1 00:00:54,945 --> 00:00:56,546 Julia. 2 00:00:56,580 --> 00:01:00,383 Hello, Dr. weston. Sunil's outside smoking. 3 00:01:00,417 --> 00:01:02,752 I wondered if we could speak for a moment. 4 00:01:02,786 --> 00:01:03,953 Sure. 5 00:01:03,988 --> 00:01:07,257 - May I come in? - Of course. 6 00:01:12,763 --> 00:01:14,731 You obviously weren't expecting 7 00:01:14,765 --> 00:01:16,966 the wicked, insensitive daughter-in-law. 8 00:01:17,001 --> 00:01:20,169 I have no doubt that's how he paints me. 9 00:01:20,204 --> 00:01:22,272 Am I wrong? 10 00:01:24,008 --> 00:01:27,076 Can I ask what happened to your arm? 11 00:01:27,111 --> 00:01:30,580 Uh, we had an argument. 12 00:01:30,614 --> 00:01:32,215 We? 13 00:01:32,249 --> 00:01:34,317 Who do you think? 14 00:01:34,351 --> 00:01:37,820 - And... - And things got out of hand. 15 00:01:40,691 --> 00:01:43,693 When you say "things got out of hand," what... 16 00:01:43,727 --> 00:01:45,695 "out of hand" meaning he pushed me 17 00:01:45,729 --> 00:01:47,363 and I fell into a bookcase 18 00:01:47,398 --> 00:01:48,998 in front of the children. 19 00:01:49,033 --> 00:01:51,234 Sunil pushed you? 20 00:01:51,268 --> 00:01:53,703 There was a nail head that wasn't hammered all the way into the wood. 21 00:01:53,737 --> 00:01:56,839 A visit to the emergency room, three stitches. 22 00:01:56,874 --> 00:01:59,676 And how did this... 23 00:01:59,710 --> 00:02:01,744 how did this argument begin? 24 00:02:01,779 --> 00:02:04,614 We're ending sunil's treatment. 25 00:02:04,648 --> 00:02:07,283 Today will be his last session. 26 00:02:08,752 --> 00:02:10,920 This should cover today 27 00:02:10,955 --> 00:02:13,189 and one more for the last-minute cancellation. 28 00:02:13,223 --> 00:02:14,691 That's not really necessary. 29 00:02:14,725 --> 00:02:17,961 It would make me more comfortable. Take the check. 30 00:02:19,196 --> 00:02:21,497 I'm not sure that I understand. 31 00:02:21,532 --> 00:02:23,833 I don't think I could say it any more clearly. 32 00:02:23,867 --> 00:02:25,768 Well, it's just that I've really started 33 00:02:25,803 --> 00:02:27,770 to make contact with him. 34 00:02:27,805 --> 00:02:30,340 We're starting to build an alliance. 35 00:02:30,374 --> 00:02:31,874 With all due respect, Dr. weston, 36 00:02:31,909 --> 00:02:34,143 if this is what happens when you build an alliance, 37 00:02:34,178 --> 00:02:36,446 then I feel for your other patients, 38 00:02:36,480 --> 00:02:39,482 not to mention their families. 39 00:02:39,516 --> 00:02:40,883 He's gotten worse. 40 00:02:40,918 --> 00:02:42,652 I have to respectfully disagree. 41 00:02:42,686 --> 00:02:44,354 I think he's beginning to really... 42 00:02:44,388 --> 00:02:46,589 well, you don't live with him, do you? 43 00:02:46,624 --> 00:02:48,858 There's been a sharp decline in his behavior 44 00:02:48,892 --> 00:02:51,227 ever since he started treatment. 45 00:02:51,261 --> 00:02:54,530 Can you be more specific? 46 00:02:55,766 --> 00:02:57,867 Have there been other incidents? 47 00:02:57,901 --> 00:03:01,804 He's been acting stranger and stranger by the day. 48 00:03:01,839 --> 00:03:03,539 He's back to hiding out in his room. 49 00:03:03,574 --> 00:03:06,409 When he does decide to come out, it seems perfectly timed. 50 00:03:06,443 --> 00:03:09,178 Just last night he came out into the hallway 51 00:03:09,213 --> 00:03:10,980 after I put the children to bed. 52 00:03:11,015 --> 00:03:13,182 He just stood there 53 00:03:13,217 --> 00:03:15,418 staring at me. 54 00:03:15,452 --> 00:03:17,687 It took everything I had to muster the courage 55 00:03:17,721 --> 00:03:19,422 just to walk past him. 56 00:03:20,624 --> 00:03:22,492 It's the way he looks at me. 57 00:03:22,526 --> 00:03:26,362 He... he doesn't even blink. 58 00:03:29,633 --> 00:03:32,802 I actually thought about calling the police. 