You didn't even realise our son was missing.
You just sit here, you just sit here and you say nothing.
And our son is dead!
I want to go to the police. You should think about that.
Alex never bullied Eva.
It sounds like another one of Ben's stories. Don't.
If it was my daughter, I would have gone to the police straightaway.
That's what I would have said until it happened to my son.
'Helen can't stand to be in the same room as me any more.'
I think you and I are dreaming of realities that don't exist, Eddie.
It's just a thank you. You know, for... for being there.
It's beautiful.
The police arrested our photographer this afternoon. Colin Chiswick.
You've got to work out what you're gonna say to the police.
Cos once the kids come forward, they're gonna realise the story
you told about the man in the woods was bullshit.
Which means Alex's actual killer is out there because of you!
I've got to stop being such a coward.
Don't...
If you won't stay for Ben, then stay for me.
'You need to go to the hospital.'
Eddie found David.
'It's bad, T, it is really, really bad.'
I didn't know that David was so unhappy.
Did you know?
Do you think this had anything to do with what happened...
No, I don't. I don't want to talk about it.
He is stable.
Thank God.
If you'd like to come and see him.
What a relief. Just this way.
I'd like to go by myself.
Eddie. Fresh air?
Yeah, sure.
He sent me a text. That's how I, er...
The second I saw it, I knew what he was going...
..what he'd done.
I just wish I'd read it sooner. Can I see it?
Right...
I just can't think why he'd... send that to me, and not...
Maybe he knew you were home. Maybe he wanted to be...
..saved?
I think I could have done more.
Did he tell you something, Eddie?
OK. I should be getting in.
After the vigil, when David and I went for a drink... he was...
He was a mess.
He was...
What did he tell you?
God, I shouldn't...
I don't even know if he knew what he was saying.
What was he saying? Did he do something? What did he tell you?
He told me Helen was cheating on him.
That she had been,
for a while.
Who with? I don't know.
But like I said, he had a lot going on in his head.
I just...
..thought someone should know.
I think I'd want someone to know.
Thanks for telling me.
What did you think I was going to say?
Just, you asked, "What did he do?"
I should get in.
Hiya.
How's he doing?
Er... they said...
They said he's gonna be fine.
They're going to, er...
..keep him in for a few days.
Keep him under observation.
Check for any signs of damage to his internal organs.
Something like that.
That's good.
God, it's so cold in here.
I asked them for a blanket hours ago. I'm sure they're on it, Helen.
They're not doing anything, they're just standing out there giggling!
I sound like Mum.
Sorry.
I never thought this would happen.
It's not your fault.
Of course, it's not my fault.
No. Yeah...
I just meant if something had happened... Nothing's "happened".
He was depressed.
He was depressed and I didn't pay any attention.
Helen... Look, can you just,
can you go and get me some things from home.
I'd be really grateful. Fetch a small bag.
Get some pyjamas, and a change of clothes and a toothbrush. Yep.
OK. On it.
Tell Eddie he can pop in if he wants to.
'Hey.' Hey.
Erm, David's OK.
'Er, they're gonna keep him in for a few days,
'but Helen says that he's gonna be fine.'
Thank God.
I mean... physically...
Have you spoken to him?
'T?'
Er, no.
I was just on my way to Helen's, to get... get him some stuff.
OK.
'How's Eva?'
Er... quiet.
I told her her dad's been in an accident.
But I don't think she believed me.
'I think we're all having trouble
'believing anything that's happened these last few days.'
Tell me what you need.
'Tell me what I need to do.
'So that I can fix this.'
I don't want to lose you.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
I, um...
You...
you should go and get those things for David.
'T?
'Are you still there?'
I'm fine.
OK. 'OK.'
Hi. - 'Hey.
'How are you getting on?'
Yeah. Fine.
'Great, look I'm not, er...
'I'm not rushing you, I just...'
I wanted to say that if you were looking
for anything clean for David,
then your...
..your best bet is probably downstairs in the laundry room.
'Rather than in the main bedroom. Sorry, I should've said before.'
OK.
Are you all right?
'Yeah.'
Won't be long.
'See you soon.' OK. Great.
Hello?
Is somebody there?
God.
Sweetheart, you gave me a heart attack.
What are you doing here?
Does Uncle Fraser know that you're here?
Sorry.
OK. Don't worry. Don't worry. Don't worry.
Let's get you back, cos he will be...
He'll be worried sick. Yes.
I'll just get some things... for Daddy for the hospital, OK.
Can I come with you?
No, darling I'm sorry, no. Daddy's just so tired.
But the doctors are really pleased with him,
so maybe... maybe he'll be home tomorrow.
Sweetie, sweetheart, he's gonna be fine.
Is this because of me?
No, not at all.
