1 00:00:04,213 --> 00:00:06,603 Every cell in the human body regenerates, 2 00:00:06,728 --> 00:00:07,799 on average, 3 00:00:08,342 --> 00:00:09,742 every seven years. 4 00:00:11,929 --> 00:00:13,129 Like snakes... 5 00:00:13,370 --> 00:00:16,537 In our own way, we shed our skin. 6 00:00:17,251 --> 00:00:19,651 Biologically, we're brand-new people. 7 00:00:20,478 --> 00:00:22,439 Are you visiting Seattle for the first time? 8 00:00:23,526 --> 00:00:27,439 Oh, no, no. I live in Seattle. I just went home for a month. 9 00:00:27,564 --> 00:00:29,731 I took my son to see my parents. 10 00:00:30,448 --> 00:00:32,249 What do you do in Seattle? 11 00:00:33,357 --> 00:00:34,557 I'm a surgeon. 12 00:00:38,025 --> 00:00:40,485 Did you know any of those doctors... 13 00:00:42,118 --> 00:00:43,568 From that shooting? 14 00:00:46,264 --> 00:00:48,842 We may look the same. We probably do. 15 00:00:49,761 --> 00:00:51,611 The change isn't visible... 16 00:00:52,591 --> 00:00:54,441 At least not in most of us. 17 00:00:55,398 --> 00:00:57,098 But we're all changed... 18 00:00:57,395 --> 00:00:58,545 Completely... 19 00:00:59,177 --> 00:01:00,190 Forever. 20 00:01:00,530 --> 00:01:01,930 But that's normal. 21 00:01:02,249 --> 00:01:04,773 It's a biological imperative change. 22 00:01:04,941 --> 00:01:06,858 So the shooting changed me. 23 00:01:07,060 --> 00:01:08,107 I'm changed. 24 00:01:08,232 --> 00:01:10,768 But I'm also ready to get back to work. 25 00:01:11,453 --> 00:01:12,898 As ready as any of us are 26 00:01:13,467 --> 00:01:14,817 sitting around the house, 27 00:01:15,161 --> 00:01:16,161 waiting... 28 00:01:16,619 --> 00:01:18,237 I just spend my time worrying. 29 00:01:18,664 --> 00:01:21,623 Your husband was shot. That's a lot to worry about. 30 00:01:21,791 --> 00:01:24,501 I'm worried about Cristina. She's getting married, and that's... 31 00:01:25,005 --> 00:01:28,202 I had to cut her out of her last wedding dress with scissors, so... 32 00:01:30,361 --> 00:01:32,126 You watched your husband get shot. 33 00:01:32,426 --> 00:01:35,011 He's fine. He's coming back to work today, actually. 34 00:01:41,325 --> 00:01:42,575 We're all fine. 35 00:01:46,399 --> 00:01:47,565 Excuse me. 36 00:01:52,650 --> 00:01:53,814 Is everything okay? 37 00:01:56,492 --> 00:01:57,892 Everything's fine. 38 00:02:01,102 --> 00:02:02,961 - Opening two. - It doesn't look too bad. 39 00:02:03,086 --> 00:02:05,589 You gotta keep an eye on it, Make sure it doesn't get bigger. 40 00:02:05,714 --> 00:02:07,850 But if it changes color, you should see a doctor. 41 00:02:10,968 --> 00:02:13,667 - Your lady looks pissed. - Again? 42 00:02:28,986 --> 00:02:29,986 What? 43 00:02:31,007 --> 00:02:32,019 Nothin'. 44 00:02:32,187 --> 00:02:33,837 Just... You're awesome. 45 00:02:41,027 --> 00:02:43,093 - Welcome back. - Thank you, sir. 46 00:02:43,372 --> 00:02:44,740 We missed you here. 47 00:02:45,532 --> 00:02:47,432 The place isn't the... Same. 48 00:02:50,208 --> 00:02:51,789 Did you get cleared for surgery? 49 00:02:52,517 --> 00:02:55,084 What do you mean, "cleared for surgery"? Who has to clear me? 50 00:02:55,551 --> 00:02:58,172 - The next time, I'll leave you there. - You said that already. 51 00:02:58,408 --> 00:03:00,933 Derek got arrested again. Reckless endangerment. 52 00:03:01,058 --> 00:03:02,557 Did he lose his license yet? 53 00:03:02,862 --> 00:03:05,708 No, because they don't charge him, because the cops worship him. 54 00:03:05,833 --> 00:03:07,596 Because I saved some of their lives. 55 00:03:07,764 --> 00:03:10,841 - What are we picking? - Dress color. I'm not wearing white. 56 00:03:10,966 --> 00:03:13,488 It's sexist and... Vaguely racist. 57 00:03:13,887 --> 00:03:15,510 No white, no veil, no rice. 58 00:03:15,635 --> 00:03:17,746 - What will your mother say? - No mother. 59 00:03:18,074 --> 00:03:21,030 I didn't get cleared for surgery... And I'm pretty sure it's your fault. 60 00:03:21,285 --> 00:03:23,652 I am the Chief. I can overrule the counselor. 61 00:03:23,777 --> 00:03:24,829 You can? 62 00:03:25,084 --> 00:03:26,926 - I love the blue. - Chief, you're back. 63 00:03:27,051 --> 00:03:29,896 I find a giant skull base chordoma. Biggest one I've ever seen. 64 00:03:30,021 --> 00:03:32,387 He came in to the ER with trouble breathing. 65 00:03:32,512 --> 00:03:34,623 - You got cleared for surgery? - I did. 66 00:03:34,840 --> 00:03:36,584 - Bitch. - I like the brown, too. 67 00:03:36,801 --> 00:03:38,919 It looks inoperable. I would've said it was, 68 00:03:39,136 --> 00:03:41,338 - but you're back and you're you. - Right. 69 00:03:44,067 --> 00:03:46,867 Good morning. Thank you. Thank you very much. 70 00:03:48,604 --> 00:03:51,086 Good. Thank you very much. It's great to be back. 71 00:03:51,211 --> 00:03:54,184 First of all, I'd like to thank Dr Webber for stepping up in my absence. 72 00:03:54,402 --> 00:03:55,402 Thank you. 73 00:03:58,746 --> 00:04:00,155 I'm grateful for all of you, 74 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:02,818 for all of your support during my recovery. Thank you. 75 00:04:03,381 --> 00:04:06,405 It's just, so great to be back as Chief. 76 00:04:06,878 --> 00:04:08,528 I'm grateful for the... 77 00:04:11,540 --> 00:04:12,870 I'm sorry. That's a lie. 78 00:04:13,868 --> 00:04:16,123 That's what people say, and, the truth is... 79 00:04:18,426 --> 00:04:20,586 I hate being Chief. I hate it. 80 00:04:25,740 --> 00:04:26,842 Chief Webber... 