59 00:03:32,836 --> 00:03:35,505 I can't imagine what he's telling you. 60 00:03:35,539 --> 00:03:37,540 I mean, what does he say about us? 61 00:03:37,574 --> 00:03:39,509 Um, unfortunately 62 00:03:39,543 --> 00:03:42,145 I'm not at liberty to disclose 63 00:03:42,179 --> 00:03:44,814 the details of my work with sunil. 64 00:03:44,848 --> 00:03:47,684 But I'm paying for this. 65 00:03:48,752 --> 00:03:50,653 God, what a waste. 66 00:03:50,688 --> 00:03:53,623 $220 a week for him to get even crazier. 67 00:03:53,657 --> 00:03:55,792 The simple fact is 68 00:03:55,826 --> 00:03:58,361 you have not been helping. 69 00:03:58,395 --> 00:04:01,464 I need Arun to prescribe something stronger for his father... 70 00:04:01,498 --> 00:04:03,566 something that actually works. 71 00:04:03,600 --> 00:04:06,269 So please take the check. 72 00:04:07,304 --> 00:04:09,238 When you say 73 00:04:09,273 --> 00:04:11,541 that you considered calling the police... 74 00:04:11,575 --> 00:04:14,677 it went through my mind. I wasn't really... 75 00:04:15,813 --> 00:04:19,015 I'm not as bad as you think I am. 76 00:04:19,049 --> 00:04:22,018 There is a part of me that actually feels for sunil. 77 00:04:22,052 --> 00:04:23,219 In what way? 78 00:04:23,253 --> 00:04:25,021 He's an attractive middle-aged man. 79 00:04:25,055 --> 00:04:26,622 His life doesn't have to be over. 80 00:04:26,657 --> 00:04:29,225 It's almost as though he chooses to be miserable. 81 00:04:29,259 --> 00:04:31,894 And that, in turn, makes the rest of us miserable. 82 00:04:31,929 --> 00:04:34,163 The whole situation has made me anxious. 83 00:04:34,198 --> 00:04:36,833 I'm sorry to hear that. 84 00:04:36,867 --> 00:04:39,435 I'm not sleeping. I'm losing focus at work. 85 00:04:39,470 --> 00:04:41,404 I'm finding it harder and harder 86 00:04:41,438 --> 00:04:45,074 to concentrate on my manuscripts, my authors. 87 00:04:46,510 --> 00:04:49,245 Honestly, what would you do if you were in my position? 88 00:04:49,279 --> 00:04:52,582 Honestly, I would keep him in treatment. 89 00:04:55,018 --> 00:04:58,054 And if you would like to discuss 90 00:04:58,088 --> 00:05:00,056 your issues with a professional, 91 00:05:00,090 --> 00:05:03,059 I'd be happy to recommend somebody. 92 00:05:05,863 --> 00:05:08,498 Right. 93 00:05:08,532 --> 00:05:11,134 I would like to hear 94 00:05:11,168 --> 00:05:12,902 more of the details of this incident. 95 00:05:12,936 --> 00:05:14,604 That's all right. It's pretty clear 96 00:05:14,638 --> 00:05:16,672 you're only interested in one side of the story. 97 00:05:16,707 --> 00:05:17,940 I... 98 00:05:17,975 --> 00:05:19,942 he obviously has you under his spell. 99 00:05:19,977 --> 00:05:22,578 Julia, I would very much like to hear 100 00:05:22,613 --> 00:05:24,881 your side of the story. I... 101 00:05:36,527 --> 00:05:39,128 I suspect that she just informed you 102 00:05:39,163 --> 00:05:40,863 my therapy is over. 103 00:05:47,437 --> 00:05:50,641 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 104 00:05:51,181 --> 00:05:54,398 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 105 00:06:11,829 --> 00:06:14,096 I'm sorry. I didn't have time 106 00:06:14,131 --> 00:06:18,534 to make tea today. 107 00:06:18,569 --> 00:06:22,338 Julia's visit was somewhat unexpected. 108 00:06:22,372 --> 00:06:24,240 That is okay. 109 00:06:25,542 --> 00:06:28,744 The fact that this is our last session 110 00:06:28,779 --> 00:06:30,847 feels peculiar to me. 111 00:06:32,316 --> 00:06:35,718 I've come to look forward to these conversations. 112 00:06:35,752 --> 00:06:37,420 Me too. 113 00:06:38,856 --> 00:06:40,857 I cannot quite picture what I'll do now. 114 00:06:40,891 --> 00:06:43,125 Maybe I'll go and speak to the guy 115 00:06:43,160 --> 00:06:45,862 who sells my candy on church Avenue. 116 00:06:50,167 --> 00:06:52,869 Something tells me it won't be as gratifying. 