Can I go to school now?
I'm very good at accepting apologies, Mark.
I apologized over the phone.
"Fine, I'll bring her to L.A.," is not an apology.
- What is that? - That's just a shadow, that's the baby.
- Where's the ATM? AVM, sweetheart.
ATM is where you get money.
You're not gonna see the AVM here. That's just a cluster of blood vessels.
That aren't supposed to be there, and if you pop them, I'm gonna die?
We... No... Sloan, it's just a tangled cluster of blood vessels under the baby.
I'm not gonna go anywhere near them, so I won't be popping them.
I'm gonna go in laparoscopically
and very carefully cut one of the amniotic bands from around the baby's legs.
- Then he'll be okay? He'll be able to walk? - Then he'll be perfect.
- Well, that's what you said last time. That was my fault, Sloan.
I should have let her finish the surgery the first time.
Now that is an apology.
What is that? What is that thing there? Is that something growing out of his head?
That is a penis.
Sloan, you're gonna make yourself crazy trying to read the ultrasound.
Has her blood pressure always been this high?
Yeah, it's been going up. She's scared.
So am I.
Mark Sloan, Pete Wilder. Pete Wilder, Mark Sloan.
- Hi. - Good to meet you.
And this is Sloan, Mark's daughter.
- Sloan Sloan? - Sloan Riley.
- She got her mom's last name. - Oh, okay.
Well, Sloan, Dr. Montgomery asked me to help you try to calm down a little.
She says you're nervous about your surgery.
- What is he, a pharmacist? No, alternative medicine.
Dude, you are not putting those needles in me.
- Most people barely feel it. Dude, you heard her.
- You're not putting those needles in her. - Dude, Pete is doing me a favor.
With respect, I didn't bring my daughter down here for witch doctoring.
- "With respect," really? - Mark.
- What kind of medicine do you practice? Plastics.
- What are you laughing at? - Nothing.
- Saving the world, one boob job at a time. - Hey, listen, pal...
Okay, look, enough. Pete, you're gonna do your thing.
- Mark, you're gonna let Pete do his thing. - No, I'm not...
Yes, you are, I'm in charge here. If you want me to do this surgery, again,
you're gonna follow me out of this room right now.
Right now, Mark. Right now. Let's go.
- Hi, Dr. Cooper. - Hey, Cody. Is your mom home?
Oh, she ran to the post office. She'll be home soon.
Could we wait inside?
- My mom's a super good mom. - I know.
- She's super nice. - I know, I've met her.
- Trying to fix us up or something? - No, I just...
Okay, come in.
All right, follow me. Just be careful you don't knock over any piles.
So your mom likes to hold on to stuff, huh?
- She's a super good mom. - I know, you said that.
I was thinking maybe one of the reasons you wanted me to come here
was so I could see how much stuff she keeps.
Cody?
Oh. Oh, my God. Dr. Freedman, what are...? What are you doing?
The itching was killing me, Mom. I was gonna go crazy.
- Cody, I would've taken you to the doctor. - I know, but...
Dr. Freedman, I know what you must be thinking.
No, I'm thinking that we're gonna have to take Cody to the hospital.
- What? Why? - He's got a skin infection, a bad one.
- Oh, God. - Cody, you can't scratch that, okay?
- You wanna take him in your car? - Yeah. Yes, thank you.
- Thanks so much. - See you there.
- She's crazy cakes. - That's your diagnosis?
Crazy cakes. There is broken crap piled everywhere.
And I'm not just talking unsanitary, I'm talking insane.
Okay, well, it sounds like she's a hoarder.
That's an obsessive-compulsive disorder, Coop.
Maybe it's genetic, maybe it was triggered by a trauma or loss.
- Or we could go with crazy cakes. - If you had seen this place, you would.
Okay, well, I will talk to her.
It's actually a very hard disorder to treat, but I'll do the best I can. How's the kid?
The kid is smart, the kid is articulate. I thought maybe he had called me there
as a cry for help so I could see this, but he's got a Staph infection on his arm,
so maybe he just needed that cast off. I've got him at St. Ambrose for the arm,
and he is staying there until that house is clean.
That might take some time.
If it takes too much time, I'm calling Child Protective Services.