Your daddy loves you so much,
he loves you more than anything in the world.
He's just... not very well at the moment, that's all.
He is so proud of how brave you are, for telling the truth, we all are.
But I didn't. You didn't what, pickle?
I didn't tell the truth.
That's why this happened, that's why we had to lie to the police. No. No.
That's not... That's not what...
Look, it's... it's done with now, it's over, OK.
Ben was just trying to help.
Alex was so horrible.
And he wouldn't stop, even when I stood up to him, like Mum said.
So me and Ben...
we were horrible back.
We told him to...
kill himself.
That's why when we found him,
we thought he'd...
Does Ben hate me?
No. Goodness, no, no, never!
Never! He could never!
So, Mummy knew that Alex was bullying you, yeah?
She told me she'd fix it, so she told me not to say anything.
But...
I don't want Alex's mum to see the stuff I sent him at school.
What, the messages on his tablet?
I didn't want to be so horrible.
I just wanted him to stop. I know.
It's fine. OK.
She is never gonna see those messages. I promise you.
I promise you.
OK, my sweets?
'A man arrested in connection with the murder
'of ten-year-old Alex Boyd has been released by police.
'Alex's body was found in a wooded area near his home
'after he was reported missing on Sunday afternoon.
'Police would not comment on further lines of inquiry,
'but emphasised their investigations remained "ongoing and active".
David?
Er, it's Theresa. You're... you're in the hospital.
No? No.
I'll go and get Helen for you.
She took the car keys.
David, do you know where she went?
Where's Eva? Is she OK? Yeah.
Yeah. She's fine. She's with Fraser.
She's fine. She's...
I want to see her. Yeah, you will, David. David, what..
Do you know where Helen went?
Maybe she's left.
Maybe she's gone to be with him.
She's always with him.
David.
David, was she with... was she with him last Saturday night?
The night before the barbecue. Do you remember, David?
Try to remember, David.
I don't know.
She wasn't home.
She's always with him.
Hi.
You're back.
Yeah.
That's good.
I just, er...
I just tried to call you, but, er...
the signal here's terrible.
I just went to the loo.
I'm gonna pop down the road, and get him something to eat.
The food here is just terrible.
Would you mind sitting with him? I won't be long.
Helen?
Helen?!
Helen?
Helen!
Eddie, would you sit in with David? Yeah, sure, where are you...?
Helen!
Jesus!
Helen!
Just stop!
Were you there that night?
Was I where? With Gareth!
Were you there that night?
Were you there the night Alex got killed?
Theresa, David is off his face on sedatives.
He doesn't know what he's saying.
You lied to me! You lied to me!
You have been sleeping with Alex's Dad!
I've told you the worst things I've ever told anyone.
I've put my life in your hands, and you've...
..just lied about everything.
I was just trying to protect Eva.
Were you there that night!?
I hate this drive.
The first time I made this drive, was the night Mum died.
The second was the night I came to get you from hospital,
after you'd...
Has something happened, Helen?
Did something happen?
Are you protecting him?
Is that what this is?
I just need you to... I just need to understand,
so please can you tell me and...
I just want you to tell me.
Please!
I'm sorry.
You fixed that back door? Yeah, I will. You keep saying that.
Because I will.
Is that you working all night now, yeah? Yeah.
Whoa, whoa, hang on a bloody minute.
Those are mine. Get your own.
Right, come here. That's it.
Stop! Dad! No! For God's sake, Gareth.
This is why he's always covered in bruises.
Stop stuffing your face. You're having your dinner in a minute.
I'm hungry now, though.
You're always hungry, you little monster.
You'd think we never fed you.
Right, I've got to go. No.
I'll be back tomorrow after... afternoon, you little worrier.
Maybe we can all go out, do something nice together.
Go the movies. Can I go out and bring the camera?
All right, Spielberg, just keep your phone on you and stay in the drive.
You promise to be good?
I said promise. Yes!
Well, you've made a promise now, so I'll have to hold you to it.
Aw, look at him. He's adorable.
Mum!
Hold still.
Right. I'm late.
Don't kill each other. I'll see you tomorrow.
See you later.
For God's sake, Gareth, get this fixed. Yeah, I will.
Pizza time.
Fraser's divorced brother is moving in,
and I don't think Theresa's too happy about it.
We should go over.
Say hello.
We're seeing them tomorrow.
I'm just trying to be supportive.
She can't survive on her own for a few hours?
Maybe I want the company.
Did you put Eva's PE kit in the wash?
I can't find the kit bag.
Great (!)
I'm nearly at the end of the chapter. That's all right.
Do you want to tell me what's going on?
Was this Alex?
I'm talking about your gym bag.
Did he put the paint in there?
I thought this had stopped.
Did you stand up to him, like we said?
All right.
You just leave it with me.
