1 00:00:01,536 --> 00:00:03,595 Previously on Grey's Anatomy: 2 00:00:03,672 --> 00:00:07,631 - This is Mary. She lost consciousness. - How's Shane? My partner? 3 00:00:07,709 --> 00:00:10,269 I didn't want her to see. She might take offense. 4 00:00:10,345 --> 00:00:12,905 - Can you get my wife? - Baby? 5 00:00:13,014 --> 00:00:14,948 You're gonna drill into my skull? 6 00:00:15,016 --> 00:00:16,745 The navigational system is dead? 7 00:00:16,818 --> 00:00:19,787 Damn it, Stan! Stan. Stan. 8 00:00:19,854 --> 00:00:22,379 Can I watch the surgery? Can you sneak me in? 9 00:00:22,457 --> 00:00:23,617 You're busted. 10 00:00:23,725 --> 00:00:27,161 I'm gonna tell him. I don't want him seeing other people. 11 00:00:27,228 --> 00:00:30,789 - What? - Nothing. I'm gonna be late. 12 00:00:30,865 --> 00:00:32,833 We need to talk. 13 00:00:32,901 --> 00:00:36,029 - My wife gets panicky. - I will keep her updated. 14 00:00:36,104 --> 00:00:37,628 You seeing anyone? 15 00:00:52,420 --> 00:00:54,251 At the end of the day, 16 00:00:54,322 --> 00:00:58,656 the experience of practicing medicine bears little resemblance to the dream. 17 00:01:02,063 --> 00:01:05,590 Hey. Are you... Are you... Are you really OK? 18 00:01:05,667 --> 00:01:07,635 Yeah. Yeah. 19 00:01:07,736 --> 00:01:13,299 Alex. Come on. That was intense. Intense and crazy and just awful. 20 00:01:13,375 --> 00:01:15,343 How can you be OK after a day like that? 21 00:01:15,443 --> 00:01:18,901 We go into medicine because we want to save lives. 22 00:01:18,980 --> 00:01:22,711 You did a good job today. That was not easy. 23 00:01:22,784 --> 00:01:27,084 What you did was not easy. It was brave. 24 00:01:27,155 --> 00:01:29,623 We go into medicine because we want to do good. 25 00:01:34,362 --> 00:01:36,489 We go into medicine for the rush, 26 00:01:36,564 --> 00:01:39,328 for the high, for the ride. 27 00:01:39,401 --> 00:01:44,429 But what we remember, at the end of most days, are the losses. 28 00:01:44,506 --> 00:01:49,239 What we lie awake at night replaying is the pain we caused. 29 00:01:51,913 --> 00:01:54,074 The ills we couldn't cure. 30 00:01:54,149 --> 00:01:56,515 I don't want you to date other people. 31 00:01:56,618 --> 00:01:59,280 It may not be enough for you, but I'm trying here. 32 00:01:59,354 --> 00:02:02,721 I don't want you to date anybody but me. 33 00:02:02,824 --> 00:02:05,292 The lives we ruined... 34 00:02:06,694 --> 00:02:08,753 ... or failed to save. 35 00:02:09,431 --> 00:02:11,695 Can I get some help? 36 00:02:12,734 --> 00:02:16,636 The end of the day, the reality is nothing like we hope. 37 00:02:18,173 --> 00:02:20,437 The reality is, at the end of the day, 38 00:02:20,508 --> 00:02:24,137 more often than not, turned inside out and upside down. 39 00:02:26,114 --> 00:02:30,073 Over here! Meredith, get in there! We don't have time to lose! 40 00:02:30,185 --> 00:02:32,619 OK! I got the shirt open. I'm almost there! 41 00:02:33,288 --> 00:02:37,384 Stop! Stop! Stop! Hold still! 42 00:02:37,459 --> 00:02:41,520 OK. OK, that's it. I got it. It stopped. I got it. 43 00:02:42,063 --> 00:02:45,226 Holy crap. My artery blew. 44 00:02:45,300 --> 00:02:48,201 - Your artery blew. - I didn't think that would happen. 45 00:02:48,269 --> 00:02:50,794 Thought it was something they say might happen 46 00:02:50,872 --> 00:02:53,739 because they have to, but didn't think it'd happen. 47 00:02:53,808 --> 00:02:55,173 Me neither. 48 00:03:01,483 --> 00:03:04,543 - Their local tech's in Spokane. - That's five hours away. 49 00:03:04,619 --> 00:03:08,487 - Tell them I was in somebody's brain? - Yes. The tech is still in Spokane. 50 00:03:08,556 --> 00:03:11,992 You can't just pull the probes out and go to a full craniotomy? 51 00:03:12,060 --> 00:03:16,520 - No. Why not? - The probe is in the tumors. 52 00:03:16,598 --> 00:03:20,159 Pulling out without navigation system could damage brain tissue. 53 00:03:20,268 --> 00:03:22,736 You can't leave the probe in without swelling. 54 00:03:22,804 --> 00:03:26,365 - That's good. What's your name? - Two. Steve! Steve Mostow. 55 00:03:26,441 --> 00:03:29,001 - Dr. Steve Mostow. Intern. - Hi, Steve. 56 00:03:29,110 --> 00:03:31,635 Run to the nurses. Make an announcement. 57 00:03:31,713 --> 00:03:33,943 We need computer technicians in OR Three. 58 00:03:34,015 --> 00:03:36,142 - Go fast and scrub in. - Yes, sir. 59 00:03:36,217 --> 00:03:37,946 - Dr. Shepherd? - Yes. 60 00:03:38,019 --> 00:03:41,147 I did three semesters in computer science before nursing. 61 00:03:41,222 --> 00:03:46,785 I don't know what's wrong, but if it's something reasonably basic, I... 62 00:03:46,895 --> 00:03:49,420 I'd feel better if your voice wasn't shaking. 63 00:03:49,497 --> 00:03:51,658 Shakes when I'm nervous. I'm imperfect. 64 00:03:51,766 --> 00:03:53,427 It doesn't mean I can't fix it. 65 00:03:53,501 --> 00:03:56,629 Rose has semesters of computer science at what school? 66 00:03:56,704 --> 00:03:58,638 - Santa Cruz. - That's a party school. 67 00:03:58,706 --> 00:04:01,869 Insult my education or want me to help you save your patient? 68 00:04:01,976 --> 00:04:06,276 Who can beat three semesters of computer science at Santa Cruz? Anybody? 69 00:04:08,883 --> 00:04:12,717 - OK. Give it a shot. - I appreciate the vote of confidence. 70 00:04:14,756 --> 00:04:17,520 Can you see anything yet? 71 00:04:17,625 --> 00:04:21,186 Uh, I see the diaphragm moving. Move it up a little more. 72 00:04:21,829 --> 00:04:24,059 - Meredith? - I'm working on it! 73 00:04:24,132 --> 00:04:26,896 You're not doing a very good job. 74 00:04:27,001 --> 00:04:30,232 I am doing a damn fine job. Don't you worry. 