117 00:06:52,903 --> 00:06:55,805 I understand there was... 118 00:06:55,839 --> 00:06:59,575 there was an incident at the house this week. 119 00:07:00,744 --> 00:07:03,379 I've come to think of you as a man 120 00:07:04,648 --> 00:07:07,016 who possesses great wisdom. 121 00:07:08,652 --> 00:07:12,355 So you don't... you don't want to talk about what happened? 122 00:07:12,389 --> 00:07:15,224 And I've been thinking quite a lot 123 00:07:15,259 --> 00:07:17,526 about my dream, 124 00:07:17,561 --> 00:07:19,896 the one with the dark-haired woman. 125 00:07:19,930 --> 00:07:21,831 I believe you were right. 126 00:07:21,865 --> 00:07:26,235 Oh? In what way? 127 00:07:26,270 --> 00:07:29,472 The woman has returned 128 00:07:29,506 --> 00:07:33,175 to my... to my thoughts over and over this week. 129 00:07:35,579 --> 00:07:37,713 You must be very very skilled 130 00:07:37,748 --> 00:07:40,416 to make me think of Malini so often 131 00:07:40,450 --> 00:07:42,218 after so many years. 132 00:07:42,252 --> 00:07:45,588 The flower in her hair, the el Greco painting... 133 00:07:45,622 --> 00:07:49,892 it's... that was observant of you, 134 00:07:49,927 --> 00:07:52,295 quite powerful. 135 00:07:52,329 --> 00:07:56,866 When you think about Malini, 136 00:07:56,900 --> 00:07:59,368 what emotions come up for you? 137 00:07:59,403 --> 00:08:01,737 Emotions such as...? 138 00:08:01,772 --> 00:08:05,141 You told me about the break-up, her death, 139 00:08:05,175 --> 00:08:07,843 but I don't know, I just... 140 00:08:07,878 --> 00:08:10,713 I have this sense that there's... 141 00:08:10,747 --> 00:08:13,215 there's more to the story. 142 00:08:13,250 --> 00:08:15,685 I think it's interesting 143 00:08:15,719 --> 00:08:19,221 that she appeared to you as a threatening figure 144 00:08:19,256 --> 00:08:21,257 and that when you woke from the dream 145 00:08:21,291 --> 00:08:24,427 you were just about to strike her. 146 00:08:24,461 --> 00:08:27,463 And now there's been 147 00:08:27,497 --> 00:08:30,399 a physical incident at home. 148 00:08:34,137 --> 00:08:36,138 Can you please... 149 00:08:36,173 --> 00:08:38,908 I said there's no point to this. 150 00:08:38,942 --> 00:08:40,643 And why do you say that? 151 00:08:40,677 --> 00:08:42,745 This is our final session. What is the point 152 00:08:42,779 --> 00:08:45,281 of all these questions we will have no chance to answer? 153 00:08:45,315 --> 00:08:48,117 You don't seem to want to answer. 154 00:08:48,151 --> 00:08:52,088 I ask you about Malini and you evade. 155 00:08:52,122 --> 00:08:54,190 I ask you what happened at the house 156 00:08:54,224 --> 00:08:58,127 and you don't seem to want to answer that either. 157 00:08:58,161 --> 00:08:59,862 Did Julia not give you final payment? 158 00:08:59,896 --> 00:09:03,799 - Yes, she did but... - So it's too late, Paul. 159 00:09:03,834 --> 00:09:06,635 It's too late. 160 00:09:09,840 --> 00:09:11,774 Can you tell me 161 00:09:11,808 --> 00:09:14,677 what you think led Julia to make this decision? 162 00:09:16,646 --> 00:09:20,483 Does it have anything to do with the bandage on her arm? 163 00:09:20,517 --> 00:09:23,486 She has not already told you? 164 00:09:23,520 --> 00:09:26,822 Well, she said that you'd had an argument 165 00:09:26,857 --> 00:09:29,091 and that you pushed her into the bookcase. 166 00:09:29,126 --> 00:09:30,659 I pushed her? 167 00:09:30,694 --> 00:09:32,795 Did you not push her? 168 00:09:39,669 --> 00:09:43,172 Okay, so I walked into the tv room. 169 00:09:43,206 --> 00:09:45,875 Sam and Naya were watching this... 170 00:09:45,909 --> 00:09:49,412 their favorite animated DVD 171 00:09:49,446 --> 00:09:51,881 for the 18th time this month. 