81 00:04:28,849 --> 00:04:30,632 Chief Webber is our Chief. 82 00:04:32,515 --> 00:04:34,615 And I'm sorry, but this giant... 83 00:04:34,962 --> 00:04:37,189 Sorry, I gotta go look at this chordoma. 84 00:04:38,314 --> 00:04:39,679 I'm sorry, but... 85 00:04:40,790 --> 00:04:41,790 I quit. 86 00:04:44,952 --> 00:04:47,549 - Let's go, Kepner. Come on. - Oh, sorry. Okay. 87 00:04:47,674 --> 00:04:48,824 He just quit. 88 00:04:51,751 --> 00:04:54,078 He was supposed to clear me for surgery. 89 00:05:00,336 --> 00:05:03,587 The bullet's at the surface. That's good. I can take it out now. 90 00:05:03,842 --> 00:05:06,674 No, if it's not infected, I'm gonna keep it. 91 00:05:07,236 --> 00:05:08,636 It's my war wound. 92 00:05:10,649 --> 00:05:12,799 Besides... Chicks dig that crap. 93 00:05:26,875 --> 00:05:29,654 - You weren't kidding. - The last surgeon broke the dura, 94 00:05:29,779 --> 00:05:33,742 which enabled the tumor to mushroom into the brain and down into the spine. 95 00:05:33,960 --> 00:05:35,707 It's wrapped around his brain stem. 96 00:05:35,832 --> 00:05:37,913 Whatever we do, we need to do it quickly. 97 00:05:38,188 --> 00:05:39,665 The size of this thing... 98 00:05:40,135 --> 00:05:42,459 Normally I open up the sinuses or the hard palate. 99 00:05:42,677 --> 00:05:44,128 Now you have to open up both. 100 00:05:46,152 --> 00:05:48,298 You want me to split his whole face open? 101 00:05:48,633 --> 00:05:50,933 Sinuses, hard palate, tongue, jaw... 102 00:05:51,477 --> 00:05:54,267 A broken jaw is excruciating, let alone the rest of it. 103 00:05:54,392 --> 00:05:56,318 Does this kid know what he's in for? 104 00:05:56,443 --> 00:05:58,684 He wants to live. He's not concerned about the pain. 105 00:05:58,901 --> 00:06:01,228 But you don't know how enmeshed the tumor is. 106 00:06:01,445 --> 00:06:03,564 - and if you can get it all. - Thank you. 107 00:06:03,781 --> 00:06:06,650 You want to try this thing, Torres and I are gonna need to coordinate. 108 00:06:06,900 --> 00:06:08,450 What are we thinking, 109 00:06:08,683 --> 00:06:10,029 - a week? - No later. 110 00:06:10,246 --> 00:06:11,847 I'll clear my schedule. 111 00:06:12,101 --> 00:06:14,199 - Welcome back. - Thank you. 112 00:06:14,780 --> 00:06:16,606 You're not even cleared for surgery yet. 113 00:06:16,731 --> 00:06:18,081 I'll get cleared. 114 00:06:47,141 --> 00:06:48,358 Little exercise. 115 00:06:50,712 --> 00:06:52,562 Something I can do for you? 116 00:06:53,206 --> 00:06:56,742 That stupid counselor Perkins, he won't clear me for surgery. 117 00:06:56,959 --> 00:06:58,327 So I was just wondering... 118 00:07:00,007 --> 00:07:02,326 - But he cleared... - I'm sorry. I am. 119 00:07:02,451 --> 00:07:03,826 But we brought in the best, 120 00:07:03,951 --> 00:07:06,388 and when Andrew Perkins says you're not cleared, 121 00:07:06,513 --> 00:07:08,713 then it's him you need to talk to. 122 00:07:28,038 --> 00:07:31,077 Did you hear that Dr. Yang and Dr. Hunt are getting married? 123 00:07:31,202 --> 00:07:33,237 - I did. - It's pretty great? 124 00:07:33,994 --> 00:07:35,697 It's almost like a silver lining. 125 00:07:36,691 --> 00:07:38,401 I've read a lot about trauma 126 00:07:38,584 --> 00:07:41,044 and how, sometimes people just 127 00:07:41,212 --> 00:07:43,922 up and change their lives. They say that the trauma 128 00:07:44,090 --> 00:07:46,326 was the best thing that could've happened to them. 129 00:07:46,451 --> 00:07:49,677 Like Dr. Shepherd this morning. Did you hear that he's not Chief anymore? 130 00:07:50,598 --> 00:07:52,347 And how have you been, dr. Grey? 131 00:07:53,783 --> 00:07:56,683 You've been through a lot since I last saw you. 132 00:08:00,904 --> 00:08:03,845 Does anyone have anything to say? 133 00:08:05,861 --> 00:08:08,321 I know that a lot of you are only here 134 00:08:08,489 --> 00:08:10,365 because this has been mandated. 135 00:08:10,533 --> 00:08:11,733 So let's talk. 136 00:08:18,605 --> 00:08:19,666 Anything at all? 137 00:08:19,987 --> 00:08:21,687 I ate a really good taco 138 00:08:22,244 --> 00:08:24,379 from one of those trucks by the side of the road. 139 00:08:24,547 --> 00:08:26,390 - When? - Last night. You were asleep. 140 00:08:26,515 --> 00:08:29,028 - Which truck? The one on 7th? - I want to go I like tacos. 141 00:08:29,153 --> 00:08:30,953 - Me, too. - I read a book... 142 00:08:33,076 --> 00:08:35,926 About the history of mass murders in the US. 143 00:08:36,583 --> 00:08:39,519 That's the actual name of what happened to us. It was a mass murder. 144 00:08:39,849 --> 00:08:43,148 You can't call it a terrorist attack, cause the murders weren't political. 145 00:08:43,316 --> 00:08:45,191 We weren't victims of a serial killer. 146 00:08:45,359 --> 00:08:48,111 He would've had to murder several people in more than 30 days 147 00:08:48,279 --> 00:08:50,122 in order to qualify as a serial killer. 148 00:08:50,459 --> 00:08:52,407 We could call it a spree killing... 149 00:08:52,992 --> 00:08:56,202 It's killings at two or more locations with no break or pause in between, 150 00:08:56,370 --> 00:08:58,288 cause he shot that guy in his car. 151 00:08:58,456 --> 00:09:01,080 But, I'm not sure that that counts as a true second location 152 00:09:01,205 --> 00:09:03,410 since it was so close to the hospital, 153 00:09:03,535 --> 00:09:05,379 which means that we were a mass murder, 154 00:09:05,968 --> 00:09:08,008 cause it happened at one place, by one person, 155 00:09:08,133 --> 00:09:10,175 and more than four people were killed. 