Thanks for the vote of confidence. Hey, Coop, how's it going with Charlotte?
I can't forgive her. I'm trying, but I just...
I can't seem to forgive her.
- What is the matter with you? - Me? What's the matter with you?
You're as wound up as I've ever seen.
I am not the one starting schoolyard fights with other doctors.
- You're wound up, Addie, just admit it. - Bizzy's a lesbian.
- What? - My mother, she's a lesbian.
Which means the captain wasn't a cheater.
It was all a sham, my whole childhood.
Everything I believed about my dad, my mom, love, marriage,
it's all turned on its head. So, yeah, I'm a little wound up.
Wow.
- Your turn. - Lexie dumped me.
Oh.
I asked her to raise Sloan's baby with me. Or, you know, raise it with me and Sloan.
She's a little young for that, don't you think?
- Do not take her side. - I'm sorry.
- It sucks. - Yeah.
Your thing sucks too.
- Bizzy's a lesbian? - Thank you.
- When did we get so...? - Old.
I was gonna say "sad." When did we get so sad?
- Don't you wish we did heroin? - Addison Forbes Montgomery...
No, no, no, I mean, don't you wish we did drugs, drank too much,
shot something into our vein?
I mean, nothing, you know, that would make you ruin your life or kill you,
or make you have to go to meetings and say, "Hi, I'm Addison, I'm an alcoholic,"
but just...
You know, Nai, she eats.
She puts food on top of it and that numbs the pain.
The malaise, the sad.
I mean, she puts food on top of it and she feels good, but I...
I don't... I have green juice.
I mean, that's all I really like.
And green juice, I can't really put that on top of it.
I wanna put something on top of it, but I don't have anything.
Mark, what are you doing? I'm telling you how I feel.
And I hear you.
Numb the pain.
- What...? - Numb the sad, feel good.
Put something on top of it.
Mark, I said put something on top of it, not put you on top of me.
My life is in ruins.
It's a mess.
I'm about to be a grandfather and I'm alone.
I don't know of a lot of sure-fire ways to numb the pain,
but I do know one.
Now, do you wanna feel better or don't you?
Yes.
Oh, my God. L...
I can't catch my breath. Ha-ha-ha.
Well, we could call in the dude with the needles.
Help calm you down.
I forgot how much fun you were.
Yeah, well, that's what happens when you date children.
You forget what it's like to be with a woman.
Hey. - Ow!
No being mean about Lexie.
- Did you just spank me? - Oh, you wanna start something?
Maybe. - Come on.
Oh, right now, huh, Dr. Sloan? - Bring it, sister.
- Oh, I'll give you more of the same. - Real...? Ow! Oh, my God.
- Addison. Ah!
- Sam, close the door. - Addison, this is a place of business.
Sam, will you just toss me that shirt there, buddy?
Sam, close the door.
Hey. Oh, my God.
Sloan went right to sleep. The needles worked wonders.
Thanks. Great job, dude.
Okay, then.
Too bad I joined the other practice, this place has perks.
Sam, close the door.
I keep everything of Cody's because he might want it someday.
- Report cards, trophies? - Mm-hm.
Yeah, and there's other stuff that needs to be donated to Goodwill or somewhere.
You called anybody about coming to pick it up?
You know, I haven't gone through all of it just yet.
Do you need help doing that?
I know how overwhelming it can be to be a single parent.
Well, it was easier when his dad was alive, but Cody and I are...
We're okay now. We do fine.
When did he die?
- Three years ago. - I'm sorry. What happened?
I know that you wanna help, but honestly I don't need any help.
Cody and I are just fine.
You get 30 seconds.
- I'm sorry? - We are business partners,
so you get 30 seconds to lecture me on my business practices.
But if you start to lecture me on something not related to my business practices,
- I will walk away. Those are the rules. - Oh, our friendship has rules now?
We're not talking as friends, we're talking as partners.
- I wanna talk to my friend. - She doesn't wanna talk to you.
So now you're talking about yourself in third person?
Hi. Did you sleep with Mark Sloan on the floor of your office?
- Yep, and she's making up rules. - Sam...
And she's talking about herself in third person.
Yes, I am because I have earned that right.
When you've gone through what I've gone through with my family,
you have the right to be a little eccentric for a few weeks.
