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Previously on In Treatment...
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I left home.
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You really helped me with that
in our last session.
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You showed me that leaving home
was my own personal decision.
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Could you be mad at me
for something else?
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- Like what?
- Because I met a patient of yours.
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I got the dates wrong
and I accidentally met laura.
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- Should I go for her?
- I can't give you dating tips, Alex.
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She's the kind of woman that can...
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Could drive a man insane.
Am I right?
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- Bye, Melissa.
- Bye. thank you.
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I'm early, huh?
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Yeah, but it's okay.
It's not a problem.
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I was in the area,
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I didn't want to go home
and have to come all the way back.
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- It's okay.
- Are you sure?
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- You don't have things to do?
- I'm sure.
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This is from Laura.
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I think it's a check.
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Who knows?
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Synch: Benj!
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I'll pay you for the extra time.
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- No need, it's okay.
- No, no.
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I insist. It's another 20%?
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$30, hold on.
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Do you feel better now?
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- What do you mean?
- After paying me, do you feel better?
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What are you trying to say?
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I guess that I'm...
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I'm surprised by
how much effort you put into
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showing your contempt
for this process and for me.
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Relax, okay?
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It's just the way my mother raised me.
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I don't know what it's like
with you people.
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I don't like charity,
so I like to pay for what I get.
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Well, I'm glad you're getting
something here, Alex.
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Listen, let's not make
a big deal out of this, okay?
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You want me to admit
that this therapy is worthwhile?
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Okay, I'll admit it:
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this therapy is changing my life.
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Happy?
Can we drop it now?
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- Like today, how many patients already?
- Why are you asking me this?
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'Cause I wanna know
what kind of money you make.
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Let's say you have 8 patients a day,
times 5 days a week,
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$150 a pop.
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It's pretty good living there, doc.
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$24 grand a month.
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- Do you wanna buy me out, alex?
- What?
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Well, $24,000 a month
and I'm all yours.
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And you'll be my only patient.
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It must be hard for you
to be in this position,
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to be perceived as weak.
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And you have this need
to regain your strength.
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You bring me a check from laura.
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You've asked me about
my patients and my income.
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And you've done everything
you can to put me in my little place.
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Did I offend you?
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No, I'm kind of used to it.
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But then all our sessions start
out like that, don't they, Alex?
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Maybe I was expecting
something a little different today,
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maybe because you were early,
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or because...
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you've been asking around about me.
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Do you want me to tell you
why I was early,
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or do you wanna just go on and on
with your theories?
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I'd love to hear.
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I went to the base today.
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I thought I'd pop over before my session
here and say hello to my boys.
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When I got to the gate,
I realized I forgot my id.
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Now usually that's not a big deal.
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But there's a new grunt at the gate...
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Some real...
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okie from Muskogee.
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I told him,
"look, call the base commander
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"and tell him
that lieutenant Prince is here."
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So he goes in the booth, calls,
comes back a minute later,
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and he says
I'm not on the approved list.
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Now of course this is a real sensitive
issue these days, as you can imagine.
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Still I said, "To hell with the list.
This is what you do: you call Dana
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"the secretary,
tell her to talk to the commander,
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"and you tell him
that lieutenant Alex Prince Jr.
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"is waiting at the gate."
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So he goes in,
he calls, he comes back, and he says...
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He says, "I'm sorry,
but the commander is in a meeting."
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Now maybe he was in a meeting
and he couldn't be disturbed.
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Or maybe they were stuffing
their faces with doughnuts.
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Or maybe he just didn't give a fuck.
I don't know.
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I told that guard, I said,
"Look, you tell Dana
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"if she took the commander's cock out
of her fucking mouth once in a while,
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"then maybe she could hear better."
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Man, I was this close
to knocking that motherfucker out.
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Anyway, I didn't get in so I left.
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And that is why I got here early.
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Not...
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Not an easy experience.
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No, it's bullshit.
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Now I gotta come and deal with this?
I got you coming at me like this?
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That was the tip of the iceberg.
My shitty week started on saturday.
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Why? What happened on saturday?
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Okay, we're gonna pretend here.
All right.
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We can pretend.
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You know what happened.
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Do I?
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I wish you would've warned me
about Laura last week.
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It would have saved us both
a lot of heartache.
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I slept with her, okay?
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With Laura.
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That's what happened on saturday.
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But I'm sure you got a full
play-by-play from her already.
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Did she or did she not
talk to you about it?
