Spencer, look I'm sorry. You don't just cut off who you love.
Who you love?
- Please don't do this... - Just stop it both of you!
- I decide who I love! - Then just decide!
Phil. Phil! They're ready for you in surgery.
Glen! Oh God. Thank God you're ok. Come here.
Where's Spencer and Clay? Where are they?
- Spencer's over there. - Spence!
Aiden, I'm right here okay? I'm not gonna leave you.
Everything's going to be okay. I'm going to be right here.
Go find your brother, now.
- What did they say about Aiden? - He's fifty-fifty.
- Spencer, you're bleeding. - It's nothing.
- No, Spencer, you need to get treated. - No, I fell on the ground.
I didn't get shot, ok?
Is that Clay?
Oh my...
Clay! Clay! What's wrong with him?
Oh God.
- Dad. - Glen.
Are you okay?
- Spencer? - She's ok.
- Clay? - I don't know.
Spencer, your dad's here.
Spencer, oh God!
Let me check on Clay.
Hey, listen!
Tell Dr. Carlin her husband's out here,
- I want to talk with her right now. - Arthur...
Paula...
Where's Clay?
- Oh, you're going to bed early? - I'm thinking about taking a bath first.
That's a good idea. It'll help you sleep.
It's what I'm hoping for.
Night sweetie.
You all set for tomorrow?
More or less, I am. School had to start some time.
- Just remember... - I know dad.
Hour by hour, one day at a time.
Goodnight
- This feels really really weird. - Yeah, I know.
- How was your summer? - It was good actually.
- I think I finally get what really matters. - Yeah, what's that?
Realizing that every moment is special and that none of them should be wasted.
- No, tell me you haven't joined a cult? - No.
- Tell me you're not starting one? - Madison, no cults.
Oh my God, I forgot that MTV was doing that True Life documentary.
Yep, our school has finally made it. You know what?
I better do my hair.
- Girl, I'm kidding. - Ok.
Humor in tragedy?
- Come on, let me see it. - You've seen it a million times.
Stop exaggerating. I've seen it like, twice.
Wait, what...
- What are we talking about here? - Your scar.
I just want to see how it's healing.
Oh wow, it's getting a lot better.
Yeah well, you were away in Europe for two months.
Yeah and you know
a week of which my mom actually acted like a concerned caring parent
- instead of a total pod. - I'd have only pegged her a half a week.
So you called Spencer?
Yeah, three times. She hasn't called me back though.
I guess I deserve it after not calling her back while I was away.
Wait, you called me back and not her?
Well yeah.
- After Clay I just didn't know how to deal. - Ashley!
- Look alright, whatever's between us... - What's between us is...
I'm really really happy that you're still here. That you're not...
And Spencer?
I don't know. I'll find out when she talks to me.
Thanks for agreeing to do this.
- Well, I'm just doing this for Clay. - I know.
So, pretty much,
we're just asking all the students to share their thoughts about the shooting.
Anything you want to say, go ahead and say it.
You ready?
No.
How about now?
- Yeah, alright. - Ok.
God, I had this whole thing in my head but...
Now of course I can't remember a word of it.
So...
the night of the shooting, I lost my brother.
It just...
It reminds me how this all sucks.
I'm done.
Alright!
- Glen, what are you doing? - Oh mom, check out this solo.
Unfortunately, I am.
It's afternoon and you haven't even gotten dressed yet?
What, so what? Why are you home so early?
Because I had an early shift. No no, don't change the subject here.
Ok fine, back to me getting dressed.
I'm on it.
Just as soon as I finish song.
This song is finished.
Glen, you are a high school graduate. My God!
Look.
Listen to me.
What I'm trying to say to you here is you've got to do something with your life.
Ok?
I thought I had it all figured out.
Great, I'm all ears.
It was...
it was just an idea, but...
It's nothing. Changed my mind.
Yeah, well... how's this for an idea?
You get a job, or we start charging you rent?
You wouldn't!
Wanna bet?
Yeah, it was scary to come back, but...
now that I'm here, it's actually okay. Life goes on you know?
And there were plenty of things I regretted doing before the shooting so...
I didn't need a tragedy to figure that out.
I gotta get going. I gotta practice some final routines
- before the cheer-leading tryouts. - I thought you said you quit the team?
- Yeah, that was last year. - One of the things you regret?
Something like that.
Ok, you know what sucks about being pregnant?
Other than everything?
- Don't say that. - Ok so...
The baby's totally making me fat, right?
So I get really bummed out and what do I do?
I start gorging on food which makes me...
- even fatter - You are not fat!
Ok.
I would really love to just crawl inside of a hole right now.
- Why? - Everyone's staring at me.
Chels, you don't even look that pregnant.
Come on girl.
- Maybe a little bit but not really... - Hey guys, hi.
Hey Ash.
Alright, mama needs peanut butter, now.
Bye.
I owe you an apology.
I checked out. I know I just up and left and...
Disappeared.
Yeah.
There is so much I want to say to you.
Say it.
- I don't even know where to start. - Hey. sorry to interrupt.
- Ok then don't. - Well actually, I just want to talk to you.
Goodbye.
Well then, can you tell me a time that's better for you?
- Yeah, never. - You know what?
You guys should talk...
