1 00:01:00,486 --> 00:01:02,588 Paul: It doesn't look like a habitrail. 2 00:01:04,257 --> 00:01:07,693 Rosie said that you thought it looked like a habitrail. 3 00:01:07,727 --> 00:01:10,529 Yeah, I know. 4 00:01:10,563 --> 00:01:12,497 I just... 5 00:01:12,532 --> 00:01:14,499 yeah, it's like the only thing 6 00:01:14,534 --> 00:01:16,868 I could come up with at the time. 7 00:01:16,903 --> 00:01:19,404 It's more like an erector set. 8 00:01:21,574 --> 00:01:24,543 I don't think well on the spot. 9 00:01:26,379 --> 00:01:28,947 Neither do I sometimes. 10 00:01:28,982 --> 00:01:32,884 But it looks like a really cool place to live. 11 00:01:32,919 --> 00:01:35,587 Is that Steve's studio back there? 12 00:01:35,622 --> 00:01:38,357 Yeah, he converted the garage 13 00:01:38,391 --> 00:01:40,792 and, like, totally rebuilt it 14 00:01:40,827 --> 00:01:44,196 and then built another garage around back. 15 00:01:44,230 --> 00:01:45,530 I see. 16 00:01:45,565 --> 00:01:49,234 You can fit, like, a whole fleet of monster trucks in there. 17 00:01:49,268 --> 00:01:51,303 But he only drives a prius. 18 00:01:51,337 --> 00:01:53,538 - He thinks about the environment... - That's good. 19 00:01:53,573 --> 00:01:55,607 But, like, from a positive angle. 20 00:01:55,642 --> 00:01:58,744 That's great. 21 00:01:58,778 --> 00:02:00,712 That's something 22 00:02:00,747 --> 00:02:04,816 Steve and I have in common... 23 00:02:04,851 --> 00:02:09,588 that and you. 24 00:02:09,622 --> 00:02:12,090 We both think about you 25 00:02:12,125 --> 00:02:15,260 from a positive angle. 26 00:02:15,294 --> 00:02:18,664 In fact, from what your mom tells me, 27 00:02:18,698 --> 00:02:21,633 we both love you. 28 00:02:27,240 --> 00:02:30,008 Max, I just wanted to say that it's okay 29 00:02:30,043 --> 00:02:34,346 for Steve to love you 30 00:02:34,380 --> 00:02:38,784 and I'm happy that he does. 31 00:02:38,818 --> 00:02:43,055 And it's okay for you to love him back. 32 00:02:46,626 --> 00:02:49,695 What are you gonna do when you're all alone in Brooklyn? 33 00:02:49,729 --> 00:02:51,730 I'm not gonna be all alone in Brooklyn. 34 00:02:51,764 --> 00:02:56,134 Wait, do you know Jared, the fat kid in my class? 35 00:02:56,169 --> 00:02:59,071 - With the mustache? - Yeah, he's already growing a mustache. 36 00:02:59,105 --> 00:03:01,073 His parents are getting a divorce. 37 00:03:01,107 --> 00:03:03,675 And his dad, like, reads a lot. 38 00:03:03,710 --> 00:03:05,711 And from what Jared tells me, 39 00:03:05,745 --> 00:03:08,547 he will not watch a movie without subtitles. 40 00:03:08,581 --> 00:03:12,050 - Hmm. - So you could call him. 41 00:03:12,085 --> 00:03:15,120 You guys could go see a documentary. 42 00:03:19,926 --> 00:03:22,661 That's a really... 43 00:03:22,695 --> 00:03:25,464 that's a really nice idea. 44 00:03:28,534 --> 00:03:31,536 The most important thing for you to remember 45 00:03:31,571 --> 00:03:33,705 is that you don't have to worry about me. 46 00:03:33,740 --> 00:03:38,009 I'm gonna be just fine, really. 47 00:03:39,245 --> 00:03:41,379 How will I know? 48 00:03:41,414 --> 00:03:43,348 I'm gonna... 49 00:03:43,382 --> 00:03:46,051 'cause I'm gonna call you all the time, non-stop. 50 00:03:46,085 --> 00:03:48,186 I'm gonna be calling you so much, you're gonna say, 51 00:03:48,221 --> 00:03:50,655 "dad, please stop calling me." 52 00:03:50,690 --> 00:03:53,325 And we've got that week together in January 53 00:03:53,359 --> 00:03:57,028 when Steve and your mom go on their honeymoon. 54 00:03:58,798 --> 00:04:01,133 In the meantime, I want you to promise 55 00:04:01,167 --> 00:04:04,202 that you're not gonna worry about me. 56 00:04:04,237 --> 00:04:06,238 You promise me? 57 00:04:06,272 --> 00:04:07,739 I promise. 58 00:04:07,774 --> 00:04:09,708 Okay. 59 00:04:09,742 --> 00:04:11,343 You ready? 60 00:04:11,377 --> 00:04:13,512 - Yeah. - Let's go. 61 00:04:22,555 --> 00:04:25,590 Hi there. 