let's charge to 120.
471
00:19:49,448 --> 00:19:51,182
Clear.
472
00:19:55,888 --> 00:19:58,589
Come on, Frankie. Come on. Come on.
473
00:19:58,624 --> 00:20:00,140
Let's charge to 200.
474
00:20:00,165 --> 00:20:02,033
Clear.
475
00:20:06,598 --> 00:20:11,258
I thought it would be me
detonating this...
476
00:20:12,071 --> 00:20:13,328
whatever this is.
477
00:20:13,363 --> 00:20:15,470
I thought it would be me.
478
00:20:16,041 --> 00:20:17,375
Not out of ego or anything...
479
00:20:17,409 --> 00:20:20,411
just, you know, history.
480
00:20:20,446 --> 00:20:22,647
I thought I would be the reason.
481
00:20:28,379 --> 00:20:31,581
So you pictured us ending?
482
00:20:33,231 --> 00:20:35,165
- You didn't?
- No.
483
00:20:36,495 --> 00:20:37,962
Did you picture it with April?
484
00:20:37,996 --> 00:20:41,265
No, I didn't picture my marriage ending.
485
00:20:41,300 --> 00:20:42,633
Maybe it didn't.
486
00:20:42,668 --> 00:20:43,733
Come on.
487
00:20:43,767 --> 00:20:45,426
Are you really threatened by April?
488
00:20:45,461 --> 00:20:47,538
Jackson, you're texting other women.
489
00:20:47,573 --> 00:20:49,073
You're talking to other women,
490
00:20:49,108 --> 00:20:50,141
one of whom you used to sleep with
491
00:20:50,175 --> 00:20:52,977
and the other who clearly wants
to sleep with you,
492
00:20:53,011 --> 00:20:55,713
and you are telling them things
that you don't tell me.
493
00:20:55,747 --> 00:20:58,471
Do you want to know why
I'm not telling you things
494
00:20:58,917 --> 00:21:03,121
about God or how I fit in this universe?
495
00:21:03,155 --> 00:21:04,322
Or about things I used to know
496
00:21:04,356 --> 00:21:06,124
that I don't seem to know anymore?
497
00:21:06,158 --> 00:21:07,425
Because you don't...
498
00:21:07,459 --> 00:21:09,160
'Cause you won't talk to me.
499
00:21:09,194 --> 00:21:11,496
I told you that God and religion
is not my thing,
500
00:21:11,530 --> 00:21:13,131
but I-I support you.
501
00:21:13,165 --> 00:21:14,899
No, Maggie.
502
00:21:14,933 --> 00:21:18,531
You don't talk to me, you know,
503
00:21:18,565 --> 00:21:21,105
and not about just your day
or rechargeable hearts
504
00:21:21,140 --> 00:21:23,307
or how Mer's being a pain
in the ass today.
505
00:21:23,342 --> 00:21:24,389
- I...
- I mean,
506
00:21:24,414 --> 00:21:26,744
I never know a damn thing you're feeling.
507
00:21:26,778 --> 00:21:28,279
I am an amazing friend.
508
00:21:28,313 --> 00:21:29,814
I am an amazing sister.
509
00:21:29,848 --> 00:21:31,849
I am there for them through every crisis.
510
00:21:31,884 --> 00:21:33,417
Hell, I have been there for you.
511
00:21:33,452 --> 00:21:35,086
Yes, you have been.
512
00:21:35,120 --> 00:21:36,687
You have been.
513
00:21:36,722 --> 00:21:38,595
It's not the same.
514
00:21:40,192 --> 00:21:42,827
So, because I'm not spewing
my feelings all over the place,
515
00:21:42,861 --> 00:21:45,096
that makes it okay for you
to hide in your phone
516
00:21:45,130 --> 00:21:46,597
with other women?
517
00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:50,868
You run every time
it gets complicated, Maggie.
518
00:21:50,903 --> 00:21:53,171
You hide in your lab,
519
00:21:53,205 --> 00:21:55,173
or you go off and buy some milk
520
00:21:55,207 --> 00:21:56,507
instead of just having
an actual conversation with me.
521
00:21:56,542 --> 00:21:57,700
That's not fair.
