1 00:00:03,326 --> 00:00:05,338 You're taking birth control pills? 2 00:00:05,458 --> 00:00:10,152 I'm not, no. I found them in Julia's study. 3 00:00:12,200 --> 00:00:17,137 This is an absolute proof that Julia is having an affair ***. 4 00:00:17,257 --> 00:00:20,883 When I think of them together, my hand turns into fist. 5 00:00:21,003 --> 00:00:24,345 You also remember the woman I mentioned to you, Malini? 6 00:00:24,465 --> 00:00:25,844 Did things end badly? 7 00:00:26,211 --> 00:00:29,774 She threw herself from the bridge and drowned. 8 00:00:29,894 --> 00:00:33,901 I think Julia and Arun, the intimacy with which they relay 9 00:00:34,021 --> 00:00:37,310 reminds you of your own intimacy with Malini. 10 00:00:37,430 --> 00:00:40,236 That may be one of the reasons why you feel so conflicted 11 00:00:40,356 --> 00:00:42,491 in your relationship to your daughter in law. 12 00:00:42,611 --> 00:00:44,931 It may be, but... maybe. 13 00:00:45,281 --> 00:00:51,378 Sync by honeybunny www.addic7ed.com 14 00:00:52,114 --> 00:00:54,682 ( Female reporter speaking on radio ) 15 00:00:59,972 --> 00:01:01,689 1000 dead, 16 00:01:01,723 --> 00:01:04,592 another estimated 200,000 displaced from their homes 17 00:01:04,626 --> 00:01:07,228 in what the governor of west bengal is calling 18 00:01:07,262 --> 00:01:09,230 one of the most devastating monsoons 19 00:01:09,264 --> 00:01:11,499 to hit the east coast... 20 00:01:11,533 --> 00:01:13,434 ( Static crackling ) 21 00:01:13,468 --> 00:01:15,436 Aid has been slow to arrive, 22 00:01:15,470 --> 00:01:17,505 as most of the local roads are flooded. 23 00:01:17,539 --> 00:01:19,707 Indian prime minister... 24 00:01:38,227 --> 00:01:40,061 ( Turns off radio ) 25 00:01:41,630 --> 00:01:45,900 ( Theme music playing ) 26 00:02:02,417 --> 00:02:04,385 You know, I have to admit 27 00:02:04,419 --> 00:02:06,821 I was a little bit worried the last time 28 00:02:06,855 --> 00:02:09,056 at the end of our session. 29 00:02:09,091 --> 00:02:10,825 Things are no better, Paul. 30 00:02:10,859 --> 00:02:12,827 In fact they are worse. 31 00:02:12,861 --> 00:02:15,162 Why? Has something... has something happened? 32 00:02:16,999 --> 00:02:18,966 Monsoons have flooded the region 33 00:02:19,001 --> 00:02:21,202 where my parents were raised... 34 00:02:21,236 --> 00:02:24,972 Entire village underwater. 35 00:02:25,007 --> 00:02:28,609 Well, I... I had no idea. 36 00:02:28,644 --> 00:02:30,077 I'm so sorry to hear that. 37 00:02:30,112 --> 00:02:31,846 How would you have any idea? 38 00:02:31,880 --> 00:02:35,349 Because floods have scarcely made the news here. 39 00:02:35,384 --> 00:02:39,754 Everything is about the New York Knicks. 40 00:02:39,788 --> 00:02:42,690 Who is this player... 41 00:02:42,724 --> 00:02:46,560 Amare Stoudemire? 42 00:02:46,595 --> 00:02:49,163 I'm searching to hear of the disaster in India 43 00:02:49,197 --> 00:02:51,198 and all they want to talk about 44 00:02:51,233 --> 00:02:54,802 is this basketball player, 45 00:02:54,836 --> 00:02:56,871 as if he's a superhero 46 00:02:56,905 --> 00:03:00,708 and he's going to save the world now. 47 00:03:00,742 --> 00:03:03,978 Now I'm all the time searching for news on the b.B.C. Channel 48 00:03:04,012 --> 00:03:07,248 or on this radio with this terrible reception. 49 00:03:07,282 --> 00:03:10,818 And... 50 00:03:10,852 --> 00:03:14,955 These pictures... they stay in my mind. 51 00:03:14,990 --> 00:03:18,526 And... and I'm having difficulty to sleep. 52 00:03:18,560 --> 00:03:20,528 So when you do manage to sleep, 53 00:03:20,562 --> 00:03:23,164 are you having any more of these disturbing dreams? 54 00:03:23,198 --> 00:03:25,132 I keep seeing the same image... 