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Previously on In Treatment.

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I really don't remember what happened.
I was on my bicycle

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- and a car ran into me.
- What did they tell you afterwards?

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That I flew my bike right into the street.

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I need a psychiatrist's opinion
because the insurance company

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of the car that hit me
has a problem with my injuries.

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How do you get on with your dad?

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He's the only person in this world
who truly loves me.

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- The only one except Cy.
- Who's Cy?

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This is Cy. He's my coach.

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(Rain falling)

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(Thunder)

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(Phone rings)

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Hello.

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- (Man) Sophie.
- Stop the car.

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- (Man) Calm down.
- I wanna get out.

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- Did you hear what I said?
- (Man) Just calm down.

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- I wanna walk.
- (Man) It's pouring.

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(Sophie) I don't care if it's raining,
I wanna walk.

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- (Man) No. It's too far to walk.
- Fine.

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(Man) Sophie. Sophie.
(Car door shuts)

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(Beeping)

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(Sighs)

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- (Paul) Are you...
- I'm fine. I'm fine.

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Cy says you have to experience the rain,
so... I've experienced it.

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- I'll get you some dry clothes.
- I'm fine.

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Really? Are you sure
you wouldn't be more comfortable if...

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Wait a second.

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(Opens door)

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(Receding footsteps)

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(Footsteps)

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There we go.

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- Are they your daughter's?
- Mm-hm.

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- Well, did you ask her if it was OK?
- No, but I'm sure she won't mind.

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I'll put yours in the dryer

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and they'll be ready
by the end of the session.

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Well, you'll have to help me.

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I haven't gotten dressed on my own
since my accident.

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Are you gonna help me here or not?

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Ever hear of an umbrella, kiddo?
My goodness.

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Sweetheart, look at you.
You're just all skin and bones, aren't you?

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OK, I will have these dry for you
before you leave.

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How on earth do you manage
with two broken arms?

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I don't.

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What, one arm wasn't enough for you, huh?

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OK.

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I broke my arm when I was twelve
roller-skating,

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and the best thing was
that I got to whack my little brother

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in the head with my cast
when he was bugging me,

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which was pretty much all the time.

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All right, so your shoes...

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- She's cool.
- Kate?

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Yeah.

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She's awesome.

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Sure.

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You could learn a lot from your wife
about how to talk to people.

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I wish I could take her with me to the gym.

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She could tell everyone the truth.

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Who do you want her to tell the truth to?

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Did you write my evaluation?

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No. Did you?

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What the fuck? Why didn't you?

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That's why I'm here.
That's all I need from you,

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that stupid evaluation.

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Actually, I don't think I know you
quite well enough yet, Sophie.

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So why didn't you write yours?

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Well, I tried...

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with my dad but...
he's too busy with his exhibition.

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- Oh, he's an artist?
- A photographer.

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He hates the word artist.

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He always has his exhibitions at home
because he's against galleries.

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Anyway, he said it was totally unprofessional
for me to write my own evaluation

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and that you sound like a quack.

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(Chuckles)

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Are you a quack?

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No. I am not a quack, I promise.

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Then I tried to write it with my mom
and that didn't work, obviously.

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- Why do you say obviously?
- Because she's a total tool.

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- And a retard.
- A tool and a retard.

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Yeah. We got in a fight.

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I was like, "I so don't need this right now."

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So I left.

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I went to this apartment near the gym

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where the foreign girls stay.

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I told them my parents were going out of town,

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so they let me crash there.

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And then I tried to get Cy to help me write it,

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but he's too busy getting everyone ready
to leave for training camp, so...

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I didn't do it.

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So why did you and your mom get into a fight,

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trying to write the evaluation together?

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- Well, she actually wanted to write it for me.
- Oh.

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And I was like,
"No, Mom, I can do it myself."

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And she's like, "We'll be here
till the next Olympics."

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And I was, like, "Bite me." So I left.

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So you didn't want her to write it,

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you just wanted her to help you,
what, phrase it?

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Doesn't matter.
We got in a fight for a change.

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But this time, Sophie...
(Clears throat) you left home.

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- So?
- Have you done that before?

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- No.
- So something was different

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about this particular fight.

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What do you think it was that was different?

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Did you... Did you come from home

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or did you come from the gym today?

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- The gym.
- The gym. Is that far away?

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That's why I was late.

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Sophie...

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before you arrived, I, um...