You have the right to refer to yourself in the third person,
and have sex on the floor of your office, and apply random rules to old friendships.
- You have the right. - Okay.
All right, you need to leave Addison alone because you're making her scream.
- Addison, I'm here for you if you need me. - You see that?
That is a friend.
Okay. Okay, you came to me and you were upset,
you were scared, you were a little desperate and I turned you down.
Now, I turned you down because I am a good person.
Mark Sloan had you naked within an hour of his arrival.
Now, what does that say to you?
- Addison. - You broke the rules, I'm walking away.
Relative harmony?
Well, as long as Betsey's not with me, she seems fine.
She'll come around.
She hates me.
Maya hates me for no discernible reason.
Try not to take it personally. Doughnuts help.
I'm not the one who blew up the house. I'm not the one with the drug habit.
And I lost someone too. I mean, I went through a trauma too.
- Dell, she's 7. - I know, I know.
She's 7.
I know.
Hoarding is a mental illness, Cooper. I can't just tell her to snap out of it.
No, but you can get a dump truck, back it up and start shoveling.
Then she's just gonna start all over again.
I need some time to get to the root of the problem.
He doesn't have time. He's got Staph eating his arm.
Which could happen in a clean house, you know that, and you're treating it.
Yeah, and Charlotte's gonna slice me for using one of her beds
for someone that's not on death's door.
For God's sake, Cooper, if a patient needs a bed, admit him.
But don't keep blaming me for everything. It's getting old.
If Andrea doesn't start throwing stuff out the front door tomorrow, I'm calling DCFS.
How long is he gonna keep punishing me?
Because I'm about to stop forgiving and forgetting, and get real nasty.
Do you ever get used to this view?
- No. - No.
So you're doing the surgery tomorrow, right?
I am going to do the surgery tomorrow.
This is so beautiful. Isn't it beautiful?
And everything's gonna be okay, right? After the surgery?
- Yes. - I've always wanted to learn to surf.
- Do you wanna learn to surf? - Whatever. Good night.
- Good night. Good night.
I mean, do you ever get used to this view?
Mark, that little girl is not ready to be a mother.
How's she gonna handle it the first time the baby spits up in her mouth?
I'm gonna be there with her, every step of the way.
Really? How are you gonna handle spit up in the mouth?
It happens quite frequently.
I can handle it.
I grew up, you guys.
You all ran off to live on the beach and I went and grew up on you.
Okay, now that's just crazy talk.
- I think I might move here. - What?
What? - I could join your practice.
This is L.A., I'm a plastic surgeon, I'd bring in a fortune.
And you could help me raise the baby.
Are you out of your mind?
Please tell me you're not serious.
Addison and I are good together. Tell him.
Mark.
Lexie, like you said, she's a kid.
But you, you know me.
You get me. You all do.
You're my friends. My old friends, my good friends.
And this?
This feels right.
Feels really right.
You hungover?
You were the one who was drunk, not me.
I wasn't the one talking about moving my whole life down here.
- That wasn't drunk talk, Addison. - Oh, come on, Mark.
Let's not talk about it. I want you focused on the surgery.
Montgomery.
- How long are you gonna need OR 3? - Two hours, tops.
- Good. Who's Hot Stuff? - Oh, Dr. Charlotte King, Dr. Mark Sloan.
- Plastics. - Sexology.
Sexology? My God, I love L.A.
I was just telling Addie I could be persuaded into relocating
if the situation were right.
I've been saying we need a plastics guy.
Haven't I been saying we need a plastics guy?
- Oh, God. - We'll talk.
Right after my daughter's surgery.
Actually, you can talk now on your way out.
On my way out?
Yeah, you're not allowed within a thousand feet of my OR.
And don't let him join the practice while I'm in surgery.
Thank you for letting me come see you.
Do you remember when this first started? This need to keep everything?
Cody made that.
Did it have anything to do with the death of your husband?
Cody will grow into this in a few years.
These erasers, they are all still good.
This can be repaired.
How would your life be different if you threw this out?
- I need it. - Why?
Because you never know when you're gonna need something.
And then if you throw it out, you don't have it anymore.
I'm not crazy. Maybe I'm a little eccentric.
I know what people think, but I'm not crazy.
