1 00:00:22,790 --> 00:00:24,958 ( distant dog barking ) 2 00:00:27,461 --> 00:00:29,929 You shouldn't have. 3 00:00:29,964 --> 00:00:32,198 I'm sorry. I startled you. 4 00:00:32,233 --> 00:00:35,201 Oh no, not at all. 5 00:00:35,236 --> 00:00:37,003 You're just early. 6 00:00:37,037 --> 00:00:39,038 Oh, annoying habit. 7 00:00:39,073 --> 00:00:41,074 I apologize for that. 8 00:00:41,108 --> 00:00:42,876 It's fine. 9 00:00:42,910 --> 00:00:45,378 Let me just put these... 10 00:00:51,719 --> 00:00:54,020 Please come in. 11 00:00:59,527 --> 00:01:03,863 ( theme music playing ) 12 00:01:03,864 --> 00:01:07,957 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 13 00:01:19,013 --> 00:01:22,182 So do I look familiar? 14 00:01:22,216 --> 00:01:23,783 I... 15 00:01:23,818 --> 00:01:26,019 I mean, I don't go to the movies that often. 16 00:01:26,053 --> 00:01:29,255 Oh, no no, I meant do I look like my sister? 17 00:01:29,290 --> 00:01:32,425 Oh. Oh. 18 00:01:32,459 --> 00:01:35,495 Well, it's been what, 18 years now 19 00:01:35,529 --> 00:01:37,430 Since Patricia's been my patient? 20 00:01:37,464 --> 00:01:38,631 Oh, of course. 21 00:01:38,666 --> 00:01:41,301 Why would you remember, right? 22 00:01:41,335 --> 00:01:43,870 But yes, I do. I see the family resemblance. 23 00:01:43,904 --> 00:01:46,472 Well, Tricia looks more like our father 24 00:01:46,507 --> 00:01:49,776 And I look like mother, or so people say. 25 00:01:49,810 --> 00:01:52,178 Look, I didn't even know if you'd agree to see me. 26 00:01:52,213 --> 00:01:54,214 I don't know the rules. 27 00:01:54,248 --> 00:01:57,550 Well, if enough time has passed, it's... 28 00:01:57,585 --> 00:01:59,519 Well, as you said, 18 years. 29 00:01:59,553 --> 00:02:02,856 And there's no chance that Patricia will be my patient again. 30 00:02:02,890 --> 00:02:05,758 That's not... that's not a problem. 31 00:02:05,793 --> 00:02:08,294 Then as long as she is comfortable with it... 32 00:02:08,329 --> 00:02:10,897 Yeah, it's fine. 33 00:02:10,931 --> 00:02:13,733 Not that I need to get her permission. 'cause I'm the big sister. 34 00:02:13,767 --> 00:02:17,070 Well, you may not need to ask her permission, 35 00:02:17,104 --> 00:02:19,505 But... but I do. 36 00:02:19,540 --> 00:02:21,574 No, of course, yeah. 37 00:02:21,609 --> 00:02:23,142 Did you... did you tell her 38 00:02:23,177 --> 00:02:26,179 That you'd made an appointment with me? 39 00:02:26,213 --> 00:02:28,214 She speaks very highly of you. 40 00:02:28,249 --> 00:02:30,216 Oh, she does? 41 00:02:30,251 --> 00:02:31,751 Yeah. 42 00:02:31,785 --> 00:02:34,654 When you called you said that you'd been having 43 00:02:34,688 --> 00:02:37,457 Some trouble with remembering your lines, 44 00:02:37,491 --> 00:02:40,360 Some memory problems. 45 00:02:40,394 --> 00:02:42,829 Wait, I called? 46 00:02:42,863 --> 00:02:45,098 ( laughs ) 47 00:02:45,132 --> 00:02:47,433 Yeah, I'm back onstage. 48 00:02:47,468 --> 00:02:49,502 It's been years. 49 00:02:49,536 --> 00:02:52,138 "night of the iguana." do you know it? 50 00:02:52,172 --> 00:02:54,874 Yeah, I've seen the ads all over town. 51 00:02:54,909 --> 00:02:56,075 Stars 52 00:02:56,110 --> 00:02:59,579 And, well, former stars, I suppose. 53 00:02:59,613 --> 00:03:03,716 Is that how you perceive yourself... 54 00:03:03,751 --> 00:03:06,853 As a former star? 55 00:03:06,887 --> 00:03:09,389 Well, is that how you see me? 56 00:03:09,423 --> 00:03:11,724 I'm sorry. 57 00:03:11,759 --> 00:03:13,726 I haven't been here five minutes 58 00:03:13,761 --> 00:03:15,995 And already I'm a parody of myself. 59 00:03:16,030 --> 00:03:18,531 How so? 60 00:03:18,565 --> 00:03:20,934 Oh, you know, the archetypal actress... 61 00:03:20,968 --> 00:03:24,203 "enough about me. What do you think about me?" 62 00:03:24,238 --> 00:03:25,705 This is therapy. 