1 00:00:01,760 --> 00:00:02,943 So do I look familiar? 2 00:00:03,588 --> 00:00:05,023 I don't go to the movies that often. 3 00:00:05,131 --> 00:00:07,683 Oh, no, no. I meant, do I look like my sister? 4 00:00:09,572 --> 00:00:12,147 I think it's interesting that you chose to see me, 5 00:00:12,395 --> 00:00:14,162 your sister's former therapist. 6 00:00:14,763 --> 00:00:15,908 My sister is sick. 7 00:00:16,204 --> 00:00:17,084 Breast cancer? 8 00:00:17,761 --> 00:00:18,456 Stage IV. 9 00:00:19,324 --> 00:00:21,399 Is that how you perceive yourself... 10 00:00:22,288 --> 00:00:23,451 As a former star? 11 00:00:25,168 --> 00:00:26,060 I need help. 12 00:00:26,258 --> 00:00:27,067 With your lines. 13 00:00:27,354 --> 00:00:28,820 I have them down verbatim 14 00:00:28,941 --> 00:00:30,087 and then I go into rehearsal 15 00:00:30,195 --> 00:00:32,036 and wham... They just disappear. 16 00:00:32,226 --> 00:00:34,806 You've just come through a difficult divorce. 17 00:00:35,306 --> 00:00:36,730 I would imagine that the play 18 00:00:36,842 --> 00:00:38,621 provided a kind of an escape. 19 00:00:39,306 --> 00:00:39,841 Escape? 20 00:00:40,372 --> 00:00:42,730 No. It's the problem, not the solution. 21 00:00:42,867 --> 00:00:44,043 What's the problem? 22 00:00:44,187 --> 00:00:45,079 I'm failing. 23 00:01:52,715 --> 00:01:53,718 You look tired. 24 00:01:56,986 --> 00:01:58,580 I'm sorry. I hate that. 25 00:01:59,088 --> 00:01:59,805 Don't ever tell me when I 26 00:01:59,986 --> 00:02:00,877 look like shit 27 00:02:00,978 --> 00:02:01,668 or tired... 28 00:02:03,192 --> 00:02:03,813 Or old. 29 00:02:10,494 --> 00:02:11,386 What's that? 30 00:02:11,982 --> 00:02:12,948 Here, open it. 31 00:02:13,998 --> 00:02:16,738 It's a prompter... an earpiece for aging actors 32 00:02:17,635 --> 00:02:19,488 Who can't remember their lines. 33 00:02:19,837 --> 00:02:22,265 Too bad they don't have something similar for younger actors 34 00:02:22,373 --> 00:02:23,992 Who refuse to learn theirs. 35 00:02:25,309 --> 00:02:28,234 The director wants me to wear it during performances 36 00:02:28,579 --> 00:02:30,099 In case I lose a line. 37 00:02:32,283 --> 00:02:34,074 So how did it go this week? 38 00:02:35,753 --> 00:02:36,953 As to be expected. 39 00:02:37,622 --> 00:02:38,736 Everything's fine, 40 00:02:39,590 --> 00:02:41,086 Sailing along, and then... 41 00:02:43,728 --> 00:02:45,622 But I'm not wearing this fucking thing. 42 00:02:45,730 --> 00:02:47,390 Did you tell that to the director? 43 00:02:47,498 --> 00:02:50,460 I told the director that I am seeing the best psychoanalyst 44 00:02:50,568 --> 00:02:53,129 In New York and that I'm sure I'd be fine. 45 00:02:53,237 --> 00:02:55,866 So now both our reputations are on the line. 46 00:02:56,907 --> 00:02:59,469 So you'd like us to be in this together. 47 00:02:59,577 --> 00:03:00,395 Aren't we? 48 00:03:09,787 --> 00:03:12,392 The stage manager keeps shanghaiing me backstage 49 00:03:13,391 --> 00:03:15,552 To talk about her own memory problems, 50 00:03:15,660 --> 00:03:17,415 Hormone treatments, hot flashes. 51 00:03:18,262 --> 00:03:19,572 She even gave me a book... 52 00:03:19,680 --> 00:03:21,024 "The Wisdom of Menopause." 53 00:03:21,132 --> 00:03:21,864 Thank you. 54 00:03:24,101 --> 00:03:26,348 Oh God. I sound like a spoiled brat. 55 00:03:27,304 --> 00:03:28,833 You must think I'm ridiculous. 56 00:03:28,941 --> 00:03:30,066 Why do you say that? 57 00:03:30,174 --> 00:03:32,368 There's all this frivolous stuff I'm talking about... 