156 00:09:20,969 --> 00:09:23,622 - That was quite a show this morning. - I didn't plan it. 157 00:09:23,747 --> 00:09:25,407 Made it better. Any regrets? 158 00:09:25,532 --> 00:09:27,918 No. Any regrets about proposing to Cristina? 159 00:09:28,043 --> 00:09:29,043 None. 160 00:09:29,403 --> 00:09:32,614 Getting shot turns out to not be the worst thing after all. 161 00:09:33,084 --> 00:09:34,484 I need a best man. 162 00:09:35,502 --> 00:09:38,077 I know we're not that close, but... 163 00:09:39,345 --> 00:09:42,624 I don't know. You being married to the other twisted sister, 164 00:09:43,520 --> 00:09:44,876 I just thought it... 165 00:09:45,044 --> 00:09:46,878 It kinda made us brothers or something. 166 00:09:47,140 --> 00:09:49,440 - I'd be honored. It's an honor. - Thank you. 167 00:09:49,565 --> 00:09:52,065 You need a bachelor party? Even better. 168 00:09:57,416 --> 00:09:58,802 On the day of the shooting, 169 00:09:58,927 --> 00:10:01,780 I understand that you had a particularly difficult day. 170 00:10:06,440 --> 00:10:09,449 On the day I gave birth to my son, 171 00:10:10,004 --> 00:10:13,988 my husband had a car crash, and he needed a craniotomy, 172 00:10:14,321 --> 00:10:16,699 and he almost died on Derek Shepherd's table. 173 00:10:16,867 --> 00:10:20,530 Now that was a particularly difficult day. 174 00:10:20,880 --> 00:10:23,432 And at the end of that day, my son was born, 175 00:10:23,557 --> 00:10:24,833 and my husband lived. 176 00:10:27,788 --> 00:10:29,738 But at the end of this day... 177 00:10:40,266 --> 00:10:41,266 This day 178 00:10:42,355 --> 00:10:44,305 was the worst day of my life. 179 00:10:49,775 --> 00:10:51,526 I'm sorry. I didn't mean to... 180 00:10:51,694 --> 00:10:54,577 You don't just sneak up on people. Okay? 181 00:10:54,702 --> 00:10:57,152 - You don't... - I got these. I was... 182 00:10:57,520 --> 00:11:00,718 I was playing golf. My phone was off, and I'm... 183 00:11:02,351 --> 00:11:06,355 You know, 18 people got shot, 11 died, one in my arms. 184 00:11:06,548 --> 00:11:09,794 A boy died in my arms, and you were playing golf. 185 00:11:11,873 --> 00:11:12,973 We gotta go. 186 00:11:14,173 --> 00:11:16,023 - Where you going? - Home, 187 00:11:16,148 --> 00:11:18,344 to my mom. Right? 188 00:11:18,930 --> 00:11:20,780 We're gonna go see grandma? 189 00:11:23,303 --> 00:11:25,653 - Here you go. - When you coming back? 190 00:11:31,951 --> 00:11:33,701 When are you coming back? 191 00:11:51,045 --> 00:11:53,296 You're talking about slicing his face in half, 192 00:11:53,464 --> 00:11:55,327 breaking his jaw, cutting his tongue. 193 00:11:55,452 --> 00:11:57,092 It just sounds crazy. 194 00:11:57,760 --> 00:11:58,760 I know. 195 00:12:00,978 --> 00:12:03,932 I wish I could offer some comfort, but honestly, 196 00:12:04,947 --> 00:12:07,352 there's no comfort that can be offered in this situation. 197 00:12:08,293 --> 00:12:09,729 Let me just say that... 198 00:12:10,038 --> 00:12:12,658 Every medical advancement started with the statement, 199 00:12:12,987 --> 00:12:14,487 "that sounds crazy." 200 00:12:16,121 --> 00:12:17,153 Let me try. 201 00:12:18,180 --> 00:12:19,630 Donna, let me help. 202 00:12:28,095 --> 00:12:31,084 Okay. Let's try. 203 00:12:31,400 --> 00:12:32,400 Good. 204 00:12:34,350 --> 00:12:35,900 He could not wake up. 205 00:12:38,384 --> 00:12:40,427 He could... Wake up... 206 00:12:40,750 --> 00:12:42,679 And never be able to move again. 207 00:12:43,238 --> 00:12:44,621 He could go blind. 208 00:12:44,746 --> 00:12:47,623 He could lose his ability to speak or to eat. 209 00:12:47,748 --> 00:12:51,271 He could require around-the-clock care for the rest of his life. 210 00:12:51,940 --> 00:12:54,620 He could be in a tremendous amount of pain 211 00:12:54,745 --> 00:12:56,195 for the rest of his life. 212 00:12:56,320 --> 00:12:58,120 He could die on the table. 213 00:12:58,680 --> 00:13:01,980 If that doesn't happen, if none of those things happen, 214 00:13:02,450 --> 00:13:05,036 he's still facing months of excruciatingly 215 00:13:05,244 --> 00:13:07,078 painful recovery from this surgery. 216 00:13:07,411 --> 00:13:09,181 And before you make a decision, 217 00:13:09,457 --> 00:13:11,458 you need to understand the risks. 218 00:13:21,548 --> 00:13:23,721 You're driving awfully fast, 219 00:13:23,846 --> 00:13:26,546 The least you could do is wear a seat belt. 220 00:13:35,654 --> 00:13:36,816 You've been working. 221 00:13:37,400 --> 00:13:39,200 In the clinic, in the pit. 222 00:13:40,154 --> 00:13:41,946 We haven't been allowed to operate, 223 00:13:42,114 --> 00:13:43,907 which makes zero sense if you ask me. 224 00:13:45,924 --> 00:13:49,928 I'd like to talk to you about the incident last week. 225 00:13:52,503 --> 00:13:54,000 She's not my responsibility. 226 00:13:54,168 --> 00:13:57,068 - She was your girlfriend. - She's not anymore. 227 00:14:00,930 --> 00:14:02,930 Karev, give me another suture. 228 00:14:03,471 --> 00:14:05,053 My patient didn't bring her meds. 229 00:14:05,386 --> 00:14:07,180 She doesn't even know their names. 230 00:14:07,348 --> 00:14:10,475 If I give her albuterol and she's on propanolol, then she'll stop breathing. 