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Previously on In Treatment.

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I hear you, Paul, you wanna kick me
out of therapy, I get it.

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No, I don't want to kick you out, absolutely not.
I think that you tossed me out a long time ago.

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You don't want me to treat you
as a psychologist.

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You want me to treat you
as somebody who's in love with you.

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Let's face it, I have not been your therapist
for a very long time, Laura.

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Maybe you can't treat me
because you're in love with me, too.

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Where you headed?

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You need a ride?

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Laura.

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Let's do it.

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Paul?

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Paul?

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Sorry. Um, you said that it, uh...

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that it happened in the kitchen.

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No, it started in the kitchen.
Are you listening to me?

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Yes. Yes, I am.

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I said I wanted to do it right there
on the counter.

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So when he picked me up, I thought, "OK,"
but no, he took me into the bedroom

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and he put me down
ever so gently like I was,

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I don't know, a porcelain vase or something.

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Everything was very cautious, hesitant,
like he didn't know what to do.

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Maybe he didn't know what to do
with someone who wasn't his wife.

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Yeah, he kept telling me he hasn't done it
with anyone but his wife for ten years

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and hardly then.

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It was very sweet, actually.

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He imitated me.

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He did everything I did.
I took off his shirt, he took off my shirt.

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I told him he has a fantastic body
because... he does, and he goes, "So do you."

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At one point he strokes my hair
and he asks me what kind of shampoo I use.

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(Giggles)

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Can you believe this? We're lying face to face,
petting each other like high school kids.

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Anyway, I get sick of it, so I say to myself,
"Maybe he's waiting for a signal.

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"Maybe he wants me to lead.

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"Maybe if I start doing something,
things will finally get moving."

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So, I went down on him.

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Everything was so proper. I didn't want proper,
I just wanted him to fuck

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without all the bullshit about my shampoo
and my beautiful breasts

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and my excellent taste in curtains.

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So, did that move things along?

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- What, the blowjob?
- Mm-hm.

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Of course.

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Do you know what? He doesn't like sex.

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You know what I mean?
He doesn't really like it.

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It's like he's carrying out an assignment,
a mission, like a pilot.

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What do you mean, like a, like a pilot?

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You know those guys
that mark tally points on their fighter jet

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to keep track of how many planes
they shot down?

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It was like that, like he was keeping score.

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I mean, he didn't even touch me
while he was going at it.

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He was just leaning on his elbows as if he
didn't want any connection between us,

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except where necessary.

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I kept trying to bring my face closer
to his to kiss him,

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and he just kept pulling his face away

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as if he couldn't stand me.

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And that was it. It was very fast,

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two minutes, more or less, and then he came.

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And then he went straight to the bathroom
and I just lay there in shock.

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I mean, he didn't even ask me how it was,
if I was OK or not. Nothing.

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Anyway, I made myself come.

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- While he was in the bathroom?
- No, when he got back.

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I had to.

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I mean, I hate to be left high and dry.

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He was just lying on his back,
conducting dialogue with the ceiling,

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or maybe with his wife or maybe with you,

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and he looked so fucking sexy,
so I climbed on top of his leg.

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Thought he'd get the hint
and he'd start something, but nothing.

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So I just kept going, riding his thigh.

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Felt good.

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Then I was overwhelmed
with this sadness for him.

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Broke my heart, this guy.

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He's fragile, really, that's what he is.

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I don't think he could tell what I was thinking.

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I was completely in my own head
and I was thinking to myself,

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"Shit, this is gonna be
the saddest orgasm of my life."

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Here I am, riding this hot, sad guy's thigh.

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I was expecting something
pitiful and measly, right?

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But, no. A volcano is a cliché
but that's what it was.

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It was like ten orgasms exploding at once.

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It's hard to describe.

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But I screamed.
I did, I screamed and I think I scared him.

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You would've been really proud of me.

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- Why would I have been proud?
- I mean, as my therapist.

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You know, that I finally connected
with myself.

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It doesn't happen very often.

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Sorry.

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That was, uh, a bit revealing.

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But you must be used to it.

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Confessions like that,
probably doesn't impress you any more.

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- Actually, it makes a big impression.
- Really? What sort of impression?

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Well, you can look at it in all kinds of ways

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but one thing seems perfectly plain to me,
you slept with my patient.

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Excuse me?

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He isn't your only patient.
He doesn't belong to you.

