1 00:00:01,971 --> 00:00:03,700 Previously on Grey's Anatomy: 2 00:00:03,772 --> 00:00:06,263 Pick me. Choose me. Love me. 3 00:00:06,342 --> 00:00:08,833 I need to not die emotionally crippled and alone. 4 00:00:08,911 --> 00:00:12,347 Callie. What I did to you? It's unforgivable. 5 00:00:12,414 --> 00:00:14,177 So you two are together? Yeah. 6 00:00:14,249 --> 00:00:16,945 Know what? You're inappropriate and unprofessional. 7 00:00:17,019 --> 00:00:20,045 Dr. Hahn agreed to become our head of cardiothoracic surgery. 8 00:00:20,122 --> 00:00:23,751 Looking forward to it, Dr. Yang. My wife has filed for divorce. 9 00:00:23,826 --> 00:00:26,454 Don't know if I can handle one more night in that hotel. 10 00:00:26,528 --> 00:00:27,825 You can say anything to me. 11 00:00:27,896 --> 00:00:30,387 I want to marry you. And you're not ready. 12 00:00:34,737 --> 00:00:37,501 There's this thing about being a surgeon. 13 00:00:37,606 --> 00:00:41,064 Maybe it's pride or maybe it's just about being tough. 14 00:00:41,143 --> 00:00:45,512 But a true surgeon never admits they need help unless absolutely necessary. 15 00:00:45,614 --> 00:00:47,775 What are your other symptoms? 16 00:00:47,850 --> 00:00:49,681 There's the father thing. 17 00:00:49,752 --> 00:00:53,119 The mother thing. The sister thing. 18 00:00:54,289 --> 00:00:56,587 The dying and coming back to life thing. 19 00:00:56,658 --> 00:00:58,023 You have too many things. 20 00:00:58,127 --> 00:01:01,688 I can't sleep. I can't sleep without the dreaming. 21 00:01:01,797 --> 00:01:02,957 And the panic attacks. 22 00:01:03,032 --> 00:01:04,761 One panic attack. Ok, still... 23 00:01:04,833 --> 00:01:07,563 What's wrong with me? As far as I can tell, 24 00:01:07,636 --> 00:01:09,604 severe abandonment issues. 25 00:01:11,974 --> 00:01:14,499 That's crap. Psych is crap. 26 00:01:15,444 --> 00:01:17,378 Issues? I mean, it's in the book. 27 00:01:17,446 --> 00:01:19,710 The book said it, not me. 28 00:01:19,782 --> 00:01:25,345 Have you considered, maybe you and Derek should... stop having breakup sex? 29 00:01:29,591 --> 00:01:30,853 Ok. 30 00:01:33,929 --> 00:01:39,561 The more available he gets, the more I pull away. 31 00:01:40,669 --> 00:01:44,833 What do you mean? Nothing. It's a Derek thing. 32 00:01:44,940 --> 00:01:49,172 Surgeons don't need to ask for help because they're tougher than that. 33 00:01:49,244 --> 00:01:52,577 Surgeons are cowboys. Rough around the edges. 34 00:01:53,282 --> 00:01:55,250 Hardcore. 35 00:01:55,350 --> 00:01:57,910 At least, that's what they want you to think. 36 00:01:59,788 --> 00:02:01,278 Ah. Good morning. 37 00:02:02,224 --> 00:02:05,887 Oh, perfect timing. Trout for breakfast. 38 00:02:05,961 --> 00:02:08,486 Mm-hmm. Again. 39 00:02:11,300 --> 00:02:13,632 Yeah, don't start. I let you live on my land. 40 00:02:13,702 --> 00:02:15,465 Don't start. I'm older than you. 41 00:02:15,537 --> 00:02:19,234 I've seen life from both sides now. Are you going to start singing? 42 00:02:19,308 --> 00:02:23,244 I'm just saying that a man who is up fishing at 3:00 every morning 43 00:02:23,312 --> 00:02:26,873 is a man in pain over a woman. Oh, good, a country western song. 44 00:02:26,949 --> 00:02:30,248 I'm pointing out it's a thing we have in common, Derek. 45 00:02:32,988 --> 00:02:36,549 You know, what we need is something to take our mind off of everything. 46 00:02:36,658 --> 00:02:39,923 What we need... 47 00:02:39,995 --> 00:02:43,362 is a gentlemen's evening. - A what? 48 00:02:43,465 --> 00:02:46,593 A good, old-fashioned, gentlemen's evening. 49 00:02:46,668 --> 00:02:48,192 Tonight. 50 00:02:48,971 --> 00:02:50,131 Yeah. 51 00:02:55,711 --> 00:02:57,872 This is absurd. 52 00:03:02,518 --> 00:03:03,644 Hey. 53 00:03:05,087 --> 00:03:08,022 You shouldn't be sleeping in the on call room. 54 00:03:08,090 --> 00:03:12,424 It's not always on call. Sometimes it's the gurney in the... 55 00:03:12,494 --> 00:03:15,827 tunnels and the... It's absurd. 56 00:03:15,898 --> 00:03:17,991 When I have a perfectly good bed. 57 00:03:18,066 --> 00:03:21,126 And I know that we said we would wait and be respectful. 58 00:03:21,203 --> 00:03:23,728 And we have been. Very respectful. 59 00:03:24,373 --> 00:03:26,534 But now I want sex. 60 00:03:26,642 --> 00:03:29,702 Right now? No. Tonight. 61 00:03:31,246 --> 00:03:36,775 Tonight we will have hot, perfect sex. 62 00:03:36,852 --> 00:03:40,117 You in? Yeah. I'm obviously in. 63 00:03:41,557 --> 00:03:45,653 I got to go. I got patients to check on. Erica Hahn to impress. 64 00:03:45,727 --> 00:03:49,254 I'm going to go kick some cardio ass. Oh, God. I got to shave my legs. 65 00:03:49,331 --> 00:03:52,630 It's ok if you don't have a chance to shave your legs. 66 00:03:52,701 --> 00:03:56,467 No, it's not. It is not ok, George. I have to shave my legs. 67 00:03:56,538 --> 00:03:57,903 I will be shaving my legs. 68 00:03:58,006 --> 00:04:00,566 Hot, perfect sex requires shaved legs. Ok. 69 00:04:02,311 --> 00:04:06,145 Dr. Steinberg, 1478. Erica Hahn! First day! 70 00:04:06,215 --> 00:04:09,582 First day, indeed. And a mountain of paperwork to prove it. 71 00:04:09,685 --> 00:04:13,212 Derek Shepherd. You know Erica Hahn. You're the new Burke. 72 00:04:13,288 --> 00:04:16,655 And this is Dr. Mark Sloan, head of plastics. Erica Hahn. 73 00:04:16,758 --> 00:04:20,626 Oh, the new Burke. Welcome. Excuse us. 74 00:04:21,964 --> 00:04:23,522 Interesting guys. 75 00:04:23,632 --> 00:04:27,398 And by interesting, I mean ridiculously attractive. 76 00:04:27,502 --> 00:04:30,835 Do you hire on looks alone or is actual skill a factor? 77 00:04:31,707 --> 00:04:34,870 Good to have you here, Erica. Good to be here, Richard. 78 00:04:34,977 --> 00:04:38,504 What exactly is a gentlemen's evening? I don't know. It's an evening. 79 00:04:38,580 --> 00:04:40,275 With gentlemen. And strippers? 80 00:04:40,349 --> 00:04:42,374 I don't think the Chief meant strippers. 81 00:04:42,451 --> 00:04:44,919 Sure sounds like strippers. Dr. Bailey. 82 00:04:44,987 --> 00:04:48,753 What's the first thing that comes to mind when I say "Gentlemen's evening?" 83 00:04:49,558 --> 00:04:53,722 Tassels. Shiny sequined tassels and one dollar bills. 84 00:04:53,795 --> 00:04:54,853 See? Strippers. 85 00:04:54,930 --> 00:04:57,228 There will be no strippers. Almost positive. 86 00:04:57,299 --> 00:04:59,733 You don't know what this is? No. But you're in. 87 00:04:59,801 --> 00:05:01,894 Why not? I like to be surprised. Ok. 88 00:05:03,205 --> 00:05:05,765 Oh, heads up. Mr. Incredible, twelve o'clock. 89 00:05:05,874 --> 00:05:08,900 Hi. Hi. 90 00:05:10,279 --> 00:05:11,940 What the hell was that about? 91 00:05:12,014 --> 00:05:15,745 That was about a date we have later in the on call room. It's nothing. 92 00:05:15,817 --> 00:05:18,650 Sure seem to be losing sleep over a whole lot of nothing. 