1 00:00:04,274 --> 00:00:05,113 She came... 2 00:00:05,634 --> 00:00:06,799 Just like you wanted. 3 00:00:10,249 --> 00:00:11,520 So Jesse... What happened? 4 00:00:11,617 --> 00:00:12,641 He got beat up at school. 5 00:00:12,728 --> 00:00:13,481 Was it Nate? 6 00:00:13,600 --> 00:00:15,778 He was like... "Meet me in the men's room". 7 00:00:15,865 --> 00:00:17,936 Just kept hitting me and hitting me. 8 00:00:18,073 --> 00:00:20,768 They said maybe if he talked to a professional person... 9 00:00:20,818 --> 00:00:23,737 Don't sweat it. I'll be out your head long before all that. 10 00:00:23,888 --> 00:00:25,866 - Where is your royal highness going? - To Westchester. 11 00:00:25,929 --> 00:00:27,377 - Why not Paris? - Because Karen doesn't 12 00:00:27,449 --> 00:00:28,689 - live in Paris. - Who is Karen? 13 00:00:28,785 --> 00:00:29,793 My birth mother! 14 00:00:29,888 --> 00:00:32,713 She called me and she wants me back! 15 00:00:32,833 --> 00:00:35,506 I think you're terriffyied that they are gonna pull away... 16 00:00:35,617 --> 00:00:37,545 You saw her leave. 17 00:00:37,600 --> 00:00:38,833 Where do you imagine she went? 18 00:00:38,962 --> 00:00:39,848 I bet she's at church's. 19 00:00:40,001 --> 00:00:44,105 She's like begging the priest to take her back as we speak. 20 00:01:13,261 --> 00:01:18,635 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 21 00:01:34,659 --> 00:01:36,727 So how was your week? 22 00:01:36,762 --> 00:01:38,863 Kind of weird. 23 00:01:42,334 --> 00:01:44,902 - Are you looking for something? - Yeah. 24 00:01:51,076 --> 00:01:52,810 I got a letter this week... 25 00:01:52,844 --> 00:01:55,112 in the mail. 26 00:01:55,147 --> 00:01:58,616 That hasn't happened to me since my grandparents were alive. 27 00:01:58,650 --> 00:02:00,718 Can I ask you who it from? 28 00:02:00,752 --> 00:02:02,653 My birth father. 29 00:02:05,824 --> 00:02:08,592 Are you okay? 30 00:02:10,796 --> 00:02:12,496 I'm sorry. 31 00:02:12,531 --> 00:02:15,666 It's... it's an allergy. 32 00:02:19,271 --> 00:02:21,105 I'm sorry. So this... 33 00:02:22,974 --> 00:02:24,408 This letter. 34 00:02:26,378 --> 00:02:29,780 - Yeah. - When did it arrive? 35 00:02:29,815 --> 00:02:31,782 A few days ago. 36 00:02:31,817 --> 00:02:34,852 Well, I'd love to know what it says. 37 00:02:37,689 --> 00:02:40,024 He says he married my birth mother. 38 00:02:42,527 --> 00:02:44,662 That's a bit of a shock. 39 00:02:44,696 --> 00:02:47,665 Uh, yeah, tell me about it. 40 00:02:47,699 --> 00:02:49,633 He says 41 00:02:49,668 --> 00:02:52,837 they got pregnant with me when they were, like, 17. 42 00:02:52,871 --> 00:02:54,371 17. 43 00:02:54,406 --> 00:02:56,507 They split up for a while 44 00:02:56,541 --> 00:02:59,310 and then they got back together after college 45 00:02:59,344 --> 00:03:01,512 and now they're married. 46 00:03:08,320 --> 00:03:11,689 It says 47 00:03:11,723 --> 00:03:14,925 he's writing on her behalf... Karen's. 48 00:03:14,960 --> 00:03:16,527 Says she doesn't know about it. 49 00:03:16,561 --> 00:03:18,462 He says she's really depressed right now 50 00:03:18,497 --> 00:03:22,366 because I haven't responded to her phone call 51 00:03:22,400 --> 00:03:24,034 and it's almost my birthday 52 00:03:24,069 --> 00:03:27,271 and she always gets really depressed around my birthday. 53 00:03:29,975 --> 00:03:31,876 Anyway, he wants me to write back 54 00:03:31,910 --> 00:03:34,545 and say, like, yes, I'll be in contact with you 55 00:03:34,579 --> 00:03:36,280 or no, go fuck yourselves. 