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So...
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So I took the train to RISD.
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And I didn't have enough
money for a ticket,
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so I decided to dodge
the conductor.
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And then they caught me
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and I ended up in the precinct.
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And you called your father.
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Yeah.
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And you came to pick him up?
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Of course.
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He was up on a job
up in Buffalo.
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It took him eight hours
to drive.
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So how was that?
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How was what?
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Picking Jesse up
at the precinct.
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Fine.
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I paid what he owed
and they released him.
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So there wasn't any
further difficulty?
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No.
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I'm sorry, but I'm just having
a little trouble understanding
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how this incident
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led to your decision
to quit therapy.
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Well, we had a talk on the
car ride back into the city
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and now I feel
a lot better, so...
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And what...
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what did you talk about?
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Marisa mostly
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and how she fucked me up.
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You use that kind of
language in front of him?
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No, not really.
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Sometimes.
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Seems kinda disrespectful,
doesn't it?
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Yeah, I guess.
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So you were discussing Marisa.
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- Can I say something?
- Yeah, dad, of course.
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When Marisa was here,
she wouldn't shut up.
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I know Jesse's been coming
here for a while now.
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And I heard from my wife
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that it'd been
doing him some good.
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We haven't really talked
about it, Jesse and me,
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because I know
he likes his privacy,
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so I didn't want
to pry.
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But I asked him about it
on the way back.
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I asked him what he'd
been discussing with you.
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He said Marisa.
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Now listen,
I know you mean well,
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but it occurred to me
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that you don't have
all the facts, doctor.
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So I told him a story
about the way
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Marisa treated him when
he was a little baby,
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and it seems to
have helped him out.
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Wouldn't you say?
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So there it is.
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I'm sorry,
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I'm still not following.
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We figured it out.
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You figured what out?
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My problem.
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Your problem is Marisa?
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When Jesse told me
he got a phone call
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from that woman
in Westchester,
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I wanted to step in then.
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I was gonna call her
back and tell her
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to keep her nose job
out of my family.
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But my wife said,
"don't do it.
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Let Jesse handle it.
He's in therapy."
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In therapy.
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It sounds to me
you're a little...
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you're a little bit dubious
of therapy, Mr. D'amato.
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I'm an electrician.
The lights go on...
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you're good at your job.
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The house stays dark... you
should have been a plumber.
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But you...
what you do...
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it's more complicated.
I understand that.
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Well, I'd be happy to answer
any questions you might have.
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He told me last week
when he was in here
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he was thinking about
maybe killing himself.
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And you just let him
walk out of here.
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Don't you think you
should have called me
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or my wife?
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- I did consider that.
- You considered it?
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Jesse seemed upset to me,
but not suicidal.
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That's your
professional opinion?
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Yes, it is.
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Did you tell my son to take
the train up to Westchester
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and go visit the people
who gave him up?
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Did you think that was
best for Jesse...
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having the door slammed in his
face by a couple of rich assholes
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who were too chickenshit
to face their own mistake?
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Well, excuse me
for saying this,
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but you should have
been a plumber.
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How much do I owe you
for all of it?
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Your wife is up to date with all of that.
Thank you.
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Come on, Jesse.
We're done here.
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Mr. D'amato, I would
like to talk to Jesse,
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if I may, before you leave.
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So talk.
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Alone.
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You want to talk to him?
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I had enough money
for a regional ticket,
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but there was an express train leaving
right when I got to penn station.
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So I figured I would just
buy a regular ticket
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and avoid the conductor.
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I mean, it was kind of
fun actually.
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The trick is... never sit.
If you sit, you're sunk.
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You have to stay one car
ahead of him at all times.
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And when you get
to the last car,
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you just... you hide
in the bathroom.
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But I fucked up.
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I sat right before
we got to Providence
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because my feet were tired.
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And suddenly there was
this hand on my shoulder.
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And the guy was like,
"come with me, son."
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And I was like, "didn't I see
you in 'midnight express'?"
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I know.
It was a joke, right?
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But he didn't think
it was funny.
