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Previously on In Treatment...
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I love you.
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I thought it was just an infactuation,
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but it's getting worse.
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You've become the center of my life.
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Laura, I'm your therapist.
I'm not an option.
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I didn't come here for therapy.
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I just need you to write your opinion
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and tell me that I'm perfectly all right
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and tell them that I'm not some person
that flies into cars every day.
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Is that why you came here today, Sophie,
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for me to tell you
that you're all right?
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Is that the test
you're afraid of failing?
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I am going back there.
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To the site where you dropped the bomb?
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To the place
where the children were killed?
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Don't you think
there's a strong desire there to
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atone for your actions?
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Yes to the pregnancy or no?
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To have an abortion or not have it?
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Just fucking say it already.
Tell us what you think.
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- I think you should have an abortion.
- Really?
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Hello, you've reached
the office of Dr. Gina Toll.
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Please leave me a message.
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Gina, it's Paul. Paul Westin.
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- Hello, Gina.
- Hello, Paul.
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I, um...
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I couldn't remember
which entrance to use.
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I was parking the car and I thought,
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"Is it the front entrance or the..."
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You haven't been here in a while.
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Sure.
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Come in.
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What would you like to drink? Coffee?
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No. No no, I'm fine actually.
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That's where I sit.
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Yes, of course.
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Season 1, Episode 5
Synchro: Tagne
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- You look very well, Gina.
- Thank you.
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It's not true but it's nice to hear.
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The hardest part
about turning 60 is that,
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in my mind,
I'm still as energetic as a 30-year-old.
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For six hours,
I have all the energy of a 30-year-old.
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The rest of the day,
I'm an old, tired woman.
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- I can't believe that.
- Would you like a piece of cake?
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It's sugar-free though. Doctor's orders.
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Don't get me started.
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I can't eat anything
that I like these days.
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Cholesterol.
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You know, it's, um...
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It's kind of funny being here again.
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Well, I'm retired now
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so I turned this room into a study.
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Yeah, so I see.
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It's where I do my writing.
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You're writing.
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But what?
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I don't know.
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Maybe an article
or something less formal.
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Maybe something longer.
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I don't know.
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It's strange...
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being here after David.
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How are you coping with that?
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It was probably
the most difficult time of my life,
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coming back home without him.
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He was a remarkable man.
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Yes, he was.
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How about you?
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Oh, me.
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Well, I'm, um...
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I'm working too hard.
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I'm trying to lose this weight. I can't.
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I feel like
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Had one at 30,
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another one at 40 and now
I'm having my third one at 50.
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- How's Kate?
- Kate's good. She's fine.
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- And the kids?
- The kids, well...
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Ian's gone to college. He's at Wesleyan.
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Rosie, well, she's busy being Rosie.
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Rosie.
How old is she now?
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17.
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She's still exactly the same.
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She's still got the world
wrapped around her little finger.
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17.
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And, of course, Max.
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Max is nine.
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Max?
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Kate got pregnant
after we'd last seen each other.
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And so we had Max...
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Everybody's favorite,
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like Joseph and his brothers.
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So he's exactly the age
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Yes, when I stopped coming here, yeah.
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Gina, I...
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I called you last night because, um...
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I really felt that I needed
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It's, um...
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Actually, it's something
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lately but
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only yesterday I really felt
the need that I had to...
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to talk about it.
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I feel that...
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I don't know how to put this
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I'm just losing my patience.
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I'm losing my patience with my patients.
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There are sessions
when I can barely restrain myself
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from having just...
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from an outburst.
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I want to just lock the door some days
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and wish everybody would just go away.
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I have this...
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I have this couple
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for marriage counseling.
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They have one child
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but they have been trying
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So she gets pregnant
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and now she wants to have an abortion.
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I think what she really wants
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is to get rid of the husband
if you ask me.
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But anyway, this guy...
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really got on my nerves yesterday.
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He cornered me.
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He badgered me until I made a decision.
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Should we have an abortion?
Should we not have an abortion?
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I finally said,
"Yes, good, have an abortion."
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As soon as I said it of course
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I regretted it because I knew
that I had spoken in anger but I...
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I couldn't help it. This guy, he just...
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he said some really nasty things to me.
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He called me...
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a murderer.
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I knew he was right the second
it came out of my mouth.
