1 00:00:01,468 --> 00:00:03,333 Previously on Grey's Anatomy: 2 00:00:03,403 --> 00:00:06,133 You understand there are rules to your probation. 3 00:00:06,206 --> 00:00:08,333 The divorce was finalized this morning. 4 00:00:08,408 --> 00:00:09,807 I need a little time to... 5 00:00:09,876 --> 00:00:11,605 - Take some space. - Yeah. 6 00:00:11,678 --> 00:00:13,873 The other night was me breaking up with you. 7 00:00:13,947 --> 00:00:17,178 I slept with another guy. It was not cheerful, it was dirty. 8 00:00:19,019 --> 00:00:21,044 You told me your hand was fine!. 9 00:00:21,121 --> 00:00:22,452 It is not fine!. 10 00:00:22,522 --> 00:00:23,989 Stop worrying. 11 00:00:24,057 --> 00:00:25,615 We are a well-oiled machine. 12 00:00:25,692 --> 00:00:27,626 Nobody has to know. 13 00:00:38,038 --> 00:00:41,530 As surgeons, we're trained to look for disease. 14 00:00:41,608 --> 00:00:45,066 - You're going camping? - Uh... with Shepherd, yes. 15 00:00:45,145 --> 00:00:47,511 Sleeping on the ground and everyone peeing 16 00:00:47,580 --> 00:00:49,741 - behind the same bush? - Fresh air. 17 00:00:49,816 --> 00:00:52,307 Sometimes the problem's easily detected. 18 00:00:52,385 --> 00:00:56,082 We have back to back CABG's. I booked the OR's. 19 00:00:56,156 --> 00:00:58,351 - I canceled the OR's. - Why? 20 00:01:03,396 --> 00:01:06,456 Because I'm going camping with Shepherd. 21 00:01:08,368 --> 00:01:09,357 But why? 22 00:01:13,573 --> 00:01:15,200 Getting away. Out of the city. 23 00:01:15,275 --> 00:01:17,800 Men being men. Mountain men in the wild. 24 00:01:17,877 --> 00:01:21,210 Ah, the open road. The road not taken. The uncharted course. 25 00:01:21,281 --> 00:01:24,182 - Terra incognita. - Oh, OK. 26 00:01:24,250 --> 00:01:27,276 Most of the time, you need to go step by step. 27 00:01:27,353 --> 00:01:31,187 First probing the surface, looking for any sign of trouble. 28 00:01:31,257 --> 00:01:33,418 We do have to make one stop. 29 00:01:35,295 --> 00:01:38,458 A mole or a lesion or an unwelcome lump. 30 00:01:38,531 --> 00:01:40,658 - Mountain men in the wild. - Yeah. 31 00:01:40,733 --> 00:01:42,360 T erra incognita. 32 00:01:42,435 --> 00:01:46,132 - This is my first camping trip. - You don't say. 33 00:01:46,206 --> 00:01:49,266 So Preston, any other little surprises? 34 00:01:49,342 --> 00:01:52,641 Sunscreen and insect repellent. A shovel to bury your poo. 35 00:01:52,712 --> 00:01:55,146 Izzie, I'm not five. Zip me. 36 00:01:55,215 --> 00:01:57,206 If Callie calls, will you tell her, 37 00:01:57,283 --> 00:02:00,480 tell her I'm a mountain man. I'm a man of the mountain. 38 00:02:00,553 --> 00:02:04,546 - Right, Dr. Burke? - OK, him I invited. 39 00:02:04,624 --> 00:02:06,216 Izzie baked us treats. 40 00:02:07,093 --> 00:02:11,757 Have fun with your, um... space. Or whatever. 41 00:02:11,831 --> 00:02:13,059 Mmm. 44 00:02:20,440 --> 00:02:21,839 This is unbelievable. 45 00:02:21,908 --> 00:02:22,897 Hey, guys. 46 00:02:22,976 --> 00:02:24,705 That wasn't me. I swear. 47 00:02:25,645 --> 00:02:27,306 What are you doing? 48 00:02:35,989 --> 00:02:39,550 Most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody 49 00:02:39,626 --> 00:02:41,787 by just looking at them. 50 00:02:41,861 --> 00:02:45,695 After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside 51 00:02:45,765 --> 00:02:50,862 while their insides tell us a whole other story. 52 00:03:18,398 --> 00:03:21,890 Derek's camping. T aking time. Getting space. 53 00:03:21,968 --> 00:03:23,731 Prestons do not go into the woods. 54 00:03:23,803 --> 00:03:26,897 A guy named Preston is gonna get his ass kicked by a squirrel. 55 00:03:26,973 --> 00:03:29,999 It's a slumber party. They do it outside. We do it inside. 56 00:03:30,076 --> 00:03:32,010 That's really the only difference. 57 00:03:32,078 --> 00:03:34,979 - You seen what's his face? - Alex Karev. 58 00:03:35,048 --> 00:03:38,017 Poor bastard gets a thrill out of tagging along after me. 59 00:03:38,084 --> 00:03:39,073 He's camping. 60 00:03:39,152 --> 00:03:42,246 How'd you like to get a thrill out of tagging along after me? 61 00:03:42,322 --> 00:03:46,088 - Dr. Bailey makes the assignments. - Dr. Bailey says it's fine. 62 00:03:46,826 --> 00:03:48,589 Go. 63 00:03:50,797 --> 00:03:54,358 Stevens. Conference room. Spend the day with a peer counselor. 64 00:03:54,434 --> 00:03:57,267 The hospital's already making me see a shrink. 65 00:03:57,337 --> 00:04:02,001 Now see a peer counselor. So go. Meet your peer. Get counseled. 66 00:04:02,075 --> 00:04:05,408 - Exciting procedures on the board, huh? - Yes, Dr. Bailey. 67 00:04:05,478 --> 00:04:06,877 Which should I start with? 68 00:04:06,946 --> 00:04:09,471 - Are those...? - Monopoly pieces. 69 00:04:09,549 --> 00:04:13,576 Twenty-one of them to be exact. Mostly houses and hotels. 70 00:04:13,653 --> 00:04:17,316 I also swallowed the thimble, the racecar, the iron and top hat. 71 00:04:17,390 --> 00:04:18,721 Oh! And the shoe. 72 00:04:18,791 --> 00:04:21,726 Eric and his older brother don't always get along. 73 00:04:21,794 --> 00:04:24,456 He wouldn't let me play with him and his friends. 74 00:04:24,530 --> 00:04:27,761 - This way nobody could play. - Yang, what do you recommend? 75 00:04:27,834 --> 00:04:30,359 - Is this even surgical? - Yang. 76 00:04:31,938 --> 00:04:35,396 Track and inventory all pieces. Measure the progress in X-rays. 77 00:04:36,542 --> 00:04:40,672 - And keep examining the stool. - Very good. Enjoy. 78 00:04:41,648 --> 00:04:45,744 Oh. Dr, Bailey, isn't this more of a nurse's job? 79 00:04:45,818 --> 00:04:47,945 Are you too good to help that boy? 80 00:04:48,021 --> 00:04:49,648 Yes. 81 00:04:49,722 --> 00:04:51,952 No. Definitely not. 82 00:04:52,025 --> 00:04:55,620 I just thought I'd be more help if I was assisting you in a surgery. 83 00:04:55,695 --> 00:04:59,187 - No surgeries for you. - I'm sorry. I don't understand. 84 00:04:59,265 --> 00:05:02,428 I don't understand why you erased my name from the OR board. 