93 00:05:18,720 --> 00:05:22,816 This is it. Hahn is in the hospital. Freaking Izzie is on her service again. 94 00:05:22,891 --> 00:05:25,257 I got to ride this trauma train back into cardio. 95 00:05:25,360 --> 00:05:28,329 Ok. What do we got? Two ambulances, multiple traumas. 96 00:05:28,430 --> 00:05:30,330 Any chance you need a resident's help? 97 00:05:30,399 --> 00:05:35,359 As long as you want to smash bones. Into dust. While people cry. 98 00:05:36,972 --> 00:05:40,430 Sweet. What do you got? Chest pain. Tamponade. Ruptured aorta. 99 00:05:40,509 --> 00:05:43,637 More like a clown car. Jackie Escott, 25 years old, 100 00:05:43,712 --> 00:05:46,840 dislocated shoulder, lac to her thigh. Vital signs are stable. 101 00:05:46,915 --> 00:05:50,078 And, Helena Boyd, 26 years old, also stable. 102 00:05:50,152 --> 00:05:53,315 Obvious nasal fracture, facial lacs and a chunk of missing scalp. 103 00:05:53,422 --> 00:05:55,788 She ripped out my hair! She ripped my shoulder! 104 00:05:55,891 --> 00:05:58,416 You ripped out your own shoulder trying to push me! 105 00:05:58,493 --> 00:06:00,859 Who let go? Did anybody let go of the dress? 106 00:06:00,929 --> 00:06:02,988 Hang in there. Don't let her psych you out. 107 00:06:03,065 --> 00:06:06,592 Ok, what the hell's all this? It's a store contest. I'm the judge. 108 00:06:06,668 --> 00:06:09,034 Last to let go... Wins the wedding of my dreams! 109 00:06:09,137 --> 00:06:10,866 Of my dreams! All right, enough! 110 00:06:10,939 --> 00:06:13,908 You two are injured. You need to get your priorities straight 111 00:06:14,009 --> 00:06:17,877 and let go of the... let go... let go of the dress so we can treat you! 112 00:06:19,281 --> 00:06:21,806 All right, let go now. Now. 113 00:06:22,617 --> 00:06:25,586 Yeah. That's not going to happen. 114 00:06:25,687 --> 00:06:27,848 All right. Fine. Let's move. 115 00:06:31,727 --> 00:06:36,460 Oh, please let this be something good. Something cardio good. Please. 116 00:06:36,531 --> 00:06:39,989 Thirty-three-year-old male, discovered unconscious but stable, 117 00:06:40,068 --> 00:06:42,935 survived a 12,000-foot free fall. A what? 118 00:06:43,004 --> 00:06:44,528 His parachute didn't open. 119 00:06:44,606 --> 00:06:46,699 He fell 12,000 feet without a parachute? 120 00:06:46,775 --> 00:06:49,141 Thank you. 121 00:06:53,648 --> 00:06:57,379 What's his name? Rick. I'm Rick Jacobs. Ow! 122 00:06:57,452 --> 00:07:00,148 He's talking? You'd think after 12,000 feet, 123 00:07:00,222 --> 00:07:03,089 he'd have at least a punctured lung. Rick? Where are you? 124 00:07:03,158 --> 00:07:06,321 My God! There you are! How is he? How is he? Is he OK? Is he dying? 125 00:07:06,395 --> 00:07:08,556 I'm not dying, Sally. 126 00:07:08,630 --> 00:07:11,360 Ok, ma'am. You need to calm down. Is this your wife? 127 00:07:11,433 --> 00:07:13,867 My skydiving instructor. Ok, ma'am. 128 00:07:13,935 --> 00:07:16,768 I watched the whole thing. I couldn't do anything. 129 00:07:16,838 --> 00:07:20,535 I was just... I was just in the clouds, floating, watching while he... 130 00:07:20,609 --> 00:07:24,545 while he... you fell to your death! His chute didn't open! 131 00:07:24,613 --> 00:07:27,377 We need to do our jobs, and you're making that difficult 132 00:07:27,482 --> 00:07:32,044 by hovering over the patient. Look, please. Have a seat and breathe. 133 00:07:32,154 --> 00:07:35,851 I heard we have a skydiver who fell 12,000 feet. 134 00:07:35,924 --> 00:07:37,755 That'd be me. 135 00:07:39,027 --> 00:07:42,087 Uh... Hello. Hey. 136 00:07:43,198 --> 00:07:46,759 He's talking? It's... clearly he's in shock. 137 00:07:46,835 --> 00:07:48,996 Can't feel the extent of his injuries. 138 00:07:49,104 --> 00:07:52,596 Let's get him down for a CT. Cristina, where are you going? 139 00:07:52,674 --> 00:07:55,234 Multiple injuries means multiple surgeries. 140 00:07:55,343 --> 00:07:57,106 I'm going to get me some cardio. 141 00:07:57,212 --> 00:08:00,238 Ok, do you see that you're bleeding all over the dress? 142 00:08:00,315 --> 00:08:02,442 It's not about the dress. I can't... 143 00:08:02,517 --> 00:08:05,042 I can't... look, there's too much blood down here. 144 00:08:05,120 --> 00:08:08,681 Which one of your legs is bleeding? I don't know. I can't feel anything. 145 00:08:08,790 --> 00:08:10,314 Have a broken nose down here? 146 00:08:10,392 --> 00:08:12,917 What's with the dress? It's not about the dress. 147 00:08:12,994 --> 00:08:15,326 Can't they just split the prize? I offered. 148 00:08:15,397 --> 00:08:20,664 I offered that 14 hours ago. It is $100,000 wedding package, 149 00:08:20,735 --> 00:08:22,794 and I am not splitting it with anyone. 150 00:08:22,871 --> 00:08:26,329 Oh, you're bleeding on your dress. It's not about the dress! 151 00:08:26,408 --> 00:08:29,775 I have to stabilize that shoulder. I'll go grab a sling. 152 00:08:29,878 --> 00:08:31,641 Well, this is cozy. This is hell. 153 00:08:31,713 --> 00:08:35,410 I assigned O'Malley to you to keep him away. Now our patients are connected. 154 00:08:35,484 --> 00:08:37,816 Not looking at this like the opportunity it is. 155 00:08:37,886 --> 00:08:39,649 Meaning? Meaning he's an intern. 156 00:08:39,754 --> 00:08:42,723 It's like, half my job, torturing interns. 157 00:08:42,824 --> 00:08:45,384 Thanks. That's almost sweet, but torturing George 158 00:08:45,494 --> 00:08:47,257 is not going to make this any better. 159 00:08:50,999 --> 00:08:53,160 Torture him how, exactly? 160 00:08:55,971 --> 00:09:00,704 My hands always get so sweaty in hospitals. It's the weirdest thing. 161 00:09:00,775 --> 00:09:02,834 It's pretty common, actually. 162 00:09:03,879 --> 00:09:07,940 Makes you feel any better, Dr. Hahn has done this procedure hundreds of times. 163 00:09:08,016 --> 00:09:12,578 She's really going to thread a catheter up my leg? All the way to my heart? 164 00:09:12,654 --> 00:09:15,316 Trust me. You are in excellent hands. 165 00:09:15,390 --> 00:09:18,154 But I'll be out, right? 166 00:09:18,260 --> 00:09:21,127 Oh, yeah. You'll be asleep. You won't remember a thing. 167 00:09:22,130 --> 00:09:24,462 Ivory-billed woodpecker. 168 00:09:24,533 --> 00:09:27,593 I'm sorry? Ivory-billed woodpecker. 169 00:09:27,669 --> 00:09:30,194 That's what's getting me through this. 170 00:09:31,473 --> 00:09:34,203 I'm a lifelong birdwatcher. 171 00:09:34,876 --> 00:09:36,844 And when I get through this, 172 00:09:36,945 --> 00:09:40,472 I am finally going to scout the ivory-billed woodpecker. 173 00:09:42,284 --> 00:09:47,051 It is so rare. You know, we thought it was extinct. 174 00:09:47,122 --> 00:09:53,061 But it's not. It lives in Arkansas. 175 00:09:53,128 --> 00:09:56,620 In this one little patch of swamp. 176 00:09:58,967 --> 00:10:03,904 Do you have any idea how incredible it is to see a bird like that in person? 