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And he took me
down to the precinct,
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which was really, like,
such a dickhead move
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because we were already
in Providence.
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God, people can be
such assholes.
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Well, that is true.
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They said they wouldn't release
me until I paid for the ticket.
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But I didn't have
any money left,
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so I offered them all blowjobs,
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but nobody bit.
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So you called your father.
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Yeah well, I thought about
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calling somebody else
first, like Ms. u.
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But then I figured she
was probably on a date.
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Oh, she has a new boyfriend.
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You missed your chance.
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Oh well, that's too bad.
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Yeah well, I mean, she got
snatched up really quick.
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She's really hot.
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I was just trying
to look out for you.
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So did you think about
calling anybody else?
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Yeah, but nobody seemed right.
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Mm-hmm.
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Did you think about calling me?
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Sure.
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And why didn't you?
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I don't know.
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Was it because
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you might have been angry at me
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for what happened
here last week?
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Maybe your running away
was to send me a message.
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What kind of a message?
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Oh, "this is what happens
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when you don't take care
of me" type message.
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Man, you got a shitload
of books in this office.
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Yes, I do.
I like to read.
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We barely have any books
in our house.
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Magazines...
lots of magazines
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but no books.
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How long have you been here?
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Oh, not long.
A few years.
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Looks like you've been
here forever.
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I used to live in Baltimore.
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And I moved to Brooklyn
after my divorce.
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Why Brooklyn?
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I studied in the city
when I was young.
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And I started my practice here.
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It's a good place to be alone
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but not to feel lonely.
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And you wanted to feel alone?
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I think at that time
I needed to be, yeah.
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How come you're suddenly
answering all my questions?
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Is it because this is
my last session?
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Is that what you want...
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for this to be
the last session?
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Look, it took Roberto
eight hours
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to get there from Buffalo.
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I was afraid he was
going to kill me.
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But he wasn't mad at all.
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I mean, he was actually, like,
the least mad I'd ever seen him.
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How do you mean?
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I don't know.
I saw him and...
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I heard him first, because
I was in this other room
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and they wouldn't let me see him
until he paid for the ticket.
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But I heard him asking,
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"I'm Roberto D'amato.
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Where is my son?"
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When I finally
came out, he...
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he grabbed me
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and he hugged me like...
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like...
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like I really was his son.
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Well,
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that must really
have felt so good.
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It's a wonderful thing
to really know
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that your father
loves you.
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Can you tell me more about this
conversation on the way home?
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We stopped at coney island.
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We used to go there all the
time when I was younger.
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Yes, I remember you
telling me that.
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And he said it was his idea
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to adopt me.
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He'd lost
both his parents
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when he was really
young... like 18.
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And he said after that he felt like
there was this hole in his heart.
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And he thought it would go
away when he got married,
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but it didn't.
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He said when he saw me
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and when he first
held me,
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he said the hole
closed immediately,
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like magic.
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That's a lot of
information to take in.
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Yeah.
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He... he didn't really know
how to tell me, I guess.
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Hmm.
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And did you ever feel
this from your father
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when you were growing up,
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even if he couldn't express it?
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Yeah, I mean, I've never really,
like, had a problem with him.
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It's mostly my mom.
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Your mom.
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You said earlier
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that you talked a lot
about Marisa
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during this conversation.
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Yeah well, he said
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when they first brought
me home from the hospital
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when I was a baby,
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that I cried all the time
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and Marisa couldn't
make me stop.
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And then that just like
made her feel really bad,
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because she didn't even feel
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like she was supposed
to be a mother.
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Why not?
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She can't have kids.
She can't get pregnant.
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So she felt inadequate to
begin with because of that.
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And when she couldn't
comfort you,
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it confirmed her fears
about herself?
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Yeah, and he says she's just like
never really gotten over it.
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I mean, she's nervous
around me,
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and that makes me nervous.
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That's how you feel around
your mother... nervous?
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Yeah, and like suddenly everything
is so fucking clear, you know?
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Um, no.
What's clear?
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None of this is my fault.
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All my life I've
walked around thinking
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that something was
wrong with me.