172 00:09:51,915 --> 00:09:54,917 And I wanted to spend some time with them. 173 00:09:54,951 --> 00:09:57,319 And I could not bear this movie anymore, 174 00:09:57,354 --> 00:10:00,022 so I switched it off. 175 00:10:00,057 --> 00:10:02,358 This movie is about a clown fish. 176 00:10:02,392 --> 00:10:05,027 And I've grown so tiresome 177 00:10:05,062 --> 00:10:07,563 of watching my grandchildren absorbing 178 00:10:07,597 --> 00:10:09,965 this senseless poison. 179 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:12,001 So instead I tried to teach them 180 00:10:12,035 --> 00:10:13,836 a bengali folk song. 181 00:10:13,870 --> 00:10:16,372 I was halfway through my first verse 182 00:10:16,406 --> 00:10:18,474 when Julia came inside the room. 183 00:10:18,508 --> 00:10:20,142 And she was furious. 184 00:10:20,177 --> 00:10:22,311 Well, if I remember, she'd asked you 185 00:10:22,345 --> 00:10:24,346 not to teach bengali to Sam. 186 00:10:24,381 --> 00:10:26,315 It's just a song, Paul. 187 00:10:26,349 --> 00:10:29,518 It's a song. You know, it's... 188 00:10:48,405 --> 00:10:51,974 It's a song. It's saying goodbye to a friend, you know. 189 00:10:52,008 --> 00:10:53,976 It has much more relevance to life 190 00:10:54,010 --> 00:10:58,047 than this foolish, ridiculous cartoon fish. 191 00:11:16,500 --> 00:11:18,534 See? 192 00:11:18,568 --> 00:11:21,570 Do you find this terrible? 193 00:11:21,605 --> 00:11:23,539 No, it's... 194 00:11:23,573 --> 00:11:26,742 no, it doesn't sound terrible at all. 195 00:11:26,776 --> 00:11:30,613 So Julia quickly raised her voice. 196 00:11:30,647 --> 00:11:32,648 So when Naya saw her raising her voice, 197 00:11:32,682 --> 00:11:34,617 she started crying. 198 00:11:34,651 --> 00:11:37,353 Sam saw Naya crying, so Sam started crying. 199 00:11:37,387 --> 00:11:39,922 And Julia told me to stop singing the song 200 00:11:39,956 --> 00:11:41,690 and I would not. 201 00:11:41,725 --> 00:11:44,093 "Stop." 202 00:11:45,829 --> 00:11:48,230 "Stop." And I wouldn't. 203 00:11:48,265 --> 00:11:51,800 My son came into the room and he joined Julia's side. 204 00:11:51,835 --> 00:11:54,270 He said, "baba, you are scaring the children." 205 00:11:54,304 --> 00:11:56,939 I was scaring the children? I was scaring the children? 206 00:11:56,973 --> 00:12:00,009 Their yelling at me was scaring the children. 207 00:12:00,043 --> 00:12:03,112 So when I tried to leave, Julia would not move out of the way, 208 00:12:03,146 --> 00:12:05,848 so I pushed past her. 209 00:12:05,882 --> 00:12:08,551 She lost her balance. She fell on this bookshelf. 210 00:12:08,585 --> 00:12:11,854 So you're saying it was an accident. 211 00:12:11,888 --> 00:12:13,756 Paul, it's not a deep cut. 212 00:12:13,790 --> 00:12:15,791 Arun tried to tend to her, 213 00:12:15,825 --> 00:12:17,760 but of course she insisted 214 00:12:17,794 --> 00:12:20,029 on going to the emergency room, 215 00:12:20,063 --> 00:12:21,997 as if she was mauled by a tiger. 216 00:12:22,032 --> 00:12:24,233 So after they returned from the hospital 217 00:12:24,267 --> 00:12:26,769 arun came into my room and told me 218 00:12:26,803 --> 00:12:29,071 that I was disrupting their marriage, 219 00:12:29,105 --> 00:12:32,007 that I was creating disharmony in their household 220 00:12:32,042 --> 00:12:35,811 and I must move down to the basement, 221 00:12:35,845 --> 00:12:37,780 further away from the children. 222 00:12:37,814 --> 00:12:39,949 And what did you say? 223 00:12:46,590 --> 00:12:48,190 The irony is 224 00:12:49,826 --> 00:12:52,728 it's the same song Kamala and I used to sing to him 225 00:12:52,762 --> 00:12:55,097 when he was a small boy. 226 00:12:55,131 --> 00:12:58,634 Saying goodnight was always difficult for him. 227 00:12:58,668 --> 00:13:00,636 And how he used to beg to us 228 00:13:00,670 --> 00:13:03,439 to sing this song every night. 229 00:13:03,473 --> 00:13:06,308 And now he's begging you to stop. 230 00:13:07,644 --> 00:13:12,314 It was as if he didn't even recognize it. 231 00:13:12,349 --> 00:13:15,184 And he tells me I am destroying 232 00:13:15,218 --> 00:13:17,953 his marriage, his family. 