1 00:00:05,174 --> 00:00:06,013 She came... 2 00:00:06,534 --> 00:00:07,699 Just like you wanted. 3 00:00:11,149 --> 00:00:12,420 So Jesse... What happened? 4 00:00:12,517 --> 00:00:13,541 He got beat up at school. 5 00:00:13,628 --> 00:00:14,381 Was it Nate? 6 00:00:14,500 --> 00:00:16,678 He was like... "Meet me in the men's room". 7 00:00:16,765 --> 00:00:18,836 Just kept hitting me and hitting me. 8 00:00:18,973 --> 00:00:21,668 They said maybe if he talked to a professional person... 9 00:00:21,718 --> 00:00:24,637 Don't sweat it. I'll be out your head long before all that. 10 00:00:24,788 --> 00:00:26,766 - Where is your royal highness going? - To Westchester. 11 00:00:26,829 --> 00:00:28,277 - Why not Paris? - Because Karen doesn't 12 00:00:28,349 --> 00:00:29,589 - live in Paris. - Who is Karen? 13 00:00:29,685 --> 00:00:30,693 My birth mother! 14 00:00:30,788 --> 00:00:33,613 She called me and she wants me back! 15 00:00:33,733 --> 00:00:36,406 I think you're terriffyied that they are gonna pull away... 16 00:00:36,517 --> 00:00:38,445 You saw her leave. 17 00:00:38,500 --> 00:00:39,733 Where do you imagine she went? 18 00:00:39,862 --> 00:00:40,748 I bet she's at church's. 19 00:00:40,901 --> 00:00:45,005 She's like begging the priest to take her back as we speak. 20 00:01:14,161 --> 00:01:19,535 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 21 00:01:35,559 --> 00:01:37,627 So how was your week? 22 00:01:37,662 --> 00:01:39,763 Kind of weird. 23 00:01:43,234 --> 00:01:45,802 - Are you looking for something? - Yeah. 24 00:01:51,976 --> 00:01:53,710 I got a letter this week... 25 00:01:53,744 --> 00:01:56,012 in the mail. 26 00:01:56,047 --> 00:01:59,516 That hasn't happened to me since my grandparents were alive. 27 00:01:59,550 --> 00:02:01,618 Can I ask you who it from? 28 00:02:01,652 --> 00:02:03,553 My birth father. 29 00:02:06,724 --> 00:02:09,492 Are you okay? 30 00:02:11,696 --> 00:02:13,396 I'm sorry. 31 00:02:13,431 --> 00:02:16,566 It's... it's an allergy. 32 00:02:20,171 --> 00:02:22,005 I'm sorry. So this... 33 00:02:23,874 --> 00:02:25,308 This letter. 34 00:02:27,278 --> 00:02:30,680 - Yeah. - When did it arrive? 35 00:02:30,715 --> 00:02:32,682 A few days ago. 36 00:02:32,717 --> 00:02:35,752 Well, I'd love to know what it says. 37 00:02:38,589 --> 00:02:40,924 He says he married my birth mother. 38 00:02:43,427 --> 00:02:45,562 That's a bit of a shock. 39 00:02:45,596 --> 00:02:48,565 Uh, yeah, tell me about it. 40 00:02:48,599 --> 00:02:50,533 He says 41 00:02:50,568 --> 00:02:53,737 they got pregnant with me when they were, like, 17. 42 00:02:53,771 --> 00:02:55,271 17. 43 00:02:55,306 --> 00:02:57,407 They split up for a while 44 00:02:57,441 --> 00:03:00,210 and then they got back together after college 45 00:03:00,244 --> 00:03:02,412 and now they're married. 46 00:03:09,220 --> 00:03:12,589 It says 47 00:03:12,623 --> 00:03:15,825 he's writing on her behalf... Karen's. 48 00:03:15,860 --> 00:03:17,427 Says she doesn't know about it. 49 00:03:17,461 --> 00:03:19,362 He says she's really depressed right now 50 00:03:19,397 --> 00:03:23,266 because I haven't responded to her phone call 51 00:03:23,300 --> 00:03:24,934 and it's almost my birthday 52 00:03:24,969 --> 00:03:28,171 and she always gets really depressed around my birthday. 53 00:03:30,875 --> 00:03:32,776 Anyway, he wants me to write back 54 00:03:32,810 --> 00:03:35,445 and say, like, yes, I'll be in contact with you 55 00:03:35,479 --> 00:03:37,180 or no, go fuck yourselves. 