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There had to be, obviously,
because I freak my mother out.
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And that wasn't normal.
I knew that
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because I saw the way other kids
were around their mothers.
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And then
there was Marisa.
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But now I realize the
problem isn't me at all.
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The problem is her.
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You sound relieved.
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Uh, yeah.
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Majorly.
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You know, it can be...
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it can be very empowering
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to start to understand
our parents
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as fallible
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and to see how often
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their actions spring
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from their own insecurities,
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rather than our inadequacies.
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I feel much better.
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It can also be
a scary experience.
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It would make complete sense
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if seeing your mother
as flawed or weak
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made you feel insecure.
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It doesn't.
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It really would be
totally understandable
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if you were feeling confused.
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I'm not.
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You're clear?
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Yes.
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And would you say that's
coming from inside you?
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As opposed to what?
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Your father.
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You know, last week
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I was a little
worried about you.
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Well, we talked things through,
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and I really felt confident
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that you weren't suicidal.
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Was I wrong?
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No.
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But you told Roberto
something different. Why?
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I don't know.
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Were you worried
that it wouldn't last?
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That what wouldn't last?
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His attention.
His concern.
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Maybe you are worried
that after all this
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he's going to disappear again.
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And now that I have a little
more insight into your father...
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you don't know anything
about my father.
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I don't know much, but from
what I've observed...
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you didn't observe shit.
He was here for 10 minutes.
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God, what is it with you?
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Do you think you're some
sort of mind-reader?
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Do you think you're like
smarter than everyone else?
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Well, you're not, all right?
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Just because he doesn't
have a PHD from Columbia
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doesn't mean he's some
sort of fucking retard.
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I never said it did.
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Well, it's what you were thinking.
I can tell.
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Then you must be
the mind-reader.
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Could we go back
to last week...
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Dude, I don't even
remember last week.
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When you asked me to join you
for ice cream on your birthday?
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So what?
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Well, I declined
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because I thought
it was important
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for you to be with your real
parents on your birthday.
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And I knew that my
decision might hurt you.
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Now I feel like you're kind
of punishing me for that,
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trying to push me away
once and for all.
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You don't have to choose
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between me and
your father, you know?
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You can have us both.
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We fulfill different
functions in your life.
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But if you close
the door on me,
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I'm not gonna come after you.
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I can't.
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Do you understand that?
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Yes.
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I understand everything.
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I should go.
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Jesse, hold on a second
before you go.
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I'm a little worried
that your father
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may be turning you
against your mother.
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No, he isn't.
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Well, he tends to place
all the blame on her.
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He says she wasn't
a good mother,
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she was frightened of you.
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But my question is,
where was he
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while all this was happening?
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He was working his ass off.
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He was providing
for our family.
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Do you think it's possible that his
perspective might not be accurate?
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Why are you trying
to ruin everything?
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- I'm not.
- Last week you told me to go home.
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You told me to talk to Roberto.
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And I did that.
And we're cool again
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for the first time in,
like, four fucking years.
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I mean, he wants me to go
work for his business.
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Do you know what a big
deal that is to me?
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Yes, I do.
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Well, then why can't you
just shut up?
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Because I'm worried that
if you leave therapy,
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everything that we've been
talking about in here...
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your photographs,
your sexuality,
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the issue with
your birth parents...
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it's gonna all get buried.
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I'm not enlisting
in the fucking marines.
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What about
your photography?
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It can wait.
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Jesse, don't do that, not now.
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We've just started to talk
about who you really are,
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where you come from,
where you're headed.
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There is so much good work
just beginning.
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What do you want from me?
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I want you to keep
talking to me.
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Why is that
so important to you?
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Because you are
important to me.
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That is so fucked.
That is so fucked up.
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- Why is it fucked up?
- Because you're not my fucking father!
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Did I just hear you
cursing at him?
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It's fine.
Let's go.
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We're not going anywhere
until you apologize.
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I'm sorry.
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Me too.
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I'm done here, dad.
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Jesse,
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could you just wait
for a second?
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These are yours.
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