1 00:00:02,565 --> 00:00:04,129 How did it go this week? 2 00:00:04,217 --> 00:00:05,945 I told the director that I'm seeing the best 3 00:00:06,017 --> 00:00:08,920 psychoanalyst in New York and that I'm sure I'll be fine. 4 00:00:09,057 --> 00:00:11,240 So you'd like us to be in this together? 5 00:00:11,425 --> 00:00:12,512 Aren't we? 6 00:00:14,722 --> 00:00:18,417 Do you feel that Patricia has usurped your role as Izzy's mother? 7 00:00:18,530 --> 00:00:20,570 I lost Izzy a long time ago. 8 00:00:20,721 --> 00:00:21,737 But Russell, that... 9 00:00:21,833 --> 00:00:22,929 That was a bit of a shock. 10 00:00:23,123 --> 00:00:24,154 When did you separate? 11 00:00:24,249 --> 00:00:26,208 Two years ago. He had an affair. 12 00:00:26,322 --> 00:00:30,353 Las week you said Patricia had recommended, me to you. 13 00:00:30,552 --> 00:00:32,337 What, do you want to catch me in a lie? 14 00:00:32,425 --> 00:00:33,818 Did I catch you in a lie? 15 00:00:33,961 --> 00:00:38,354 It's important that we be as honest as we can with each other. 16 00:00:38,760 --> 00:00:39,625 I'll tell her. 17 00:00:50,744 --> 00:00:53,246 - ( alarm beeping ) - ( Wendy moans ) 18 00:00:53,280 --> 00:00:56,449 Too early. Need to sleep. 19 00:00:56,483 --> 00:01:00,019 Max is gonna be up in 15 minutes. 20 00:01:00,054 --> 00:01:02,555 I'll make him breakfast. 21 00:01:02,589 --> 00:01:05,291 I make really nice waffles. 22 00:01:08,228 --> 00:01:11,397 You... you've got to get going. 23 00:01:11,432 --> 00:01:13,700 I know, I know. I'm going. 24 00:01:15,736 --> 00:01:17,737 You been up a while? 25 00:01:17,771 --> 00:01:20,039 ( sighs ) 26 00:01:20,074 --> 00:01:22,642 You had another rough night? 27 00:01:22,676 --> 00:01:25,545 I'd say average. 28 00:01:25,579 --> 00:01:28,481 I stopped trying to sleep around 5:00 29 00:01:28,515 --> 00:01:31,217 And then I just got up and read. 30 00:01:31,251 --> 00:01:33,886 I'm sorry, sweetie. 31 00:01:37,191 --> 00:01:38,925 I know you hate when I tell you this, 32 00:01:38,959 --> 00:01:41,861 But you should sleep a lot better if you had some exercise 33 00:01:41,895 --> 00:01:44,330 Because they're directly linked. 34 00:01:44,365 --> 00:01:46,366 And you know, it doesn't have to be yoga. 35 00:01:46,400 --> 00:01:48,101 It could be anything. 36 00:01:48,135 --> 00:01:50,103 A bike ride or it could be... 37 00:01:50,137 --> 00:01:52,939 - Can I ask you something? - Yeah. 38 00:01:52,973 --> 00:01:54,941 Do you think that I have 39 00:01:54,975 --> 00:01:57,877 A happiness deficit? 40 00:01:59,980 --> 00:02:04,050 I mean, when was the last time that you saw me 41 00:02:04,084 --> 00:02:08,221 And I seemed genuinely happy to you? 42 00:02:10,657 --> 00:02:12,291 Is this because of the book? 43 00:02:12,326 --> 00:02:14,327 Because I keep telling you to stop reading it 44 00:02:14,361 --> 00:02:15,928 'cause it's making you a little crazy. 45 00:02:15,963 --> 00:02:17,597 No, it's not because of the book. 46 00:02:17,631 --> 00:02:20,566 Somebody asked me and I was thinking about it, that's all. 47 00:02:20,601 --> 00:02:21,968 Someone who? 48 00:02:22,002 --> 00:02:24,103 Somebody. It doesn't matter. Not important. 49 00:02:24,138 --> 00:02:26,305 Okay, and they're saying what to you? 50 00:02:26,340 --> 00:02:28,608 That you are having trouble being happy? 