56 00:03:39,183 --> 00:03:41,084 I'm paraphrasing. 57 00:03:48,159 --> 00:03:50,427 He says he loves me. 58 00:03:53,931 --> 00:03:56,466 What a fucking retard. 59 00:04:00,371 --> 00:04:03,740 I think they might be kind of assholes, these people. 60 00:04:07,611 --> 00:04:09,212 Guess what else? 61 00:04:10,748 --> 00:04:13,716 I'm getting a "b" in algebra. 62 00:04:13,751 --> 00:04:17,153 A "b"? That's... that's great. 63 00:04:17,188 --> 00:04:19,722 A "b" is a fucking miracle. 64 00:04:19,757 --> 00:04:22,058 We have to take these multiple-choice tests 65 00:04:22,093 --> 00:04:24,894 because my teacher Mr. Nelson 66 00:04:24,929 --> 00:04:27,030 is, like, too lazy to grade a fucking... 67 00:04:27,064 --> 00:04:29,099 anyway, it doesn't matter. The point is, 68 00:04:29,133 --> 00:04:31,367 he puts the answer sheets through these machines 69 00:04:31,402 --> 00:04:33,069 and they come out the other end. 70 00:04:33,104 --> 00:04:36,339 Usually if there are a lot of mistakes it takes a really long time 71 00:04:36,373 --> 00:04:38,808 and the machine makes all these beeping noises. 72 00:04:38,843 --> 00:04:41,945 Mine just kind of zipped out the other end. 73 00:04:43,781 --> 00:04:46,449 Mr. Nelson looked shocked. 74 00:04:46,484 --> 00:04:49,452 Did you study for this test? 75 00:04:49,487 --> 00:04:51,721 Yeah, why? 76 00:04:51,755 --> 00:04:54,290 Then not such a miracle really. 77 00:04:56,594 --> 00:04:58,161 Roberto helped me. 78 00:05:00,397 --> 00:05:02,799 He helped you study? 79 00:05:05,336 --> 00:05:07,670 So you must have told him about being suspended. 80 00:05:07,705 --> 00:05:10,273 What? Oh yeah. 81 00:05:10,307 --> 00:05:13,843 - And how did he take that? - It was no big deal. 82 00:05:15,880 --> 00:05:19,716 Last week you seemed really nervous about telling him. 83 00:05:19,750 --> 00:05:22,051 You were afraid that he might become violent. 84 00:05:22,086 --> 00:05:24,687 That was a joke. Jesus, why am I the only one 85 00:05:24,722 --> 00:05:26,289 with a sense of humor around here? 86 00:05:26,323 --> 00:05:30,293 Okay, but I still think that you were nervous about how he would react. 87 00:05:30,327 --> 00:05:33,530 Fine. I was, I guess. 88 00:05:33,564 --> 00:05:36,166 But he was cool. 89 00:05:36,200 --> 00:05:38,034 He can be cool. 90 00:05:42,606 --> 00:05:45,141 Did you talk to him about what happened at the Whitney? 91 00:05:45,176 --> 00:05:47,677 - Yup. - And about Nate? 92 00:05:47,711 --> 00:05:51,047 I told him that Nate kicked the shit out of me, yes. 93 00:05:51,081 --> 00:05:53,850 - And did you tell him why? - 'Cause I'm gay. 94 00:05:55,386 --> 00:05:58,855 Did you tell him that you and Nate were... 95 00:06:00,724 --> 00:06:03,893 that Nate was, um... 96 00:06:03,928 --> 00:06:07,397 did you tell him that Nate was fellating you? 97 00:06:07,431 --> 00:06:10,066 What? 98 00:06:10,100 --> 00:06:13,469 Do you have a merriam-Webster dictionary around here? 99 00:06:14,872 --> 00:06:17,273 I'm sorry, I just... I don't know what that word means. 100 00:06:17,308 --> 00:06:19,809 Oh, come on, Jesse. You know very well what the word means. 101 00:06:19,843 --> 00:06:23,780 No, Paul, I did not tell my father that Nate was sucking my dick. 102 00:06:23,814 --> 00:06:25,548 - Why not? - Why would I? 103 00:06:25,583 --> 00:06:27,050 Do you think he wants to know? 104 00:06:27,084 --> 00:06:29,619 I mean, would you want to know if your kid... 105 00:06:29,653 --> 00:06:31,688 you had no problem telling your mother. 