75 00:04:32,407 --> 00:04:35,843 - Can you... Can you close his eyes? - What? 76 00:04:35,910 --> 00:04:39,937 Stan. Can you close his eyes? 77 00:04:41,950 --> 00:04:44,714 I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. 78 00:04:48,256 --> 00:04:52,090 Meredith, stop. Stop right there. I want to freeze that frame. 79 00:04:52,160 --> 00:04:54,185 Yeah, his pericardium's full of blood. 80 00:04:54,262 --> 00:04:56,628 That's not good. That's not good at all. 81 00:04:56,698 --> 00:05:00,065 Oxygen, IV start kits. Arnie, monitor. 82 00:05:00,134 --> 00:05:04,036 You, pericardiocentesis kit. His anatomy's all screwed up 83 00:05:04,105 --> 00:05:07,563 because he's hanging upside down. Get someone from cardio! Go! 84 00:05:10,878 --> 00:05:13,438 I've got Tucker waiting for me and I'm late. 85 00:05:13,514 --> 00:05:16,779 Do me a favor and take the patient through to post-op. 86 00:05:16,851 --> 00:05:19,786 - What? - OK, I wanted to say 87 00:05:19,854 --> 00:05:23,119 - when you took me off Hahn's service... - Something's wrong. 88 00:05:23,191 --> 00:05:27,287 - His blood pressure's bottomed out. - I'll hang it. Here you go. 89 00:05:27,362 --> 00:05:29,796 - Dr. Bailey! - O'Malley... 90 00:05:29,864 --> 00:05:34,096 OK. I need you to talk to Tucker. I need you to ask him to wait. 91 00:05:34,168 --> 00:05:37,103 He's not going to be inclined to, so ask him nicely. 92 00:05:37,171 --> 00:05:40,538 Can you please go and ask him nicely to wait? 93 00:05:40,642 --> 00:05:42,269 - Yes, ma'am. - I won't be long. 94 00:05:43,177 --> 00:05:46,078 Do you see this, Stevens? Sternum's cleaned out. 95 00:05:46,147 --> 00:05:49,776 - Which means we're almost out of here. - Don't want to watch me work? 96 00:05:49,851 --> 00:05:52,115 It's offensive, Dr. Sloan. Flat out. 97 00:05:52,186 --> 00:05:54,950 I asked if you wanted to watch me work. Offensive? 98 00:05:55,056 --> 00:05:58,617 You play dumb? Does that work for you because of the way you look? 99 00:05:58,693 --> 00:06:01,594 - What are you talking about? - If you were homely, 100 00:06:01,663 --> 00:06:04,291 you would have lost your job a long time ago. 101 00:06:05,433 --> 00:06:07,663 The chief needs you in the ambulance bay. 102 00:06:07,735 --> 00:06:12,297 - Paramedic with cardiac tamponade. - Alrighty then. Let's go, Stevens. 103 00:06:12,940 --> 00:06:15,374 OK, um... 104 00:06:15,443 --> 00:06:18,606 Nick, can you reach your call button? 105 00:06:18,680 --> 00:06:20,944 - I think so. - No, no! Don't move that much! 106 00:06:22,383 --> 00:06:23,350 OK. 107 00:06:24,018 --> 00:06:26,282 Uh... just... 108 00:06:26,354 --> 00:06:31,053 Can you reach your phone? Without moving very much. 109 00:06:31,125 --> 00:06:33,286 I think so. I got it. 110 00:06:33,394 --> 00:06:35,259 OK. Good. Good, good, good. 111 00:06:35,329 --> 00:06:39,959 OK, dial eight, OK? OK. 112 00:06:40,034 --> 00:06:42,332 - Is that eight? - OK. OK. 113 00:06:42,403 --> 00:06:43,700 Put it to my ear, OK? 114 00:06:44,772 --> 00:06:46,797 - Hello, Nurses Station. - Hi. 115 00:06:46,874 --> 00:06:49,035 Hi, this is Dr. Grey. 116 00:06:49,110 --> 00:06:51,408 Mr. Hanscomb's carotid just blew and... 117 00:06:51,479 --> 00:06:56,507 Can you page Dr. Sloan for me please? And also Dr. Yang? 118 00:06:56,584 --> 00:07:00,247 I'm gonna go ahead and call this a code blue. Yes. Code blue. 119 00:07:00,321 --> 00:07:02,881 Can you announce that please? Thank you. 120 00:07:02,990 --> 00:07:06,050 - You can put it down. - Code blue. That means I'm dead, right? 121 00:07:06,127 --> 00:07:09,221 That's what they call when people go, like, flatline. 122 00:07:09,297 --> 00:07:11,731 I figure we can use all the help we can get. 123 00:07:23,978 --> 00:07:26,845 I don't care who it is. I don't care who it is, Jolene. 124 00:07:26,914 --> 00:07:29,144 I am leaving when I am finished. 125 00:07:29,217 --> 00:07:31,947 If the patient is on fire, I'm not scrubbing in. 126 00:07:32,019 --> 00:07:34,510 It's Dr. Yang's. Lexie Grey is paging you 911. 127 00:07:34,589 --> 00:07:38,252 Dr. Yang? Your intern called a code blue on a patient who is not code blue. 128 00:07:38,326 --> 00:07:40,692 What? Why would she call a code if... 129 00:07:40,795 --> 00:07:42,057 Go find out. 130 00:07:42,130 --> 00:07:45,622 You needed me here. That's why you pulled me off of cardio. 131 00:07:45,700 --> 00:07:48,191 No, I'm fine. Go kick some intern butt. 132 00:07:50,972 --> 00:07:55,534 - How you doing, Dr. Grey? - Lexie. I'm OK. Are you OK? 133 00:07:55,643 --> 00:07:58,077 I'm a little freaked out, if I'm being honest. 134 00:07:58,146 --> 00:08:00,842 Mostly because you look like Carrie at the prom. 135 00:08:00,915 --> 00:08:04,476 - You're wearing half my blood. - Which is why we're hanging more. 136 00:08:04,552 --> 00:08:07,043 - I'm having trouble getting a vein. - Why? 137 00:08:07,121 --> 00:08:10,648 - Hypovolemic. His veins are flaccid. - That's not a nice thing to say. 138 00:08:10,725 --> 00:08:12,625 That's not a nice thing to say at all. 139 00:08:12,693 --> 00:08:14,752 Ow! Ow! 140 00:08:14,829 --> 00:08:16,592 - Son of a bitch! - It's OK! It's OK! 141 00:08:16,697 --> 00:08:19,257 - It's OK! - Stop the bleeding! 142 00:08:19,367 --> 00:08:23,667 - My hand slipped. I got it. - That can't happen anymore. 143 00:08:23,738 --> 00:08:27,003 - That can't happen anymore. - Apply steady, firm pressure. 144 00:08:27,074 --> 00:08:29,736 I called for Sloan. Should we take him to an OR? 145 00:08:29,811 --> 00:08:32,575 No, there's no OR. I was just down there. 