51 00:02:28,642 --> 00:02:30,510 More or less. 52 00:02:30,544 --> 00:02:32,311 I'm just... 53 00:02:32,346 --> 00:02:36,049 I'm just asking your opinion. 54 00:02:37,718 --> 00:02:39,585 My opinion? 55 00:02:47,928 --> 00:02:49,996 Not when you're with me. 56 00:03:02,142 --> 00:03:04,110 Wendy, I... 57 00:03:09,349 --> 00:03:11,884 ( theme music playing ) 58 00:03:16,057 --> 00:03:20,844 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 59 00:03:33,173 --> 00:03:35,241 ( knocking on door ) 60 00:03:39,780 --> 00:03:41,747 - ( sighs ) - ( knocking ) 61 00:03:57,364 --> 00:03:59,365 Ahem. 62 00:04:01,835 --> 00:04:05,238 I was beginning to think I had the wrong day. 63 00:04:05,272 --> 00:04:06,906 Oh, uh... 64 00:04:06,940 --> 00:04:09,242 Come in, please. 65 00:04:13,580 --> 00:04:16,249 Sorry about that. I, uh... 66 00:04:18,452 --> 00:04:20,786 I was just finishing off something. 67 00:04:20,821 --> 00:04:23,489 Oh. 68 00:04:26,760 --> 00:04:28,861 Went to see Patricia yesterday 69 00:04:28,896 --> 00:04:32,031 To talk to her about, you know, this... about you. 70 00:04:32,065 --> 00:04:35,134 Ask her permission to see you. 71 00:04:35,169 --> 00:04:37,470 And what did she say? 72 00:04:37,504 --> 00:04:40,306 Fine. She said it's fine. 73 00:04:41,642 --> 00:04:43,376 You gonna call her? 74 00:04:43,410 --> 00:04:45,511 I really don't think that's... 75 00:04:45,546 --> 00:04:47,513 Oh, you believe me. 76 00:04:47,548 --> 00:04:49,415 Of course. 77 00:04:49,449 --> 00:04:52,084 So you're not gonna double-check, 78 00:04:52,119 --> 00:04:53,886 You know, when we're done just to make sure? 79 00:04:53,921 --> 00:04:56,923 Well, I don't really need to talk to her. 80 00:04:58,559 --> 00:05:02,061 I don't have any intention of talking to her. 81 00:05:02,095 --> 00:05:03,596 She is sick, you know. 82 00:05:03,630 --> 00:05:05,831 She might appreciate you just checking in. 83 00:05:05,866 --> 00:05:08,701 Okay. So you've given me a choice. 84 00:05:08,735 --> 00:05:12,605 I could check in with your sister and make you jealous, 85 00:05:12,639 --> 00:05:14,674 Or I could ignore her and make you angry. 86 00:05:14,708 --> 00:05:17,476 Well, I'm already jealous and angry. 87 00:05:19,079 --> 00:05:20,546 Here. 88 00:05:20,581 --> 00:05:22,648 Found this at Trish's. 89 00:05:22,683 --> 00:05:24,550 It's Izzy's. 90 00:05:24,585 --> 00:05:26,452 Her favorite. 91 00:05:26,486 --> 00:05:29,355 And you borrowed it? 92 00:05:29,389 --> 00:05:31,490 My daughter still won't talk to me. 93 00:05:31,525 --> 00:05:34,660 And she has dinner with my sister every night. 94 00:05:34,695 --> 00:05:37,597 They make soup. 95 00:05:37,631 --> 00:05:39,332 Every week it's a different soup. 96 00:05:39,366 --> 00:05:41,500 Last night was cream of broccoli. 97 00:05:41,535 --> 00:05:43,135 ( chuckles ) God. 98 00:05:43,170 --> 00:05:46,205 When I think of me making soup for Izzy 99 00:05:46,240 --> 00:05:48,074 When she was home sick with a cold or something, 100 00:05:48,108 --> 00:05:49,542 I mean, d open a can. 101 00:05:49,576 --> 00:05:52,545 And I never remembered to add the extra water in. 102 00:05:52,579 --> 00:05:55,181 ( chuckles ) 103 00:05:56,250 --> 00:05:59,218 It still smells like Izzy. 104 00:05:59,253 --> 00:06:02,288 I took it as an excuse to see my daughter. 