58 00:03:32,476 --> 00:03:34,571 Lines and the stage manager. I can't... 59 00:03:34,679 --> 00:03:36,212 Frivolous compared to what? 60 00:03:36,580 --> 00:03:38,107 Last week when you were here 61 00:03:38,215 --> 00:03:40,438 You were worried about seeming frivolous 62 00:03:41,318 --> 00:03:42,740 Compared to your sister. 63 00:03:43,521 --> 00:03:45,707 Tricia doesn't complain about anything. 64 00:03:47,124 --> 00:03:48,866 She faces it all so bravely. 65 00:03:50,027 --> 00:03:51,287 You must think I'm awful. 66 00:03:51,395 --> 00:03:53,753 I must think you're awful or ridiculous 67 00:03:54,832 --> 00:03:55,638 Or whatever. 68 00:03:57,702 --> 00:03:59,358 Last week you were defending 69 00:04:00,705 --> 00:04:02,410 Your decision to take a job 70 00:04:02,673 --> 00:04:04,167 Instead of staying at home. 71 00:04:04,275 --> 00:04:04,734 Yes. 72 00:04:04,842 --> 00:04:08,075 And you said, "does that make me a coldhearted egomaniac?" 73 00:04:08,379 --> 00:04:09,185 Good memory. 74 00:04:11,415 --> 00:04:13,276 Maybe you should play this part. 75 00:04:13,384 --> 00:04:16,179 Why do you use language like that to describe yourself? 76 00:04:16,287 --> 00:04:18,054 Is there some specific response 77 00:04:18,823 --> 00:04:20,725 That you're looking for in me? 78 00:04:21,492 --> 00:04:23,519 I'm sorry I even brought any of this up. 79 00:04:23,627 --> 00:04:24,899 I certainly didn't come here to 80 00:04:25,007 --> 00:04:26,489 talk about Diane the stage manager. 81 00:04:26,597 --> 00:04:28,807 So what are you here to talk about? 82 00:04:33,604 --> 00:04:36,652 Last week, do you remember when just before you left, 83 00:04:37,308 --> 00:04:39,949 I asked you to keep an eye on what happens 84 00:04:40,544 --> 00:04:42,397 During rehearsal when you go up 85 00:04:43,214 --> 00:04:45,190 On your lines? How did that go? 86 00:04:46,584 --> 00:04:48,478 No rhyme or reason that I could see. 87 00:04:48,586 --> 00:04:50,180 One moment I'd be there, 88 00:04:50,387 --> 00:04:53,082 I'd be Maxine. And the next moment I'd be Frances 89 00:04:53,190 --> 00:04:55,785 And I'd be thinking of something else entirely. 90 00:04:55,893 --> 00:04:58,655 I can't tell you where I go when I jump like that. 91 00:04:58,763 --> 00:04:59,823 I don't remember. 92 00:04:59,931 --> 00:05:01,024 I want you to try. 93 00:05:01,132 --> 00:05:02,726 I want you to really try 94 00:05:04,368 --> 00:05:05,174 To remember. 95 00:05:10,474 --> 00:05:13,503 Okay, two days ago I was in the middle of a scene 96 00:05:13,611 --> 00:05:16,548 And I found myself thinking I needed to call Izzy. 97 00:05:16,814 --> 00:05:19,640 So I tried to force myself back into the scene, 98 00:05:19,750 --> 00:05:21,218 But I couldn't remember anything, 99 00:05:21,326 --> 00:05:23,012 didn't know was happening, total blank. 100 00:05:23,120 --> 00:05:25,915 Why do you think you felt this need to talk to Izzy? 101 00:05:26,023 --> 00:05:28,516 I don't know. I wanted to talk to her. 102 00:05:29,393 --> 00:05:31,387 I called Russell later looking for her. 103 00:05:31,495 --> 00:05:32,910 And he told me that Izzy's been 104 00:05:33,018 --> 00:05:34,857 spending all of her time at Patricia's. 105 00:05:34,965 --> 00:05:36,781 Taking care of her, I suppose. 106 00:05:37,301 --> 00:05:38,828 And did you call her there? 107 00:05:38,936 --> 00:05:42,031 I didn't want to intrude. Izzy's always preferred Tricia 108 00:05:42,139 --> 00:05:44,534 And her father over me, which is ironic. 109 00:05:45,242 --> 00:05:45,863 How so? 110 00:05:46,137 --> 00:05:47,403 I met Russell through Tricia. 111 00:05:47,511 --> 00:05:48,625 She introduced us. 112 00:05:49,313 --> 00:05:51,548 She was a graduate student at Columbia 113 00:05:52,817 --> 00:05:54,811 And he was this sort of brilliant 114 00:05:54,919 --> 00:05:55,984 Youngish Professor, 115 00:05:57,021 --> 00:05:59,453 Kind of a star in the history department. 