233 00:13:20,657 --> 00:13:24,760 You said that Julia was in the way 234 00:13:24,794 --> 00:13:28,130 when you were trying to leave and that you pushed past her. 235 00:13:29,499 --> 00:13:32,835 See, Paul, you need not concern yourself with this. 236 00:13:32,869 --> 00:13:34,837 No, this is gonna be our last session. 237 00:13:34,871 --> 00:13:37,706 I want this to be clear. Did you push Julia? 238 00:13:37,741 --> 00:13:39,475 She would not move out of the way, 239 00:13:39,509 --> 00:13:41,710 I wished to leave and I pushed by her. 240 00:13:41,745 --> 00:13:43,746 But this is what I'm talking about when I say 241 00:13:43,780 --> 00:13:45,748 that you avoid answering my questions. 242 00:13:45,782 --> 00:13:49,985 What's the difference between "pushed by" and "pushed"? 243 00:13:54,858 --> 00:13:57,192 Where were the children? 244 00:13:57,227 --> 00:13:58,661 Sam was crying 245 00:13:58,695 --> 00:14:01,063 and Naya was hanging onto her leg. 246 00:14:01,097 --> 00:14:05,701 And did you ask Julia to move out of the way? 247 00:14:09,272 --> 00:14:11,807 They think her injured arm is proof 248 00:14:11,841 --> 00:14:15,511 that my time with you has not been helpful, 249 00:14:15,545 --> 00:14:17,579 that it has made me worse. 250 00:14:19,215 --> 00:14:21,717 I woke up this morning and there was a note 251 00:14:21,751 --> 00:14:24,887 on the kitchen table from Julia, saying, 252 00:14:24,921 --> 00:14:26,655 "sunil," 253 00:14:26,690 --> 00:14:29,458 this is your last session with Dr. weston 254 00:14:29,492 --> 00:14:32,227 and I'm scheduling my early lunch 255 00:14:32,262 --> 00:14:33,762 "so I can meet you there." 256 00:14:33,797 --> 00:14:36,265 And how did you respond to the note? 257 00:14:36,299 --> 00:14:38,233 I crumpled it up 258 00:14:38,268 --> 00:14:42,204 and put it inside her espresso machine. 259 00:14:45,642 --> 00:14:47,576 Let me ask you... 260 00:14:47,610 --> 00:14:49,745 do you think the work that we've done here 261 00:14:49,779 --> 00:14:52,915 has made you worse, would you say? 262 00:14:54,451 --> 00:14:56,418 You know, I have to tell you 263 00:14:56,453 --> 00:14:58,420 that I think ending treatment now 264 00:14:58,455 --> 00:15:00,589 would be a critical mistake. 265 00:15:00,623 --> 00:15:02,458 It is out of my hands, Paul. 266 00:15:02,492 --> 00:15:05,160 Well, I'd be happy to call arun and Julia on your behalf. 267 00:15:05,195 --> 00:15:08,430 Once Julia makes up her mind about something, 268 00:15:08,465 --> 00:15:10,599 then it is the way things must be. 269 00:15:10,633 --> 00:15:12,601 That's how she is. 270 00:15:12,635 --> 00:15:14,937 I'm stuck. 271 00:15:14,971 --> 00:15:17,072 I'm trapped 272 00:15:17,107 --> 00:15:18,741 and there's nothing to be done. 273 00:15:18,775 --> 00:15:21,377 I don't think so. I think that it's still possible 274 00:15:21,411 --> 00:15:22,811 if we approach her again... 275 00:15:22,846 --> 00:15:26,448 I refuse to beg her. 276 00:15:26,483 --> 00:15:30,119 I'm not that pathetic, Paul. 277 00:15:33,022 --> 00:15:35,391 Well, what about the possibility 278 00:15:35,425 --> 00:15:38,327 of your continuing pro bono? 279 00:15:41,064 --> 00:15:43,198 But what do you get out of it? 280 00:15:43,233 --> 00:15:45,768 The pleasure of my madness? 281 00:15:45,802 --> 00:15:47,136 I want to help you. 282 00:15:47,170 --> 00:15:49,171 I think that we have a connection. 283 00:15:49,205 --> 00:15:50,906 I know, Paul, you're a kind man. 284 00:15:50,940 --> 00:15:54,209 You're a wise man. You're a good-hearted man. 285 00:15:54,244 --> 00:15:57,079 And I've come to... 286 00:15:57,113 --> 00:15:59,882 to think of you fondly, 287 00:16:01,551 --> 00:16:04,753 but I refuse to become your charity case. 288 00:16:04,788 --> 00:16:06,221 I understand that, 289 00:16:06,256 --> 00:16:09,625 but you have one more session that's in credit. 