62 00:04:25,625 --> 00:04:27,959 Paul: Oh, hi. 63 00:04:27,994 --> 00:04:30,362 Hey Max. 64 00:04:30,396 --> 00:04:32,898 Steve. 65 00:04:32,932 --> 00:04:35,667 Paul... Paul weston. 66 00:04:35,701 --> 00:04:37,736 Kate should be back any minute. 67 00:04:37,770 --> 00:04:39,738 Will you come in for a cup of coffee? 68 00:04:39,772 --> 00:04:42,274 Oh, that's kind of you, 69 00:04:42,308 --> 00:04:45,010 but I need to beat the traffic back. 70 00:04:45,044 --> 00:04:47,212 Yeah. 71 00:04:48,815 --> 00:04:52,050 So I'll call you later, okay? 72 00:04:53,986 --> 00:04:55,754 Knock the rock. 73 00:04:55,788 --> 00:04:58,290 Explode the rock. 74 00:05:01,861 --> 00:05:03,929 I love you. 75 00:05:15,374 --> 00:05:16,908 Oh shit. 76 00:05:16,943 --> 00:05:18,944 - I forgot. - Thanks. 77 00:05:18,978 --> 00:05:20,445 - Yeah. - Drive safe. 78 00:05:20,479 --> 00:05:22,747 Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you. 79 00:05:25,518 --> 00:05:26,785 Come out back. 80 00:05:26,819 --> 00:05:29,054 I've got something I want to show you. 81 00:05:31,357 --> 00:05:35,794 ( Theme music playing ) 82 00:05:35,795 --> 00:05:39,652 Sync by n17t01 www.Addic7ed.Com 83 00:05:39,787 --> 00:05:44,211 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 84 00:05:52,879 --> 00:05:54,346 I'm sorry. 85 00:05:54,380 --> 00:05:55,847 More traffic? 86 00:05:55,882 --> 00:05:59,050 Yeah, it got even worse after I called from the turnpike. 87 00:05:59,085 --> 00:06:01,720 Just into Chinatown... 88 00:06:01,754 --> 00:06:04,256 completely stalled out. 89 00:06:04,290 --> 00:06:06,424 I started thinking, "this is it. 90 00:06:06,459 --> 00:06:10,095 This is how I'm gonna spend the rest of my life... on canal street." 91 00:06:10,129 --> 00:06:13,398 The parking was awful too. 92 00:06:15,868 --> 00:06:17,836 Another headache? 93 00:06:17,870 --> 00:06:21,106 Well, I figured I'd keep this in your medicine cabinet. 94 00:06:21,140 --> 00:06:23,775 Then I can help myself when necessary, 95 00:06:23,809 --> 00:06:27,012 if I can open this. 96 00:06:27,046 --> 00:06:29,514 Okay, that's it. 97 00:06:29,548 --> 00:06:31,950 So what do we have left... half a session? 98 00:06:31,984 --> 00:06:33,952 If that. 99 00:06:33,986 --> 00:06:35,954 You've had a big day. 100 00:06:35,988 --> 00:06:38,323 I got in the car and drove back. 101 00:06:38,357 --> 00:06:40,625 Traffic started immediately. 102 00:06:40,660 --> 00:06:43,995 I started to sweat. I thought I was having a heart attack. 103 00:06:48,200 --> 00:06:49,834 The last time you were here, 104 00:06:49,869 --> 00:06:51,836 you hadn't been able to talk to Max 105 00:06:51,871 --> 00:06:54,906 about your health, Steve and... 106 00:06:54,941 --> 00:06:57,142 I talked to him. 107 00:06:57,176 --> 00:06:59,744 What made you finally decide to? 108 00:06:59,779 --> 00:07:02,047 You did. 109 00:07:02,081 --> 00:07:04,349 At least in part. 110 00:07:04,383 --> 00:07:06,851 It took me till last night, but I finally, 111 00:07:06,886 --> 00:07:08,820 thanks to you, 112 00:07:08,854 --> 00:07:11,690 forced myself to talk to him. 113 00:07:11,724 --> 00:07:12,824 And? 114 00:07:12,858 --> 00:07:15,427 It was clear right away that this was 115 00:07:15,461 --> 00:07:17,395 what he really wanted 116 00:07:17,430 --> 00:07:19,664 and that he'd only come to stay with me 117 00:07:19,699 --> 00:07:21,700 because he'd been worried about me 118 00:07:21,734 --> 00:07:25,971 and that really he ought to be there. 119 00:07:26,005 --> 00:07:27,272 In Maryland? 120 00:07:27,306 --> 00:07:30,709 Yeah, it was the only option, 121 00:07:30,743 --> 00:07:32,177 yeah, 122 00:07:32,211 --> 00:07:36,214 as painful as was to realize that. 123 00:07:36,248 --> 00:07:39,084 The two of you spoke just last night? 