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I'm not at liberty to discuss
my patients or their sessions.
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Now what is that?
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Code language for she did discuss it,
but you won't tell me?
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It was pretty weird.
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She called to ask me
if I wanted to come over for dinner.
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No problem, right?
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So when I got to her place,
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I looked at her.
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I looked at how she was dressed.
I looked at the table.
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I looked at the wine. And...
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I realized that dinner
was obviously just a code name for sex.
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This whole thing was like a ritual.
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A ritual?
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Yeah, and all the rules.
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First, of course, there's the meal.
She doesn't look like a cook, right?
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But she made a big effort.
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For starters,
she prepared her own sushi...
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California rolls.
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- They weren't that great actually.
- It didn't taste good?
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It was just for show.
Don't you get it?
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That's the problem nowadays,
everything's for show.
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If you wanna make sushi,
take a fucking course.
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Go to a real japanese grocery.
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Don't make it with uncle Ben's rice
and imitation crabmeat.
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- Come on.
- Did you say anything to her?
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Of course not, no.
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The dinner was just a lead up
to us getting in bed.
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I told you that.
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It didn't really matter.
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So did you want to sleep with her?
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Yeah, but...
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it has nothing to do
with wanting anything.
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It was all premeditated.
It was like a mating ritual,
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like the masai tribe
in Tanzania, but for yuppies.
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Anyway, so we got up from the table,
we went to her bedroom and had sex.
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And that's what happened on saturday.
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It's interesting that you tell me
so much about this
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ritual of you going
to bed together, but...
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nothing about
what happened between you.
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I'm sure that you've had lousy sushi
before, but...
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I don't think you've been
with another woman for a long time.
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- Isn't that correct?
- But you know what happened.
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So why do you have to hear it from me?
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You're very preoccupied with
who knows what and who said what.
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What's important
is how you felt about it,
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how the experience was for you.
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The sex?
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The sex is all that anyone
wants to talk about.
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But is it really as important
as you people make it out to be?
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Well, you tell me.
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I know that's what it says in all
your textbooks. I know that.
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But I ask myself,
"Is it really the key to everything?
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"Or is it just the simplest answer?"
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but you're the one who started the story
by saying that the sex was the issue,
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that all the rest was just... foreplay.
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Okay, I'll tell you what happened.
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Otherwise you won't feel
like you're doing your job, right?
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But before I start,
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there's something I've gotta know.
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Did you ever jerk off
to anything a patient told you?
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What?
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Come on.
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Come on, you must hear
some crazy stories from women...
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Explicit shit, fantasies.
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Did you ever jerk off afterwards?
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Are you concerned that I'll masturbate
to something that you tell me?
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Me? No.
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I'm talking about you've got women
they sit here on your couch.
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They tell you all about fucking.
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It must get to you sometimes.
I know it would get to me.
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Do you masturbate?
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There you go again, you're answering
a question with a question.
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All right, i'll answer with an answer.
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I'm a human being.
I masturbate sometimes.
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My fantasies are
about many many things,
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all sorts of women.
Is that what you wanted to hear?
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That in that regard i'm not that
substantially different from you?
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That's the first time you've ever
answered one of my questions.
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In any case, you won't masturbate
to me and Laura's story.
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I guarantee you that.
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You may think of it the next time
you're having sex with your wife
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and you're trying not to come.
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It must have been a very...
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complex experience for you,
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being with...
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Being with another woman
after all this time.
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Complex, right.
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I gave a shitty performance.
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I made every possible mistake.
I was a mess,
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to tell you the truth.
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During dinner, before we had sex,
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I started thinking about my first date
with my wife Michaela
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about 15 years ago.
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Jesus.
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We had gone out to this bar together,
at the time she was the liberal type.
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She'd talk openly about everything...
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Foreplay, favorite positions,
cuddling afterwards...
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"cosmo" type bullshit.
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And among other things, she told me
that researchers found that wine
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arouses women sexually
and represses men's sexual desires.
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Have you ever heard that?
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I don't know what made me do it,
but at one point
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during my conversation with laura,
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we hit one of those deadly silences.
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I suddenly told her that
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alcohol sexually represses men,
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while women, it...
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And she... of course,
she didn't respond.
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She just gave me one of those looks
saying, "Why are you telling me this?"
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- Why did you tell her?
- I don't know.
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Maybe it was a way to...
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move the conversation in a sexual
direction, make things go forward.
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A kind of signal that
she had been cleared to attack.
