1 00:00:41,444 --> 00:00:44,713 Now I'll do... I'll do the dry 2 00:00:44,748 --> 00:00:46,849 and you do the wet. How's that? 3 00:00:46,883 --> 00:00:49,018 What's that supposed to mean? 4 00:00:49,052 --> 00:00:50,553 You'll beat the eggs and milk. 5 00:00:50,587 --> 00:00:53,889 I'll do the flour. What did you think I meant? 6 00:00:56,993 --> 00:00:58,460 Okay. 7 00:00:58,495 --> 00:01:00,462 Hey, chocolate chips. 8 00:01:00,497 --> 00:01:03,232 Don't tell your mom, okay? 9 00:01:03,266 --> 00:01:05,568 How much milk? 10 00:01:05,602 --> 00:01:07,670 Read what it says on the thing. 11 00:01:10,240 --> 00:01:14,910 So how is... how is school? 12 00:01:14,945 --> 00:01:16,745 It's fine. 13 00:01:16,780 --> 00:01:18,714 Are you missing your friends? 14 00:01:18,748 --> 00:01:20,649 I'll make new ones, dad. 15 00:01:20,684 --> 00:01:22,351 Okay. 16 00:01:23,286 --> 00:01:25,821 Now.... 17 00:01:25,856 --> 00:01:27,857 So now it says we mix 18 00:01:27,891 --> 00:01:30,626 the dry ingredients 19 00:01:30,660 --> 00:01:32,962 into the wet. 20 00:01:32,996 --> 00:01:36,332 That's not gonna work because your bowl is smaller. 21 00:01:38,068 --> 00:01:39,668 Okay. 22 00:01:39,703 --> 00:01:43,038 Okay, um, so... 23 00:01:44,140 --> 00:01:47,409 So how are... how... 24 00:01:47,444 --> 00:01:51,113 how are things going with Steve? 25 00:01:52,716 --> 00:01:56,652 Has he been growing on you at all? 26 00:01:56,686 --> 00:01:59,021 Growing on me? You mean like mold? 27 00:01:59,055 --> 00:02:00,789 I'm just... I'm just curious 28 00:02:00,824 --> 00:02:03,325 what kind of a guy he is, you know. 29 00:02:03,360 --> 00:02:05,494 He's fine. 30 00:02:05,528 --> 00:02:07,897 I figure that if your mom's gonna marry him, 31 00:02:07,931 --> 00:02:11,166 then he can't be all that bad. 32 00:02:17,007 --> 00:02:19,408 Give us a sec. 33 00:02:21,878 --> 00:02:24,380 Shit. 34 00:02:27,484 --> 00:02:29,084 Jesse. 35 00:02:29,119 --> 00:02:31,287 You all right? 36 00:02:31,321 --> 00:02:32,588 What's happened? 37 00:02:32,622 --> 00:02:36,892 I need to do my session tonight instead of tomorrow. 38 00:02:36,927 --> 00:02:40,729 Look, I don't hold sessions this late, Jesse. 39 00:02:40,764 --> 00:02:43,265 And I'm... 40 00:02:43,300 --> 00:02:45,701 right. 41 00:02:45,735 --> 00:02:47,970 Then fuck you too. 42 00:02:50,273 --> 00:02:52,274 Fuck everyone. 43 00:02:56,846 --> 00:02:58,480 What's going on, Jesse? 44 00:02:58,515 --> 00:03:00,883 - I went to see them. - Who? 45 00:03:00,917 --> 00:03:03,552 Who the fuck do you think? 46 00:03:07,390 --> 00:03:10,392 They kicked me out of their house. 47 00:03:26,543 --> 00:03:29,645 Okay, here's the key to the waiting room. 48 00:03:29,679 --> 00:03:31,580 I'll see you there in a minute, okay? 49 00:03:48,231 --> 00:03:52,421 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 50 00:03:52,556 --> 00:03:57,339 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 51 00:04:05,248 --> 00:04:07,248 Do you want to tell me what happened? 52 00:04:09,652 --> 00:04:11,720 I called him after our session. 53 00:04:11,755 --> 00:04:14,056 Who? Kevin? 54 00:04:14,090 --> 00:04:17,026 And I said I was ready to meet him. 55 00:04:17,060 --> 00:04:19,428 And he was like, "great, we'll meet you in the city." 56 00:04:19,462 --> 00:04:21,397 But I kinda wanted to see their place, 57 00:04:21,431 --> 00:04:24,166 so I said I would come to them. And he was like, "great." 