231 00:14:10,643 --> 00:14:13,911 If I give her warfarin and she's on ibuprofen, then she'll bleed out. 232 00:14:14,036 --> 00:14:16,397 If I give her diphenhydramine and she's on doxepin, 233 00:14:16,565 --> 00:14:18,770 then she'll die. So do you think she wants to die? 234 00:14:18,895 --> 00:14:20,777 - Is she kidding? - What's going on? 235 00:14:20,945 --> 00:14:24,214 I think that she wants to die. I think she wants me to kill her. 236 00:14:26,742 --> 00:14:28,114 Do you want me to kill you? 237 00:14:28,239 --> 00:14:30,742 Cause you could just get a gun, and it would be a lot faster. 238 00:14:30,867 --> 00:14:33,748 - Get her outta here. - So why doesn't somebody find a gun... 239 00:14:33,916 --> 00:14:36,418 And we'll bring her a gun and just shoot her... 240 00:14:36,586 --> 00:14:39,712 Help her I can't step away. Get her out of here! 241 00:14:40,100 --> 00:14:41,673 I got my own stuff to do. 242 00:14:42,073 --> 00:14:43,633 Somebody find something! 243 00:14:44,701 --> 00:14:46,136 Why did you walk away? 244 00:14:46,304 --> 00:14:48,004 Look, life is too short. 245 00:14:48,652 --> 00:14:50,751 I almost died trying to stop that guy. 246 00:14:51,020 --> 00:14:52,142 Besides, I mean... 247 00:14:52,813 --> 00:14:54,601 You know how much tail you get offered 248 00:14:54,726 --> 00:14:57,147 when you're carrying a bullet around in your chest? 249 00:14:57,423 --> 00:14:59,073 It's like I'm a legend. 250 00:15:00,178 --> 00:15:02,527 Are you... Always this crass, 251 00:15:02,874 --> 00:15:04,946 or is that a defense mechanism? 252 00:15:10,761 --> 00:15:12,912 I've had too much crazy for one lifetime. 253 00:15:14,454 --> 00:15:16,249 You cleared Lexie Grey for surgery? 254 00:15:16,417 --> 00:15:18,416 Dr. Sloan, I'm in session. 255 00:15:18,628 --> 00:15:20,879 I had to check her into psych last week. 256 00:15:21,297 --> 00:15:23,631 I had to commit her against her will! 257 00:15:24,044 --> 00:15:26,843 And you just clear her for surgery? 258 00:15:27,162 --> 00:15:29,804 What the hell kind of doctor are you? 259 00:15:32,096 --> 00:15:34,127 It's okay. You can talk to him. 260 00:15:34,310 --> 00:15:35,310 I'll come back. 261 00:15:36,314 --> 00:15:39,022 Yeah, walk away. You're good at that. 262 00:15:43,349 --> 00:15:44,706 She got snowed. 263 00:15:44,831 --> 00:15:48,281 Psych put her on heavy doses of antipsychotics and benzos. 264 00:15:48,751 --> 00:15:51,284 And then she slept for almost 50 hours straight. 265 00:15:51,452 --> 00:15:54,788 When she woke up, she was no longer a risk to herself or others. 266 00:15:56,020 --> 00:15:58,912 She has PTSD most of you do. 267 00:15:59,037 --> 00:16:01,169 For her, it caused severe sleep deprivation 268 00:16:01,337 --> 00:16:02,921 and led to a breakdown. 269 00:16:03,402 --> 00:16:05,052 All she need was sleep. 270 00:16:05,508 --> 00:16:07,842 So protocol is that she goes back to work. 271 00:16:08,010 --> 00:16:09,094 See? 272 00:16:10,361 --> 00:16:11,361 I'm okay. 273 00:16:12,653 --> 00:16:14,406 Really. I'm back. 274 00:16:17,645 --> 00:16:18,645 Clamp. 275 00:16:19,984 --> 00:16:22,384 So how are you? I hear there's a guy. 276 00:16:23,743 --> 00:16:25,443 - Yeah, there's a guy. - That good? 277 00:16:25,611 --> 00:16:26,611 Shut up. 278 00:16:27,529 --> 00:16:28,988 I need another clamp. 279 00:16:31,018 --> 00:16:32,784 So... You're getting married. 280 00:16:32,952 --> 00:16:35,298 I am. I am getting married. 281 00:16:35,703 --> 00:16:37,103 I'm happy for you. 282 00:16:40,616 --> 00:16:42,884 - I am, really. - Really? 283 00:16:43,009 --> 00:16:44,629 - Thank you. - Good. 284 00:16:44,996 --> 00:16:47,646 I dig weddings. I do a mean chicken dance. 285 00:16:48,166 --> 00:16:49,926 There will be no chicken dance. 286 00:16:50,094 --> 00:16:53,388 And if you start a conga line, I will physically throw you out. 287 00:16:53,830 --> 00:16:55,515 I just went to the cafeteria, 288 00:16:55,683 --> 00:16:57,559 and some nurse called me Reed 289 00:16:57,758 --> 00:16:59,561 and then said, "I thought you died." 290 00:16:59,729 --> 00:17:02,063 You don't go to the cafeteria. They point and stare. 291 00:17:02,475 --> 00:17:03,982 Is that why you dyed your hair? 292 00:17:04,381 --> 00:17:06,734 They stare because we should've died. 293 00:17:07,987 --> 00:17:10,387 Pack a lunch. Keep it in your locker. 294 00:17:16,120 --> 00:17:17,287 You are kidding me. 295 00:17:17,455 --> 00:17:20,415 - You got cleared? - It's down to you and Yang. 296 00:17:20,583 --> 00:17:23,334 - That is not funny. - Perkins is no dummy. 297 00:17:23,607 --> 00:17:26,087 He can see the crazy right under the Meredith Grey surface. 298 00:17:26,255 --> 00:17:28,882 Again, it's not funny cause you're not gonna get cleared either, 299 00:17:29,573 --> 00:17:32,260 and the two of us are gonna be serving slushies at the multiplex. 300 00:17:32,428 --> 00:17:35,513 Really? I'd choose dermatology over multiplex. 301 00:17:35,821 --> 00:17:37,708 No, I'd go gynecology over dermatology. 302 00:17:37,833 --> 00:17:39,851 Of course you would. Perv. 303 00:17:40,202 --> 00:17:41,811 I think I'd go with psych. 304 00:17:46,227 --> 00:17:47,317 That was a joke. 305 00:17:48,444 --> 00:17:49,486 That was good. 306 00:17:49,792 --> 00:17:52,614 Anyway, I don't know What Perkins' problem is with me. 307 00:17:53,077 --> 00:17:55,700 - Maybe he saw your file. - Maybe he knew your mother. 308 00:17:55,868 --> 00:17:58,158 Maybe he heard how you told the shooter to shoot you. 309 00:17:58,283 --> 00:17:59,454 Not funny. 