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Is that what you wanted?
For her to... attack?
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Do you think that she
understood the signal?
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Yeah.
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- Is there another way of getting it?
- It might have sounded like
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an apology in advance
that you didn't have any...
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real sexual...
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desire for her.
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I don't think so.
She wasn't even too fazed by it.
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She just changed the subject right away,
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like I had said something nasty,
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something inappropriate
at the table with all that sushi.
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And that's what pissed me off.
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Like all her faggy doctor friends
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she hangs out with always say
exactly the right thing.
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So listen, the first chance I got,
I looked her right in the eye and I said
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"Baby, I have to go to the bathroom.
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"I'm a bit nervous.
It's my first time
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"since I left my wife."
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This time she could barely
squeeze out a smile,
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even a phony one. And from then on,
every few minutes, i'd mention my wife
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and the separation...
Even in bed.
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I did it every chance
I got just to see her squirm.
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I think I got her
completely out of the mood.
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She was totally turned off.
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We had sex.
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It was more like two animals mating.
252
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I wasn't that hard
and I came pretty fast.
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Even on the way to the shower
I threw in another
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"I'm sorry, it was my first time
in so many years," just for dessert.
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I don't know why I kept saying it.
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Were you thinking about your wife?
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No.
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Or feeling guilty maybe?
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No, why would i?
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Well, because any of those reactions
would have been natural, Alex.
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We haven't talked about your...
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Your separation,
how you feel about it.
263
00:15:00,544 --> 00:15:02,280
No, that's not what this is about.
264
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The separation
was the right thing to do.
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I haven't even looked back on that.
Don't you get off topic.
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What is the topic?
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Do our stories match, me and laura's?
That's what I want to know.
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Look, on the one hand,
you describe this feeling of...
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helplessness, weakness,
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as if you were dragged
into sex against your will.
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You feel that you didn't
perform too well,
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so you felt...
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Somewhat humiliated.
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Then to gain back
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some strength and control,
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you make these references
to your wife...
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in order to belittle Laura.
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Belittle her?
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You really make some
pretty far-out connections.
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She belittled me.
Her whole attitude is...
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- It's patronizing.
- You're sure?
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You're the one who suddenly felt weak,
so you attacked.
283
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You wanted to regain control.
284
00:16:04,862 --> 00:16:07,699
It reminds me of the beginning
of our session when you came in here.
285
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You were vulnerable from
what happened at the base.
286
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You give me the envelope from Laura
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and then you throw your money
on the table,
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as if you wanted to humiliate me,
to make me feel small.
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How's your machine?
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It's good.
Thank you.
291
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Are the clients happy?
292
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I'm gonna make me some coffee,
by the way, if you want some.
293
00:16:34,921 --> 00:16:36,902
If you've decided
to stop being a tea man.
294
00:16:37,091 --> 00:16:39,861
Alex, can we get back to this, please?
295
00:16:40,222 --> 00:16:44,114
We're onto something here
and I don't want to lose track.
296
00:16:44,292 --> 00:16:46,297
Just give me a second here, okay?
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I realize we're onto something.
I just need a break.
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Respect that.
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I want you to tell me something...
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Honestly.
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Do you really think you can help me?
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00:17:51,351 --> 00:17:54,430
If we sit here and
we talk about fucking a few times...
303
00:17:56,738 --> 00:17:58,532
You'll be able to solve all my problems?
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00:18:00,785 --> 00:18:03,084
I don't have the
answer to that question.
305
00:18:06,868 --> 00:18:08,540
Yeah, I knew you'd say that.
306
00:18:09,957 --> 00:18:11,874
You know, that's what
kills me about you people.
307
00:18:12,004 --> 00:18:13,798
'Cause any other professional...
308
00:18:14,151 --> 00:18:17,625
I go to a doctor, he takes a look
and he says, "This is what you got.
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"This is how long you have to live."
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If I went to a mechanic, he'd say,
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"$2,000, it'll be good as new."
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But you people,
you don't guarantee shit.
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Can I tell you a story?
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What kind of story?
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It's a jewish parable
that a friend of mine told me.
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These two friends are condemned
to death, but the king...
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He liked them
and he didn't want to kill them.
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So instead, he tied...
319
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a thin rope across this abyss,
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00:18:59,422 --> 00:19:03,413
and he told them both
to walk over the rope.
321
00:19:04,520 --> 00:19:08,051
Whoever made it to the other side
would be allowed to live.