522
00:21:57,735 --> 00:21:59,377
You plan the end of a relationship
523
00:21:59,411 --> 00:22:00,978
when it's barely begun.
524
00:22:01,013 --> 00:22:02,680
What is that?
525
00:22:05,250 --> 00:22:08,291
When's the last time
you let me in at all?
526
00:22:09,221 --> 00:22:10,788
Like, about anything?
527
00:22:11,211 --> 00:22:14,492
So you went and you got it
from someone else?
528
00:22:14,526 --> 00:22:15,860
Maggie.
529
00:22:15,894 --> 00:22:17,175
Yeah.
530
00:22:18,030 --> 00:22:19,163
I find it a little easier
531
00:22:19,198 --> 00:22:21,199
to open up to people who open up to me.
532
00:22:25,571 --> 00:22:29,140
♪ The way you wear your hat ♪
533
00:22:31,443 --> 00:22:35,813
♪ The way you sip your tea ♪
534
00:22:35,847 --> 00:22:39,417
♪ The memory of all that ♪
535
00:22:40,919 --> 00:22:46,157
♪ No, no, they can't
take that away from me ♪
536
00:22:46,191 --> 00:22:51,362
♪ No, they can't take that away ♪
537
00:22:51,396 --> 00:22:55,166
♪ From me ♪
538
00:22:55,200 --> 00:22:57,168
Oh, that's just a little routine
we used to do
539
00:22:57,202 --> 00:23:00,905
over sacral nerve implants
back in the day.
540
00:23:00,939 --> 00:23:05,409
- So, how did I do?
- Oh, you were perfect.
541
00:23:05,444 --> 00:23:07,745
Just like a professional patient.
542
00:23:07,779 --> 00:23:09,013
We're still waiting on the results.
543
00:23:09,047 --> 00:23:10,615
Mm.
544
00:23:10,649 --> 00:23:13,217
Catherine? Can I call Richard now?
545
00:23:13,252 --> 00:23:16,621
In a bit. I think I need a real drink.
546
00:23:16,655 --> 00:23:18,689
Mm. Hm.
547
00:23:24,463 --> 00:23:25,918
Dr. Webber.
548
00:23:28,166 --> 00:23:29,600
Dr. Webber, she's been down.
549
00:23:29,635 --> 00:23:30,901
I know.
550
00:23:35,274 --> 00:23:36,767
Time...
551
00:23:46,585 --> 00:23:49,253
Time of...
552
00:23:53,925 --> 00:23:55,793
Time of death, 15:42.
553
00:25:14,272 --> 00:25:16,240
Hi. I'm Gina. I'm an alcoholic.
554
00:25:16,274 --> 00:25:17,908
Hi, Gina.
555
00:25:17,943 --> 00:25:21,212
I lost my job busing for
the school district last week.
556
00:25:21,246 --> 00:25:23,981
Budget cuts. I couldn't believe it.
557
00:25:24,015 --> 00:25:24,982
Haven't seen you around in a while.
558
00:25:25,016 --> 00:25:26,384
I thought I...
I thought I was getting a raise.
559
00:25:26,418 --> 00:25:27,685
Work.
560
00:25:27,719 --> 00:25:29,220
Glad you're back.
561
00:25:29,254 --> 00:25:31,314
I grabbed my last paycheck,
562
00:25:31,348 --> 00:25:35,359
and every bone in my body
told me, "Call your sponsor."
563
00:25:35,394 --> 00:25:37,842
But I thought, "I'll just walk it off.
564
00:25:37,876 --> 00:25:39,289
I'll just walk it the hell off,"
565
00:25:39,323 --> 00:25:42,662
like being a drunk
is like being in a bad mood
566
00:25:42,696 --> 00:25:44,409
or trying to lose a few pounds.
567
00:25:45,804 --> 00:25:49,725
I pass by this bar, McGovern's,
right off Main,
568
00:25:49,759 --> 00:25:52,445
and I see this crappy
little sign in the window,
569
00:25:52,479 --> 00:25:54,664
hung up with masking tape.
570
00:25:54,698 --> 00:25:58,416
"Chips for Shots."
571
00:25:58,450 --> 00:26:02,620
And at first, I...
I didn't know what it meant.
572
00:26:02,654 --> 00:26:05,445
And then I see the emblem.