146 00:08:34,882 --> 00:08:38,249 Tyler? You should run and get some more blood. Just in case, OK? 147 00:08:38,319 --> 00:08:40,787 - Apply pressure. I'll get Sloan. - Leaving? 148 00:08:40,855 --> 00:08:43,346 I'll be right back. You're doing this. 149 00:08:46,761 --> 00:08:50,629 You seeing this, Karev? How I'm tightening the cable by hand? 150 00:08:50,698 --> 00:08:52,393 Yeah. 151 00:08:54,902 --> 00:08:56,665 - That's my face. - What? 152 00:08:56,737 --> 00:08:59,501 In the gallery. I built that face. That's Jane Doe. 153 00:08:59,574 --> 00:09:02,634 The one with the amnesia. She a surgeon? 154 00:09:02,710 --> 00:09:05,679 - Uh, I don't... - You are so busted. 155 00:09:05,746 --> 00:09:07,805 Nick Hanscomb's carotid blew. 156 00:09:07,882 --> 00:09:11,045 Karev, irrigate thoroughly, finish up, pack the wound. 157 00:09:11,118 --> 00:09:13,086 - Leaving? - Other guy can't survive. 158 00:09:13,154 --> 00:09:15,645 - There's no OR available. - This one will be. 159 00:09:15,723 --> 00:09:19,853 Get this room turned around ASAP. I'm bringing down my carotid bleed. 160 00:09:22,296 --> 00:09:25,732 Tucker! Hey. 161 00:09:25,800 --> 00:09:28,166 She's busy, right? She can't make lunch? 162 00:09:28,236 --> 00:09:31,330 She can make a slightly later lunch. She's in surgery. 163 00:09:31,405 --> 00:09:33,373 - Always is. - Taking a little longer. 164 00:09:33,441 --> 00:09:34,772 Always does. 165 00:09:35,810 --> 00:09:37,539 She's having a really bad day. 166 00:09:37,612 --> 00:09:40,547 She's saving the life of a white supremacist, 167 00:09:40,615 --> 00:09:43,175 which is not a good day. So she asked me to ask you 168 00:09:43,284 --> 00:09:46,253 if you wouldn't mind waiting a little while longer. 169 00:09:46,320 --> 00:09:49,016 Please? She did said please. 170 00:09:49,090 --> 00:09:54,255 Which, as you may know, is not a word she uses that frequently. 171 00:09:54,328 --> 00:09:56,956 She really is sorry. It shouldn't be much longer. 172 00:09:57,031 --> 00:10:02,094 Fine. But tell Miranda I said don't keep me waiting long. Please. 173 00:10:02,169 --> 00:10:03,659 OK. 174 00:10:05,840 --> 00:10:07,865 Lucy. 175 00:10:12,179 --> 00:10:14,943 If it's all right, I'll update Mr. Nolston's family 176 00:10:15,016 --> 00:10:17,109 and meet you in the ambulance bay. 177 00:10:20,221 --> 00:10:22,655 He's your patient. Keep the family informed? 178 00:10:22,723 --> 00:10:25,886 Think like a surgeon. You're thinking like a social worker. 179 00:10:25,993 --> 00:10:28,894 If you want to be a social worker, save yourself effort 180 00:10:28,963 --> 00:10:31,227 because the training is two years, not 1 2. 181 00:10:31,299 --> 00:10:36,669 Want to be a surgeon, you can update the family when the crisis has passed. 182 00:10:36,737 --> 00:10:39,831 You're right. Absolutely. I'm sorry. I... 183 00:10:45,746 --> 00:10:47,304 - Steve. - Yes, sir? 184 00:10:47,415 --> 00:10:49,713 - Did you bring anybody with you? - No. 185 00:10:49,784 --> 00:10:52,719 The nurses made an announcement. I waited, no one came. 186 00:10:52,787 --> 00:10:55,551 - Rose? - Damn. Damn it. Damn it. 187 00:10:55,623 --> 00:10:57,784 - Rose? - I don't have the steadiest hand. 188 00:10:57,892 --> 00:11:01,589 I need to reconnect wires, and when you talk to me, it is less steady. 189 00:11:01,662 --> 00:11:04,324 - It's about the wires? - I think so. I'm pretty sure. 190 00:11:04,398 --> 00:11:06,161 - I'll do it. - What? 191 00:11:06,233 --> 00:11:08,326 I'll do it. You don't have steady hands. 192 00:11:08,402 --> 00:11:10,165 - Because I'm nervous. - Got that. 193 00:11:10,271 --> 00:11:13,638 Let me take care of the wires. I'm a neurosurgeon. Steady hands. 194 00:11:13,741 --> 00:11:15,902 You're holding the leads in the brain. 195 00:11:15,977 --> 00:11:19,003 OK. Steve, how's your hand? Is it steady? 196 00:11:19,080 --> 00:11:20,775 - Hell, yes, sir. - Better be, 197 00:11:20,848 --> 00:11:24,079 or you kill my patient. I need you to hold this very still. 198 00:11:24,151 --> 00:11:26,847 - Yes, sir. - Very, very still. Good. 199 00:11:30,358 --> 00:11:33,486 Sterile sleeves, gloves, please. Tell me what I got to do. 200 00:11:36,464 --> 00:11:38,022 - You talked to Tucker? - Yes. 201 00:11:38,132 --> 00:11:40,293 As long as you're out soon, he'll wait. 202 00:11:40,368 --> 00:11:43,599 Mother of... The hepatic vein was injured. 203 00:11:43,671 --> 00:11:46,162 - Can you check for a new murmur? - Checking now. 204 00:11:46,240 --> 00:11:50,802 O'Malley, go talk to Tucker. Just ask him to wait a little longer. 205 00:11:50,911 --> 00:11:53,277 - I just scrubbed in. - O'Malley, ask him! 206 00:11:53,347 --> 00:11:55,042 Yes, ma'am. 207 00:12:06,961 --> 00:12:10,920 A person can only rise so high. 208 00:12:10,998 --> 00:12:14,490 Now, I'm rising above, but there's a ceiling and I'm about to hit it! 209 00:12:14,568 --> 00:12:18,595 Let me guess, air embolus? 210 00:12:23,344 --> 00:12:26,211 We're about to start the pericardiocentesis, 211 00:12:26,280 --> 00:12:30,239 but with the position of his body, the blood won't be pooled to the heart... 212 00:12:30,317 --> 00:12:33,480 I'd still use the subxiphoid rather than the parasternal. 213 00:12:33,554 --> 00:12:35,886 Right. OK. Meredith, did you hear that? 214 00:12:35,956 --> 00:12:40,188 - Yeah. Is the kit ready yet? - I'm getting it ready for you now. 215 00:12:41,796 --> 00:12:43,320 How you doing, Ray? 216 00:12:43,397 --> 00:12:45,831 You've got to be careful with this technique. 217 00:12:45,900 --> 00:12:47,765 If you aim the needle incorrectly, 218 00:12:47,835 --> 00:12:50,531 you could nick the very thin-walled right atrium. 