310 00:18:00,374 --> 00:18:01,424 Not a joke. 311 00:18:04,580 --> 00:18:05,585 Welcome back. 312 00:18:08,075 --> 00:18:09,075 You okay? 313 00:18:11,683 --> 00:18:13,433 I'm happy to see you all. 314 00:18:16,973 --> 00:18:19,967 There's a patient in 23-04 that needs an endoscopy. 315 00:18:21,435 --> 00:18:24,479 Surely your paycheck covers more than stuffing your face in the basement. 316 00:18:24,772 --> 00:18:26,189 Get to the clinic now. 317 00:18:26,357 --> 00:18:27,607 And, you two... 318 00:18:30,089 --> 00:18:32,865 I'm awful sorry about the loss of your friends. 319 00:18:35,086 --> 00:18:36,886 - Thank you. - So are we. 320 00:18:39,052 --> 00:18:41,496 22-13 has a bowel impaction, 321 00:18:41,664 --> 00:18:45,114 and I'm sure as hell not about to stick my hands in there. 322 00:18:52,939 --> 00:18:54,989 You quit your job this morning. 323 00:18:55,442 --> 00:18:57,345 Should I be worried abt impulsivity? 324 00:19:00,582 --> 00:19:01,766 I didn't quit my job. 325 00:19:02,318 --> 00:19:03,977 Being Chief wasn't my job. 326 00:19:04,282 --> 00:19:05,453 I'm a surgeon. 327 00:19:06,144 --> 00:19:08,542 That's what I do. That is who I am. 328 00:19:08,774 --> 00:19:10,275 But before you got shot... 329 00:19:10,443 --> 00:19:12,718 I wanted to quit that job every day before I got shot, 330 00:19:12,843 --> 00:19:14,384 I didn't have the guts to do it. 331 00:19:15,033 --> 00:19:16,633 After I got shot, I... 332 00:19:21,637 --> 00:19:22,837 Life is short. 333 00:19:25,612 --> 00:19:27,412 So now I think less and... 334 00:19:28,728 --> 00:19:29,753 Just do. 335 00:19:30,769 --> 00:19:34,729 So... For you, the shooting was clarifying? 336 00:19:42,650 --> 00:19:44,976 A lot of people died in that shooting. 337 00:19:45,351 --> 00:19:47,408 I'm saying, in your life today... 338 00:19:47,793 --> 00:19:49,105 A lot of people died. 339 00:19:58,074 --> 00:20:01,951 Meredith went to get something to eat. She should be back soon. 340 00:20:05,549 --> 00:20:07,409 I'm sorry I got you shot. 341 00:20:09,278 --> 00:20:12,170 By coming out of the office... I didn't listen, and then you got shot. 342 00:20:13,509 --> 00:20:14,759 I got you shot, 343 00:20:15,132 --> 00:20:17,759 And I just need to say, I am so... So sorry. 344 00:20:18,942 --> 00:20:20,470 Gary Clark came here for me. 345 00:20:23,025 --> 00:20:25,141 I gave the order to pull the plug on his wife. 346 00:20:28,486 --> 00:20:29,938 I got everyone shot. 347 00:21:05,516 --> 00:21:06,516 So... 348 00:21:07,935 --> 00:21:10,316 Is this what I need to do to get cleared? 349 00:21:10,441 --> 00:21:11,729 Dr. Grey, you're early. 350 00:21:13,269 --> 00:21:16,387 - I'll call you later. - Yes, please. 351 00:21:21,536 --> 00:21:25,540 That was creepy and inappropriate. I want a new counselor. 352 00:21:25,828 --> 00:21:28,078 Teddy was never a patient of mine. 353 00:21:29,197 --> 00:21:31,296 She was cleared for surgery before I got here. 354 00:21:32,168 --> 00:21:33,907 We just met in the cafeteria. 355 00:21:34,032 --> 00:21:35,837 I'm not interested in your love life. 356 00:21:35,962 --> 00:21:39,215 I don't care how love blooms over day-old hot dogs. 357 00:21:39,755 --> 00:21:42,721 My husband is about to remove the largest chordoma on record. 358 00:21:43,016 --> 00:21:44,679 You cleared Lexie Grey last week. 359 00:21:44,847 --> 00:21:46,155 You cleared Alex Karev, 360 00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:49,124 who insists on running around the hospital with a bullet in his chest. 361 00:21:49,249 --> 00:21:51,837 - I know who I've cleared. - So then why don't you tell me 362 00:21:51,962 --> 00:21:54,563 what you want me to say, and I'll say it. 363 00:21:55,531 --> 00:21:57,798 Dr. Grey, I don't think that you're being honest... 364 00:21:58,204 --> 00:21:59,485 With me or yourself. 365 00:21:59,610 --> 00:22:01,863 And I think that's a potentially dangerous situation. 366 00:22:03,327 --> 00:22:05,727 So what is it that you're not saying? 367 00:22:08,580 --> 00:22:09,829 Who's with Derek? 368 00:22:10,397 --> 00:22:12,665 When I left Mark Sloan was with him. 369 00:22:12,833 --> 00:22:15,133 - And where's Owen? - I don't know. 370 00:22:15,962 --> 00:22:18,004 I think he's still talking to the police. 371 00:22:19,377 --> 00:22:20,812 Not a word of this to Derek. 372 00:22:20,944 --> 00:22:22,801 You have to tell Owen because he knows. 373 00:22:22,969 --> 00:22:24,368 - Not a word. - Okay. 374 00:22:24,798 --> 00:22:26,854 And April Kepner. She knows, too. 375 00:22:27,394 --> 00:22:28,394 Okay. 376 00:22:28,849 --> 00:22:30,475 Go tell them. 377 00:22:30,949 --> 00:22:33,144 Go back to the hospital and tell them right now. 378 00:22:34,320 --> 00:22:36,940 - Don't you want me to stay for this? - No, I want you to go. 379 00:22:37,065 --> 00:22:40,682 Go and... and make sure no one says a word to Derek. 380 00:22:59,663 --> 00:23:00,797 Your friend left? 381 00:23:00,965 --> 00:23:03,633 - You want me to wait or... - No, just do it. 382 00:23:03,758 --> 00:23:05,776 The D&C's pretty straightforward. 383 00:23:05,901 --> 00:23:07,637 The fetus was only at about 5 weeks. 384 00:23:07,805 --> 00:23:10,515 You'll feel some cramping after, but it shouldn't be too bad. 385 00:23:15,069 --> 00:23:17,251 Andrew and I just got busted by Meredith Grey. 386 00:23:17,940 --> 00:23:20,049 - Callie's watching me sleep. - What? 387 00:23:21,103 --> 00:23:22,777 She's watching me sleep. 