105 00:06:02,322 --> 00:06:04,857 I thought maybe I could return it to her. 106 00:06:06,526 --> 00:06:08,361 God, I don't even know what I'm doing here. 107 00:06:08,395 --> 00:06:11,864 You know, I should be somewhere working on my lines. 108 00:06:11,898 --> 00:06:14,400 Tonight is the first night of previews. 109 00:06:14,434 --> 00:06:18,204 I'm thinking of inviting Patricia to opening night. 110 00:06:19,806 --> 00:06:22,441 Although... If she's up to it, I don't know... 111 00:06:22,476 --> 00:06:23,776 She probably won't come. 112 00:06:23,810 --> 00:06:26,178 Why do you say that? 113 00:06:26,213 --> 00:06:29,048 'cause she doesn't like parties or premieres. 114 00:06:29,082 --> 00:06:31,150 She likes p.B.S. And soup. 115 00:06:31,184 --> 00:06:33,586 Well, you could ask her. 116 00:06:33,620 --> 00:06:36,822 And she could simply say no if she had to. 117 00:06:36,857 --> 00:06:38,891 It's not her thing. 118 00:06:38,925 --> 00:06:41,594 She's seen all my movies. I mean, the major ones. 119 00:06:41,628 --> 00:06:44,130 She just doesn't make a fuss. 120 00:06:44,164 --> 00:06:46,465 Does she withhold her praise? 121 00:06:46,500 --> 00:06:48,534 She withholds my daughter, all right? 122 00:06:48,568 --> 00:06:50,303 I... 123 00:06:50,337 --> 00:06:52,238 I was at Trish's. 124 00:06:52,272 --> 00:06:54,774 She got cold and I went to get her a robe 125 00:06:54,808 --> 00:06:56,442 And this is hanging on a hook. 126 00:06:56,476 --> 00:06:59,245 She's hiding it from me. 127 00:06:59,279 --> 00:07:01,314 I mean, Izzy forgot it, 128 00:07:01,348 --> 00:07:03,482 But Trish knew I'd be upset if I saw it. 129 00:07:03,517 --> 00:07:05,785 So I smuggled it out. 130 00:07:05,819 --> 00:07:08,454 I didn't want a confrontation. I just left there. 131 00:07:08,488 --> 00:07:10,890 A confrontation about Izzy? 132 00:07:10,924 --> 00:07:14,226 About Izzy and... you know, she's one-track with me. 133 00:07:14,261 --> 00:07:17,763 She just can't stop talking about the brca1. 134 00:07:17,798 --> 00:07:21,334 And did you tell her that you'd made the appointment for the test? 135 00:07:21,368 --> 00:07:23,469 No, I didn't want to open those floodgates. 136 00:07:23,503 --> 00:07:26,472 She's always preaching surgery statistics. 137 00:07:26,506 --> 00:07:27,707 She torments me. 138 00:07:27,741 --> 00:07:29,942 Did you take the test? 139 00:07:31,511 --> 00:07:33,612 Are you worried about me? 140 00:07:38,452 --> 00:07:40,319 On Friday as scheduled. 141 00:07:40,354 --> 00:07:42,254 I'm still waiting for the results. 142 00:07:42,289 --> 00:07:45,291 The way you describe Patricia... 143 00:07:45,325 --> 00:07:48,027 That she's preachy, 144 00:07:48,061 --> 00:07:50,529 She torments you... 145 00:07:50,564 --> 00:07:54,200 I think you seem to take her anxiety as a form of aggression. 146 00:07:54,234 --> 00:07:56,702 I think it could also be 147 00:07:56,737 --> 00:07:58,938 A sign of love. 148 00:07:58,972 --> 00:08:01,240 No, she's punishing me. 149 00:08:01,274 --> 00:08:05,077 Punishing you? Punishing you for what? 150 00:08:07,047 --> 00:08:10,082 We were opposites, you know, growing up. 151 00:08:10,117 --> 00:08:13,152 Our mother used to call us "beauty and the brain." 152 00:08:13,186 --> 00:08:15,988 She was the star student 153 00:08:16,022 --> 00:08:19,358 And I was the star. 154 00:08:19,393 --> 00:08:22,161 Did she tell you something differently when she was in therapy? 