63 00:03:25,739 --> 00:03:29,042 It's supposed to be about you. 64 00:03:31,879 --> 00:03:34,180 So have you been in therapy before? 65 00:03:34,214 --> 00:03:37,250 Well, I did est back in the day, 66 00:03:37,284 --> 00:03:40,253 And later lifespring. You remember all that? 67 00:03:40,287 --> 00:03:43,122 Hey, it blew my mind at the time. 68 00:03:43,157 --> 00:03:46,559 It kind of seems silly now, I guess. 69 00:03:46,593 --> 00:03:48,027 Let's see. What else? 70 00:03:48,062 --> 00:03:50,029 Oh, later I 12-stepped it for a while 71 00:03:50,064 --> 00:03:52,365 But that was mostly because my friends were doing it. 72 00:03:52,399 --> 00:03:54,200 I never got past the first step. 73 00:03:54,234 --> 00:03:56,836 I had trouble with that whole higher-power thing. 74 00:03:56,870 --> 00:03:58,438 What else? 75 00:03:58,472 --> 00:04:01,174 Oh, I was on a film once in Ecuador 76 00:04:01,208 --> 00:04:04,310 And I had this session with a real-life shaman. 77 00:04:04,345 --> 00:04:07,981 I mean, that was a trip. 78 00:04:08,015 --> 00:04:10,917 It's unbelievable really, after all that 79 00:04:10,951 --> 00:04:13,219 Alternative counterculture crap, 80 00:04:13,253 --> 00:04:14,887 That I would wind up on a couch 81 00:04:14,922 --> 00:04:16,990 Like a 19th-century neurotic. 82 00:04:17,024 --> 00:04:18,992 Are you surprised that you, 83 00:04:19,026 --> 00:04:22,462 As you say, wound up here? 84 00:04:22,496 --> 00:04:26,466 Well, back when my mother was dying, 85 00:04:26,500 --> 00:04:29,602 You know, when Patricia was seeing you in Baltimore, 86 00:04:29,636 --> 00:04:31,571 You really helped her. 87 00:04:31,605 --> 00:04:33,573 And I think my sister felt 88 00:04:33,607 --> 00:04:35,675 Like I should be seeing someone too. 89 00:04:35,709 --> 00:04:37,343 But you didn't? 90 00:04:37,378 --> 00:04:39,345 Oh, I was so overwhelmed with work. 91 00:04:39,380 --> 00:04:42,048 I was racing from one job to the next. 92 00:04:42,082 --> 00:04:44,250 And plus, you know, 93 00:04:44,284 --> 00:04:46,285 I've just never been attracted 94 00:04:46,320 --> 00:04:49,322 To traditional therapy. 95 00:04:49,356 --> 00:04:52,158 It just seemed very... 96 00:04:52,192 --> 00:04:54,027 Naked to me... 97 00:04:54,061 --> 00:04:56,963 Sitting across from someone, talking, 98 00:04:56,997 --> 00:04:59,866 Being scrutinized... 99 00:04:59,900 --> 00:05:01,567 A nightmare. 100 00:05:01,602 --> 00:05:04,003 Does this feel like a nightmare... 101 00:05:04,038 --> 00:05:06,806 Having to sit here with me now? 102 00:05:06,840 --> 00:05:10,143 Oh, I wouldn't say that. 103 00:05:10,177 --> 00:05:12,979 More like a vague anxiety dream. 104 00:05:15,282 --> 00:05:19,886 Patricia's right. You're easy to talk to. 105 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:22,355 Besides, what can I do? I need help. 106 00:05:22,389 --> 00:05:24,323 With your lines. 107 00:05:24,358 --> 00:05:27,326 I have them down verbatim the night before. 108 00:05:27,361 --> 00:05:31,164 And then I go into rehearsal and wham... they just disappear, 109 00:05:31,198 --> 00:05:33,132 I mean, sometimes in the middle of a sentence. 110 00:05:33,167 --> 00:05:36,102 I'm talking to another character and I just lose my place. 111 00:05:36,136 --> 00:05:38,071 I don't know where I am in the play. 112 00:05:38,105 --> 00:05:40,139 I don't know what's supposed to happen next. 113 00:05:40,174 --> 00:05:42,475 I can't even improvise my way out of it. 114 00:05:42,509 --> 00:05:44,510 So during rehearsal 115 00:05:44,545 --> 00:05:47,914 How often would you lose your lines? 116 00:05:47,948 --> 00:05:49,916 Oh, once, twice, maybe more. 117 00:05:49,950 --> 00:05:52,652 Mm-hmm. Anything about the part 118 00:05:52,686 --> 00:05:56,322 That makes you feel uncomfortable? 119 00:05:56,356 --> 00:05:57,723 No. 120 00:05:57,758 --> 00:06:00,626 Do you tend to trip over the same spots... 