85 00:05:02,502 --> 00:05:05,062 - What are you talking about? - No, don't do that. 86 00:05:05,138 --> 00:05:08,073 Don't give me that fake confused look. It irritates me. 87 00:05:08,141 --> 00:05:11,235 You know exactly what I'm talking about. You erased my name 88 00:05:11,311 --> 00:05:14,542 from Burke's Humpty Dumpty surgery. I know it and you know it. 89 00:05:14,614 --> 00:05:16,741 What I don't know is why. 90 00:05:16,816 --> 00:05:19,046 I... 91 00:05:22,155 --> 00:05:24,350 ...have no comment. 92 00:05:24,424 --> 00:05:27,086 No surgeries, Yang. 93 00:05:27,960 --> 00:05:33,364 OK, before you start, there are rules to this friendship thing or whatever. 94 00:05:33,433 --> 00:05:35,458 The Dirty Mistresses Club has rules? 95 00:05:35,535 --> 00:05:39,266 You'd think a bunch of dirty mistresses would be a little less uptight 96 00:05:39,339 --> 00:05:43,207 - about things like rules. - Number one, no flirting. 97 00:05:43,276 --> 00:05:48,646 Second, no talking about Derek. And C, no giving me the face. 98 00:05:50,550 --> 00:05:52,484 - The face? - The McSteamy face. 99 00:05:52,552 --> 00:05:54,213 Doesn't work on me. I'm immune. 100 00:05:54,287 --> 00:05:58,815 You know, if I'd gone off to the woods, I would've invited you to keep me warm. 101 00:06:00,693 --> 00:06:05,027 Breaking rules one, two, and three. 102 00:06:06,265 --> 00:06:07,254 Oh! 103 00:06:07,333 --> 00:06:10,666 Sydney? You're my counselor? 104 00:06:10,737 --> 00:06:12,568 Peer counselor. We're equals. 105 00:06:12,638 --> 00:06:14,697 Oh. 106 00:06:16,342 --> 00:06:19,743 - How are you? - Fine. I'm fine. 107 00:06:19,812 --> 00:06:23,680 Now, that is outside Izzie talking. OK? 108 00:06:23,750 --> 00:06:25,684 How's inside Izzie? 109 00:06:33,893 --> 00:06:37,329 So, you and Derek? You guys together or...? 110 00:06:37,397 --> 00:06:39,592 Just answer and I'll stop asking. 111 00:06:39,665 --> 00:06:42,634 Derek and I are taking some space. 112 00:06:42,702 --> 00:06:45,466 From each other or he's taking some space from you? 113 00:06:45,538 --> 00:06:49,804 Derek and I? There's just a lot of water under the thing or something. Whatever. 114 00:06:53,312 --> 00:06:56,713 - My knight in shining poly-cotton. - Good morning, Donna. 115 00:06:56,783 --> 00:06:58,648 Vicky. How was the trip? 116 00:06:58,718 --> 00:07:01,209 - Smooth. Perfect. - Speak for yourself. 117 00:07:02,121 --> 00:07:04,316 She's still having some penis issues. 118 00:07:05,091 --> 00:07:07,025 I'm sorry? 119 00:07:09,061 --> 00:07:10,619 Am I missing something? 120 00:07:10,696 --> 00:07:13,927 You're missing the fact that Dr. Sloan is planning to remove 121 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:16,594 my husband's penis this afternoon. 122 00:07:17,403 --> 00:07:21,305 - Oh. And your husband is...? - Right here. 123 00:07:36,022 --> 00:07:40,686 Daniel Gibson, 34, in for sexual reassignment surgery. 124 00:07:40,760 --> 00:07:44,457 Donna. Not Daniel. She's been living as Donna for two years. Come on. 125 00:07:44,530 --> 00:07:49,490 So essentially today we are inverting his... her... 126 00:07:49,569 --> 00:07:52,333 Her penis. It's OK. You'll get it. 127 00:07:53,272 --> 00:07:56,332 - You know the steps for a vaginoplasty? - Not exactly. 128 00:07:56,409 --> 00:07:59,276 If you want to get in on this operation, better learn. 129 00:07:59,345 --> 00:08:02,143 Don't pay any attention to him. You're doing well. 130 00:08:02,215 --> 00:08:04,649 Better than I did when I first found out. 131 00:08:04,717 --> 00:08:08,346 We need to run pre-op labs. Make sure everything's in working order. 132 00:08:08,421 --> 00:08:10,252 And then surgery? Today? 133 00:08:10,323 --> 00:08:12,484 Yeah. 134 00:08:12,558 --> 00:08:14,082 Big day, Donna. 135 00:08:14,160 --> 00:08:15,787 You excited? 136 00:08:15,862 --> 00:08:18,456 Excited doesn't begin to cover it. 137 00:08:21,200 --> 00:08:23,395 You're gonna do great. 138 00:08:45,157 --> 00:08:47,057 Jesus. 139 00:08:49,262 --> 00:08:51,958 What do you say, Preston? Ready to go fishing? 140 00:08:54,200 --> 00:08:56,464 We're all going fishing. 141 00:08:56,536 --> 00:08:59,300 - That's why we're up here. - No, I mean... 142 00:08:59,372 --> 00:09:01,363 Just me and you. Just us. 143 00:09:03,543 --> 00:09:06,410 They're almost done. Then we can all go. 144 00:09:06,479 --> 00:09:09,471 Right. All seven of us. 145 00:09:11,717 --> 00:09:14,345 - That is a nice-looking picnic basket. - Thank you. 146 00:09:14,420 --> 00:09:16,547 Concierge at the hotel put it together. 147 00:09:16,622 --> 00:09:19,090 We got crackers, uh, pâté, 148 00:09:19,158 --> 00:09:22,184 and an assortment of Seattle soft cheeses. Like some? 149 00:09:22,261 --> 00:09:23,660 No. 150 00:09:23,729 --> 00:09:25,993 Dude, he brought silverware. 151 00:09:26,065 --> 00:09:28,727 You should talk. Have you ever been camping before? 152 00:09:28,801 --> 00:09:29,790 What? 153 00:09:29,869 --> 00:09:32,429 T- shirt and sneakers? You'll freeze your ass off. 154 00:09:32,505 --> 00:09:34,905 - I'm wearing a jacket. - Just do me a favor. 155 00:09:34,974 --> 00:09:38,068 Don't crawl to me in the night when you wanna huddle for warmth. 156 00:09:41,781 --> 00:09:43,942 It's a good-looking tent, Joe. 157 00:09:44,016 --> 00:09:47,508 Uh... you and Walter got room for one more? 158 00:09:50,289 --> 00:09:53,281 Thought you'd be sleeping with one of the doctors. 159 00:09:53,359 --> 00:09:56,851 Oh, Preston's already got O'Malley for a roommate. 160 00:09:56,929 --> 00:10:02,526 And just between you and me? Those other tents are pretty puny. 161 00:10:02,602 --> 00:10:06,766 Well, Walter and I were sort of wanting to share this one. Just the two of us. 162 00:10:10,209 --> 00:10:12,575 But I guess if you really want to. 163 00:10:13,746 --> 00:10:15,646 Chief, I don't think you really... 164 00:10:15,715 --> 00:10:17,182 They've offered, Karev. 165 00:10:17,249 --> 00:10:19,945 Chief? They want to be alone. 