177 00:10:08,109 --> 00:10:11,169 I'm sorry. I'll be just one second. 178 00:10:12,914 --> 00:10:15,576 Why are you hovering? Guess what came into the pit? 179 00:10:15,650 --> 00:10:18,380 No, no. Don't guess, I'll tell you. Skydiver. 180 00:10:18,453 --> 00:10:21,388 Skydiver whose chute didn't open who fell 12,000 feet 181 00:10:21,456 --> 00:10:23,014 and landed in some shrubbery. 182 00:10:23,124 --> 00:10:26,560 Wow. Poor guy. He probably broke every bone in his body. 183 00:10:26,628 --> 00:10:30,530 No, the point is not poor guy. The point is amazing surgery. 184 00:10:30,599 --> 00:10:32,430 And it can be yours. 185 00:10:32,500 --> 00:10:37,665 For the low, low price of... a humdrum, everyday, cardiac cath. 186 00:10:37,772 --> 00:10:40,332 Yeah, forget it. I'm not giving up Hahn's service. 187 00:10:40,408 --> 00:10:42,672 Hey. Izzie, you know what? Cardio is my thing. 188 00:10:42,744 --> 00:10:46,908 No. I like this patient. I like Hahn. 189 00:10:47,015 --> 00:10:50,781 And I like cardio. You know, you're flirting with cardio. 190 00:10:50,885 --> 00:10:54,981 I am married to cardio. You will marry general surgery. 191 00:10:55,056 --> 00:10:57,889 Or, you know... Ok, perhaps neuro. 192 00:10:59,027 --> 00:11:03,964 But you? You are nowhere near hardcore enough to commit to cardio. 193 00:11:04,032 --> 00:11:08,298 So you are telling me to stop flirting with your husband? 194 00:11:08,370 --> 00:11:10,634 I get it. That's cute. 195 00:11:10,705 --> 00:11:12,605 If you're going to ask me for a favor, 196 00:11:12,674 --> 00:11:15,165 insulting my personal life is not a great tactic. 197 00:11:15,243 --> 00:11:17,006 I am not talking about your sex life. 198 00:11:17,078 --> 00:11:19,945 I could not care less about your sex life. It's a skydiver. 199 00:11:20,015 --> 00:11:23,109 Izzie, skydiver. Oh, yeah. It sounds cool. Enjoy it. 200 00:11:24,686 --> 00:11:27,314 If his intestines look like I think they will, 201 00:11:27,389 --> 00:11:30,290 that's first priority. Could have delayed paralysis. 202 00:11:30,358 --> 00:11:32,519 This is not a contest, gentlemen. 203 00:11:32,627 --> 00:11:34,788 But since a perfed bowel could kill the guy, 204 00:11:34,863 --> 00:11:37,024 whether or not his spine's in working order, 205 00:11:37,098 --> 00:11:38,861 my money's on the Chief going first. 206 00:11:38,933 --> 00:11:42,892 Hey. What did I miss? Any cardiothoracic concerns? I'd be happy to page Dr. Hahn. 207 00:11:43,004 --> 00:11:46,337 Scans coming up. Here it is. Wait for it. 208 00:11:47,742 --> 00:11:49,209 Wait. 209 00:11:50,512 --> 00:11:52,605 Wait. Well, that can't be right, can it? 210 00:11:52,681 --> 00:11:57,345 I'm not seeing any free fluid, any intraperitoneal gases. 211 00:11:57,419 --> 00:12:00,684 - Does anybody see anything? - There! Right there. A hematoma. 212 00:12:00,755 --> 00:12:03,781 The right lower quadrant. It's the appendix. 213 00:12:03,858 --> 00:12:07,954 We're saying this guy fell 12,000 feet 214 00:12:08,029 --> 00:12:11,089 and, basically, all he needs is an appendectomy? 215 00:12:23,311 --> 00:12:25,040 You're charting. In a closet. 216 00:12:25,113 --> 00:12:27,843 I get a lot of work done in here. It's quiet and nice. 217 00:12:27,916 --> 00:12:29,008 And a closet. 218 00:12:30,452 --> 00:12:31,976 Look. 219 00:12:32,053 --> 00:12:35,511 When I'm out there, roaming the floors, I'm the "Other Grey" 220 00:12:35,590 --> 00:12:38,855 that Dr. Yang likes to humiliate and kick around. 221 00:12:38,927 --> 00:12:42,658 And in here, I'm not. You know, in here, I'm... 222 00:12:42,731 --> 00:12:47,828 It's just... it's my place, ok? It's... it's a closet. 223 00:12:48,870 --> 00:12:51,998 You know, every intern class has its runt of the litter. 224 00:12:52,073 --> 00:12:56,237 Keep this up, this year it's going to be you. Get up. 225 00:12:56,311 --> 00:12:59,075 Oh, sorry. You probably need to get in here. 226 00:12:59,147 --> 00:13:01,707 No, grab a sling from the box and come with me. 227 00:13:01,816 --> 00:13:02,874 With you? 228 00:13:02,951 --> 00:13:06,387 If you'd rather sit like a loser in a closet doing charts, you can. 229 00:13:06,454 --> 00:13:09,480 Or you can come help me on ortho today. Your choice. 230 00:13:10,992 --> 00:13:12,960 No way. No fricking way! 231 00:13:13,061 --> 00:13:15,928 It's the only solution if neither of you let go of the dress. 232 00:13:15,997 --> 00:13:19,489 It's very simple. Dr. Torres needs to treat Jackie's shoulder and leg. 233 00:13:19,567 --> 00:13:21,899 So, Jackie, you need a proxy. 234 00:13:21,970 --> 00:13:23,437 What? Think about it, babe. 235 00:13:23,505 --> 00:13:24,733 Gives you an advantage. 236 00:13:24,806 --> 00:13:27,468 You get to rest your hand and come back refreshed. 237 00:13:27,542 --> 00:13:30,773 Give me the dress. I'll be the proxy. No way. This isn't fair. 238 00:13:30,845 --> 00:13:35,179 You think this is fair? Dr. O'Malley's the proxy. 239 00:13:36,651 --> 00:13:38,881 What? He'll hold onto the dress. 240 00:13:40,789 --> 00:13:43,656 Hold the dress. You just want me to... 241 00:13:43,725 --> 00:13:46,057 stand here and hold a dress? 242 00:13:46,127 --> 00:13:49,290 No one ever said internship was easy. 243 00:13:59,808 --> 00:14:01,776 Dude, your job kind of sucks, huh? 244 00:14:02,076 --> 00:14:05,603 Hello! Watch the shoulder! 245 00:14:05,680 --> 00:14:08,513 Oh, check it out. Bambi's a bridesmaid. 246 00:14:10,084 --> 00:14:11,847 You're right. This did cheer me up. 247 00:14:14,422 --> 00:14:18,791 You've got no lung injuries, no spinal injuries, no broken bones. 248 00:14:18,893 --> 00:14:20,952 You're just a lucky man. Holy crap. 249 00:14:21,029 --> 00:14:24,294 The only thing we found was a little bleeding in your lower abdomen. 250 00:14:24,365 --> 00:14:26,128 We have to remove your appendix. 251 00:14:26,234 --> 00:14:29,965 How is that even possible? The body's an amazing thing. 252 00:14:30,038 --> 00:14:33,201 You know, sometimes these things... they just happen. 253 00:14:36,444 --> 00:14:39,106 If you had died... God. 254 00:14:39,180 --> 00:14:44,880 I didn't though. I lived. This is the most amazing feeling. 255 00:14:44,953 --> 00:14:47,251 I feel like I could do anything right now. 256 00:14:47,322 --> 00:14:48,880 I mean, anything in the world. 257 00:14:48,957 --> 00:14:53,121 Because I faced death and I... I survived. 258 00:14:53,194 --> 00:14:55,662 It changes a person. It does. 259 00:14:56,865 --> 00:14:59,026 It so does. 260 00:15:00,668 --> 00:15:03,637 Sally. Sal. I have to... 261 00:15:03,738 --> 00:15:05,501 I want to... Don't worry. 262 00:15:05,607 --> 00:15:09,168 The minute... the minute we get out of here, I'm destroying that video. 263 00:15:09,277 --> 00:15:12,246 You will never have to re-live that horrible... 264 00:15:12,313 --> 00:15:14,213 In fact, where's your helmet? 