573
00:26:06,224 --> 00:26:08,110
You give 'em your chip,
and they give you a shot
574
00:26:08,145 --> 00:26:09,960
for every year you're sober.
575
00:26:11,963 --> 00:26:15,232
I wish I could have felt the way
that you feel right now...
576
00:26:15,267 --> 00:26:18,269
angry, horrified.
577
00:26:18,303 --> 00:26:22,053
But all I could feel
in that moment was lucky,
578
00:26:22,088 --> 00:26:24,253
because I have four years under my belt
579
00:26:24,287 --> 00:26:26,377
and I got 4 bucks in my bank account.
580
00:26:29,347 --> 00:26:31,081
Had.
581
00:26:31,116 --> 00:26:33,317
I had four years.
582
00:26:34,492 --> 00:26:35,719
God, I'm so ashamed.
583
00:26:37,122 --> 00:26:38,489
But I'm back,
584
00:26:38,523 --> 00:26:41,503
and I got 24 hours under my belt,
585
00:26:41,537 --> 00:26:43,427
and I am grateful.
586
00:26:53,101 --> 00:26:55,916
Okay, run it down for me.
587
00:26:55,941 --> 00:26:57,341
Look, the results aren't in yet.
588
00:26:57,376 --> 00:26:58,576
The tumor could still be benign,
589
00:26:58,610 --> 00:27:00,077
- so let's not worry about that until...
- Why do we do that?
590
00:27:00,112 --> 00:27:02,573
Why do we refuse to talk about it?
591
00:27:02,607 --> 00:27:03,764
If I have cancer...
592
00:27:03,799 --> 00:27:05,646
- We don't know that you do.
- Yeah, but I might,
593
00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:07,786
and your tip-toeing around it
doesn't make it any better.
594
00:27:07,821 --> 00:27:09,554
- Can I get you guys something?
- Andrew, yes.
595
00:27:09,554 --> 00:27:10,921
What are you having, Tommy?
596
00:27:10,956 --> 00:27:12,690
The sun is still out.
597
00:27:12,724 --> 00:27:14,992
Oh, he'll have the same
as me... tequila, neat.
598
00:27:15,026 --> 00:27:16,527
Make his a double. Meredith?
599
00:27:16,561 --> 00:27:19,069
I'll have the same.
600
00:27:19,103 --> 00:27:20,538
Mm.
601
00:27:21,800 --> 00:27:23,801
Thanks.
602
00:27:23,835 --> 00:27:24,869
So...
603
00:27:24,903 --> 00:27:27,972
Do you think, if you talk
about it, it'll scare me?
604
00:27:28,006 --> 00:27:29,106
It'll remind me?
605
00:27:29,140 --> 00:27:31,942
Do you think there's any world
where I'm not sitting here
606
00:27:31,977 --> 00:27:34,090
wondering if my right foot is numb
607
00:27:34,124 --> 00:27:35,813
because of the heels
608
00:27:35,847 --> 00:27:37,965
or the tumor snaking down my spine?
609
00:27:37,999 --> 00:27:39,617
Do you think I'm sitting here now
610
00:27:39,651 --> 00:27:40,851
wondering, "How long is it gonna be
611
00:27:40,886 --> 00:27:43,224
before they tack the word 'Memorial'
612
00:27:43,259 --> 00:27:45,021
at the end of that sign?"
613
00:27:45,924 --> 00:27:48,659
After all these years,
I have built a legacy
614
00:27:48,693 --> 00:27:51,583
that finally has my own name on it.
615
00:27:51,584 --> 00:27:52,818
I have a granddaughter
616
00:27:52,852 --> 00:27:54,853
that I want to watch take over the world.
617
00:27:54,887 --> 00:27:59,891
You don't think I'm sitting here
wondering if I'll get to?
618
00:27:59,926 --> 00:28:03,528
There is nothing you could possibly say
619
00:28:03,563 --> 00:28:05,630
that's worse than what
I've been imagining
620
00:28:05,665 --> 00:28:08,567
since the second I saw those scans.
621
00:28:11,604 --> 00:28:12,971
Well, if it is cancer,
622
00:28:13,005 --> 00:28:15,885
we are looking at, um...
623
00:28:16,676 --> 00:28:19,544
osteosarcoma or a chondrosarcoma.
