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Previously on In Treatment.

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I'll put yours in the dryer and they'll be ready
by the end of the session.

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Well, you'll have to help me.

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I haven't gotten dressed on my own
since my accident.

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How on earth do you manage
with two broken arms?

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I don't.

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She's cool. You could learn a lot from your wife
about how to talk to people.

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Are there people
who say things about you, Sophie?

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That some of the girls at the gym
might be jealous of you

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and how close your relationship is with Cy?

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Don't talk to me like I'm a child.

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How do you get along with Cy's wife?

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I don't wanna talk about them.

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"During first session,
appears to be very impressive.

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"Sensitive, mature for her age,

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"very intelligent
and a highly independent personality."

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- Do you really think those things you wrote?
- Absolutely.

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(Knock at door)

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It isn't serious,
it comes off in a week.

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My cousin stayed over last night.

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She's here visiting colleges, so...

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She had to sleep in my room
and I had to sleep on the couch.

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When I woke up this morning
I couldn't move my neck.

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I had to go to the doctor today, anyway,
to get my casts off.

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He took one look at me and was, like,
"I don't think so".

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He put this thing on me.

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He left my casts on too because...

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I don't know why, actually.

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I guess taking them off
might cause too much strain on my neck.

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I found something for you,

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thought you should have it.

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- In here?
- Yeah, in the front pocket.

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It's for your collection.

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It's a catboat.

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It's beautiful. Thank you.

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It's a going-away present.

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This is our last session, right?
You said three.

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No, I said at least three.

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If you're totally sick of listening
to other people's insipid lives

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then maybe you can look at it

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and it'll make you feel
like you're somewhere else.

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Insipid. It's a good word.

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I read thesauruses for fun.

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I'm not a freak, OK?
I just like words.

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Thought you could use it.

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It must really suck having to listen
to other people's problems all day.

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Mm.

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So does that chair, like,
enhance your brain function?

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(Laughs)

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- I don't think so.
- Can you read minds?

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Unfortunately, no.

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- Yeah, it'd be a lot easier if you could.
- It would.

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Can I try the chair?

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Sure.

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Please.

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Thank you.

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How are you? You look tired.

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(Laughs) I'm OK.

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Maybe you should take a nap.

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Maybe.

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I've noticed that, er,
Cy's drawing is, er, is gone.

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- Did you erase it?
- Yes.

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How do you feel about that?

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How do you think I feel?

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Maybe a little scared
because this could be our final session.

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Why would I be scared?

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Is the evaluation going to be bad?

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I don't think it's the evaluation
that scares you.

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I think it's the possibility that, er...

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you won't be coming back.

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Sorry but no.

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I bought you a goodbye present.
See ya!

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I know it's a goodbye present,
but there is another way to look at it.

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Maybe you want
to leave something behind.

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So that I won't forget you.

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- You said you liked the boat.
- I do.

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- If you don't want it, I'll take it back.
- Do you want to take it back?

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So...

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If someone my age wants to start therapy,
how would it work?

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Well, we'd take it
at that person's own pace.

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Not like these last few sessions,

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the evaluation, the three session deadline,
nothing like that.

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See, the person who's in therapy
controls the gas, so to speak.

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And the wheel, for that matter.

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- So it's like driving a car?
- Yeah,

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it's a bit like driving a car.

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So...

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Pretend I'm in therapy now.

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- All right.
- I said pretend.

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So, what do I do?

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Why don't you tell me
a little bit more about the boat?

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I got it years ago
from a homeless woman in New York...

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- when I was just a kid.
- What were you doing in New York?

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- We were on a "family vacation".
- Why do you say that, "family vacation"?

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Because it wasn't a real vacation,
and we weren't a real family.

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No sand, no ocean.

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That's not a vacation, you know,
that's bullshit.

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My dad took me to Central Park.

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There was this old woman
at the park's entrance

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selling these little wooden toys.

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She looked so miserable.

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And I remember thinking,
"It's worse for her."