155 00:08:22,195 --> 00:08:25,531 You seem to care a lot about what people think about you... 156 00:08:25,565 --> 00:08:29,201 Me, Izzy, Tricia. 157 00:08:31,438 --> 00:08:35,040 What do you think Patricia is punishing you for? 158 00:08:44,117 --> 00:08:46,485 When Tricia was at Johns Hopkins 159 00:08:46,520 --> 00:08:49,088 She was on a scholarship. 160 00:08:49,122 --> 00:08:50,890 I was in New York, you know, 161 00:08:50,924 --> 00:08:53,526 Just finding a little bit of success. 162 00:08:54,728 --> 00:08:57,363 She called all excited. She had news. 163 00:08:57,397 --> 00:09:00,466 She had gotten cast in a play. 164 00:09:00,500 --> 00:09:02,902 Clifford Odets' "the country girl." 165 00:09:02,936 --> 00:09:04,270 Mm-hmm. 166 00:09:04,304 --> 00:09:06,639 She had auditioned on a whim 167 00:09:06,673 --> 00:09:09,108 And gotten the lead. 168 00:09:09,142 --> 00:09:10,876 The title role. 169 00:09:10,911 --> 00:09:13,345 - You sound surprised. - I was totally surprised. 170 00:09:13,380 --> 00:09:16,415 I never knew she was even interested in such a thing... 171 00:09:16,450 --> 00:09:17,650 Acting or the theater. 172 00:09:17,684 --> 00:09:19,785 I mean, it was sweet. She was sweet. 173 00:09:19,820 --> 00:09:22,655 Her enthusiasm, she thought it was so easy. 174 00:09:22,689 --> 00:09:24,590 Do you remember who played the role in the movie? 175 00:09:24,624 --> 00:09:27,193 - Grace Kelly. - Grace Kelly, exactly. 176 00:09:27,227 --> 00:09:30,196 So Trish was this cast, 177 00:09:30,230 --> 00:09:32,765 To say the least. 178 00:09:32,799 --> 00:09:35,801 But it was college, 179 00:09:35,836 --> 00:09:38,270 And she really wanted me to come and see it. 180 00:09:38,305 --> 00:09:41,273 So how was that for you? 181 00:09:41,308 --> 00:09:44,477 Well, it was terribly earnest, but she was fine. 182 00:09:44,511 --> 00:09:47,813 Actually, she was one of the better performances. 183 00:09:47,848 --> 00:09:50,149 We went out to dinner afterwards 184 00:09:50,183 --> 00:09:52,551 And she was so excited, you know? 185 00:09:52,586 --> 00:09:55,387 So grateful that I had come. 186 00:09:56,823 --> 00:09:59,058 She wanted to tell me her news. 187 00:09:59,092 --> 00:10:01,360 She wanted to tell me that she had always thought 188 00:10:01,394 --> 00:10:04,730 About being an actress like me. 189 00:10:06,132 --> 00:10:08,167 But she had never had the courage to try, 190 00:10:08,201 --> 00:10:10,302 And now she was getting all this wonderful attention, you know, 191 00:10:10,337 --> 00:10:13,105 From the school newspaper, her classmates, whatever. 192 00:10:13,139 --> 00:10:16,642 And she was thinking that she would really take some acting courses. 193 00:10:16,676 --> 00:10:18,677 Maybe even transferring colleges, 194 00:10:18,712 --> 00:10:21,213 Coming to N.Y.U. To be closer to me. 195 00:10:21,248 --> 00:10:24,416 And she wanted to know what I thought of this idea. 196 00:10:24,451 --> 00:10:27,219 You know, did I think she had the talent? 197 00:10:27,254 --> 00:10:29,255 Should she change course? 198 00:10:29,289 --> 00:10:31,824 So she was asking your advice as an older sister? 199 00:10:31,858 --> 00:10:33,392 - Yes. - Yeah. 200 00:10:36,796 --> 00:10:39,365 And I gave it. Yeah. 201 00:10:39,399 --> 00:10:42,201 I told her no. 202 00:10:42,235 --> 00:10:44,570 "you don't have it." 203 00:10:46,139 --> 00:10:48,173 Just become a lawyer like you planned. 