106 00:06:31,722 --> 00:06:34,390 - That's different. - And why is that? 107 00:06:34,425 --> 00:06:37,827 Can't you just leave it alone? 108 00:06:37,861 --> 00:06:39,963 Can't it just be a nice thing 109 00:06:39,997 --> 00:06:43,199 that my dad helped me study and I got a "b"? 110 00:06:43,234 --> 00:06:45,301 It is a nice thing, Jesse. Yes. 111 00:06:45,336 --> 00:06:49,272 He's really good at math, my dad. 112 00:06:49,306 --> 00:06:51,474 He must have been proud of that "b." 113 00:06:51,508 --> 00:06:53,710 Yeah. I mean, he would have rather it was an "a," 114 00:06:53,744 --> 00:06:55,845 but sure. 115 00:06:58,983 --> 00:07:01,050 So can we go back 116 00:07:01,085 --> 00:07:03,820 to your birth father's letter for a moment? 117 00:07:03,854 --> 00:07:06,422 If you want. 118 00:07:06,457 --> 00:07:09,926 So... so what's his name? 119 00:07:09,960 --> 00:07:13,563 Um, Kevin. 120 00:07:15,332 --> 00:07:16,966 Kevin and Karen. 121 00:07:17,001 --> 00:07:18,768 God, that's pathetic, right? 122 00:07:18,802 --> 00:07:22,071 Last week you told Marisa that you were gonna live with Karen. 123 00:07:22,106 --> 00:07:25,975 This week your attitude towards her seems to have changed. 124 00:07:28,145 --> 00:07:31,047 I just think it's really inappropriate of him to contact me. 125 00:07:31,081 --> 00:07:33,583 - Inappropriate? - Yeah. I mean, what the fuck? 126 00:07:33,617 --> 00:07:35,218 I'm a minor, for Christ's sake. 127 00:07:35,252 --> 00:07:37,587 What they're doing is illegal. 128 00:07:37,621 --> 00:07:40,089 I mean, they gave me up. 129 00:07:40,124 --> 00:07:41,891 They didn't want me. 130 00:07:41,925 --> 00:07:44,327 And, like, now that somebody else has raised me 131 00:07:44,361 --> 00:07:48,831 for 17 years and, like, fed me and clothed me 132 00:07:48,866 --> 00:07:50,767 and kept me alive and everything... 133 00:07:50,801 --> 00:07:52,502 now suddenly they want back in? 134 00:07:52,536 --> 00:07:54,504 No, sorry. That is not how it works. 135 00:07:54,538 --> 00:07:56,205 And how do you think it works? 136 00:07:56,240 --> 00:07:58,608 People have one set of parents. One. 137 00:07:58,642 --> 00:08:01,611 Not two. And I've already got mine. 138 00:08:01,645 --> 00:08:06,249 But do you think Karen and Kevin really want to be your parents? 139 00:08:06,283 --> 00:08:08,318 Isn't it possible that they might be looking 140 00:08:08,352 --> 00:08:10,887 for some other kind of relationship? 141 00:08:10,921 --> 00:08:13,089 - Like what? - Like friendship. 142 00:08:13,123 --> 00:08:16,759 Maybe they just want to get to know you. 143 00:08:19,997 --> 00:08:22,832 Do your parents know that you got a letter from Kevin? 144 00:08:22,866 --> 00:08:24,434 I wrote a response. 145 00:08:24,468 --> 00:08:28,171 - Do you want to hear it? - Sure. 146 00:08:39,383 --> 00:08:42,051 "Dear Kevin, 147 00:08:42,086 --> 00:08:45,855 thank you for contacting me regarding my origins. 148 00:08:47,491 --> 00:08:50,626 I apologize for causing Karen pain 149 00:08:50,661 --> 00:08:53,363 and I understand your request. 150 00:08:53,397 --> 00:08:56,265 However, I think you should know 151 00:08:56,300 --> 00:08:58,835 that Karen's call caused significant distress 152 00:08:58,869 --> 00:09:00,670 to my adoptive parents 153 00:09:00,704 --> 00:09:02,705 who have taken the trouble to care for me 154 00:09:02,740 --> 00:09:05,141 for the last 17 years. 