55 00:03:25,167 --> 00:03:27,134 You know, a boy, perhaps three or four. 56 00:03:27,169 --> 00:03:30,171 He's clinging to an automobile tire, 57 00:03:30,205 --> 00:03:32,506 and his head barely above water 58 00:03:32,541 --> 00:03:34,575 and his eyes, you know... they are pleading. 59 00:03:34,609 --> 00:03:36,010 This is in the dream? 60 00:03:36,044 --> 00:03:39,547 No no, this is real. It was on the news... B.B.C. News. 61 00:03:39,581 --> 00:03:42,016 I wanted to pass through the television 62 00:03:42,050 --> 00:03:44,218 and rescue that poor child. 63 00:03:44,252 --> 00:03:47,288 People are traveling from other areas to help. 64 00:03:47,322 --> 00:03:49,290 And I'm trapped in Brooklyn, 65 00:03:49,324 --> 00:03:53,494 useless, locked away like a prisoner. 66 00:03:53,528 --> 00:03:55,496 So is that what you feel like... 67 00:03:55,530 --> 00:03:58,165 like a prisoner in your son's home? 68 00:03:58,200 --> 00:03:59,433 My son is gone. 69 00:03:59,468 --> 00:04:01,869 He's been gone for three days, 70 00:04:01,903 --> 00:04:06,374 attending a medical conference in St. Louis. 71 00:04:06,408 --> 00:04:09,610 Before he left we watched the early reports together. 72 00:04:09,644 --> 00:04:11,645 He pointed to the television and said, 73 00:04:11,680 --> 00:04:14,548 "oh baba, I'm glad that you are not there." 74 00:04:14,583 --> 00:04:16,250 Hmm. 75 00:04:16,284 --> 00:04:19,053 I feel like 76 00:04:19,087 --> 00:04:21,589 I'm outside of my life. 77 00:04:21,623 --> 00:04:24,792 I feel like a... like a stranger. 78 00:04:24,826 --> 00:04:27,995 A prisoner, a stranger. 79 00:04:28,029 --> 00:04:29,830 I cannot stop myself from watching. 80 00:04:29,865 --> 00:04:32,099 I cannot change how I feel. 81 00:04:32,134 --> 00:04:34,702 I just wonder if there aren't other things 82 00:04:34,736 --> 00:04:38,906 that you might be able to change. 83 00:04:38,940 --> 00:04:42,009 Other things, meaning what? 84 00:04:42,043 --> 00:04:46,147 Look, Sunil, 85 00:04:46,181 --> 00:04:48,182 things can't go on as they are. 86 00:04:48,216 --> 00:04:50,684 What about the possibility 87 00:04:50,719 --> 00:04:53,888 of your moving from your son's home? 88 00:04:53,922 --> 00:04:57,158 I know you can't go back to Calcutta... you told me that... 89 00:04:57,192 --> 00:05:00,361 but finding someplace else to live. 90 00:05:06,301 --> 00:05:10,304 And where... 91 00:05:10,338 --> 00:05:14,175 Where, please tell me, would that be? 92 00:05:15,510 --> 00:05:17,945 Your own apartment? 93 00:05:19,514 --> 00:05:21,816 Okay. 94 00:05:21,850 --> 00:05:25,953 And... and who would pay... pay for this? 95 00:05:25,987 --> 00:05:27,321 You could get a job. 96 00:05:27,355 --> 00:05:30,891 Like selling printer cartridges at best buy 97 00:05:30,926 --> 00:05:33,928 or standing behind a kebab wagon? 98 00:05:33,962 --> 00:05:37,264 I cannot do that, Paul. I will not. 99 00:05:37,299 --> 00:05:38,766 I'm not suggesting that you... 100 00:05:38,800 --> 00:05:41,068 But you're just wasting your time, Paul. 101 00:05:41,102 --> 00:05:43,737 See, I'm as helpless to change my surroundings 102 00:05:43,772 --> 00:05:45,372 as those people in my country 103 00:05:45,407 --> 00:05:48,742 who are unable to save their houses from floodwaters. 104 00:05:50,312 --> 00:05:52,913 I know you are a hopeful man, my friend. 105 00:05:52,948 --> 00:05:55,749 You like to think that you can... 106 00:05:55,784 --> 00:05:57,651 You can fix everything. 107 00:05:57,686 --> 00:06:00,254 I think that you have to talk with your son. 108 00:06:00,288 --> 00:06:02,756 No, just... just hear me out on this. 109 00:06:02,791 --> 00:06:04,592 You're not happy where you are. 110 00:06:04,626 --> 00:06:07,127 And it's pretty obvious that having you in their home 111 00:06:07,162 --> 00:06:09,196 hasn't been easy for them either. 