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Of course he was right.
I was sitting there telling him
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to kill his baby.
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But still, I was...
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I know I'm not making much sense but...
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anyway.
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And there's this girl
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who I've been working with for a year.
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There's an issue of erotic transference
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and this came out now.
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Everything is all about this issue
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and I'm thinking to myself, "What..."
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If patients could see
what I think about them,
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if they could really see inside my head,
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they'd head for the hills, believe me.
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They'd run for cover.
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What about new patients?
Are you taking on new patients?
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Yes, I am. I think I take them on
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to prove to myself
that everything is okay.
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I've taken on this guy,
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he's a bomber pilot.
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Cocky,
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arrogant kind of a guy. Macho, you know?
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Flew a mission over Iraq,
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dropped a bomb
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on a school
where 16 children were killed.
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So he comes back, he goes on leave
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and then he runs
for 22 miles without stopping
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and brings a heart attack on to himself.
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So I'm trying to get this guy
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maybe there's a connection
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Anyway, all the time I listen, you know,
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as if it's nothing.
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But inside, I'm just...
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I just find it so...
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so disgusting.
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And there's a girl
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who...
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You're treating a friend
of your daughter's?
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No, she's not a friend.
They're just in the same grade.
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Anyway, this girl...
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idolizes her coach.
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Were you insulted?
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About what?
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That the patient called you a murderer?
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Yes, I was.
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Gina, I know I'm a good therapist.
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I don't know, maybe this week
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I need somebody to just tell me
to calm down,
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tell me that everything's okay,
that everything's all right.
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I remember you said once
that one of our biggest problems
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was that we don't have an audience.
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We don't have anybody
to pat us on the back,
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to approve of what we're doing.
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Somebody that you can go to and say,
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"Did you see how I maneuvered
that person into that situation?
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"Did you see how I got him
to say what I wanted him to?"
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What I meant was,
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is that we have no one to criticize us,
no one to review us.
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I'm beginning to feel anxious
before sessions and I...
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I must admit that I thought
something was going on
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at home when you called.
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At home? Why?
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Because it's been almost 10 years
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since I last heard from you.
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The last time you were here,
you were so angry.
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You didn't even come to the funeral.
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I thought,
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"How angry he must be.
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"He didn't even come
to David's funeral."
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And I'm really sorry about that, Gina.
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I had...
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I was gonna come
but I felt that it was...
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I felt it was inappropriate.
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Then you call me out of the blue.
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Yes, because I needed somebody
to talk to.
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You were the one who chose
to stop having a supervisor.
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You said...
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I interfered
with your practice,
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that instead of guiding
I was interfering.
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Yes, I said that.
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But then there are times
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when a supervisor has to take a stand.
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In your case I felt
I had to take a stand.
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I had to interfere.
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But that's not the way I feel now.
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I mean, that's ancient history.
Why do we have to go there?
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Anyway, whatever happened,
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I always felt that
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you were somebody professionally
I could...
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I could at least talk to.
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Me? I'm already retired.
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Oh, I forgot, yes.
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You're writing your memoires.
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No. No no no.
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I thought that's what you meant
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when you said that you were writing.
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Why, are you afraid
I'll write about you?
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I think there's way too many
autobiographies anyway.
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Who cares?
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Maybe somebody like Bob Dylan,
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I'd be curious about that, but...
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How many people like him
are out there?
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I'm trying to write a novel.
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Oh yeah?
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Wow, that's...
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I don't know, we'll see.
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I've given myself a year to write.
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I don't know what else to say
about it right now.
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I don't know.
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Kate and I,
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we...
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we just argue nonstop.
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I think it's beginning
to affect my work.
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What do you mean you argue?
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Well, it's always about
something insignificant,
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something trivial that triggers it off.
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This time it was about Max
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and being asked to go to these classes
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for gifted children, which I just...
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- Is Max gifted?
- He's very very smart, yeah.
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Well then, what do you fight about?
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She knows how I feel about this.
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I have said it over and over again.
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I am against the idea of it.
What does she do?
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Behind my back, she takes Max to this...
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to this class without telling me.
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- And, you know, they decide that...
- Who are they?
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This principal and... and Kate.
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This girl...
she's barely out of college,
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she barely knows my son's name...
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Pontificating,
telling me how I should raise my kid.