624
00:28:19,579 --> 00:28:21,580
Which means what?
625
00:28:21,614 --> 00:28:24,583
If it's osteo,
assuming it has not spread,
626
00:28:24,617 --> 00:28:27,219
we are looking at chemo and radiation
627
00:28:27,253 --> 00:28:29,154
to shrink the size of the tumor
628
00:28:29,188 --> 00:28:32,657
and operate with as little
chance of paralysis as possible.
629
00:28:32,692 --> 00:28:34,826
And if it's chondrosarcoma?
630
00:28:34,861 --> 00:28:38,363
Chondro is a beast.
631
00:28:38,398 --> 00:28:39,664
Doesn't respond to chemo.
632
00:28:39,699 --> 00:28:43,735
So, if you're lucky...
and that's a big if...
633
00:28:43,770 --> 00:28:46,037
we may be able to cut it out
without, uh...
634
00:28:46,072 --> 00:28:47,372
Making me a quadriplegic,
635
00:28:47,407 --> 00:28:51,295
which means I'll never operate again.
636
00:28:51,611 --> 00:28:54,112
Okay. So that tequila went
right through me.
637
00:28:54,147 --> 00:28:56,681
I got to go see a man about a horse.
638
00:28:58,618 --> 00:29:02,888
Dr. Grey, you are among
the finest surgeons
639
00:29:02,922 --> 00:29:04,756
that I've seen in my career.
640
00:29:04,791 --> 00:29:07,231
But that's not the only reason
I called you here.
641
00:29:07,265 --> 00:29:09,647
When I look in Richard's eyes,
642
00:29:10,963 --> 00:29:13,231
he's barely holding on.
643
00:29:14,834 --> 00:29:17,102
His sponsor died,
and he hasn't replaced her,
644
00:29:18,030 --> 00:29:19,604
and if I tell him this...
645
00:29:19,639 --> 00:29:21,606
Catherine.
646
00:29:21,641 --> 00:29:24,476
My mother hid her diagnosis
647
00:29:24,510 --> 00:29:27,646
and spent years alone because of it.
648
00:29:27,680 --> 00:29:29,748
This is not an excuse
649
00:29:29,782 --> 00:29:31,983
to cut the people you love
out of your life.
650
00:29:32,018 --> 00:29:35,720
Meredith, I don't know
if he can handle this.
651
00:29:35,755 --> 00:29:38,056
Well, I don't know
if he can handle it, either,
652
00:29:38,090 --> 00:29:39,825
but it's his life, too.
653
00:29:39,859 --> 00:29:43,764
This is not your choice to make for him.
654
00:29:44,477 --> 00:29:45,910
All right, the hospital, uh, paged.
655
00:29:45,935 --> 00:29:48,403
The biopsy results are back.
656
00:29:50,136 --> 00:29:52,189
Okay, well...
657
00:29:53,105 --> 00:29:55,640
- Let's do this.
- Yeah.
658
00:29:55,675 --> 00:29:57,142
One more?
659
00:30:11,224 --> 00:30:12,691
That's good.
660
00:30:12,725 --> 00:30:14,693
I'm okay, thanks.
661
00:30:18,664 --> 00:30:21,500
When you went on your...
your whole GodQuest...
662
00:30:21,534 --> 00:30:23,179
GodQuest?
663
00:30:24,303 --> 00:30:26,557
It's what I called it in my head.
664
00:30:27,039 --> 00:30:30,603
When you left without telling me, um...
665
00:30:33,880 --> 00:30:35,900
A part of me was relieved.
666
00:30:36,849 --> 00:30:39,551
This tiny part of me... exhaled
667
00:30:39,585 --> 00:30:40,552
'cause I thought you would...
668
00:30:40,586 --> 00:30:41,620
you would go to the woods,
669
00:30:41,654 --> 00:30:43,221
and you would, you know,
670
00:30:43,256 --> 00:30:44,723
talk to a priest or a shaman,
671
00:30:44,757 --> 00:30:48,727
and... and... and pray
to something or someone,
672
00:30:48,761 --> 00:30:51,296
and you would come back
with some answers.
673
00:30:51,330 --> 00:30:53,532
You would come back like yourself.