124 00:07:39,118 --> 00:07:41,786 The whole thing just happened so fast. 125 00:07:41,821 --> 00:07:43,655 You know, I guess I felt 126 00:07:43,689 --> 00:07:45,991 that he'd been up here a month 127 00:07:46,025 --> 00:07:49,995 and I just wanted to get him home for his sake 128 00:07:50,029 --> 00:07:51,629 and also to... 129 00:07:51,664 --> 00:07:52,764 what? 130 00:07:52,798 --> 00:07:55,533 Get it over with. 131 00:07:57,536 --> 00:08:00,205 He asked me inside 132 00:08:00,239 --> 00:08:02,507 for coffee. 133 00:08:02,541 --> 00:08:03,975 You mean... 134 00:08:04,010 --> 00:08:05,977 Steve. 135 00:08:06,012 --> 00:08:09,981 Kate wasn't there. 136 00:08:10,016 --> 00:08:12,217 You know, he seemed... 137 00:08:12,251 --> 00:08:15,120 he seemed, you know, okay... 138 00:08:15,154 --> 00:08:18,056 all-American, you know, 139 00:08:18,090 --> 00:08:20,492 a big smile, a strong handshake. 140 00:08:20,526 --> 00:08:24,829 He looked, you know, like dad. 141 00:08:24,864 --> 00:08:27,198 Unlike you? 142 00:08:27,233 --> 00:08:29,467 Did you go in? 143 00:08:31,971 --> 00:08:34,539 I... 144 00:08:34,573 --> 00:08:35,774 I couldn't. 145 00:08:35,808 --> 00:08:39,377 I just had to get out of there. 146 00:08:41,013 --> 00:08:43,148 It made it easier in some ways, you know... 147 00:08:43,182 --> 00:08:46,017 his glaring decency, 148 00:08:46,052 --> 00:08:48,753 his ease with Max. 149 00:08:48,788 --> 00:08:50,488 And yet in other ways 150 00:08:50,523 --> 00:08:53,358 I can imagine that was very difficult to see. 151 00:08:53,392 --> 00:08:56,161 I think maybe it was the hardest thing 152 00:08:56,195 --> 00:08:59,531 I've ever had to do, you know... 153 00:08:59,565 --> 00:09:01,766 walk away from that house 154 00:09:01,801 --> 00:09:05,437 leaving Max behind 155 00:09:05,471 --> 00:09:07,072 with him. 156 00:09:07,106 --> 00:09:10,241 But after our session last week 157 00:09:10,276 --> 00:09:12,210 I saw that... 158 00:09:12,244 --> 00:09:14,612 I saw that you were right, 159 00:09:14,647 --> 00:09:17,582 that I didn't have a choice, 160 00:09:17,616 --> 00:09:20,251 that I had to face the truth. 161 00:09:20,286 --> 00:09:22,287 Will you tell me about your talk, 162 00:09:22,321 --> 00:09:25,657 how you got yourself to face the truth? 163 00:09:25,691 --> 00:09:28,526 We were making pancakes late. 164 00:09:28,561 --> 00:09:31,696 And I was just beginning to get into it, you know, 165 00:09:31,730 --> 00:09:34,065 trying to find the right words. 166 00:09:34,100 --> 00:09:37,535 And the doorbell rings. And it's Jesse. 167 00:09:37,570 --> 00:09:39,604 What time was this? 168 00:09:39,638 --> 00:09:42,040 I don't know. About 10:30 maybe. 169 00:09:42,074 --> 00:09:43,775 And you let him in? 170 00:09:43,809 --> 00:09:45,777 - I had to. - Okay. 171 00:09:45,811 --> 00:09:48,446 He'd been to visit his birth parents 172 00:09:48,481 --> 00:09:51,182 and they fucking rejected him. 173 00:09:51,217 --> 00:09:54,285 The kid was devastated. 174 00:09:54,320 --> 00:09:56,287 Did it feel easier for you to deal 175 00:09:56,322 --> 00:09:58,289 with Jesse's problems in your office 176 00:09:58,324 --> 00:10:00,325 than the ones with Max at home? 177 00:10:00,359 --> 00:10:03,394 If you'd seen what Jesse looked like, you would have let him in too. 178 00:10:03,429 --> 00:10:06,798 So I said to Max, "okay look, we'll talk about this later. 179 00:10:06,832 --> 00:10:08,800 This is an emergency. I have to deal with it. 180 00:10:08,834 --> 00:10:11,436 "We'll make the pancakes for breakfast." 181 00:10:11,470 --> 00:10:15,073 Then I went in. I spoke to Jesse. 182 00:10:15,107 --> 00:10:17,942 15 minutes later the smoke alarm goes off. 183 00:10:17,977 --> 00:10:19,444 I'm sorry? 184 00:10:19,478 --> 00:10:21,279 He'd tried to make the pancakes himself 185 00:10:21,313 --> 00:10:23,281 and the pan went on fire. 186 00:10:23,315 --> 00:10:26,384 So I put the flames out and I realized 187 00:10:26,418 --> 00:10:30,522 that I had to talk to my son. 188 00:10:30,556 --> 00:10:34,826 I... I... I... I couldn't wait any longer. 