56 00:03:38,283 --> 00:03:40,184 I'm paraphrasing. 57 00:03:47,259 --> 00:03:49,527 He says he loves me. 58 00:03:53,031 --> 00:03:55,566 What a fucking retard. 59 00:03:59,471 --> 00:04:02,840 I think they might be kind of assholes, these people. 60 00:04:06,711 --> 00:04:08,312 Guess what else? 61 00:04:09,848 --> 00:04:12,816 I'm getting a "b" in algebra. 62 00:04:12,851 --> 00:04:16,253 A "b"? That's... that's great. 63 00:04:16,288 --> 00:04:18,822 A "b" is a fucking miracle. 64 00:04:18,857 --> 00:04:21,158 We have to take these multiple-choice tests 65 00:04:21,193 --> 00:04:23,994 because my teacher Mr. Nelson 66 00:04:24,029 --> 00:04:26,130 is, like, too lazy to grade a fucking... 67 00:04:26,164 --> 00:04:28,199 anyway, it doesn't matter. The point is, 68 00:04:28,233 --> 00:04:30,467 he puts the answer sheets through these machines 69 00:04:30,502 --> 00:04:32,169 and they come out the other end. 70 00:04:32,204 --> 00:04:35,439 Usually if there are a lot of mistakes it takes a really long time 71 00:04:35,473 --> 00:04:37,908 and the machine makes all these beeping noises. 72 00:04:37,943 --> 00:04:41,045 Mine just kind of zipped out the other end. 73 00:04:42,881 --> 00:04:45,549 Mr. Nelson looked shocked. 74 00:04:45,584 --> 00:04:48,552 Did you study for this test? 75 00:04:48,587 --> 00:04:50,821 Yeah, why? 76 00:04:50,855 --> 00:04:53,390 Then not such a miracle really. 77 00:04:55,694 --> 00:04:57,261 Roberto helped me. 78 00:04:59,497 --> 00:05:01,899 He helped you study? 79 00:05:04,436 --> 00:05:06,770 So you must have told him about being suspended. 80 00:05:06,805 --> 00:05:09,373 What? Oh yeah. 81 00:05:09,407 --> 00:05:12,943 - And how did he take that? - It was no big deal. 82 00:05:14,980 --> 00:05:18,816 Last week you seemed really nervous about telling him. 83 00:05:18,850 --> 00:05:21,151 You were afraid that he might become violent. 84 00:05:21,186 --> 00:05:23,787 That was a joke. Jesus, why am I the only one 85 00:05:23,822 --> 00:05:25,389 with a sense of humor around here? 86 00:05:25,423 --> 00:05:29,393 Okay, but I still think that you were nervous about how he would react. 87 00:05:29,427 --> 00:05:32,630 Fine. I was, I guess. 88 00:05:32,664 --> 00:05:35,266 But he was cool. 89 00:05:35,300 --> 00:05:37,134 He can be cool. 90 00:05:41,706 --> 00:05:44,241 Did you talk to him about what happened at the Whitney? 91 00:05:44,276 --> 00:05:46,777 - Yup. - And about Nate? 92 00:05:46,811 --> 00:05:50,147 I told him that Nate kicked the shit out of me, yes. 93 00:05:50,181 --> 00:05:52,950 - And did you tell him why? - 'Cause I'm gay. 94 00:05:54,486 --> 00:05:57,955 Did you tell him that you and Nate were... 95 00:05:59,824 --> 00:06:02,993 that Nate was, um... 96 00:06:03,028 --> 00:06:06,497 did you tell him that Nate was fellating you? 97 00:06:06,531 --> 00:06:09,166 What? Um... 98 00:06:09,200 --> 00:06:12,569 Do you have a merriam-Webster dictionary around here? 99 00:06:13,972 --> 00:06:16,373 I'm sorry, I just... I don't know what that word means. 100 00:06:16,408 --> 00:06:18,909 Oh, come on, Jesse. You know very well what the word means. 101 00:06:18,943 --> 00:06:22,880 No, Paul, I did not tell my father that Nate was sucking my dick. 102 00:06:22,914 --> 00:06:24,648 - Why not? - Why would I? 103 00:06:24,683 --> 00:06:26,150 Do you think he wants to know? 104 00:06:26,184 --> 00:06:28,719 I mean, would you want to know if your kid... 105 00:06:28,753 --> 00:06:30,788 you had no problem telling your mother. 