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I had just enough money left
from my allowance to buy the boat.

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By the time we got home it was over.

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- What was over?
- Their marriage.

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- Oh.
- I think it was over during the vacation,

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but they were pretending or something.

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I went to school, I went to practice,

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and I came home
and they were waiting for me in the kitchen,

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smiling like those movie stars.

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Like, movie stars?

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You know,
those smiles that movie stars do.

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Those big smiles
but their eyes are all glazed over.

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Like...

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(Laughs)

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And then my mother starts to cry.

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And my father says to her
in this voice,

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"Olivia, leave it to me."

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And then he starts to cry,

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and I'm just standing there,
stuck in the kitchen,

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hungry as fuck,
with these two babies.

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I don't remember the day he actually left.
I just remember that day in the kitchen.

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- Where did he go?
- Back to New York.

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With his new wife.

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And I stayed here with my mother,

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who was totally depressed.

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Cy and Darlene,
they live close by, so...

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they help me get to practice and back.

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They didn't want me to give it up.

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Why are you looking at me like that?

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It's just the way you talk about it,

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like you're not
so upset about the break-up as...

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the way they did it.

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- Maybe that's what's making you sad.
- I'm not sad.

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Is that what people
are supposed to do in therapy?

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Sit around and whine
over all their problems?

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It's never going to happen.

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That's what she would do,
and I'm nothing like her.

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Your mom?

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Where was your dad
when all this was going on?

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I told you, in New York,
with Natasha.

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- Did you ever consider living with them?
- No.

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We once thought maybe but...

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- It didn't work out.
- Why not?

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They needed their space.

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They didn't last anyway.

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He wanted me to live with them.

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He was really pissed
that she said no, so...

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It really soured their relationship.

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So you blame yourself.

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Whatever way the cookie crumbles,
you're still to blame.

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How old are you?

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What do you mean, how old am I?

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- People really don't talk like that any more.
- Really?

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Your logic has some flaws, Sophie.

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You aren't responsible for
what your parents did.

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You couldn't be.

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Were you a gymnast before...
before you met Cy?

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I don't remember a time before I met Cy.

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I've known him since I was so little.

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Besides my father, they're the only people
who ever believed in me.

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Cy discovered me gymnastically.

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I was dancing around
on a log in the back yard,

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to entertain Dana.

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You know, doing spins and things.

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He put me on a beam the next day.

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Their house was like my house.

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I had a key.

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Before my father left, when he and my mom
were fighting all the time,

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I slept over.

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I had these really bad attacks back then.

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My stomach would start to shake,

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and then my whole body
would start to shake.

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Sometimes I'd start throwing up
and I couldn't make it stop.

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They took me to the emergency room
one night.

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- We never told my parents.
- Why not?

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I ruined their family.

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I did, I really did.

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Darlene was so good to me.

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I was...

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She really was good to me.

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She told me,
before she left for Wisconsin,

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that she was only going because she knew
I would be there to take care of Dana.

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She said she didn't trust Cy
but she trusted me.

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She trusted me and I ruined it.

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You're thinking he used me.

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You're wrong.

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He kept trying to stop me.

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He kept saying, "Sophie,
you don't know what you're doing,

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"we'll get to a place
and there'll be no turning back."

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He's a really good person, Cy is.

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He's a gentleman.

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He kept saying,
"You don't know what you're doing".

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- But the thing is, I did.
- And what were you doing, Sophie?

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At first, I thought it was my imagination.

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And then he stopped talking to me
while Darlene was home.

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You know, like he was embarrassed,

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like he was hiding something.

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And sometimes I'd catch him holding his breath
while he was looking at me.

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He loves me, I know he does.

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So I knew,
even before Darlene went away,

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I knew that he loved me.

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And then she left for six months
but Cy wouldn't have sex with me.

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Even though everyone assumed
we were doing it,

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that we'd been doing it for months.

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Cy said it was a line that we absolutely,
positively would not cross.

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We'd been sleeping in the same bed.
Just sleeping.