166 00:10:23,556 --> 00:10:24,545 Oh. 167 00:10:27,026 --> 00:10:30,189 - So you are... - Uh, chief. 168 00:10:30,262 --> 00:10:33,288 That's wonderful. Man-love. 169 00:10:33,366 --> 00:10:35,391 It's beautiful. It's beautiful. 170 00:10:35,468 --> 00:10:37,060 My cousin's gay. 171 00:10:37,136 --> 00:10:39,001 So I'm hip. 172 00:10:39,071 --> 00:10:42,404 And Brokeback Mountain, all of that. 173 00:10:42,475 --> 00:10:45,603 - Who's ready to go fishing? - Me! Me. I'm ready. 174 00:10:45,678 --> 00:10:49,444 Yeah, let's go. OK. Yes! Fishing. 175 00:10:52,284 --> 00:10:55,549 Guess what I'm doing today? Removing a man's penis. 176 00:10:56,589 --> 00:10:58,181 You got an SRS? Seriously? 177 00:10:58,257 --> 00:11:01,749 He's, well... she is one of Sloan's patients. 178 00:11:01,827 --> 00:11:03,124 God! That should be me. 179 00:11:03,195 --> 00:11:06,961 I should be turning a penis into a vagina. That should be my penis. 180 00:11:07,466 --> 00:11:08,694 I have to hide! 181 00:11:08,768 --> 00:11:11,236 Sydney is my peer counselor. 182 00:11:12,238 --> 00:11:13,637 "Heal with love" Sydney? 183 00:11:13,706 --> 00:11:16,197 - Oh. Eww. - Eww. 184 00:11:16,275 --> 00:11:19,073 I'm supposed to be shadowing her and "dialoguing" 185 00:11:19,145 --> 00:11:22,876 unless I can come up with a medical reason not to? Anybody? Anything? 186 00:11:26,185 --> 00:11:29,450 A couple houses and the dog. That's nine pieces so far. 187 00:11:30,156 --> 00:11:33,853 I love the dog. I'm always the dog when I play Monopoly. 188 00:11:38,464 --> 00:11:40,227 Uh... I got a page. 189 00:11:40,299 --> 00:11:43,962 Jamie Carr. She slipped and fell in the shower this morning. 190 00:11:44,036 --> 00:11:46,732 I can't see my own feet. I did this. 191 00:11:47,506 --> 00:11:49,599 Ooh. Nasty break. 192 00:11:51,877 --> 00:11:54,869 - She hasn't had any meds for the pain? - She refused. 193 00:11:54,947 --> 00:11:57,347 - She's toughing it out. - Don't tough it out. 194 00:11:57,416 --> 00:12:00,044 - Just say yes. - Well, the baby. I... 195 00:12:00,119 --> 00:12:03,987 I know Dr. Montgomery said it was all right, but... 196 00:12:04,056 --> 00:12:05,580 I'll suffer. 197 00:12:06,826 --> 00:12:11,126 Is he OK? He was kicking like crazy and now... 198 00:12:11,197 --> 00:12:16,396 - It's possible that he's just sleeping. - So our son sleeps. 199 00:12:16,469 --> 00:12:19,563 He's just sleeping, Jamie. 200 00:12:20,973 --> 00:12:22,941 - Do I need a cast? - Definitely. 201 00:12:23,008 --> 00:12:25,340 But first we need to straighten the bones. 202 00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:29,541 Put your arm in this fancy sling. Use gravity to help realign the bones. 203 00:12:29,615 --> 00:12:34,314 Would you excuse me for just a moment? I've got to... 204 00:12:40,760 --> 00:12:42,751 Trade you. 205 00:12:43,262 --> 00:12:44,559 Vicky. 206 00:12:45,297 --> 00:12:46,855 Insurance forms. 207 00:12:46,932 --> 00:12:51,301 Donna gets the surgeries and I do the forms. Super fun. 208 00:12:51,370 --> 00:12:54,771 Well, you seem to be handling this remarkably well. 209 00:12:57,409 --> 00:12:59,877 Well, I left. At first. 210 00:13:00,479 --> 00:13:04,438 When she... When he told me. 211 00:13:05,885 --> 00:13:08,410 You plan a life together, you know? 212 00:13:09,288 --> 00:13:12,382 Kids and suddenly that's all out the window. 213 00:13:12,458 --> 00:13:15,359 Suddenly your husband is this other girl in your house 214 00:13:15,427 --> 00:13:18,590 who's borrowing your eyeliner and waxing her legs. 215 00:13:20,065 --> 00:13:24,058 But you came back. Why? 216 00:13:24,136 --> 00:13:27,333 Honestly, right now? I have no idea. 217 00:13:35,114 --> 00:13:37,309 I'm really going to miss the penis. 218 00:13:47,059 --> 00:13:50,290 - You OK? - Yeah. I'm fine. I'm OK. I'm good. 219 00:13:52,431 --> 00:13:56,299 Don't make me climb over this stall. I'll do it, but I'll be really pissed 220 00:13:56,368 --> 00:13:58,302 because I don't know you that well. 221 00:14:01,740 --> 00:14:03,731 You're not OK. 222 00:14:05,511 --> 00:14:08,139 I don't know why. 223 00:14:08,280 --> 00:14:11,249 There's no reason that this should affect me this much. 224 00:14:11,317 --> 00:14:14,878 - I'm used to this. I am, but... - Used to what? 225 00:14:15,788 --> 00:14:17,881 That woman. 226 00:14:17,957 --> 00:14:20,551 She's eight months pregnant 227 00:14:20,626 --> 00:14:26,030 and yesterday she's just as healthy as can be, and today? 228 00:14:27,399 --> 00:14:29,731 Today her baby's dead. 229 00:14:46,118 --> 00:14:51,784 So, uh... how long have you and Walter been together? 230 00:14:51,857 --> 00:14:53,688 Ten years. On and off. 231 00:14:53,759 --> 00:14:57,092 But now? Definitely on. 232 00:14:57,596 --> 00:15:00,224 - Thinking about kids. - Kids? 233 00:15:01,901 --> 00:15:03,300 That's a big step. 234 00:15:03,369 --> 00:15:05,132 You have kids? 235 00:15:06,372 --> 00:15:10,035 No. I work a lot. 236 00:15:10,976 --> 00:15:12,910 Adele and I, we... 237 00:15:14,513 --> 00:15:17,277 She always said she didn't want to raise kids alone. 238 00:15:17,349 --> 00:15:21,046 Walter says the same thing. 239 00:15:21,120 --> 00:15:22,144 He does? 240 00:15:23,422 --> 00:15:27,358 I'm always working at the bar. That's where our problems come in. 241 00:15:27,426 --> 00:15:29,087 What are you going to do, right? 242 00:15:29,161 --> 00:15:31,595 If I'm not there, who's gonna run the place? 243 00:15:31,664 --> 00:15:33,495 Exactly. 244 00:15:33,565 --> 00:15:35,499 But Walter? 245 00:15:35,567 --> 00:15:37,558 If I have to make a change, I'll do it. 246 00:15:37,636 --> 00:15:40,503 I can't imagine my life without him, you know? 247 00:15:47,012 --> 00:15:49,606 Very nice, O'Malley. 248 00:15:51,116 --> 00:15:54,847 At least once a month my dad would take me and my brothers to White River. 