219 00:12:50,604 --> 00:12:53,971 - Cause a cardiac rupture. - Rupture, a tension pneumothorax. 220 00:12:54,041 --> 00:12:56,908 There's about six different ways she could kill him. 221 00:12:56,977 --> 00:13:00,811 - Are they talking about me? - No. Don't listen to them, Ray. 222 00:13:00,881 --> 00:13:02,576 Dr. Hahn? 223 00:13:02,650 --> 00:13:03,742 Shut up. 224 00:13:07,988 --> 00:13:10,149 Sir, you're gonna be fine. 225 00:13:11,158 --> 00:13:15,595 Stevens, go get me an 1 8-gauge needle before this man's heart explodes. 226 00:13:15,663 --> 00:13:16,891 Got it. 227 00:13:24,839 --> 00:13:27,399 - How you doing, Karev? - Yeah, good. I'm fine. 228 00:13:27,475 --> 00:13:30,603 My nose itches. Itches like crazy. 229 00:13:30,678 --> 00:13:33,408 That's the anxiety. Can't scratch it, so it itches. 230 00:13:36,650 --> 00:13:38,880 - Whoa! What did you do? - I was irrigating. 231 00:13:38,953 --> 00:13:42,320 - I need more suction. - Coming from the side of his chest. 232 00:13:42,389 --> 00:13:44,755 I think his heart's starting to bleed. 233 00:13:44,825 --> 00:13:47,589 Hang a unit of blood! Page Hahn and Sloan now! 234 00:13:47,695 --> 00:13:48,923 Right away. 235 00:13:53,467 --> 00:13:56,197 Tyler, could you get me more gauze, please? 236 00:13:56,270 --> 00:13:58,830 Why do you need more gauze? 'Cause I'm bleeding? 237 00:13:58,939 --> 00:14:01,965 - I'm still bleeding? - We have blood going in, too, Nick. 238 00:14:02,042 --> 00:14:04,272 Is it going in as fast as it's going out? 239 00:14:04,345 --> 00:14:09,214 I'm asking because I'm starting to feel, like, queasy. And weak. 240 00:14:09,283 --> 00:14:11,979 Maybe like a person who's losing a lot of blood. 241 00:14:12,052 --> 00:14:15,078 OK, I'm transferring now, Nick. You ready? 242 00:14:15,156 --> 00:14:16,123 Yeah. 243 00:14:18,292 --> 00:14:21,784 Lexie? Should I be calling people? 244 00:14:21,862 --> 00:14:24,228 Should I be calling my family or somebody? 245 00:14:24,298 --> 00:14:28,064 I think... I think the bleeding's stopped. 246 00:14:28,135 --> 00:14:31,662 - How you doing, Nick? - Dr. Sloan. It's Dr. Sloan. 247 00:14:31,739 --> 00:14:33,832 - I think the bleeding stopped. - You OK? 248 00:14:33,908 --> 00:14:37,969 - Do I look OK? - Actually, you do. 249 00:14:38,045 --> 00:14:41,572 - You've got bleeding under control. - Why would it stop? 250 00:14:41,649 --> 00:14:44,618 The herald bleed, which means there's a possibility 251 00:14:44,685 --> 00:14:47,119 - of it bleeding. - I'm gonna get it closed up. 252 00:14:47,188 --> 00:14:50,214 - There's no OR. - There will be in ten minutes. 253 00:14:50,291 --> 00:14:54,125 Get a pressure dressing on this wound. Get him prepped straight to OR Three. 254 00:14:54,195 --> 00:14:56,755 Make sure it's cleared out. Good work, Grey. 255 00:14:56,830 --> 00:14:57,797 Thank you. 256 00:14:59,800 --> 00:15:01,529 Hey. 257 00:15:01,602 --> 00:15:05,561 I'm in love with you now. I've forgotten entirely about my ex. 258 00:15:11,879 --> 00:15:13,938 - Come on! Are you kidding me? - What? 259 00:15:14,014 --> 00:15:16,574 I have a patient on the table... I got to go. 260 00:15:16,650 --> 00:15:18,777 - Erica! - Page the cardio fellow, 261 00:15:18,852 --> 00:15:21,980 then book an OR. Have it waiting when they get him free. 262 00:15:31,966 --> 00:15:33,331 Why am I not surprised? 263 00:15:33,434 --> 00:15:36,062 Dr. Bailey is very sorry. She's very, very sorry. 264 00:15:36,136 --> 00:15:38,297 - I'm out of here. - She just asked me to ask 265 00:15:38,405 --> 00:15:41,738 if you could wait longer. She's almost done with the surgery. 266 00:15:41,809 --> 00:15:46,337 It's just more complicated than she expected, but she is almost done. 267 00:15:46,413 --> 00:15:49,177 Fine, I'll wait. But you tell her I'm tired 268 00:15:49,283 --> 00:15:51,843 of her choosing everything over our marriage. 269 00:15:51,919 --> 00:15:53,580 The last time. I'm finished. 270 00:15:53,654 --> 00:15:57,420 Tell her the only reason I'm staying here is to tell her that myself. 271 00:15:58,525 --> 00:16:01,756 - What the hell did you do, Karev? - Nothing. I cut the cable. 272 00:16:01,829 --> 00:16:04,559 You cut the cable? Showing off for your girlfriend? 273 00:16:04,632 --> 00:16:06,156 Any idea how screwed you are? 274 00:16:06,233 --> 00:16:09,293 It's not his fault. I'm holding this guy's coronary. 275 00:16:09,370 --> 00:16:12,271 - Did somebody page Hahn? - What the hell happened? 276 00:16:12,339 --> 00:16:13,670 - Graft blew. - Damn it! 277 00:16:13,741 --> 00:16:16,767 - If you need me to... - I need you to stay quiet. 278 00:16:16,844 --> 00:16:19,813 - Get more suction in here. - Just hold onto that. 279 00:16:26,687 --> 00:16:29,121 O'Malley? 280 00:16:29,189 --> 00:16:31,953 - Your husband is waiting. - Good. 281 00:16:32,026 --> 00:16:35,154 - He's waiting and... - Look, I heard you. 282 00:16:35,229 --> 00:16:38,096 Why aren't you scrubbed in? I could use a hand. 283 00:16:38,165 --> 00:16:43,467 He said something about you choosing everything over your marriage. 284 00:16:44,805 --> 00:16:46,966 He said that? 285 00:16:47,074 --> 00:16:49,941 - What else did he say? - I think that was about it. 286 00:16:50,010 --> 00:16:51,375 You think or you know? 287 00:16:53,547 --> 00:16:56,380 He said this was the last time, and he was finished. 288 00:16:58,919 --> 00:17:01,387 I'm in surgery, O'Malley. 289 00:17:01,455 --> 00:17:04,219 Did you tell him that I'm trying to save a man's life? 290 00:17:04,291 --> 00:17:07,158 - Yes. - That I want to be there 291 00:17:07,227 --> 00:17:10,128 with him now, but if I were to leave, this man would die? 292 00:17:10,197 --> 00:17:11,926 - Tell him that? - Yeah. Yes. 293 00:17:11,999 --> 00:17:15,958 You need to go back out there and tell him that I took a vow. 294 00:17:16,036 --> 00:17:18,061 A vow to save lives. 