388 00:23:22,945 --> 00:23:25,216 And she only watches me sleep when something is up, 389 00:23:25,341 --> 00:23:27,786 and I'm afraid that she's gonna propose or... 390 00:23:27,911 --> 00:23:29,741 Start talking about making babies again, 391 00:23:29,866 --> 00:23:32,185 which I'm open to, honestly, just, 392 00:23:33,028 --> 00:23:34,114 not right now. 393 00:23:35,392 --> 00:23:38,962 I can feel her watching me, it's such hard work to keep my eyes closed, 394 00:23:39,087 --> 00:23:42,088 but if I open them, that something loaded is gonna come out of her mouth 395 00:23:42,256 --> 00:23:44,602 and pop the bubble that we've been floating in. 396 00:23:44,727 --> 00:23:47,510 - You want to pop the bubble. - I don't, though. 397 00:23:47,678 --> 00:23:50,054 Believe me. I've been living in that bubble for years. 398 00:23:50,307 --> 00:23:52,599 Owen and I? We're just friends, really. 399 00:23:53,006 --> 00:23:55,087 Finally knowing the truth? I don't regret that. 400 00:23:55,212 --> 00:23:57,859 My bubble is so pink and so... 401 00:23:58,253 --> 00:23:59,272 Pretty. 402 00:24:02,317 --> 00:24:03,567 Pop the bubble. 403 00:24:06,934 --> 00:24:08,490 I heard you were looking for me. 404 00:24:08,658 --> 00:24:11,409 The board officially reinstated me this morning. 405 00:24:11,824 --> 00:24:14,287 - No more "interim Chief." - I'm glad to hear that. 406 00:24:14,791 --> 00:24:17,040 You sure? No seller's remorse? 407 00:24:17,344 --> 00:24:19,038 Have you seen the tumor I'm chasing? 408 00:24:19,163 --> 00:24:20,811 No, no seller's remorse. 409 00:24:21,249 --> 00:24:24,510 - You feel good about this surgery? - That sounds like a loaded question. 410 00:24:24,917 --> 00:24:26,710 I know Perkins cleared you for surgery. 411 00:24:26,835 --> 00:24:29,260 And I know better than to question your judgment... 412 00:24:29,428 --> 00:24:31,793 But, I still have nightmares, and 413 00:24:32,925 --> 00:24:35,891 I go to two AA meetings a day. I'm not all the way back, 414 00:24:36,016 --> 00:24:37,435 and I didn't gethot. 415 00:24:38,069 --> 00:24:41,469 That's what I mean when I say, do you feel good about it? 416 00:24:41,729 --> 00:24:43,129 I feel adrenaline. 417 00:24:43,585 --> 00:24:44,609 And, yeah... 418 00:24:46,732 --> 00:24:48,532 The adrenaline feels good. 419 00:25:30,884 --> 00:25:33,134 I can't believe I'm not down there. 420 00:25:34,785 --> 00:25:37,061 I can'tbelievei'm not down there. 421 00:25:44,578 --> 00:25:45,670 Palate's divided. 422 00:25:46,828 --> 00:25:48,362 Yeah. Okay. We're good. 423 00:25:50,351 --> 00:25:51,401 Here we go. 424 00:25:58,289 --> 00:26:00,109 You ever see anything like this? 425 00:26:01,180 --> 00:26:04,397 I've seen mortar fire that didn't do this much damage. 426 00:26:07,592 --> 00:26:09,986 Let's bring that microscope in and get you started. 427 00:26:10,516 --> 00:26:11,571 Everybody ready? 428 00:26:11,923 --> 00:26:13,373 Let's do it. Yeah. 429 00:26:23,418 --> 00:26:24,818 There's the tumor. 430 00:26:25,878 --> 00:26:28,254 We're there. Microdissectors, please. 431 00:26:40,388 --> 00:26:41,388 Get up. 432 00:26:42,368 --> 00:26:43,368 Get up. 433 00:26:44,273 --> 00:26:45,273 Let's go. 434 00:26:46,582 --> 00:26:47,732 Sorry, sorry. 435 00:26:49,683 --> 00:26:52,287 - What is wrong with you? - Everything is wrong. 436 00:26:52,616 --> 00:26:54,570 Derek is decapitating a teenager, 437 00:26:54,695 --> 00:26:56,744 and April Kepner is assisting, 438 00:26:57,159 --> 00:26:59,719 and you're sitting reading about lies of the freakin' valley. 439 00:26:59,955 --> 00:27:02,789 - You prefer peonies? - We are not better. 440 00:27:03,874 --> 00:27:06,361 A psychiatrist, given several opportunities, 441 00:27:06,486 --> 00:27:09,587 - has deemed unfit to do my job. - He'll get over it. 442 00:27:09,755 --> 00:27:11,323 Just go back in a couple of days. 443 00:27:11,448 --> 00:27:12,757 You are not better. 444 00:27:12,925 --> 00:27:14,787 In a couple of days, I'll be better, too. 445 00:27:14,912 --> 00:27:17,236 In a couple of days, you'll be married. 446 00:27:19,842 --> 00:27:21,629 Are you trying to talk me out of this? 447 00:27:21,754 --> 00:27:23,692 Look at me and tell me you're sure. 448 00:27:25,370 --> 00:27:26,732 You don't get to do this. 449 00:27:27,406 --> 00:27:29,719 All you get to do is help me break the tie 450 00:27:30,096 --> 00:27:32,702 between the lilies of the valley and the peonies. 451 00:27:32,827 --> 00:27:34,571 - That's it. - I do get to do this. 452 00:27:34,739 --> 00:27:36,888 He's the love of my life, but you're my soul mate. 453 00:27:37,013 --> 00:27:39,932 I do get to do this. Why can't it wait six months? 454 00:27:40,057 --> 00:27:41,933 - Please don't. - Flowers aren't going. 455 00:27:42,058 --> 00:27:44,289 You broke up with him cause he couldn't choose you. 456 00:27:44,457 --> 00:27:47,418 - Just why does it have to be right now? - You know what I think? 457 00:27:47,543 --> 00:27:49,544 you should tell Derek about the miscarriage. 458 00:27:49,712 --> 00:27:52,542 - We're talking about you. - No, about us not being "better." 459 00:27:52,667 --> 00:27:55,258 - Then you need to tell him. - He's not ready. He's not okay. 460 00:27:55,426 --> 00:27:56,913 You're not okay. 461 00:27:57,722 --> 00:27:58,923 You should tell him. 462 00:28:22,206 --> 00:28:25,330 Well, Dr. Yang, if you don't feel ready, there's no pressure. 463 00:28:27,088 --> 00:28:29,608 The hospital is prepared to work with you in whatever way... 464 00:28:29,733 --> 00:28:31,920 What... I'm sorry. I'm getting special treatment? 