265 00:15:14,282 --> 00:15:16,773 I'm going to destroy that video right now. 266 00:15:16,851 --> 00:15:18,910 Sally. Sal. 267 00:15:18,987 --> 00:15:21,717 Wait! Did she say video? 268 00:15:22,624 --> 00:15:26,560 Now, the trick is to envision the artery like a spaghetti noodle. 269 00:15:26,628 --> 00:15:29,563 Pliable, but not too fragile. Good morning. 270 00:15:29,631 --> 00:15:30,689 Morning, Chief. 271 00:15:30,765 --> 00:15:34,098 Oh, this is an unexpected surprise, Chief. You need something? 272 00:15:34,168 --> 00:15:37,296 First day. Just wanted to see how you were settling in. 273 00:15:37,372 --> 00:15:39,135 You see that? 274 00:15:39,240 --> 00:15:43,609 It's a blockage. The left main coronary artery. It's totally closed off. 275 00:15:43,711 --> 00:15:47,477 There's no way I'm getting a stent in there. We're gonna have to open him up. 276 00:15:47,949 --> 00:15:50,110 BP's dropping to 58 over 20. 277 00:15:50,184 --> 00:15:53,745 Oh, his heart's racing. His temp's rising. Muscles are rigid. 278 00:15:53,855 --> 00:15:57,757 Let's bring him off anesthesia and start him on a 100 percent O2. 279 00:15:57,825 --> 00:16:01,454 - He's got malignant hyperthermia. - He's allergic to the anesthesia? 280 00:16:01,529 --> 00:16:05,090 He'll never be able to endure CABG. So what are our options? 281 00:16:10,939 --> 00:16:13,066 That's just... 282 00:16:13,141 --> 00:16:16,770 I mean, it sounds like you're telling me... 283 00:16:20,281 --> 00:16:24,342 You're not actually telling me I'm... I'm going to die? 284 00:16:24,419 --> 00:16:28,913 The blockage we found in your heart needs surgery. Extensive surgery. 285 00:16:28,990 --> 00:16:34,155 Angioplasty won't work. And since you're allergic to the anesthesia... 286 00:16:35,096 --> 00:16:38,259 So I'll just... 287 00:16:39,767 --> 00:16:41,928 I'll be like this. 288 00:16:43,237 --> 00:16:47,196 I'll be sick and exhausted... 289 00:16:48,643 --> 00:16:50,668 and like this... 290 00:16:50,745 --> 00:16:56,706 until one day when I'll just... die. 291 00:17:03,124 --> 00:17:06,184 It would have been wonderful. 292 00:17:06,260 --> 00:17:09,024 To see that bird. 293 00:17:10,598 --> 00:17:12,964 It would have been wonderful. 294 00:17:18,806 --> 00:17:21,070 You're crowding me, O'Malley. 295 00:17:24,278 --> 00:17:27,805 Hey! I think he just let go! You just let go of the dress, didn't you? 296 00:17:27,882 --> 00:17:29,975 No. I wish to God he had. 297 00:17:30,051 --> 00:17:32,884 I swear, if you let go and lose this contest 298 00:17:32,954 --> 00:17:36,515 after my Jackie almost died to win it... 299 00:17:36,591 --> 00:17:39,754 Dude. A busted shoulder does not mean she almost died. 300 00:17:39,861 --> 00:17:42,830 Ok? Whatever. I'm watching you. 301 00:17:45,299 --> 00:17:47,631 I know you all think this is stupid. 302 00:17:47,702 --> 00:17:50,671 If I were you, I would think this is really stupid. 303 00:17:50,772 --> 00:17:53,900 Well, I've never been married myself, so I'm not one to judge. 304 00:17:53,975 --> 00:17:57,934 But George here knows all about what it takes, don't you, O'Malley? 305 00:17:58,046 --> 00:18:00,378 You're married? For how long? 306 00:18:00,448 --> 00:18:05,613 Not very long. Newlyweds? Congratulations! 307 00:18:07,455 --> 00:18:08,513 Thanks. 308 00:18:08,589 --> 00:18:12,753 Now Jackie? Dr. Karev and I are going to do this on the count of three, OK? 309 00:18:14,062 --> 00:18:17,896 I should totally win over that Helena girl. I'm way more injured than she is. 310 00:18:17,965 --> 00:18:21,901 I should just win by default. One... two... 311 00:18:23,004 --> 00:18:24,528 Three. 312 00:18:24,605 --> 00:18:26,163 Ow! 313 00:18:26,240 --> 00:18:27,400 Is it in? 314 00:18:29,811 --> 00:18:31,335 Ow! 315 00:18:31,412 --> 00:18:33,846 Ooh. Popped back out. She's gonna need surgery. 316 00:18:33,915 --> 00:18:37,282 Whoa! Hey! No. I got to get back to my dress. 317 00:18:37,351 --> 00:18:38,909 Just wrap bandages around it! 318 00:18:38,986 --> 00:18:42,285 You would rather hold on to a dress with a dislocated shoulder 319 00:18:42,356 --> 00:18:45,883 than let me repair it in surgery now? I can have surgery anytime. 320 00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:47,928 I can only win this wedding once. 321 00:19:00,441 --> 00:19:03,899 So what, he just... stands there and holds a dress? 322 00:19:03,978 --> 00:19:06,640 I know. I thought it was going to be more exciting, too. 323 00:19:06,714 --> 00:19:09,877 A monkey could hold a dress. Actually, 324 00:19:09,984 --> 00:19:13,147 it's a lot harder than it looks. Don't let them get to you. 325 00:19:13,254 --> 00:19:16,621 Tune them out. All of them. It's the only way to get through it. 326 00:19:16,691 --> 00:19:19,251 Sweetie, he's your competition. Don't help him. 327 00:19:19,327 --> 00:19:21,955 You ever give morphine to people who aren't patients? 328 00:19:22,029 --> 00:19:24,589 This kind of blows. It's more fun when you heckle. 329 00:19:24,665 --> 00:19:27,828 Don't heckle George. Whatever. I got something way better. 330 00:19:27,902 --> 00:19:30,530 Something that tops O'Malley playing bride? 331 00:19:32,540 --> 00:19:34,201 Skydiver video. 332 00:19:40,381 --> 00:19:41,848 What are we doing? Video. 333 00:19:41,916 --> 00:19:44,248 From the helmet of a skydiver without a chute. 334 00:19:44,318 --> 00:19:45,376 You guys are sick. 335 00:19:45,453 --> 00:19:47,683 It's not a snuff film. The guy survives. 336 00:19:48,489 --> 00:19:50,252 Holy... 337 00:19:50,324 --> 00:19:53,088 Wow. Oh! Is he? Oh, no. 338 00:19:53,161 --> 00:19:55,652 He's going for the chute. And it doesn't open! 339 00:19:55,730 --> 00:19:57,994 He's flailing. Going for his second chute! 340 00:19:58,065 --> 00:19:59,794 Oh, jeez. Also doesn't open! 341 00:19:59,867 --> 00:20:02,995 Think there'd be more screaming. Look how close the ground is. 342 00:20:03,070 --> 00:20:04,833 What's he doing? Peeing his pants? 343 00:20:04,939 --> 00:20:06,998 Is he saying something? Turn it up. 344 00:20:07,074 --> 00:20:11,101 Oh, God! I wish I would've told you. I'm so in love with you. 345 00:20:11,179 --> 00:20:14,046 I love you! I love you, Sally! I love you! I... 346 00:20:14,115 --> 00:20:15,844 Oh! 347 00:20:17,985 --> 00:20:19,646 Who's Sally? 348 00:20:20,855 --> 00:20:23,551 His skydiving instructor. Sad. 349 00:20:23,624 --> 00:20:26,354 What are you doing here? You supposed to be in surgery? 350 00:20:26,427 --> 00:20:29,521 My guy is allergic to anesthesia. The surgery was canceled. 351 00:20:33,201 --> 00:20:36,364 I drowned. I was sinking. 352 00:20:36,437 --> 00:20:38,928 I died. 353 00:20:40,608 --> 00:20:42,633 And you know what I realized? 