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And Kate and I start to argue about...
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about that and then that leads onto
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other stuff and then
we end up and it's like,
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"Oh, you care so much
about your patients.
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"If you cared as much about your family
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as you cared about your patients,
then it would..."
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- Kate said that?
- Yes.
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Yes.
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She says I don't love her...
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That I'm always trying
to be a step ahead of her,
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that I handle her like a patient.
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She says the thing
that she hates the most
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is that I see it all from a distance.
280
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What do you mean, "it"?
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Her, us, it.
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She says that when it comes to us,
283
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I'll never have any perspective.
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She's right, isn't she?
285
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But I can't help but see it
from a perspective.
286
00:14:47,414 --> 00:14:49,064
And all I can see is...
287
00:14:50,725 --> 00:14:52,435
all I can see is rupture.
288
00:14:52,795 --> 00:14:54,659
What do you mean, "rupture"?
289
00:14:58,287 --> 00:15:00,437
Are you trying to shrink me, Gina?
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Sorry.
291
00:15:08,852 --> 00:15:10,621
And yet you were here for eight years.
292
00:15:11,349 --> 00:15:12,750
Yes, what does that mean?
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You were under my counseling.
294
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Eight years, I took care of you.
295
00:15:17,539 --> 00:15:19,255
You find that difficult to accept?
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00:15:21,163 --> 00:15:23,413
I was your audience for eight years.
297
00:15:25,785 --> 00:15:28,855
Maybe I shouldn't have told you
all this stuff about...
298
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About Kate.
299
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Maybe it's just because
I'm exhausted. I am
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00:15:34,304 --> 00:15:35,312
wiped out.
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And I'm just afraid that
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because of that,
something that will happen,
303
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that I'll lose control.
304
00:15:46,817 --> 00:15:47,601
Anyway,
305
00:15:47,850 --> 00:15:51,106
we didn't come here to talk
about Kate... though, of course,
306
00:15:51,226 --> 00:15:53,664
just before I came here
we had a big fight on the phone.
307
00:15:54,280 --> 00:15:56,702
You keep saying you didn't come here
to talk about Kate
308
00:15:56,822 --> 00:15:59,394
- but you keep talking about her.
- That's because you make me
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00:15:59,514 --> 00:16:01,273
- talk about her.
- I'm not doing anything.
310
00:16:01,393 --> 00:16:03,587
It's been eight years,
and I'm trying to catch up.
311
00:16:03,707 --> 00:16:04,900
Gina, I'm not stupid.
312
00:16:05,020 --> 00:16:07,045
There's always a reason with you,
so don't...
313
00:16:07,165 --> 00:16:09,726
Don't tell me we're having
a nice cozy conversation here
314
00:16:09,846 --> 00:16:11,396
about my married life.
315
00:16:19,628 --> 00:16:21,178
What do you wanna do?
316
00:16:22,798 --> 00:16:25,696
We could get together a couple of times
and see how it goes.
317
00:16:28,125 --> 00:16:29,125
Okay.
318
00:16:30,628 --> 00:16:32,378
Is this time good for you?
319
00:16:32,502 --> 00:16:34,241
Yeah, it's fine.
320
00:16:37,000 --> 00:16:38,751
May I say something before we go on?
321
00:16:39,897 --> 00:16:41,502
What about? Kate?
322
00:16:41,999 --> 00:16:44,715
There's a sadness
when you talk about her...
323
00:16:44,875 --> 00:16:46,025
In your voice.
324
00:16:46,461 --> 00:16:48,739
There's something very sad about it.
325
00:17:03,564 --> 00:17:06,214
I don't know
where she is most of the time.
326
00:17:09,280 --> 00:17:12,278
She tells me that
she's going to the gym and I...
327
00:17:14,623 --> 00:17:16,338
I look in her closet and...
328
00:17:18,065 --> 00:17:19,715
her gear is still there.
329
00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:23,322
And I say to myself,
"Oh, you know, she's...
330
00:17:23,442 --> 00:17:27,383
"she's probably got
another set of running shoes."
331
00:17:30,314 --> 00:17:31,864
When I call her cell,
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00:17:33,418 --> 00:17:34,768
she never answers.
333
00:17:38,104 --> 00:17:39,154
I let it go.