121 00:06:00,661 --> 00:06:02,595 Certain passages, 122 00:06:02,629 --> 00:06:05,765 Certain scenes that give you trouble? 123 00:06:05,799 --> 00:06:08,434 No, one day it's one place, 124 00:06:08,469 --> 00:06:11,270 And another... the next. 125 00:06:11,305 --> 00:06:12,605 No. 126 00:06:12,639 --> 00:06:14,240 Hmm. 127 00:06:14,274 --> 00:06:16,242 Ava Gardner played the part in the movie. 128 00:06:16,276 --> 00:06:17,643 Did you see it? 129 00:06:17,678 --> 00:06:20,646 I think so, years ago. 130 00:06:20,681 --> 00:06:22,615 Are you worried about 131 00:06:22,649 --> 00:06:25,751 Being compared to Ava Gardner? 132 00:06:25,786 --> 00:06:28,121 Oh no, I have my own take on it. 133 00:06:28,155 --> 00:06:30,089 I'll be fine... 134 00:06:30,124 --> 00:06:32,125 Different, very different. 135 00:06:32,159 --> 00:06:34,360 I'm not afraid. 136 00:06:34,394 --> 00:06:37,163 As long as I can learn my fucking lines. 137 00:06:37,197 --> 00:06:39,165 So how long have you got? 138 00:06:39,199 --> 00:06:41,434 Well, two more weeks of rehearsal, 139 00:06:41,468 --> 00:06:43,703 Two weeks of preview and then opening. 140 00:06:43,737 --> 00:06:46,405 And that's the big night. 141 00:06:46,440 --> 00:06:48,808 The producers are in a panic, 142 00:06:48,842 --> 00:06:51,477 Always hovering, 143 00:06:51,512 --> 00:06:53,880 Whispering in the director's ear. 144 00:06:53,914 --> 00:06:56,415 Do you think they're whispering about you? 145 00:06:56,450 --> 00:06:59,752 I heard a rumor that one of them didn't want me, 146 00:06:59,786 --> 00:07:02,255 Didn't think I was right for the part. 147 00:07:02,289 --> 00:07:04,524 ( chuckles ) 148 00:07:04,558 --> 00:07:06,926 In other words, too old. 149 00:07:06,960 --> 00:07:08,961 The little prick. 150 00:07:08,996 --> 00:07:10,596 You're angry with him. 151 00:07:10,631 --> 00:07:12,899 No, I'm angry with myself. 152 00:07:12,933 --> 00:07:16,202 I mean, it's just not like me. I'm always prepared, 153 00:07:16,236 --> 00:07:19,472 No matter how much blathering on I have to do. 154 00:07:19,506 --> 00:07:21,474 I did "happy days" in London. Do you know it? 155 00:07:21,508 --> 00:07:23,910 - Sam Beckett. - That's right. 156 00:07:23,944 --> 00:07:27,079 I mean, it's really a 90-minute monologue... that play. 157 00:07:27,114 --> 00:07:28,948 Winnie never stops talking. 158 00:07:28,982 --> 00:07:33,119 And I was a quick study. I mean, I nailed it every time. 159 00:07:37,524 --> 00:07:40,026 Back then I had some help. 160 00:07:40,060 --> 00:07:42,061 From whom? 161 00:07:42,095 --> 00:07:44,096 Oh, my husband Russell. 162 00:07:44,131 --> 00:07:46,933 He's a European history Professor at Columbia, 163 00:07:46,967 --> 00:07:48,701 Kind of a bigwig. 164 00:07:48,735 --> 00:07:51,671 Yeah, he used to get a kick out of running lines with me. 165 00:07:51,705 --> 00:07:54,807 I don't know. Maybe he just liked correcting me. 166 00:07:54,841 --> 00:07:56,742 He used to lie in bed 167 00:07:56,777 --> 00:07:59,612 And I'd pace back and forth around the room. 168 00:07:59,646 --> 00:08:02,381 He was like some kind of academic drill sergeant, 169 00:08:02,416 --> 00:08:05,451 You know, with his glasses down on his nose, 170 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:07,920 Doing these ridiculous voices. 171 00:08:07,955 --> 00:08:10,122 What a ham. 172 00:08:11,725 --> 00:08:13,693 Well, now he's a pig. 173 00:08:13,727 --> 00:08:15,628 So he's not helping you anymore? 174 00:08:15,662 --> 00:08:17,430 Oh, we divorced two years ago. 175 00:08:17,464 --> 00:08:18,698 - Oh. - Yeah. 176 00:08:18,732 --> 00:08:21,167 He was boffing one of his graduate students. 177 00:08:21,201 --> 00:08:23,236 She dumped him six months later. 178 00:08:23,270 --> 00:08:26,405 But it was enough to finish us off. 179 00:08:26,440 --> 00:08:29,308 So how long were you married? 