189 00:10:34,860 --> 00:10:38,096 You just told me you were determined to do it anyway. 190 00:10:38,130 --> 00:10:41,199 The point is that I did it. 191 00:10:41,233 --> 00:10:43,168 Once Max set the stove on fire, 192 00:10:43,202 --> 00:10:44,736 once you left Jesse. 193 00:10:44,770 --> 00:10:46,504 ( Sighs ) Oh, for fuck's sake. 194 00:10:46,539 --> 00:10:48,206 I'm telling you about this traumatic event 195 00:10:48,240 --> 00:10:50,208 where I finally faced up to something 196 00:10:50,242 --> 00:10:54,412 that is extremely painful with my son, 197 00:10:54,446 --> 00:10:56,648 maybe the lowest moment of my life, 198 00:10:56,682 --> 00:10:58,449 which you have encouraged me to tackle, 199 00:10:58,484 --> 00:11:01,486 which took all the strength that I had, 200 00:11:01,520 --> 00:11:03,488 and all you can do is focus 201 00:11:03,522 --> 00:11:05,490 on a mistake that you think I made... 202 00:11:05,524 --> 00:11:08,760 that I, God forbid, tried to help a troubled patient? 203 00:11:08,794 --> 00:11:11,796 I do see how wrenching this was for you. 204 00:11:11,830 --> 00:11:14,165 - Do you? - I do. 205 00:11:14,200 --> 00:11:16,334 And at the same time, since you've walked in, 206 00:11:16,368 --> 00:11:19,270 I've been fully aware of your clear need 207 00:11:19,305 --> 00:11:22,507 for me to grasp and acknowledge your pain. 208 00:11:22,541 --> 00:11:25,043 Well, you are my therapist. 209 00:11:25,077 --> 00:11:27,078 Yes. 210 00:11:27,112 --> 00:11:31,883 And I do happen to be in pain. 211 00:11:31,917 --> 00:11:34,185 I know that. I see that. 212 00:11:34,220 --> 00:11:35,987 You even brought in a prop 213 00:11:36,021 --> 00:11:37,922 to demonstrate in case I missed it. 214 00:11:37,957 --> 00:11:40,892 Well, I do also have a fucking headache. 215 00:11:40,926 --> 00:11:42,527 I believe you. 216 00:11:42,561 --> 00:11:45,029 But the more clearly I see the pain you're in, 217 00:11:45,064 --> 00:11:47,665 the greater the chance I'll see what you've done 218 00:11:47,700 --> 00:11:49,934 as courageous and heroic 219 00:11:49,969 --> 00:11:51,970 and less of a chance that I'd question 220 00:11:52,004 --> 00:11:53,705 or criticize any part of it. 221 00:11:53,739 --> 00:11:55,940 Well, go ahead 222 00:11:55,975 --> 00:11:58,476 and criticize, 223 00:11:58,510 --> 00:12:02,347 if that's what you feel the need to do. 224 00:12:02,381 --> 00:12:04,782 I do find I have some questions 225 00:12:04,817 --> 00:12:07,051 regarding your decision about Max. 226 00:12:07,086 --> 00:12:09,921 What made it so urgent for you to finally bring him...? 227 00:12:09,955 --> 00:12:12,357 Can I say something? 228 00:12:12,391 --> 00:12:14,492 All right. 229 00:12:14,526 --> 00:12:16,494 You say that I seem to be looking 230 00:12:16,528 --> 00:12:19,097 for a certain response from you, 231 00:12:19,131 --> 00:12:21,966 that I'm invested in your reaction. 232 00:12:22,001 --> 00:12:25,770 But you're avoiding 233 00:12:25,804 --> 00:12:28,139 any acknowledgment 234 00:12:28,173 --> 00:12:30,074 of why that might be. 235 00:12:30,109 --> 00:12:32,810 I'm not sure I'm following. 236 00:12:32,845 --> 00:12:35,113 I think you're dancing around the obvious reason 237 00:12:35,147 --> 00:12:37,081 you might think that. 238 00:12:37,116 --> 00:12:39,083 I would have thought you'd see the value 239 00:12:39,118 --> 00:12:41,519 in addressing it directly. 240 00:12:41,553 --> 00:12:43,855 What's the obvious reason? 241 00:12:43,889 --> 00:12:46,391 You really need me to say it? 242 00:12:46,425 --> 00:12:48,960 I'd like to hear what you think. 243 00:12:48,994 --> 00:12:51,029 We both know as therapists 244 00:12:51,063 --> 00:12:54,098 that that's the meat of all this anyway... 