155 00:09:05,175 --> 00:09:09,078 I hope therefore that you understand that at the present time 156 00:09:09,113 --> 00:09:12,715 I do not wish to be in contact with you. 157 00:09:15,052 --> 00:09:18,488 I respectfully request that you do not reinitiate contact 158 00:09:18,522 --> 00:09:22,191 with my current place of residence out of respect for its inhabitants. 159 00:09:25,429 --> 00:09:30,133 Sincerely, Jesse Saul D'amato." 160 00:09:40,544 --> 00:09:43,112 I took an Adderall to write it. 161 00:09:43,147 --> 00:09:46,749 I think it came out pretty well. 162 00:09:48,852 --> 00:09:51,087 Thank you for reading it to me. 163 00:09:54,892 --> 00:09:57,160 It's, um... 164 00:09:57,194 --> 00:09:59,328 It's pretty formal. 165 00:09:59,363 --> 00:10:01,531 Yeah, but I mean, why not, right? 166 00:10:01,565 --> 00:10:03,299 I'm smart and they should know that. 167 00:10:03,333 --> 00:10:05,701 - Do you want them to know that? - It's a fact, right? 168 00:10:05,736 --> 00:10:08,304 What, you don't think I'm smart? 169 00:10:08,338 --> 00:10:12,208 - I didn't say that, Jesse. - Look, I don't really care. I just... 170 00:10:14,945 --> 00:10:17,113 So you don't like the letter? 171 00:10:31,695 --> 00:10:33,429 When you came in today, 172 00:10:33,464 --> 00:10:35,498 I asked you how the past week had been 173 00:10:35,532 --> 00:10:37,667 and you said it was weird. 174 00:10:37,701 --> 00:10:39,535 Yeah, so? 175 00:10:39,570 --> 00:10:41,904 So apart from this letter arriving, 176 00:10:41,939 --> 00:10:44,006 did anything else happen during the week 177 00:10:44,041 --> 00:10:45,575 that was weird? 178 00:10:48,111 --> 00:10:49,779 I don't know, man. 179 00:10:49,813 --> 00:10:52,215 Marisa. 180 00:10:52,249 --> 00:10:55,017 Marisa was fucking weird. 181 00:10:55,052 --> 00:10:57,954 - What do you mean? - What do you think I mean? 182 00:10:57,988 --> 00:11:00,623 What, she turned green? She was speaking in tongues? 183 00:11:00,657 --> 00:11:02,425 No, she won't get out of bed, okay? 184 00:11:02,459 --> 00:11:04,093 Is that weird enough for you? 185 00:11:04,127 --> 00:11:07,096 Okay, I can see why you would think that was weird. 186 00:11:07,130 --> 00:11:09,565 And then when I asked her if everything was okay 187 00:11:09,600 --> 00:11:12,235 she just told me she was sick 188 00:11:12,269 --> 00:11:14,704 and asked me to close the door. 189 00:11:14,738 --> 00:11:17,373 You don't think she's sick though. 190 00:11:17,407 --> 00:11:19,842 I don't know. I don't know what's the matter with her. 191 00:11:21,612 --> 00:11:24,413 And you haven't spoken at all about Karen's phone call? 192 00:11:24,448 --> 00:11:28,117 No. It's like the whole conversation never happened. 193 00:11:31,421 --> 00:11:34,123 You said in the letter that Karen's phone call 194 00:11:34,157 --> 00:11:37,727 caused "significant distress" to your parents. 195 00:11:37,761 --> 00:11:40,196 - Yup. - Your parents. 196 00:11:42,566 --> 00:11:45,034 Marisa told Roberto. 197 00:11:46,236 --> 00:11:49,739 He blew a gasket. 198 00:11:49,773 --> 00:11:53,009 He said it was totally inappropriate 199 00:11:53,043 --> 00:11:54,911 of them to do something like that. 200 00:11:54,945 --> 00:11:57,079 He said it was probably illegal. 