249 00:15:54,920 --> 00:15:56,820 Well, your dad taught you well. 250 00:15:56,889 --> 00:15:59,551 How are you and Dr. Torres doing these days? 251 00:15:59,625 --> 00:16:02,890 Good. She doesn't know it yet, but we are. 252 00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:04,827 Excellent, even. 253 00:16:04,897 --> 00:16:09,800 For a while she wanted, I don't know, a certain level of commitment. 254 00:16:09,868 --> 00:16:15,135 And I just didn't feel like I was ready... Now I am though. 255 00:16:15,207 --> 00:16:17,471 - So you're stepping up? - I'm stepping up. 256 00:16:18,577 --> 00:16:22,570 You knew, right? When it was the right time with you and Cristina? 257 00:16:23,148 --> 00:16:25,139 Yeah. 258 00:16:25,217 --> 00:16:28,243 Yeah, 'cause you asked her to move in with you so you knew. 259 00:16:28,320 --> 00:16:29,582 Right. 260 00:16:34,026 --> 00:16:36,893 - You OK? - Absolutely. 261 00:16:37,196 --> 00:16:38,185 'Cause... 262 00:16:38,263 --> 00:16:41,232 - We're here to fish, remember? - Right. 263 00:16:41,300 --> 00:16:44,133 I'm gonna see if I can get a better bite downstream. 264 00:16:46,772 --> 00:16:48,103 OK. 265 00:16:51,744 --> 00:16:54,736 I'm sorry, Donna. The labs don't lie. 266 00:16:54,813 --> 00:16:59,307 - Breast cancer? - I'm sorry. I'm really... 267 00:16:59,385 --> 00:17:04,288 The needle aspiration showed abnormal cells in your breast tissue. 268 00:17:04,356 --> 00:17:06,256 Rare, but it happens. 269 00:17:06,325 --> 00:17:09,920 So the hormones I've been taking are essentially giving me cancer? 270 00:17:09,995 --> 00:17:13,192 Yes. That's why we need to stop the hormone therapy 271 00:17:13,265 --> 00:17:16,860 - and start the treatment. - Or the cancer will get worse? 272 00:17:21,173 --> 00:17:24,506 - The operation? - There'd really be no point. 273 00:17:24,576 --> 00:17:26,874 Once we stop, your breasts will shrink, 274 00:17:26,945 --> 00:17:28,776 your facial hair will grow back. 275 00:17:28,847 --> 00:17:30,678 She'll become a man again. 276 00:17:31,650 --> 00:17:36,553 What if I do the operation, keep taking the hormones, what happens then? 277 00:17:36,622 --> 00:17:40,581 Donna, you really want to treat this now while it's still in its early stages. 278 00:17:41,326 --> 00:17:45,660 - So if I keep taking the hormones...? - You'd be feeding the cancer. 279 00:17:46,832 --> 00:17:48,732 I could die? 280 00:17:49,368 --> 00:17:51,359 Are you saying if I become a woman, 281 00:17:52,504 --> 00:17:54,495 I could die? 282 00:18:02,214 --> 00:18:05,115 They are a happy couple. 283 00:18:05,818 --> 00:18:07,251 Look at them. 284 00:18:07,319 --> 00:18:08,877 They love each other. 285 00:18:09,788 --> 00:18:12,052 They should have everything. 286 00:18:12,458 --> 00:18:18,397 Happy people should have happy things happen to them. 287 00:18:18,464 --> 00:18:20,022 Yeah. 288 00:18:22,334 --> 00:18:25,201 - I gotta go tell them. - Wait. 289 00:18:25,537 --> 00:18:28,734 The moment you tell them, they won't be happy anymore. 290 00:18:28,807 --> 00:18:34,211 They won't thank you. You'll be the person who killed their dreams. 291 00:18:35,180 --> 00:18:39,913 So give them a few more minutes. Just let them be happy. 292 00:18:40,486 --> 00:18:42,147 A few more minutes. 293 00:18:45,390 --> 00:18:48,621 - So you're getting back with Callie? - Yeah. 294 00:18:49,761 --> 00:18:52,628 Trust me, man, I don't think you really want to do that. 295 00:18:53,899 --> 00:18:56,367 - Really? - Really. 296 00:18:59,071 --> 00:19:02,472 When I get back I'll tell her we shouldn't see each other anymore 297 00:19:02,541 --> 00:19:05,999 and then when she asks why, I'll say, "Well, Alex Karev 298 00:19:06,078 --> 00:19:08,638 thinks our relationship isn't such a good idea. " 299 00:19:08,714 --> 00:19:10,841 Do you think that'll do the trick? 300 00:19:10,916 --> 00:19:13,316 Fine. Suit yourself. 301 00:19:17,055 --> 00:19:19,990 This was my camping trip. I was going to come alone. 302 00:19:20,959 --> 00:19:22,449 So why did you invite me? 303 00:19:22,528 --> 00:19:26,965 Because, this is a guy trip. You know? Mountain men. 304 00:19:30,569 --> 00:19:33,800 - You don't have any friends, do you? - Of course I have friends. 305 00:19:34,406 --> 00:19:37,204 - Guy friends? - Yes. 306 00:19:40,846 --> 00:19:42,575 I just need peace. 307 00:19:43,815 --> 00:19:48,752 Space. I have a right to space. You go and invite half the hospital. 308 00:19:50,455 --> 00:19:52,923 It's because I have guy friends. 309 00:19:57,963 --> 00:20:01,865 There you are! I have been looking all over. 310 00:20:01,934 --> 00:20:05,563 Oh. Dr. Yang needed some help with this patient. She needed some help. 311 00:20:05,637 --> 00:20:06,865 Oh. 312 00:20:06,939 --> 00:20:10,238 Patient care always comes first. So... 313 00:20:12,811 --> 00:20:14,005 Oh, what...? 314 00:20:14,079 --> 00:20:16,070 - Oh, I'll just wait. - Wait? 315 00:20:16,148 --> 00:20:19,242 Yeah, for you to finish. Then we'll dialogue. 316 00:20:19,318 --> 00:20:20,876 OK. 317 00:20:25,157 --> 00:20:28,786 So, what happens with Donna now? 318 00:20:28,860 --> 00:20:33,058 She goes back to being an unhappy man who's stuck with a penis. 319 00:20:33,532 --> 00:20:37,263 - There are millions of us out there. - You're unhappy with your penis? 320 00:20:37,336 --> 00:20:42,000 - I could be a lot less unhappy. - You are a complete and total whore. 321 00:20:42,074 --> 00:20:45,441 - Maybe, but I'm more fun than Derek. - Really? How? 322 00:20:45,510 --> 00:20:48,741 Maybe it's for the best that he's taking some space. 323 00:20:48,814 --> 00:20:51,578 Maybe you two aren't meant to be together. 324 00:20:51,650 --> 00:20:55,211 You really do need to learn how to mind your own business. 325 00:20:55,988 --> 00:20:59,082 Look, Derek, 326 00:21:00,025 --> 00:21:03,290 on the outside, he holds it all together, but... 327 00:21:03,362 --> 00:21:07,025 ...he's damaged goods, Meredith. It's my fault. I damaged him. 328 00:21:07,099 --> 00:21:08,760 Maybe forever. 329 00:21:08,834 --> 00:21:12,201 Do you really want to drink from a poisoned well? 330 00:21:12,271 --> 00:21:13,761 Dr. Sloan? 