180 00:08:29,343 --> 00:08:31,577 16 years. 181 00:08:31,612 --> 00:08:34,847 That's quite a long run for someone in my business. 182 00:08:34,881 --> 00:08:38,718 And did you and Russell have children? 183 00:08:38,752 --> 00:08:41,587 Izzy... short for Isabel. 184 00:08:41,622 --> 00:08:43,389 She just turned 15. 185 00:08:43,423 --> 00:08:47,026 And how is she coping with the divorce? 186 00:08:47,060 --> 00:08:50,229 Fine, I thought. 187 00:08:50,264 --> 00:08:53,633 I tried to change the custody arrangement 188 00:08:53,667 --> 00:08:55,568 When I got the play. 189 00:08:55,602 --> 00:08:57,536 I mean, usually 190 00:08:57,571 --> 00:09:00,706 We alternate weekends and split up the week. 191 00:09:00,741 --> 00:09:03,209 I just thought she could stay with me 192 00:09:03,243 --> 00:09:05,177 Full-time while I was in rehearsal 193 00:09:05,212 --> 00:09:06,879 Because I'd be home at night. 194 00:09:06,913 --> 00:09:08,748 And then she could go to her father's 195 00:09:08,782 --> 00:09:11,083 When I was in tech and preview. 196 00:09:11,118 --> 00:09:13,119 And she wasn't happy with that? 197 00:09:13,153 --> 00:09:15,221 Somebody wasn't happy with that. 198 00:09:15,255 --> 00:09:19,191 Russell said Izzy felt manipulated by the change. 199 00:09:19,226 --> 00:09:22,128 I said let her speak for herself, right? 200 00:09:22,162 --> 00:09:24,997 Now she's staying with him full-time, 201 00:09:25,032 --> 00:09:27,533 Won't answer my calls. 202 00:09:27,567 --> 00:09:29,402 You sound frustrated. 203 00:09:29,436 --> 00:09:31,437 Yeah well, you have teenage kids. 204 00:09:31,471 --> 00:09:33,205 You know. 205 00:09:36,710 --> 00:09:38,644 Oh, Patricia told me 206 00:09:38,679 --> 00:09:40,613 That you were having babies when she saw you. 207 00:09:40,647 --> 00:09:44,383 So I figure they must be teenagers by now, right? 208 00:09:44,418 --> 00:09:47,653 Okay, so I mean, you get it. 209 00:09:53,760 --> 00:09:56,562 They're little and cute and affectionate. 210 00:09:56,596 --> 00:09:58,564 And then they're gangly and resentful 211 00:09:58,598 --> 00:10:01,834 And they're blasting evil shit about you on Twitter 212 00:10:01,868 --> 00:10:05,104 And silencing their cell phones when you call. 213 00:10:05,138 --> 00:10:06,939 You know, I gave her my old blackberry 214 00:10:06,973 --> 00:10:09,642 And she uses it against me. 215 00:10:09,676 --> 00:10:12,211 What kind of things does she write about you? 216 00:10:12,245 --> 00:10:15,981 Oh, I don't know. I can't do all that social networking stuff. 217 00:10:16,016 --> 00:10:18,184 It's too complicated. 218 00:10:18,218 --> 00:10:20,653 Yeah, I know. I still have problems with email. 219 00:10:20,687 --> 00:10:23,556 Oh no, that isn't what I meant. I'm not a Luddite. 220 00:10:23,590 --> 00:10:25,825 It's just I... it's too public. 221 00:10:25,859 --> 00:10:28,260 I would have to have an alias. 222 00:10:28,295 --> 00:10:30,563 Oh, yes yes. Of course, yes. 223 00:10:30,597 --> 00:10:35,101 Anyway, who knows what she's posting or tweeting? 224 00:10:35,135 --> 00:10:37,436 "my mother the diva 225 00:10:37,471 --> 00:10:40,539 Took another gig and bailed on her responsibilities." 226 00:10:40,574 --> 00:10:41,874 Send. 227 00:10:41,908 --> 00:10:44,810 Do you think that's something that might be true... 228 00:10:44,845 --> 00:10:47,179 That you've bailed on your responsibilities? 229 00:10:47,214 --> 00:10:51,150 That you've chosen career over motherhood? 230 00:10:51,184 --> 00:10:53,586 Not at all. 231 00:10:53,620 --> 00:10:56,889 History is being rewritten by Izzy. 232 00:10:56,923 --> 00:10:59,692 If she only knew how many jobs I passed on 233 00:10:59,726 --> 00:11:04,263 To stay home and what, make her a Halloween costume? 