201 00:11:57,114 --> 00:11:59,248 I mean, he said he was gonna call the cops. 202 00:11:59,283 --> 00:12:01,117 He didn't, but... 203 00:12:01,151 --> 00:12:04,086 God, I have never seen him that mad. 204 00:12:04,121 --> 00:12:07,056 He's really not an angry guy. 205 00:12:07,090 --> 00:12:10,459 I was kidding about all that stuff I said last week. 206 00:12:10,494 --> 00:12:12,962 I mean, he's Italian, you know, 207 00:12:12,996 --> 00:12:14,830 so he obviously has a temper. 208 00:12:14,865 --> 00:12:18,401 But it takes a lot to set him off. 209 00:12:20,671 --> 00:12:23,072 - I used to try when I was a kid. - Why? 210 00:12:23,106 --> 00:12:26,342 I don't know. Just to, like, see where his breaking point was. 211 00:12:28,612 --> 00:12:31,814 You said earlier on that you were a lot closer to your father 212 00:12:33,584 --> 00:12:36,986 -and that something changed; -That he became more distant. 213 00:12:37,020 --> 00:12:38,754 Yeah, but I mean, I understand. 214 00:12:38,789 --> 00:12:41,023 He was building his business. 215 00:12:41,058 --> 00:12:43,826 I mean, my grandfather was dying. 216 00:12:43,860 --> 00:12:47,463 He had to start taking more jobs out of town. 217 00:12:47,497 --> 00:12:49,565 Sounds like you've missed him. 218 00:12:51,068 --> 00:12:53,469 This sudden display of emotion, him getting angry 219 00:12:53,503 --> 00:12:55,171 when he heard about Karen's call... 220 00:12:55,205 --> 00:12:57,607 - I mean, that must have felt... - What? 221 00:12:57,641 --> 00:13:01,344 Well, why don't you tell me? 222 00:13:11,188 --> 00:13:14,890 It felt... Fucking awesome. 223 00:13:14,925 --> 00:13:17,126 Why? 224 00:13:17,160 --> 00:13:20,463 Because he gave a fucking shit. 225 00:13:20,497 --> 00:13:22,898 Do you think it's possible then that his reaction 226 00:13:22,933 --> 00:13:25,434 has influenced your response to Kevin's letter? 227 00:13:25,469 --> 00:13:26,936 - No. - No? 228 00:13:26,970 --> 00:13:29,105 What part of that word don't you understand? 229 00:13:29,139 --> 00:13:31,374 Look, Jesse, you realized that Karen's phone call 230 00:13:31,408 --> 00:13:33,342 was causing your mother and your father pain. 231 00:13:33,377 --> 00:13:35,511 So it's understandable if you felt responsible... 232 00:13:35,545 --> 00:13:37,013 - I don't. - Okay. 233 00:13:37,047 --> 00:13:39,682 Look, they raised me. 234 00:13:39,716 --> 00:13:43,319 They wiped my ass. They taught me to read. 235 00:13:43,353 --> 00:13:46,288 I mean, they changed my sheets every time I wet the bed, 236 00:13:46,323 --> 00:13:48,691 which I did until I was 10, by the way. 237 00:13:48,725 --> 00:13:51,427 So it is completely ridiculous for these people... 238 00:13:51,461 --> 00:13:54,830 strangers... to think that they can just waltz back into my life 239 00:13:54,865 --> 00:13:57,700 after they gave me up for dead and have a relationship with me. 240 00:13:57,734 --> 00:14:00,369 Relationships have to be earnt. 241 00:14:00,404 --> 00:14:02,271 - That is true. - I know. 242 00:14:06,076 --> 00:14:08,811 Gave you up for dead? 243 00:14:08,845 --> 00:14:10,880 It's a figure of fucking speech. 244 00:14:10,914 --> 00:14:12,848 Is it your figure of speech? 245 00:14:15,318 --> 00:14:19,321 Do you feel that you were difficult to raise? 246 00:14:19,356 --> 00:14:22,224 - Come on, man. - Is that a yes? 247 00:14:22,259 --> 00:14:24,093 I have a.D.D. And I'm a slut. 248 00:14:24,127 --> 00:14:25,928 Would you have wanted a kid like me? 249 00:14:25,962 --> 00:14:27,797 Yes. 250 00:14:35,472 --> 00:14:37,540 Well... 251 00:14:37,574 --> 00:14:39,775 Give your son another year or two 252 00:14:39,810 --> 00:14:42,078 and maybe you'll get your wish. 253 00:14:48,585 --> 00:14:52,021 So how did your father react to Kevin's letter? 