245 00:12:54,133 --> 00:12:57,502 not my day-to-day struggles, no matter how torturous, 246 00:12:57,536 --> 00:13:01,072 but what's actually happening right here, 247 00:13:01,106 --> 00:13:04,275 what's going on in the room. I just... 248 00:13:04,310 --> 00:13:09,280 I don't know. I find it strange that... 249 00:13:11,817 --> 00:13:15,453 I find it strange that you haven't mentioned what happened last week. 250 00:13:15,487 --> 00:13:17,422 From your point of view, 251 00:13:17,456 --> 00:13:20,258 what happened at the end of last week? 252 00:13:20,292 --> 00:13:22,327 You don't remember? 253 00:13:22,361 --> 00:13:24,696 I remember our session quite well. 254 00:13:24,763 --> 00:13:26,564 So why the delicate evasion, 255 00:13:26,598 --> 00:13:29,133 the muted suggestion? 256 00:13:29,168 --> 00:13:34,172 You're talking about your pronouncement 257 00:13:34,206 --> 00:13:37,475 of your feelings for me? 258 00:13:39,812 --> 00:13:42,246 Have you been hurt by the fact 259 00:13:42,281 --> 00:13:45,717 that I haven't brought up what we discussed last week? 260 00:13:45,751 --> 00:13:47,652 I was just surprised 261 00:13:47,686 --> 00:13:50,955 that you hadn't mentioned it. 262 00:13:50,989 --> 00:13:53,658 The truth is 263 00:13:53,692 --> 00:13:56,728 that this hasn't been foremost on my mind. 264 00:13:56,762 --> 00:13:57,929 Okay. 265 00:13:57,963 --> 00:13:59,997 Because for most of the week 266 00:14:00,032 --> 00:14:02,300 I've been concentrated on my son. 267 00:14:02,334 --> 00:14:04,502 I mean 268 00:14:04,536 --> 00:14:08,840 you weren't even on my radar. 269 00:14:08,874 --> 00:14:11,509 And... 270 00:14:11,543 --> 00:14:14,712 I thought those thoughts had disappeared. 271 00:14:14,747 --> 00:14:17,014 But they hadn't? 272 00:14:19,418 --> 00:14:24,355 They came back somewhere in Delaware. 273 00:14:24,390 --> 00:14:26,357 I was sitting in my car, 274 00:14:26,392 --> 00:14:29,694 just thinking about my life, 275 00:14:29,728 --> 00:14:32,230 my kids, 276 00:14:32,264 --> 00:14:36,334 plus everything that awaited me when I got back here... 277 00:14:36,368 --> 00:14:39,370 Wendy, my work, 278 00:14:39,405 --> 00:14:41,806 the next neurologist. 279 00:14:43,041 --> 00:14:44,876 What? 280 00:14:44,910 --> 00:14:47,812 And I just realized 281 00:14:47,846 --> 00:14:51,749 that the only person I wanted to see 282 00:14:51,784 --> 00:14:53,618 when I got back to New York 283 00:14:53,652 --> 00:14:57,688 was... was you. 284 00:14:59,691 --> 00:15:02,560 I'm supposed to meet Wendy at my place for dinner. 285 00:15:02,594 --> 00:15:06,731 And all I could think was, "I can't do it." 286 00:15:06,765 --> 00:15:08,599 Telling her what I went through today, 287 00:15:08,634 --> 00:15:10,802 telling her what it was like to say goodbye to my son... 288 00:15:10,836 --> 00:15:15,573 I just... I couldn't imagine it. 289 00:15:15,607 --> 00:15:18,810 But I knew that you would understand. 290 00:15:18,844 --> 00:15:21,913 Last week you spoke about these feelings 291 00:15:21,947 --> 00:15:24,482 as ridiculous, a kind of comeuppance. 292 00:15:24,516 --> 00:15:28,953 It's true that I've seen this kind of thing before. 293 00:15:28,987 --> 00:15:32,123 I'm familiar with the dynamic of transference. 294 00:15:32,157 --> 00:15:34,692 And... and t 295 00:15:34,726 --> 00:15:37,695 I can't help but think 296 00:15:37,729 --> 00:15:42,467 that maybe this is 297 00:15:42,501 --> 00:15:44,602 something more. 298 00:15:46,138 --> 00:15:48,439 I don't know. I just can't shake the thought 299 00:15:48,474 --> 00:15:52,009 that somehow, 300 00:15:52,044 --> 00:15:54,212 someplace else 301 00:15:54,246 --> 00:15:57,815 we might... 302 00:15:57,850 --> 00:16:00,384 we might be able to help each other, 303 00:16:00,419 --> 00:16:03,921 that we might... 304 00:16:03,956 --> 00:16:06,791 that we might make each other happy. 305 00:16:06,825 --> 00:16:10,628 "We might make each other happy." 306 00:16:10,662 --> 00:16:11,963 How do you imagine...? 