334
00:17:40,188 --> 00:17:43,002
Usually in the evening,
we're too tired and
335
00:17:43,231 --> 00:17:45,943
so a week later I'll suddenly say,
336
00:17:46,419 --> 00:17:48,469
"Where were you last Wednesday?"
337
00:17:50,417 --> 00:17:52,407
And she'll look at me like I'm...
338
00:17:52,568 --> 00:17:53,669
I'm crazy.
339
00:17:56,569 --> 00:17:57,665
And then...
340
00:18:00,105 --> 00:18:01,105
Sex.
341
00:18:03,166 --> 00:18:05,016
Sex is out of the question.
342
00:18:05,792 --> 00:18:07,430
Once a month if I'm lucky.
343
00:18:08,101 --> 00:18:09,451
She hardly ever...
344
00:18:12,978 --> 00:18:14,128
initiates it.
345
00:18:17,105 --> 00:18:19,855
I can't remember
the last time she wanted it.
346
00:18:20,917 --> 00:18:22,167
What about you?
347
00:18:22,730 --> 00:18:23,855
Do you want to?
348
00:18:24,651 --> 00:18:26,678
I think about it all the time.
349
00:18:31,678 --> 00:18:32,739
What would you say
350
00:18:32,900 --> 00:18:36,180
if somebody came to you
with a story like mine?
351
00:18:36,604 --> 00:18:37,754
I don't know.
352
00:18:38,974 --> 00:18:40,541
We're talking about you and Kate.
353
00:18:40,661 --> 00:18:42,291
We're not speculating about a patient.
354
00:18:45,793 --> 00:18:48,743
Do you want me to say
that she's having an affair?
355
00:18:51,291 --> 00:18:53,441
Because I don't know where she is,
356
00:18:53,978 --> 00:18:55,637
because of her running shoes?
357
00:18:57,004 --> 00:18:58,497
I always ask myself,
358
00:18:59,103 --> 00:19:02,753
"If they were to diagnose therapists
whose marriages fell apart,
359
00:19:03,420 --> 00:19:06,315
"how many cases of erotic transference
would they find?"
360
00:19:08,353 --> 00:19:09,809
What does that mean?
361
00:19:10,789 --> 00:19:13,297
That sometimes erotic transference
in therapy
362
00:19:13,417 --> 00:19:15,467
is a test of your married life.
363
00:19:16,351 --> 00:19:18,486
If a therapist can't handle a situation
364
00:19:18,606 --> 00:19:20,546
where his patient
falls in love with him,
365
00:19:20,666 --> 00:19:23,423
it may indicate some breakdown
in his private life.
366
00:19:23,543 --> 00:19:26,993
Yes, but I don't think my marriage
to Kate is falling apart.
367
00:19:27,113 --> 00:19:29,624
Yes, I had a row with Laura...
368
00:19:29,744 --> 00:19:31,173
I mean with Kate.
369
00:19:31,453 --> 00:19:33,341
Whose Laura? Rosie's friend?
370
00:19:35,732 --> 00:19:37,919
The girl with the issue of
371
00:19:38,236 --> 00:19:39,938
of erotic transference.
372
00:19:41,165 --> 00:19:42,851
You didn't mention her by name.
373
00:19:44,181 --> 00:19:45,521
You just said it had come up.
374
00:19:46,293 --> 00:19:47,293
Okay.
375
00:19:48,418 --> 00:19:49,868
She told me that...
376
00:19:51,478 --> 00:19:53,608
She told me that she's in love with me
377
00:19:53,728 --> 00:19:56,323
and that she wants to sleep with me.
378
00:19:56,789 --> 00:19:57,616
Okay.
379
00:19:58,781 --> 00:19:59,731
Okay, what?
380
00:19:59,977 --> 00:20:01,982
Are you saying that Kate felt that
381
00:20:02,102 --> 00:20:03,908
and that's where our tensions come from?
382
00:20:04,028 --> 00:20:05,798
Good material for your novel, Gina.
383
00:20:05,918 --> 00:20:07,550
Come on, you know that
384
00:20:07,670 --> 00:20:09,551
therapists get divorced
like everybody else.
385
00:20:09,671 --> 00:20:11,483
Please don't draw any conclusions,
386
00:20:11,603 --> 00:20:13,853
because there are none to be drawn.