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I got a phone call and, um...

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I heard you asking somebody
to let you out of the car.

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Um, well, I...

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I tried to call you to tell you
that I was on my way

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but, um, then I figured that we were,
like, five minutes away, so...

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I thought I hung up
before the call went through.

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- Was that your father?
- You could have hung up.

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Or do you always eavesdrop
on people's conversations?

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If you were my patient,
I'd ask if it was a coincidence

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- that I overheard that.
- But I'm not your patient.

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I wouldn't see a therapist
who I thought was an eavesdropper.

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I'd be outta here.

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- Did your dad bring you?
- I told you I had a fight with him.

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I thought you said you had a fight
with your mom?

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It's really none of your business
who I came here with.

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Earlier on, you said that you'd like Kate
to go to the gym with you.

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What would you like Kate
to tell the girls at the gym?

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- Your daughter's clothes are gross.
- (Chuckles)

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Why is that funny?

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- Well, why are they gross?
- They're hideous.

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OK.

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I'm really not getting
my evaluation today, am I?

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This is stupid.

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I should go. Are my clothes dry yet?

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- I wouldn't think so.
- Well, can you check?

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And call Kate because I need her
to help me put them back on.

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You people are such tools.
I can't believe you get paid for this.

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Why didn't you tell me before
that you heard my conversation?

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- I was waiting for you to tell me.
- So now I'm a liar too?

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I didn't say you were a liar, Sophie.

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It's what you're thinking.

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Why do you need Kate
to go to the gym with you?

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I don't need her to.

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Can I ask you something?

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How do you get along
with the girls at the gym?

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They're assholes, OK? All of them.

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The whole place reeks of hypocrisy.

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Did you know, like, every girl there
is a Mia or an Ana except me?

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They know it. They just don't
do anything about it.

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- They encourage it.
- These girls, Ana and Mia,

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- are they friends of yours?
- You don't know these girls?

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They're fun girls, especially Ana.

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Rexic?

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Anorexic.

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OK. And Mia? Bulimia?

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- You're sharp as a tack.
- Thank you.

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So the girls at the gym are anorexic
or bulimic, except for you.

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You can't keep your weight down otherwise.

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If you're not skinny, you can't compete,
so you have no choice. You have to.

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- Who says you can't compete?
- Cy and Regina.

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Regina's our physical trainer.

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Oh.

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All the girls follow Cy around
like little groupie sluts.

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"Cy, was that OK?"

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"Cy, can you show me
how to do that move?"

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"Cy, I'm about to fall. Quick, put your hands
between my legs." (Chuckles)

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But not Regina, cos she's Russian,
so her bullshit detector is, like, nuclear.

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And, at the end of the day,
Cy and Regina decide everything.

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Who competes, who's gained weight
and can't compete.

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Mm.

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After my accident, Karen Scott
and Audrey England came to visit me.

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They had these pathetic looks on their faces,
like they felt my pain.

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But I knew they were happy.

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I'd be happy if something happened to them
right before the Olympic tryouts.

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Honestly, if it was me,

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I would have done what Shirley did.

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She didn't even come.

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Me and her,
we're, like, the best ones there by far.

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It's like she was saying,
"Drop dead, for all I care.

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"Just get out of my face."

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At least that's honest.

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Mm.

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(Dog barking outside)

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So they're leaving tomorrow
for training camp in California

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and I have nowhere to go.

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They won't let me stay
at the apartment by myself.

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They promised Cy I could go,
even though I can't train,

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but now he says they've changed their minds.

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- Who's they?
- The sponsors.

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The money people.

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Anyway, I picked a fight with him.

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That's what you heard on the phone.
It wasn't his fault.

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Why is it so important for you
to go with them?

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- To the camp?
- Mm-hm.

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Everyone'll be there.

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You mean, Karen, Audrey and Shirley?

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But you said you can't stand them.

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You said you don't even like them
and you can't train anyway,

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- so why is it so important to you?
- It's not important.

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But I was looking forward to it.

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It sounds like, um, you and Cy are, uh...

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- You're very close.
- No.

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Can you tell that over the phone?

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You said he wanted to take you to camp...

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despite the fact that you had an injury,
and didn't he drive you here?

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It was on his way.

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He wants me to come to the camp
to watch the training

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so I don't lose focus.

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But no. He couldn't make them
pay for Darlene either.

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- Darlene?
- Cy's wife.