354 00:20:42,710 --> 00:20:46,168 I realized how stupid all of my issues are. 355 00:20:46,247 --> 00:20:48,613 I'm waiting for how this applies to me. 356 00:20:49,483 --> 00:20:51,610 It doesn't. Of course not. 357 00:20:51,686 --> 00:20:53,984 Well, that man fell, 358 00:20:54,055 --> 00:20:58,185 and all he wanted was one last chance to tell Sally how he felt about her. 359 00:20:58,259 --> 00:21:01,023 And I got one last chance. 360 00:21:01,095 --> 00:21:03,757 I got my chance, and what have I done with it? 361 00:21:04,899 --> 00:21:06,662 You know, being aware of your crap 362 00:21:06,734 --> 00:21:10,192 and actually overcoming your crap are two very different things. 363 00:21:13,040 --> 00:21:15,406 I know. Ha! Ok, I found it. 364 00:21:19,981 --> 00:21:21,744 I know how you can do the surgery. 365 00:21:21,816 --> 00:21:24,114 On the patient who is allergic to anesthesia. 366 00:21:24,185 --> 00:21:26,346 Well, no anesthesia means no ventilator. 367 00:21:26,454 --> 00:21:29,719 No ventilator means no CABG. Not a whole lot of wiggle room there. 368 00:21:29,790 --> 00:21:31,485 Operate while he's awake. Yang. 369 00:21:31,559 --> 00:21:34,528 Use a high thoracic epidural to numb him from the chest down. 370 00:21:34,629 --> 00:21:37,063 Let him breathe on his own the entire time. 371 00:21:37,131 --> 00:21:39,759 They pulled it off in India last month. And again... 372 00:21:39,834 --> 00:21:43,395 Dr. Hahn, you wanted to sign the discharge papers for Mr. Arnold? 373 00:21:43,938 --> 00:21:46,907 Not quite yet. 374 00:21:48,743 --> 00:21:53,271 Wide awake? You want me to let you 375 00:21:53,347 --> 00:21:57,010 slice open my chest while I'm wide awake? 376 00:21:57,084 --> 00:21:58,949 It is your best option. 377 00:22:00,655 --> 00:22:03,419 Uh... how... 378 00:22:03,491 --> 00:22:06,858 how long would I have to be lying there... 379 00:22:06,961 --> 00:22:10,692 on the table, with my chest open like that? 380 00:22:10,765 --> 00:22:14,826 The surgery can take up to five or six hours, maybe more. 381 00:22:16,637 --> 00:22:22,007 Six hours. Awake. With you operating on my heart. I... 382 00:22:22,076 --> 00:22:24,510 The ivory-billed woodpecker. 383 00:22:24,578 --> 00:22:26,045 What? What? 384 00:22:26,113 --> 00:22:29,082 The ivory-billed woodpecker, Mr. Arnold. 385 00:22:29,183 --> 00:22:32,311 You want to live to see it, don't you? This is your only chance. 386 00:22:36,257 --> 00:22:38,817 Ivory-billed woodpecker. 387 00:22:38,926 --> 00:22:44,489 Excellent. Stevens, we will scrub in as soon as an OR is free. 388 00:22:44,598 --> 00:22:46,930 But the surgery was Cristina's idea. 389 00:22:47,001 --> 00:22:49,469 Either you want in or you don't. Which is it? 390 00:22:49,537 --> 00:22:50,799 I do. But... 391 00:22:50,871 --> 00:22:55,399 I'm sure there'll be standing room in the gallery, Yang. Stevens, book the OR. 392 00:23:05,753 --> 00:23:08,449 Chief. Awake open heart surgery? 393 00:23:08,522 --> 00:23:10,183 I wanna talk to you about tonight. 394 00:23:10,257 --> 00:23:12,521 You heard about this awake surgery? 395 00:23:12,593 --> 00:23:17,155 I invited Sloan and, well, I'm wondering what I should tell him to expect. 396 00:23:17,231 --> 00:23:20,894 Tell him to expect a good time. Ok. So what is that? 397 00:23:20,968 --> 00:23:24,699 Poker? Cigars? Whiskey? I mean, what kind of things? 398 00:23:26,507 --> 00:23:30,273 A good time, Shep. You know? 399 00:23:32,913 --> 00:23:35,575 You have no idea the kind of stamina it takes 400 00:23:35,649 --> 00:23:39,312 to stand in a display window for two days. 401 00:23:39,387 --> 00:23:43,323 It's the hardest thing I've ever done. Like, ever. 402 00:23:43,391 --> 00:23:48,761 You're risking permanent damage to your shoulder over a contest. 403 00:23:48,829 --> 00:23:54,392 What does your dress look like? Strapless, sweetheart neckline. 404 00:23:54,468 --> 00:23:57,232 Crystal beading. So pretty. 405 00:23:57,338 --> 00:24:00,830 You're gonna wear your hair down? You know, to cover the hunchback. 406 00:24:00,908 --> 00:24:02,535 The what? 407 00:24:02,610 --> 00:24:06,478 Well, since you're ignoring Dr. Torres' advice about getting the surgery, 408 00:24:06,547 --> 00:24:09,710 your shoulder's probably gonna be pretty swollen. And purple. 409 00:24:09,784 --> 00:24:13,151 You know, kind of like a hunchback. But your hair should cover it. 410 00:24:13,254 --> 00:24:15,722 I mean, probably. With the right veil. 411 00:24:15,790 --> 00:24:21,092 You didn't tell me that. How soon can we have the surgery? 412 00:24:24,832 --> 00:24:28,529 Dr. Hahn. I heard a crazy rumor about you. 413 00:24:28,602 --> 00:24:32,231 That I'm performing open heart surgery on a man who's wide awake? 414 00:24:32,306 --> 00:24:34,240 That's the rumor. That's the truth. 415 00:24:34,308 --> 00:24:36,435 I perform awake brain surgery all the time. 416 00:24:36,510 --> 00:24:38,444 Not the same thing. 417 00:24:38,512 --> 00:24:41,777 Ever heard of a gentlemen's evening? I'm sorry? 418 00:24:41,849 --> 00:24:44,079 The Chief is hosting a gentlemen's evening. 419 00:24:44,151 --> 00:24:48,918 We're pretty sure it doesn't involve porn, but, you know, we want to be sure. 420 00:24:48,989 --> 00:24:52,481 Right. Are you two a couple? 421 00:24:52,560 --> 00:24:54,790 That's... 422 00:24:54,862 --> 00:24:55,920 No. No. 423 00:24:55,996 --> 00:24:57,327 Just checking. 424 00:25:01,802 --> 00:25:03,736 Why would she ask that? I don't know. 425 00:25:03,804 --> 00:25:05,965 I'm worried about this gentlemen's thing. 426 00:25:06,874 --> 00:25:09,434 George. You got a second? 427 00:25:11,412 --> 00:25:13,346 Seriously? 428 00:25:13,414 --> 00:25:14,938 One second. 429 00:25:20,020 --> 00:25:21,749 Hey. Hi. 430 00:25:21,822 --> 00:25:24,518 We'll have to push back our perfect evening tonight. 431 00:25:24,592 --> 00:25:26,685 Not by much... a few hours, I think. 432 00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:29,285 Sure. Ok. Ok. 433 00:25:30,331 --> 00:25:33,494 I'm about to scrub in on an awake open heart surgery. 434 00:25:33,567 --> 00:25:34,625 A what? 435 00:25:34,702 --> 00:25:37,671 Patient's going to be awake while we operate on his heart. 436 00:25:37,771 --> 00:25:41,502 That is intense. It is. It is intense. It's... 437 00:25:43,777 --> 00:25:46,109 You know, Cristina would be all over this. 438 00:25:46,180 --> 00:25:48,546 She would be studying and quizzing herself. 439 00:25:48,649 --> 00:25:50,708 And all I can think about is the poor guy. 440 00:25:50,784 --> 00:25:54,220 You know, he's really nervous already, and... 441 00:25:54,288 --> 00:25:56,586 I'm not hardcore. 442 00:25:56,657 --> 00:25:59,592 I'm not hardcore enough for this. Yes, you are. 443 00:26:00,394 --> 00:26:02,862 Well, you're just not like Cristina. 444 00:26:02,930 --> 00:26:04,693 You're hardcore. 445 00:26:05,366 --> 00:26:07,926 You're hardcore like Izzie. 446 00:26:10,271 --> 00:26:13,638 Did that just sound dirty? Because that's not how I meant it. 447 00:26:13,707 --> 00:26:16,574 Mean it, man. Shut... 448 00:26:16,644 --> 00:26:20,011 Go kick ass in the surgery, and then we'll have our night. 