106 00:06:30,822 --> 00:06:33,490 - That's different. - And why is that? 107 00:06:33,525 --> 00:06:36,927 Can't you just leave it alone? 108 00:06:36,961 --> 00:06:39,063 Can't it just be a nice thing 109 00:06:39,097 --> 00:06:42,299 that my dad helped me study and I got a "b"? 110 00:06:42,334 --> 00:06:44,401 It is a nice thing, Jesse. Yes. 111 00:06:44,436 --> 00:06:48,372 He's really good at math, my dad. 112 00:06:48,406 --> 00:06:50,574 He must have been proud of that "b." 113 00:06:50,608 --> 00:06:52,810 Yeah. I mean, he would have rather it was an "a," 114 00:06:52,844 --> 00:06:54,945 but sure. 115 00:06:58,083 --> 00:07:00,150 So can we go back 116 00:07:00,185 --> 00:07:02,920 to your birth father's letter for a moment? 117 00:07:02,954 --> 00:07:05,522 If you want. 118 00:07:05,557 --> 00:07:09,026 So... so what's his name? 119 00:07:09,060 --> 00:07:12,663 Um, Kevin. 120 00:07:14,432 --> 00:07:16,066 Kevin and Karen. 121 00:07:16,101 --> 00:07:17,868 God, that's pathetic, right? 122 00:07:17,902 --> 00:07:21,171 Last week you told Marisa that you were gonna live with Karen. 123 00:07:21,206 --> 00:07:25,075 This week your attitude towards her seems to have changed. 124 00:07:27,245 --> 00:07:30,147 I just think it's really inappropriate of him to contact me. 125 00:07:30,181 --> 00:07:32,683 - Inappropriate? - Yeah. I mean, what the fuck? 126 00:07:32,717 --> 00:07:34,318 I'm a minor, for Christ's sake. 127 00:07:34,352 --> 00:07:36,687 What they're doing is illegal. 128 00:07:36,721 --> 00:07:39,189 I mean, they gave me up. 129 00:07:39,224 --> 00:07:40,991 They didn't want me. 130 00:07:41,025 --> 00:07:43,427 And, like, now that somebody else has raised me 131 00:07:43,461 --> 00:07:47,931 for 17 years and, like, fed me and clothed me 132 00:07:47,966 --> 00:07:49,867 and kept me alive and everything... 133 00:07:49,901 --> 00:07:51,602 now suddenly they want back in? 134 00:07:51,636 --> 00:07:53,604 No, sorry. That is not how it works. 135 00:07:53,638 --> 00:07:55,305 And how do you think it works? 136 00:07:55,340 --> 00:07:57,708 People have one set of parents. One. 137 00:07:57,742 --> 00:08:00,711 Not two. And I've already got mine. 138 00:08:00,745 --> 00:08:05,349 But do you think Karen and Kevin really want to be your parents? 139 00:08:05,383 --> 00:08:07,418 Isn't it possible that they might be looking 140 00:08:07,452 --> 00:08:09,987 for some other kind of relationship? 141 00:08:10,021 --> 00:08:12,189 - Like what? - Like friendship. 142 00:08:12,223 --> 00:08:15,859 Maybe they just want to get to know you. 143 00:08:19,097 --> 00:08:21,932 Do your parents know that you got a letter from Kevin? 144 00:08:21,966 --> 00:08:23,534 I wrote a response. 145 00:08:23,568 --> 00:08:27,271 - Do you want to hear it? - Sure. 146 00:08:38,483 --> 00:08:41,151 "Dear Kevin, 147 00:08:41,186 --> 00:08:44,955 thank you for contacting me regarding my origins. 148 00:08:46,591 --> 00:08:49,726 I apologize for causing Karen pain 149 00:08:49,761 --> 00:08:52,463 and I understand your request. 150 00:08:52,497 --> 00:08:55,365 However, I think you should know 151 00:08:55,400 --> 00:08:57,935 that Karen's call caused significant distress 152 00:08:57,969 --> 00:08:59,770 to my adoptive parents 153 00:08:59,804 --> 00:09:01,805 who have taken the trouble to care for me 154 00:09:01,840 --> 00:09:04,241 for the last 17 years. 