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How did the week go?
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This week and previously applause with loud.
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What happens between then and now?
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I go home.
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What do you think
of the life you chose?
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It's a nasty hangover. My life.
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Are you upset with me?
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Because I said I wouldn't
come to your play?
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Isn't there anyone else
you'd like to ask instead?
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I'd really like for my mother
to be able to be there.
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Twenty years ago you were afraid
you didn't have the strength
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to see your mother through her death.
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Now your sister is dying
and you're terrified again.
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I got the result for the brca1 test.
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It will give us something
to talk about next week.
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Sync by honeybunny
www.addic7ed.com
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( Clears throat )
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Is this normal?
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What?
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For it to be so hard
to get started,
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you know, to sit here for so
long and not say anything?
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It's actually only been
a minute or two,
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but yeah, it's quite common.
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If I didn't say anything
for the whole hour,
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would you say something
eventually
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or would you just sit there?
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45 minutes later...
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"It's time.
We'll pick up here next week."
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Eventually I would
say something, yeah,
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but the silences
are instructive.
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How long before you intervene?
What's the record?
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What's the longest
silence by a patient?
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20-25 minutes.
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Yeah?
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- Who blinked first?
- I did.
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Finally I said,
"what are you thinking about?"
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And she said,
"I've just been sitting here
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wondering when you were
gonna say something."
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So what are you thinking about?
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( Theme music playing )
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So last week
as you were leaving
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you said that you'd gotten
the results of your test,
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but you hadn't
looked at them yet.
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I'm not ready to talk
about that yet.
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How come?
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Did you look at the results?
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Izzy...
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I'm sitting here
thinking about Izzy.
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You've heard from her?
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Only when she wants something.
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Last week I got
an email, a text,
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three messages on my voicemail.
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It's more communication than
I've had from her in months.
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She wanted to download some
music and needed my password.
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Well, maybe that was her way
of breaking the ice.
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Oh, by whining and begging,
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issuing demands?
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You sound like you're
kind of angry with her.
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Maybe it's time
r you to see her.
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I did.
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When?
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This week.
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I had her scarf, remember?
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Oh yes, the one that
you took from Tricia's.
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And some other things.
I had a t-shirt that she loved
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and some paperbacks.
I stuffed them all in a backpack
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and I went down to her
school and ambushed her.
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Ambushed her?
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Well, if I'd told her
I was coming,
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she never would have
stayed put.
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Anyway, she was out front,
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chatting with some friends
on the steps.
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She looked
very grown-up,
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chic,
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full of life.
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I just stood there and watched
her for a few minutes.
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And what was that like?
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It was sort of surreal.
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It was like
looking into the future.
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Who is
this young woman?
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I mean, where'd she come from?
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I don't know.
She...
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She looked sort of confused
when she saw me, surprised.
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Her friends
were gawking.
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And then this confident
young woman
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just evaporated
in front of my eyes
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and she went back to being this
sullen, obnoxious little...
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Well, they're grown-ups
around their friends.
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But they're... they're
still children with us.
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Did you speak to her?
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She always licks her lips
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when she gets nervous, you know?
It's compulsive.
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She did it all the time
when she was a child.
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She used to have this red ring
of irritation around her mouth.
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She started doing that when
she was talking to me.
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I said,
"honey, don't do that,"
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and I offered her
some chapstick.
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You would have thought
that I tried
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to scald her with a hot poker.
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I mean, she just fled.
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And did that hurt you?
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Oh no.
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I'm used to stuff like that.
That didn't hurt me.
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What she did after hurt me.
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What did she do?
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She texted me.
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"Thanks for bringing the scarf.
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You should call Trish.
She's really sick now.
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She looks
like a skeleton."
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It's always about Trish.
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You know, I haven't seen
my daughter for months...
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I mean, not really,
not in any meaningful way.
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She's been spending every
waking minute with my sister.
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I finally reach out to her.
I see her once,
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and what does she do?
She texts me about Trish.
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How did you feel when you heard
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that Patricia looked
like a skeleton?
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Well, how do you think I felt?
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I don't know. I'm finding it kind
of hard to read your reaction,
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but I imagine that it must
have been hard to hear.
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It was very hard.
I couldn't even take it in.
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I just texted Izzy back
and said,
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you know, "great
seeing you, darling."
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And "I'll call Trish
after the show."
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And did you?
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Why?
You agree with Izzy?
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You think I should
call my sister?
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Yes, I do.
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I think that you should
call your sister.
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Well, I went out
and got laid instead.
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I know, I know
you're judging me,
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but I don't care.
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I haven't been with anyone
since Russell.
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25 and very handsome.
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No body fat... none.
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Actually I was a little worried.
I thought,
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"I wonder if he gets
cold in the winter."
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Part of me wanted to fuck him,
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part of me wanted to take him
home and wrap him in a blanket
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and give him a great big meal.