449 00:26:20,114 --> 00:26:23,049 And it will be perfect. I have not shaved my legs yet. 450 00:26:23,117 --> 00:26:27,076 Go be hardcore Izzie. Go! Hey, got it. Going. 451 00:26:27,154 --> 00:26:29,679 Thank you. Bye. 452 00:26:32,126 --> 00:26:35,687 She's hot, man. She your wife? 453 00:26:37,565 --> 00:26:40,659 I don't know you well enough to have this conversation. 454 00:26:40,734 --> 00:26:43,498 Chief? You paged? Close the door. 455 00:26:46,307 --> 00:26:50,869 You had the nerve to tell a patient you would perform awake open heart surgery 456 00:26:50,945 --> 00:26:53,038 without running it past me? 457 00:26:53,113 --> 00:26:55,445 Did Burke run every surgery past you? 458 00:26:55,516 --> 00:26:57,381 Erica, I know you're new here, but... 459 00:26:57,451 --> 00:27:00,614 I want to know what the rules are. Every surgery Burke booked, 460 00:27:00,688 --> 00:27:03,919 he ran it up the flagpole first? What about pretty and prettier? 461 00:27:03,991 --> 00:27:07,950 They run all their surgeries past you? Talking about Shepherd and Sloan? 462 00:27:08,062 --> 00:27:11,156 I am talking about your male attendings. 463 00:27:11,231 --> 00:27:14,394 You know, the ones you invited to your "Gentlemen's evening." 464 00:27:14,501 --> 00:27:16,765 Guess you don't know a guy till you work for him. 465 00:27:16,837 --> 00:27:19,067 Who knew you were running some old boy's club? 466 00:27:19,139 --> 00:27:20,197 No, that is not it. 467 00:27:20,274 --> 00:27:23,710 You realize that an evening, to which the male attendings are invited 468 00:27:23,777 --> 00:27:27,543 and the women are not... you realize that that's a lot like when law firms 469 00:27:27,615 --> 00:27:31,574 used to have country club weekends and fail to invite the black associates? 470 00:27:33,954 --> 00:27:36,923 Good talk. I got to prep for my surgery. 471 00:27:46,100 --> 00:27:48,261 Remember when I was dead? 472 00:27:50,304 --> 00:27:54,866 Before I went in that water, everything was so complicated. 473 00:27:54,975 --> 00:27:57,136 Hard. 474 00:27:58,979 --> 00:28:02,745 And then you pulled me out of the water, 475 00:28:02,850 --> 00:28:05,614 and I came back to life. 476 00:28:07,321 --> 00:28:09,881 For a moment, everything was so clear. 477 00:28:12,326 --> 00:28:15,853 As if the water had washed everything clean. 478 00:28:18,666 --> 00:28:21,726 Do you remember that? I do. 479 00:28:25,906 --> 00:28:27,601 Me too. 480 00:29:27,935 --> 00:29:30,665 I don't know how you guys did this for two days. 481 00:29:30,738 --> 00:29:35,471 Believe me, I would be at city hall tomorrow if that were an option. 482 00:29:35,542 --> 00:29:40,002 It is an option. You could just let go. 483 00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:41,411 You let go. 484 00:29:44,284 --> 00:29:47,344 You let go and no big deal. It's a wedding. 485 00:29:47,421 --> 00:29:50,515 I let go and I have to face the wrath of Dr. Sloan. 486 00:29:52,826 --> 00:29:54,726 My mom manages a grocery store. 487 00:29:56,630 --> 00:30:00,691 And ever since I got engaged, she's been putting herself into serious debt... 488 00:30:00,768 --> 00:30:05,228 over hand engraved place cards and chocolate fountains. 489 00:30:06,640 --> 00:30:08,733 It's her dream. 490 00:30:08,809 --> 00:30:10,777 My wedding is her dream. 491 00:30:12,913 --> 00:30:14,642 This is so important to her. 492 00:30:14,715 --> 00:30:17,878 This is what she's been living for since I can remember. 493 00:30:17,951 --> 00:30:20,784 Since... my dad left. 494 00:30:23,056 --> 00:30:25,923 My perfect night. 495 00:30:27,194 --> 00:30:30,425 So... I can do this. 496 00:30:31,532 --> 00:30:33,693 I can do this for her. 497 00:30:34,668 --> 00:30:37,796 Because she's done a lot for me. 498 00:30:40,507 --> 00:30:42,270 Whoa. 499 00:30:44,778 --> 00:30:47,076 Get me a crash cart right now. 500 00:30:47,147 --> 00:30:50,310 What's going on? What are you doing? What's happening? 501 00:30:52,352 --> 00:30:54,877 Must have happened when she fell this morning. 502 00:30:54,955 --> 00:30:58,220 Which means she's bleeding all day. She seemed just fine. 503 00:30:58,292 --> 00:31:01,420 Well, she must have been feeling some major pain. 504 00:31:01,495 --> 00:31:04,430 Yeah. Holding onto that dress... that wasn't easy for her. 505 00:31:04,498 --> 00:31:06,864 It was humiliating. It was... 506 00:31:06,967 --> 00:31:10,926 But, when someone's trying to break you, it gives you drive. Strength. 507 00:31:11,038 --> 00:31:15,134 Holding onto that dress for hours... I mean, days, you know. Just... 508 00:31:15,976 --> 00:31:19,844 God, in public. Refusing to buckle, refusing to beg. 509 00:31:19,913 --> 00:31:24,145 That's hardcore. I mean, in its own way, that's seriously hardcore. 510 00:31:24,218 --> 00:31:29,520 Rumor has it that Sloan was busy hazing one of his interns today. 511 00:31:30,724 --> 00:31:33,249 I take it you didn't buckle? 512 00:31:36,463 --> 00:31:38,829 No, sir. 513 00:31:40,267 --> 00:31:42,428 Good man, O'Malley. 514 00:32:00,487 --> 00:32:03,388 I can't feel anything from the neck down. 515 00:32:03,457 --> 00:32:07,826 It's almost like the rest of me just... doesn't exist. 516 00:32:11,231 --> 00:32:13,791 Ok, the sound you're about to hear, that's the saw. 517 00:32:13,867 --> 00:32:16,700 That's... that's not a pretty sound. 518 00:32:16,770 --> 00:32:20,604 I brought you some music. Just listen to this and tune it all out. 519 00:32:24,311 --> 00:32:26,871 And... and that smell? 520 00:32:26,980 --> 00:32:30,347 That... that smell is not... That's the cautery. I know it's hard, 521 00:32:30,450 --> 00:32:34,113 but you'll get used to it. In a moment or two, you won't notice it. I promise. 522 00:32:44,398 --> 00:32:48,129 He jumped out of that plane. No one forced him to do it. 523 00:32:48,201 --> 00:32:50,533 Fell 12,000 feet. 524 00:32:50,604 --> 00:32:53,937 People chasing death down and then trying to cheat it. 525 00:32:54,007 --> 00:32:56,737 Doesn't make any kind of sense to me. 526 00:32:56,810 --> 00:33:00,576 There's a clarity thing when you cross over the edge. 527 00:33:01,982 --> 00:33:06,214 There's a moment when everything just melts away... 528 00:33:06,286 --> 00:33:08,049 and you're fearless. 529 00:33:09,756 --> 00:33:13,624 I get it. I understand wanting to feel like that. 530 00:33:19,766 --> 00:33:23,327 Oh, hey. Hi, there. You're awake. Did I win? 531 00:33:23,403 --> 00:33:26,338 You should know that your surgery went very well. 532 00:33:29,109 --> 00:33:33,409 But who won? Is she still holding on? 533 00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:36,176 Helena collapsed. She's in surgery. 534 00:33:36,249 --> 00:33:37,807 So... so I won? 535 00:33:37,918 --> 00:33:42,480 She... she collapsed which... which means I won, right? 