295 00:17:18,138 --> 00:17:21,505 Remember that he also took a vow. For better or for worse. 296 00:17:21,608 --> 00:17:26,739 You tell him that it's his job, as a husband, to understand that. 297 00:17:26,814 --> 00:17:30,272 You tell him that I'm standing by my vow. For better or worse. 298 00:17:30,351 --> 00:17:32,216 Tell him I'm holding him to his vow. 299 00:17:32,286 --> 00:17:35,744 You tell him if he's thinking about leaving right now, 300 00:17:35,823 --> 00:17:40,590 that he might find himself hurt and wounded and needing an operation. 301 00:17:40,694 --> 00:17:44,027 And he may not get a surgeon who is as married to her vows as I am. 302 00:17:44,098 --> 00:17:45,622 You tell him that! 303 00:17:48,836 --> 00:17:50,701 - Can I just go do some charts? - Go! 304 00:17:59,480 --> 00:18:01,175 - It's in. - It's in? 305 00:18:01,248 --> 00:18:02,738 The wire's in. 306 00:18:05,619 --> 00:18:08,179 - Steve, are you still? - Yes, sir. Very still. 307 00:18:12,226 --> 00:18:15,992 Stop looking at me like I killed your patient. I am not a technician. 308 00:18:16,096 --> 00:18:17,825 - I did my best. - You didn't. 309 00:18:17,898 --> 00:18:19,456 Yes, I did do my best, damn it! 310 00:18:19,566 --> 00:18:21,693 Calm down. Take a deep breath and think. 311 00:18:21,769 --> 00:18:24,829 What did you miss? What are you forgetting? 312 00:18:33,013 --> 00:18:36,244 - You forgot the restart button? - I forgot to press restart. 313 00:18:37,451 --> 00:18:39,419 Yeah, working. It's working. 314 00:18:39,520 --> 00:18:42,250 It's working. It's working. 315 00:18:42,723 --> 00:18:44,782 Santa Cruz is not just a party school. 316 00:18:44,858 --> 00:18:46,723 - Dr. Shepherd? - Yes? 317 00:18:46,794 --> 00:18:48,227 Your sleeves. 318 00:18:53,934 --> 00:18:57,495 This was never my plan. To die this way. 319 00:18:57,604 --> 00:19:00,698 - You're not dying, Nick. - You're going to the OR. 320 00:19:00,774 --> 00:19:03,800 I know. That's what I'm saying. 321 00:19:03,877 --> 00:19:08,371 I think we kind of have some say. Or at least a feeling. 322 00:19:08,449 --> 00:19:13,546 But I never had that feeling, so I can't die, right? 323 00:19:17,658 --> 00:19:20,821 I don't feel good. I feel... 324 00:19:20,928 --> 00:19:23,795 - Oh! Nick? Nick? - Can you squeeze my hand? 325 00:19:23,864 --> 00:19:26,765 - Oh, my God! What happened? - The blood to his brain... 326 00:19:26,834 --> 00:19:29,200 It looks like he had a stroke. Let's go. 327 00:19:29,303 --> 00:19:31,362 Let's move him carefully. Let's go. 328 00:19:33,474 --> 00:19:36,637 You can't cry, Lexie. This isn't over. You can't cry. 329 00:19:43,851 --> 00:19:47,218 Hey, you need to find the xiphoid process. You feel it? 330 00:19:49,089 --> 00:19:52,115 - Got it. - Go two finger breadths to the left 331 00:19:52,192 --> 00:19:55,559 - of the xiphoid. - I'm there. 332 00:19:55,662 --> 00:19:57,323 Here. 333 00:19:59,833 --> 00:20:02,131 - Eighteen-gauge. - Yeah. 334 00:20:02,202 --> 00:20:05,228 - That is a very big needle. - I know. I'm sorry. 335 00:20:05,305 --> 00:20:08,672 Angle the needle toward the left shoulder. Don't stab. 336 00:20:08,775 --> 00:20:11,209 Don't hit the ventricle, don't drop the lung. 337 00:20:11,278 --> 00:20:15,044 - That wouldn't help matters either. - I changed my mind. I want out. 338 00:20:15,148 --> 00:20:18,675 This is gonna help you, Ray. I'm gonna go on three, OK? 339 00:20:18,752 --> 00:20:21,516 - One, two... - No, wait. 340 00:20:21,622 --> 00:20:26,150 Tell Stan's wife I'm sorry. Tell Sara I'm sorry about Stan. 341 00:20:26,226 --> 00:20:30,060 Tell her yourself. One, two... 342 00:20:30,130 --> 00:20:32,360 Wait. Wait. 343 00:20:32,432 --> 00:20:34,297 We're running out of time. 344 00:20:34,368 --> 00:20:36,063 - Just wait. - OK. 345 00:20:36,136 --> 00:20:38,900 - What's taking so long? - He's not ready. 346 00:20:39,006 --> 00:20:42,134 I'm trying not to be scared. I don't want to die scared. 347 00:20:42,209 --> 00:20:46,339 - I want to not be scared. - Ray, listen to me. 348 00:20:46,413 --> 00:20:48,904 It's good to be scared. 349 00:20:48,982 --> 00:20:51,507 It means you still have something to lose. 350 00:20:53,820 --> 00:20:57,278 Yeah? Are you scared? 351 00:20:59,459 --> 00:21:00,983 All the time. 352 00:21:04,064 --> 00:21:06,589 OK. That's good. 353 00:21:07,301 --> 00:21:08,859 OK, I'm ready. 354 00:21:09,369 --> 00:21:13,032 But don't count. Just do it. Do it so I don't know it's... 355 00:21:19,313 --> 00:21:23,545 The infection went to his heart. His hack of a surgeon didn't check grafts. 356 00:21:23,617 --> 00:21:26,381 Should've caught it. Should've checked. I missed. 357 00:21:26,453 --> 00:21:30,116 Damn it, how did I miss it? Stupid, stupid, stupid. 358 00:21:30,190 --> 00:21:32,420 - That's fascinating, Dr. Hahn. - What? 359 00:21:32,492 --> 00:21:35,256 You're as unkind to yourself as you are to everyone. 360 00:21:35,329 --> 00:21:36,853 Sloan. 361 00:21:38,665 --> 00:21:42,499 Dr. Sloan, his artery blew and he appears to be having a left-sided CVA. 362 00:21:42,569 --> 00:21:44,730 - Where is he? - You told me bring him here. 363 00:21:47,507 --> 00:21:50,533 - Hahn, you close? - No. 364 00:21:50,611 --> 00:21:53,171 Yang, get him to a sterile procedure room. Run! 365 00:21:53,246 --> 00:21:56,147 - Let's go. - I can help. What do you want me to do? 366 00:21:56,216 --> 00:22:00,550 - Anesthesiologist, nurse, equipment. - I'm on it. Stay with Hahn. 367 00:22:04,057 --> 00:22:08,289 This man has four children. He has four children. 