Surgical time-out's complete. Let's prep the belly.
- Sam, is everything okay? Everything is perfect.
Because you can't walk away from me in here.
Look who's making up the rules now.
I am at work, Sam.
You're really gonna talk about my very, very personal life while I'm at work?
No, no, no. Hello, everyone.
I am going to talk to you about dogs.
- Where's my mom? Why isn't she here? - She's on her way.
How you feeling?
- I wanna go home. - Yeah, I bet.
Hey, I have a question for you.
Do you have any family around here?
- Any aunts, uncles? - No, why?
Well, I'm working with your mom on cleaning your house up.
And it'd be better if you had someplace else to stay for a while.
No, I need to be with her. I take care of her.
- Would you like that to be different? - You don't understand.
She needs help, Cody.
She needs more help than you can give her.
And this separation would only be temporary.
You can't do that, she'd be...
It'd be like when my dad and my sister died.
Do you mind if I ask you about that?
- My dad had us weekends. - So they were divorced?
I was sick, so it was just my sister that Friday.
They ran off the road on Latigo Canyon.
I have to stay with my mom.
And then you have golden retrievers.
Now, golden retrievers, like Labs, whether they be blond or chocolate,
they're people dogs.
They're all about pleasing you, all about making you happy.
You can neglect them, you can ignore them,
you can walk all over them, but still, making you happy is their first thought.
Snipping the first band.
I would be fine if you took up with a golden retriever or a Lab.
Heck, even a schnauzer. But Sloan, Sloan is a dachshund.
Dachshunds like to eat poop right up off the street. Other dogs' poop.
They're more concerned with their own needs
than they are with making you happy. They're filthy and immoral.
Lmmoral? They're immoral dogs?
The owners of dachshunds are desperate.
Desperate for affection, but it's the wrong kind of affection.
The kind that makes you always take care of them.
Oh, my God. What happen?
The AVM just blew.
She's bleeding all over, I can't see a thing. Convert to open.
With the baby still inside her? Yes.
Ten blade.
Was this my fault? I was talking, we were talking.
I'm capable of talking and operating simultaneously.
- You blew the AVM? - Not on purpose.
- I already told him that. - Then what the hell happened?
Stop yelling at her.
She lost a lot of blood, but she's gonna be okay.
- And the baby? - I think he's gonna be fine.
- You think? I hope.
I'm sorry, the AVM is very delicate, Mark.
It's directly below the dissection and it just blew.
- I need to see her. Okay, look, Mark.
She's gonna be in bad shape when she wakes up.
She hemorrhaged, I had to open her up. She's gonna be worse than last time.
The last thing she needs is to look up and see you hovering terrified.
- What do you expect me to do? - Why don't we just take a walk...?
Naomi, don't talk to me like I'm a child. I'm not a 12...
Mark, please, just go with Naomi. She knows what she's talking about.
Fix this.
That baby has to be okay.
He will. He will.
I care about Mark Sloan. I loved him once, and he was our best friend.
And, yes, he's done a lot of stupid things,
but he also let all of us do a lot of stupid things.
He let us do a lot of stupid things and he never judged us.
He's not just a dog, Sam.
Sure he's got a screwed up moral compass, but so do I.
He's a good man.
This baby's gotta be okay.
- I didn't even know he had a sister. - Yeah.
The fact that she didn't even mention it, has to be the root of the problem.
Hey, where's Cody? - His mother took him home.
- I'm calling DCFS. - DCFS is not the answer.
She snatched Cody out of the hospital, brought him back to the house of horrors!
- Why are you shouting at me? - You have no concern at all for this boy.
The best thing for that child would be a healthy mother.
And the best thing for you would be to stop displacing your anger.
- What is that supposed to mean? - You're angry at Charlotte,
you keep lashing out at everybody
- so you don't have to take responsibility. - I am trying to help Cody.
By putting him in foster care? By ripping him away from his mother?
By breaking his heart? Get a grip, Cooper, deal with your problems.
- Why do you think Charlotte lied to me? - No, no.
Cooper, you gotta talk to her about that. I'm serious, I am out.
Oh, you're out? You're out.
You don't get to be out. How many times...?
How many times have I had to listen to you go on and on and on about Allan?