536 00:33:42,589 --> 00:33:44,614 Where's... where's the judge? 537 00:33:45,692 --> 00:33:48,752 The woman that you stood next to for two days almost died. 538 00:33:48,829 --> 00:33:50,956 Ok, you've just woken up from surgery, 539 00:33:51,031 --> 00:33:54,467 and all that you can think about is if you've won a stupid contest? 540 00:33:54,534 --> 00:33:57,867 Don't you get it? You shouldn't have to fight this hard for a wedding. 541 00:33:57,938 --> 00:34:01,203 You fight for a marriage. And, sometimes, even that is a lost cause. 542 00:34:01,274 --> 00:34:03,640 Sometimes you have to know when to let go. 543 00:34:03,744 --> 00:34:07,805 So just let go, already, all right? Just fricking let go! 544 00:34:11,051 --> 00:34:14,179 Yeah. But did... fid I win? 545 00:34:32,105 --> 00:34:34,767 Izzie stuck a picture of a bird on an empty saline bag 546 00:34:34,841 --> 00:34:36,172 and put it in his eyeline. 547 00:34:36,243 --> 00:34:38,711 That was smart. I wouldn't have thought of that. 548 00:34:41,048 --> 00:34:42,515 Yeah. 549 00:34:48,121 --> 00:34:50,783 She doesn't let me take care of her. 550 00:34:51,858 --> 00:34:56,727 It's not my job anymore. She won't let me. 551 00:34:59,199 --> 00:35:01,565 I'm taking care of her. 552 00:35:05,872 --> 00:35:08,739 You're... you're... 553 00:35:08,809 --> 00:35:12,245 you're looking at my heart? 554 00:35:12,312 --> 00:35:15,543 You're looking at my actual heart? 555 00:35:15,615 --> 00:35:18,584 Better than that, Mr. Arnold, we're fixing it. 556 00:35:21,955 --> 00:35:25,118 And... all those people? 557 00:35:25,192 --> 00:35:30,960 Up there in the observation deck? They're... they're looking at it too? 558 00:35:31,031 --> 00:35:32,498 They are. 559 00:35:36,203 --> 00:35:38,637 People watching me? 560 00:35:38,705 --> 00:35:42,141 People watching me instead of... 561 00:35:43,310 --> 00:35:45,437 It's... it's so weird. 562 00:35:45,512 --> 00:35:49,448 To be the one being watched. It... it's so weird! 563 00:35:49,516 --> 00:35:52,576 How you doing there, Mr. Arnold? You need anything? 564 00:35:52,652 --> 00:35:56,088 It's cold. Cold... cold in here. 565 00:35:56,156 --> 00:35:58,920 I... I need to cover up. 566 00:35:59,025 --> 00:36:02,392 Cover me up, ok? 567 00:36:02,496 --> 00:36:04,054 Cover me up. Ok. 568 00:36:04,131 --> 00:36:06,065 Cover me up! Yeah, we're going to... 569 00:36:06,133 --> 00:36:09,102 We're going to cover your legs with more blankets right now. 570 00:36:09,202 --> 00:36:12,968 Cover me up! Ok? Ok! 571 00:36:13,073 --> 00:36:15,769 His heart rate's up to 168. Damn it. 572 00:36:15,842 --> 00:36:17,776 Everybody's watching! 573 00:36:17,844 --> 00:36:21,610 I... and... I need to be covered up. 574 00:36:21,681 --> 00:36:24,809 I... I need! I can't stay like this. 575 00:36:24,885 --> 00:36:28,616 I can't stay like this! You... you need... I can't! I can't! 576 00:36:28,688 --> 00:36:32,180 No, stop right now! Just... just stop the surgery! 577 00:36:32,259 --> 00:36:34,523 Stop! Stop! Stop it! 578 00:36:36,763 --> 00:36:38,993 Stop! Stop! 579 00:36:39,065 --> 00:36:41,761 Ok? I... I mean it! Get your hands out of me! 580 00:36:41,835 --> 00:36:43,803 - Please! Stop! - Ok. 581 00:36:43,904 --> 00:36:48,432 Mr. Arnold, I need you to calm down so that your heart can calm down. 582 00:36:48,508 --> 00:36:51,477 Mr. Arnold. Mr. Arnold. 583 00:36:51,578 --> 00:36:55,605 Look at me. Look at me! Good. Ok. 584 00:36:55,682 --> 00:36:58,708 Now I want you to focus on the observation deck, ok? 585 00:36:58,785 --> 00:37:02,152 Pretend that it's a treeline or a shoreline or something. 586 00:37:02,222 --> 00:37:05,851 Something with birds. Those aren't people watching you, those are birds. 587 00:37:05,926 --> 00:37:09,157 And you're watching them. So tell me, Mr. Arnold, about the birds. 588 00:37:09,229 --> 00:37:11,891 Tell me. Tell me about the birds. I can't. I can't. 589 00:37:11,965 --> 00:37:16,664 Yes, you can. How about her? That woman in the far left. 590 00:37:16,736 --> 00:37:18,704 What kind of bird would she be? 591 00:37:18,805 --> 00:37:23,708 Ok. Ok. Uh, uh, I guess, um... 592 00:37:23,777 --> 00:37:27,406 She... she has a long neck. So she'd... she'd be an ibis. 593 00:37:27,480 --> 00:37:30,711 Some kind of ibis. Ok, good. Great. Great. 594 00:37:30,784 --> 00:37:32,513 Who's next? 595 00:37:33,053 --> 00:37:36,614 Ok... that one. 596 00:37:36,723 --> 00:37:41,422 Doing... doing that little... dance with her fingers. 597 00:37:41,494 --> 00:37:46,761 She's... she's the Purple Sandpiper. 598 00:37:48,635 --> 00:37:51,570 Yeah. Those are tough little birds. 599 00:37:51,638 --> 00:37:54,106 Those are survivors. 600 00:37:54,174 --> 00:37:59,942 And... and him... with the... the sad eyes. 601 00:38:00,046 --> 00:38:05,006 Uh, he would... he's a thrush. 602 00:38:05,118 --> 00:38:09,077 A Black-headed Nightingale Thrush. 603 00:38:11,124 --> 00:38:16,994 And... and the tall one. Standing there. 604 00:38:17,063 --> 00:38:19,429 Watching over everything, 605 00:38:19,532 --> 00:38:22,092 over... everyone. 606 00:38:23,136 --> 00:38:25,366 He doesn't miss a thing. 607 00:38:25,438 --> 00:38:28,601 He's a... 608 00:38:28,675 --> 00:38:32,406 Great Blue Heron. 609 00:38:34,948 --> 00:38:36,108 No question. 610 00:38:47,827 --> 00:38:52,389 Hey. How's... how's your bride? She pull through ok? 611 00:38:52,499 --> 00:38:55,662 Yeah. Please tell me that you let go first. 612 00:38:55,735 --> 00:38:59,000 I absolutely cannot handle my bride winning that wedding. 613 00:39:04,311 --> 00:39:07,439 What? Oh, nothing. I just... 614 00:39:07,514 --> 00:39:13,180 I just didn't know if we would ever be able to talk again. 615 00:39:15,588 --> 00:39:18,148 I'm letting go. 616 00:39:18,224 --> 00:39:22,718 I have to... let go. 617 00:39:31,071 --> 00:39:34,837 Hey. Why didn't you tell anybody you were hurting? 618 00:39:34,941 --> 00:39:38,877 You would've made me let go. Hell yeah, I would've. 619 00:39:42,349 --> 00:39:46,308 Guess I lost anyway. No, actually, I let go first. 620 00:39:47,754 --> 00:39:51,485 You did? Someone had to catch you. 621 00:39:52,125 --> 00:39:57,495 Here. A hundred grand. Have a nice life. 622 00:40:00,633 --> 00:40:02,533 We won! 623 00:40:02,602 --> 00:40:06,231 Oh, my God. I can't believe I'm crying over this. 624 00:40:06,806 --> 00:40:10,367 We did this. We actually did this. 625 00:40:10,443 --> 00:40:13,207 No, sweetie. You did it. 626 00:40:14,447 --> 00:40:16,005 This was all you. 627 00:40:21,788 --> 00:40:26,248 I know this sounds ridiculous, but I'm a little disappointed. 628 00:40:26,326 --> 00:40:28,886 I mean, I survived a 12,000-foot free-fall 629 00:40:28,995 --> 00:40:30,963 and this is gonna be my only scar? 630 00:40:31,064 --> 00:40:34,431 It goes away. The scar? 631 00:40:34,534 --> 00:40:37,230 The feeling. 