331 00:21:14,673 --> 00:21:17,107 - You have to talk to her. - What's wrong? 332 00:21:17,175 --> 00:21:20,667 Donna says she wants to go through with the operation. 333 00:21:25,784 --> 00:21:30,153 Joe and Walter got tired of not catching any fish. Went for a hike. 334 00:21:31,657 --> 00:21:33,716 What do you make of that? 335 00:21:33,792 --> 00:21:35,157 Joe and Walter? 336 00:21:35,227 --> 00:21:37,559 Oh, no, no, no. Joe and Walter are great. 337 00:21:37,629 --> 00:21:40,359 I mean that we haven't caught any fish. Any theories? 338 00:21:40,432 --> 00:21:44,630 Just one. Fish generally don't like to go where there's a lot of noise. 339 00:21:47,806 --> 00:21:50,070 - Notice anything going on with Burke? - No. 340 00:21:50,142 --> 00:21:52,804 Because before I thought I saw... 341 00:21:52,878 --> 00:21:56,905 What are you doing? You don't use bait when you're casting. 342 00:21:56,982 --> 00:21:59,746 It's going to fall off before it hits the water. 343 00:21:59,818 --> 00:22:03,413 - Here, here, here, here. - She's sleeping with Sloan, dude. 344 00:22:03,488 --> 00:22:06,719 - What? - Callie. She's sleeping with Sloan. 345 00:22:08,226 --> 00:22:11,354 - No, she's not. - I'm telling you, as a friend, 346 00:22:11,430 --> 00:22:14,058 Torres is doing Sloan. 347 00:22:17,636 --> 00:22:19,160 You better take that back. 348 00:22:20,939 --> 00:22:24,534 Yeah, people chatting, laughing, moving around, that sort of thing. 349 00:22:24,609 --> 00:22:27,407 That lets the fish know they're not alone. 350 00:22:28,380 --> 00:22:29,540 That's the theory. 351 00:22:29,614 --> 00:22:32,981 - So I invited other people. - I'm saying, it's not a frat party. 352 00:22:33,051 --> 00:22:35,485 Take it back! 353 00:22:35,554 --> 00:22:38,022 Oh, for God's sake! What are you guys doing? 354 00:22:38,090 --> 00:22:40,558 Break it up! Break it up! 355 00:22:44,896 --> 00:22:47,592 I don't condone fighting. I don't like fighting. 356 00:22:47,666 --> 00:22:50,829 I think it is pointless and foolish. 357 00:22:50,902 --> 00:22:54,599 But you two idiots seem determined to beat the hell out of each other, 358 00:22:54,673 --> 00:22:57,733 so if you're going to do it, you're going to do it by my rules. 359 00:22:57,809 --> 00:23:00,471 - Rules? - Yes, O'Malley. Rules. 360 00:23:00,545 --> 00:23:02,012 To help protect your hands, 361 00:23:02,080 --> 00:23:04,810 - so you don't do irreparable damage. - You're dead. 362 00:23:04,883 --> 00:23:07,681 Damage that'd end your careers before they started. 363 00:23:07,753 --> 00:23:12,520 So with that in mind, we're gonna do open-handed combat. 364 00:23:12,591 --> 00:23:15,253 - A slap fight? - Open-handed combat. 365 00:23:15,327 --> 00:23:18,763 This is ridiculous. Karev is going to kill him. 366 00:23:18,830 --> 00:23:21,128 - Not necessarily. - No punching, kicking. 367 00:23:21,199 --> 00:23:25,363 No wrestling moves of any kind. Now, any questions? 368 00:23:25,437 --> 00:23:28,406 - That doesn't leave us with much. - That's not a question. 369 00:23:29,474 --> 00:23:30,907 All right. 370 00:23:32,277 --> 00:23:36,771 - O'Malley's a scrapper. - A scrapper? He's going to destroy him. 371 00:23:36,848 --> 00:23:39,646 He's tougher than he looks. Silent, but deadly. 372 00:23:39,718 --> 00:23:42,744 This is immature and stupid. I would think you'd agree. 373 00:23:42,821 --> 00:23:47,019 They're letting off some steam. This is why you don't have guy friends. 374 00:23:47,092 --> 00:23:50,619 - This is why I should have come alone. - Ready? Let's go. 375 00:23:50,695 --> 00:23:54,859 I've wanted this since I can remember. I've waited forever. I'm not stopping. 376 00:23:54,933 --> 00:23:58,596 - Donna, listen to me. - If you don't, I'll find a doctor. 377 00:23:58,670 --> 00:24:01,230 You'll have a hard time finding a surgeon who... 378 00:24:01,306 --> 00:24:04,275 - I'll find one. - Donna, I'm trying to save your life. 379 00:24:04,342 --> 00:24:08,278 As a man. I am not a man. 380 00:24:08,346 --> 00:24:11,144 I'll fight the cancer. I'll just fight it as a woman. 381 00:24:11,216 --> 00:24:14,982 For God's sake! Wake up, Daniel! 382 00:24:16,755 --> 00:24:18,586 My name is Donna. 383 00:24:21,827 --> 00:24:24,728 I'm not gonna stand by and watch you kill yourself. 384 00:24:36,875 --> 00:24:39,002 I need Vicky to love me. 385 00:24:44,149 --> 00:24:47,312 But I need her to love me. 386 00:24:50,155 --> 00:24:53,283 Oh, my God. Please tell me it's going to stop hurting soon. 387 00:24:53,358 --> 00:24:54,757 You're almost done. 388 00:24:54,826 --> 00:24:58,626 When our son's 15 and yelling at you that you never did anything for him, 389 00:24:58,697 --> 00:25:00,927 you can guilt him with the wrist. 390 00:25:06,905 --> 00:25:10,568 Ted, Jamie, I need to talk to you. 391 00:25:12,677 --> 00:25:16,135 - About the baby. - Dr. Montgomery. 392 00:25:20,952 --> 00:25:23,477 You have to say it. 393 00:25:23,555 --> 00:25:25,955 I won't believe it unless you say it. 394 00:25:27,726 --> 00:25:30,354 You have to say it. 395 00:25:42,774 --> 00:25:45,072 Thanks for this, Izzie. Thank you. 396 00:25:45,143 --> 00:25:47,703 - No good deed goes unpunished. - Good deed? 397 00:25:47,779 --> 00:25:51,681 You're making me dig crap. I didn't ask her to spend the day with me. 398 00:25:51,750 --> 00:25:53,377 Ooh. 399 00:25:53,451 --> 00:25:54,679 Eww-y. 400 00:25:55,220 --> 00:25:57,245 How's it going in there? Any luck? 401 00:26:00,559 --> 00:26:04,791 I can't have that grinning puppet head stare at me another second, so go. 402 00:26:04,863 --> 00:26:07,764 - Cristina. - Hey, this is my crap. 403 00:26:07,832 --> 00:26:10,665 Bailey assigned me this crap. You get Sydney. 404 00:26:10,735 --> 00:26:13,101 Fine. Come on, Sydney. We can go. 405 00:26:13,171 --> 00:26:15,105 Okey-dokey, Smokey. 406 00:26:26,084 --> 00:26:29,781 Man, I thought my brother and I had problems, but you two are morons. 