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It was that
maternal-erotic thing
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you were
talking about.
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So this man that you...
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Oh, he's in the cast...
Eddie, Eduardo.
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Well, you know
the script, right?
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He is one of Maxine's
houseboys.
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After the preview I went out for
a quick drink with the cast.
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And I was gonna call Tricia
afterwards, when I got home.
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I knew she'd be up.
She sleeps during the day
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and then she's up at night...
you know, the morphine.
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You haven't done that before, have
you... gone out with the cast?
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Well, they've been
bugging me.
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I've just been avoiding it.
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( Sighs )
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He kept buying me martinis.
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I'm a lightweight.
I only need one drink.
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But halfway through the third
I asked him to show me
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where he lived, just like that.
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Wasn't that bold of me?
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Do you think it was the
alcohol that made you bold?
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Didn't hurt.
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Two years.
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I kept telling myself,
"don't worry, Frances,
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it's like riding
a bicycle."
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And was it?
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He took off my shirt
and touched me,
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and I thought I was
gonna lose it.
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I mean, he loved my breasts.
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You sound surprised.
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I'm not 25 or synthetic,
if you know what I mean.
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And he just kept kissing them
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and touching them.
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Well, I forgot
how sensitive they are.
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Are you shocked?
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No.
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Oh please.
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Are you trying to shock me?
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No, I just know
how squeamish you are.
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What about my behavior would
make you think I'm squeamish?
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Well, your whole life
seems squeamish to me.
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I mean, no wonder
Trish loved you so much.
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She always had a thing
for repressed men.
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I'm... I'm struck
by the fact
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that you went out
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and that you had sex
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for the first time in two years
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when you were confronted
by the very real image
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of your sister being sick...
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very sick.
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What's the connection
between the two events?
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I wanted to feel good
instead of bad.
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Do you think there
might be anything else?
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No, but clearly you do.
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So why don't you just
tell me what it is?
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Well, let me ask you something:
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Had you opened your test
results by that night?
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No.
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Have you opened them since?
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The first thing
that you mentioned
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about having sex with this man
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was how good he made
your breasts feel.
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I know that
you've talked about
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not being able to imagine
having mastectomies
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if the test proved positive.
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Do you think you might
have been looking
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to shield yourself,
to arm yourself
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with reasons
not to have the operation,
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to be reminded
that your breasts
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are sensual
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and that you cannot imagine
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ever losing them?
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I thought about
reading the results
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after sleeping with Eddie.
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I thought, you know,
time to face reality.
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I left there
at 3:00 A.M.
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I just... I couldn't
stay any longer.
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Why not?
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I was just lying awake,
staring at him.
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He was tangled in the sheets.
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He looked so impossibly young.
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So how did you feel
when you went home?
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You told me before
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that your house
felt empty.
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No, I was relieved.
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It was good to be alone
after all that intimacy.
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I got home.
I put on some Lucinda Williams.
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That seemed appropriate,
you know.
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She's all about
heartbreak and longing.
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And I smoked a little pot.
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And I sat there
staring at the envelope.
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So did you open it?
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I couldn't.
I mean,
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"I'll open this envelope,"
I thought,
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"and I'll find out I'm gonna
be dead in five years,
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and then what?
Who am I gonna call
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to help me
through this?"
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So I just sat there
staring at it.
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And then the pot
eventually made me sleepy.
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I went to bed.
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So who do you think of
when you say
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that you want somebody
to get you through this?
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I don't know.
I mean, Tricia's got
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all these people
getting her through it.
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I mean, she's got
my daughter, right?
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She's got an army of
girlfriends on top of that.
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She's probably got
Russell, you know,
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delivering meals or something.
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He always wished that I
could be more like her.
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Why do you say that?
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Oh, just the way
they'd look at each other
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when she'd come over
for dinner... I knew.
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Are you saying that
they looked at each other
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in, what, a sexual way?
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No, Russell would never
have slept with her.
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She wasn't beautiful enough.
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She set us up because she
wanted to keep him in her life.
257
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Are you suggesting that Tricia
used you to stay close to Russell
258
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for some kind of
emotional affair?
259
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You think she's
so perfect, you know.
260
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Tricia has everybody convinced
she's some kind of a Saint.
261
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Except you?
262
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You don't see her like that?
263
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Guess who else
had sex this weekend.
264
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Izzy and Miller.
265
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How do you know that?
266
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Izzy emailed Trish.
Yeah, she wrote,
267
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"I'm glad we got that
over with.
268
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It wasn't as bad as I
imagined it would be."
269
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What's gonna happen
to that girl?
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First her grandmother,
then her aunt,
271
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quite possibly her mom.
272
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She's gonna feel doomed.
273
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Doomed to lose her mother?
274
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Tricia's favorite statistic...