290 00:16:09,659 --> 00:16:13,529 Julia paid me for canceling next week. I... 291 00:16:16,433 --> 00:16:19,835 At least tell me that you'll think about it. 292 00:16:23,306 --> 00:16:25,574 Can I ask you a favor, Paul? 293 00:16:25,608 --> 00:16:27,509 Of course. 294 00:16:30,613 --> 00:16:33,482 I was wondering if you could please... 295 00:16:35,518 --> 00:16:38,253 Keep this for me. 296 00:16:38,288 --> 00:16:40,856 After the argument on Saturday night, 297 00:16:40,890 --> 00:16:45,327 I could not be in the same house any longer, 298 00:16:45,361 --> 00:16:47,696 so I walked into the park. 299 00:16:47,730 --> 00:16:51,233 There's a field where South Asian men 300 00:16:51,267 --> 00:16:54,069 play cricket on weekends. 301 00:16:54,103 --> 00:16:56,572 I knew it was late, 302 00:16:56,606 --> 00:16:59,141 but, I don't know why, I found myself 303 00:16:59,175 --> 00:17:01,176 walking towards that field. 304 00:17:03,079 --> 00:17:06,281 The field s empty, but I found this. 305 00:17:12,255 --> 00:17:15,190 I sat on a bench for a long time, 306 00:17:15,225 --> 00:17:18,894 just turning the handle of this bat over and over. 307 00:17:22,098 --> 00:17:25,501 I thought, "why have they left this behind?" 308 00:17:27,303 --> 00:17:29,771 It's old, yes, slightly broken, 309 00:17:29,806 --> 00:17:33,442 but does it need to be discarded? 310 00:17:33,476 --> 00:17:36,745 Could it still not have some purpose? 311 00:17:40,517 --> 00:17:43,318 So I decided you should keep it, Paul. 312 00:17:43,353 --> 00:17:46,388 Perhaps, once I'm gone, it will remind you of me. 313 00:17:48,625 --> 00:17:50,726 That's why you want me to keep it? 314 00:17:50,760 --> 00:17:53,428 And also because... 315 00:17:56,165 --> 00:17:58,066 because I should not keep it. 316 00:17:58,101 --> 00:18:00,602 Why shouldn't you have it? 317 00:18:00,637 --> 00:18:03,138 Arun is going for another conference 318 00:18:03,172 --> 00:18:05,541 to Chicago this weekend 319 00:18:05,575 --> 00:18:09,945 and Julia will surely enjoy her time with Mr. pale fox. 320 00:18:11,481 --> 00:18:15,918 Are you telling me that you're worried 321 00:18:15,952 --> 00:18:17,586 that you might 322 00:18:18,621 --> 00:18:21,256 do something with this bat? 323 00:18:21,291 --> 00:18:24,459 I need you to explain what you mean by that. 324 00:18:29,599 --> 00:18:32,301 Would you please keep it? 325 00:18:34,470 --> 00:18:36,605 Please. 326 00:18:39,275 --> 00:18:41,543 Thank you. 327 00:18:50,620 --> 00:18:53,655 What were you thinking about doing with the bat? 328 00:18:55,058 --> 00:18:57,960 You know, when Julia is in her study, 329 00:18:57,994 --> 00:19:00,362 she faces the window 330 00:19:00,396 --> 00:19:02,497 with her back to the door. 331 00:19:02,532 --> 00:19:06,401 So if you are careful, you can enter without being heard. 332 00:19:06,436 --> 00:19:09,137 And she is so transfixed 333 00:19:09,172 --> 00:19:11,907 by her manuscripts. 334 00:19:15,812 --> 00:19:18,113 What... what do you mean, 335 00:19:18,147 --> 00:19:21,350 "if you are careful"? 336 00:19:21,384 --> 00:19:23,318 Is it... 337 00:19:23,353 --> 00:19:26,221 is this something that you've actually done? 338 00:19:26,255 --> 00:19:28,657 I've imagined it. 339 00:19:28,691 --> 00:19:32,861 Even a broken bat can be quite effective, 340 00:19:32,895 --> 00:19:36,298 and I have played cricket for several years. 341 00:19:41,270 --> 00:19:44,673 Paul, I have no idea why these... 342 00:19:44,707 --> 00:19:47,209 why my mind is seized with these... 343 00:19:47,243 --> 00:19:49,811 these terrible ideas, you know. 344 00:19:49,846 --> 00:19:52,781 Do you think there's something terribly wrong with me, 345 00:19:52,815 --> 00:19:55,150 something seriously wrong with me? 346 00:19:55,184 --> 00:19:57,552 I think that what you're telling me today 347 00:19:57,587 --> 00:20:00,756 is disturbing. 