112 00:06:09,231 --> 00:06:11,098 Yet you've never spoken to your son about this. 113 00:06:11,132 --> 00:06:13,567 You've never expressed to him directly 114 00:06:13,602 --> 00:06:17,471 what you feel or what it is exactly that you want. 115 00:06:17,506 --> 00:06:20,674 ( Speaks bengali ) 116 00:06:20,709 --> 00:06:22,276 I didn't understand that. 117 00:06:22,310 --> 00:06:24,778 ( Speaks bengali ) 118 00:06:24,813 --> 00:06:27,081 ( Sighs ) 119 00:06:28,583 --> 00:06:30,518 I said 120 00:06:30,552 --> 00:06:33,254 that you are wasting my time too. 121 00:06:37,025 --> 00:06:39,293 I know, I know it can be difficult 122 00:06:39,327 --> 00:06:41,562 to talk to family, 123 00:06:41,596 --> 00:06:43,898 your children, in a completely honest way 124 00:06:43,932 --> 00:06:46,267 because you risk a painful conversation. 125 00:06:46,301 --> 00:06:49,003 This is just a strategy, yes... 126 00:06:49,037 --> 00:06:51,438 to tell me you know how I feel? 127 00:06:51,473 --> 00:06:53,641 No no, it's not a strategy. 128 00:06:53,675 --> 00:06:56,577 Look, Sunil, I have kids myself. 129 00:06:56,611 --> 00:06:58,546 I know what this is like... 130 00:06:58,580 --> 00:07:01,282 to sometimes want to put off 131 00:07:01,316 --> 00:07:03,183 difficult discussions. 132 00:07:03,218 --> 00:07:05,419 But you don't know my son, Paul. 133 00:07:05,453 --> 00:07:07,988 You have no idea. 134 00:07:08,023 --> 00:07:10,024 I'm telling you with certainty 135 00:07:10,058 --> 00:07:12,660 there's nothing to be gained... 136 00:07:12,694 --> 00:07:14,461 absolutely nothing. 137 00:07:14,496 --> 00:07:16,330 You're so convinced that he's not gonna help you. 138 00:07:16,364 --> 00:07:18,265 How can you know that for sure? 139 00:07:18,300 --> 00:07:21,602 Because I've already spoken to him 140 00:07:21,636 --> 00:07:24,838 the night before he left. 141 00:07:24,873 --> 00:07:27,174 I was thinking of you, Paul... 142 00:07:27,208 --> 00:07:29,810 How you encourage me to express myself. 143 00:07:29,844 --> 00:07:32,880 So I told him the truth. 144 00:07:32,914 --> 00:07:35,983 I told him that seeing the images made me certain 145 00:07:36,017 --> 00:07:38,252 and I need to return. 146 00:07:38,286 --> 00:07:42,089 Here I'm useless. I'm only in the way here, to let me go. 147 00:07:42,123 --> 00:07:44,058 And what did he say to that? 148 00:07:44,092 --> 00:07:46,460 He told me that he would never let me go back to Calcutta, 149 00:07:46,494 --> 00:07:48,429 he had made a promise, 150 00:07:48,463 --> 00:07:50,798 and he could never betray his mother. 151 00:07:50,832 --> 00:07:53,567 He also told me that... 152 00:07:53,602 --> 00:07:56,570 "why do you want to make a fool of yourself? 153 00:07:56,605 --> 00:07:58,906 What will you do back in India, 154 00:07:58,940 --> 00:08:01,709 in all that water, jobless?" 155 00:08:01,743 --> 00:08:04,745 Then he said, "Julia will send a check 156 00:08:04,779 --> 00:08:07,514 to the red cross in your name," 157 00:08:07,549 --> 00:08:10,217 and that they would buy me 158 00:08:10,251 --> 00:08:12,620 a queen-sized mattress 159 00:08:12,654 --> 00:08:15,255 from Macy's departmental store. 160 00:08:18,660 --> 00:08:20,928 Later that night I overheard them 161 00:08:20,962 --> 00:08:22,863 talking in the kitchen. 162 00:08:22,897 --> 00:08:25,599 Julia was saying, "oh, if he wants to go, let him go." 163 00:08:25,634 --> 00:08:27,801 And she said 164 00:08:27,836 --> 00:08:29,803 she was not comfortable 165 00:08:29,838 --> 00:08:31,972 staying with me alone in the house. 