254 00:14:54,691 --> 00:14:56,759 Jesse? 255 00:14:58,729 --> 00:15:00,162 He didn't. 256 00:15:00,197 --> 00:15:03,566 - He didn't have any reaction? - No. I didn't tell him. 257 00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:06,335 - Why didn't you tell him? - I just didn't feel like it. 258 00:15:06,369 --> 00:15:10,039 I mean, he got so angry about Karen's phone call. 259 00:15:13,944 --> 00:15:16,946 I mean, it's not really any of his business anyway. 260 00:15:23,453 --> 00:15:25,354 What is it, Jesse? 261 00:15:25,388 --> 00:15:27,556 Nothing. 262 00:15:34,765 --> 00:15:36,799 Why are you shaking your head? 263 00:15:36,833 --> 00:15:38,434 I don't know. 264 00:15:38,468 --> 00:15:40,870 You must be feeling 265 00:15:40,904 --> 00:15:44,140 an incredible amount of pressure right now. 266 00:15:46,777 --> 00:15:48,577 How is the static? 267 00:15:48,612 --> 00:15:51,614 It's fucking loud, man. 268 00:16:04,194 --> 00:16:06,929 I think he's left-handed like me. 269 00:16:06,963 --> 00:16:08,731 Kevin? 270 00:16:10,267 --> 00:16:12,568 Yeah. 271 00:16:13,970 --> 00:16:16,672 There's smudge marks on his letter, 272 00:16:16,706 --> 00:16:19,975 like what happens to me when I write. 273 00:16:23,713 --> 00:16:25,915 Look. 274 00:16:33,056 --> 00:16:35,124 And, um... 275 00:16:37,227 --> 00:16:39,261 Here's mine. 276 00:16:47,204 --> 00:16:49,171 Fuck. 277 00:16:54,044 --> 00:16:56,345 They do... 278 00:16:56,379 --> 00:16:59,081 they do kind of look alike. 279 00:16:59,115 --> 00:17:02,051 Fuck! 280 00:17:04,688 --> 00:17:07,156 What am I supposed to do with that information? 281 00:17:10,594 --> 00:17:12,461 Oh, let me guess. You want me to tell you. 282 00:17:12,495 --> 00:17:15,397 Yes, I would. It's a unique experience, Jesse. 283 00:17:15,432 --> 00:17:17,466 Not many people have gone through this. 284 00:17:17,500 --> 00:17:19,368 I want to know how it feels. 285 00:17:19,402 --> 00:17:21,503 So yes, I would like you to tell me. 286 00:17:37,120 --> 00:17:40,522 Do you think he looks, like, exactly like me? 287 00:17:40,557 --> 00:17:43,025 No. 288 00:17:43,059 --> 00:17:45,527 But he's probably pretty similar looking, right? 289 00:17:45,562 --> 00:17:48,330 Maybe you look more like Karen. 290 00:17:48,365 --> 00:17:50,532 Karen. 291 00:17:53,036 --> 00:17:55,504 Jesus. 292 00:17:58,875 --> 00:18:01,577 I think there's a part of you that's still interested 293 00:18:01,611 --> 00:18:04,580 in a private relationship with Kevin and Karen 294 00:18:04,581 --> 00:18:06,348 independent of your parents. 295 00:18:06,383 --> 00:18:09,151 In- I think that worries you. Wi- why would it worry me? 296 00:18:09,185 --> 00:18:11,687 Because I just think that ever since your father 297 00:18:11,721 --> 00:18:14,189 found out about Karen's phone call he's been 298 00:18:14,224 --> 00:18:16,592 paying much more attention to you. 299 00:18:16,626 --> 00:18:18,694 He got angry, 300 00:18:18,728 --> 00:18:21,964 but his anger seems to have comforted you. 301 00:18:21,998 --> 00:18:25,100 It seems that this reaction is what you've been looking for since you were a kid. 302 00:18:25,135 --> 00:18:27,970 Because to you it's a sign that he cares. 303 00:18:28,004 --> 00:18:31,573 And it might seem right now that the way to gain 304 00:18:31,608 --> 00:18:35,344 and keep his love is to just reject Kevin and Karen. 