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He's a great guy. OK, a little fucked up,
a little insecure in bed maybe,

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but he's got potential. I think I'm gonna have
a terrific affair with him.

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Still, it's no coincidence
that you went to bed with him

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and I don't think it's a coincidence
that you began your affair

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shortly after we talked
about your quitting therapy.

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Are you saying that I did this
to get back at you?

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Remember the guy you told me about,
the guy you met at the bar,

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that you went to the rest room with?

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You said that you felt you were with me.

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It's not the same thing, Paul.

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Are you sure it isn't?
It was during that session, Laura,

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that you decided to tell me
that you were in love with me.

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And that's how you chose to tell me
how you felt about me,

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by having sex with another man.

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One thing that I put out there,
without hinting or manipulation,

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is that I've wanted you.

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So I don't need to fuck another man
just to get my message across.

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What made you so sad about Alex?

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His Ioneliness, he's a sad guy.

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- Did you feel sad?
- No, I felt horny.

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- So sadness for him but none for yourself.
- What are you trying to get at here?

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Maybe you did feel sadness

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because you were with a man
you didn't really want to be with.

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Are you saying when I was fucking Alex,
I was fucking you?

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- Were you?
- Don't flatter yourself.

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Well, it's not really a compliment.

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I think it seems more like, "Look what you
missed out on, Paul, you coward, you idiot."

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Mm.

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I'm tired.

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I'm really so tired.

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(Sighs)

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So, uh,

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after Alex left, I couldn't fall asleep.

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I suddenly had this incredible craving
for cheesecake.

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- Cheesecake.
- You know those really fluffy cheesecakes

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with that amazing smell?

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Well, my mother used to bake those.

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Every Friday afternoon, after I finished playing
with my friends, I used to come home.

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That smell was intoxicating.

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It was like a trail of scent paving my way home.

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Like a cartoon character.

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Then my mother got sick.

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The cancer was only stage one
at that point, when they found it.

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When she started chemo, she stopped baking.

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You know, she was tired, she had no energy.

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That was the first sign, the first sign that
something really big was about to happen.

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When she was really sick, I used to find myself
roaming the halls of the apartment building,

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climbing up and down the stairs,
searching for that smell of cheesecake.

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Shit, how corny is that?

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And once I remember a woman coming out
of her apartment and she, uh... Thank you.

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(Sniffs)

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...and she saw me standing out there,
she didn't know who I was.

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She must've been new to the building.

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And she was yelling at me,
"Go away, go on, go home.

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"What are you doing standing out here?"

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Why do you think you had that
particular memory the other night?

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I don't know.

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(Sighs)

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I searched through my whole apartment
looking for a recipe, but...

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Not that that would've done any good.
My fridge is completely empty.

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I thought about going out to get a piece

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but it was 3am, so I just gave up
and went to sleep.

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Only then the phone rang and it was Alex.
He called to thank me

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and tell me he had an amazing time with me
and that he wants to see me again.

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Go figure, huh?

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He's supposed to pick me up from here soon.

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- From here?
- Yeah, that's what he said.

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Aren't you afraid
that Andrew will find out about this or...

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or maybe you want to get caught?

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Andrew and I split up.

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- What?
- For good. And it is for good.

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He's a nice guy, he'll make a nice husband
for someone who deserves him.

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But obviously not for you.

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Well, I nearly fuck guys in bathroom stalls
as you, um, very kindly reminded me.

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I just couldn't stand up there
in front of everyone and promise to...

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Well, I just shouldn't ever make promises.

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Hey, I promise not to make
any more promises, how's that?

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So I told him that
"I'm sorry but I can't marry you.

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"I am incapable of being the woman you want,
the kind of woman you deserve."

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I put it all on me. Well, because it is all me.

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And he looked at me and he said,
"Thank you, Laura.

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"Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.

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"God exists. It's a fact.

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"He's made me realise who and what you are

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"and he's saved me from a long,
endless death with you."

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- Flattering, no?
- He must be devastated. Maybe he feels...

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- I don't care how he feels.
- You don't care how...

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No. I don't feel like talking
about his side of the story.

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- Why does that make you so upset?
- Because I'm the one in therapy here.

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He has a therapist. She'll take care of him.
Don't worry about him, worry about me.

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- I am taking care of you.
- You're kicking me out of therapy.

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I am not kicking you out.
I brought it up as an option.