234 00:11:05,198 --> 00:11:08,300 Listen to me. 235 00:11:08,335 --> 00:11:11,370 I sound so... 236 00:11:11,405 --> 00:11:13,139 So what? 237 00:11:13,173 --> 00:11:16,542 You must think I'm a terrible person. 238 00:11:16,576 --> 00:11:20,045 Why would I think that? 239 00:11:22,649 --> 00:11:26,419 Why did I launch into that? 240 00:11:26,453 --> 00:11:29,121 I don't know why I started in on that story. 241 00:11:29,156 --> 00:11:31,457 What were we talking about? 242 00:11:35,395 --> 00:11:37,463 Oh, Izzy. 243 00:11:39,132 --> 00:11:42,468 Yeah, it's not easy 244 00:11:42,502 --> 00:11:46,739 To withstand a child's anger or scorn 245 00:11:46,773 --> 00:11:49,875 And just to be there to love them anyway, 246 00:11:49,910 --> 00:11:52,144 Even when they reject you. 247 00:11:52,179 --> 00:11:54,513 It's very stressful. 248 00:11:54,548 --> 00:11:57,016 I think I can withstand 249 00:11:57,050 --> 00:11:58,984 A lot worse than team Wiskowitz... 250 00:11:59,019 --> 00:12:02,154 That's what I call Russell and Izzy when they gang up on me. 251 00:12:02,189 --> 00:12:04,890 That's his last name and hers. 252 00:12:04,925 --> 00:12:07,293 I took a pass. 253 00:12:07,327 --> 00:12:08,727 Look, 254 00:12:08,762 --> 00:12:12,031 I'm sure you know this from Patricia, 255 00:12:12,065 --> 00:12:15,367 But when our mother was dying 256 00:12:15,402 --> 00:12:17,503 I was doing three or four films a year. 257 00:12:17,537 --> 00:12:20,573 I was under a lot of pressure... 258 00:12:20,607 --> 00:12:22,608 Both personal and professional. 259 00:12:22,642 --> 00:12:27,079 I mean, I would sometimes fly from the set to the hospital 260 00:12:27,113 --> 00:12:30,783 And I would have to be back in makeup by crack of dawn. 261 00:12:30,817 --> 00:12:33,552 I never missed a day... 262 00:12:33,587 --> 00:12:35,988 Not one. 263 00:12:36,022 --> 00:12:38,424 My director friend used to call me t. M.F.C.... 264 00:12:38,458 --> 00:12:40,426 Tough mother fucking cookie. 265 00:12:40,460 --> 00:12:43,162 I can take it. 266 00:12:43,196 --> 00:12:46,198 You must have found work then 267 00:12:46,233 --> 00:12:50,202 To be a useful distraction. 268 00:12:50,237 --> 00:12:52,571 Kept me sane. 269 00:12:52,606 --> 00:12:54,406 Only now it's making me crazy. 270 00:12:54,441 --> 00:12:57,209 But obviously that was a long time ago. 271 00:12:57,244 --> 00:12:59,612 Back then you probably could 272 00:12:59,646 --> 00:13:02,882 Handle the stress, the schedule, the jet lag. 273 00:13:02,916 --> 00:13:05,818 But you were much younger then. 274 00:13:05,852 --> 00:13:08,020 - We were all younger once, Paul. - Yes, I know, but... 275 00:13:08,054 --> 00:13:11,891 Yeah well, I know what you're getting at. And you're wrong. 276 00:13:11,925 --> 00:13:14,126 What am I getting at? 277 00:13:14,160 --> 00:13:16,128 How would you like it if I sat here 278 00:13:16,162 --> 00:13:18,531 Implying things about your aging body? 279 00:13:18,565 --> 00:13:21,734 I mean, certain issues do tend to arise 280 00:13:21,768 --> 00:13:24,503 Or not arise, as the case may be, in men of a certain age. 281 00:13:24,538 --> 00:13:26,238 That is true, yeah. 282 00:13:26,273 --> 00:13:30,075 It's not menopause. 283 00:13:30,110 --> 00:13:32,011 Okay. 284 00:13:32,045 --> 00:13:33,646 Good. 285 00:13:33,680 --> 00:13:37,283 Seems like I've made you angry. 286 00:13:37,317 --> 00:13:40,853 It was interesting earlier on when you talked about that producer... 287 00:13:40,887 --> 00:13:44,023 The one who thought you were too old. 288 00:13:44,057 --> 00:13:46,759 That made you angry too. 289 00:13:46,793 --> 00:13:49,562 Is it a sensitive subject for you? 290 00:13:49,596 --> 00:13:51,664 Oh, it's not for everyone? 291 00:13:51,698 --> 00:13:54,199 Well, it is for most people, yeah. 292 00:13:54,234 --> 00:13:57,570 Look, I'm sure that you're dating some 25-year-old hottie 293 00:13:57,604 --> 00:14:00,806 Who bops home from the gym and bops you into bed, right? 