322
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So the first one walked over the rope,
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and he makes it safely
to the other side.
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And after he made it,
his friend yells out to him,
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"How did you do it?"
326
00:19:23,091 --> 00:19:24,582
And the other guy answered,
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"I have no idea.
328
00:19:27,917 --> 00:19:29,321
"All I know is that...
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00:19:29,696 --> 00:19:33,687
"whenever my weight pulled me
to one side...
330
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"I leaned to the other."
331
00:19:46,426 --> 00:19:48,351
It ain't exactly Lord of the Rings.
332
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True.
333
00:19:55,748 --> 00:19:57,138
So what does it mean?
334
00:19:57,739 --> 00:20:00,067
That you have to maintain balance
in your life?
335
00:20:00,338 --> 00:20:02,523
I think what it means is
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00:20:02,653 --> 00:20:05,868
that there are no simple ways
of jumping over an abyss,
337
00:20:06,629 --> 00:20:08,648
or ways that work for everyone.
338
00:20:08,826 --> 00:20:11,229
I think what you're looking for, alex,
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00:20:11,417 --> 00:20:14,854
is a million-dollar magic trick,
and I don't have that.
340
00:20:15,974 --> 00:20:19,899
I truly believe there is no simple way
to jump across an abyss.
341
00:20:20,303 --> 00:20:21,984
Instead, we have to work in
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small internal steps.
343
00:20:26,374 --> 00:20:29,417
The question is whether you want us,
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00:20:29,600 --> 00:20:32,205
you and i, to engage in that process.
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00:20:35,628 --> 00:20:37,243
Eyes on your instruments.
346
00:20:37,750 --> 00:20:38,966
What do you mean?
347
00:20:40,480 --> 00:20:42,898
It's one of the basic
principles in aviation.
348
00:20:43,180 --> 00:20:44,823
You ever heard of vertigo?
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00:20:45,217 --> 00:20:46,298
Sure.
350
00:20:46,428 --> 00:20:50,288
When you go into vertigo
your directional perception changes.
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00:20:50,579 --> 00:20:52,475
You're spatially disoriented.
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00:20:53,250 --> 00:20:56,640
You'd be flying at mach 2 nose
down and think you're taking off.
353
00:20:57,015 --> 00:21:00,001
So that's the first thing
they teach you at pilot school.
354
00:21:00,856 --> 00:21:04,384
You go into vertigo, you look
only at your aircraft's instruments.
355
00:21:05,558 --> 00:21:07,438
Ignore your feelings completely.
356
00:21:07,568 --> 00:21:10,200
Rely on your instruments.
That's what the air controller tells you
357
00:21:10,330 --> 00:21:13,635
if he thinks you're freaking out,
and that's what you're telling me now.
358
00:21:14,096 --> 00:21:15,627
Eyes on your instruments.
359
00:21:16,979 --> 00:21:18,561
So you want me to...
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00:21:19,283 --> 00:21:22,090
put myself into your hands.
You wanna navigate me.
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00:21:22,841 --> 00:21:24,090
Rely on you.
362
00:21:25,506 --> 00:21:28,306
And on one hand, you're right.
That's why I came in the first place.
363
00:21:28,436 --> 00:21:31,722
But keeping my eyes on the instruments
is what got me here.
364
00:21:32,868 --> 00:21:34,408
What do you mean?
365
00:21:34,856 --> 00:21:37,458
'Cause I kept my eyes on the instrument,
I dropped that bomb
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00:21:37,588 --> 00:21:39,252
so accurately into that window.
367
00:21:39,382 --> 00:21:41,357
I relied only on my commanders.
368
00:21:42,794 --> 00:21:44,484
And I killed innocent people.
369
00:21:51,576 --> 00:21:53,463
And now I'm supposed to rely on you.
370
00:21:53,651 --> 00:21:56,092
Alex, I don't want you to rely on me.
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00:21:57,348 --> 00:22:01,170
I want you to rely on yourself,
on your own feelings.
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00:22:01,599 --> 00:22:03,993
The most I can ever be to you is...
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00:22:04,660 --> 00:22:08,023
an air traffic controller
who tells you to try to ignore
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00:22:08,153 --> 00:22:10,227
the expectations of everybody else.
375
00:22:10,409 --> 00:22:12,851
It's the expectations that give you...
376
00:22:13,489 --> 00:22:15,038
That give you vertigo.