204 00:10:48,208 --> 00:10:51,277 "Don't be an actress. Don't waste your time." 205 00:10:55,015 --> 00:10:57,049 I mean... 206 00:10:57,083 --> 00:11:00,319 I thought I owed her an honest response. 207 00:11:00,353 --> 00:11:03,188 You know? You should not be an actor 208 00:11:03,223 --> 00:11:05,524 Unless you cannot bear to do anything else. 209 00:11:05,559 --> 00:11:07,593 It's just too fucking hard. 210 00:11:07,627 --> 00:11:09,895 And she had no idea how hard it was. 211 00:11:09,930 --> 00:11:13,699 And what was her reaction to that? 212 00:11:13,733 --> 00:11:15,601 She was pretty quiet. 213 00:11:15,635 --> 00:11:17,703 She looked crushed. 214 00:11:17,737 --> 00:11:20,139 So as a result of that, 215 00:11:20,173 --> 00:11:22,107 She never pursued acting. 216 00:11:22,142 --> 00:11:25,077 She never did another play again. 217 00:11:25,111 --> 00:11:27,746 Did you feel that you were responsible for... 218 00:11:27,781 --> 00:11:31,550 I could have encouraged her a little bit more, don't you think? 219 00:11:31,585 --> 00:11:33,919 She did ask you for your opinion. 220 00:11:33,954 --> 00:11:36,989 An honest opinion and you gave it. 221 00:11:40,226 --> 00:11:42,761 Sounds like you and Patricia 222 00:11:42,796 --> 00:11:46,565 Had very distinct identities in the family. 223 00:11:46,600 --> 00:11:50,603 "the beauty and the brain. " 224 00:11:50,637 --> 00:11:53,472 Did your mother, do you feel, cast you in... 225 00:11:53,506 --> 00:11:55,641 Listen, when I first started to come here 226 00:11:55,675 --> 00:11:57,176 I made myself one promise... 227 00:11:57,210 --> 00:11:59,378 That no matter what other troubles we unveiled, 228 00:11:59,412 --> 00:12:01,947 I would not blame my mother, so... 229 00:12:01,982 --> 00:12:04,149 But it's not about blame. 230 00:12:04,184 --> 00:12:07,186 Fine, then you can stop pointing your finger at my mother. 231 00:12:11,625 --> 00:12:14,660 It seems to me that you might be a little... 232 00:12:17,530 --> 00:12:20,199 Is that kind of a sensitive subject for you? 233 00:12:20,233 --> 00:12:23,636 Maybe because of the relationship 234 00:12:23,670 --> 00:12:24,970 You have with Izzy? 235 00:12:25,005 --> 00:12:27,106 Isabel. 236 00:12:27,140 --> 00:12:28,941 Her full name is Isabel. 237 00:12:28,975 --> 00:12:30,476 I mean, she's named after my mother. 238 00:12:30,510 --> 00:12:32,811 I always thought it was a beautiful name. Glamorous. 239 00:12:32,846 --> 00:12:34,680 Not like my name... Frances. 240 00:12:34,714 --> 00:12:36,849 I asked my mother, "why did you name me Frances?" 241 00:12:36,883 --> 00:12:38,317 She said, "oh, don't you know? 242 00:12:38,351 --> 00:12:40,152 I named you after Frances farmer." 243 00:12:40,186 --> 00:12:43,055 - Hmm, the actress. - Yes. 244 00:12:43,089 --> 00:12:45,891 - Did you see the movie? - Yes. 245 00:12:45,925 --> 00:12:49,228 Yeah, Frances. Well, what happens to her? 246 00:12:49,262 --> 00:12:51,697 - They institutionalize her. - She has a lobotomy. 247 00:12:51,731 --> 00:12:54,033 And who put her in the asylum? 248 00:12:54,067 --> 00:12:55,934 - Her mother. - Right. 