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And then, one night,

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the night before Darlene came home,

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I woke up in the middle of the night...

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and he was awake.

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Then he...

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I...

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It happened.

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It felt like nothing at all.

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Like nothing?
Not good? Not bad?

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Kind of like...

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Kind of like I was watching it happen.

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On a really small black and white television.

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Like, I was checking
my email at the same time.

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Like I wasn't really there.

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I don't know.

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The next day we pretended
like it hadn't happened.

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And at practice that afternoon
we had this big fight,

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in front of everyone.

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Cos of what happened?

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Because I fell off the beam.

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I'd been going for this backbend,

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and for some reason I thought that
the beam was longer than it really was.

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So, I bent right off of it.
I fell flat on my back.

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I just stayed there...

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trying to breathe,

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afraid to move,
afraid that I'd broken something.

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And then Cy came over
and started screaming at me,

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"We've got two days until this tournament
and you've lost your focus,

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"now get back up there
and do it right."

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That night I slept on the couch.

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Then in the middle of the night,
Cy came in

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and I thought that...

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But he wanted me
to put Dana back to bed.

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She'd had a bad dream
and came into his room looking for me.

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So...

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I put her back to bed
and then we talked.

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He kept talking about my potential.

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He said it would ruin
both our careers if this got out.

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He said that we had to stop.

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That's it.

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We almost had sex again that night,
but he didn't want to.

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That's it.

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A few weeks later...

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Darlene said she wanted to talk to me.

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She said that Dana had become
too attached to me

253
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while she was in Wisconsin and that
I probably shouldn't come over for a while.

254
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But it was pathetic,

255
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because I know her, you know.

256
00:16:55,440 --> 00:16:57,431
She was lying to me.

257
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I couldn't look at her.

258
00:17:03,960 --> 00:17:06,428
I just said, "I'm sorry."

259
00:17:08,080 --> 00:17:09,149
She said...

260
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"Don't be silly,

261
00:17:12,160 --> 00:17:15,072
"kids forget quickly.

262
00:17:15,120 --> 00:17:17,714
"Grown-ups don't, but kids do.

263
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"Dana will forget you."

264
00:17:22,200 --> 00:17:24,270
Dana will never forget you, Sophie.

265
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- You don't think so?
- No, I'm sure of it.

266
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Darlene... is terribly wrong.

267
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Grown-ups can forget...

268
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children can't.

269
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When I left, Darlene gave me a present
that she got for me in Wisconsin.

270
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What was it?

271
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An apron.

272
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With cows on it.

273
00:18:00,160 --> 00:18:04,438
She knows I like to cook and
I collect things with cows on them so...

274
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It was sort of... perfect.

275
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Mm. The accident...

276
00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:15,116
it happened that night?

277
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- I woke up in the ambulance.
- Do you remember how you got there?

278
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I don't even remember
walking away from the house.

279
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I remember her giving me the apron.

280
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I didn't want it,
I tried to give it back.

281
00:18:32,280 --> 00:18:34,236
She said,

282
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"Take it so you don't get dirty."

283
00:18:40,760 --> 00:18:42,990
Then I think she kissed me.

284
00:18:46,360 --> 00:18:48,430
It must have been at their door,
because...

285
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now I remember stepping back
and seeing the whole house.

286
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- What did you see?
- Nothing.

287
00:18:54,840 --> 00:18:57,274
I saw the house from the outside,

288
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that's all.

289
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I'll huff and I'll puff
and I'll blow your house down.

290
00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:10,593
(Laughs)

291
00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:21,908
So what the fuck
are you gonna write now?

292
00:19:22,640 --> 00:19:25,757
Are you asking me if I think
the accident was your fault?

293
00:19:26,680 --> 00:19:27,908
Yes.

294
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When you came here this morning,
you told me they were gonna take the casts...

295
00:19:31,320 --> 00:19:32,753
You're stalling, Paul.

296
00:19:32,800 --> 00:19:36,190
- I'm trying to explain to you...
- You know but you're afraid to tell me.