166 00:08:32,007 --> 00:08:33,907 And what did Arun say to that? 167 00:08:33,942 --> 00:08:36,777 He told Julia that she was being dramatic and ridiculous 168 00:08:36,811 --> 00:08:39,279 and that he felt better having a man there 169 00:08:39,314 --> 00:08:42,916 to protect her and the children while he was away. 170 00:08:42,951 --> 00:08:46,587 Then Julia called me 171 00:08:46,621 --> 00:08:48,255 unstable, 172 00:08:48,289 --> 00:08:51,125 this word "unstable"... 173 00:08:51,159 --> 00:08:54,895 like an old fruit wagon with loose wheels. 174 00:08:54,929 --> 00:08:57,197 To be called this word... 175 00:08:57,232 --> 00:08:59,166 I held a position 176 00:08:59,200 --> 00:09:01,935 of mathematics professor for 28 years. 177 00:09:01,970 --> 00:09:04,238 I was married to Kamala for 30 years. 178 00:09:04,272 --> 00:09:06,573 Is this a profile of someone 179 00:09:06,608 --> 00:09:09,910 who is unstable? 180 00:09:09,944 --> 00:09:13,447 If anything, she is unstable... Julia. 181 00:09:13,481 --> 00:09:15,916 She has been behaving like a madperson... 182 00:09:15,950 --> 00:09:18,585 madperson since Arun went away. 183 00:09:18,620 --> 00:09:21,488 How do you mean, she's behaving like a madperson? What is she doing? 184 00:09:21,523 --> 00:09:23,490 She's continuing her adventures 185 00:09:23,525 --> 00:09:25,492 with Mr. Ethan Barr... the pale fox. 186 00:09:25,527 --> 00:09:28,896 On Saturday night they went out, 187 00:09:28,930 --> 00:09:30,898 leaving Naya with an upset stomach. 188 00:09:30,932 --> 00:09:33,033 And you were watching the children? 189 00:09:33,068 --> 00:09:35,002 No no, I'm not allowed. 190 00:09:35,036 --> 00:09:37,838 She would not allow that. 191 00:09:37,872 --> 00:09:40,240 Liza the nanny... 192 00:09:40,275 --> 00:09:42,710 She stayed late. 193 00:09:42,744 --> 00:09:45,145 Uh-huh. 194 00:09:48,016 --> 00:09:50,851 He actually came up to the door to pick her up. 195 00:09:50,885 --> 00:09:52,019 So you met him? 196 00:09:52,053 --> 00:09:54,021 Yeah, he is not quite as handsome 197 00:09:54,055 --> 00:09:56,623 as he appears on the jacket cover. 198 00:09:56,658 --> 00:09:58,726 And did you speak to him? Did he...? 199 00:09:58,760 --> 00:10:01,929 We shook hands. 200 00:10:01,963 --> 00:10:03,997 He's young, 201 00:10:04,032 --> 00:10:06,533 more modest than I thought. 202 00:10:06,568 --> 00:10:09,069 I congratulated him on his success. 203 00:10:09,104 --> 00:10:11,939 Then he said something which surprised me. 204 00:10:11,973 --> 00:10:13,941 He said that... "I have heard 205 00:10:13,975 --> 00:10:16,844 quite a lot about you." 206 00:10:16,878 --> 00:10:18,846 When they walked down the stairs 207 00:10:18,880 --> 00:10:22,850 they looked back at me and they laughed. 208 00:10:22,884 --> 00:10:25,119 You thought they were laughing at you? 209 00:10:25,153 --> 00:10:27,087 Please, Paul, you must trust me. 210 00:10:27,122 --> 00:10:29,156 If you had seen for yourself, 211 00:10:29,190 --> 00:10:33,894 you could not doubt me this time... not this time. 212 00:10:33,928 --> 00:10:36,663 My son said he wanted me there to protect her, 213 00:10:36,698 --> 00:10:39,333 but I felt quite the opposite. 214 00:10:39,367 --> 00:10:41,668 I wished to smother her laughing. 215 00:10:41,703 --> 00:10:44,304 To... 216 00:10:44,339 --> 00:10:46,306 Let me get this straight... 217 00:10:46,341 --> 00:10:48,842 To smother the sound of her laughter 218 00:10:48,877 --> 00:10:52,045 or to smother her? 219 00:10:52,080 --> 00:10:54,181 They were laughing at me, Paul. 220 00:10:54,215 --> 00:10:55,849 Yeah, I understand... 