632 00:40:37,303 --> 00:40:41,137 That feeling that you have right now, today? 633 00:40:41,207 --> 00:40:44,734 That feeling, like you could do anything? 634 00:40:44,811 --> 00:40:48,679 That clarity? It goes away. 635 00:40:48,748 --> 00:40:51,012 And you go right back to being the coward 636 00:40:51,084 --> 00:40:53,712 who can't tell the person you love how you feel. 637 00:40:55,955 --> 00:41:00,415 I saw your video. You saw? 638 00:41:01,761 --> 00:41:04,696 Oh. Ok. 639 00:41:04,764 --> 00:41:07,699 But you're not going to let Sally see it, right? 640 00:41:07,767 --> 00:41:10,099 You're not going to let her know what I said? 641 00:41:10,170 --> 00:41:13,936 Like I said. It goes away. 642 00:41:14,007 --> 00:41:17,875 It's going away right now. You have to tell her how you feel. 643 00:41:17,944 --> 00:41:20,572 Right now, while you still can. 644 00:41:20,647 --> 00:41:24,105 She's just so incredible. I mean, at everything she does. 645 00:41:24,184 --> 00:41:27,551 She's way out of my league. You don't understand. 646 00:41:27,654 --> 00:41:30,384 There is no way that she could feel the same way that... 647 00:41:30,457 --> 00:41:34,154 Well, if she doesn't feel the same way, then you move on. 648 00:41:34,227 --> 00:41:39,722 But if you never find out how she feels? Then that won't be your only scar. 649 00:41:49,742 --> 00:41:52,711 He doesn't have any secret fetishes, right? He really... 650 00:41:52,812 --> 00:41:56,304 He doesn't strike me as a fetish kind of guy. 651 00:41:56,382 --> 00:41:59,249 Richard. You got to tell us what this evening is about. 652 00:41:59,319 --> 00:42:02,846 You've been obtuse, it's been fun, but we're getting freaked out now. 653 00:42:02,922 --> 00:42:05,083 What's a gentlemen's evening? 654 00:42:05,191 --> 00:42:08,558 It's an evening with no ladies. Just gentlemen. 655 00:42:08,628 --> 00:42:10,892 That's it? Well, yeah. 656 00:42:10,964 --> 00:42:13,432 Pretty boys living in the woods. 657 00:42:13,500 --> 00:42:18,460 This is very charming. Or sad. Not sure which. 658 00:42:18,571 --> 00:42:21,233 What happened to no ladies? Yeah. 659 00:42:21,307 --> 00:42:22,968 Plans change. 660 00:42:25,778 --> 00:42:27,837 Hey, what are you doing tonight? 661 00:42:28,748 --> 00:42:30,909 As in, uh? 662 00:42:30,984 --> 00:42:33,953 Um... what are you doing tonight? 663 00:42:37,590 --> 00:42:40,150 Look... I'm not a nice guy. 664 00:42:40,260 --> 00:42:43,525 I don't date. I don't call the next day. 665 00:42:43,596 --> 00:42:47,157 I'm not looking for a relationship because I'm never good at them. 666 00:42:47,267 --> 00:42:50,430 And, honestly, I'm kind of hung up on somebody else, so... 667 00:42:50,904 --> 00:42:54,169 The only thing you're ever going to get from me is sex. That's it. 668 00:42:54,240 --> 00:42:57,334 And... that's never enough for girls like you. 669 00:43:00,713 --> 00:43:04,649 Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. 670 00:43:04,717 --> 00:43:07,151 But being hardcore isn't just about being tough. 671 00:43:07,220 --> 00:43:08,346 This is just unfair! 672 00:43:08,421 --> 00:43:12,983 In your face, banker! Park Place is mine. Give it up. Come on. 673 00:43:13,059 --> 00:43:15,823 Yeah! With a hotel! I think you owe him money. 674 00:43:15,895 --> 00:43:18,728 Take a look at that! It's about acceptance. 675 00:43:19,899 --> 00:43:21,423 George. 676 00:43:33,780 --> 00:43:35,907 I'm exhausted. 677 00:43:36,549 --> 00:43:42,510 Every bone and every muscle in my body... aches. 678 00:43:42,622 --> 00:43:45,682 And I don't think I can do this. I don't... 679 00:43:45,758 --> 00:43:49,990 It's not that I don't want to, because I do. I really, really do. 680 00:43:50,063 --> 00:43:54,591 It's just... I just spent six and a half hours on my feet in surgery, 681 00:43:54,667 --> 00:43:58,933 and I can barely hold myself up. And I'm just so tired. 682 00:43:59,005 --> 00:44:02,736 This is... this is like a rare bird, George. 683 00:44:02,809 --> 00:44:06,336 You know, I mean, it's the first time that we're together since... 684 00:44:06,412 --> 00:44:09,870 since we were together and it's a once in a lifetime experience, 685 00:44:09,949 --> 00:44:11,211 I don't want to waste it. 686 00:44:11,284 --> 00:44:14,742 I don't want to waste it on a night that I'm too exhausted to enjoy it 687 00:44:14,821 --> 00:44:19,952 because I want to enjoy our rare bird, George! I need to enjoy our rare bird! 688 00:44:20,026 --> 00:44:23,894 Me too. I... and... 689 00:44:23,963 --> 00:44:29,492 Oh, my hand is just... it's just killing me from holding that dress. Ow. 690 00:44:29,569 --> 00:44:34,836 So, maybe... maybe tonight's not the perfect night. 691 00:44:34,907 --> 00:44:38,172 Well, maybe a perfect night is another night. 692 00:44:38,244 --> 00:44:42,806 Really? Yeah. 693 00:44:42,915 --> 00:44:44,746 Yeah. 694 00:44:49,322 --> 00:44:52,382 Do you want to, maybe... 695 00:44:53,226 --> 00:44:55,091 go to sleep? Yeah. 696 00:44:55,161 --> 00:44:57,652 Yeah. Ok. 697 00:45:02,468 --> 00:45:04,561 Oh, thanks. It's ok. 698 00:45:12,078 --> 00:45:14,740 Did you only shave one of your legs? 699 00:45:14,814 --> 00:45:17,339 I know! I'm sorry! No. 700 00:45:17,417 --> 00:45:21,547 No, I was just wondering. That's cool. It's ok. I'm sorry. Sorry. 701 00:45:21,621 --> 00:45:23,885 I couldn't get to it. 702 00:45:23,956 --> 00:45:28,893 Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. 703 00:45:28,961 --> 00:45:32,294 Maybe I should take a sleeping pill. No, don't do that. 704 00:45:32,365 --> 00:45:36,233 You'll just get strung out and turn into a bad afterschool special. 705 00:45:36,302 --> 00:45:39,169 We'll just sleep and you'll sleep. 706 00:45:41,974 --> 00:45:44,306 I can't stop, Cristina. 707 00:45:45,578 --> 00:45:48,138 I just can't stop seeing Derek. 708 00:45:50,983 --> 00:45:55,716 And it's not about the sex. It's not... about the sex. 709 00:45:56,856 --> 00:45:59,825 It's about that moment afterward. 710 00:46:01,861 --> 00:46:04,591 When the world stops. 711 00:46:06,065 --> 00:46:08,590 It just feels so safe. 712 00:46:11,137 --> 00:46:13,105 So safe. 713 00:46:14,474 --> 00:46:17,375 I'm not ready to give that up. 714 00:46:20,480 --> 00:46:23,210 Does that make me sad and weak and pathetic? 715 00:46:23,282 --> 00:46:25,045 A little bit. 716 00:46:29,422 --> 00:46:31,390 What do I do? 717 00:46:34,694 --> 00:46:36,662 I don't know. 718 00:46:36,763 --> 00:46:40,221 You don't have to be tough every minute of every day. 719 00:46:40,299 --> 00:46:42,665 It's ok to let down your guard. 720 00:46:42,769 --> 00:46:46,637 In fact, there are moments when it's the best thing you could possibly do. 721 00:46:56,282 --> 00:46:59,445 As long as you choose your moments wisely. 722 00:47:07,927 --> 00:47:11,385 Alex, please tell me that you don't live with Meredith Grey.