307 00:16:11,997 --> 00:16:13,898 Look, I know 308 00:16:13,966 --> 00:16:16,033 it's impossible, of course 309 00:16:16,068 --> 00:16:20,872 that you and I could never be together. 310 00:16:20,906 --> 00:16:22,773 Impossible that we could never? 311 00:16:22,808 --> 00:16:26,511 Impossible that we could ever... 312 00:16:29,548 --> 00:16:32,683 there's no way it could happen. 313 00:16:32,718 --> 00:16:35,786 I should have kept my mouth shut. 314 00:16:35,821 --> 00:16:38,222 This impossibility... 315 00:16:38,257 --> 00:16:41,192 your certainty that a relationship between us 316 00:16:41,226 --> 00:16:44,161 could never happen... 317 00:16:44,196 --> 00:16:46,163 I'm wondering if in part 318 00:16:46,198 --> 00:16:48,366 that's what allows you to contemplate it. 319 00:16:51,236 --> 00:16:53,204 I mean, does it feel safer 320 00:16:53,238 --> 00:16:55,506 within the confines of a therapist's office... 321 00:16:55,541 --> 00:16:57,308 of yours or mine... 322 00:16:57,342 --> 00:17:01,045 to allow yourself to engage in, 323 00:17:01,079 --> 00:17:03,614 to imagine a personal relationship? 324 00:17:03,649 --> 00:17:05,716 Safer? 325 00:17:07,653 --> 00:17:10,721 I don't know about you, but I'm not feeling 326 00:17:10,756 --> 00:17:15,059 particularly safe right now. 327 00:17:17,796 --> 00:17:21,232 When you think about us making each other happy, 328 00:17:21,266 --> 00:17:24,802 what comes to mind? What do you imagine? 329 00:17:24,870 --> 00:17:27,772 I... 330 00:17:27,806 --> 00:17:30,241 I don't know. I... I... 331 00:17:31,476 --> 00:17:33,477 tell me what you're thinking. 332 00:17:33,512 --> 00:17:36,581 I suppose I just sense 333 00:17:36,615 --> 00:17:40,785 that you and I... 334 00:17:40,819 --> 00:17:43,421 well, 335 00:17:43,455 --> 00:17:47,024 I... I imagine us having dinner 336 00:17:47,059 --> 00:17:49,694 at the end of a day of work, you know, 337 00:17:49,728 --> 00:17:51,963 having a glass of wine, 338 00:17:51,997 --> 00:17:55,266 talking about our minor triumphs with patients, 339 00:17:55,300 --> 00:17:57,735 helping each other to sort through 340 00:17:57,769 --> 00:18:01,906 difficult cases. 341 00:18:01,940 --> 00:18:03,240 Anything else? 342 00:18:03,275 --> 00:18:05,042 Are there other things you imagine, 343 00:18:05,077 --> 00:18:08,579 other romantic situations you might...? 344 00:18:08,614 --> 00:18:11,349 It's not so crazy, is it really, 345 00:18:11,383 --> 00:18:15,586 to imagine sharing ideas, advice, encouragement 346 00:18:15,621 --> 00:18:18,089 with somebody who's 347 00:18:18,123 --> 00:18:20,992 engaged in the same kind of work as a profession, 348 00:18:21,026 --> 00:18:23,094 seen the same challenges? 349 00:18:23,128 --> 00:18:24,862 No, it's not crazy. 350 00:18:24,896 --> 00:18:26,631 No. 351 00:18:31,103 --> 00:18:32,870 You know, for instance, 352 00:18:32,904 --> 00:18:35,139 I've been wanting to talk to you about Sunil. 353 00:18:35,173 --> 00:18:38,476 I'm a little bit, I don't know, kind of... 354 00:18:38,510 --> 00:18:40,678 I've been thinking about my last session with him. 355 00:18:40,712 --> 00:18:44,115 And I'm not quite sure what to make of it, you know? 356 00:18:44,149 --> 00:18:46,584 This is the kind of conversation 357 00:18:46,618 --> 00:18:48,819 you might imagine we would have 358 00:18:48,854 --> 00:18:51,522 if we were involved in some sort of relationship? 359 00:18:51,556 --> 00:18:54,225 Look, I've told you about Sunil's anger, 360 00:18:54,259 --> 00:18:56,427 his... the deep rage that he has 361 00:18:56,461 --> 00:18:58,329 toward his daughter-in-law. 362 00:18:58,363 --> 00:19:00,297 Yes, you did tell me, 363 00:19:00,332 --> 00:19:01,999 but because we're just about out of time... 364 00:19:02,034 --> 00:19:05,236 and this week he told me this extremely vivid dream that he had 365 00:19:05,270 --> 00:19:08,639 where he imagined that he was defending his grandchildren 366 00:19:08,674 --> 00:19:11,876 against this woman who was walking towards them, 367 00:19:11,910 --> 00:19:14,278 and he was trying to strike her. 368 00:19:14,312 --> 00:19:16,280 And when I pressed him about this, 369 00:19:16,314 --> 00:19:18,482 he suddenly started to scream in bengali. 