155 00:09:04,275 --> 00:09:08,178 I hope therefore that you understand that at the present time 156 00:09:08,213 --> 00:09:11,815 I do not wish to be in contact with you. 157 00:09:14,152 --> 00:09:17,588 I respectfully request that you do not reinitiate contact 158 00:09:17,622 --> 00:09:21,291 with my current place of residence out of respect for its inhabitants. 159 00:09:24,529 --> 00:09:29,233 Sincerely, Jesse Saul D'amato." 160 00:09:39,644 --> 00:09:42,212 I took an Adderall to write it. 161 00:09:42,247 --> 00:09:45,849 I think it came out pretty well. 162 00:09:47,952 --> 00:09:50,187 Thank you for reading it to me. 163 00:09:53,992 --> 00:09:56,260 It's, um... 164 00:09:56,294 --> 00:09:58,428 It's pretty formal. 165 00:09:58,463 --> 00:10:00,631 Yeah, but I mean, why not, right? 166 00:10:00,665 --> 00:10:02,399 I'm smart and they should know that. 167 00:10:02,433 --> 00:10:04,801 - Do you want them to know that? - It's a fact, right? 168 00:10:04,836 --> 00:10:07,404 What, you don't think I'm smart? 169 00:10:07,438 --> 00:10:11,308 - I didn't say that, Jesse. - Look, I don't really care. I just... 170 00:10:14,045 --> 00:10:16,213 So you don't like the letter? 171 00:10:30,795 --> 00:10:32,529 When you came in today, 172 00:10:32,564 --> 00:10:34,598 I asked you how the past week had been 173 00:10:34,632 --> 00:10:36,767 and you said it was weird. 174 00:10:36,801 --> 00:10:38,635 Yeah, so? 175 00:10:38,670 --> 00:10:41,004 So apart from this letter arriving, 176 00:10:41,039 --> 00:10:43,106 did anything else happen during the week 177 00:10:43,141 --> 00:10:44,675 that was weird? 178 00:10:47,211 --> 00:10:48,879 I don't know, man. 179 00:10:48,913 --> 00:10:51,315 Marisa. 180 00:10:51,349 --> 00:10:54,117 Marisa was fucking weird. 181 00:10:54,152 --> 00:10:57,054 - What do you mean? - What do you think I mean? 182 00:10:57,088 --> 00:10:59,723 What, she turned green? She was speaking in tongues? 183 00:10:59,757 --> 00:11:01,525 No, she won't get out of bed, okay? 184 00:11:01,559 --> 00:11:03,193 Is that weird enough for you? 185 00:11:03,227 --> 00:11:06,196 Okay, I can see why you would think that was weird. 186 00:11:06,230 --> 00:11:08,665 And then when I asked her if everything was okay 187 00:11:08,700 --> 00:11:11,335 she just told me she was sick 188 00:11:11,369 --> 00:11:13,804 and asked me to close the door. 189 00:11:13,838 --> 00:11:16,473 You don't think she's sick though. 190 00:11:16,507 --> 00:11:18,942 I don't know. I don't know what's the matter with her. 191 00:11:20,712 --> 00:11:23,513 And you haven't spoken at all about Karen's phone call? 192 00:11:23,548 --> 00:11:27,217 No. It's like the whole conversation never happened. 193 00:11:30,521 --> 00:11:33,223 You said in the letter that Karen's phone call 194 00:11:33,257 --> 00:11:36,827 caused "significant distress" to your parents. 195 00:11:36,861 --> 00:11:39,296 - Yup. - Your parents. 196 00:11:41,666 --> 00:11:44,134 Marisa told Roberto. 197 00:11:45,336 --> 00:11:48,839 He blew a gasket. 198 00:11:48,873 --> 00:11:52,109 He said it was totally inappropriate 199 00:11:52,143 --> 00:11:54,011 of them to do something like that. 200 00:11:54,045 --> 00:11:56,179 He said it was probably illegal. 