407 00:26:29,854 --> 00:26:33,984 OK, well, swallowing Monopoly pieces wasn't exactly a genius move. 408 00:26:34,059 --> 00:26:37,051 - You could've really hurt yourself. - I didn't, did I? 409 00:26:37,128 --> 00:26:40,029 My mom's gonna make my brother let me play all I want. 410 00:26:40,098 --> 00:26:43,090 I get to play. That's all that matters. Getting to play. 411 00:26:43,168 --> 00:26:46,194 - That makes you smart? - You're fishing through my poop. 412 00:26:46,271 --> 00:26:47,602 How smart are you? 413 00:26:53,278 --> 00:26:55,769 - Take it back. - That's right, Karev. 414 00:26:55,847 --> 00:26:59,146 - Don't take it back. - You don't know why they're fighting. 415 00:26:59,217 --> 00:27:01,879 Arms up, O'Malley. Don't drop your arms! 416 00:27:05,223 --> 00:27:07,623 Hey! No wrestling! No wrestling! Come on! 417 00:27:08,827 --> 00:27:11,227 - Stupid. - George is defending his honor. 418 00:27:11,296 --> 00:27:14,265 Karev said Sloan's been sleeping with Torres. 419 00:27:14,332 --> 00:27:15,560 He what? 420 00:27:15,634 --> 00:27:17,568 O'Malley! Arms up! 421 00:27:32,350 --> 00:27:35,342 Next time we're not going camping with straight guys. 422 00:27:36,187 --> 00:27:37,484 Oh, God! 423 00:27:51,369 --> 00:27:54,031 So you're getting paid to look at penises all day? 424 00:27:54,105 --> 00:27:57,563 I'm studying for McSteamy's reassignment surgery. 425 00:27:57,642 --> 00:28:00,907 - You like McSteamy? - Yes. I mean, no! 426 00:28:00,979 --> 00:28:03,277 No, not like that. 427 00:28:04,249 --> 00:28:07,946 Just, you know, he thinks I'm better off without Derek's baggage. 428 00:28:08,019 --> 00:28:11,682 Thinks there's too much history there. Maybe in his own twisted way, 429 00:28:11,756 --> 00:28:14,486 he's just trying to protect me. 430 00:28:14,926 --> 00:28:16,917 Protect you? 431 00:28:16,995 --> 00:28:18,895 Maybe. 432 00:28:21,666 --> 00:28:23,395 Hey... 433 00:28:24,102 --> 00:28:28,937 ...uh, when your mother was first diagnosed with Alzheimer's, 434 00:28:29,007 --> 00:28:32,170 - why didn't you tell anyone? - She asked me not to. 435 00:28:32,243 --> 00:28:33,938 Why? 436 00:28:34,412 --> 00:28:38,849 - It was right to keep her secret? - Yes. Why? 437 00:28:38,917 --> 00:28:43,945 Even if it meant you had to fish crap out of a toilet for years to come? 438 00:28:45,490 --> 00:28:48,857 OK. Rewind. Start at the beginning. Whose secret are you keeping? 439 00:28:48,927 --> 00:28:51,225 Wait. 440 00:28:55,066 --> 00:28:57,626 - What the hell happened? - He was fine one minute... 441 00:28:57,702 --> 00:28:59,602 Eric, lay down, OK? 442 00:29:02,907 --> 00:29:04,875 Abdomen is rigid. 443 00:29:04,943 --> 00:29:08,743 There's blood in the vomit. He's perfed! Page Bailey! 444 00:29:08,813 --> 00:29:11,714 A lot of blood, but it didn't penetrate the galea. 445 00:29:11,783 --> 00:29:15,583 - Is that a good thing? - We don't have to do deep stitches. 446 00:29:15,653 --> 00:29:19,680 - You're using a fishing hook? - Don't worry. We sterilized it. 447 00:29:19,758 --> 00:29:22,693 Also clipped off the barb. It's as good as a needle. 448 00:29:23,828 --> 00:29:26,194 Wound's clean. Keep some pressure on it. 449 00:29:26,264 --> 00:29:28,596 - Got it. - We'll do stitches now, all right? 450 00:29:28,666 --> 00:29:31,464 - Is it gonna hurt? - Yes. 451 00:29:31,536 --> 00:29:33,970 It's OK. 452 00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:40,377 - Karev, you want to sew him up? - No. Forget it. I want an attending. 453 00:29:40,445 --> 00:29:41,605 Thanks, dude. 454 00:29:41,679 --> 00:29:45,547 We're doing crazy MacGyver surgery. I want what's best for my guy. 455 00:29:45,617 --> 00:29:46,948 No offense. 456 00:29:51,656 --> 00:29:54,523 Don't worry. Dr. Burke's really good at doing this. 457 00:29:56,628 --> 00:29:58,493 You are, right? 458 00:30:00,465 --> 00:30:02,160 Right. 459 00:30:09,908 --> 00:30:12,308 Still a little bleeding there. 460 00:30:13,244 --> 00:30:15,075 Hold on, Walter. 461 00:30:25,523 --> 00:30:27,252 You got it? 462 00:30:32,297 --> 00:30:33,992 I always have it. 463 00:30:44,843 --> 00:30:47,903 - You want something? - He is my patient. 464 00:30:47,979 --> 00:30:50,948 I've been with him all day. 465 00:30:51,015 --> 00:30:54,041 If there's any chance that I can get in on this surgery... 466 00:30:54,118 --> 00:30:56,211 Why'd you erase my name from the board? 467 00:30:58,857 --> 00:31:03,123 - Don't know what you're talking about. - You want to go head-to-head with me? 468 00:31:03,194 --> 00:31:06,357 Right now? This second? In this moment? 469 00:31:06,431 --> 00:31:09,525 You chose your own fate. 470 00:31:28,987 --> 00:31:34,516 - Oh. You've been avoiding me. - What? No. Oh, no. 471 00:31:34,592 --> 00:31:37,152 I'm not. I'm just... 472 00:31:37,228 --> 00:31:39,924 This surgery, really interesting. 473 00:31:42,033 --> 00:31:45,594 I guess we can watch and talk at the same time. 474 00:31:45,670 --> 00:31:47,001 OK. 475 00:31:50,174 --> 00:31:52,301 So tell me about Denny. 476 00:31:54,312 --> 00:31:55,677 What? 477 00:31:55,747 --> 00:31:57,647 Yeah, it helps. 478 00:31:57,715 --> 00:32:00,513 To... to talk about what happened. 479 00:32:00,585 --> 00:32:04,316 So, as much as you can, tell me about what happened 480 00:32:04,389 --> 00:32:06,016 with you and Denny Duquette. 481 00:32:06,090 --> 00:32:09,992 - OK, we are done here. - Izzie. It really... 482 00:32:11,229 --> 00:32:15,029 - It helps to share. - No. I don't want to share with you. 483 00:32:15,099 --> 00:32:18,193 Know what I've been doing all day? Sifting through feces. 484 00:32:18,269 --> 00:32:21,432 I would rather sift through feces than talk to you. 485 00:32:21,506 --> 00:32:24,907 And now you bring up Denny like you want me to gossip with you? 486 00:32:24,976 --> 00:32:27,342 I understand this must be difficult... 487 00:32:27,412 --> 00:32:28,902 You understand? Really? 