249 00:12:55,969 --> 00:12:59,772 I called my mother from the lobby on a pay phone after I saw the film. 250 00:12:59,806 --> 00:13:02,675 I said, "mother, how could you name me after her? 251 00:13:02,709 --> 00:13:04,276 She had such a horrible life." 252 00:13:04,310 --> 00:13:06,178 - And you know what she said? - What? 253 00:13:06,212 --> 00:13:08,147 "but she was so beautiful." 254 00:13:08,181 --> 00:13:10,683 So being beautiful 255 00:13:10,717 --> 00:13:12,584 Was important to your mother, yeah? 256 00:13:12,619 --> 00:13:14,920 I mean, she was beautiful. 257 00:13:14,954 --> 00:13:17,623 - Your mother? - Yes. 258 00:13:17,657 --> 00:13:19,792 People used to say that I looked like her, 259 00:13:19,826 --> 00:13:22,361 But I didn't think so. 260 00:13:22,395 --> 00:13:25,164 She had, I don't know, 261 00:13:25,198 --> 00:13:27,232 A delicate beauty, you know? 262 00:13:27,267 --> 00:13:29,401 A natural grace. 263 00:13:42,282 --> 00:13:44,249 This is Isabel, 1970. 264 00:13:45,785 --> 00:13:48,087 She carried that picture around till the day she died. 265 00:13:48,121 --> 00:13:51,256 She liked to show people how she looked in all her glory. 266 00:13:51,291 --> 00:13:52,591 Um-hmm. 267 00:13:53,660 --> 00:13:56,662 She's a very striking woman. 268 00:13:58,231 --> 00:14:00,199 Trish thinks it's perverse that I carry 269 00:14:00,233 --> 00:14:02,501 This particular shot around with me. 270 00:14:02,535 --> 00:14:04,269 She says it looks so posed. 271 00:14:04,304 --> 00:14:08,173 She thought just because mother is obsessed with her looks 272 00:14:08,208 --> 00:14:10,109 Doesn't mean you have to be too. 273 00:14:10,143 --> 00:14:12,444 And was she obsessed with her looks? 274 00:14:12,479 --> 00:14:14,346 Not at all. 275 00:14:14,380 --> 00:14:16,148 I mean, I understand it, you know, 276 00:14:16,182 --> 00:14:18,717 Wanting to hold on a little bit. 277 00:14:18,752 --> 00:14:20,953 I was so critical of my looks when I was young. 278 00:14:20,987 --> 00:14:23,489 Every little flaw. 279 00:14:23,523 --> 00:14:26,091 Now I look at images from that time and I think, 280 00:14:26,126 --> 00:14:28,393 "God, who is that gorgeous girl?" 281 00:14:28,428 --> 00:14:30,863 You want to own it. 282 00:14:30,897 --> 00:14:33,565 You want to feel that way inside. 283 00:14:33,600 --> 00:14:36,568 I like to remember my mother just like this. 284 00:14:36,603 --> 00:14:39,938 Not the way she looked at the end in the hospital. 285 00:14:42,175 --> 00:14:46,578 Her skin got so translucent it looked almost blue. 286 00:14:46,613 --> 00:14:48,814 You know, she was so little and frail 287 00:14:48,848 --> 00:14:50,849 She looked like a tiny bird. 288 00:14:50,884 --> 00:14:52,851 Even at the end, she still wanted 289 00:14:52,886 --> 00:14:55,621 To have her hair done every week. 290 00:14:55,655 --> 00:14:58,123 So she her... she had her pride, 291 00:14:58,158 --> 00:14:59,558 Her vanity. 292 00:14:59,592 --> 00:15:01,260 Vanity? 293 00:15:01,294 --> 00:15:04,263 Well, yeah, maybe that's not the right word. 294 00:15:04,297 --> 00:15:07,733 She still wanted to look her best. 295 00:15:07,767 --> 00:15:09,301 That's what I meant. 296 00:15:09,335 --> 00:15:11,203 I don't know what you're talking about. 297 00:15:11,237 --> 00:15:12,738 Well, you told me that your mother 298 00:15:12,772 --> 00:15:15,107 Always wore her signature red lipstick. 