116 00:06:00,591 --> 00:06:02,604 I was 30, sick of dating actors, 117 00:06:03,093 --> 00:06:04,379 And she set us up. 118 00:06:04,595 --> 00:06:07,790 And what did she think you were going to like about him? 119 00:06:07,898 --> 00:06:10,393 Well, he wasn't the best-looking man I'd ever known, 120 00:06:10,501 --> 00:06:12,588 But he was the smartest and funny. 121 00:06:14,071 --> 00:06:15,398 I liked his take on things. 122 00:06:15,506 --> 00:06:16,755 It was a turn-on. 123 00:06:17,141 --> 00:06:19,169 So he excited a part of you that 124 00:06:19,277 --> 00:06:20,896 hadn't been excited before. 125 00:06:21,111 --> 00:06:22,508 I guess that's right. 126 00:06:25,883 --> 00:06:26,812 And he had... 127 00:06:30,554 --> 00:06:31,089 What? 128 00:06:33,090 --> 00:06:34,204 Really good hands. 129 00:06:38,195 --> 00:06:38,878 Physically? 130 00:06:40,097 --> 00:06:40,706 Sexually? 131 00:06:45,002 --> 00:06:47,052 When Russell and I first had sex, 132 00:06:48,505 --> 00:06:50,654 It was completely overwhelming for me. 133 00:06:51,275 --> 00:06:53,970 I hardly knew him and we'd only been out on a few dates, 134 00:06:54,078 --> 00:06:55,327 But I don't know. 135 00:06:55,468 --> 00:06:57,530 I fell so hard in love with him. 136 00:06:58,115 --> 00:06:59,204 And it just all 137 00:06:59,960 --> 00:07:01,148 went really quickly. 138 00:07:02,453 --> 00:07:04,046 I didn't care about getting married 139 00:07:04,154 --> 00:07:05,915 But he did, so we got married. 140 00:07:06,023 --> 00:07:08,652 You mean that you got married to please him? 141 00:07:09,260 --> 00:07:10,965 No no, I was just surprised 142 00:07:11,270 --> 00:07:12,901 by how much he wanted to. 143 00:07:14,465 --> 00:07:17,488 Later on, I did a lot of things to please Russell. 144 00:07:17,768 --> 00:07:18,500 Like what? 145 00:07:20,271 --> 00:07:21,262 Getting pregnant. 146 00:07:23,641 --> 00:07:25,851 Of course, I wanted to be a mother. 147 00:07:26,911 --> 00:07:29,035 Just happened very fast. It had to. 148 00:07:30,147 --> 00:07:30,928 I was 35, 149 00:07:31,731 --> 00:07:32,746 he was 42-43. 150 00:07:34,051 --> 00:07:35,444 So the clock was ticking. 151 00:07:35,552 --> 00:07:39,182 So did you feel that you wanted more time to be alone with him? 152 00:07:39,290 --> 00:07:42,387 Just the two of you? A lot of people feel ambivalent 153 00:07:42,526 --> 00:07:44,921 When they bring a child into a marriage. 154 00:07:45,362 --> 00:07:47,646 They're afraid that it's gonna change 155 00:07:48,632 --> 00:07:50,473 The dynamic of the relationship. 156 00:07:51,168 --> 00:07:52,134 They're right. 157 00:07:52,306 --> 00:07:52,927 Mm-hmm. 158 00:07:53,070 --> 00:07:54,730 When I got pregnant with Izzy, 159 00:07:54,838 --> 00:07:57,972 I was really afraid that he wouldn't want me anymore. 160 00:07:58,509 --> 00:08:00,509 I'd be fat and I'd get sick. 161 00:08:01,745 --> 00:08:02,982 And did he still... 162 00:08:06,116 --> 00:08:06,811 Want you? 163 00:08:07,357 --> 00:08:08,902 Yeah, he still wanted me. 164 00:08:09,253 --> 00:08:11,069 He liked my new pregnant body. 165 00:08:12,656 --> 00:08:13,437 So did I. 166 00:08:14,291 --> 00:08:15,762 Then when Izzy was born 167 00:08:16,593 --> 00:08:18,877 I thought, well, now it'll be ruined. 168 00:08:19,263 --> 00:08:20,352 The sex I mean. 169 00:08:20,731 --> 00:08:22,491 What exactly were you worried about? 