387
00:20:14,977 --> 00:20:17,421
Besides, my troubles at home
didn't begin last week
388
00:20:17,541 --> 00:20:18,636
or last month.
389
00:20:19,112 --> 00:20:20,764
How would you say her therapy is going?
390
00:20:21,084 --> 00:20:22,099
Whose therapy?
391
00:20:23,476 --> 00:20:26,597
You said, talking about your sessions,
that you...
392
00:20:27,818 --> 00:20:30,295
cut things short,
you have no patience,
393
00:20:30,415 --> 00:20:33,003
that you often feel guilty
about your behavior.
394
00:20:33,123 --> 00:20:34,611
Is that true also with Linda?
395
00:20:35,241 --> 00:20:35,988
Laura.
396
00:20:36,373 --> 00:20:37,454
Sorry, Laura.
397
00:20:37,574 --> 00:20:39,479
Look, Gina, you know that
398
00:20:39,694 --> 00:20:42,660
patients fall for their therapists
every few seconds.
399
00:20:43,105 --> 00:20:45,069
What better way is there to air this
400
00:20:45,189 --> 00:20:48,339
than to bring it to the surface
and put it out there?
401
00:20:48,997 --> 00:20:51,175
You know,
this room is supposed to be safe zone
402
00:20:51,295 --> 00:20:54,548
where we can open things up and
talk about things in a controlled way.
403
00:20:55,186 --> 00:20:57,436
Just to make things perfectly clear,
404
00:20:58,061 --> 00:21:00,511
this is transference, plain and simple.
405
00:21:02,062 --> 00:21:04,695
Of course you and Mitchell
and your New York gang
406
00:21:04,815 --> 00:21:06,165
have idealized it.
407
00:21:09,565 --> 00:21:11,857
Gina, I didn't come here
to talk about a patient.
408
00:21:12,249 --> 00:21:14,756
I think you did come here
to talk about Laura.
409
00:21:14,876 --> 00:21:16,987
Instead, you keep talking about Kate.
410
00:21:17,749 --> 00:21:19,699
You mentioned to me, offhand,
411
00:21:20,001 --> 00:21:22,562
that there's an issue
of erotic transference,
412
00:21:22,903 --> 00:21:24,502
and instead of focusing on that,
413
00:21:24,622 --> 00:21:28,005
you go on to tell me about a couple,
a class for gifted children,
414
00:21:28,125 --> 00:21:30,631
a new girl who goes to school
with your daughter.
415
00:21:30,751 --> 00:21:33,401
So what are you trying to prove here,
Paul?
416
00:21:33,968 --> 00:21:35,529
That you won't talk about her?
417
00:21:35,649 --> 00:21:38,383
About Laura?
That you can avoid talking about her?
418
00:21:38,751 --> 00:21:39,944
You know what, Gina?
419
00:21:40,064 --> 00:21:42,442
I think this was a mistake,
coming here today.
420
00:21:44,058 --> 00:21:46,304
- I think I'd better leave.
- Why?
421
00:21:46,424 --> 00:21:49,937
Because you twist everything
into your own preconceived notions...
422
00:21:50,097 --> 00:21:51,949
Was there physical contact?
423
00:21:52,622 --> 00:21:53,374
No.
424
00:21:53,725 --> 00:21:55,484
You hesitated before you answered.
425
00:21:55,644 --> 00:21:57,595
Because I'm shocked
at where this is going.
426
00:21:57,798 --> 00:21:59,677
What do you think I did?
Sleep with this girl
427
00:21:59,797 --> 00:22:01,823
and then come here to confess to you?
428
00:22:02,067 --> 00:22:03,954
- When did it happen?
- When did what happen?
429
00:22:04,074 --> 00:22:06,411
Nothing happened.
I keep telling you nothing happened.
430
00:22:06,572 --> 00:22:07,650
No. No no no.
431
00:22:08,260 --> 00:22:10,249
- What did she say to you?
- She said...
432
00:22:11,185 --> 00:22:12,376
she was in love with me.
433
00:22:12,536 --> 00:22:14,622
That was just last Monday.
434
00:22:15,743 --> 00:22:16,741
This week?
435
00:22:17,189 --> 00:22:18,189
Yes.
436
00:22:19,187 --> 00:22:20,187
Yes.