674
00:30:53,566 --> 00:30:58,169
But, instead, I came back
with more questions.
675
00:30:58,204 --> 00:31:01,006
And you took those questions
to other women.
676
00:31:04,343 --> 00:31:06,013
Uh...
677
00:31:06,879 --> 00:31:09,548
I've spent most of my life
678
00:31:09,582 --> 00:31:11,383
being five steps ahead of everyone else,
679
00:31:11,417 --> 00:31:15,320
and nobody wants to be friends
with that girl, okay?
680
00:31:15,354 --> 00:31:18,114
That girl does not have
any dates or fights.
681
00:31:18,148 --> 00:31:20,319
She doesn't learn how to fight.
682
00:31:21,527 --> 00:31:23,194
I learned calculus in grade school.
683
00:31:23,229 --> 00:31:28,533
I learned coronary bypass when I was 20.
684
00:31:28,568 --> 00:31:34,631
I never learned
how to really love or fight
685
00:31:34,665 --> 00:31:36,775
or really let somebody in
without it feeling like
686
00:31:36,809 --> 00:31:39,421
it was gonna be the end of the world.
687
00:31:40,798 --> 00:31:44,513
And you have been married and divorced,
688
00:31:44,547 --> 00:31:47,730
and you have a child,
689
00:31:47,764 --> 00:31:50,368
and you've lost a child,
690
00:31:50,403 --> 00:31:53,344
and you are five steps ahead of me.
691
00:31:53,379 --> 00:31:56,928
And I don't know how to catch up.
692
00:32:04,303 --> 00:32:05,704
Um...
693
00:32:09,942 --> 00:32:14,245
You said that you told Kate
about what you'd lost?
694
00:32:14,280 --> 00:32:16,915
Yeah, um...
695
00:32:18,751 --> 00:32:20,051
That's...
696
00:32:20,086 --> 00:32:22,982
That's messy, you know?
697
00:32:24,215 --> 00:32:25,790
Pretty complicated, Maggie.
698
00:32:25,825 --> 00:32:28,426
Try me.
699
00:32:31,163 --> 00:32:33,598
Okay.
700
00:32:41,774 --> 00:32:44,469
The one thing that April and I
701
00:32:44,517 --> 00:32:47,512
could never see eye to eye on was God.
702
00:32:48,872 --> 00:32:51,630
She believed, and I never could.
703
00:32:51,664 --> 00:32:52,904
And now that I do...
704
00:32:52,938 --> 00:32:56,021
now that I really do...
705
00:32:56,055 --> 00:32:56,988
it's too late.
706
00:32:57,023 --> 00:32:58,156
She's married.
707
00:32:58,190 --> 00:33:00,961
She's happy with someone else.
708
00:33:01,827 --> 00:33:03,766
You said that you were happy for her.
709
00:33:03,801 --> 00:33:06,031
You said that a lot of times.
710
00:33:06,065 --> 00:33:07,498
I am. I am happy for her.
711
00:33:07,533 --> 00:33:10,769
I would never do anything
to take that away from her.
712
00:33:10,803 --> 00:33:13,338
I am, uh...
713
00:33:14,874 --> 00:33:16,374
...grieving.
714
00:33:18,911 --> 00:33:23,515
Uh, I'm grieving what we both lost...
715
00:33:24,884 --> 00:33:25,984
...and what my daughter lost
716
00:33:26,018 --> 00:33:28,987
for the bad timing.
717
00:33:29,021 --> 00:33:32,157
And I love you.
718
00:33:32,191 --> 00:33:34,192
I really love you.
719
00:33:35,861 --> 00:33:38,697
That's all true and all a little messy,
720
00:33:38,731 --> 00:33:40,632
and I just...
721
00:33:41,756 --> 00:33:44,002
I didn't know
how to talk to you about it.
722
00:33:58,951 --> 00:34:00,235
No, don't...
723
00:34:00,269 --> 00:34:02,679
Maggie, please don't...
don't leave. What...
724
00:34:02,714 --> 00:34:04,089
I can't.
725
00:34:04,123 --> 00:34:06,424
I am...
726
00:34:06,459 --> 00:34:07,926
This...
727
00:34:10,730 --> 00:34:13,064
Jackson, I can't.