305 00:18:35,378 --> 00:18:37,846 And the way to lose his love perhaps 306 00:18:37,881 --> 00:18:40,582 is to reach out to them. 307 00:18:42,686 --> 00:18:44,954 You know that little theory you had last week? 308 00:18:44,988 --> 00:18:47,589 The one where Marisa gave up on catholicism 309 00:18:47,624 --> 00:18:50,526 because the church didn't support my sexual identity? 310 00:18:50,560 --> 00:18:52,361 - Mm-hmm. - It's horseshit. 311 00:18:52,395 --> 00:18:55,431 Yeah, I went into her room today 312 00:18:55,465 --> 00:18:57,566 to see if she needed anything 313 00:18:57,600 --> 00:19:00,469 because she hasn't left the bed in a week. 314 00:19:00,503 --> 00:19:04,807 She wasn't in there but the closet door was a little open. 315 00:19:04,841 --> 00:19:07,876 And she was in there 316 00:19:07,911 --> 00:19:10,779 on her knees praying. 317 00:19:11,881 --> 00:19:13,349 God. 318 00:19:13,383 --> 00:19:15,718 Can you believe it? 319 00:19:15,752 --> 00:19:18,354 In the fucking closet. 320 00:19:19,656 --> 00:19:21,890 I come out and she goes in. 321 00:19:21,925 --> 00:19:23,692 Why do you think she's doing that? 322 00:19:23,727 --> 00:19:25,661 I guess she doesn't want me to interrupt 323 00:19:25,695 --> 00:19:27,696 her little tete-a-tete with Jesus. 324 00:19:27,731 --> 00:19:29,732 I think your mother is really scared right now. 325 00:19:29,766 --> 00:19:33,102 - What the hell does she have to be scared of? - Losing you. 326 00:19:33,136 --> 00:19:35,304 Maybe she feels you're slipping away from her. 327 00:19:35,338 --> 00:19:38,674 And it's possible that she might be turning to religion, 328 00:19:38,708 --> 00:19:42,011 to her relationship with God, 329 00:19:42,045 --> 00:19:44,680 because that provides her with some kind of comfort 330 00:19:44,714 --> 00:19:46,382 and a sense of control. 331 00:19:46,416 --> 00:19:48,717 She doesn't want you to see her praying 332 00:19:48,752 --> 00:19:52,087 because she's afraid you'll think she's choosing 333 00:19:52,122 --> 00:19:53,555 the church over you. 334 00:20:00,697 --> 00:20:03,432 I can't believe they married each other. 335 00:20:05,301 --> 00:20:06,802 Yeah. 336 00:20:06,836 --> 00:20:09,938 I can't believe I have a whole other set 337 00:20:09,973 --> 00:20:12,274 of parents out there somewhere. 338 00:20:13,843 --> 00:20:15,978 What do you think their house is like? 339 00:20:16,012 --> 00:20:18,680 I don't know. 340 00:20:20,417 --> 00:20:22,985 Anyway, I think that we should... 341 00:20:23,019 --> 00:20:25,020 we should talk about it next week. 342 00:20:25,055 --> 00:20:29,425 Let's both think about how you want to respond 343 00:20:29,459 --> 00:20:31,760 to your birth parent's letter, 344 00:20:31,795 --> 00:20:34,196 if that's what you decide to do. 345 00:20:34,230 --> 00:20:36,865 Okay. 346 00:20:48,344 --> 00:20:50,479 You know, 347 00:20:50,513 --> 00:20:53,649 I kind of feel like it's all gonna be okay for some reason. 348 00:20:53,683 --> 00:20:56,185 I don't know why. 349 00:20:56,219 --> 00:20:57,886 Good. 350 00:21:02,225 --> 00:21:05,527 Oh wait... your letters. 351 00:21:05,562 --> 00:21:08,163 Um, will you keep them for me? 352 00:21:11,034 --> 00:21:14,236 Sometimes Marisa goes through my bag. 353 00:21:16,339 --> 00:21:17,639 Okay. 354 00:21:17,674 --> 00:21:20,242 Thanks. 355 00:21:42,899 --> 00:21:46,899 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com