275
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87% chance that
you'll get breast cancer
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if you test positive
for the gene.
277
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That's my fate.
278
00:12:40,569 --> 00:12:43,170
But that doesn't have
to be your fate.
279
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Izzy doesn't have to be
doomed to lose her mother.
280
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So you still feel,
if the test is positive,
281
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that you'd rather
develop cancer
282
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than have your breasts removed?
283
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Yes.
284
00:13:00,288 --> 00:13:02,523
And what if you do
develop cancer?
285
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What then?
286
00:13:06,294 --> 00:13:08,262
Trish was a fool...
287
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a double mastectomy for what?
288
00:13:10,932 --> 00:13:13,534
I'm guessing she thought
it might save her life.
289
00:13:13,568 --> 00:13:14,835
Yeah well, it didn't.
290
00:13:14,870 --> 00:13:17,938
She spent the last year
of her life looking like...
291
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My mother knew better.
292
00:13:19,975 --> 00:13:22,409
She refused, you know.
293
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When they found the tumor, she
had a lumpectomy finally,
294
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but she did not let the
doctors take her breasts.
295
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And you understood
her decision.
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I did.
297
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I think Tricia had
those operations
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just to spite mama,
299
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you know, to reject her vanity.
300
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And by extension reject yours,
301
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just like Izzy rejects you...
302
00:13:42,631 --> 00:13:44,265
Yes.
303
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...Shaving her head in
solidarity with your sister.
304
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You talked about having no one
305
00:13:51,940 --> 00:13:55,943
to get you through
opening your test results.
306
00:13:55,977 --> 00:13:59,046
Do you really feel
that if you asked Izzy
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that she would say no?
308
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Would you please read this?
309
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These are your test results?
310
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Yes.
311
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- Are you sure that you...?
- Yes.
312
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You know, I'm happy
to be here for you.
313
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I'm happy to do this with you.
314
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But I think that you
should open the letter.
315
00:14:41,990 --> 00:14:43,324
No.
316
00:14:43,358 --> 00:14:45,192
You don't have to tell me
what it says.
317
00:14:45,226 --> 00:14:47,127
- Just open it, okay?
- Maybe we should just...
318
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What, talk about why I
want you to do this, Paul?
319
00:14:49,431 --> 00:14:52,700
Just do it, please.
We can talk about it afterwards.
320
00:15:37,879 --> 00:15:40,981
What does it say?
321
00:15:44,285 --> 00:15:46,453
Read it, Frances.
322
00:15:46,488 --> 00:15:48,789
Please.
323
00:16:02,370 --> 00:16:04,304
It's negative.
324
00:16:04,339 --> 00:16:06,273
Is it negative?
325
00:16:06,307 --> 00:16:08,642
Am I reading it right, Paul?
Is this...?
326
00:16:08,677 --> 00:16:10,711
That's what it says.
327
00:16:10,745 --> 00:16:12,780
Oh my God.
328
00:16:12,814 --> 00:16:15,215
I'm very relieved.
329
00:16:15,250 --> 00:16:16,750
Thank you.
Thank you.
330
00:16:16,785 --> 00:16:20,721
Yes, it must be
a huge weight lifted.
331
00:16:22,290 --> 00:16:24,658
- This means Izzy too.
- Does it?
332
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That would have been
her inheritance... cancer.
333
00:16:31,499 --> 00:16:35,135
It's unbelievable really.
Isn't this unbelievable?
334
00:16:35,170 --> 00:16:38,839
Yes, it's...
it's great news, yes.
335
00:16:38,873 --> 00:16:41,208
And not only are you now freed
336
00:16:41,242 --> 00:16:43,243
from this awful worry
about Izzy,
337
00:16:43,278 --> 00:16:45,579
about your own health,
338
00:16:45,613 --> 00:16:48,449
but you can now
go see your sister.
339
00:16:50,251 --> 00:16:52,386
What is that supposed to mean?
340
00:16:52,420 --> 00:16:54,388
You no longer have to fear
341
00:16:54,422 --> 00:16:57,658
that she'll torment you
about having that procedure.
342
00:16:57,692 --> 00:17:00,427
No no, I can't see my sister.
343
00:17:00,462 --> 00:17:01,495
Why not?
344
00:17:01,529 --> 00:17:03,564
I'm not going
to see my sister
345
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because she'll ask about this.
346
00:17:05,433 --> 00:17:07,067
She'll ask about the results.
347
00:17:07,102 --> 00:17:09,303
And I'll have to tell her the truth.
I can't lie to Tricia.
348
00:17:09,337 --> 00:17:11,638
Why would you not want to tell her
about the results? They're good.
349
00:17:11,673 --> 00:17:14,608
They're the best possible outcome.
They couldn't be better.
350
00:17:14,642 --> 00:17:16,777
She's dying, okay?