465 00:28:32,579 --> 00:28:35,298 Cause I'm the girl who operated with a gun to her head? 466 00:28:35,779 --> 00:28:38,593 If you don't want to clear me, don't clear me. 467 00:28:39,569 --> 00:28:41,883 You didn't show up for your appointment last week. 468 00:28:42,008 --> 00:28:44,808 - You were very late today. - I'm getting married. 469 00:28:44,976 --> 00:28:47,025 I heard that. Congratulations. 470 00:28:53,428 --> 00:28:54,442 Can I go now? 471 00:29:01,278 --> 00:29:04,410 When you think about going into an OR, 472 00:29:04,578 --> 00:29:06,478 how does that make you feel? 473 00:29:07,516 --> 00:29:09,207 God, the women in these magazines... 474 00:29:11,290 --> 00:29:14,542 Some of them are actually brides, you know? They're not all models. 475 00:29:15,599 --> 00:29:16,699 All smiling. 476 00:29:18,989 --> 00:29:21,447 It's like the only thing in the world that matters 477 00:29:21,572 --> 00:29:23,888 is that they find the perfect shoe to match that dress. 478 00:29:25,925 --> 00:29:28,264 God, you know, I knew these girls. 479 00:29:28,389 --> 00:29:30,395 I went to school with them. 480 00:29:30,862 --> 00:29:31,912 It's funny. 481 00:29:37,305 --> 00:29:39,154 I used to feel sorry for them. 482 00:29:40,447 --> 00:29:41,997 They're simple girls. 483 00:29:42,325 --> 00:29:45,824 They just want to find the guy and get married, you know... 484 00:29:46,267 --> 00:29:47,267 Live. 485 00:29:51,626 --> 00:29:55,417 I don't know. I think you're either born simple or you're born... 486 00:30:02,258 --> 00:30:03,258 Me. 487 00:30:11,421 --> 00:30:13,020 I want to be the person 488 00:30:13,408 --> 00:30:15,482 who gets happy over finding the perfect dress. 489 00:30:16,145 --> 00:30:17,645 I want to be simple. 490 00:30:19,986 --> 00:30:23,301 Cause no one holds a gun to the head of a simple girl. 491 00:30:24,492 --> 00:30:27,619 - Stop fixing him! - Owen, help. 492 00:30:28,755 --> 00:30:31,561 - Who is it? - It's me. It's Owen. 493 00:30:37,096 --> 00:30:38,196 You're late. 494 00:30:39,279 --> 00:30:40,423 I'm sorry. 495 00:30:54,677 --> 00:30:55,814 It's not okay. 496 00:31:01,320 --> 00:31:03,197 Cristina, what is this? 497 00:31:03,322 --> 00:31:04,781 I don't want to be alone. 498 00:31:07,909 --> 00:31:10,359 You don't ever have to be alone again. 499 00:31:11,497 --> 00:31:13,873 I'm not going anywhere, Cristina. 500 00:31:14,041 --> 00:31:16,191 I won't ever leave again. 501 00:31:16,669 --> 00:31:19,462 You hear me? I am not going anywhere... 502 00:31:24,549 --> 00:31:25,999 If you let me stay. 503 00:31:35,843 --> 00:31:36,843 Thank you. 504 00:31:38,904 --> 00:31:41,406 I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was late. 505 00:31:42,740 --> 00:31:43,740 Thank you. 506 00:32:24,156 --> 00:32:26,599 I was playing golf. 507 00:32:26,984 --> 00:32:30,824 And I can't apologize for it cause it wasn't anything I did on purpose. 508 00:32:38,713 --> 00:32:40,163 I was playing golf. 509 00:32:44,123 --> 00:32:46,440 I missed you, and I just... 510 00:32:47,896 --> 00:32:51,096 You're a good man. 511 00:32:51,536 --> 00:32:54,307 You are handsome... 512 00:32:56,370 --> 00:32:58,738 And kind... And smart and... 513 00:33:00,022 --> 00:33:01,022 Good. 514 00:33:03,379 --> 00:33:05,029 I mean, you're perfect. 515 00:33:06,206 --> 00:33:07,206 But... 516 00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:10,738 I'm... Busy 517 00:33:12,073 --> 00:33:14,410 holding myself together with 518 00:33:14,682 --> 00:33:16,225 tape and glue. 519 00:33:16,568 --> 00:33:19,916 And a piece of me wishes that 520 00:33:20,084 --> 00:33:23,083 you hadn't played golf, because... 521 00:33:23,671 --> 00:33:27,048 Then you'd be all taped and glued, too. 522 00:33:27,216 --> 00:33:30,160 And maybe you'd be where I am. 523 00:33:39,228 --> 00:33:42,063 You're too much for me right now, 524 00:33:42,231 --> 00:33:45,674 cause I'm busy with the tape and the glue. 525 00:33:53,818 --> 00:33:54,818 All right. 526 00:34:08,357 --> 00:34:11,227 - You take care of yourself. - You, too. 527 00:34:38,996 --> 00:34:40,795 You were amazing in there. 528 00:34:44,397 --> 00:34:46,347 - Let's make a baby. - What? 529 00:34:47,716 --> 00:34:48,716 Come on. 530 00:34:49,393 --> 00:34:52,062 Let's just pull the goalie. Let's do it. Let's start right now. 531 00:34:53,261 --> 00:34:54,261 Oh, God. 532 00:34:55,680 --> 00:34:57,129 It's Greg. Damn it. 533 00:35:04,306 --> 00:35:06,278 I already gave him 10 of morphine. 534 00:35:06,403 --> 00:35:09,048 He's in too much pain. I'm gonna start him on propofol. 535 00:35:09,173 --> 00:35:11,368 I never should've let you do this. 536 00:35:11,493 --> 00:35:13,683 It's Dr. Shepherd. You have to listen to me. 537 00:35:13,808 --> 00:35:16,699 This is the fight. This is the fight. 538 00:35:17,254 --> 00:35:19,215 The pain's gonna stop. We're gonna help you. 539 00:35:19,340 --> 00:35:21,121 But until it does, this is your fight. 540 00:35:21,289 --> 00:35:23,289 The tumor's not driving anymore. You are. 541 00:35:24,358 --> 00:35:25,792 You're in the driver's seat. 542 00:35:26,283 --> 00:35:28,954 The life that's in your head? You get if you fight. 543 00:35:30,715 --> 00:35:31,765 You got it? 544 00:35:37,641 --> 00:35:39,222 Good. Good. 545 00:35:40,216 --> 00:35:41,433 Donna, look, this... 546 00:35:42,390 --> 00:35:43,390 This pain? 547 00:35:43,646 --> 00:35:46,104 It's not a dying pain. It's a healing pain. 548 00:35:46,914 --> 00:35:48,440 This is a victory pain. 549 00:35:49,451 --> 00:35:50,451 You won. 550 00:35:52,839 --> 00:35:53,839 We won. 551 00:36:28,281 --> 00:36:30,482 What? I went out to get some ice. 552 00:36:31,358 --> 00:36:33,735 Don't be mad. We'll make the wedding. 