58 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:25,567 And I was like, "how's tuesday?" 59 00:04:25,602 --> 00:04:27,436 And he was like, "tuesday's great." 60 00:04:27,470 --> 00:04:30,973 When did you call him? After the last session? 61 00:04:31,007 --> 00:04:32,574 Yeah. 62 00:04:32,609 --> 00:04:35,411 And why did you feel the urgency? 63 00:04:35,445 --> 00:04:37,379 I don't know. 64 00:04:37,414 --> 00:04:39,548 I just felt good after last week. 65 00:04:39,582 --> 00:04:42,785 I felt like maybe it was all gonna work out somehow. 66 00:04:42,819 --> 00:04:45,821 Well, you know, we had talked about spending another few sessions... 67 00:04:45,855 --> 00:04:47,756 what are you saying? 68 00:04:47,791 --> 00:04:50,659 - Are you saying that I fucked up? - No. 69 00:04:50,693 --> 00:04:52,628 - Do you want me to leave? - No, I don't. 70 00:04:52,662 --> 00:04:54,396 Because I don't feel like you really want me here. 71 00:04:54,431 --> 00:04:57,132 I don't feel like you actually want to hear what happened to me. 72 00:04:57,167 --> 00:04:59,268 Jesse, I do want to hear. 73 00:05:08,878 --> 00:05:11,914 Yeah, so... 74 00:05:11,948 --> 00:05:14,349 We were supposed to meet today at, like, 6:00. 75 00:05:14,384 --> 00:05:16,985 But I'm always late for things, 76 00:05:17,020 --> 00:05:18,787 so I thought I would just show up early 77 00:05:18,822 --> 00:05:22,091 and scope the place out and then I'd get some coffee. 78 00:05:22,125 --> 00:05:24,259 So I took a 3:00 train. 79 00:05:24,294 --> 00:05:26,628 It only took an hour. 80 00:05:30,500 --> 00:05:32,101 Jesse? 81 00:05:39,876 --> 00:05:43,612 There were these kids in the front yard. 82 00:05:43,646 --> 00:05:47,149 And at first I thought, 83 00:05:47,183 --> 00:05:48,884 "it must be the wrong house." 84 00:05:48,918 --> 00:05:50,819 But I checked the address and it wasn't. 85 00:05:50,854 --> 00:05:53,422 I mean, it was the right house. 86 00:05:53,456 --> 00:05:55,858 And then I thought 87 00:05:55,892 --> 00:05:58,961 maybe they were the neighbors' kids or... 88 00:05:58,995 --> 00:06:01,997 So I looked at them up close 89 00:06:02,031 --> 00:06:05,534 through the zoom lens of my camera. 90 00:06:08,238 --> 00:06:10,239 I took some pictures. 91 00:06:10,273 --> 00:06:12,574 And then I felt really ill. 92 00:06:12,609 --> 00:06:14,076 So I left. 93 00:06:14,110 --> 00:06:15,911 And I went to find a diner or something, 94 00:06:15,945 --> 00:06:17,913 somewhere where I could think, 95 00:06:17,947 --> 00:06:20,282 but apparently there are no diners in Westchester. 96 00:06:20,316 --> 00:06:23,118 There are 50 million different tennis clubs, 97 00:06:23,153 --> 00:06:25,654 but you can't get a fucking milk shake! 98 00:06:25,688 --> 00:06:28,190 Okay okay. 99 00:06:28,224 --> 00:06:30,526 So what did you do? 100 00:06:32,128 --> 00:06:34,062 I... 101 00:06:34,097 --> 00:06:36,098 I walked around for a couple of hours 102 00:06:36,132 --> 00:06:38,634 and then I went back. 103 00:06:44,307 --> 00:06:46,141 And they were gone. 104 00:06:47,377 --> 00:06:50,646 Who was gone? 105 00:06:50,680 --> 00:06:52,381 Everybody was gone? 106 00:06:52,415 --> 00:06:55,250 No, Kevin and Karen were still there, but... 107 00:06:56,953 --> 00:07:01,223 The kids... they just disappeared... 