728
00:35:00,579 --> 00:35:02,881
What can I get you?
729
00:35:09,588 --> 00:35:11,156
Eight years, huh?
730
00:35:11,190 --> 00:35:13,324
Impressive.
731
00:35:13,738 --> 00:35:15,272
I had five once.
732
00:35:17,296 --> 00:35:20,899
God grant me the serenity, right?
733
00:35:26,205 --> 00:35:27,172
What's your poison?
734
00:35:27,206 --> 00:35:28,807
Vodka.
735
00:35:48,861 --> 00:35:50,562
Enjoy.
736
00:36:15,487 --> 00:36:18,089
Hey. You can't come back here.
737
00:36:18,924 --> 00:36:20,091
What the hell, man?!
738
00:36:23,529 --> 00:36:25,563
- Whoa, whoa!
- Whoa!
739
00:36:25,598 --> 00:36:26,998
- Hey!
- Whoa!
740
00:36:27,032 --> 00:36:28,132
- Stop it!
- Whoa!
741
00:36:28,167 --> 00:36:29,701
Hey! Stop it!
742
00:36:29,735 --> 00:36:31,035
- Whoa!
- Hey, whoa!
743
00:36:31,070 --> 00:36:32,370
Somebody call the damn police!
744
00:36:32,404 --> 00:36:34,239
Do it! You call the police,
745
00:36:34,273 --> 00:36:35,943
and I'll tell 'em what you do to people,
746
00:36:35,978 --> 00:36:37,611
people who are just trying to be
747
00:36:37,636 --> 00:36:38,797
there for their children...
748
00:36:38,831 --> 00:36:39,873
...trying to be there
749
00:36:39,898 --> 00:36:41,179
- for the wives that love 'em...
- What?
750
00:36:41,213 --> 00:36:44,349
...just trying to hang on
with everything they got.
751
00:36:44,401 --> 00:36:46,036
And you find 'em,
752
00:36:46,061 --> 00:36:47,729
and you hunt 'em down!
753
00:36:56,462 --> 00:36:58,429
Aah! I didn't hurt nobody!
754
00:36:58,464 --> 00:36:59,731
The choice was all yours.
755
00:37:08,107 --> 00:37:10,441
Damn right it is.
756
00:37:19,285 --> 00:37:21,219
Aaah!
757
00:37:34,192 --> 00:37:37,560
This foundation was created
758
00:37:37,585 --> 00:37:39,586
to change the face of medicine.
759
00:37:39,620 --> 00:37:42,422
And because of the brave women
who came forward
760
00:37:42,456 --> 00:37:48,128
and told their truths and
overcame insurmountable odds,
761
00:37:48,162 --> 00:37:50,330
the Catherine Fox Foundation
762
00:37:50,364 --> 00:37:53,433
will change the face of medicine
once again.
763
00:37:54,669 --> 00:37:56,569
This is just the beginning.
764
00:37:59,807 --> 00:38:01,341
Damn.
765
00:38:01,375 --> 00:38:02,742
Right?
766
00:38:02,777 --> 00:38:06,079
No, I mean, she looks good.
767
00:38:06,113 --> 00:38:07,247
She always looked fantastic, but...
768
00:38:07,281 --> 00:38:09,015
Okay, what is it with you two?
769
00:38:09,050 --> 00:38:10,984
Because you realize that
Richard and I are like family,
770
00:38:11,018 --> 00:38:13,019
so if there's something going on...
771
00:38:13,054 --> 00:38:14,884
I'm not one to kiss and tell.
772
00:38:14,919 --> 00:38:16,298
That's literally all you ever do.
773
00:38:16,332 --> 00:38:17,772
Oh, you want... you want details.
774
00:38:17,807 --> 00:38:19,626
- No, I don't.
- She woke me up.
775
00:38:22,396 --> 00:38:26,132
I had a kid, a son, and, uh...
776
00:38:26,167 --> 00:38:27,467
then I didn't.
777
00:38:27,501 --> 00:38:30,989
Uh, I sleep-walked
through years of my life,
778
00:38:31,023 --> 00:38:35,108
and Catherine, uh...
779
00:38:35,142 --> 00:38:37,510
reminded me that I was alive.
780
00:38:38,679 --> 00:38:42,048
And she sings a mean harmony, too.