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She has to pay her own way and Dana's too.

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Dana's the little girl you used to baby-sit?

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- Why did you stop?
- Who told you I stopped?

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Did I tell you that last week?

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- You have a good memory for an old fart.
- (Laughs)

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Thank you.

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So why did you stop?

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They didn't need me any more.

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Dana used to have breathing problems

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but then she had this surgery
and they got better

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and Darlene came back from Wisconsin

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where she was learning
to process cheese, or something,

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so they didn't need me.

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Did you work there for a...
for a long time?

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No.

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Sort of.

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Dana must have become very fond of you.
Did she become attached to you?

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Yeah. She's the cutest.

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She hasn't stopped talking about me
since I left.

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She says she doesn't want to go to California
if I'm not going to be there.

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They told her I wouldn't be able
to baby-sit her any more

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because I'd had this accident.

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But, see, I'd already told her before

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that I couldn't keep living with them
once her mom came home.

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- I wanted to prepare her, you know?
- Mm.

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They didn't tell me
what they were telling her, so,

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the whole lie became mixed up in her head.

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- What?
- What?

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You look scared all of a sudden.

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- I look scared?
- Like you're looking at a psycho.

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I was just remembering that the last time
you were here, you put your casts together.

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Do you remember?
You said, "This is Cy."

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Yeah. The mermaid that he drew.

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You said that when Darlene came home,
you knew you couldn't keep on living there.

244
00:15:35,280 --> 00:15:37,191
I never said I lived there.

245
00:15:37,240 --> 00:15:40,676
But you told Dana you wouldn't be able
to go on living there.

246
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Yeah, because she's a child,

247
00:15:44,080 --> 00:15:46,469
so it felt to her like I had lived there.

248
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Cos... she'd go to school and come back
and I'd be there,

249
00:15:50,760 --> 00:15:53,911
and, um, you know,
she got used to me being around.

250
00:15:53,960 --> 00:15:57,350
So, even when he was home,
she'd want me to stay...

251
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cook him dinner, do her homework with her.

252
00:16:02,400 --> 00:16:06,916
Sometimes she'd wake up screaming
because she'd stopped breathing in her sleep.

253
00:16:08,520 --> 00:16:10,317
Cy told me that.

254
00:16:13,640 --> 00:16:15,596
What the hell is going on here?

255
00:16:16,520 --> 00:16:18,431
What do you mean?

256
00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:21,836
My dad was right. I'll go to therapy
and I'll end up a psycho...

257
00:16:22,840 --> 00:16:25,991
just like your daughter.
Everyone thinks she's a freak.

258
00:16:26,760 --> 00:16:28,671
- Are you trying to hurt me?
- No.

259
00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:32,759
You should know what people say about her.
She had this thing with this guy

260
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and, afterwards,

261
00:16:34,320 --> 00:16:38,199
everyone said she turned out psycho
cos her dad is a shrink.

262
00:16:38,240 --> 00:16:40,595
Shrinks' kids are psycho.
Everyone knows that.

263
00:16:40,640 --> 00:16:42,153
Mm.

264
00:16:42,200 --> 00:16:47,274
Well, maybe that's because...
because some people are afraid of therapy.

265
00:16:48,720 --> 00:16:51,188
They're afraid of what they might find out.

266
00:16:51,840 --> 00:16:56,277
They're afraid that it might touch those wounds
that are deep inside them.

267
00:16:58,240 --> 00:17:01,391
I think there are things that, perhaps,

268
00:17:02,760 --> 00:17:06,275
you feel deep inside, Sophie,
that you'd like to talk about.

269
00:17:06,320 --> 00:17:07,639
I'm fine.

270
00:17:07,680 --> 00:17:10,592
You wanna worry about a little girl?
Worry about your own kid.

271
00:17:10,640 --> 00:17:13,677
Does it bother you that people
talk about my daughter?

272
00:17:13,720 --> 00:17:17,030
- Why would it bother me?
- Maybe you know what it feels like.

273
00:17:17,080 --> 00:17:19,435
- Maybe I don't.
- We were talking about your coach

274
00:17:19,480 --> 00:17:21,471
then you brought up my daughter. I...

275
00:17:21,520 --> 00:17:23,909
Yeah, because I thought you should know.

276
00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:28,072
Are there people who say things
about you, Sophie?

277
00:17:28,120 --> 00:17:30,509
At the gym, maybe?