201 00:11:56,214 --> 00:11:58,348 I mean, he said he was gonna call the cops. 202 00:11:58,383 --> 00:12:00,217 He didn't, but... 203 00:12:00,251 --> 00:12:03,186 God, I have never seen him that mad. 204 00:12:03,221 --> 00:12:06,156 He's really not an angry guy. 205 00:12:06,190 --> 00:12:09,559 I was kidding about all that stuff I said last week. 206 00:12:09,594 --> 00:12:12,062 I mean, he's Italian, you know, 207 00:12:12,096 --> 00:12:13,930 so he obviously has a temper. 208 00:12:13,965 --> 00:12:17,501 But it takes a lot to set him off. 209 00:12:19,771 --> 00:12:22,172 - I used to try when I was a kid. - Why? 210 00:12:22,206 --> 00:12:25,442 I don't know. Just to, like, see where his breaking point was. 211 00:12:27,712 --> 00:12:30,914 You said earlier on that you were a lot closer to your father 212 00:12:32,684 --> 00:12:36,086 -and that something changed; -That he became more distant. 213 00:12:36,120 --> 00:12:37,854 Yeah, but I mean, I understand. 214 00:12:37,889 --> 00:12:40,123 He was building his business. 215 00:12:40,158 --> 00:12:42,926 I mean, my grandfather was dying. 216 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:46,563 He had to start taking more jobs out of town. 217 00:12:46,597 --> 00:12:48,665 Sounds like you've missed him. 218 00:12:50,168 --> 00:12:52,569 This sudden display of emotion, him getting angry 219 00:12:52,603 --> 00:12:54,271 when he heard about Karen's call... 220 00:12:54,305 --> 00:12:56,707 - I mean, that must have felt... - What? 221 00:12:56,741 --> 00:13:00,444 Well, why don't you tell me? 222 00:13:10,288 --> 00:13:13,990 It felt... Fucking awesome. 223 00:13:14,025 --> 00:13:16,226 Why? 224 00:13:16,260 --> 00:13:19,563 Because he gave a fucking shit. 225 00:13:19,597 --> 00:13:21,998 Do you think it's possible then that his reaction 226 00:13:22,033 --> 00:13:24,534 has influenced your response to Kevin's letter? 227 00:13:24,569 --> 00:13:26,036 - No. - No? 228 00:13:26,070 --> 00:13:28,205 What part of that word don't you understand? 229 00:13:28,239 --> 00:13:30,474 Look, Jesse, you realized that Karen's phone call 230 00:13:30,508 --> 00:13:32,442 was causing your mother and your father pain. 231 00:13:32,477 --> 00:13:34,611 So it's understandable if you felt responsible... 232 00:13:34,645 --> 00:13:36,113 - I don't. - Okay. 233 00:13:36,147 --> 00:13:38,782 Look, they raised me. 234 00:13:38,816 --> 00:13:42,419 They wiped my ass. They taught me to read. 235 00:13:42,453 --> 00:13:45,388 I mean, they changed my sheets every time I wet the bed, 236 00:13:45,423 --> 00:13:47,791 which I did until I was 10, by the way. 237 00:13:47,825 --> 00:13:50,527 So it is completely ridiculous for these people... 238 00:13:50,561 --> 00:13:53,930 strangers... to think that they can just waltz back into my life 239 00:13:53,965 --> 00:13:56,800 after they gave me up for dead and have a relationship with me. 240 00:13:56,834 --> 00:13:59,469 Relationships have to be earnt. 241 00:13:59,504 --> 00:14:01,371 - That is true. - I know. 242 00:14:05,176 --> 00:14:07,911 Gave you up for dead? 243 00:14:07,945 --> 00:14:09,980 It's a figure of fucking speech. 244 00:14:10,014 --> 00:14:11,948 Is it your figure of speech? 245 00:14:14,418 --> 00:14:18,421 Do you feel that you were difficult to raise? 246 00:14:18,456 --> 00:14:21,324 - Come on, man. - Is that a yes? 247 00:14:21,359 --> 00:14:23,193 I have a.D.D. And I'm a slut. 248 00:14:23,227 --> 00:14:25,028 Would you have wanted a kid like me? 249 00:14:25,062 --> 00:14:26,897 Yes. 250 00:14:34,572 --> 00:14:36,640 Well... 251 00:14:36,674 --> 00:14:38,875 Give your son another year or two 252 00:14:38,910 --> 00:14:41,178 and maybe you'll get your wish. 253 00:14:47,685 --> 00:14:51,121 So how did your father react to Kevin's letter? 