Or Sheldon? Or, oh, my God, Pete? Pete this and Pete that, Violet.
And look how well that worked out. Look how healthy I am.
Yay, me. I am super normal.
- Point taken. - Thank you.
Talk to her, not me.
Work it out or not. You love each other, you don't.
Just figure it out with Charlotte.
I'm calling DCFS.
Is there some reason why we are eating in silence yet again?
May I be excused?
Maya, why don't you just tell me what's going on? We can talk about it.
- Can I be excused too? - Betsey, Naomi went to a lot of trouble...
Thank you for breakfast. May I be excused?
Yeah, sure, honey. Yeah.
Well, at least you know why yours isn't speaking to you.
I didn't kill her mother.
You know, I'm just gonna say it to her because at some point you gotta grow up.
- Dell, she's... - I know, she's 7. I know.
But I can't feel like this every day, you know?
I can't keep being treated like the enemy.
Well, maybe all she needs is an apology.
What am I apologizing for?
I did the right thing. Heather's face was burned off.
She burned her face off getting high.
You really think I should've let Betsey into that room?
Okay, you're in mourning and you are my friend,
and you've been through hell, so I've been really gentle with you.
But I think I am not gonna be gentle with you anymore.
I'm just gonna tell you the truth because that's what I would want you to do for me.
Are you okay with that? If I'm not gentle anymore?
- Yes. - Okay.
I think you should have let her in that room.
I think you should've let her say goodbye to her mother.
I think Pete was right and I think you owe him an apology.
And I think that Betsey has a right to be pissed.
I would be pissed too. Seven or 37, I would be pissed.
Mom? - Hey, Sloan. It's Addison.
- Where am I? - You're in the hospital in Los Angeles.
You just had surgery, but everything is fine.
- You and the baby are fine. - Where's my mom?
- I want my mom. - Well, Mark's here.
Your dad's here and he's gonna be here in just a few minutes.
I don't want him. I want my mommy.
I don't want any of this. I don't want a baby.
I just wanna go home. I want my life back. I wanna go home.
I'm delirious. I'm delirious with exhaustion.
Lucas thought it was morning at 2 a.m. And then again at 3 a.m. And at 4.
Now I feel like I'm underwater.
See, that's what I'm talking about. You're a grown man and you're a wreck.
That's what you were talking about? To who?
To myself in my head.
Sloan Sloan, she's... She's pretty simple, you know, and young,
and her mom had her when she was young,
and I don't think she's even thought about adoption.
I don't think anybody's counseled her. I think she feels trapped
and I think it's my responsibility as her doctor, to give her, her options.
- Of course it is, what's the problem? - Mark, he really wants this baby.
He wants to raise it with her.
Are we talking about the plastic surgeon?
The contempt that seeps from your every word.
Do you have that for every plastic surgeon,
or just, you know, ones that I sleep with on the floor of my office?
I just... I don't think there's anything to debate, Addison.
- You're her doctor, she's a kid. - She's 18.
Yeah, well, still, it's your responsibility to counsel her. Give her the options.
Yeah.
Back in New York, you know, Mark and I were together
and I got pregnant.
And I told him about it, and he was excited
and I wasn't, and I had an abortion.
I didn't talk to him about it first. I made the decision for both of us.
And he wanted it. And he wants this one.
One thing can't inform the other.
Your loyalty to your friend and your guilt or your remorse,
it can't inform your patient care.
You gotta give her the options, let her choose. Maybe it'll go his way.
And I'm sorry.
It sounds just awful.
Thanks.
- Don't fall asleep on my head. - I'm up, I'm up.
- How's the baby? - Heartbeat's holding strong.
I haven't taken my eyes off it.
Oh, hey, good. That's...
That's good.
What?
This midlife crisis you're having, all this talk about moving to L.A.,
whatever is going on with you, something worse is going on with Addison.
And I'm not about to let her be your landing pad.
What the hell do you care, Sam?
Well, she just spends a lot of time trying to take care of everyone at the practice.
So, you know, I'm trying to take care of her.
I'm saying I like you, Mark, but what you've been doing around here,
it's not you at your best.
And I ask again, what the hell do you care?
I just care.
Hey, looking for me?