You should say good night to Eva.
I'm gonna take the car.
Where are you going?
To see a friend.
OK.
"OK"?
What do you want me to say?
Do you want me to physically restrain you? Make you stay?
I don't want anything, David.
I'm going now.
If you don't stop seeing him...
..then I'm out. I'm done.
You'd have to get up off the couch first, David.
If I stayed here tonight,
in fact, if I never left this house again,
would that even make you happy?
I can't remember the last time we had sex.
That is because you are never here.
If you're not working or sleeping around
or picking up after another one of your sister's catastrophes.
That is the only reason we're still stuck here
in this sterile hole, Helen!
So you can fix her!
That is not true.
I gave up everything to come here. To be near your family.
I gave up a good job. You hated that job.
You got everything you wanted.
I just got in the way.
Hey. Hi.
Alex is asleep.
Turn it off! Shh.
Shh. It's all right, it's all right.
I think he knows about us.
What, Alex?
I found paint in Eva's gym bag. He's been saying things to her.
And I'm so worried, I think we're the reason.
No. No. He can't know. There's no way.
But Eva, she...
she does do things to him, too.
I'm not blaming him.
I'm not saying... Hey, hey, hey, I'm not saying you are.
All I'm saying is...
maybe... maybe they just don't like each other.
Or maybe they do.
Hey, come here.
I don't want this... this to end.
I feel good when I'm with you. I feel...
I feel happy.
I just get the feeling like...
..everything's going to explode.
Do you want this to stop?
No.
I should go. OK.
I'll show you out. No.
You stomp around like an old elephant.
Shush.
Right, OK. OK. Use the back door.
Right. The lock is broken, but it doesn't make any noise.
Yeah, I know, I said I'm gonna fix it and all that.
Shit!
Shit.
'Hi, this is Gareth Boyd.
'I'm not around, so please leave a message.'
Shit.
Alex.
Put the phone down.
I'm making a film about you and Dad.
Alex, just put the phone down and I can explain.
You don't have to explain anything.
Alex, give it to me. No!
Give it to me now.
No!
Alex, stop! Stop!
Just give me the phone. I'm gonna send it to everyone.
I'm gonna send it to Eva.
Give me the phone. Get off me.
Shush!
Shush! Drop the phone.
Drop the phone. Just give me the phone, drop it!
Alex... Alex. Alex!
Alex.
Alex... My God, Alex.
My God.
Alex.
Alex. Alex...
I just wanted him to let go!
Theresa, I just wanted him to let go.
I just wanted him to let go.
He was ten!
He was a baby!
You didn't have do anything!
You shouldn't have even been there!
You left him, Helen. You just threw him away!
And left him in those woods.
My God, you made me believe our children were responsible.
You made them believe that they were responsible.
I would never have let them take the blame.
I tried, I did try to stop you...
You should have told me! I have always told you everything.
I was trying to protect you. Protect me?
I just didn't think that you could...
I just wanted to take it on.
I wanted to take it on myself, cos I knew, I knew...
I knew you couldn't cope.
No. No. No. No. You can't use me as the excuse for this.
You... You have used me as justification
for every shitty mistake you have ever made!
Theresa, please... Yes, you have, Helen!
You killed Alex Boyd, Helen.
I blamed my own son!
When they get here,
when the police get here, you're gonna tell them the truth.
SIRENS APPROACHING I can't.
I can't... OK, I will.
I'll never see Eva again!
I'll never see Eva grow up.
I'll never see Eva...
I know, I know, that is... That is exactly what I deserve.
But she doesn't.
You lied for Ben.
You would have done anything.
I lied for Eva.
I would do the same for you, I would.
Please.
Please. Please. Please, Theresa, help me. I am begging you.
Please.
You didn't lie for Eva.
You're right though, she doesn't deserve this.
Do you know the difference though, Helen?
The difference is that Eva, she'll be fine,
because she gets to grow up.
If she wants to, she can see you.
I hope she never has to look at you ever again.
You don't mean that.
Theresa, you don't mean that. Please, you don't mean that.
I'll tell them everything.
Not just what I did.
But if you wanted, I would take all of it to my grave.
I would live with it.
'Head teacher Helen Bardwell has pleaded guilty
'to the murder of the ten-year-old schoolboy Alex Boyd.
'Bardwell has been remanded in custody
'to await sentencing next week.'
We are relieved to bring
this tragic and upsetting case to a swift conclusion.
Hopefully, this can bring closure
to Alex's family at this most difficult time.
Hey there.
Hey.
Don't look at me. Yeah.
I'm so sorry, Jean.
Thanks, handsome.
Will you give me a hand?
Have you said your goodbyes?
Good lad.
I love you.
You're still my baby. You're still my baby.
I'm so sorry.
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