781
00:38:43,384 --> 00:38:45,118
She's my friend.
782
00:38:45,604 --> 00:38:47,218
Then she's in good hands.
783
00:38:47,252 --> 00:38:49,758
No, I'm a Big Gun, Meredith.
784
00:38:49,792 --> 00:38:51,157
Yeah, okay, with the Big Gun.
785
00:38:51,192 --> 00:38:53,126
- I get it.
- No, you don't. You don't.
786
00:38:53,160 --> 00:38:55,361
There is no one smarter,
no one better than me.
787
00:38:55,396 --> 00:38:59,833
And my friend has Grade 3 chondrosarcoma.
788
00:38:59,867 --> 00:39:03,636
She has cancer in her spine
that won't shrink with chemo,
789
00:39:03,670 --> 00:39:06,612
and I have no idea how to remove it
without killing or paralyzing her.
790
00:39:06,647 --> 00:39:08,208
Thomas, what the hell
are you doing standing here?
791
00:39:08,242 --> 00:39:09,898
- Ugh. Catherine...
- You have work to do.
792
00:39:09,932 --> 00:39:12,879
I survived losing my mother before
I could even get to know her
793
00:39:12,913 --> 00:39:15,181
and my father, who dropped dead
on his way to church
794
00:39:15,216 --> 00:39:16,662
when I was 18 years old.
795
00:39:16,697 --> 00:39:19,697
I raised my sisters alone...
no help, no money.
796
00:39:19,732 --> 00:39:23,160
I have survived racism, sexism,
every "ism"
797
00:39:23,195 --> 00:39:26,226
designed to make me feel small
or make me less.
798
00:39:26,260 --> 00:39:30,096
If I can do all of that,
if I can survive all of that,
799
00:39:30,131 --> 00:39:33,199
then I just might survive this, too.
800
00:39:33,234 --> 00:39:36,169
But I can't do this on my own.
801
00:39:36,203 --> 00:39:40,240
So I need you to figure it out, fast.
802
00:39:42,243 --> 00:39:44,577
Now, excuse me. I...
803
00:39:44,612 --> 00:39:47,080
I have to go call my husband.
804
00:39:47,114 --> 00:39:51,284
The problem with all the
how-to, step-by-step books is
805
00:39:51,318 --> 00:39:54,702
they don't take into account
the exceptions to the rules.
806
00:40:11,272 --> 00:40:12,768
Hey, there, L'il Pancake.
807
00:40:12,802 --> 00:40:14,994
They never leave room for the outliers...
808
00:40:17,244 --> 00:40:19,145
...the geniuses...
809
00:40:21,697 --> 00:40:22,748
...the miracles...
810
00:40:41,520 --> 00:40:43,121
You've reached
Richard Webber's cellphone.
811
00:40:43,155 --> 00:40:44,527
Please leave a message.
812
00:40:59,004 --> 00:41:01,372
...because books are black and white...
813
00:41:01,407 --> 00:41:03,775
...and everything in real life
814
00:41:03,809 --> 00:41:05,364
is a messy shade of gray.
815
00:41:37,009 --> 00:41:38,776
So nothing can truly prepare us
816
00:41:38,811 --> 00:41:40,645
for the beautiful, painful things
817
00:41:40,679 --> 00:41:42,513
we never imagined possible...
818
00:41:49,578 --> 00:41:50,631
_
819
00:41:50,656 --> 00:41:52,590
_
820
00:41:54,393 --> 00:41:55,693
Maggie.
821
00:41:55,728 --> 00:41:57,595
- Meredith.
- Richard?
822
00:41:59,064 --> 00:42:00,365
Are you okay?
823
00:42:00,399 --> 00:42:02,367
Please don't tell Catherine.
824
00:42:02,401 --> 00:42:04,102
Just promise me.
825
00:42:04,136 --> 00:42:05,870
Okay, I promise.
826
00:42:05,904 --> 00:42:07,805
What's going on?
827
00:42:07,840 --> 00:42:10,708
...or the moments no one ever saw coming.
828
00:42:10,743 --> 00:42:12,877
I've been arrested, Meredith.
829
00:42:12,911 --> 00:42:14,052
I need your help.
830
00:42:14,672 --> 00:42:18,425
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