368 00:22:12,899 --> 00:22:14,992 I feel like I'm going in too far. 369 00:22:15,068 --> 00:22:16,501 Pull back! Pull back! 370 00:22:16,570 --> 00:22:19,596 - Pull back! Pull back! - Chief, what am I doing? 371 00:22:19,673 --> 00:22:23,439 Too far in. There's some ST elevation. Try angling more forward. 372 00:22:27,114 --> 00:22:31,210 I got it! I got it! Ray? 373 00:22:33,453 --> 00:22:36,547 That feels good. I can breathe. 374 00:22:36,623 --> 00:22:38,989 He's almost stable! Get ready to cut him out! 375 00:22:39,059 --> 00:22:41,823 All right. All right. 376 00:22:41,895 --> 00:22:45,661 We're gonna get you out of here. We're getting you out of here right now. 377 00:22:47,601 --> 00:22:50,331 - You're bleeding. - It's Ray's blood. 378 00:22:50,404 --> 00:22:52,099 I can see that. 379 00:22:57,344 --> 00:22:59,972 It could use a couple of stitches. 380 00:23:00,047 --> 00:23:03,073 But you stayed calm and focused 381 00:23:03,150 --> 00:23:06,119 and efficient in a very stressful situation. 382 00:23:06,219 --> 00:23:08,187 That's impressive. 383 00:23:09,523 --> 00:23:11,582 I was scared. 384 00:23:11,658 --> 00:23:15,958 You did it anyway. Like I said, impressive. 385 00:23:23,637 --> 00:23:25,935 Do not tell me that there isn't an OR. 386 00:23:26,006 --> 00:23:28,975 This is for the chief. A paramedic's life is on the line. 387 00:23:29,076 --> 00:23:31,636 - You need to find one now. - I'll see where we are. 388 00:23:31,745 --> 00:23:34,578 Dr. Stevens? Thank God. How is he? 389 00:23:34,648 --> 00:23:38,379 I... I believe he's still in surgery. 390 00:23:38,452 --> 00:23:40,613 - But I don't know. - You don't know? 391 00:23:40,721 --> 00:23:44,088 Why don't you? You said that you were gonna keep me informed... 392 00:23:44,191 --> 00:23:47,354 I'm sorry. I'm on another case, but I was gonna check back... 393 00:23:47,427 --> 00:23:50,590 - You're on another case? - I'm sorry. 394 00:23:50,664 --> 00:23:54,498 I have four kids here. I have four terrified children who think that 395 00:23:54,568 --> 00:23:57,128 their dad's gonna die. Did you have instructors 396 00:23:57,204 --> 00:23:59,229 who didn't teach you how to be a doctor, 397 00:23:59,306 --> 00:24:02,867 or really bad parents who didn't teach you how to be a decent human? 398 00:24:03,977 --> 00:24:07,811 - Stevens, OR Two is clearing out now. - Thank you. 399 00:24:07,881 --> 00:24:11,112 My husband, Jacob Nolston, went into surgery hours ago. 400 00:24:11,184 --> 00:24:14,950 Would you please just find someone who can tell me if he's dead or alive? 401 00:24:16,256 --> 00:24:19,089 - She said that? - If you could wait a few more minutes, 402 00:24:19,159 --> 00:24:23,255 you guys can talk to each other. Because things get lost in translation 403 00:24:23,330 --> 00:24:25,958 because this is clearly not a way to have what is 404 00:24:26,032 --> 00:24:30,196 - a very, very important conversation. - It's clearly not very important. 405 00:24:30,303 --> 00:24:32,965 Our marriage is falling apart and she sends you. 406 00:24:33,039 --> 00:24:38,375 Tucker. She's in surgery. 407 00:24:38,445 --> 00:24:41,676 She's literally saving a life and she's gonna be here soon. 408 00:24:41,748 --> 00:24:45,616 She's always saving a person's life. She'll always be here soon. 409 00:24:45,685 --> 00:24:49,246 You go ask her, when exactly is soon gonna come? 410 00:25:01,535 --> 00:25:06,234 Excuse me. You're... You're the one who came to get me. 411 00:25:06,306 --> 00:25:10,140 - Who told me about Stan. - Yes. 412 00:25:10,210 --> 00:25:12,974 - Is Ray? - He's in surgery. 413 00:25:14,447 --> 00:25:16,972 OK. I have to go. 414 00:25:17,050 --> 00:25:19,712 I have to get out of here, so... 415 00:25:21,521 --> 00:25:25,480 Look, can you tell him that I'm sorry? 416 00:25:25,559 --> 00:25:28,687 I can't stay here? I just can't come back here right now? 417 00:25:28,762 --> 00:25:32,220 Ray wanted me to tell you that he's sorry too. 418 00:25:32,299 --> 00:25:34,631 He's sorry he couldn't save Stan. 419 00:25:34,701 --> 00:25:37,829 He wanted me to tell you that in case he didn't make it. 420 00:25:40,540 --> 00:25:44,306 - You think he's not gonna make it? - I hope he makes it. 421 00:25:44,411 --> 00:25:46,538 But you won't be here, so... 422 00:25:49,049 --> 00:25:50,914 My husband is dead. 423 00:25:52,152 --> 00:25:56,111 He's dead. Somewhere in this hospital. 424 00:25:57,224 --> 00:25:59,988 How am I supposed to stay here? 425 00:26:02,529 --> 00:26:04,690 I don't know. 426 00:26:04,764 --> 00:26:06,891 I don't know. 427 00:26:06,967 --> 00:26:09,458 But I know that if Ray makes it, 428 00:26:09,536 --> 00:26:12,869 he's gonna wake up and he's gonna have no one. 429 00:26:12,939 --> 00:26:16,705 And you're gonna go home and you're gonna have... 430 00:26:16,776 --> 00:26:18,141 No one. 431 00:26:18,211 --> 00:26:22,739 I think it's better to have someone. Even if it hurts. 432 00:26:22,816 --> 00:26:25,751 Even if it's the most painful thing you have to do. 433 00:26:25,819 --> 00:26:29,448 Even if it's the most painful thing you've ever had to do. 434 00:26:29,522 --> 00:26:33,618 I think it's better to have someone. 435 00:26:33,693 --> 00:26:36,662 See this skin, O'Malley? 436 00:26:36,730 --> 00:26:39,699 It looks a little jagged. 437 00:26:39,799 --> 00:26:44,361 Does it look jagged to you? Because if it is, jagged, 438 00:26:44,471 --> 00:26:47,497 I'm going to have to reposition the incision 439 00:26:47,574 --> 00:26:50,008 so that it approximates more correctly. 