Yeah. I wanted to let you know I have a staff meeting tonight.
I'm not sure when I'm gonna be home.
You lied. Why did you lie?
- I just wanna know why. - I told you why.
No. You told me that there are things that you can't...
I told you I didn't wanna go there.
Were you ever gonna marry me? Was that a lie too?
I cannot believe you have the nerve to do this here.
- Can you answer the question? - Can you not ask it? I have answered it.
You, uh...? You seen Addison?
No, not recently. Not down here.
Oh.
- Your son? - Yeah.
And you bring him to work? Naomi's cool with that?
I'm sorry. I, uh... I'm about to have a kid.
Well, my kid... My kid is about to have a kid.
And you can skip the grandpa jokes because they have all been made.
Anyway, my kid, she's, uh...
She's young. She's gonna need a lot of help.
So I think it's really great that you get to bring your baby to work.
L.A.'s a pretty liberal place. Naomi's a pretty liberal boss.
You know, I don't think I've ever even held a baby.
I mean, I held lots of kids through my peds rotation when I was a resident,
but I don't know,
I don't think I've ever even held a baby.
Here.
Go ahead.
Okay, just be gentle. I just got him quiet.
Hi?
Ooh.
Hello.
Wow, you're cute.
Shh.
It's okay.
So have I got this straight?
You think my favorite hobby
is sitting around dreaming up ways to emasculate you.
You humiliated me when you bought me into the practice without asking me.
That made me less of a man.
You made yourself less of a man
when you spent all the money in your bank account.
You know what? Let's just start over.
No, no, no, this is good. Get it all out. This is good.
- Charlotte finally opens up, come on. - What's that supposed to mean?
I mean, I'm there for you and there for you, but all you wanna do is screw and not talk.
All I wanna do is screw? All I wanna do?
Oh, you are gonna have to look in the mirror
because the pot is definitely calling the kettle black.
- Screw is all you know how to do. - No, no, no, I'm a person.
I'm a whole person with feelings and friends, and a practice full of patients.
- And what do you have? - You.
Don't you say that like it's an insult, don't you dare.
I'm not a freak. I'm not the freak, Charlotte.
I'm not the freak that got fired because I'm heartless.
- Charlotte... - No.
You're the freak who needed me to bail you out,
which is how I know I'm not heartless.
The 50 grand I spent to buy your ass a place in this practice
proves I am not heartless.
And we're back to the money again? You are such a bitch that you can't...
I do what needs to be done.
I do what needs to be done and you resent me.
Why? Because I don't go all crybaby every five seconds?
It's not about crying, it's not about crying. It's about being a person.
It's about being a normal woman for once.
It's not my fault you're not a man.
So don't tell me I'm not a woman.
I literally... I am full of hatred right now.
- Oh, join the club. - What?
Do you know how ridiculous it is that you would take me aside...?
- Could you answer one question? - You can't separate...
There's the heartbeat.
And it's strong.
So I have to ask you this.
Has anyone ever talked to you about adoption?
What, like when you pick a family from the Pennysaver?
No, that's just in Juno.
No, in real life there are agencies and all they do is screen families.
They find you safe, wonderful families who would love your baby as much as you do.
There are agencies. In fact, we have one at the practice.
Don't tell Mark we're having this conversation
because I know that he'd freak out, and, like, all my stuff is still at his apartment.
No, I'm your doctor, so I can't tell anyone anything that we're talking about.
And for the record, I think that you could be a great mom, Sloan.
And I know Mark would be an amazing...
So these agencies, like, what exactly do they do?
- We are breaking up. - Coop, we're having a fight.
No, we're done.
- I'm done. - You don't get to be done.
You don't get to decide what happens to us.
Goodbye, Charlotte.
Okay, this? This is the problem right here. You won't man up and face stuff.
You wanna just cut and run. We're having a fight.
No. The problem is you are a sex toy I found on the Internet.
The problem is you're just a trashy little girl who's trying to please her dead daddy,
and I shouldn't have expected much from you.
My bad.
You act warm. All cute cuddly Cooper.
But the bitch of it is, you're the one who's heartless.
Not me, you. You're a mean, cold, miserable bastard
who doesn't know a thing about forgiveness.
You screwed another man, I forgave you.
That's just sex.