170 00:08:22,599 --> 00:08:25,179 Well, that I would be destroyed by childbirth 171 00:08:25,369 --> 00:08:27,964 And that he would be horrified by what he saw. 172 00:08:28,072 --> 00:08:30,766 Were you in the room when your children were born? 173 00:08:30,874 --> 00:08:31,755 So you know. 174 00:08:31,863 --> 00:08:33,901 I mean, women tear themselves apart 175 00:08:34,778 --> 00:08:36,101 To push a baby out. 176 00:08:36,413 --> 00:08:38,870 I just turned into this screaming, bleeding, 177 00:08:39,583 --> 00:08:40,537 Sweating animal. 178 00:08:41,285 --> 00:08:43,027 I thought I'd never recover, 179 00:08:43,520 --> 00:08:45,287 I would be permanently damaged. 180 00:08:45,456 --> 00:08:47,272 But you did. You did recover. 181 00:08:47,864 --> 00:08:48,596 Of course. 182 00:08:49,026 --> 00:08:51,320 The female body is remarkable, don't you think? 183 00:08:51,428 --> 00:08:52,973 And did he lose interest? 184 00:08:53,697 --> 00:08:55,168 No, he still wanted me. 185 00:08:55,632 --> 00:08:57,179 He used to come in and take 186 00:08:57,287 --> 00:08:59,295 pictures of me when I was nursing. 187 00:08:59,403 --> 00:09:01,133 He thought I looked beautiful. 188 00:09:01,338 --> 00:09:02,765 And did you feel beautiful? 189 00:09:02,873 --> 00:09:04,689 No, I felt fat, not beautiful. 190 00:09:06,110 --> 00:09:07,076 But then later 191 00:09:08,178 --> 00:09:09,772 I really got to love it. 192 00:09:10,581 --> 00:09:12,779 That feeling of my breasts filling up 193 00:09:13,017 --> 00:09:14,684 And that was what she needed. 194 00:09:16,420 --> 00:09:17,657 I mean, that little 195 00:09:18,539 --> 00:09:19,690 beautiful warm head 196 00:09:20,691 --> 00:09:22,248 In the crook of my arm, 197 00:09:22,926 --> 00:09:24,274 What could be sweeter? 198 00:09:24,695 --> 00:09:26,006 So you felt important 199 00:09:27,164 --> 00:09:28,512 When you were nursing. 200 00:09:29,433 --> 00:09:31,532 No, I felt like I had a purpose. 201 00:09:34,905 --> 00:09:36,068 Then she grew up. 202 00:09:37,074 --> 00:09:38,779 Well, they tend to do that. 203 00:09:40,944 --> 00:09:41,479 Yeah. 204 00:09:43,047 --> 00:09:44,444 But now it seems that 205 00:09:46,083 --> 00:09:48,441 You feel Izzy doesn't need you anymore. 206 00:09:49,153 --> 00:09:51,047 She hasn't needed me for a long time. 207 00:09:51,155 --> 00:09:53,821 Well, she's a teenager. It's fairly ordinary. 208 00:09:54,291 --> 00:09:57,240 No, but she pushed away from me a long time ago. 209 00:09:57,561 --> 00:10:00,288 She hasn't needed me since she was 6 or 7. 210 00:10:00,964 --> 00:10:03,259 You said that you felt that she'd always 211 00:10:03,367 --> 00:10:05,097 Preferred your husband to you. 212 00:10:05,436 --> 00:10:07,018 Yeah, daddy's little girl. 213 00:10:08,138 --> 00:10:10,841 And now you feel like they're coming together, 214 00:10:11,809 --> 00:10:12,960 United against you. 215 00:10:13,410 --> 00:10:14,327 Team Wiskowitz. 216 00:10:16,513 --> 00:10:17,048 Look... 217 00:10:18,982 --> 00:10:20,810 I lost Izzy a long time ago. 218 00:10:22,986 --> 00:10:24,174 But Russell, that... 219 00:10:25,189 --> 00:10:26,943 That was a bit of a shock. 220 00:10:29,893 --> 00:10:31,241 When did you separate? 221 00:10:33,130 --> 00:10:35,143 Two years ago. He had an affair. 222 00:10:35,432 --> 00:10:37,460 Yes, you said, with one of his students. 223 00:10:37,568 --> 00:10:39,347 Oh God, what a cliché, huh? 224 00:10:41,305 --> 00:10:42,308 I was faithful. 225 00:10:43,373 --> 00:10:45,558 I had a lot of jobs out of town. 226 00:10:46,243 --> 00:10:48,195 Many opportunities, but I resisted. 227 00:10:48,812 --> 00:10:51,214 He had to go and piss all over everything. 228 00:10:57,087 --> 00:10:59,849 Can I tell you something that I haven't told anyone? 229 00:10:59,957 --> 00:11:00,492 Sure. 230 00:11:04,895 --> 00:11:07,807 I haven't had sex since Russell and I broke up. 231 00:11:09,733 --> 00:11:11,217 You must think I'm pathetic. 