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Deported?
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That's right.
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- But...
- There are no buts.
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It's the I.N.S.
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He's got brown skin.
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He's been accused of a violent crime.
He's going.
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Do you know why he was arrested,
what he was charged...?
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He was arrested because you
insisted I call Julia.
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So I called Julia,
and she called the police.
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This ought to teach you
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to stay out of the business
of second-hand diagnosis.
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Let qualified people
do the work instead.
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When you talk about qualified
people doing this work,
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are you including
yourself in that?
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Are you suggesting
that I'm to blame?
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I'm not suggesting anything.
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Because I wouldn't
have called if I...
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I understand that.
I'm not accusing you of anything.
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You've been talking for weeks
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about a loss of perspective,
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questioning the efficacy
of your practice,
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doubting certain decisions.
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I was right about this one.
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Based on what you
told me, I felt
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there was a risk that
needed to be addressed.
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I'm still not clear
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why you're so certain
the risk wasn't real.
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Sunil just told me flat out he
never intended to hurt Julia.
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So the police came
as he planned.
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He refused to show his
papers, also as planned.
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I mean, what part of that
do you not understand?
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You've been told by Sunil
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that much of what he shared
was fiction. Correct?
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Yet when he claims that he
never intended to hurt Julia...
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I'm just not sure
how you're deciding
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which of these stories
to believe.
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- You've never met him.
- That's true.
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And you've never
had the experience
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of sitting down
and speaking with him.
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See, I'm talking about
an instinct that I had
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that you refuse
to trust.
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I know Sunil is not
a dangerous person.
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Okay, let's take
everything at face value.
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Everything he said
to you this week...
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we'll believe it's true.
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This is what he wanted... to
be sent home to Calcutta.
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That's right.
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Then why are you so upset?
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We've discussed for some time
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your strong identification
with Sunil,
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that you've come to care
about him, relate to him.
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Would you say that's true?
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Even to think of him as perhaps
something of a friend?
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Does it make you angry
to consider
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that you may have been betrayed
by a friend in this way?
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May I offer another possible
source for your anger?
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Sure.
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Do you think any part of you
might be envious of Sunil?
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Why would I be envious of a
man who's being deported?
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Because he's found a way
to change his life
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and you haven't.
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I could understand your
being envious of that.
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You know, all week I've been...
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I've just been going
over and over
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Sunil's treatment
in my head, you know...
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what was really happening,
what was fantasy.
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Even when I'm
with other patients,
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I'm thinking about him,
tuning them out completely.
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And when I force
myself to focus
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and actually listen
to what they're saying,
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I just...
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I just find myself
questioning the whole thing.
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How do I really know
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that what I'm being told
isn't bullshit?
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What am I blind to this time?
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That's quite a hopeless
feeling you're describing.
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I got a phone message
the other day
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from a prospective patient
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who asked me if I had any free
appointments in my schedule.
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I haven't been able to get
back to that person yet.
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Why not?
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What would you tell them
if you did?
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I don't know.
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What would you want
to tell them?
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Well, whenever I think
of making the call,
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I can only imagine saying
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that I'm not taking
any new patients.
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What does it mean to you
to hear yourself say that?
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Does it mean you're thinking of
cutting back on your practice?
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Are you thinking of closing it?
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You look more pregnant.
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I...
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yes, I guess I am.
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Do you know
what you're gonna do
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when the baby is born?
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Do you plan
to keep on working?
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I do.
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I'll take a few months
at home, but then
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yes, I'll keep working.
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I want to.
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And you?
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You still haven't
answered my question.
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Are you thinking
of closing your practice?
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I don't know.
It came into my head
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when I was sitting across
from Jesse this week.
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He told me he was
quitting therapy.
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Why?
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Why? Because
he was convinced
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that he has to choose
between his father and me.
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And he's chosen his father.
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What did you say to him?
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I don't think he heard
anything I said really.
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There was a time...
a time I used to believe
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that you could say
something clearly
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and the other person would
hear it, digest it, respond.
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I don't think
I believe that anymore.
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Maybe any serious
communication
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between two people
is useless.
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Even without outright lying,
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people only hear what
they really want to hear
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or what they're
capable of hearing,
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which...
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Which often has
very little resemblance
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to what was actually said.
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At this moment
each of these setbacks
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feels like a terrible blow.
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Can we talk about why these
losses feel so devastating?
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Why don't you tell me?
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I think it has something to do
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with what you've
done repeatedly.
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You've blurred boundaries
with your patients,
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treated them as friends
or children or...
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again and again you have
allowed your own feelings
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to interfere.
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Why do you think Sunil was
able to fool you so easily?
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Why do you think that deception
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affects you so deeply?
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Two weeks ago you saw
Jesse late at night.
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Now you're terribly hurt
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that Jesse's turned
to his father.
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It's all connected, Paul.
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It's a pattern.
It's one you could break if...
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I need to stop.
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You... you need
to stop?
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I need to stop seeing patients.
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That's what you're telling me.
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And you're right.
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I'm not telling you
to do anything.
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I'm only trying to get you
to examine what might be...
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fine, it's what I've been
telling you then,
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what I've really known myself
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for a very long time.
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Is that really
what you want?
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There are many many ways
to make changes, Paul.
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I know that.
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Okay.
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Do you know... if this is
a real possibility,
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have you thought about
what might be next?
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Do I have to have a plan?
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Of course not.
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Just...
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what?
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I don't know.
I just found myself
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wondering what my life
would have been
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if I hadn't gone down
this path, you know,
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if I hadn't become a therapist.