488 00:32:28,980 --> 00:32:32,848 What, you cut someone's LVAD wire? You fell in love with a man and he died? 489 00:32:32,917 --> 00:32:36,216 - Well, no. But... - Then what the hell could you know? 490 00:32:40,825 --> 00:32:42,588 Grey, what's our next step? 491 00:32:42,660 --> 00:32:46,596 Continue the primary incision of the ventral side of the shaft. 492 00:32:48,633 --> 00:32:51,727 I am surprised you agreed to do the surgery. 493 00:32:52,737 --> 00:32:55,501 People don't come to me to fix what's on the outside. 494 00:32:55,573 --> 00:32:57,871 They come to me to fix what's on the inside. 495 00:32:57,942 --> 00:33:02,436 So if that means giving someone a straighter nose or bigger breasts 496 00:33:02,513 --> 00:33:05,914 or if that helps a person get by, 497 00:33:05,984 --> 00:33:09,943 I don't run. I don't hide. I don't take space. 498 00:33:20,164 --> 00:33:23,031 - Don't look at me. I didn't start it. - Karev. 499 00:33:23,101 --> 00:33:27,435 I came to have some fun. Then he gets over me about what I'm wearing. 500 00:33:27,505 --> 00:33:30,531 - He just rubs me the wrong way. - You're on a camping trip. 501 00:33:30,608 --> 00:33:33,543 You're supposed to be enjoying the great outdoors. 502 00:33:34,145 --> 00:33:37,410 You know I grew up in a bar. Literally in a bar. 503 00:33:38,316 --> 00:33:40,944 My dad was always doing one of two things in there. 504 00:33:41,019 --> 00:33:45,513 Playing music or drinking. Dude never even took me to the park. 505 00:33:46,724 --> 00:33:49,716 I just figured this was my chance to go out with the guys. 506 00:33:49,794 --> 00:33:51,625 The one time I try... 507 00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:54,221 You wanted to be a different person. 508 00:33:58,036 --> 00:34:01,699 - They're a happy couple. - Yeah. 509 00:34:04,409 --> 00:34:06,172 I miss my wife. 510 00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:12,176 You have high standards. 511 00:34:13,084 --> 00:34:14,642 You have high standards. 512 00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:17,153 Your standards are too high. 513 00:34:17,789 --> 00:34:21,281 You make people out to be... 514 00:34:22,193 --> 00:34:24,457 People make mistakes. 515 00:34:25,596 --> 00:34:27,325 Your standards are too high. 516 00:34:27,398 --> 00:34:29,423 You see a flaw, you attack. 517 00:34:29,801 --> 00:34:31,860 What are you...? 518 00:34:31,936 --> 00:34:35,770 I do not. I stood up for myself. 519 00:34:36,574 --> 00:34:40,476 People are human, O'Malley. You should try to remember that. 520 00:34:42,346 --> 00:34:44,541 Wait. Wait. 521 00:34:44,615 --> 00:34:48,278 So, you're saying that if Cristina did something like... 522 00:34:48,352 --> 00:34:50,843 Cristina and I are a team. 523 00:34:51,389 --> 00:34:53,949 We are a team. 524 00:34:54,025 --> 00:34:57,927 You're either part of a team or you play alone for the rest of your life. 525 00:35:06,671 --> 00:35:10,107 Push. Good. Push, Jamie. 526 00:35:13,111 --> 00:35:14,510 OK. 527 00:35:15,012 --> 00:35:17,412 I need you to push one more time, Jamie. 528 00:35:17,882 --> 00:35:19,315 Ted. 529 00:35:20,184 --> 00:35:22,152 One more time. Push. 530 00:35:23,221 --> 00:35:24,449 Push. 531 00:35:25,723 --> 00:35:26,951 Push. 532 00:35:27,592 --> 00:35:30,584 Push. Good. We got it. 533 00:36:17,542 --> 00:36:19,976 Oh, man. Nice! 534 00:36:21,579 --> 00:36:23,479 Look at all those fish. 535 00:36:24,182 --> 00:36:26,013 Nice. 536 00:36:26,083 --> 00:36:28,574 We really were scaring them away. 537 00:36:28,653 --> 00:36:31,747 Early morning/evening is a good time to catch trout. 538 00:36:43,634 --> 00:36:47,365 So, that Mark Sloan, he's bad news. 539 00:36:47,438 --> 00:36:50,168 Oh, he's a cancer. He infects everything. 540 00:36:50,241 --> 00:36:54,541 What are we, three hours out of Seattle and still he infects everything. 541 00:36:54,612 --> 00:36:57,240 I have guy friends. Mark was my friend. 542 00:36:58,983 --> 00:37:01,918 Clearly, I am a terrible judge of character. 543 00:37:01,986 --> 00:37:04,887 We could kill him. Just you and me. 544 00:37:04,956 --> 00:37:07,049 We wouldn't have to involve the chief. 545 00:37:09,126 --> 00:37:12,527 I thought if I just got away for a while by myself, 546 00:37:12,597 --> 00:37:16,033 I'd get some answers. Get a fresh start. 547 00:37:16,100 --> 00:37:19,194 Yeah? Getting away by yourself? 548 00:37:19,270 --> 00:37:20,498 Hugely overrated. 549 00:37:20,571 --> 00:37:23,438 And fresh starts? No such thing. 550 00:37:23,507 --> 00:37:25,634 They're the reason the cliché is that 551 00:37:25,710 --> 00:37:28,907 wherever you go, there you are. 552 00:37:30,581 --> 00:37:32,606 Any other words of wisdom there, chief? 553 00:37:34,418 --> 00:37:35,783 I'm living in a hotel. 554 00:37:35,853 --> 00:37:38,651 I buy most of my clothes from the hotel gift shop 555 00:37:38,723 --> 00:37:40,748 and my wife won't speak to me. 556 00:37:41,359 --> 00:37:44,294 I came out here for the same reasons you did. 557 00:37:44,362 --> 00:37:48,355 I have no wisdom. There is no wisdom here. 558 00:37:48,432 --> 00:37:52,892 Hmm. So, in other words, 559 00:37:52,970 --> 00:37:55,200 we're all a bunch of idiots. 560 00:37:55,273 --> 00:37:56,672 Yes. 561 00:37:56,741 --> 00:37:58,470 Who wants to go home? 562 00:38:29,674 --> 00:38:34,134 Really? You didn't get the hint? Because it wasn't subtle. 563 00:38:34,211 --> 00:38:38,341 - I'll find you a new peer counselor. - Good. 564 00:38:44,455 --> 00:38:45,854 I lost a kid. 565 00:38:46,757 --> 00:38:50,488 My first year. It was my fault. 566 00:38:50,561 --> 00:38:52,927 And I just couldn't... 567 00:38:54,965 --> 00:38:56,830 So I had a breakdown. 568 00:38:56,901 --> 00:39:00,268 They gave me time off and when I came back, I put a smile on my face 569 00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:02,363 and everybody thought I was fine. 570 00:39:03,974 --> 00:39:06,499 I lost a kid. 571 00:39:08,112 --> 00:39:10,103 It comes in waves, Izzie. 