232 00:11:11,325 --> 00:11:12,328 There you go again. 233 00:11:12,436 --> 00:11:12,971 What? 234 00:11:13,248 --> 00:11:14,719 What I think about you. 235 00:11:14,905 --> 00:11:16,832 That I must think this or I must think that. 236 00:11:16,940 --> 00:11:19,729 Are you hoping that maybe I'll agree with you? 237 00:11:22,613 --> 00:11:24,940 Would you like to tell me about this period 238 00:11:25,048 --> 00:11:25,928 Of abstinence? 239 00:11:27,518 --> 00:11:29,026 Well, everyone knows that a 240 00:11:29,134 --> 00:11:30,901 virgin has the best complexion. 241 00:11:31,021 --> 00:11:32,763 So it's an aesthetic choice. 242 00:11:33,857 --> 00:11:35,057 No. I just figure, 243 00:11:36,860 --> 00:11:38,405 Really, what's the point? 244 00:11:38,929 --> 00:11:40,289 You know, at my age? 245 00:11:41,064 --> 00:11:42,264 Here's the kicker. 246 00:11:44,201 --> 00:11:46,719 Guess who's getting laid, or is about to? 247 00:11:47,137 --> 00:11:47,672 Izzy. 248 00:11:48,032 --> 00:11:49,232 She tell you that? 249 00:11:49,406 --> 00:11:51,382 She doesn't talk to me anymore. 250 00:11:54,444 --> 00:11:56,223 I've been reading her emails. 251 00:11:57,047 --> 00:11:58,629 I hacked into her account. 252 00:11:59,483 --> 00:12:01,706 Well, no, that sounds too sophisticated. 253 00:12:01,919 --> 00:12:03,304 I guessed her password. 254 00:12:04,421 --> 00:12:06,865 Do you really think that's the best way 255 00:12:07,424 --> 00:12:09,240 To get close to your daughter? 256 00:12:11,261 --> 00:12:12,744 She won't talk to me. 257 00:12:13,197 --> 00:12:16,158 How would you like it if your kids stopped talking to you? 258 00:12:16,266 --> 00:12:18,956 I don't know what's going on in her life. 259 00:12:19,403 --> 00:12:20,960 She says she's in love. 260 00:12:21,104 --> 00:12:23,117 You don't think that's possible? 261 00:12:24,041 --> 00:12:26,682 She's 15. I mean, a crush maybe, but love? 262 00:12:27,110 --> 00:12:28,766 And this boy, this miller... 263 00:12:29,513 --> 00:12:31,957 That's his first name... he's a junior. 264 00:12:32,516 --> 00:12:34,743 What's he doing, messing around with a freshman? 265 00:12:34,851 --> 00:12:37,279 He's writing her love letters, you know, quoting poetry. 266 00:12:37,387 --> 00:12:39,671 It's not bad poetry... e.E. Cummings, 267 00:12:40,924 --> 00:12:42,987 William Carlos Williams, Pablo Neruda. 268 00:12:43,594 --> 00:12:45,016 Sounds kind of romantic. 269 00:12:45,996 --> 00:12:46,913 Innocent, even. 270 00:12:47,864 --> 00:12:50,124 "flower of fire... Swollen fruit raised"? 271 00:12:50,567 --> 00:12:51,533 That's Neruda. 272 00:12:53,503 --> 00:12:55,122 Yeah, not so innocent, huh? 273 00:12:56,306 --> 00:12:58,861 Do you feel then that he's pressuring her? 274 00:12:59,376 --> 00:13:01,697 Just the opposite. He says he'll wait. 275 00:13:02,079 --> 00:13:04,474 They have time. He loves her, blah blah. 276 00:13:05,215 --> 00:13:06,970 That sounds mature, responsible. 277 00:13:07,317 --> 00:13:09,378 No, it sounds devious and Machiavellian. 278 00:13:09,486 --> 00:13:12,488 He wants to get in her pants. You have a daughter. 279 00:13:15,626 --> 00:13:18,194 Patricia remembers when your daughter was born. 280 00:13:18,528 --> 00:13:21,357 You had a big bouquet of pink roses out in the office. 281 00:13:21,465 --> 00:13:23,383 She said you could hardly contain 282 00:13:23,491 --> 00:13:24,894 yourself, you were so happy. 283 00:13:25,002 --> 00:13:25,537 Yeah. 284 00:13:26,903 --> 00:13:28,140 We called her Rosie 285 00:13:29,206 --> 00:13:30,923 So we got a lot of roses. 