221 00:10:55,884 --> 00:10:58,218 No, you don't understand. They were humiliating me. 222 00:11:03,892 --> 00:11:07,561 See, now look at your face. I have alarmed you now. 223 00:11:07,595 --> 00:11:11,165 Yes actually, because the words that you're using are... 224 00:11:11,199 --> 00:11:13,167 I'm trying to share with you 225 00:11:13,201 --> 00:11:15,035 how their laughter disturbed me. 226 00:11:15,069 --> 00:11:18,272 I'm trying to express myself, as you say. 227 00:11:18,306 --> 00:11:21,108 - You understand this, yes? - I think so, yes. 228 00:11:21,142 --> 00:11:24,244 Good. Because it only grew worse. 229 00:11:24,279 --> 00:11:26,580 At 1:00 230 00:11:26,614 --> 00:11:29,616 I heard talking in front of the building. 231 00:11:29,651 --> 00:11:32,219 My window faces the street. 232 00:11:33,388 --> 00:11:37,057 I saw Julia and Ethan barr. 233 00:11:37,091 --> 00:11:40,694 He escorted her up the steps 234 00:11:40,728 --> 00:11:43,363 and then... and then 235 00:11:43,398 --> 00:11:46,133 kissed her goodnight. 236 00:11:48,469 --> 00:11:50,671 What do you make of this? 237 00:11:50,705 --> 00:11:54,341 Well, it depends what kind of a kiss it was. 238 00:11:54,375 --> 00:11:55,676 A kiss is a kiss. 239 00:11:55,710 --> 00:11:58,478 Don't you think I know what a kiss looks like? 240 00:11:58,513 --> 00:11:59,780 Well, was it on the lips? 241 00:11:59,814 --> 00:12:01,615 No no, it was on the cheek. 242 00:12:01,649 --> 00:12:03,650 Well, that's not really an uncommon thing 243 00:12:03,685 --> 00:12:06,186 for people in America to do when they're saying goodbye. 244 00:12:06,221 --> 00:12:10,023 I know, I know. You will think what you want to think. 245 00:12:12,994 --> 00:12:14,962 Anyway, after he kissed her, 246 00:12:14,996 --> 00:12:17,831 Julia carefully lifted her hand 247 00:12:17,866 --> 00:12:21,501 to a spot below his eye 248 00:12:21,536 --> 00:12:25,105 and then gently drew the back of her curled fingers 249 00:12:25,139 --> 00:12:28,141 down his cheek. 250 00:12:31,379 --> 00:12:35,582 Julia never touches my son's face in this manner. 251 00:12:35,617 --> 00:12:38,218 How much proof do you need, Paul? 252 00:12:38,253 --> 00:12:41,855 Last week I brought you solid evidence... 253 00:12:41,890 --> 00:12:44,858 Her birth control pills... and you still want more. 254 00:12:44,893 --> 00:12:47,261 Is this not enough? 255 00:12:47,295 --> 00:12:48,896 Not necessarily. 256 00:12:48,930 --> 00:12:50,898 It's not acceptable, Paul. 257 00:12:50,932 --> 00:12:53,033 She is disgracing my family. 258 00:12:53,067 --> 00:12:54,935 After I witnessed the kiss, 259 00:12:54,969 --> 00:12:57,170 I could not move from the window. 260 00:13:00,575 --> 00:13:02,542 I could hear her 261 00:13:02,577 --> 00:13:04,678 down on the second floor, preparing her bed. 262 00:13:04,712 --> 00:13:07,981 And I thought I heard her lock her bedroom door. 263 00:13:08,016 --> 00:13:10,017 She did not even come upstairs 264 00:13:10,051 --> 00:13:12,185 to check on Naya. 265 00:13:12,220 --> 00:13:14,187 And then I wanted to go to sleep, 266 00:13:14,222 --> 00:13:17,557 but I could not stop myself thinking of Julia 267 00:13:17,592 --> 00:13:19,593 lying on her bed, 268 00:13:19,627 --> 00:13:21,528 who she was thinking of. 269 00:13:29,938 --> 00:13:31,905 I think it all would be better 270 00:13:31,940 --> 00:13:35,409 if she ran off with Mr. pale fox 271 00:13:35,443 --> 00:13:37,945 or she simply disappears. 272 00:13:41,282 --> 00:13:43,784 Disappears? What do you... 273 00:13:43,818 --> 00:13:47,120 What do you mean by that... disappears? 274 00:13:48,823 --> 00:13:50,824 I have to say that some of the words 275 00:13:50,858 --> 00:13:54,995 that you've used today, Sunil... 276 00:13:55,029 --> 00:13:57,965 I really want to understand 277 00:13:57,999 --> 00:14:00,901 what it is that you are trying to say to me. 278 00:14:00,935 --> 00:14:03,904 If your feelings are as extreme 279 00:14:03,938 --> 00:14:05,572 as I'm hearing them today... 