278
00:17:33,000 --> 00:17:35,594
You know, sometimes,
when people are jealous,

279
00:17:35,640 --> 00:17:39,349
they say things to hurt us,
because they envy us.

280
00:17:39,400 --> 00:17:43,439
Do you think that some of the girls
at the gym might be jealous

281
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of you and how close
your relationship is with Cy?

282
00:17:48,800 --> 00:17:51,837
Don't talk to me like I'm a child, please.

283
00:17:52,880 --> 00:17:54,871
Fair enough.

284
00:17:57,440 --> 00:18:01,991
I get the feeling that you're afraid to tell me
something that other people say about you.

285
00:18:02,040 --> 00:18:05,794
Are my clothes dry yet?
Can you go check?

286
00:18:05,840 --> 00:18:10,197
I won't be getting an evaluation today,
I'd at least like dry clothes.

287
00:18:10,960 --> 00:18:13,190
Yeah. Well, I have started to write it.

288
00:18:13,960 --> 00:18:15,996
Well, can I see what you've got?

289
00:18:16,040 --> 00:18:18,031
I'm, uh... I'm not quite finished yet.

290
00:18:19,760 --> 00:18:21,751
Bet you haven't written a word.

291
00:18:41,880 --> 00:18:43,996
"Sophie's Evaluation.

292
00:18:46,160 --> 00:18:48,355
"16 years old. A gymnast.

293
00:18:48,400 --> 00:18:50,277
"She is an Olympic hopeful.

294
00:18:50,320 --> 00:18:54,199
"She came in for evaluation
after near-fatal accident.

295
00:18:55,080 --> 00:18:58,231
"During first session,
appears to be very impressive.

296
00:18:58,280 --> 00:19:01,158
"Sensitive, mature for her age,

297
00:19:02,120 --> 00:19:06,272
"very intelligent
and a highly independent personality."

298
00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:30,831
I tried to write it...

299
00:19:32,680 --> 00:19:34,272
with my mom but...

300
00:19:38,840 --> 00:19:41,559
We didn't fight. I just said never mind.

301
00:19:43,560 --> 00:19:44,879
(Sniffs)

302
00:19:46,320 --> 00:19:50,029
- Do you really think those things you wrote?
- Absolutely.

303
00:19:50,920 --> 00:19:53,150
They're just generalities at the moment.

304
00:19:53,200 --> 00:19:55,953
It's not enough for a real evaluation.

305
00:20:05,360 --> 00:20:10,388
(Chuckles) You know, this morning
I tried to brush my teeth like you.

306
00:20:11,320 --> 00:20:13,197
- Like me?
- Mm-hm.

307
00:20:13,240 --> 00:20:15,037
Like...

308
00:20:17,960 --> 00:20:20,235
- How'd it go?
- I couldn't do it.

309
00:20:22,160 --> 00:20:24,628
I just stick it in there.

310
00:20:29,040 --> 00:20:33,556
- Why'd you try that?
- Because I wanted to know how it feels.

311
00:20:33,600 --> 00:20:37,115
- How did it feel?
- I felt useless.

312
00:20:37,160 --> 00:20:40,118
Like, demeaned or something.

313
00:20:47,400 --> 00:20:50,756
I'm homeless. I have nowhere to go.

314
00:20:51,840 --> 00:20:55,355
- Well, what about your dad?
- I told you, I had a fight with him.

315
00:20:56,600 --> 00:20:58,556
Not a real fight but he pissed me off.

316
00:20:59,800 --> 00:21:02,234
He knows how much I wanted to go
to training camp

317
00:21:02,280 --> 00:21:04,271
and he didn't even offer to pay.

318
00:21:05,280 --> 00:21:08,272
I wouldn't have taken
his money anyway. (Sniffs)

319
00:21:08,320 --> 00:21:11,312
Obviously, the exhibitions
are expensive but...

320
00:21:11,360 --> 00:21:14,113
W-Why is it so important
for you to go to this camp?

321
00:21:16,440 --> 00:21:19,273
It's not important... any more.

322
00:21:26,320 --> 00:21:29,198
How do you get along with Cy's wife?

323
00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:32,037
Fine.

324
00:21:33,280 --> 00:21:35,271
I don't wanna talk about them.

325
00:21:35,320 --> 00:21:38,630
OK. When you're ready, we will.

326
00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:43,389
You know, when you walked in here,

327
00:21:43,440 --> 00:21:45,351
I thought to myself...