254 00:14:53,791 --> 00:14:55,859 Jesse? 255 00:14:57,829 --> 00:14:59,262 He didn't. 256 00:14:59,297 --> 00:15:02,666 - He didn't have any reaction? - No. I didn't tell him. 257 00:15:02,700 --> 00:15:05,435 - Why didn't you tell him? - I just didn't feel like it. 258 00:15:05,469 --> 00:15:09,139 I mean, he got so angry about Karen's phone call. 259 00:15:13,044 --> 00:15:16,046 I mean, it's not really any of his business anyway. 260 00:15:22,553 --> 00:15:24,454 What is it, Jesse? 261 00:15:24,488 --> 00:15:26,656 Nothing. 262 00:15:33,865 --> 00:15:35,899 Why are you shaking your head? 263 00:15:35,933 --> 00:15:37,534 I don't know. 264 00:15:37,568 --> 00:15:39,970 You must be feeling 265 00:15:40,004 --> 00:15:43,240 an incredible amount of pressure right now. 266 00:15:45,877 --> 00:15:47,677 How is the static? 267 00:15:47,712 --> 00:15:50,714 It's fucking loud, man. 268 00:16:03,294 --> 00:16:06,029 I think he's left-handed like me. 269 00:16:06,063 --> 00:16:07,831 Kevin? 270 00:16:09,367 --> 00:16:11,668 Yeah. 271 00:16:13,070 --> 00:16:15,772 There's smudge marks on his letter, 272 00:16:15,806 --> 00:16:19,075 like what happens to me when I write. 273 00:16:22,813 --> 00:16:25,015 Look. 274 00:16:32,156 --> 00:16:34,224 And, um... 275 00:16:36,327 --> 00:16:38,361 Here's mine. 276 00:16:46,304 --> 00:16:48,271 Fuck. 277 00:16:53,144 --> 00:16:55,445 They do... 278 00:16:55,479 --> 00:16:58,181 they do kind of look alike. 279 00:16:58,215 --> 00:17:01,151 Fuck! 280 00:17:03,788 --> 00:17:06,256 What am I supposed to do with that information? 281 00:17:09,694 --> 00:17:11,561 Oh, let me guess. You want me to tell you. 282 00:17:11,595 --> 00:17:14,497 Yes, I would. It's a unique experience, Jesse. 283 00:17:14,532 --> 00:17:16,566 Not many people have gone through this. 284 00:17:16,600 --> 00:17:18,468 I want to know how it feels. 285 00:17:18,502 --> 00:17:20,603 So yes, I would like you to tell me. 286 00:17:36,220 --> 00:17:39,622 Do you think he looks, like, exactly like me? 287 00:17:39,657 --> 00:17:42,125 No. 288 00:17:42,159 --> 00:17:44,627 But he's probably pretty similar looking, right? 289 00:17:44,662 --> 00:17:47,430 Maybe you look more like Karen. 290 00:17:47,465 --> 00:17:49,632 Karen. 291 00:17:52,136 --> 00:17:54,604 Jesus. 292 00:17:57,975 --> 00:18:00,677 I think there's a part of you that's still interested 293 00:18:00,711 --> 00:18:03,680 in a private relationship with Kevin and Karen 294 00:18:03,681 --> 00:18:05,448 independent of your parents. 295 00:18:05,483 --> 00:18:08,251 In- I think that worries you. Wi- why would it worry me? 296 00:18:08,285 --> 00:18:10,787 Because I just think that ever since your father 297 00:18:10,821 --> 00:18:13,289 found out about Karen's phone call he's been 298 00:18:13,324 --> 00:18:15,692 paying much more attention to you. 299 00:18:15,726 --> 00:18:17,794 He got angry, 300 00:18:17,828 --> 00:18:21,064 but his anger seems to have comforted you. 301 00:18:21,098 --> 00:18:24,200 It seems that this reaction is what you've been looking for since you were a kid. 302 00:18:24,235 --> 00:18:27,070 Because to you it's a sign that he cares. 303 00:18:27,104 --> 00:18:30,673 And it might seem right now that the way to gain 304 00:18:30,708 --> 00:18:34,444 and keep his love is to just reject Kevin and Karen. 