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Don't sugar-coat it.
You even tried to blame it on me.

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You made up the most ridiculous case
as to why I was late.

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It was nasty, a bullshit excuse,
instead of levelling with me

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and saying, "I have feelings for you, too,
it's hard for me to deal with."

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Instead of figuring it out so we could continue...

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What? So that we could be together,
is that what you mean?

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We've been together for a year, Paul.

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A year.

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There's more intimacy between us
than most couples in the world, isn't that right?

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- I don't deny a certain intimacy can develop...
- "A certain intimacy."

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Cut the crap, Paul.

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Is there intimacy here or not?

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(Laura sighs)

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Yes. There is.

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And now you're willing to throw that all away?

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- And why, because y-you're scared?
- Laura...

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I know that, as a therapist,
you tell yourself it's part of therapy

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to find out why I'm in love with you
and how that's linked to my past...

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but isn't that always the way it works, Paul?

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Doesn't our past always determine
who we fall in love with?

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So what if you can trace it back to the
withholding mother, the narcissistic father,

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the parent who's missing?
Does that make our love any less real?

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- But circumstances can be less than ideal...
- I know that.

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I know you can delude yourself into thi...

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Only I am not deluded.

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Not about you,
not about how I feel about you,

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why I feel it, there's always gonna be an
explanation, but that I feel it is irrefutable.

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I don't know how to convince you any more.

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You think that I've imagined this fairy tale,
this happily ever after, that I've idealised you.

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You think this is a miserable patient sitting
in front of her therapist,

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imagining that you're my superman,
perfect, saviour, mentor.

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- I don't see you that way at all.
- How do you really see me?

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I see you the way you are.

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Your... imperfections.

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You're not at ease with your body,
with your profession, with who you've become.

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I don't know much about your life
but I imagine you're not happy at home.

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Something in you is restless, damaged.

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There's a yearning there
and I know it when I see it.

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And I want you just the way you are.

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Damaged and restless, yearning.
Warts and all.

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- So you can fix me?
- You can be such a fucking prick, you know.

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So that I can fix you, then?

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You know, um, next month I'll be 30

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and I've been thinking to myself,
"I've hated myself for 30 years."

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It's enough. I don't want to any more.

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Why do you hate yourself?

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- You're surprised?
- I've never heard you say it before.

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Well, I guess you save the best for last.

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That's the best, Laura, that you hate yourself?

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I don't know, Paul. It's something
people realise about me after an hour.

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I didn't know it after an hour or a year.

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It's not easy for me to hear you say that.

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Maybe you should try and find out
why it's so hard for you.

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Maybe you should see someone.

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(Laughs) Yeah. I've been thinking about that.

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Seriously, I think, um, the reason
it's hard for me to hear it is because I...

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I know that you have so many reasons to...

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to love yourself.

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So many things to be really proud of,
yet you choose to ignore them. Why?

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Haven't you ever hated yourself?

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Yeah. I guess I did.

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Once.

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(Sighs) When I was a kid.

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My mother, she was
in pretty bad shape and, um...

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I took care of her, but, uh...

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(Clears throat)
I couldn't...

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I couldn't save her from herself, you know?

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I guess I hated myself for that.

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Was she sick?

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She was in a difficult emotional state.

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I thought that I could pull her out of it. I...

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I used to cook her all these elaborate meals

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but... she wouldn't eat them.

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Couldn't understand why.
Like every kid, I thought it was my fault.

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There was something that I wasn't doing.
Maybe I could do something else.

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- But you know that's not true?
- I know that now, yes.

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Have you forgiven yourself?

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I think so. Took a long time.

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(Sighs) How does that feel?

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I mean, really. I'm curious.

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It was like a relief, to tell you the truth,

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to know that that burden is gone,
the burden of blame.

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And to know, deep down,

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that it never belonged there
in the first place.

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Mm.

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Maybe that's why you became a psychologist,

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to help others with their burdens.

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Yeah, maybe.

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So you're a product of your past, too.

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Will, uh, that be cash or cheque?

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- Can I owe you, then?
- Sure.

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Mm-hm.

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Anyway, I know where you live.

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Yes, you do.

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(Sighs)

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I should get going. Alex is waiting for me.

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- OK.
- Yeah.

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- I forgot, I haven't paid you.
- Oh, that's OK, it'll do next week.

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- Thanks.
- You're welcome.

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- Bye.
- Bye.

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