299 00:15:15,141 --> 00:15:17,943 That even in the hospital as she was dying, 300 00:15:17,977 --> 00:15:20,779 She'd sit up and she would ask you 301 00:15:20,814 --> 00:15:23,882 To come and do her face. 302 00:15:23,917 --> 00:15:26,585 I never told you that. 303 00:15:26,619 --> 00:15:29,121 You never told me that? 304 00:15:29,155 --> 00:15:31,757 Her lipstick, we used to call it the "cherry." 305 00:15:31,791 --> 00:15:35,861 It was a classic... Maybelline cherry red. 306 00:15:39,599 --> 00:15:41,533 I barely mentioned my mother here. 307 00:15:41,568 --> 00:15:44,803 I certainly never said anything that specific. 308 00:15:44,838 --> 00:15:47,840 Tricia told you that. 309 00:15:47,874 --> 00:15:49,541 Maybe. Maybe you're right. 310 00:15:49,576 --> 00:15:50,876 Of course I'm right. 311 00:15:50,910 --> 00:15:53,245 She told you that all those years ago. 312 00:15:53,279 --> 00:15:55,514 You heard it and you have never forgotten it. 313 00:15:55,548 --> 00:15:57,649 Honestly, I don't know why 314 00:15:57,684 --> 00:16:00,185 That particular detail came into my head. 315 00:16:00,220 --> 00:16:02,387 I apologize if it upsets you. 316 00:16:02,422 --> 00:16:04,489 I don't want to be confused with my sister. 317 00:16:04,524 --> 00:16:08,360 Are you thinking about her, what she told you, while I'm talking? 318 00:16:08,394 --> 00:16:12,231 - No, I... - because she has her own version of things. 319 00:16:12,265 --> 00:16:15,701 You know, "vain"? That's what she chooses to call our dying mother? 320 00:16:15,735 --> 00:16:17,669 I don't know that that's what she actually said. 321 00:16:17,704 --> 00:16:20,372 I was shooting a movie. I was going back and forth to the set. 322 00:16:20,406 --> 00:16:23,475 I was killing myself. And my mother's lipstick, 323 00:16:23,509 --> 00:16:25,143 That's what she remembers? 324 00:16:25,178 --> 00:16:27,813 Honestly, I don't think that that's all she remembers. 325 00:16:27,847 --> 00:16:30,215 Yeah, well, what else did she say? What? 326 00:16:30,250 --> 00:16:32,084 Did she call me weak? 327 00:16:32,118 --> 00:16:34,386 Did she say I couldn't handle it? 328 00:16:34,420 --> 00:16:37,256 Because I wanted to help. 329 00:16:37,290 --> 00:16:40,492 But Tricia wouldn't let me. She did everything. 330 00:16:40,526 --> 00:16:42,995 She practically moved into the hospital. 331 00:16:45,131 --> 00:16:48,267 At night, you know, I would want to read to my mother 332 00:16:48,301 --> 00:16:50,269 Because she loved mysteries. 333 00:16:50,303 --> 00:16:52,371 But no, Tricia said, "let her rest," 334 00:16:52,405 --> 00:16:54,439 And sent me back to the hotel 335 00:16:54,474 --> 00:16:55,774 While she stayed. 336 00:16:55,808 --> 00:16:58,243 - Stayed at the... - stayed in the hospital. 337 00:16:58,278 --> 00:17:02,180 I mean, Tricia thought I was useless. 338 00:17:02,215 --> 00:17:05,517 One morning I had to leave very early. 339 00:17:05,551 --> 00:17:08,487 I had to get back to the set and I wanted to kiss my mother goodbye. 340 00:17:08,521 --> 00:17:11,490 And I came to the hospital early 341 00:17:11,524 --> 00:17:13,292 And I went to the room 342 00:17:13,326 --> 00:17:15,527 And I saw Tricia. 