108 00:07:01,257 --> 00:07:03,926 and not just, like, their physical bodies, 109 00:07:03,960 --> 00:07:07,930 but all evidence of their existences. 110 00:07:10,667 --> 00:07:14,203 There was this chalk. And the girl... 111 00:07:14,237 --> 00:07:17,406 she was drawing on the driveway with it. 112 00:07:21,144 --> 00:07:23,946 And the chalk was gone. 113 00:07:23,980 --> 00:07:27,950 And the girl was gone. And the driveway was wet. 114 00:07:29,385 --> 00:07:32,588 They washed it, Paul. 115 00:07:34,390 --> 00:07:36,658 So I rang the doorbell. 116 00:07:36,693 --> 00:07:38,193 Kevin answered. 117 00:07:38,228 --> 00:07:39,761 Kevin? 118 00:07:39,796 --> 00:07:43,398 So what was he like? 119 00:07:43,433 --> 00:07:47,636 He was blond and tall. 120 00:07:48,571 --> 00:07:50,672 They were... 121 00:07:50,707 --> 00:07:53,642 they looked... 122 00:07:55,144 --> 00:07:56,411 Rich. 123 00:07:56,446 --> 00:07:59,181 And what else? 124 00:07:59,215 --> 00:08:03,018 Uh, she... 125 00:08:03,052 --> 00:08:05,320 she had really nice legs. 126 00:08:05,355 --> 00:08:08,090 Is it weird that I noticed that? 127 00:08:08,124 --> 00:08:09,791 No. 128 00:08:11,928 --> 00:08:14,930 She was wearing these stockings and... 129 00:08:16,933 --> 00:08:20,669 She had this round face and these little eyes 130 00:08:20,703 --> 00:08:22,704 that disappeared into her skull 131 00:08:22,739 --> 00:08:25,274 every time she smiled. 132 00:08:26,609 --> 00:08:30,512 He... he looked like a really good guy. 133 00:08:31,981 --> 00:08:35,350 He had a wink... 134 00:08:35,385 --> 00:08:38,654 Like that. 135 00:08:38,688 --> 00:08:41,056 So did they... 136 00:08:41,090 --> 00:08:43,892 did they invite you in? 137 00:08:43,926 --> 00:08:46,061 Yeah, and we sat at the kitchen table. 138 00:08:46,095 --> 00:08:49,998 And they put out these oreo cookies and milk 139 00:08:50,033 --> 00:08:52,434 like we were in a fucking nabisco commercial. 140 00:08:52,468 --> 00:08:56,271 So you found that patronizing? 141 00:08:56,306 --> 00:08:59,074 Yeah, I mean, 142 00:08:59,108 --> 00:09:00,976 I was starving 143 00:09:01,010 --> 00:09:04,079 so I ate, like, half the package, but... 144 00:09:06,549 --> 00:09:08,350 what did you talk about 145 00:09:08,384 --> 00:09:11,086 when you were eating the cookies? 146 00:09:11,120 --> 00:09:14,289 I don't really remember. 147 00:09:14,324 --> 00:09:17,192 You don't remember? 148 00:09:17,226 --> 00:09:18,894 I was just looking around the room. 149 00:09:18,928 --> 00:09:22,230 And they were, like, watching me. 150 00:09:22,265 --> 00:09:23,832 What were you looking for? 151 00:09:23,866 --> 00:09:25,300 Drawings on the refrigerator, 152 00:09:25,335 --> 00:09:27,669 sippy cups. I don't know. 153 00:09:27,704 --> 00:09:30,605 Were you looking for signs 154 00:09:30,640 --> 00:09:33,375 of other kids? 155 00:09:34,711 --> 00:09:36,912 Yeah, and? 156 00:09:39,148 --> 00:09:41,383 The outlets were childproof. 157 00:09:41,417 --> 00:09:44,019 Anything else? 158 00:09:45,254 --> 00:09:47,589 You were convinced that the kids in the yard 159 00:09:47,623 --> 00:09:49,424 were definitely their kids? 160 00:09:50,860 --> 00:09:55,230 They... they just like held hands the whole time 161 00:09:55,264 --> 00:10:00,268 and they looked at me like... 162 00:10:00,303 --> 00:10:04,573 like I was gonna set their house on fire or something. 