305 00:18:34,478 --> 00:18:36,946 And the way to lose his love perhaps 306 00:18:36,981 --> 00:18:39,682 is to reach out to them. 307 00:18:41,786 --> 00:18:44,054 You know that little theory you had last week? 308 00:18:44,088 --> 00:18:46,689 The one where Marisa gave up on catholicism 309 00:18:46,724 --> 00:18:49,626 because the church didn't support my sexual identity? 310 00:18:49,660 --> 00:18:51,461 - Mm-hmm. - It's horseshit. 311 00:18:51,495 --> 00:18:54,531 Yeah, I went into her room today 312 00:18:54,565 --> 00:18:56,666 to see if she needed anything 313 00:18:56,700 --> 00:18:59,569 because she hasn't left the bed in a week. 314 00:18:59,603 --> 00:19:03,907 She wasn't in there but the closet door was a little open. 315 00:19:03,941 --> 00:19:06,976 And she was in there 316 00:19:07,011 --> 00:19:09,879 on her knees praying. 317 00:19:10,981 --> 00:19:12,449 God. 318 00:19:12,483 --> 00:19:14,818 Can you believe it? 319 00:19:14,852 --> 00:19:17,454 In the fucking closet. 320 00:19:18,756 --> 00:19:20,990 I come out and she goes in. 321 00:19:21,025 --> 00:19:22,792 Why do you think she's doing that? 322 00:19:22,827 --> 00:19:24,761 I guess she doesn't want me to interrupt 323 00:19:24,795 --> 00:19:26,796 her little tete-a-tete with Jesus. 324 00:19:26,831 --> 00:19:28,832 I think your mother is really scared right now. 325 00:19:28,866 --> 00:19:32,202 - What the hell does she have to be scared of? - Losing you. 326 00:19:32,236 --> 00:19:34,404 Maybe she feels you're slipping away from her. 327 00:19:34,438 --> 00:19:37,774 And it's possible that she might be turning to religion, 328 00:19:37,808 --> 00:19:41,111 to her relationship with God, 329 00:19:41,145 --> 00:19:43,780 because that provides her with some kind of comfort 330 00:19:43,814 --> 00:19:45,482 and a sense of control. 331 00:19:45,516 --> 00:19:47,817 She doesn't want you to see her praying 332 00:19:47,852 --> 00:19:51,187 because she's afraid you'll think she's choosing 333 00:19:51,222 --> 00:19:52,655 the church over you. 334 00:19:59,797 --> 00:20:02,532 I can't believe they married each other. 335 00:20:04,401 --> 00:20:05,902 Yeah. 336 00:20:05,936 --> 00:20:09,038 I can't believe I have a whole other set 337 00:20:09,073 --> 00:20:11,374 of parents out there somewhere. 338 00:20:12,943 --> 00:20:15,078 What do you think their house is like? 339 00:20:15,112 --> 00:20:17,780 I don't know. 340 00:20:19,517 --> 00:20:22,085 Anyway, I think that we should... 341 00:20:22,119 --> 00:20:24,120 we should talk about it next week. 342 00:20:24,155 --> 00:20:28,525 Let's both think about how you want to respond 343 00:20:28,559 --> 00:20:30,860 to your birth parent's letter, 344 00:20:30,895 --> 00:20:33,296 if that's what you decide to do. 345 00:20:33,330 --> 00:20:35,965 Okay. 346 00:20:47,444 --> 00:20:49,579 You know, 347 00:20:49,613 --> 00:20:52,749 I kind of feel like it's all gonna be okay for some reason. 348 00:20:52,783 --> 00:20:55,285 I don't know why. 349 00:20:55,319 --> 00:20:56,986 Good. 350 00:21:01,325 --> 00:21:04,627 Oh wait... your letters. 351 00:21:04,662 --> 00:21:07,263 Um, will you keep them for me? 352 00:21:10,134 --> 00:21:13,336 Sometimes Marisa goes through my bag. 353 00:21:15,439 --> 00:21:16,739 Okay. 354 00:21:16,774 --> 00:21:19,342 Thanks. 355 00:21:41,999 --> 00:21:45,999 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com