280 00:14:05,606 --> 00:14:08,475 You asked me whether I had 281 00:14:08,509 --> 00:14:10,410 more disturbing dreams. 282 00:14:10,445 --> 00:14:14,181 I have had one again. 283 00:14:14,215 --> 00:14:17,117 - The same one? - No, a different one. 284 00:14:17,151 --> 00:14:19,252 It was quite troubling. 285 00:14:23,591 --> 00:14:27,327 Do you want to tell me about it? 286 00:14:29,530 --> 00:14:31,264 Yeah. 287 00:14:32,300 --> 00:14:34,267 Perhaps it will help you 288 00:14:34,302 --> 00:14:37,704 to make sense of my feelings. 289 00:14:37,739 --> 00:14:39,906 I hope so. 290 00:14:43,878 --> 00:14:47,481 I saw my son Arun 291 00:14:47,515 --> 00:14:49,916 lying on the street in front of the house. 292 00:14:49,951 --> 00:14:52,586 And he was unconscious. 293 00:14:52,620 --> 00:14:54,287 The children were inside, 294 00:14:54,322 --> 00:14:56,490 looking out the window. They were afraid. 295 00:14:56,524 --> 00:14:59,092 Beyond the street there was a forest 296 00:14:59,127 --> 00:15:03,230 of thick black trees. 297 00:15:03,264 --> 00:15:07,534 And a woman with long dark hair 298 00:15:07,568 --> 00:15:10,470 came walking out of the forest. 299 00:15:10,505 --> 00:15:12,506 She wore a long white gown, 300 00:15:12,540 --> 00:15:14,541 bright as the moon. 301 00:15:14,575 --> 00:15:16,843 And I was standing over my son. 302 00:15:16,878 --> 00:15:20,213 And as the woman started walking towards the house, 303 00:15:20,248 --> 00:15:23,316 I was trying to hold my son's arm. 304 00:15:23,351 --> 00:15:25,152 And I pulled it 305 00:15:25,186 --> 00:15:29,423 and it broke cleanly off 306 00:15:29,457 --> 00:15:33,326 like a piece of old plaster. 307 00:15:33,361 --> 00:15:36,329 So I was thinking that I should use this arm 308 00:15:36,364 --> 00:15:38,098 to protect the children. 309 00:15:38,132 --> 00:15:39,900 To protect the children from this woman? 310 00:15:39,934 --> 00:15:43,603 Now the arm was quite heavy, dense. 311 00:15:43,638 --> 00:15:46,273 I could hurt this woman very much. 312 00:15:46,307 --> 00:15:50,077 And... 313 00:15:52,013 --> 00:15:53,980 I woke up 314 00:15:54,015 --> 00:15:56,183 as I was about to strike her. 315 00:15:56,217 --> 00:15:59,419 So you were going to strike this woman 316 00:15:59,454 --> 00:16:02,389 to protect your grandchildren? 317 00:16:02,423 --> 00:16:04,858 I'm quite confused by this woman. 318 00:16:04,892 --> 00:16:06,726 Who do you think she could be? 319 00:16:06,761 --> 00:16:09,729 Well, sometimes it's not so much 320 00:16:09,764 --> 00:16:14,101 the physical similarity as the feeling. 321 00:16:14,135 --> 00:16:16,736 Do you think it could be Julia? 322 00:16:19,073 --> 00:16:22,175 No, she had dark hair. 323 00:16:22,210 --> 00:16:25,645 It was dark, black as onyx. 324 00:16:25,680 --> 00:16:28,215 And Julia's hair is yellow. 325 00:16:29,951 --> 00:16:33,920 Perhaps it was Julia in disguise. 326 00:16:33,955 --> 00:16:37,290 Is that how you see Julia... in disguise? 327 00:16:37,325 --> 00:16:40,460 Do you see her as a threat? 328 00:16:40,495 --> 00:16:42,863 She has a secret life. 329 00:16:46,234 --> 00:16:48,869 The woman was most definitely not Kamala. 330 00:16:48,903 --> 00:16:50,704 What makes you so sure of that? 331 00:16:50,738 --> 00:16:53,206 Because I would never think of harming my wife. 332 00:16:53,241 --> 00:16:55,575 Do you feel that you could harm Julia? 333 00:16:57,545 --> 00:17:00,747 The thing I found strange was 334 00:17:00,781 --> 00:17:04,985 that I could not make out the details of the woman's face 335 00:17:05,019 --> 00:17:07,020 even when she drew very close. 336 00:17:07,054 --> 00:17:10,157 You know, I started to grip my son's arm with great force. 337 00:17:10,191 --> 00:17:13,326 I could feel the blood pulsing into my hands. 