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All I know is
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that I can't spend the next
10 or 20 years like this,
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locked in a room, listening.
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It's striking to hear you talk
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about the next 10 or 20 years.
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I mean, up until now
you've been convinced
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you only had a fraction
of that time left.
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Well, maybe I've been taking
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what the doctors have told
me about the Parkinson's
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a bit more objectively.
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I'm willing to wait and see.
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And maybe during that time
I'll finally figure out
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what it is that I want
from my life.
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Is there anything
that comes to mind?
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Not specifically, no.
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Nothing at all?
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I broke up with Wendy.
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It was at the breakfast
table yesterday.
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I hadn't planned
to do it.
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It just sort of
came out.
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You seem surprised.
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Do I?
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I guess I just wanted
to free myself.
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- Free yourself?
- Yes.
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Free yourself for what?
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I was never in love with Wendy.
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I know that.
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And honestly,
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I've even started to wonder
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if I was ever really
in love with Kate
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and whether love is something
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I'm really capable of.
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Wendy said she wanted to talk
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about our relationship.
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And she started to cry.
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She couldn't
stop crying.
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And inside I...
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I just didn't feel anything.
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Yeah, I knew I should
have been feeling sad
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or at the very least guilty.
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But...
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I kept saying to myself,
"she's in pain.
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She's in pain.
You can help her."
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But I couldn't move.
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I couldn't even take her hand.
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I just wanted her
to leave.
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To free yourself.
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I think
up until this point
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you've sought out
relationships that are safe,
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where the risk
to yourself emotionally
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is a small one.
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Outside the office
you keep your distance.
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Inside, you do the opposite...
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you overinvest.
You seek out intimacy.
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But whether it's Wendy,
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Kate, your patients...
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they're all
substitutes of a kind,
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allowing you to avoid actually
engaging in the world,
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experiencing life
in any real way.
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I think what
you're telling me
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is that you're ready
to stop doing this.
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Ending things with Wendy
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sounds like a step
in the right direction.
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Ending your practice...
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I'm not sure that's
precisely the right answer.
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But it does feel right to me
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to hear you talk about
freeing yourself.
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I think that's
a good description
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of the work that lies ahead...
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for you, for us together.
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I'm not coming back.
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I'm sorry.
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You just took me to task
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on my unhealthy relationships.
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Do you not see this
as one of them?
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I... I don't think...
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I think it's
entirely different.
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Why is that?
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Because you're my therapist?
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Because whatever's been going on
between us is completely routine,
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a standard critical part
of the therapeutic process?
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I think you're aware of how these
sorts of feelings function.
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Transference,
countertransference...
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just go with it,
grow from it...
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- Explore it as illuminating.
- I can't do that.
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I'm sorry.
I just can't do it.
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It's too...
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it's too confusing for me.
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Why do you find it
so confusing?
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Because I can't tell
what's real.
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How can I go on seeing you,
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looking at you,
keep coming here,
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when you epitomize
the conflict?
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Do you not see that?
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I'm not sure that I do.
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You're talking about
ending therapy
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just as you're contemplating
an enormous life decision.
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I think it's important
that we're clear...
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you're having a baby.
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I am.
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And I know that the likelihood
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is that you're having
this child
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with somebody else...
its father,
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husband, boyfriend... having
girlfriend for all I know.
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But...
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I just have this feeling
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that may not be
the case.
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I don't know
what your story is...
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whether you're
with somebody or not.
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I could be wrong.
I could be making a fool of myself.
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I could be offending you.
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I could be wildly deluded.
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But something tells me
that you're alone.
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Last week you imagined
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I had a happy, growing family.
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You thought I hid
that fact from you,
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and that made you very angry.
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An now you're suggesting...
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That I can't tell
what the truth is.
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This is your opportunity
to tell me if you want to.
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Why do you think it's so important
for you to know my situation?
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Because we could go on
like this for years.
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It...
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what?
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It's too painful.
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I don't think the solution is
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to run away from what's
happening in this room, Paul,
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to protect yourself once again
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from the risk
of a relationship...
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the confusion, yes, pain
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that can sometimes
go along with one.
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The way to change that
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is to face those feelings
in a therapeutic setting.
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You just said
"relationship."
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But the point is
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that it isn't one.
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It's been created in this room
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by the artifice of therapy.
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And I don't know that I believe
in that artifice anymore.
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I can't distinguish it
from reality.
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You're sitting across from me,
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and you're pregnant,
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and I still think that you
are meant to be with me.
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Isn't that exactly
what I need to stop doing,
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what you've been
telling me to change?
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Isn't it time that I go outside
and experience reality,
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step beyond the office doors
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and see the difference
for myself?
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You can experience the world
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and still come back
here each week,
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talk about that experience.
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I worry that if you don't,
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you'll repeat the same patterns
you're trying to free yourself from.
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Well, maybe that's true.
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And maybe it's not.
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You've been through so much in
such a short amount of time, Paul:
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The death of your father, the
fear of inheriting his illness,
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the fundamental questioning
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of your life's work.
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I'm 57 years old
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and I've lost my way.
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I want to help you
find your way again.
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Do you ever think
about us being together?
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Do you?
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I'm not in treatment
with you any longer.
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You can answer the question.
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Wow.
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You are a good therapist.
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Paul, will you think
about coming next week?
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I can't.
I need to stop.
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I just...
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I have to.
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Good luck to you.
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My door wilt always be
open to you.
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Well, it's okay.
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You can close it behind me.
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