Cause I'm not really sure I really wanna have this conversation right now.
- Hey, I didn't mean to get in your way. - Oh, but you did.
I'm sorry.
- You know what, maybe we can talk later. - No, you want to talk now? Come on.
Let's talk now.
You wanna know what I think about violence in school today?
I think everything about life is violent.
I think that people are constantly harsh to each other.
I think that parents are horrible to their children.
Friends become enemies and people that you love,
you crap on for no apparent reason.
And you lose everything that you ever had.
You know, four people might have died that night,
but all of us got buried somehow.
What the...
- Sorry. - Sorry. Sorry.
- You in a rush to get to class or what? - Yeah, I'm just dying get to Calculus.
Hey...
You know how...
Sometimes, people have stuff to talk about, and they...
they kinda talk about it without really talking about it?
Aiden, we're fine.
Got a little ego there?
- What, is Ashley rubbing off on you? - Oh what, you weren't talking about me?
- Well, no, I was. - The only thing that I think about,
when I think about us, is that...
it was really great.
I know.
But I mean, your life, you've got...
You've lived here for forever, and I've only been here for six months,
and I'm starting to think that that might be too long.
What's that supposed to mean?
I don't know yet. You got new wheels?
Carpe diem, right?
Right.
- You wanna go for a ride? - I have math class.
Ok well. Carpe later.
- Alright, spill it. - Spill what?
What's going on in that head of yours?
I don't know.
I mean, part of me like, really wants to cut her off completely,
and the other part of me, really wants to kiss her.
- Hey. - Hey Chelsea.
- You said we could interview you here? - Yeah, yeah I did.
- Oh hey. - Hey.
Wow, your stuff's amazing.
I loved Clay but...
to be honest, I never wanted to have this baby.
And I told him that from the start.
But...
He begged me to keep it.
And so out of respect for him,
I put off my follow-up appointment at Planned Parenthood until after the prom.
And now he's gone.
And I'm here, not studying in Paris,
four months pregnant,
spending my senior year as a statistic.
- So? - So what?
So, you're not smiling.
What did you do, blow the interview?
I mean come on, Lance is my boy, man.
He's been giving me 20% off since I've been a freshman. Did you piss him off?
- If you pissed him off, I... - Dude, chill.
- I got the job. - You did?
Yeah, I rock, ok? Lance can tell that.
- So you get 30% off. - Yeah.
That's solid. Now I do too.
- What, is that your deal with Lance? - No, that's my deal with you.
As of right now.
Alright that's fair.
Hey... Hypothetically...
If you enlisted in the army, and then got a job,
you think you can then get out of the army?
What?
Wait you enlisted in the army?
I said, hypothetically.
Whatever, dude.
- Ashley. - Hi Paula. Mrs Carlin...
How are you holding up with everything?
We're doing as well as possible, but...
Yeah it's been hard.
- I'm really sorry. - Thank you.
- Is Spencer here? - Yeah. Spencer! Ashley's here!
- How was Europe? - Sucked.
My mom met this guy that like, maxed out all our credit cards, so...
Yeah, sounds like it...
... sucked.
Spence!
- Let me go see what she's... - No...
She's ignoring me and I get it. So I'll just... I'll go.
- Are you sure? - Yeah no, it's okay
Yeah I'm just here for a few minutes to say goodbye to some friends.
But I graduated.
Yeah actually, I'm leaving tonight to go intern with Spike Lee down in New Orleans.
Oh, impressive. Good for you.
Alright, looks like we're set, so...
You know, just a few words like we talked about.
Alright.
Clay...
He was a gentle soul, who had big plans for the future,
who got cut down for no reason.
As to the violence in the schools,
it's an erosion of a culture, our youth culture.
Has nothing to do with being black, brown, or whatever.
- Girl you were, so tight. - Thanks.
- And? - We'd love to have you back on the squad.
- I bet you would. - So?
So?
Now, when everyone watches your crummy little routines,
they'll know that the best dancer in school,
the one you dumped and humiliated last year,
is nowhere to be found.
Good luck on the season, ladies.
I mean, everyone said it was a miracle.
You know being... being shot in the heart and living?
You know, what's a... what's a miracle?
I mean, crazy things happen everyday, you know?
Me being shot is just as crazy as...
as Clay dying, as the shooter showing up in the first place.
It's weird though because you know, I feel...
I mean, I feel great.
I feel awesome, invincible.
Like I'm finally really living my life.
You know I quit the basketball team and...
you know, focusing on college now, thinking about SE's so...
you know everything's...
Everything's kinda falling into place.
You know, almost everything.
Alright just tell mom that I got a text message from Chelsea
and I'm going to be home late.
Fine, if mom's not there, just tell Dad.
Glen!
Glen! I'm hanging up now. Goodbye.
Chelsea!
Chelsea, hello!
You in here?
Not Chelsea.
Are you disappointed?
I don't know what happened between us.
Ok, I do.
I wasn't there for you. Again. And, I wanted to be but,
I felt guilty and I didn't call because I still didn't even know what to say.
But I do know what to say now.
The night of the shooting,
before our entire world fell apart,
you told me that I needed to choose between you and Aiden.
Here I am.
I choose you.
I need you.
Please tell me, you need me just a little bit too.
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