328
00:21:46,680 --> 00:21:49,478
somebody in your life has broken the rules.

329
00:21:50,840 --> 00:21:54,628
And I felt that, if I had helped you
change your clothes,

330
00:21:54,680 --> 00:21:56,989
that I would have been doing the same thing.

331
00:21:58,000 --> 00:22:01,356
I felt like you were testing me.

332
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:05,357
I felt like you wanted to make sure
that this was a safe place,

333
00:22:05,400 --> 00:22:10,349
that the same things that happen out there
don't happen in here.

334
00:22:25,880 --> 00:22:28,348
Right when the accident happened...

335
00:22:30,120 --> 00:22:33,635
I don't remember anything but, right afterwards,

336
00:22:35,040 --> 00:22:37,474
I remember the whole world was silent.

337
00:22:38,920 --> 00:22:41,354
Not just silent. Soundless.

338
00:22:42,280 --> 00:22:45,113
You know, like there
had never been any noise, ever.

339
00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:48,197
Not even that hum that you hear
when you're in an empty room.

340
00:22:48,240 --> 00:22:49,912
Nothing.

341
00:22:52,080 --> 00:22:54,196
Even inside the ambulance,

342
00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,674
people were talking and it was like,

343
00:22:56,720 --> 00:22:58,711
it was like I'd gone deaf.

344
00:22:59,760 --> 00:23:01,591
I felt relieved.

345
00:23:02,600 --> 00:23:06,479
I thought that I would never have to listen
to anybody ever again.

346
00:23:08,720 --> 00:23:10,472
Sound came back, though.

347
00:23:10,520 --> 00:23:12,511
At first, from far away.

348
00:23:12,960 --> 00:23:14,916
The EMT, she kept saying,

349
00:23:14,960 --> 00:23:18,635
"I have to hear your voice.
I have to hear your voice, sweetheart."

350
00:23:18,680 --> 00:23:20,830
She wanted my parents' phone numbers.

351
00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:25,030
She wanted them to come and meet me
when I got to the hospital.

352
00:23:25,920 --> 00:23:27,911
There was no way.

353
00:23:28,920 --> 00:23:32,117
They can't even sit
in the same section at my meets.

354
00:23:32,160 --> 00:23:36,597
I have to wave to two different spots
after my routine. I look schizo.

355
00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:41,397
I tried to sit up

356
00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:44,352
and told the EMT that I wanted
to see the outside.

357
00:23:44,400 --> 00:23:45,674
Why?

358
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:48,792
When you see an ambulance
tearing down the street,

359
00:23:48,840 --> 00:23:50,637
you turn and look.

360
00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:52,796
Well, I wanted to see what it was like,

361
00:23:52,840 --> 00:23:55,434
being on the inside, looking out.

362
00:23:55,480 --> 00:23:58,313
You know, seeing people's faces
on the sidewalk,

363
00:23:58,360 --> 00:24:02,273
wondering, "Who's in there?
Is she going to be OK?"

364
00:24:03,120 --> 00:24:06,669
I couldn't sit up.
The EMT, she had this mirror

365
00:24:06,720 --> 00:24:09,314
that she tried to angle,
so that I could see out

366
00:24:10,400 --> 00:24:12,516
but all I could see was myself.

367
00:24:13,920 --> 00:24:17,310
And I remember thinking,
"Both arms, Sophie?

368
00:24:17,360 --> 00:24:20,033
"Did it have to be both arms, you idiot?"

369
00:24:28,640 --> 00:24:30,437
Our time's up.

370
00:24:37,840 --> 00:24:39,592
OK.

371
00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:41,437
We'II, um...

372
00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:44,637
We'll take it up there...

373
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:47,556
when you come back next week.

374
00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:51,718
You're not going to training camp
with everyone else in the universe?

375
00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:55,240
I'll go get your clothes,

376
00:24:55,280 --> 00:24:57,475
call Kate.

377
00:25:05,440 --> 00:25:07,556
He didn't offer you a cup of tea, even?

378
00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:08,999
(Tuts)

379
00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:13,031
Are you sure that doesn't hurt?

380
00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:17,791
All right, you.

381
00:25:18,720 --> 00:25:20,711
Arms way up, yeah?

382
00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:25,558
OK. (Laughs)

383
00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:27,079
Um...

384
00:27:31,240 --> 00:27:32,229
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