286 00:13:32,309 --> 00:13:34,069 You should've called her Ruby. 287 00:13:34,177 --> 00:13:35,180 We should have. 288 00:13:38,649 --> 00:13:39,972 She must be 18 now. 289 00:13:43,987 --> 00:13:46,348 Don't you worry about her getting pregnant? 290 00:13:46,456 --> 00:13:48,284 Or H.I.V. Or genital warts? 291 00:13:48,792 --> 00:13:51,220 Do you know that 70% of sexually active kids 292 00:13:51,328 --> 00:13:53,088 Carry this virus? It's an epidemic. 293 00:13:53,196 --> 00:13:54,618 I hadn't heard that statistic. 294 00:13:54,726 --> 00:13:55,624 That's my point. 295 00:13:55,732 --> 00:13:58,194 Who is this boy? She won't talk to me. 296 00:13:58,302 --> 00:14:00,035 She won't tell me anything about him. 297 00:14:00,143 --> 00:14:01,230 She just talks to Tricia. 298 00:14:01,338 --> 00:14:03,332 Well, it makes a lot of sense, don't you think? 299 00:14:03,440 --> 00:14:05,761 Did you talk to your mother about sex? 300 00:14:07,678 --> 00:14:09,186 Fine. I see your point. 301 00:14:12,382 --> 00:14:13,459 Trish and Izzy... 302 00:14:14,051 --> 00:14:15,362 They even look alike. 303 00:14:16,687 --> 00:14:18,885 Those big brown eyes blinking at you. 304 00:14:19,122 --> 00:14:21,603 You remember? They're two peas in a pod. 305 00:14:22,459 --> 00:14:24,078 And again, you're excluded. 306 00:14:24,895 --> 00:14:26,711 When Tricia had her chemo Izzy 307 00:14:26,898 --> 00:14:28,628 shaved her head in solidarity. 308 00:14:28,932 --> 00:14:30,326 Now she keeps on shaving it. 309 00:14:30,434 --> 00:14:32,718 She looks like a big-eyed bald alien. 310 00:14:33,770 --> 00:14:35,007 You find her alien? 311 00:14:35,205 --> 00:14:37,033 Don't read too much into it. 312 00:14:37,607 --> 00:14:38,142 Okay. 313 00:14:38,583 --> 00:14:40,756 Well, can I read a little into it? 314 00:14:42,779 --> 00:14:44,915 In what ways is she alien to you? 315 00:14:45,949 --> 00:14:48,177 What is about her besides her bald head 316 00:14:48,285 --> 00:14:50,286 That makes her seem so unfamiliar? 317 00:14:52,289 --> 00:14:54,536 The truth is, the way she looks now, 318 00:14:56,226 --> 00:14:59,520 It's exactly the way she looked when I was nursing her. 319 00:15:02,099 --> 00:15:04,420 Patricia couldn't have kids of her own 320 00:15:05,535 --> 00:15:06,858 And now she's sick. 321 00:15:08,004 --> 00:15:09,475 And I'm jealous anyway. 322 00:15:11,775 --> 00:15:12,310 Still. 323 00:15:14,010 --> 00:15:16,405 I begrudge her the one pleasure she has, 324 00:15:17,013 --> 00:15:18,829 Which is time with my daughter 325 00:15:18,982 --> 00:15:20,330 While she's suffering. 326 00:15:26,123 --> 00:15:28,370 I had the worst thought the other DA 327 00:15:29,659 --> 00:15:30,317 Tell me. 328 00:15:31,528 --> 00:15:33,889 No, Izzy's spending all of her time with Tricia. 329 00:15:33,997 --> 00:15:36,191 She hardly even takes my calls and when she does, 330 00:15:36,299 --> 00:15:39,507 She just guilt trips me about not being there for Trish 331 00:15:39,936 --> 00:15:41,333 Or being in the play. 332 00:15:43,273 --> 00:15:43,857 Go on. 333 00:15:48,078 --> 00:15:48,884 I thought... 334 00:15:51,948 --> 00:15:53,875 That maybe when Tricia's gone... 335 00:15:57,120 --> 00:15:59,367 Izzy will let me back into her life. 336 00:16:00,056 --> 00:16:02,303 You know, that she'll be mine again. 337 00:16:02,759 --> 00:16:04,760 Like when she was a little girl. 338 00:16:06,363 --> 00:16:09,103 Do you feel that Patricia has usurped your role 339 00:16:09,499 --> 00:16:10,662 As Izzy's mother? 340 00:16:11,501 --> 00:16:14,623 Do you feel that Patricia has usurped Izzy prefers her. 341 00:16:14,771 --> 00:16:16,205 Tricia's better at it. 342 00:16:16,573 --> 00:16:18,426 Yet because your sister's sick, 343 00:16:18,542 --> 00:16:20,839 You punish yourself for feeling resentful. 