294 00:14:00,840 --> 00:14:04,209 Patricia caught a glimpse of your wife, 295 00:14:04,244 --> 00:14:06,245 But I don't notice a wedding band. 296 00:14:06,279 --> 00:14:08,614 Sounds like you and Patricia talked about me quite a lot. 297 00:14:08,648 --> 00:14:11,984 Does that make you nervous? 298 00:14:12,018 --> 00:14:15,220 Oh, don't worry. She adores you. 299 00:14:15,255 --> 00:14:17,222 She said before she met her husband 300 00:14:17,257 --> 00:14:19,291 You were the most wonderful man she had ever met, 301 00:14:19,326 --> 00:14:20,960 Quote unquote. 302 00:14:20,994 --> 00:14:22,962 Did you know she got married? 303 00:14:22,996 --> 00:14:24,296 No, I didn't. 304 00:14:24,331 --> 00:14:26,966 Yeah, she found someone... Yvan. 305 00:14:27,000 --> 00:14:30,336 They met on some fellowship in France. 306 00:14:30,370 --> 00:14:33,572 They used to finish each other's sentences, 307 00:14:33,607 --> 00:14:35,641 Sometimes in several languages. 308 00:14:35,675 --> 00:14:38,377 Really nice to see her so happy. 309 00:14:38,411 --> 00:14:41,213 But he died, though. 310 00:14:41,247 --> 00:14:44,316 Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. 311 00:14:44,351 --> 00:14:46,251 He had a heart condition. 312 00:14:46,286 --> 00:14:49,054 And she knew this when she married him. 313 00:14:49,089 --> 00:14:51,523 She married him anyway. 314 00:14:51,558 --> 00:14:53,425 That's Patricia... 315 00:14:53,460 --> 00:14:55,894 Unconditional love. 316 00:15:00,734 --> 00:15:04,770 My sister is sick. 317 00:15:04,804 --> 00:15:07,573 She has our mother's disease. 318 00:15:07,607 --> 00:15:10,042 - Breast cancer? - Mm. 319 00:15:11,077 --> 00:15:12,978 What's her prognosis? 320 00:15:13,013 --> 00:15:15,881 Stage iv. 321 00:15:15,915 --> 00:15:18,083 I see. 322 00:15:18,118 --> 00:15:19,785 How long? 323 00:15:19,819 --> 00:15:22,454 I'm not sure. 324 00:15:26,126 --> 00:15:28,160 I wanted to tell you when I called you 325 00:15:28,194 --> 00:15:30,529 And then later when I got here, but I couldn't. 326 00:15:30,563 --> 00:15:32,865 I understand. It's very hard 327 00:15:32,899 --> 00:15:34,500 To say that kind of thing. 328 00:15:34,534 --> 00:15:36,869 Does she have somebody to talk to? 329 00:15:36,903 --> 00:15:39,772 I mean, is she seeing a therapist? 330 00:15:39,806 --> 00:15:41,573 - Patricia? - Yes. 331 00:15:41,608 --> 00:15:43,976 I'm just concerned. 332 00:15:44,010 --> 00:15:47,179 She should be... she should be talking to somebody. 333 00:15:47,213 --> 00:15:49,248 I'm not sure. 334 00:15:49,282 --> 00:15:53,919 Well, death runs in the family. 335 00:15:53,953 --> 00:15:56,655 - What does that mean? - It's a family disease. 336 00:15:56,690 --> 00:15:59,391 If your mother dies of it, watch out. 337 00:15:59,426 --> 00:16:02,261 You're five times more likely to get it yourself. 338 00:16:07,100 --> 00:16:08,834 Are you all right? 339 00:16:08,868 --> 00:16:11,170 Yes yes, I'm fine. 340 00:16:11,204 --> 00:16:14,473 You said it was a family disease. 341 00:16:14,507 --> 00:16:16,875 Yeah, there's a genetic test 342 00:16:16,910 --> 00:16:19,712 For breast cancer... the brca1. 343 00:16:19,746 --> 00:16:21,046 Yes, I know. 344 00:16:21,081 --> 00:16:23,048 Patricia's obsessed with it... 345 00:16:23,083 --> 00:16:25,350 All those miserable statistics. 346 00:16:25,385 --> 00:16:28,187 I finally had a mammogram just to shut her up. 347 00:16:28,221 --> 00:16:31,023 I was 100% clean. But that's not enough for her. 348 00:16:31,057 --> 00:16:33,258 She still wants me to take the test. 349 00:16:33,293 --> 00:16:35,427 She harangues me every time she sees me. 350 00:16:35,462 --> 00:16:37,429 Of course I haven't seen her for close to a month. 351 00:16:37,464 --> 00:16:39,298 I've been so swamped. 