348 00:20:00,790 --> 00:20:03,291 - You do? - Yes, I do. 349 00:20:03,326 --> 00:20:06,161 So perhaps they were right to discontinue my therapy. 350 00:20:06,195 --> 00:20:08,563 No, I'm certain they weren't. 351 00:20:10,767 --> 00:20:12,501 See, it's not your fault, Paul. 352 00:20:12,535 --> 00:20:15,871 Sometimes our best intentions fall short 353 00:20:15,905 --> 00:20:19,341 because the other person is not capable of change. 354 00:20:19,375 --> 00:20:22,177 You know, there's a saying in bengali... 355 00:20:22,211 --> 00:20:24,646 I don't want to hear the saying, okay? 356 00:20:24,681 --> 00:20:26,448 I want us to speak clearly in English. 357 00:20:26,482 --> 00:20:29,918 I want to get to the bottom of what you are trying to say to me. 358 00:20:29,952 --> 00:20:32,521 You've just asked me to hold onto a cricket bat 359 00:20:32,555 --> 00:20:35,590 because you're afraid you're gonna turn it on your daughter-in-law, 360 00:20:35,625 --> 00:20:37,592 that you're gonna use it against her. 361 00:20:37,627 --> 00:20:40,295 Do you understand what you're saying? 362 00:20:40,329 --> 00:20:44,633 Do you understand the position that you put me in, 363 00:20:44,667 --> 00:20:47,402 not just as your therapist, but as a person? 364 00:20:47,437 --> 00:20:49,738 What position have I put you in? 365 00:20:49,772 --> 00:20:52,674 - What am I doing? - I wish I knew. 366 00:20:54,210 --> 00:20:57,879 You know, you make these extreme statements, 367 00:20:57,914 --> 00:21:01,583 full of violence and-and... and rage. 368 00:21:01,617 --> 00:21:05,220 You raise serious questions, but you don't give... 369 00:21:05,254 --> 00:21:08,657 you encouraged me, Paul. You told me to express my anger. 370 00:21:08,691 --> 00:21:10,225 - That's not what I meant. - You asked em to change myself. 371 00:21:10,259 --> 00:21:11,626 I'm trying to follow your advice. 372 00:21:11,661 --> 00:21:14,329 There is a very big difference between... 373 00:21:16,399 --> 00:21:19,801 look, the things that you've told me over the past few weeks... 374 00:21:19,836 --> 00:21:22,370 I'm just not clear about any of it at the moment. 375 00:21:22,405 --> 00:21:26,475 I don't know whether you would actually ever hurt Julia, 376 00:21:26,509 --> 00:21:28,343 whether you pushed her 377 00:21:28,377 --> 00:21:30,946 or pushed past her 378 00:21:30,980 --> 00:21:34,282 and what really happened with Malini. 379 00:21:34,317 --> 00:21:35,984 With Malini? 380 00:21:36,018 --> 00:21:37,152 Yes. 381 00:21:37,186 --> 00:21:39,054 What? 382 00:21:39,088 --> 00:21:42,457 I've had this feeling from the beginning 383 00:21:42,492 --> 00:21:44,693 there are things you're not telling me. 384 00:21:46,796 --> 00:21:50,031 You said that you were in love with her, that she broke up with you, 385 00:21:50,066 --> 00:21:52,868 that she took her own life by jumping off a high bridge. 386 00:21:52,902 --> 00:21:54,803 All of this is true. That's what I told you. 387 00:21:54,837 --> 00:21:56,905 And that the police came and they questioned you, 388 00:21:56,939 --> 00:21:59,474 and that she was wearing your jacket, 389 00:21:59,509 --> 00:22:02,711 that you'd had an argument. 390 00:22:11,120 --> 00:22:13,588 You do not think I harmed her, Paul? 391 00:22:13,623 --> 00:22:16,992 Is that what you're saying? 392 00:22:19,896 --> 00:22:24,833 I don't know what to think, sunil, 393 00:22:24,867 --> 00:22:26,768 to be honest. 394 00:22:26,803 --> 00:22:29,738 I'm just trying to piece this together from what you've told me. 395 00:22:29,772 --> 00:22:33,508 I must... I must admit this makes me very sad, 396 00:22:33,543 --> 00:22:35,844 that you think that I'm a bad person. 397 00:22:35,878 --> 00:22:38,480 - I don't think you're a bad person. - No? 398 00:22:38,514 --> 00:22:42,217 No, but I do think it's crucial that you continue in therapy 399 00:22:42,251 --> 00:22:44,586 and that we have the time to sort through 400 00:22:44,620 --> 00:22:48,924 all of these conflicted impulses and emotions. 