572 00:39:11,248 --> 00:39:15,184 There's a lull and then another wave hits you. 573 00:39:15,686 --> 00:39:17,449 I wasn't trying to pry. 574 00:39:17,521 --> 00:39:22,117 I just wanted you to know that it's OK not to be fine sometimes. 575 00:39:24,929 --> 00:39:26,920 I miss him. 576 00:39:26,997 --> 00:39:29,864 All the time, I miss him. 577 00:39:29,934 --> 00:39:32,368 It's not waves. It's a constant. 578 00:39:32,436 --> 00:39:34,631 All the time. 579 00:39:35,373 --> 00:39:38,968 And I walk through the doors of this hospital and I want to be here. 580 00:39:39,043 --> 00:39:40,135 I do. 581 00:39:41,679 --> 00:39:44,773 But... I don't know... 582 00:39:45,449 --> 00:39:47,212 ...if I can be a surgeon again. 583 00:39:47,284 --> 00:39:50,378 And I can't talk about it because it scares me too much. 584 00:39:50,454 --> 00:39:51,751 OK? 585 00:39:53,958 --> 00:39:55,391 OK. 586 00:40:00,831 --> 00:40:03,197 You came back. 587 00:40:03,267 --> 00:40:04,757 I came back. 588 00:40:05,569 --> 00:40:09,528 - The surgery went well? - Sloan did a great job. 589 00:40:12,042 --> 00:40:14,602 I was heading home. 590 00:40:14,678 --> 00:40:17,203 I was on my way to the airport and then... 591 00:40:19,016 --> 00:40:22,952 You know you asked before why I came back the first time. 592 00:40:23,020 --> 00:40:25,580 You know, I tried not to. 593 00:40:25,656 --> 00:40:28,523 I went on dates. 594 00:40:28,592 --> 00:40:30,560 Had a lot of great first dates 595 00:40:30,628 --> 00:40:33,722 with guys who were planning to stay guys. 596 00:40:35,766 --> 00:40:40,533 But you have a great date and you wanna go and tell your best friend about it. 597 00:40:42,106 --> 00:40:44,336 And my best friend is Daniel. 598 00:40:46,343 --> 00:40:48,072 Donna. 599 00:40:49,146 --> 00:40:51,842 And then you have a few bad dates and... 600 00:40:55,252 --> 00:40:57,311 She's my best friend. 601 00:40:58,322 --> 00:41:01,416 She knows me. She loves me. 602 00:41:02,092 --> 00:41:05,118 She's... my husband. 603 00:41:06,664 --> 00:41:10,395 I know it sounds crazy. 604 00:41:10,468 --> 00:41:13,062 My family thinks I'm crazy. 605 00:41:14,672 --> 00:41:19,302 But you don't abandon someone just because there's baggage, you know? 606 00:41:19,944 --> 00:41:21,275 Yeah. 607 00:41:24,448 --> 00:41:28,441 At the end of the day, it's Donna. 608 00:41:28,853 --> 00:41:31,048 Even when she hurts me. 609 00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:33,548 Even when I hate her. 610 00:41:36,126 --> 00:41:38,594 She's who you want to talk to. 611 00:41:41,899 --> 00:41:44,925 Not all wounds are superficial. 612 00:41:47,671 --> 00:41:51,630 So, you're sleeping with Sloan. 613 00:41:53,544 --> 00:41:54,772 Was. 614 00:41:55,312 --> 00:41:57,143 Me too. Was. 615 00:41:58,716 --> 00:42:03,551 Which is just a hailstorm of self-loathing and misery. 616 00:42:04,355 --> 00:42:05,515 Yeah. 617 00:42:09,460 --> 00:42:10,825 You want to... 618 00:42:12,496 --> 00:42:14,487 ...get a drink or something? 619 00:42:14,565 --> 00:42:15,896 I would love to. 620 00:42:22,206 --> 00:42:24,003 Some other time, then. 621 00:42:24,074 --> 00:42:25,632 Definitely. 622 00:42:30,314 --> 00:42:34,148 Most wounds run deeper than we can imagine. 623 00:42:34,218 --> 00:42:38,086 He's fine. He'll make a full recovery. 624 00:42:38,789 --> 00:42:42,054 You can't see them with the naked eye. 625 00:42:46,931 --> 00:42:49,866 - You're back. - Yes. 626 00:42:51,902 --> 00:42:53,767 I'm glad you're back. 627 00:42:56,173 --> 00:42:57,663 Me too. 628 00:43:01,445 --> 00:43:04,437 I don't like to be paged when I'm off. Is it important? 629 00:43:04,515 --> 00:43:07,746 - George, we need to talk. - Yeah. I think we do. 630 00:43:07,818 --> 00:43:10,719 - It's about your dad, George. - My dad? 631 00:43:10,788 --> 00:43:15,157 And then there are the wounds that take us by surprise. 632 00:43:22,399 --> 00:43:25,800 So, this could be just a drink 633 00:43:25,869 --> 00:43:28,030 or this could be more than a drink. 634 00:43:28,105 --> 00:43:30,903 - You're breaking the rules again. - I don't care. 635 00:43:30,975 --> 00:43:35,036 You and me, we could have fun. Dirty mistresses unite and all that. 636 00:43:35,112 --> 00:43:38,445 - I cannot start something with you. - You could. 637 00:43:38,515 --> 00:43:40,574 I'm not camping in the woods. 638 00:43:43,020 --> 00:43:46,717 Start over, Meredith. Start fresh. 639 00:43:52,663 --> 00:43:54,927 Saved by the bell. 640 00:44:00,437 --> 00:44:02,564 Order me another beer. 641 00:44:12,449 --> 00:44:16,078 Hi. I'm Derek Shepherd. 642 00:44:18,422 --> 00:44:22,859 - What are you doing? - We met at this bar, you remember? 643 00:44:22,926 --> 00:44:26,521 We met and we... Well, you said "I'm just a girl. " 644 00:44:26,597 --> 00:44:29,862 I said, "I'm just a guy. "' And we started this thing. 645 00:44:29,933 --> 00:44:33,460 We started this thing and you didn't know anything about me. 646 00:44:33,537 --> 00:44:36,631 The good, the bad, the wife. 647 00:44:36,707 --> 00:44:39,437 You didn't even know my name. 648 00:44:40,878 --> 00:44:42,743 You didn't know me. 649 00:44:43,747 --> 00:44:47,581 I want you to know me. I want to start over. 650 00:44:47,651 --> 00:44:48,879 From the beginning. 651 00:44:51,321 --> 00:44:54,518 So, hi. Derek Shepherd. 652 00:44:57,594 --> 00:45:00,495 You walked away. And now it's too late. 653 00:45:00,564 --> 00:45:03,727 There's too much water under the thing or whatever. 654 00:45:03,801 --> 00:45:05,325 Meredith. 655 00:45:09,273 --> 00:45:10,831 Please. 656 00:45:12,042 --> 00:45:16,445 The trick with any kind of wound or disease 657 00:45:16,513 --> 00:45:20,472 is to dig down and find the real source of the injury. 658 00:45:29,626 --> 00:45:33,084 Hi, I'm Meredith Grey. 659 00:45:36,166 --> 00:45:38,430 Very nice to meet you, Meredith. 660 00:45:38,502 --> 00:45:40,265 It's nice to meet you. 661 00:45:40,337 --> 00:45:43,500 And once you've found it... 662 00:45:46,243 --> 00:45:49,303 ...try like hell to heal that sucker.