How would you like it
351
00:17:16,811 --> 00:17:19,179
if you were dying
and I came to you and said,
352
00:17:19,214 --> 00:17:21,515
"hey, guess what.
I get to live."
353
00:17:21,549 --> 00:17:24,785
If that person were my sister,
I would be very very glad.
354
00:17:24,819 --> 00:17:26,453
Patricia will be relieved
355
00:17:26,488 --> 00:17:28,088
knowing that Izzy
will have a mother,
356
00:17:28,123 --> 00:17:29,790
knowing, in all likelihood,
357
00:17:29,824 --> 00:17:31,992
that you'll live
an average lifespan.
358
00:17:32,026 --> 00:17:34,461
How do you know
what her reaction will be?
359
00:17:34,496 --> 00:17:36,864
I don't really know.
I'm just predicting,
360
00:17:36,898 --> 00:17:38,966
knowing what I know
about Patricia.
361
00:17:39,000 --> 00:17:40,968
That would be
a normal response.
362
00:17:41,002 --> 00:17:44,905
Oh, I thought you're not supposed
to use words like "normal."
363
00:17:44,939 --> 00:17:48,175
Okay, let me put this as
plainly as I possibly can.
364
00:17:49,944 --> 00:17:54,281
You need to see your sister
before she dies.
365
00:17:54,315 --> 00:17:56,884
You don't have
any reason not to.
366
00:17:56,918 --> 00:17:59,486
The reason you thought you
had no longer exists.
367
00:17:59,521 --> 00:18:01,188
Well, I don't want to hurt her.
368
00:18:01,222 --> 00:18:03,290
She won't be hurt.
She'll be pleased.
369
00:18:03,324 --> 00:18:05,793
You know, I hope she's
more pleased than you are.
370
00:18:05,827 --> 00:18:08,595
I mean, don't you think you could
be a little happier for me?
371
00:18:08,630 --> 00:18:11,198
I know that you've been expecting
the worst possible outcome.
372
00:18:11,232 --> 00:18:14,802
You've been preparing yourself
for bad news, understandably.
373
00:18:14,836 --> 00:18:17,805
But you cannot let
your confusion
374
00:18:17,839 --> 00:18:20,207
or the mixed feelings
that you have
375
00:18:20,241 --> 00:18:22,910
about this genuinely good news
376
00:18:22,944 --> 00:18:26,847
stand in the way of dealing
with your sister.
377
00:18:29,584 --> 00:18:32,653
You need to see your sister
before she dies.
378
00:18:32,687 --> 00:18:35,989
Oh, you know,
what the hell happened
379
00:18:36,024 --> 00:18:38,392
between the two of you anyway?
380
00:18:38,426 --> 00:18:39,960
Sorry?
381
00:18:39,994 --> 00:18:41,962
No, the way you talk
about her...
382
00:18:41,996 --> 00:18:43,997
It's like you're still
in love with her.
383
00:18:44,032 --> 00:18:46,667
Still?
Why do you say that?
384
00:18:46,701 --> 00:18:48,869
Well, that's what
she told me...
385
00:18:48,903 --> 00:18:51,238
that you were in love with her
386
00:18:51,272 --> 00:18:53,774
back then.
387
00:18:53,808 --> 00:18:55,876
Were you?
388
00:18:58,012 --> 00:18:59,513
No.
389
00:19:01,249 --> 00:19:04,084
Well, she thinks you were.
390
00:19:04,118 --> 00:19:06,286
So clearly she's deluded.
391
00:19:06,321 --> 00:19:09,990
She was in love with you.
392
00:19:10,024 --> 00:19:13,193
You are so angry
with your sister.
393
00:19:15,063 --> 00:19:17,097
Is it because she's dying
394
00:19:17,131 --> 00:19:18,966
and she needs you
395
00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:22,536
and you're scared that you
won't be able to help her,
396
00:19:22,570 --> 00:19:26,473
that you won't even be able
to stay in the room with her,
397
00:19:26,507 --> 00:19:29,076
that her illness will be
too much for you to bear
398
00:19:29,110 --> 00:19:32,212
and you'll run away from her just
as you ran away from your mother?
399
00:19:32,247 --> 00:19:34,081
It'll kill me.
400
00:19:34,115 --> 00:19:35,415
It won't kill you.
401
00:19:35,450 --> 00:19:38,285
It's all gone, Paul...
her eyelashes, her hair,
402
00:19:38,319 --> 00:19:42,044
her breasts... gone.
It'll kill me.
403
00:19:42,164 --> 00:19:44,291
She's the one
who's dying, not you.
404
00:19:45,360 --> 00:19:48,562
It is not gonna
kill you.
405
00:19:50,865 --> 00:19:55,235
If you don't do it now,
you'll always regret it.
406
00:19:57,651 --> 00:20:08,415
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