401 00:22:48,958 --> 00:22:51,326 What's fact? What's fantasy? 402 00:22:51,360 --> 00:22:55,964 These feelings of anger, jealousy and loss... 403 00:22:55,998 --> 00:22:58,600 what are you are capable of handling? 404 00:22:58,634 --> 00:23:01,736 What needs serious attention? 405 00:23:05,875 --> 00:23:08,743 You know, I... 406 00:23:08,778 --> 00:23:10,779 I just have this very strong feeling 407 00:23:10,813 --> 00:23:12,647 that you're trying to tell me something, 408 00:23:12,682 --> 00:23:16,484 to get me to have a particular response. 409 00:23:16,519 --> 00:23:19,221 I don't know what that is precisely, 410 00:23:19,255 --> 00:23:23,225 but I feel very clearly that you are actually 411 00:23:23,259 --> 00:23:26,361 asking me for help. 412 00:23:26,395 --> 00:23:31,099 Would you say that that's true? 413 00:23:33,436 --> 00:23:36,838 Look, I understand your discomfort 414 00:23:36,873 --> 00:23:40,442 with this... waiving my fee. That's not... 415 00:23:42,111 --> 00:23:43,745 wh... 416 00:23:45,581 --> 00:23:48,250 what if I charged you 417 00:23:48,284 --> 00:23:50,118 a small amount of money 418 00:23:50,152 --> 00:23:52,020 that you feel that you're capable of paying 419 00:23:52,054 --> 00:23:54,689 so it wouldn't feel like it's charity? 420 00:23:54,724 --> 00:23:57,525 I would pay you the allowance that Julia gives me? 421 00:23:57,560 --> 00:23:59,594 How would I afford my tobacco and my tea? 422 00:23:59,629 --> 00:24:02,230 We could meet outside the office, 423 00:24:02,265 --> 00:24:04,966 in a less formal situation. We could have tea. 424 00:24:05,001 --> 00:24:07,836 Yeah, there's always tea. 425 00:24:10,473 --> 00:24:12,807 I wouldn't do this with any other patient, sunil. I... 426 00:24:12,842 --> 00:24:14,376 I know. 427 00:24:18,347 --> 00:24:20,382 Sunil, I want you to promise 428 00:24:20,416 --> 00:24:24,185 that you will come back next week. 429 00:24:25,855 --> 00:24:28,256 You say Julia has already given you the money 430 00:24:28,291 --> 00:24:30,492 for one additional meeting? 431 00:24:30,526 --> 00:24:33,094 Yes, she has, yes. 432 00:24:45,441 --> 00:24:48,877 I want to go. 433 00:24:48,911 --> 00:24:50,979 I need some rest. 434 00:25:06,562 --> 00:25:09,164 You know, in Julia's office, her window... 435 00:25:10,266 --> 00:25:12,667 what... what about it? 436 00:25:12,702 --> 00:25:16,037 It's the nicest window in the house. 437 00:25:16,072 --> 00:25:18,273 You can see the trees swaying 438 00:25:18,307 --> 00:25:21,910 and the moonlight glowing so softly on the glass. 439 00:25:21,944 --> 00:25:25,814 And sometimes when I cannot sleep 440 00:25:25,848 --> 00:25:29,351 I just go and stare at it. 441 00:25:31,754 --> 00:25:35,690 Sunil, don't go in that room again. 442 00:25:35,725 --> 00:25:39,928 If you have an impulse to go in that room, 443 00:25:39,962 --> 00:25:43,331 you pick up the phone and you call me. 444 00:25:43,366 --> 00:25:45,834 Even if you have 445 00:25:45,868 --> 00:25:50,271 a fleeting thought of harming Julia, 446 00:25:50,306 --> 00:25:53,675 you must call me. 447 00:25:59,315 --> 00:26:02,083 You have my cell phone and my office number. 448 00:26:05,187 --> 00:26:06,955 This is my home number. 449 00:26:06,989 --> 00:26:11,226 And I'll be here all weekend. 450 00:26:11,260 --> 00:26:14,629 Don't worry, my friend. 451 00:26:19,902 --> 00:26:22,237 Sunil. 452 00:26:24,607 --> 00:26:26,441 Sunil. 453 00:26:27,710 --> 00:26:29,778 I'll see you next week, right? 454 00:26:31,414 --> 00:26:33,348 You will have one final chance 455 00:26:33,382 --> 00:26:35,383 to help me, I assure you. 456 00:26:47,296 --> 00:26:50,654 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com 457 00:26:53,039 --> 00:26:57,583 Sync by n17t01 www.addic7ed.com