163 00:10:07,543 --> 00:10:10,145 And then, like, 10 minutes later 164 00:10:10,179 --> 00:10:12,147 they asked me to leave, so I left. 165 00:10:16,219 --> 00:10:17,619 I I can't believe I wore I this jacket. Up. 166 00:10:17,653 --> 00:10:20,422 I haven't worn it since freshman year. 167 00:10:20,456 --> 00:10:22,758 And this tie isn't even mine. It's Nate's. 168 00:10:22,792 --> 00:10:25,260 I tied him up with it once and I got come on it, 169 00:10:25,294 --> 00:10:27,929 so he said I could keep it. 170 00:10:41,711 --> 00:10:45,714 Those were their kids, Paul. 171 00:10:45,748 --> 00:10:47,416 Do you want to know how I know? 172 00:10:47,450 --> 00:10:48,717 How? 173 00:10:48,751 --> 00:10:50,552 I went to the bathroom before I left. 174 00:10:50,586 --> 00:10:52,587 I went a couple of times. 175 00:10:54,424 --> 00:10:57,092 There was this bar 176 00:10:57,126 --> 00:11:01,129 by the toilet for handicapped people. 177 00:11:31,127 --> 00:11:33,361 Jesus. 178 00:11:33,396 --> 00:11:36,932 I know, right? 179 00:11:41,471 --> 00:11:44,639 At least now we know why they got in contact with me. 180 00:11:46,909 --> 00:11:48,777 Isn't it obvious? 181 00:11:48,811 --> 00:11:50,512 What? 182 00:11:50,546 --> 00:11:52,047 This kid in the wheelchair... 183 00:11:52,081 --> 00:11:54,516 look at his face. He's like a mini me. 184 00:11:54,550 --> 00:11:56,952 And he's fucking sickly. 185 00:12:00,656 --> 00:12:03,658 They want my blood... 186 00:12:05,661 --> 00:12:09,064 My guts... something. I don't know. 187 00:12:10,967 --> 00:12:13,301 Are you saying that they got in touch with you 188 00:12:13,336 --> 00:12:16,805 because of some medical reason? 189 00:12:16,839 --> 00:12:18,740 Yeah, of course. He's dying. 190 00:12:18,774 --> 00:12:20,742 He probably needs a donor or something. 191 00:12:20,776 --> 00:12:24,079 Okay, let's... 192 00:12:24,113 --> 00:12:26,047 let's take a... 193 00:12:26,082 --> 00:12:28,083 take a step back here, Jesse. 194 00:12:28,117 --> 00:12:30,452 How do you know the kid's dying? 195 00:12:30,486 --> 00:12:32,888 - Look at him. - I see a kid in a wheelchair. 196 00:12:32,922 --> 00:12:34,956 He might have had an accident. He might be paralyzed. 197 00:12:34,991 --> 00:12:36,958 There's a number of things that might be wrong 198 00:12:36,993 --> 00:12:38,860 that aren't life-threatening. 199 00:12:38,895 --> 00:12:41,463 But why would they get in touch with me after 17 years? 200 00:12:41,497 --> 00:12:44,432 And why would they hide their kids from me? 201 00:12:44,467 --> 00:12:46,735 Maybe they just wanted to meet you first. 202 00:12:46,769 --> 00:12:50,105 They washed the fucking driveway! 203 00:12:51,974 --> 00:12:55,310 Okay, that's... 204 00:12:55,344 --> 00:12:57,312 that's strange. 205 00:12:57,346 --> 00:12:59,114 You're right. 206 00:12:59,148 --> 00:13:03,184 But let's not leap to conclusions here. 207 00:13:03,219 --> 00:13:05,220 Tell me everything that you remember 208 00:13:05,254 --> 00:13:06,888 about the conversation. 209 00:13:06,923 --> 00:13:08,356 I already told you. 210 00:13:08,391 --> 00:13:11,526 You just told me they had cookies and they were holding hands. 211 00:13:11,561 --> 00:13:14,863 What did they actually say, Jesse? 212 00:13:14,897 --> 00:13:16,831 I don't remember what they said. 213 00:13:16,866 --> 00:13:18,567 Nothing? 