352 00:16:39,332 --> 00:16:41,300 Does she still live in Baltimore? 353 00:16:41,334 --> 00:16:43,435 No, she moved here years ago. 354 00:16:43,470 --> 00:16:45,904 She lives just 15 blocks from here. 355 00:16:45,939 --> 00:16:48,907 She hates being sick. 356 00:16:48,942 --> 00:16:50,943 She's so confined. 357 00:16:50,977 --> 00:16:53,278 I mean, she used to be so vibrant. 358 00:16:53,313 --> 00:16:55,013 - You remember. - Sure. 359 00:16:55,048 --> 00:16:57,015 She must have been quite ill 360 00:16:57,050 --> 00:16:59,318 When you started rehearsals. 361 00:16:59,352 --> 00:17:02,354 Yeah well, when I took the play 362 00:17:02,388 --> 00:17:06,058 She was just starting chemo again. 363 00:17:06,092 --> 00:17:08,360 And when I started rehearsals 364 00:17:08,394 --> 00:17:11,163 Well, they had started another round, 365 00:17:11,197 --> 00:17:14,500 But it wasn't working. So they stopped treatment. 366 00:17:16,469 --> 00:17:19,571 Why? Are you joining team Wiskowitz? 367 00:17:19,606 --> 00:17:21,373 You think I shouldn't have taken the play? 368 00:17:21,407 --> 00:17:24,076 No, I just think it's worth looking at the reasons 369 00:17:24,110 --> 00:17:26,178 Why you might have taken the job. 370 00:17:26,212 --> 00:17:29,448 I needed a job. I wanted to take a job. 371 00:17:29,482 --> 00:17:31,884 I hadn't worked in two years. 372 00:17:31,918 --> 00:17:34,086 I hadn't had a decent job in longer than that. 373 00:17:34,120 --> 00:17:35,721 So I grabbed it. 374 00:17:35,755 --> 00:17:38,290 Does that make me a cold-hearted egomaniac? 375 00:17:38,324 --> 00:17:41,026 Look, you've just come through 376 00:17:41,060 --> 00:17:42,995 A difficult divorce; 377 00:17:43,029 --> 00:17:45,531 Your daughter isn't relating to you; 378 00:17:45,565 --> 00:17:47,966 Your sister is sick; 379 00:17:48,001 --> 00:17:50,803 There's a genetic test that you're anxious about... 380 00:17:50,837 --> 00:17:54,139 No, I'm not anxious about the fucking test, okay? 381 00:17:54,174 --> 00:17:56,074 Patricia's the one who's anxious. 382 00:17:56,109 --> 00:17:58,510 Well, I would imagine that the play 383 00:17:58,545 --> 00:18:00,612 Provided a kind of an escape... 384 00:18:00,647 --> 00:18:02,047 Escape? 385 00:18:02,081 --> 00:18:04,082 No, it's the problem, not the solution. 386 00:18:04,117 --> 00:18:05,484 What's the problem? 387 00:18:05,518 --> 00:18:07,920 I'm failing. 388 00:18:07,954 --> 00:18:10,856 Is it possible that some part of you 389 00:18:10,890 --> 00:18:14,793 Might be inclined towards failure? 390 00:18:14,828 --> 00:18:17,796 I mean, people sabotage themselves all the time 391 00:18:17,831 --> 00:18:20,432 For what they think are very good reasons. 392 00:18:20,466 --> 00:18:22,701 Well, that's not me. 393 00:18:22,735 --> 00:18:25,838 You know, earlier you were talking about Izzy 394 00:18:25,872 --> 00:18:29,141 And how angry she is and how she resents you working. 395 00:18:29,175 --> 00:18:32,244 Did you notice during that that you lost your train of thought? 396 00:18:32,312 --> 00:18:33,879 No. 397 00:18:33,913 --> 00:18:36,348 Well, you did. And it was at a moment 398 00:18:36,382 --> 00:18:39,518 When you were judging yourself for being selfish. 399 00:18:39,552 --> 00:18:42,921 I'm just wondering if you're having a similar judgment 400 00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:44,790 About yourself in rehearsal... 401 00:18:44,824 --> 00:18:49,394 You know, about being selfish by being in the play. 402 00:18:49,429 --> 00:18:52,564 My God, did you aggravate Patricia like this? 403 00:18:52,599 --> 00:18:55,067 She said you were supremely supportive. 404 00:18:55,101 --> 00:18:58,303 Well, maybe I've just become more aggravating 405 00:18:58,338 --> 00:19:00,839 In my middle years, yeah. 406 00:19:00,874 --> 00:19:04,376 Or maybe she was a nicer patient. I don't know. 407 00:19:04,410 --> 00:19:07,246 Was she a nicer patient? 