370 00:19:18,517 --> 00:19:21,118 And obviously I didn't know what he was saying, 371 00:19:21,153 --> 00:19:22,887 but then afterwards he said, 372 00:19:22,921 --> 00:19:25,289 "a man can only be pushed so far." 373 00:19:25,323 --> 00:19:27,725 It was just... I mean, 374 00:19:27,759 --> 00:19:30,294 do you think that I should be worried about...? 375 00:19:30,328 --> 00:19:31,662 I really couldn't answer that. 376 00:19:31,697 --> 00:19:34,465 I sit across from him and my gut instinct, 377 00:19:34,499 --> 00:19:36,133 you know, as a professional 378 00:19:36,168 --> 00:19:38,169 is that he is... he is... 379 00:19:38,203 --> 00:19:40,438 he is a gentle man. 380 00:19:40,472 --> 00:19:43,441 But then he uses this kind of alarming language 381 00:19:43,475 --> 00:19:47,078 like "smother" and "strike." 382 00:19:47,112 --> 00:19:50,314 What do you think? Am I wrong to consider 383 00:19:50,348 --> 00:19:52,316 that he could become violent? 384 00:19:52,350 --> 00:19:54,518 I honestly don't know. I've never met Sunil 385 00:19:54,553 --> 00:19:56,620 and I haven't heard the dream in any real detail. 386 00:19:56,655 --> 00:19:58,689 Well, I can fill you in on the... 387 00:19:58,724 --> 00:20:01,392 I'm afraid you can't, actually. 388 00:20:01,426 --> 00:20:03,928 But we could schedule another appointment, 389 00:20:03,962 --> 00:20:07,364 continue this next week. 390 00:20:07,399 --> 00:20:11,702 I don't need another appointment. 391 00:20:11,737 --> 00:20:14,605 Well, there's a lot that came up today and there's not much time. 392 00:20:14,639 --> 00:20:16,707 It's the end of the day. It's Friday. 393 00:20:16,742 --> 00:20:18,976 I know that I'm your last patient. 394 00:20:19,010 --> 00:20:21,345 - If we could just... - How do you know you're my last patient? 395 00:20:21,379 --> 00:20:23,347 Because I stood outside last week 396 00:20:23,381 --> 00:20:25,449 and I looked at the building. 397 00:20:25,484 --> 00:20:29,954 Nobody came in or out, including you, for an hour. 398 00:20:31,289 --> 00:20:33,691 Well... 399 00:20:33,725 --> 00:20:36,761 We can talk about what you were thinking 400 00:20:36,795 --> 00:20:39,163 while you were standing outside my building next week. 401 00:20:39,197 --> 00:20:41,098 All I need is a minute or two 402 00:20:41,133 --> 00:20:43,801 to address this issue of Sunil which... 403 00:20:43,835 --> 00:20:46,771 - his outburst was pretty ex... - If we had two more minutes, 404 00:20:46,805 --> 00:20:48,739 this is what you'd like to discuss... 405 00:20:48,774 --> 00:20:50,941 your patient's outburst, not the fact that you stood 406 00:20:50,976 --> 00:20:53,077 - outside my building for over... - Yes, the depth of his anger, 407 00:20:53,111 --> 00:20:55,613 his intensity... I need to know for my sake if you... 408 00:20:55,647 --> 00:20:57,381 if you're concerned about that, 409 00:20:57,415 --> 00:20:59,750 you know very well what you're supposed to do. You have... 410 00:20:59,785 --> 00:21:02,019 I'm asking you to help me figure out whether I should be... 411 00:21:02,053 --> 00:21:03,854 you have a duty to notify the authorities 412 00:21:03,889 --> 00:21:06,390 or warn the potential victim. You know that already. 413 00:21:06,424 --> 00:21:09,894 - Now it's 5:53. We really need to stop. - 5:53? 414 00:21:09,928 --> 00:21:13,297 5:53. 415 00:21:13,331 --> 00:21:15,800 How would 10:00 A.M. Monday morning work for you? 416 00:21:15,834 --> 00:21:18,402 I can't do it. I have a patient. 417 00:21:18,436 --> 00:21:20,704 All right, how about Wednesday at 1:00? 418 00:21:20,739 --> 00:21:22,740 I'm seeing a neurologist. 419 00:21:22,774 --> 00:21:25,442 And then I've got a 3:00, a 4:00, a 5:00. 