553 00:36:34,987 --> 00:36:36,440 I'll make the wedding. 554 00:36:37,031 --> 00:36:39,282 Just wanted to see you were alive for myself. 555 00:37:13,914 --> 00:37:15,114 You look hot. 556 00:37:15,239 --> 00:37:19,035 The whole, "crazy eyes, tight dress" thing, 557 00:37:19,542 --> 00:37:21,950 it's working for you, for whatever it's worth. 558 00:37:24,704 --> 00:37:28,525 You think that you are so badass cause you lived. 559 00:37:28,791 --> 00:37:31,251 I'm the reason that you lived. 560 00:37:31,419 --> 00:37:33,259 And while you were dying, 561 00:37:33,384 --> 00:37:35,964 you were crying out for the wife who left you. 562 00:37:36,671 --> 00:37:39,259 So that's the opposite of badass, 563 00:37:40,352 --> 00:37:42,052 for whatever it's worth. 564 00:37:51,667 --> 00:37:52,767 I'm jealous. 565 00:37:53,566 --> 00:37:56,025 I think I'm jealous of Hunt and Yang. 566 00:37:56,193 --> 00:37:58,319 You know Derek's gonna be the best man? 567 00:37:58,444 --> 00:38:00,905 We hardly even know the guy. 568 00:38:01,073 --> 00:38:02,443 I'm gonna do it. 569 00:38:03,451 --> 00:38:05,903 - You're drunk. - That's why I'm gonna do it. 570 00:38:06,028 --> 00:38:08,971 Lame surgery ran long. Sorry. What'd I miss? 571 00:38:09,096 --> 00:38:11,332 I have something... To ask you. 572 00:38:12,460 --> 00:38:14,711 I want you to move in with me. I love you, 573 00:38:14,879 --> 00:38:17,797 and you have a drawer and a toothbrush, 574 00:38:18,323 --> 00:38:21,491 I want you to have a whole dresser and a whole... 575 00:38:22,265 --> 00:38:23,600 Blow-dryer 576 00:38:24,001 --> 00:38:27,682 or something... More romantic than that or... 577 00:38:28,168 --> 00:38:29,309 Something. 578 00:38:29,477 --> 00:38:31,102 You're doing great. Push through. 579 00:38:35,828 --> 00:38:39,152 Unless you're just totally hating the idea, 580 00:38:39,320 --> 00:38:40,320 which... 581 00:38:41,714 --> 00:38:42,864 Would be okay. 582 00:38:43,316 --> 00:38:45,241 - Is that it? - Is what it? 583 00:38:45,558 --> 00:38:47,240 You just want me to move in 584 00:38:47,601 --> 00:38:50,057 to a place that I basically already live? 585 00:38:51,872 --> 00:38:53,081 Thank God. Yes, yes. 586 00:38:53,249 --> 00:38:55,876 Calliope, yes. I would love to have a dresser 587 00:38:56,001 --> 00:38:57,998 and a blow-dryer or something more romantic. 588 00:39:02,456 --> 00:39:04,406 How are you doing? You okay? 589 00:39:06,835 --> 00:39:08,348 I'm sorry. He's not coming. 590 00:39:10,720 --> 00:39:12,560 - He's my best man. - I know. 591 00:39:12,728 --> 00:39:14,240 Do you want to pick a new one? 592 00:39:14,365 --> 00:39:16,731 - Mark looks great in a suit. - Derek had the ring. 593 00:39:17,015 --> 00:39:19,275 - I have it. - Oh, okay. 594 00:39:20,154 --> 00:39:21,604 Are you still good? 595 00:39:24,052 --> 00:39:26,752 She is gonna come down those stairs, right? 596 00:39:36,397 --> 00:39:38,920 I never gave you any crap about your post-it. 597 00:39:48,371 --> 00:39:49,821 You look beautiful. 598 00:39:51,414 --> 00:39:52,414 I know. 599 00:39:53,772 --> 00:39:55,520 How's Owen? Is he good? 600 00:39:57,206 --> 00:39:58,398 Owen's perfect. 601 00:40:01,327 --> 00:40:02,477 He's perfect. 602 00:40:05,411 --> 00:40:06,411 Thank you. 603 00:40:10,368 --> 00:40:12,225 When we say things like, 604 00:40:12,350 --> 00:40:13,872 "people don't change," 605 00:40:14,712 --> 00:40:16,416 it drives scientists crazy... 606 00:40:20,521 --> 00:40:24,048 Because change is literally the only constant in all of science. 607 00:40:33,530 --> 00:40:34,559 Energy... 608 00:40:35,998 --> 00:40:36,998 Matter... 609 00:40:38,868 --> 00:40:40,518 It's always changing... 610 00:40:42,185 --> 00:40:43,235 Morphing... 611 00:40:45,310 --> 00:40:46,310 Merging... 612 00:40:48,511 --> 00:40:49,532 growing... 613 00:40:51,337 --> 00:40:52,337 Dying. 614 00:40:55,706 --> 00:40:58,962 It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural... 615 00:41:07,843 --> 00:41:11,429 the way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are 616 00:41:16,097 --> 00:41:19,797 The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones... 617 00:41:21,686 --> 00:41:23,836 The way we insist on believing... 618 00:41:24,556 --> 00:41:26,940 Despite every scientific indication... 619 00:41:28,379 --> 00:41:30,888 That anything in this lifetime is permanent. 620 00:41:32,912 --> 00:41:34,362 Change is constant. 621 00:41:36,106 --> 00:41:37,956 How we experience change... 622 00:41:39,317 --> 00:41:40,617 That's up to us. 623 00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:44,512 It can feel like death... 624 00:41:45,668 --> 00:41:48,418 Or it can feel like a second chance at life. 625 00:41:49,742 --> 00:41:51,392 If we open our fingers, 626 00:41:51,865 --> 00:41:53,165 loosen our grips 627 00:41:53,863 --> 00:41:55,013 go with it... 628 00:41:58,496 --> 00:42:00,746 it can feel like pure adrenaline... 629 00:42:04,532 --> 00:42:06,082 Like at any moment... 630 00:42:07,140 --> 00:42:09,540 We can have another chance at life... 631 00:42:17,106 --> 00:42:18,656 like at any moment... 632 00:42:25,842 --> 00:42:26,842 I do. 633 00:42:27,763 --> 00:42:30,359 We can be born all over again.