297
00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:39,550
- What I need you to understand...
- I understand!

298
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I understand everything!

299
00:19:41,280 --> 00:19:44,158
I understand why
Darlene kicked me out of the house,

300
00:19:44,200 --> 00:19:46,555
I understand why you're lying to me now.

301
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OK, I get it, I fucking get it!

302
00:19:48,800 --> 00:19:50,677
Sophie,

303
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let's finish the session.

304
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- I have to use the bathroom.
- OK.

305
00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:35,274
(Glass smashes)

306
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Sophie?

307
00:20:39,680 --> 00:20:41,557
Sophie?

308
00:20:42,840 --> 00:20:43,989
Are you all right?

309
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I'm gonna open the door now.

310
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- Is that OK?
- (Groans) Yeah.

311
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I'm so sorry,
I don't how that happened.

312
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It's no problem,
don't worry about it.

313
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- I'm so sorry.
- Don't worry about it.

314
00:21:09,720 --> 00:21:12,393
It's just a picture frame,
I'll clean it up later on.

315
00:21:12,440 --> 00:21:14,396
I don't wanna fuck everything up here too.

316
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:15,668
No, don't worry about it.

317
00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:17,915
If you had to write the evaluation now...

318
00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:20,520
But I don't have to
write the evaluation now, Sophie.

319
00:21:20,560 --> 00:21:24,473
- If someone held a gun to your head...
- Who's holding a gun to my head? Are you?

320
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- I wanna know what you think.
- What do you think?

321
00:21:27,280 --> 00:21:29,430
Do you think that you did this to yourself?

322
00:21:29,480 --> 00:21:32,677
I don't remember!
How many times do I have to tell you?

323
00:21:32,720 --> 00:21:35,029
- What does your instinct tell you?
- I don't have any instinct.

324
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- What does your heart tell you?
- I don't have a heart.

325
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You know,
from what you've told me already,

326
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I think you're having quite a difficult time
taking care of yourself recently.

327
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So?

328
00:21:48,640 --> 00:21:51,473
It doesn't mean
that you deliberately ran into that car.

329
00:21:51,520 --> 00:21:53,988
So what would you write?

330
00:21:54,040 --> 00:21:56,508
Erm...

331
00:21:56,560 --> 00:21:59,154
I don't know,
something along the lines of...

332
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"As a result of the anxiety
she felt preceding the incident,

333
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"the subject may have been distracted,
acted irresponsibly but...

334
00:22:11,680 --> 00:22:15,798
"we cannot conclude that
the accident was a premeditated wilful act..."

335
00:22:15,840 --> 00:22:19,150
- It sounds really vague.
- It can't be any more specific than that.

336
00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:20,872
I'm not a magician.

337
00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:23,275
I don't know any more
than what you've told me.

338
00:22:23,320 --> 00:22:26,949
I fucking hate you!
You never say what you really mean.

339
00:22:27,000 --> 00:22:29,389
You know, you're just like all the rest of them.

340
00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:33,353
Why can't anyone ever tell
anyone else the truth?

341
00:22:33,400 --> 00:22:37,313
I can't listen to any more
of your stupid bullshit words.

342
00:22:37,360 --> 00:22:39,635
A wilful and irresponsible act!

343
00:22:39,680 --> 00:22:43,116
Just say it!
She tried to kill herself or not.

344
00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:46,311
If you think I did then say so.
What's the problem?

345
00:22:46,360 --> 00:22:50,956
There's a difference between
not being careful,

346
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because you feel vulnerable,

347
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- and wanting to commit suicide.
- No!

348
00:22:57,040 --> 00:22:58,871
- You don't see the difference?
- No.

349
00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:00,433
It's like the picture frame.

350
00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:04,359
I didn't mean to break it,
I didn't even see it, but it's broken.

351
00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:07,392
- I broke it.
- In terms of the evaluation,

352
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there's a really big difference.

353
00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:12,117
That's what I want you to understand.

354
00:23:12,160 --> 00:23:13,149
What?