440 00:26:50,076 --> 00:26:54,012 If I do that, this man's swastika tattoo 441 00:26:54,080 --> 00:26:56,947 might be unrecognizable. 442 00:26:59,886 --> 00:27:04,550 - Yeah, it's a little jagged. - I thought so too. 443 00:27:06,860 --> 00:27:10,091 - He left, right? - Yes, he left. 444 00:27:12,699 --> 00:27:14,132 Ten-blade. 445 00:27:16,970 --> 00:27:20,804 More lap pads, Stevens. Pack them all around the heart. 446 00:27:26,680 --> 00:27:28,170 Suction. 447 00:27:30,250 --> 00:27:32,480 Come on, Ray. Fight. 448 00:27:33,987 --> 00:27:39,220 You will not die. You will not die. 449 00:27:39,292 --> 00:27:43,422 You will not die. You will not die. 450 00:27:43,496 --> 00:27:45,430 You will not die. 451 00:27:52,172 --> 00:27:55,608 Don't do this, Mary. Come on, don't do this. 452 00:27:55,675 --> 00:27:58,235 I need more light. Can I get more light? 453 00:28:00,046 --> 00:28:01,741 Come on! 454 00:28:01,815 --> 00:28:03,783 - He's coding. - Come on. 455 00:28:03,850 --> 00:28:06,341 Live, please live. Please. 456 00:28:08,121 --> 00:28:09,452 Please live. 457 00:28:24,871 --> 00:28:28,568 He looks bad. He looks really bad. 458 00:28:28,641 --> 00:28:32,975 His heart was severely damaged. And his lungs were compromised. 459 00:28:33,046 --> 00:28:36,709 But he's young and strong and our hope is that he'll be just fine. 460 00:28:53,233 --> 00:28:54,791 Ray? 461 00:28:57,137 --> 00:28:58,695 Ray? 462 00:29:01,508 --> 00:29:03,169 I'm here. 463 00:29:14,721 --> 00:29:17,485 Well, your liver had more damage than we saw on the CT 464 00:29:17,557 --> 00:29:19,991 and then we found a perforation in your bowel. 465 00:29:20,060 --> 00:29:23,621 But we took care of it all, and you should have a full recovery. 466 00:29:23,696 --> 00:29:25,755 Not a full recovery. 467 00:29:27,333 --> 00:29:30,564 Dr. Bail... She did this on purpose, right? 468 00:29:31,671 --> 00:29:34,765 I don't understand. You have a black partner, right? 469 00:29:34,841 --> 00:29:36,706 - Yeah. - Mary? 470 00:29:36,776 --> 00:29:39,870 Yeah. Do you know how she is? 471 00:29:39,946 --> 00:29:41,436 Are you two are friends? 472 00:29:43,049 --> 00:29:45,574 Look, I'm not the devil, OK? 473 00:29:46,519 --> 00:29:49,545 I'm just a guy with a belief system. 474 00:29:49,622 --> 00:29:53,388 Mary's a nice girl. We save lives together. That's a good time. 475 00:29:53,460 --> 00:29:56,793 If she wanted to marry my brother, I'd have a problem with that. 476 00:29:56,863 --> 00:29:59,730 But so would a lot of people. 477 00:29:59,799 --> 00:30:03,428 I'm not that much different than most of the people that you know. 478 00:30:05,672 --> 00:30:08,300 Well, Dr. Bailey did save your life today. 479 00:30:08,374 --> 00:30:11,639 A black woman saved your life at a great personal cost. 480 00:30:11,711 --> 00:30:14,874 Next time you're looking at your tattoo and you're thinking 481 00:30:14,981 --> 00:30:18,439 how much better white guys are than everyone, think about that. 482 00:30:18,518 --> 00:30:22,545 Because between you and me? If I had been alone in that OR, 483 00:30:22,622 --> 00:30:27,286 you'd probably be dead right now. And, since we're sharing belief systems, 484 00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:31,421 I believe if you were dead, the world would be a better place. 485 00:30:43,209 --> 00:30:45,268 How's he doing? 486 00:30:45,345 --> 00:30:49,805 He's OK. Surgery was pretty hairy. He blew a graft when we were closing. 487 00:30:49,883 --> 00:30:53,114 - But he's starting to rally. - Good. That's good. 488 00:30:55,355 --> 00:30:58,119 - What are you doing here? - I was just checking... 489 00:30:58,191 --> 00:31:00,489 We did fine without your help. Do you mind? 490 00:31:19,078 --> 00:31:21,638 You're not heading home? 491 00:31:21,714 --> 00:31:25,980 Just easier, at this point, to stay here until Tucker's asleep. 492 00:31:28,855 --> 00:31:31,824 You know, I rose above too today. 493 00:31:31,925 --> 00:31:34,189 - Yes, you did. - You were having a hard day. 494 00:31:34,260 --> 00:31:38,026 You were busy rising above. But so was I. 495 00:31:38,097 --> 00:31:40,361 Which is why I haven't said anything. 496 00:31:40,433 --> 00:31:43,402 But now the day is over and I'm done. 497 00:31:43,469 --> 00:31:47,132 - Excuse me? - Pulling me off of Hahn's surgery 498 00:31:47,207 --> 00:31:51,371 was an abuse of power. You know, you needed help, OK. 499 00:31:51,444 --> 00:31:54,174 But you used me. Because of the color of my skin. 500 00:31:54,247 --> 00:32:00,208 I mean, you compromised the quality of my education because of my color. 501 00:32:00,286 --> 00:32:01,446 I resent it. 502 00:32:15,468 --> 00:32:18,596 - You saved her life. - No, I fixed her brain. 503 00:32:18,671 --> 00:32:22,835 Restored motor skills. A stressful, extremely difficult procedure, but no. 504 00:32:22,909 --> 00:32:24,672 You saved her life. 505 00:32:54,374 --> 00:32:56,501 OK. 506 00:32:56,576 --> 00:32:58,339 Thanks. That was... 507 00:33:00,146 --> 00:33:01,272 OK. 508 00:33:01,347 --> 00:33:04,475 - Your voice is shaking. - I'm an imperfect person. 509 00:33:21,768 --> 00:33:23,668 Are his parents coming? 510 00:33:23,736 --> 00:33:27,900 They're on a plane from California. You gonna wait? 511 00:33:28,007 --> 00:33:29,975 Yeah. I'm gonna wait. 512 00:33:50,763 --> 00:33:53,994 - Hey. - I don't want you to date other people. 513 00:33:54,067 --> 00:33:56,627 It may not be enough for you, but I'm trying here. 514 00:33:56,703 --> 00:34:00,469 So I don't want you to date anybody but me. That's it. 515 00:34:05,178 --> 00:34:10,081 Except... I'm scared as hell to want you. 516 00:34:10,149 --> 00:34:12,310 But here I am wanting you anyway. 