420 00:21:25,477 --> 00:21:27,511 I actually have a practice 421 00:21:27,546 --> 00:21:31,248 where I routinely go five or 10 minutes over if necessary. 422 00:21:31,283 --> 00:21:33,150 You're seeing another neurologist? 423 00:21:33,185 --> 00:21:35,052 - Yes, I am. - About the Parkinson's? 424 00:21:35,086 --> 00:21:37,121 I... why...? I don't understand 425 00:21:37,155 --> 00:21:39,723 why you can't be just a little bit more flexible. 426 00:21:39,758 --> 00:21:41,692 I mean, think about it: 427 00:21:41,726 --> 00:21:44,261 I've just lived through one of the worst moments of my life; 428 00:21:44,296 --> 00:21:47,631 I've got a patient who potentially could hurt somebody and... 429 00:21:47,666 --> 00:21:50,501 - again if you believe that... - And we've only had a half-an-hour session... 430 00:21:50,535 --> 00:21:52,002 we've only had half a session because... 431 00:21:52,037 --> 00:21:54,505 because I left my kid in Baltimore; 432 00:21:54,539 --> 00:21:57,007 - the traffic was insane and... - Paul. 433 00:21:57,042 --> 00:22:00,211 Why are you so fucking rigid? 434 00:22:02,781 --> 00:22:05,449 You've got an enormous amount going on right now 435 00:22:05,483 --> 00:22:08,652 and I would really like to help you see your way through, 436 00:22:08,687 --> 00:22:11,622 but whenever I dare ask you to look at yourself 437 00:22:11,656 --> 00:22:13,691 or your patterns of behavior, 438 00:22:13,725 --> 00:22:16,760 you get angry, you raise your voice, you get impatient 439 00:22:16,795 --> 00:22:20,064 and I think deeply afraid. 440 00:22:20,098 --> 00:22:23,167 You do anything you can to push our relationship 441 00:22:23,201 --> 00:22:25,669 past its prescribed time and purpose. 442 00:22:25,704 --> 00:22:27,972 You ask me to be your colleague, 443 00:22:28,006 --> 00:22:29,840 your supervisor, your life partner... 444 00:22:29,875 --> 00:22:31,976 anything except for what you came to me for... 445 00:22:32,010 --> 00:22:33,611 to be your therapist, 446 00:22:33,645 --> 00:22:38,415 to get me to challenge you to look at yourself. 447 00:22:38,450 --> 00:22:40,251 I don't think you realize 448 00:22:40,285 --> 00:22:43,354 just how paralyzed you've become. 449 00:22:43,388 --> 00:22:46,624 It took you weeks to speak to your son, 450 00:22:46,658 --> 00:22:48,792 and only after a real crisis 451 00:22:48,827 --> 00:22:51,061 forced you to do it. 452 00:22:51,096 --> 00:22:52,830 You have an inability 453 00:22:52,864 --> 00:22:54,832 to act decisively with one of your patients 454 00:22:54,866 --> 00:22:56,500 despite the fact that you say 455 00:22:56,534 --> 00:22:59,203 you're genuinely concerned for him. 456 00:22:59,237 --> 00:23:01,505 You have doubts about your current relationship 457 00:23:01,539 --> 00:23:03,274 which you've done nothing about. 458 00:23:03,308 --> 00:23:05,976 And you've convinced yourself you have a debilitating disease 459 00:23:06,011 --> 00:23:08,979 despite medical opinions to the contrary. 460 00:23:09,014 --> 00:23:12,016 Now I would really like to help you see your way through, 461 00:23:12,050 --> 00:23:16,854 but I cannot do it alone and I will not do it past 5:50. 462 00:23:19,291 --> 00:23:22,760 Now I really urge you to come see me twice next week. 463 00:23:22,794 --> 00:23:26,931 I'm... I'm unable to do that. 464 00:23:29,534 --> 00:23:31,802 All right then. 465 00:23:31,836 --> 00:23:34,204 For now we need to stop. 466 00:23:41,680 --> 00:23:44,949 Are you so paralyzed you're unable to stand up? 467 00:23:50,055 --> 00:23:52,589 I'm standing. 468 00:23:52,624 --> 00:23:54,758 And I'm leaving. 469 00:23:54,793 --> 00:23:57,494 Your pills. 470 00:24:19,818 --> 00:24:21,785 ( Door closes ) 471 00:24:21,820 --> 00:24:24,221 ( Theme music playing ) 472 00:24:24,222 --> 00:24:27,869 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 473 00:24:28,004 --> 00:24:34,367 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com