377
00:22:25,787 --> 00:22:27,218
What's the first step,
378
00:22:27,657 --> 00:22:29,850
- on the way to my new life?
- Well, what...
379
00:22:30,023 --> 00:22:31,638
What would you like to do?
380
00:22:37,136 --> 00:22:39,164
I think I'll go fuck her again.
381
00:22:40,075 --> 00:22:42,357
Yeah, I'll fuck her,
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00:22:42,972 --> 00:22:46,063
well and proper this time.
I'll fuck her slow and good.
383
00:22:46,193 --> 00:22:48,174
I'll take my time up into that...
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00:22:48,706 --> 00:22:51,120
sweet, hot little pussy.
385
00:22:52,153 --> 00:22:53,600
I mean, what's the big deal?
386
00:22:53,730 --> 00:22:56,303
She thinks she's the belle of the ball.
Fuck that.
387
00:22:56,679 --> 00:22:59,331
She must be pretty miserable
if she's coming to see you, right?
388
00:22:59,487 --> 00:23:02,577
Don't assume that everybody
who comes to see me is miserable, alex.
389
00:23:02,707 --> 00:23:05,520
Look, doc, when I came to pick her up
from here yesterday
390
00:23:05,650 --> 00:23:07,631
she was like a complete psychopath.
391
00:23:07,803 --> 00:23:10,336
One minute she's hugging me,
completely over the top
392
00:23:10,466 --> 00:23:11,945
like we're in some kind of movie.
393
00:23:12,096 --> 00:23:14,741
The next minute, I close the car door,
and she's like, "Take me home.
394
00:23:14,871 --> 00:23:17,825
"I'm too tired to do anything today."
I mean, what the fuck?
395
00:23:18,201 --> 00:23:19,928
She turned as cold as ice.
396
00:23:20,251 --> 00:23:22,430
She was two totally different people.
397
00:23:22,607 --> 00:23:25,626
- Go figure what goes through her head.
- Listen to what you're saying.
398
00:23:25,955 --> 00:23:27,491
You're belittling her again.
399
00:23:27,664 --> 00:23:29,730
Hey, you don't think she belittles me?
400
00:23:30,059 --> 00:23:33,998
You don't think I know she's completely
and totally hung up on someone else?
401
00:23:38,348 --> 00:23:39,382
Check this out.
402
00:23:39,512 --> 00:23:42,667
Saturday, after we had sex,
she straddles my leg.
403
00:23:43,248 --> 00:23:45,337
She starts rubbing up against me
404
00:23:45,549 --> 00:23:47,334
as if i'm not even there.
405
00:23:47,464 --> 00:23:50,544
It so obvious she's fantasizing
about somebody else.
406
00:23:50,994 --> 00:23:53,633
And then she starts crying.
407
00:23:54,645 --> 00:23:55,787
Tears and everything.
408
00:23:55,917 --> 00:23:59,963
She's just crying, and I ask her,
"Laura, what's up?
409
00:24:01,210 --> 00:24:02,412
"Everything okay?"
410
00:24:04,277 --> 00:24:05,911
She doesn't even look at me.
411
00:24:06,616 --> 00:24:08,315
She doesn't even answer me,
412
00:24:08,822 --> 00:24:10,926
like I'm just her dildo. So...
413
00:24:12,796 --> 00:24:14,656
Don't tell me I belittle her, okay?
414
00:24:30,463 --> 00:24:33,759
I know this is going to sound crazy
after everything I just said...
415
00:24:38,108 --> 00:24:40,979
But do you think we have
a chance together, me and laura?
416
00:24:41,402 --> 00:24:44,260
- If we really work at it?
- I don't know, Alex.
417
00:24:44,410 --> 00:24:45,950
I couldn't even...
418
00:24:48,309 --> 00:24:50,403
I don't know that.
419
00:24:50,646 --> 00:24:52,176
I think it could happen.
420
00:24:52,879 --> 00:24:55,823
I mean, like you said, doc,
it's a long series of...
421
00:24:56,086 --> 00:24:57,550
small steps, right?
422
00:24:57,872 --> 00:24:59,177
Yes it is.
423
00:25:05,454 --> 00:25:08,328
Well, our time is up for today.
424
00:25:09,275 --> 00:25:10,439
Already?
425
00:25:14,073 --> 00:25:16,047
Why don't we continue next week
426
00:25:16,177 --> 00:25:19,538
where we left off today, okay?
427
00:25:39,459 --> 00:25:41,309
- Thanks.
- You're welcome.