517 00:34:12,418 --> 00:34:16,878 And fear means I have something to lose, right? 518 00:34:16,956 --> 00:34:18,446 And I don't want to lose you. 519 00:34:23,596 --> 00:34:26,565 - Meredith. - Don't. Don't say anything. 520 00:34:27,567 --> 00:34:30,695 I'm gonna leave and you can say something tomorrow. 521 00:34:31,838 --> 00:34:33,567 That's progress, right? 522 00:34:46,352 --> 00:34:51,187 Hey. Hey. Hey. Are you? Are you really OK? 523 00:34:51,257 --> 00:34:53,316 Yeah. Yeah. 524 00:34:54,394 --> 00:34:57,022 Alex. Come on. That was intense. 525 00:34:57,096 --> 00:34:59,724 Intense and crazy and just awful. 526 00:34:59,799 --> 00:35:03,098 How can you be OK after a day like that? 527 00:35:03,903 --> 00:35:08,363 Alex. Alex. Why won't you talk to me? 528 00:35:09,575 --> 00:35:11,839 What do you want to talk about, Rebecca? 529 00:35:11,911 --> 00:35:14,072 How a guy almost bled out while I watched? 530 00:35:14,180 --> 00:35:16,671 How I got suspended because you were there? 531 00:35:16,749 --> 00:35:20,776 - Ava. It's Ava. Not Rebecca. - Right. You're playing dress up. 532 00:35:20,853 --> 00:35:24,619 You're here playing dress up. You have a husband, Rebecca. 533 00:35:24,690 --> 00:35:26,954 You have a baby. And I have a life. 534 00:35:27,026 --> 00:35:29,995 That girl you were talking to when playing med student? 535 00:35:30,062 --> 00:35:33,031 I'm screwing her. She might be a bigger wreck than I am, 536 00:35:33,099 --> 00:35:36,330 but she's not married. She's not gonna get me suspended. 537 00:35:36,402 --> 00:35:38,893 She's not pretending to be somebody she's not. 538 00:35:38,971 --> 00:35:41,701 - Alex... - Ask yourself what you're doing here. 539 00:35:41,774 --> 00:35:43,742 Because, I think if you can get honest, 540 00:35:43,810 --> 00:35:46,574 if you could just tell the damn truth for one minute, 541 00:35:46,646 --> 00:35:49,706 I think you have to admit you're not here to talk. 542 00:36:16,909 --> 00:36:19,275 You did a good job today. 543 00:36:19,345 --> 00:36:23,076 That was not easy. What you did was not easy. 544 00:36:23,149 --> 00:36:24,776 It was brave. 545 00:36:28,020 --> 00:36:30,079 We killed him. 546 00:36:31,791 --> 00:36:33,315 The hospital... 547 00:36:36,162 --> 00:36:39,063 Sloan, us... 548 00:36:40,633 --> 00:36:42,260 We were not prepared. 549 00:36:47,173 --> 00:36:49,937 Yeah. 550 00:36:50,009 --> 00:36:52,443 Yeah, that happens sometimes. 551 00:36:52,512 --> 00:36:53,740 That's... 552 00:36:56,182 --> 00:36:58,673 Do you have any idea how backwards that is? 553 00:37:00,786 --> 00:37:02,515 We help more than we hurt. 554 00:37:10,229 --> 00:37:12,129 I have no one. 555 00:37:38,824 --> 00:37:40,985 This is gonna sound bizarre. 556 00:37:42,194 --> 00:37:45,322 I realize, at this point, that this is gonna sound bizarre, 557 00:37:45,398 --> 00:37:49,858 but any chance you people want to get a drink with me? 558 00:37:51,637 --> 00:37:56,006 - Why would we want to do that? - She's saying she needs a friend. 559 00:37:56,108 --> 00:37:58,542 - OK. Fine. Let's drink. - You won't hit on me? 560 00:37:58,611 --> 00:38:01,375 - I can't promise that. - If I say please? 561 00:38:01,447 --> 00:38:03,415 He still can't promise that. 562 00:38:06,919 --> 00:38:08,216 Fine. 563 00:38:21,167 --> 00:38:22,998 Hey. I brought supplies. 564 00:38:36,115 --> 00:38:38,777 Some days, the world seems upside down. 565 00:38:38,851 --> 00:38:40,944 She's got no one. 566 00:38:55,735 --> 00:38:59,296 I'm drinking. 567 00:38:59,372 --> 00:39:00,805 Are you drinking, Lexie? 568 00:39:02,808 --> 00:39:04,935 Yeah. A drink would be good. 569 00:39:21,827 --> 00:39:23,556 Hey. 570 00:39:24,363 --> 00:39:26,490 I was Hahn's right hand today. 571 00:39:29,135 --> 00:39:31,501 That's good, right? That's great. 572 00:39:34,540 --> 00:39:39,239 I think a patient feels better if they know their kids aren't terrified. 573 00:39:39,311 --> 00:39:41,677 They're more likely to pull through surgery 574 00:39:41,747 --> 00:39:44,648 if their wives are not panicked. Those things matter. 575 00:39:44,717 --> 00:39:45,843 Well, they do matter. 576 00:39:47,586 --> 00:39:49,315 I'm never gonna be Cristina. 577 00:39:50,790 --> 00:39:53,350 Not gonna happen. I'm never gonna be Erica Hahn. 578 00:39:53,426 --> 00:39:56,793 I am not kick-ass. 579 00:39:58,764 --> 00:40:00,527 Thank God for that. 580 00:40:10,876 --> 00:40:12,434 I love you. 581 00:40:14,714 --> 00:40:16,545 I love you. 582 00:40:20,386 --> 00:40:22,946 We're not gonna make this work, are we? 583 00:40:26,659 --> 00:40:30,493 Marriage is hard. I mean, even when it's right. 584 00:40:30,563 --> 00:40:31,928 It's hard. 585 00:40:33,532 --> 00:40:37,992 And... the next time I do it, 586 00:40:38,070 --> 00:40:40,095 I just want it to be forever. 587 00:40:43,309 --> 00:40:46,472 And I don't think it's our chemistry. 588 00:40:48,481 --> 00:40:50,972 I think it's our timing. 589 00:40:53,352 --> 00:40:55,684 But I don't think it's our chemistry. 590 00:40:58,124 --> 00:41:00,684 So we're saying maybe someday? 591 00:41:06,298 --> 00:41:09,392 Yeah. Yeah, we're saying maybe someday. 592 00:41:37,363 --> 00:41:39,831 Come on, Izzie. 593 00:41:40,399 --> 00:41:41,661 Dance party. 594 00:41:43,536 --> 00:41:44,696 You want to dance? 595 00:41:48,307 --> 00:41:50,468 I will if you want me to. 596 00:41:50,576 --> 00:41:53,943 And then, somehow, improbably 597 00:41:54,013 --> 00:41:56,504 and when you least expect it, 598 00:41:56,582 --> 00:41:58,846 the world rights itself again.