355
00:23:13,200 --> 00:23:17,557
Sophie, the problems that you had
before the accident are still there.

356
00:23:17,600 --> 00:23:20,068
Even when they take off
the neck brace and the casts

357
00:23:20,120 --> 00:23:22,554
those problems are still going to be there,

358
00:23:22,600 --> 00:23:25,160
when you go back
to your normal everyday routine.

359
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:28,954
You're gonna have to face them again.

360
00:23:38,480 --> 00:23:41,677
Cos if we're not careful
something like this could happen again.

361
00:23:42,520 --> 00:23:44,954
That's what you're really asking me, isn't it?

362
00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:51,592
If you go back to your life, will you find yourself
in front of a car again someday soon?

363
00:23:59,880 --> 00:24:02,030
You make me sound like a time bomb.

364
00:24:02,080 --> 00:24:04,071
(Sighs)

365
00:24:06,560 --> 00:24:08,710
- It's true, I ruin everything.
- No, you don't.

366
00:24:08,760 --> 00:24:10,751
Yes, I do.

367
00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:14,839
You said I wanted to go home because
there's nothing more for me to ruin there.

368
00:24:14,880 --> 00:24:18,031
- It's obvious.
- Let's look at it another way.

369
00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:21,314
You could really build something at home.

370
00:24:21,360 --> 00:24:24,352
With my mother? Are you on crack?

371
00:24:30,120 --> 00:24:33,715
- I have to go soon.
- Can I ask you something before you go?

372
00:24:35,200 --> 00:24:38,397
Where do you feel safe?

373
00:24:40,120 --> 00:24:42,190
- What?
- Where are you happy?

374
00:24:42,240 --> 00:24:45,232
Where do you feel... Where do you feel safe?

375
00:24:46,560 --> 00:24:50,109
I was happy with Cy and Dana.
I ruined it.

376
00:24:50,160 --> 00:24:53,232
- You erased the drawing from your cast.
- Because I was angry.

377
00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:55,874
Is there anywhere else that you're happy?

378
00:25:01,840 --> 00:25:03,831
On the beam.

379
00:25:04,280 --> 00:25:07,477
I can spend hours walking back and forth.

380
00:25:07,520 --> 00:25:08,919
Dive, dive and swish.

381
00:25:09,760 --> 00:25:11,955
"Dive, dive and swish",
what does that mean?

382
00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:15,629
It's a song that I sing to myself
when I'm up there.

383
00:25:16,880 --> 00:25:20,395
It reminds me of a pelican diving down
to catch a fish in its beak.

384
00:25:20,440 --> 00:25:22,590
Could I hear the song?

385
00:25:27,600 --> 00:25:31,832
♪ I have a wish to sing and fish
down by the sea

386
00:25:31,880 --> 00:25:35,156
♪ Just you and me, fun it'll be

387
00:25:35,200 --> 00:25:37,475
♪ Dive, dive and swish ♪

388
00:25:39,520 --> 00:25:42,990
And on the dive,
I drop my foot off the beam,

389
00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:45,270
and on the swish I swing it back up.

390
00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:51,228
- You feel safe up there?
- Yes.

391
00:25:51,280 --> 00:25:52,872
Hm.

392
00:25:53,800 --> 00:25:56,678
You know you can't live up there forever.

393
00:25:56,720 --> 00:25:59,518
You have to come down eventually.

394
00:26:27,400 --> 00:26:29,391
Goodbye, Sophie.

395
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,030
Hello, this is Paul Weston.

396
00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:40,231
I am your daughter's therapist

397
00:26:40,280 --> 00:26:42,669
and I was wondering
if I could talk to you.

398
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:48,715
I understand that they're about to remove
Sophie's neck brace and her casts.

399
00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:52,878
And I think that we should discuss
her return to the gym and to training.

400
00:26:52,920 --> 00:26:57,038
So, would you mind calling me, please,
at my office? Thank you.

401
00:28:20,480 --> 00:28:21,469
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