I was talking about us.
I was talking about love.
You're supposed to love me.
Were you ever planning on marrying me?
Doesn't matter now, does it?
They can't just come and take my boy.
DCFS does not want to take Cody. They will, but they don't want to.
But if you and I can show them that you're fixing the problem,
then they will do anything they can to have Cody stay.
Mom, just throw some stuff out.
Maybe Cody can go to his room so you and I can talk.
It'll be okay, Mom. Just listen to her, okay?
You can do it. I know you can.
I can't.
This doesn't fill the hole. This doesn't make up for divorce and death.
You didn't tell me about your daughter.
You didn't tell me because what happened was unthinkable, it's unbearable.
But this isn't working anymore, is it?
It's not working to keep away whatever it is that's eating you from the inside.
Did you divorce your husband or the other way around?
How old was your daughter?
How did you find out they'd been killed? Did you have to identify the bodies?
How did you tell Cody that his father and his sister were dead?
I divorced him, okay? I didn't love him anymore.
He was a good husband and a good father, but l...
I tossed him out like a sack of garbage. And if I hadn't done that,
then my daughter wouldn't have been in that car in that place at that time.
- You don't know that. - I do know that.
Do you want this gone?
There.
How about that? How about this?
Maddy was 4 and a half.
She wanted to stay with Cody because he was sick.
But I made her go with her father because I felt guilty.
Because he only got them on the weekends.
And he loved them more than anything.
He loved them and he loved me, and I didn't want him.
No. No, they can't.
No, they can't take Cody.
They can't take him, they can't take him.
Hey, hey, hey, did you see what you did?
You threw stuff out. Can you leave it out there? Can you do that?
I think so.
- I'm Ellie Farraday, DCFS. - Hi, Ellie.
We're just doing a little house cleaning.
I'm sorry.
For everything, I'm sorry.
That's quite a punch you've got.
Coming?
Oh, no, I'm just riding up and down. Lucas likes the motion. Yeah.
You like the motion.
I don't care what Sam says, this is ideal.
- What did Sam say? - Nothing.
Forget about Sam. This is ideal.
Three parents. No one gets overwhelmed.
- Everyone still gets to have a life. - Mark...
This is our second chance. Don't you see it?
- What if there wasn't a baby? - Why, what happened?
Nothing, nothing happened. The baby's fine.
It's just, what...?
What if Sloan changed her mind, or there wasn't a baby?
Would you still wanna move down here? Join the practice?
Be with me?
Because you keep asking and you paint a pretty picture.
And I'm just lonely enough, and I'm just scared enough,
and I'm just freaked out enough that if you ask me again,
I might say yes.
So I'm asking you not to ask me again if it's not about me.
If you're just heartbroken, or in love with someone else,
or you just want me to help you with a baby that you may or may not be able to raise,
don't ask me.
Because I don't know anything.
I don't know anything anymore.
Except I can't fall in love with a man who's in love with someone else.
That much I know. I can't do that again.
So please, if you're still in love with the Grey girl, then go back to Seattle.
But if you're not...
I mean, if you're serious
and you want me,
then ask again.
I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry, Red.
Yeah. Yeah, me too.
I was mad at her.
At your mom.
I was. I was so mad at her, and I made a mistake.
I made a mistake. I was scared, and I was just trying to protect you.
And I made a mistake not letting you see her.
I should've let you say goodbye.
I should have let her say goodbye to you.
And I'm so sorry.
Grownups, we're supposed to know what to do,
but when we get scared sometimes, we don't.
And I'm sorry. L... I'm sorry for not letting you say goodbye.
I'm just so sorry.
- You should have let me. - I know.
I know.
Come here, come here. Come.
I know, I know.
Sweetie, I know I'm not always that easy to talk to.
My mother wasn't very easy to talk to either.
But whatever's going on with you, Maya,
I hope you feel that you can talk to somebody.
Talk to Dell or your dad or...
Talk to someone, Maya.
Because the hard stuff, it always gets easier once you let it out.
Addison? Can I talk to you?
Sure, come on over.
Hey.
What's the matter? Are you okay?
What's wrong? What happened?
Sweetheart, whatever it is, you can talk to me about it. It's gonna be okay.
It's not gonna be okay.