344 00:16:27,951 --> 00:16:30,586 Have you spoken to Patricia about any of this? 345 00:16:33,190 --> 00:16:35,314 Have you spoken to Patricia at all? 346 00:16:36,726 --> 00:16:38,123 Yeah, once to say hi. 347 00:16:41,565 --> 00:16:44,206 And did she tell you that she and I spoke? 348 00:16:49,039 --> 00:16:49,574 When? 349 00:16:50,540 --> 00:16:52,233 I called her last Wednesday. 350 00:16:54,077 --> 00:16:55,671 The day after I came in. 351 00:17:00,050 --> 00:17:01,102 May I ask why? 352 00:17:01,751 --> 00:17:03,278 I just wanted to see how she was doing. 353 00:17:03,386 --> 00:17:05,581 I told her I heard she'd been ill, 354 00:17:05,689 --> 00:17:07,800 But I didn't say how I'd heard. 355 00:17:10,060 --> 00:17:11,839 She told me about the cancer. 356 00:17:12,596 --> 00:17:15,357 And I asked her if she had the support she needed 357 00:17:15,465 --> 00:17:17,493 And if she was seeing a therapist. 358 00:17:17,601 --> 00:17:18,764 What did she say? 359 00:17:19,645 --> 00:17:20,266 She is. 360 00:17:20,904 --> 00:17:22,326 See? Everything's fine. 361 00:17:23,607 --> 00:17:25,029 No conflict of interest. 362 00:17:29,179 --> 00:17:31,278 Did you tell her that I came in? 363 00:17:32,549 --> 00:17:34,180 I didn't mention you, no. 364 00:17:35,886 --> 00:17:38,013 And neither did she, which I thought was odd. 365 00:17:38,121 --> 00:17:39,703 Because last week you said 366 00:17:40,957 --> 00:17:43,266 That Patricia had recommended me to you. 367 00:17:44,861 --> 00:17:47,613 You said you'd asked her permission to see me 368 00:17:48,098 --> 00:17:50,234 And that she had given it to you. 369 00:17:51,902 --> 00:17:52,714 Didn't say that. 370 00:17:52,822 --> 00:17:53,825 You implied it. 371 00:17:54,004 --> 00:17:55,297 You led me to believe that. 372 00:17:55,405 --> 00:17:58,267 You certainly did nothing to correct my misconception. 373 00:17:58,375 --> 00:17:59,606 You're trying to trap me. 374 00:17:59,714 --> 00:18:00,335 Trap you? 375 00:18:00,443 --> 00:18:01,976 That sounds very conniving. 376 00:18:02,712 --> 00:18:04,667 What, do you want to catch me in a lie? 377 00:18:04,775 --> 00:18:06,115 Did I catch you in a lie? 378 00:18:12,756 --> 00:18:14,690 I was afraid you wouldn't treat me. 379 00:18:21,164 --> 00:18:23,128 For your therapy to be effective, 380 00:18:23,600 --> 00:18:25,810 It's important that we be as honest 381 00:18:26,236 --> 00:18:27,904 As we can with each other. 382 00:18:28,471 --> 00:18:29,585 Do you understand? 383 00:18:29,913 --> 00:18:30,645 All right. 384 00:18:35,478 --> 00:18:36,296 I'm sorry. 385 00:18:40,717 --> 00:18:43,999 God, it sounds like we're in a relationship or something. 386 00:18:44,187 --> 00:18:45,581 Therapy is a relationship. 387 00:18:45,689 --> 00:18:48,946 You're getting the short end of the stick on this one. 388 00:18:49,125 --> 00:18:49,660 Why? 389 00:18:51,494 --> 00:18:53,778 Well, all the crazy, none of the sex. 390 00:18:58,735 --> 00:18:59,787 I'll tell her. 391 00:19:01,104 --> 00:19:02,526 Before the next session. 392 00:19:03,139 --> 00:19:04,179 Okay, I promise. 393 00:19:06,843 --> 00:19:07,378 Okay. 394 00:19:11,581 --> 00:19:14,062 So do you know that if you test positive 395 00:19:14,551 --> 00:19:17,312 For the brca1 and your mother and your sister had breast cancer, 396 00:19:17,420 --> 00:19:20,098 You have a 90% chance that you'll get sick? 397 00:19:20,624 --> 00:19:22,784 This is the test Patricia's been wanting you to take. 398 00:19:22,892 --> 00:19:26,121 And it's one of the reasons why you've been avoiding seeing her. 399 00:19:26,229 --> 00:19:27,614 I made the appointment, 400 00:19:28,031 --> 00:19:29,970 So she can stop nagging me now. 401 00:19:30,567 --> 00:19:32,260 You know what they recommend 402 00:19:33,370 --> 00:19:35,457 If you test positive for the gene? 403 00:19:36,239 --> 00:19:37,489 Prophylactic mastectomy. 