338 00:17:13,361 --> 00:17:16,229 And she was so close 339 00:17:16,264 --> 00:17:19,466 that I could almost smell the flower she wore in her hair, 340 00:17:19,500 --> 00:17:22,335 but I could not see her face. 341 00:17:22,336 --> 00:17:25,438 The flower in her hair like in the El Greco painting? 342 00:17:25,473 --> 00:17:26,973 Sorry? 343 00:17:27,008 --> 00:17:28,642 That's the painting you mentioned 344 00:17:28,676 --> 00:17:32,412 when you first spoke of Malini. 345 00:17:35,816 --> 00:17:37,150 What do you mean? 346 00:17:37,185 --> 00:17:41,588 Well, you've just spoken about her death 347 00:17:41,622 --> 00:17:45,258 after 32 years of silence. 348 00:17:45,293 --> 00:17:49,129 It's not surprising that some form of her... 349 00:17:49,163 --> 00:17:51,398 even the slightest gesture or detail... 350 00:17:51,432 --> 00:17:54,100 might show up in your dream. 351 00:17:54,135 --> 00:17:55,569 Like a rabbit in a hat? 352 00:17:55,603 --> 00:17:57,904 Bong! Oh, there she is. 353 00:17:57,939 --> 00:17:59,906 You said that you felt you had this need 354 00:17:59,941 --> 00:18:01,841 to protect your grandchildren. 355 00:18:01,876 --> 00:18:05,879 You said you felt the blood rushing into your hands 356 00:18:05,913 --> 00:18:09,015 and that you were prepared 357 00:18:09,050 --> 00:18:11,585 to harm this woman. 358 00:18:13,454 --> 00:18:17,023 See, Paul, I no longer wish to discuss this dream. 359 00:18:17,058 --> 00:18:18,892 Okay. 360 00:18:18,926 --> 00:18:21,361 Can I ask you why? 361 00:18:21,395 --> 00:18:23,496 Because I cannot see the point of this exercise. 362 00:18:23,531 --> 00:18:25,565 But I'm confused. A moment ago you asked me 363 00:18:25,600 --> 00:18:28,501 to help you understand these nightmares that you're having, 364 00:18:28,536 --> 00:18:31,404 to help you make sense of the feelings that you're having. 365 00:18:31,439 --> 00:18:33,940 So that's what I'd like to do. 366 00:18:33,975 --> 00:18:36,843 For instance, this woman coming from the forest... 367 00:18:36,877 --> 00:18:40,113 It's clear that she has a big effect on you. 368 00:18:42,049 --> 00:18:45,285 Do you... you disagree with that? 369 00:18:47,388 --> 00:18:50,857 See, the image of you removing your son's arm... 370 00:18:50,891 --> 00:18:54,694 Well, sometimes there's something primal 371 00:18:54,729 --> 00:18:57,731 or animalistic 372 00:18:57,765 --> 00:19:00,634 that dreams allow us to express 373 00:19:00,668 --> 00:19:02,535 that our conscious mind is... 374 00:19:02,570 --> 00:19:05,005 ( shouting in bengali ) 375 00:19:20,288 --> 00:19:22,622 A man can only be pushed so far. 376 00:19:22,657 --> 00:19:25,825 I have decided it was not Malini in my dream. 377 00:19:25,860 --> 00:19:28,662 And it upsets me very much for you to suggest this. 378 00:19:28,696 --> 00:19:30,630 I... I... 379 00:19:30,665 --> 00:19:34,401 I would never ever think of harming Malini. 380 00:19:34,435 --> 00:19:37,370 Why would you think I would assume you'd hurt Malini? 381 00:19:41,776 --> 00:19:45,378 Okay, we don't have to talk about that now. 382 00:19:47,882 --> 00:19:50,050 ( Speaks bengali ) 383 00:19:50,084 --> 00:19:52,419 I don't understand what you're saying. 384 00:19:52,453 --> 00:19:56,423 You have no idea what my life has been. 385 00:19:56,457 --> 00:19:59,726 But I want to understand. I want to know. 386 00:20:15,509 --> 00:20:17,477 Can I ask you what you did 387 00:20:17,511 --> 00:20:21,081 when you woke up from the dream? 388 00:20:24,251 --> 00:20:26,553 I checked on the children. 389 00:20:26,587 --> 00:20:28,621 They were fine, sleeping. 390 00:20:28,656 --> 00:20:31,024 I then went down to Julia's room. 391 00:20:31,058 --> 00:20:33,159 I could not resist. I wanted to check 392 00:20:33,194 --> 00:20:36,096 to see if her door was in fact locked. 