437
00:22:23,351 --> 00:22:24,888
What is it you want me to say, Paul?
438
00:22:25,113 --> 00:22:27,517
You know, Ginie.
You're making it really difficult for me
439
00:22:27,637 --> 00:22:30,294
to come back here to ask you for help,
reminding me all the time
440
00:22:30,414 --> 00:22:33,105
about how long it's been
since I've been here, why I left,
441
00:22:33,265 --> 00:22:36,091
how I felt, how you felt...
blah blah blah.
442
00:22:36,415 --> 00:22:38,402
Was I that big a disappointment to you?
443
00:22:38,732 --> 00:22:42,071
Because I didn't stay your loyal intern
forever and ever?
444
00:22:42,233 --> 00:22:44,532
I'm just trying to understand what it is
445
00:22:44,652 --> 00:22:46,076
you're trying to tell me.
446
00:22:46,411 --> 00:22:49,496
I'm trying to understand what moves
you're trying to make.
447
00:22:49,861 --> 00:22:53,619
- What moves I'm trying to make?
- What are you looking for?
448
00:22:54,263 --> 00:22:55,123
Legitimacy?
449
00:22:55,483 --> 00:22:57,004
Legitimacy for what?
450
00:22:57,596 --> 00:22:59,860
- How old is this girl?
- She's...
451
00:23:00,396 --> 00:23:02,152
I don't know... 30, 29.
452
00:23:02,479 --> 00:23:04,970
I just wonder,
when you talk about feeling guilty,
453
00:23:05,445 --> 00:23:08,792
is it about your patients
generally that you feel guilty?
454
00:23:08,912 --> 00:23:11,018
Or is it about one patient
in particular?
455
00:23:11,178 --> 00:23:13,012
Oh, give me a break, Gina.
456
00:23:16,103 --> 00:23:18,108
God, I hope your novel
doesn't sink this low.
457
00:23:18,440 --> 00:23:19,735
What's bugging you so much?
458
00:23:20,119 --> 00:23:21,082
You are.
459
00:23:21,314 --> 00:23:22,068
You.
460
00:23:22,855 --> 00:23:25,407
It's unbelievable how much
you're enjoying yourself.
461
00:23:25,730 --> 00:23:28,169
Erotic transference
happens all the time.
462
00:23:28,289 --> 00:23:31,110
It's simply a question
of how one deals with it.
463
00:23:31,230 --> 00:23:33,040
Now I know how to deal with it.
464
00:23:34,354 --> 00:23:36,404
Can you honestly say to yourself
465
00:23:37,143 --> 00:23:38,983
that her falling in love with you
466
00:23:39,103 --> 00:23:41,213
is just a part of her healing process?
467
00:23:41,476 --> 00:23:43,425
And that it has nothing to do with you?
468
00:23:45,877 --> 00:23:47,667
Maybe you're a little worried
469
00:23:47,923 --> 00:23:50,096
because of your family history...
470
00:23:50,885 --> 00:23:53,170
- That it could go too far.
- Gina...
471
00:23:53,290 --> 00:23:55,812
Timing, dosage, tact,
you're failing in all three.
472
00:23:55,972 --> 00:23:57,439
I'm not my father.
473
00:23:57,599 --> 00:23:59,506
My father was a doctor.
474
00:23:59,626 --> 00:24:01,509
He left the house
of one of his patients.
475
00:24:01,629 --> 00:24:04,163
We're talking about a girl
who has a crush on her therapist.
476
00:24:04,283 --> 00:24:06,907
It's a completely different thing
and you know damn well it is.
477
00:24:07,027 --> 00:24:09,858
You should get counseling
regarding this Linda.
478
00:24:09,978 --> 00:24:10,786
Laura.
479
00:24:11,103 --> 00:24:12,605
Sorry, Laura.
480
00:24:12,899 --> 00:24:15,165
Let's not call it counseling.
Let's call it talking.
481
00:24:15,553 --> 00:24:18,101
Laura... Laura is her name.
482
00:24:19,034 --> 00:24:20,959
God, you're so caught up
in your little theories
483
00:24:21,079 --> 00:24:23,437
that you don't even remember her name.
484
00:24:28,038 --> 00:24:29,304
Why don't you ask her?
485
00:24:30,854 --> 00:24:31,854
Ask who?