214 00:13:27,076 --> 00:13:29,110 I was stoned. 215 00:13:30,546 --> 00:13:32,213 You were stoned? 216 00:13:32,248 --> 00:13:33,582 Yeah. 217 00:13:33,616 --> 00:13:36,551 Kinda. A little bit. 218 00:13:36,586 --> 00:13:39,821 I got high while I was walking around wasting time. 219 00:13:44,927 --> 00:13:47,329 Maybe that's why you were so hungry. 220 00:13:48,698 --> 00:13:50,832 Yeah, I guess so. 221 00:13:50,866 --> 00:13:53,568 You said they asked you to leave the house. 222 00:13:53,603 --> 00:13:55,737 - Yeah, they did. - You remember that. 223 00:13:55,771 --> 00:13:59,174 - Yeah. - And do you have any idea why? 224 00:14:02,511 --> 00:14:04,479 I think it had something to do with RISD. 225 00:14:06,716 --> 00:14:08,416 RISD? 226 00:14:11,120 --> 00:14:13,188 Did you ask them for money? 227 00:14:13,222 --> 00:14:15,423 Kinda. 228 00:14:15,458 --> 00:14:17,559 Well, what does "kinda" mean? 229 00:14:17,593 --> 00:14:20,729 I said that maybe we could work out some sort of deal. 230 00:14:20,763 --> 00:14:22,831 A deal? Like...? 231 00:14:22,865 --> 00:14:26,468 Like a summer for some bone marrow. 232 00:14:26,502 --> 00:14:28,737 If they paid for college, I'd throw in a kidney. 233 00:14:28,771 --> 00:14:30,071 I don't know. 234 00:14:30,106 --> 00:14:31,673 And what did they say? 235 00:14:33,275 --> 00:14:35,977 They didn't really say anything. 236 00:14:41,684 --> 00:14:46,421 Kevin offered to drive me to the train station, 237 00:14:46,455 --> 00:14:48,957 so I left. 238 00:14:48,991 --> 00:14:51,726 Okay. 239 00:14:53,596 --> 00:14:55,497 You know what? I've got to say that I'm... 240 00:14:55,531 --> 00:14:57,365 what, frustrated with me? 241 00:14:57,400 --> 00:14:59,501 Yes. 242 00:15:02,171 --> 00:15:04,806 I think you deliberately sabotaged that meeting. 243 00:15:04,840 --> 00:15:06,441 No, I didn't. 244 00:15:06,475 --> 00:15:09,878 I can't help but feel that it's another event 245 00:15:09,912 --> 00:15:13,448 in the pattern of your behavior, 246 00:15:13,482 --> 00:15:15,417 that you test everybody around you 247 00:15:15,451 --> 00:15:17,452 and then you push them away 248 00:15:17,486 --> 00:15:20,288 like you did with Marisa and Roberto and Nate. 249 00:15:20,322 --> 00:15:22,590 Now it's your birth parents. 250 00:15:22,625 --> 00:15:25,393 You hurt the people who care about you 251 00:15:25,428 --> 00:15:27,128 so that they will turn away from you, 252 00:15:27,163 --> 00:15:28,797 and then you can prove to yourself 253 00:15:28,831 --> 00:15:30,899 that you're fundamentally unlovable. 254 00:15:30,933 --> 00:15:32,834 Sorry, I didn't know that I did that. 255 00:15:32,868 --> 00:15:34,903 Even coming over here now... it's late. 256 00:15:34,937 --> 00:15:37,672 It's not your session time. 257 00:15:37,707 --> 00:15:40,575 Were you testing me to see how much I care, 258 00:15:40,609 --> 00:15:42,377 what I'm willing to sacrifice? 259 00:15:42,411 --> 00:15:44,813 Will I put my kid's needs before you? 260 00:15:44,847 --> 00:15:47,115 Jesse, don't walk out. Jesse. 261 00:15:47,149 --> 00:15:49,551 Jesse, don't walk out. 262 00:15:49,585 --> 00:15:52,220 Jesse, stop. 263 00:15:52,254 --> 00:15:54,189 The only reason I came here tonight is because 264 00:15:54,223 --> 00:15:57,158 I thought you should know how much you fucked up my fucking life. 265 00:15:57,193 --> 00:15:59,828 - If I hadn't taken your stupid advice... - What advice? 