404 00:19:38,108 --> 00:19:41,156 That's removing both your breasts before you're sick. 405 00:19:41,277 --> 00:19:43,364 Doesn't matter what the result is. 406 00:19:43,913 --> 00:19:46,000 I'm not gonna have that operation. 407 00:19:46,549 --> 00:19:48,747 You wouldn't ever consider having it? 408 00:19:49,352 --> 00:19:50,966 My sister had to have mastectomies. 409 00:19:51,074 --> 00:19:51,980 She had cancer. 410 00:19:52,088 --> 00:19:54,216 The doctor said that was her best chance. 411 00:19:54,324 --> 00:19:56,985 She never thought about it. She had them removed. 412 00:19:57,093 --> 00:19:58,854 She never even had the reconstruction. 413 00:19:58,962 --> 00:20:01,086 She said it made her feel powerful, 414 00:20:01,297 --> 00:20:03,655 You know, to be herself, scars and all. 415 00:20:04,768 --> 00:20:05,771 Oh, it looks... 416 00:20:07,937 --> 00:20:08,472 What? 417 00:20:12,676 --> 00:20:15,737 Izzy and I went to see her when she came home from the hospital. 418 00:20:15,845 --> 00:20:18,203 She really wanted to show us her chest. 419 00:20:18,882 --> 00:20:21,178 I wanted to say no, but I couldn't. 420 00:20:24,554 --> 00:20:26,333 She just lifted up her shirt. 421 00:20:27,424 --> 00:20:29,031 There was horizontal slashes. 422 00:20:29,993 --> 00:20:32,203 I mean, I only looked for a second. 423 00:20:32,696 --> 00:20:34,660 Of course, Izzy scolded me later. 424 00:20:35,231 --> 00:20:36,658 She said, "mom, it's just skin." 425 00:20:36,766 --> 00:20:38,237 But I couldn't breathe. 426 00:20:39,569 --> 00:20:41,311 So I'd better test negative. 427 00:20:47,043 --> 00:20:49,241 If my life had been different, right? 428 00:20:50,113 --> 00:20:52,656 You know, if Russell would have stayed or... 429 00:20:54,451 --> 00:20:57,546 Couples, I think, get closer when stuff like this happens. 430 00:20:57,654 --> 00:20:58,386 But alone? 431 00:20:59,456 --> 00:20:59,991 51. 432 00:21:04,694 --> 00:21:06,165 Who would ever want me? 433 00:21:07,197 --> 00:21:08,902 How could they even see me? 434 00:21:12,202 --> 00:21:13,476 You know, would you? 435 00:21:20,944 --> 00:21:21,762 I'm sorry. 436 00:21:22,412 --> 00:21:24,806 I know I'm not supposed to ask you things like that. 437 00:21:24,914 --> 00:21:26,151 I didn't... just... 438 00:21:31,354 --> 00:21:32,049 You've... 439 00:21:34,157 --> 00:21:36,182 You've had a great deal of loss 440 00:21:37,894 --> 00:21:38,786 All at once. 441 00:21:39,729 --> 00:21:41,262 Russell, Izzy, now Patricia 442 00:21:42,699 --> 00:21:44,934 And the threat of losing your breasts, 443 00:21:46,136 --> 00:21:48,962 A part of your body that's erotic and maternal. 444 00:21:49,439 --> 00:21:51,800 And that comes at a time just as Izzy herself 445 00:21:51,908 --> 00:21:54,032 Is just starting to become a woman. 446 00:22:03,887 --> 00:22:07,181 Do you think I could just sit here a little bit longer? 447 00:22:09,159 --> 00:22:09,694 Thanks. 448 00:22:18,301 --> 00:22:19,932 How long do I have about? 449 00:22:26,009 --> 00:22:26,741 All right. 450 00:22:31,548 --> 00:22:32,206 Come on. 451 00:22:40,857 --> 00:22:41,589 Thank you. 452 00:22:44,828 --> 00:22:47,923 You don't tell anybody that I come to see you, right? 453 00:22:48,031 --> 00:22:48,997 Of course not. 454 00:22:49,583 --> 00:22:50,475 Good. Don't. 455 00:22:51,167 --> 00:22:51,936 Our secret. 456 00:22:52,415 --> 00:22:52,950 Thanks.