486
00:24:32,239 --> 00:24:34,142
- Kate.
- What, if she's seeing somebody?
487
00:24:36,572 --> 00:24:38,146
That would make you happy, I bet.
488
00:24:38,415 --> 00:24:41,523
I think you should ask her
instead of driving yourself crazy.
489
00:24:41,643 --> 00:24:44,694
- I'm not driving myself crazy.
- Are you afraid to find out it's true?
490
00:24:45,021 --> 00:24:47,072
- Yes, I am.
- But you're convinced it's not.
491
00:24:47,411 --> 00:24:48,403
Correct.
492
00:24:49,812 --> 00:24:52,464
Why did these questions make you
so angry?
493
00:24:53,606 --> 00:24:56,540
I'll tell you why:
because you are not being helpful.
494
00:24:58,230 --> 00:24:59,230
Helpful.
495
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:04,790
Now I'm totally confused.
496
00:25:05,729 --> 00:25:07,479
I mean, did you come here
497
00:25:08,165 --> 00:25:10,303
to ask for my guidance?
498
00:25:11,291 --> 00:25:13,180
Or to talk to me as a friend?
499
00:25:13,537 --> 00:25:15,987
Are you seeking advice from a colleague?
500
00:25:16,291 --> 00:25:18,341
What role have you assigned me?
501
00:25:19,604 --> 00:25:22,254
I'm trying to figure it out
but I'm failing!
502
00:25:35,489 --> 00:25:36,665
Listen, Paul...
503
00:25:40,854 --> 00:25:42,704
It's not easy for me either,
504
00:25:43,353 --> 00:25:45,304
seeing you after all this time.
505
00:25:46,540 --> 00:25:49,109
You walked through that door
after everything that happened
506
00:25:49,229 --> 00:25:50,979
as though it was nothing.
507
00:25:53,794 --> 00:25:55,055
It was confusing.
508
00:25:56,747 --> 00:25:58,843
I couldn't think of anybody else
509
00:25:59,666 --> 00:26:00,603
to talk to.
510
00:26:03,299 --> 00:26:05,104
You know what bothers me?
511
00:26:05,603 --> 00:26:07,358
When I walked through the door,
512
00:26:07,478 --> 00:26:09,778
I felt that you looked at me with glee.
513
00:26:10,228 --> 00:26:12,324
And you thought,
"Oh, here he comes again...
514
00:26:12,485 --> 00:26:14,500
"Paul, the failure."
515
00:26:15,727 --> 00:26:16,877
And I thought,
516
00:26:17,042 --> 00:26:20,248
"She's been sitting here
like a sleepy old spider, just waiting,
517
00:26:20,854 --> 00:26:23,504
"waiting for something like this
to happen."
518
00:26:24,167 --> 00:26:26,819
Look at you. You've woken up.
519
00:26:27,790 --> 00:26:30,060
You're full of life.
520
00:26:39,978 --> 00:26:42,937
If that's the way you feel,
maybe we shouldn't meet.
521
00:26:46,981 --> 00:26:47,981
Yeah.
522
00:26:48,526 --> 00:26:50,529
Maybe it wasn't such
a good idea after all.
523
00:26:55,994 --> 00:26:57,379
You should get...
524
00:26:58,540 --> 00:27:00,990
professional help regarding this Laura.
525
00:27:02,560 --> 00:27:03,583
I don't need it.
526
00:27:05,417 --> 00:27:06,585
I think you do.
527
00:27:09,105 --> 00:27:11,675
In any case, if you feel like talking,
call me.
528
00:27:14,792 --> 00:27:18,342
I wouldn't be waiting on the end
of a telephone if I was you.
529
00:27:20,662 --> 00:27:23,448
Why do these questions
make you so angry?
530
00:27:23,914 --> 00:27:25,864
I'm not angry. I'm really not.
531
00:27:28,718 --> 00:27:30,026
Why are you running away?
532
00:27:31,025 --> 00:27:32,404
I'm not running away, Gina.
533
00:27:37,357 --> 00:27:38,907
Give my best to Kate.
534
00:27:40,604 --> 00:27:41,495
I will.
535
00:27:42,978 --> 00:27:46,125
Talk to her about it.
It'll make things easier for you.
536
00:27:49,025 --> 00:27:50,455
Good night, Gina.