266 00:15:59,862 --> 00:16:01,930 - You told me to call them back. - No, I didn't. 267 00:16:01,964 --> 00:16:03,865 Yes, you did. I was gonna tell them to fuck off. 268 00:16:03,899 --> 00:16:06,534 - I wrote that letter. You took it from me. - You gave it to me. 269 00:16:06,569 --> 00:16:08,536 Stop it! Just fucking stop. 270 00:16:08,571 --> 00:16:11,005 I'm the one in trouble here, okay? Not you. 271 00:16:11,040 --> 00:16:15,310 Why don't you go back to your little pancakefest with your faggoty son! 272 00:16:55,785 --> 00:16:57,919 You know... 273 00:16:59,555 --> 00:17:01,790 Your birth parents... 274 00:17:01,824 --> 00:17:05,093 they made a mistake 275 00:17:05,127 --> 00:17:09,664 by not telling you that you had siblings. 276 00:17:09,698 --> 00:17:12,433 I... 277 00:17:12,468 --> 00:17:15,336 I don't know what their intentions were. 278 00:17:15,371 --> 00:17:19,507 Maybe they were trying to protect you. 279 00:17:28,818 --> 00:17:32,420 Did I just ruin everything? 280 00:17:32,454 --> 00:17:35,590 What do you mean by "everything"? 281 00:17:35,624 --> 00:17:38,827 My whole life. 282 00:17:38,861 --> 00:17:42,197 Jesse, you're 17. 283 00:17:42,231 --> 00:17:44,632 You didn't kill anybody. 284 00:17:44,667 --> 00:17:47,569 You haven't ruined your life. 285 00:17:47,603 --> 00:17:52,507 But you made a decision and you took an action, 286 00:17:52,541 --> 00:17:55,009 and that action has consequences. 287 00:17:56,278 --> 00:17:59,714 They kept a crippled kid. 288 00:18:05,988 --> 00:18:07,956 God, what is wrong with me? 289 00:18:07,990 --> 00:18:09,824 There's nothing wrong with you, Jess... nothing. 290 00:18:09,859 --> 00:18:12,193 There must be something. 291 00:18:15,231 --> 00:18:19,667 How old were Kevin and Karen when you were born? 292 00:18:19,702 --> 00:18:22,370 Didn't he say in his letter? 293 00:18:22,404 --> 00:18:26,474 Uh, like, 17. 294 00:18:26,508 --> 00:18:29,878 17, Jesse... your age. 295 00:18:29,912 --> 00:18:32,914 Do you feel ready to raise a kid? 296 00:18:32,948 --> 00:18:34,983 No. 297 00:18:35,017 --> 00:18:39,954 I know you think there's got to be some reason 298 00:18:39,989 --> 00:18:44,792 why your birth parents gave you up, 299 00:18:44,827 --> 00:18:46,561 some secret 300 00:18:46,595 --> 00:18:49,130 that they're keeping from you. 301 00:18:49,164 --> 00:18:52,400 What if they were just too young? 302 00:18:52,434 --> 00:18:57,105 What if it's that simple? What then? 303 00:18:59,975 --> 00:19:02,176 Oh shit. 304 00:19:07,216 --> 00:19:09,851 Oh! Okay, stay over here. Stay there. 305 00:19:09,885 --> 00:19:11,352 - Sorry. - Just stay there. 306 00:19:11,387 --> 00:19:14,255 It's okay. It's okay. 307 00:19:27,236 --> 00:19:30,772 It's okay. 308 00:19:30,806 --> 00:19:32,473 Okay. 309 00:19:32,508 --> 00:19:34,475 I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry. 310 00:19:34,510 --> 00:19:36,277 No harm done. It's okay. 311 00:19:36,312 --> 00:19:38,746 It's okay. 312 00:19:38,781 --> 00:19:41,349 It's just a bit of smoke, that's all. 313 00:19:41,383 --> 00:19:43,418 Okay. 314 00:20:11,914 --> 00:20:15,420 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 315 00:20:15,555 --> 00:20:20,870 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com