343 00:17:15,561 --> 00:17:17,963 She had climbed up in bed with mama 344 00:17:17,997 --> 00:17:19,731 And she had her arm around her. 345 00:17:19,766 --> 00:17:23,402 They were lying in the bed. 346 00:17:23,436 --> 00:17:26,271 Is that what you called her when you were a little girl? 347 00:17:26,306 --> 00:17:27,773 Mama? 348 00:17:29,976 --> 00:17:34,012 Well, my daddy died when I was five. 349 00:17:34,047 --> 00:17:36,915 Trish was one. 350 00:17:36,950 --> 00:17:39,718 Our mother used to cry all night. 351 00:17:39,752 --> 00:17:42,454 And she would come into the bedroom and... 352 00:17:44,324 --> 00:17:47,859 She would take Trish out of the crib 353 00:17:47,894 --> 00:17:50,796 And take her back to bed with her to sleep. 354 00:17:54,400 --> 00:17:58,270 I was wide awake, but she would choose Tricia every time. 355 00:17:59,605 --> 00:18:02,341 It must have been very painful. 356 00:18:02,375 --> 00:18:05,043 Well, Tricia didn't know what was going on. 357 00:18:07,447 --> 00:18:11,016 Can you see how your sister became the nurturer, 358 00:18:11,050 --> 00:18:13,251 The caretaker almost by accident 359 00:18:13,286 --> 00:18:17,255 Because she was cast in that role by your mother? 360 00:18:17,290 --> 00:18:19,558 Later on when you were older, 361 00:18:19,592 --> 00:18:21,827 She asked your advice about becoming an actress. 362 00:18:21,861 --> 00:18:24,529 Oh, back to that. No, the truth is 363 00:18:24,564 --> 00:18:26,631 That Tricia was wonderful in that play. 364 00:18:26,666 --> 00:18:29,334 She was really good. 365 00:18:30,470 --> 00:18:33,005 But I never had the generosity 366 00:18:33,039 --> 00:18:34,473 To let her know so. 367 00:18:34,507 --> 00:18:36,875 U can still tell her. It's not too late. 368 00:18:36,909 --> 00:18:39,845 You can still make amends. 369 00:18:39,879 --> 00:18:42,714 I don't want to talk anymore. 370 00:18:42,749 --> 00:18:44,483 I've talked enough today. 371 00:18:44,517 --> 00:18:46,418 Okay. 372 00:18:46,452 --> 00:18:50,122 But you know what could be helpful, actually? 373 00:18:50,156 --> 00:18:52,858 If you could just read this with me, 374 00:18:52,892 --> 00:18:55,027 That would be great. 375 00:18:56,729 --> 00:18:59,097 Isn't this what you used to do with Russell? 376 00:18:59,132 --> 00:19:01,033 Don't worry. I'm not confusing you with Russell. 377 00:19:01,067 --> 00:19:03,735 Russell was an asshole. You actually, 378 00:19:03,770 --> 00:19:06,038 You know, make me feel calm. 379 00:19:06,072 --> 00:19:09,508 I thought I aggravated you most of the time. 380 00:19:09,542 --> 00:19:13,178 So, uh, just read this part. 381 00:19:14,313 --> 00:19:17,649 You know what? We... I'm sorry. 382 00:19:21,354 --> 00:19:23,088 Ah, you're not gonna do it. 383 00:19:23,122 --> 00:19:24,890 I understand that you're anxious. 384 00:19:24,924 --> 00:19:27,726 No, you understand but you won't help me. 385 00:19:27,760 --> 00:19:29,628 I would like to help you. 386 00:19:29,662 --> 00:19:31,596 - I just don't think that it's appropriate... - I know. 387 00:19:31,631 --> 00:19:34,099 - Well, I just won't do anything. - Frances. 388 00:19:34,133 --> 00:19:38,070 What? I'm about to be embarrassed in front of 1200 people. 389 00:19:38,104 --> 00:19:40,005 I have no one in my life who's willing to help me, 390 00:19:40,039 --> 00:19:42,207 And that obviously includes you. 391 00:19:47,580 --> 00:19:49,214 ( door slams ) 392 00:19:51,851 --> 00:19:53,919 ( sighs ) 393 00:20:11,370 --> 00:20:13,638 ( theme music playing ) 394 00:20:13,639 --> 00:20:17,420 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com