393 00:20:36,130 --> 00:20:38,598 And? 394 00:20:38,632 --> 00:20:41,835 It was. 395 00:20:46,340 --> 00:20:50,844 What would you have done if her door wasn't locked? 396 00:20:50,878 --> 00:20:53,713 Her door would not open, and this is all that matters. 397 00:20:53,748 --> 00:20:56,516 No, but I'm asking you, what would you have done 398 00:20:56,550 --> 00:20:59,953 if the door had been open? 399 00:21:03,324 --> 00:21:05,959 I thought of calling you. 400 00:21:07,561 --> 00:21:09,696 Why didn't you? 401 00:21:09,730 --> 00:21:12,332 It was the middle of the night. 402 00:21:12,366 --> 00:21:15,735 And things felt 403 00:21:15,770 --> 00:21:19,005 out of balance. 404 00:21:19,039 --> 00:21:22,375 Then I went upstairs to my room 405 00:21:22,410 --> 00:21:24,344 and I wrote to Kamala. 406 00:21:24,378 --> 00:21:26,613 Can I ask you what you wrote? 407 00:21:33,020 --> 00:21:36,022 I really did consider calling you. 408 00:21:37,925 --> 00:21:42,228 The next time I want you to do that. 409 00:21:42,263 --> 00:21:43,730 Okay? 410 00:21:43,764 --> 00:21:47,000 Yeah, perhaps. 411 00:21:50,404 --> 00:21:53,673 Sunil, there's so much going on 412 00:21:53,707 --> 00:21:55,708 in your life at the moment: 413 00:21:55,743 --> 00:21:57,911 You've lost your wife. 414 00:21:57,945 --> 00:22:00,380 You've started to talk about a love affair 415 00:22:00,414 --> 00:22:02,081 that ended in tragedy. 416 00:22:02,116 --> 00:22:03,550 You're worried about your son. 417 00:22:03,584 --> 00:22:05,485 You're worried about your grandchildren. 418 00:22:05,519 --> 00:22:08,021 You have these conflicted ideas 419 00:22:08,055 --> 00:22:11,057 about your daughter-in-law. 420 00:22:11,091 --> 00:22:13,092 You're anxious about the floods 421 00:22:13,127 --> 00:22:15,328 in your homeland... in India. 422 00:22:15,362 --> 00:22:18,965 I'm concerned about you, Sunil... 423 00:22:18,999 --> 00:22:21,301 that with all of these intense feelings 424 00:22:21,335 --> 00:22:23,102 coming to the surface 425 00:22:23,137 --> 00:22:27,373 I understand how difficult it could be 426 00:22:27,408 --> 00:22:31,211 for you to stay in control. 427 00:22:31,245 --> 00:22:33,813 And I... I want to suggest 428 00:22:33,848 --> 00:22:35,915 that you consider coming here 429 00:22:35,950 --> 00:22:39,385 a little more often, maybe twice a week. 430 00:22:39,420 --> 00:22:41,988 You think I'm going crazy? 431 00:22:42,022 --> 00:22:44,991 No no no no, you're not... you're not crazy, 432 00:22:45,025 --> 00:22:47,193 I assure you. 433 00:22:47,228 --> 00:22:49,896 I have patients who come to see me two-three times a week, 434 00:22:49,930 --> 00:22:52,565 but it doesn't mean they're crazy. 435 00:22:52,600 --> 00:22:55,034 It's just that they can benefit 436 00:22:55,069 --> 00:22:58,738 from working more on themselves, 437 00:22:58,772 --> 00:23:00,773 going deeper with therapy. 438 00:23:00,808 --> 00:23:03,276 Julia and Arun... 439 00:23:03,310 --> 00:23:06,012 they have done enough for me. 440 00:23:06,046 --> 00:23:07,981 And I would prefer 441 00:23:08,015 --> 00:23:09,716 not to ask anything more than this. 442 00:23:09,750 --> 00:23:11,784 Well, would you like me to talk to them for you? 443 00:23:11,819 --> 00:23:15,188 No no, please. I would not prefer that. 444 00:23:37,878 --> 00:23:39,846 Do you pray, Paul? 445 00:23:41,515 --> 00:23:43,683 Do I... do I pray? 446 00:23:43,717 --> 00:23:45,919 Yes. 447 00:23:45,953 --> 00:23:47,921 Sometimes, yes. 448 00:23:47,955 --> 00:23:49,756 Then please pray. 449 00:23:49,790 --> 00:23:52,325 For what? 450 00:23:55,429 --> 00:23:58,164 For the rains to stop in India. 451 00:24:00,799 --> 00:24:11,234 Sync by honeybunny www.addic7ed.com