408 00:19:07,280 --> 00:19:09,948 What if she was a nicer patient... 409 00:19:09,983 --> 00:19:12,951 A better patient, whatever that might mean? 410 00:19:12,986 --> 00:19:16,121 You know, I think it's interesting 411 00:19:16,155 --> 00:19:18,123 That you chose to see me... 412 00:19:18,157 --> 00:19:20,359 Your sister's former therapist. 413 00:19:20,393 --> 00:19:23,729 Well, as I said, you came highly recommended. 414 00:19:23,763 --> 00:19:25,797 Well, I'm sure that you had recommendations 415 00:19:25,832 --> 00:19:28,133 From a lot of people. 416 00:19:28,167 --> 00:19:29,968 - No. - Did you ask around? 417 00:19:30,003 --> 00:19:31,603 No, not really. 418 00:19:31,638 --> 00:19:33,538 Do you think there might be 419 00:19:33,573 --> 00:19:35,607 Something particular in coming to see me... 420 00:19:35,642 --> 00:19:38,243 Some special understanding that you might hope 421 00:19:38,278 --> 00:19:40,245 To gain about Patricia, 422 00:19:40,280 --> 00:19:42,247 Some insight into her maybe, 423 00:19:42,282 --> 00:19:46,051 Into her relationship with you bef... 424 00:19:46,085 --> 00:19:47,319 What? 425 00:19:47,353 --> 00:19:50,789 Just say it. 426 00:19:56,763 --> 00:19:58,730 It's true. 427 00:19:58,765 --> 00:20:02,100 She's dying... Tricia. 428 00:20:04,570 --> 00:20:06,972 That's the first time I've said it out loud. 429 00:20:14,280 --> 00:20:16,515 Is it time? Because it must be time. 430 00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:18,016 Oh God. 431 00:20:18,051 --> 00:20:22,187 I tell you, rehearsal's gonna be. 432 00:20:22,221 --> 00:20:24,523 So are you on your way to work? 433 00:20:24,557 --> 00:20:26,425 Yes, I am. Wish me luck. 434 00:20:26,459 --> 00:20:27,559 Well, 435 00:20:27,593 --> 00:20:30,629 Break a leg, as they say. 436 00:20:30,663 --> 00:20:33,765 Oh well, save the superstitions for the performance. 437 00:20:33,800 --> 00:20:35,434 This is just a run-through. 438 00:20:35,468 --> 00:20:37,369 Well, good luck with your run-through then. 439 00:20:37,403 --> 00:20:40,939 Tell the truth... do you always buy fresh flowers for the office 440 00:20:40,974 --> 00:20:43,308 Or were you just trying to make a good impression? 441 00:20:43,343 --> 00:20:45,310 I was just passing the bodega 442 00:20:45,345 --> 00:20:49,614 And I thought they'd brighten up the place. 443 00:20:49,649 --> 00:20:51,383 They do. 444 00:20:51,417 --> 00:20:54,686 And just keep an eye when you're rehearsing 445 00:20:54,721 --> 00:20:57,656 If you go up on the lines. 446 00:20:57,690 --> 00:21:00,192 If? 447 00:21:35,528 --> 00:21:37,863 ( dialing ) 448 00:21:49,208 --> 00:21:50,575 Hello. 449 00:21:50,610 --> 00:21:54,713 Um, Dr. Burdick, please. 450 00:21:54,747 --> 00:21:57,616 Paul Weston. 451 00:21:57,650 --> 00:22:01,053 Hey Alan. 452 00:22:01,087 --> 00:22:03,355 How are you? 453 00:22:03,389 --> 00:22:07,392 Yeah yeah, I'm great. 454 00:22:07,427 --> 00:22:10,028 Oh, they're... 455 00:22:10,063 --> 00:22:12,831 Thanks for asking. They're doing really well. 456 00:22:12,865 --> 00:22:16,068 Thank you. And yours? 457 00:22:16,102 --> 00:22:18,603 Great. 458 00:22:22,008 --> 00:22:25,677 Alan, I had... I had a favor to ask. 459 00:22:25,711 --> 00:22:28,246 I was wondering if you could recommend 460 00:22:28,281 --> 00:22:32,150 A good neurologist. 461 00:22:32,185 --> 00:22:35,554 I just... I just have a few questions about... 462 00:22:37,490 --> 00:22:41,393 It's about Parkinson's, just... 463 00:22:42,462 --> 00:22:44,296 Yeah, sure sure. 464 00:22:44,330 --> 00:22:46,465 I'll... I'll hold. 465 00:22:46,499 --> 00:22:48,567 Yeah, sure. 466 00:22:52,305 --> 00:22:54,739 ( theme music playing ) 467 00:22:54,740 --> 00:22:57,895 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com