1 00:00:00,366 --> 00:00:02,498 Previously on In Treatment... 2 00:00:03,756 --> 00:00:05,497 Charmed, I'm sure. 3 00:00:05,667 --> 00:00:09,044 So yesterday, I marched into the gym and I got up on the beam. 4 00:00:09,306 --> 00:00:11,944 When I looked back at my feet, they were right on the beam. 5 00:00:12,951 --> 00:00:14,473 Sophie, look at me. 6 00:00:15,095 --> 00:00:16,552 What goes on in there? 7 00:00:17,164 --> 00:00:19,064 The new guy with the Tequila. 8 00:00:19,358 --> 00:00:20,472 We had sex and... 9 00:00:20,767 --> 00:00:24,436 Afterwards he said that I fucked like someone who's been sexually abused. 10 00:00:28,517 --> 00:00:29,514 Prick! 11 00:00:32,031 --> 00:00:33,758 I'm trying to kill myself. 12 00:00:47,541 --> 00:00:48,670 Oh, god. 13 00:00:59,085 --> 00:01:01,892 Do you know what that lipstick color reminds me of? 14 00:01:02,913 --> 00:01:04,388 Dog shit. 15 00:01:04,882 --> 00:01:07,045 That's right, Sophie. Keep it up. 16 00:01:07,215 --> 00:01:09,606 That's right, Olivia. Keep feeling sorry for yourself. 17 00:01:18,103 --> 00:01:20,240 Do we have to wait until exactly 4:00? 18 00:01:20,502 --> 00:01:23,005 If you and your surgical enhancements step into that room, 19 00:01:23,175 --> 00:01:25,287 I'm never coming back here... Ever. 20 00:01:25,548 --> 00:01:27,159 He asked me to come. 21 00:01:28,021 --> 00:01:31,711 You promised you wouldn't go back to the gym unless he said it was okay. 22 00:01:33,671 --> 00:01:36,549 You make it seem like I'm going to contaminate the place or something. 23 00:01:36,719 --> 00:01:39,304 - I'm sure you will. - Oh, Sophie, back off. 24 00:01:39,536 --> 00:01:43,409 Why couldn't you just call him? They have this thing called a telephone. 25 00:01:43,579 --> 00:01:45,924 If I would've called him and he said you shouldn't train, 26 00:01:46,094 --> 00:01:48,207 you would've said I was lying. 27 00:01:48,377 --> 00:01:52,357 I just want to be in the room with you when he answers us. 28 00:01:53,224 --> 00:01:55,485 There is no us. I'm leaving. 29 00:01:55,932 --> 00:01:56,937 Sophie. 30 00:01:57,942 --> 00:01:58,965 Please? 31 00:01:59,885 --> 00:02:01,313 You promised. 32 00:02:12,971 --> 00:02:15,653 Subtitles: jayson.sosweet, Ju, michvanilly 33 00:02:22,688 --> 00:02:25,223 1x23: Sophie-Week 5 34 00:02:34,395 --> 00:02:36,567 Hello, Olivia. Nice to meet you, finally. 35 00:02:36,829 --> 00:02:38,987 - You too. - Come on in. Sophie. 36 00:02:41,825 --> 00:02:44,048 That's okay, I'm just gonna be a minute. 37 00:02:44,218 --> 00:02:45,869 Why don't we take that minute inside? 38 00:02:46,306 --> 00:02:49,336 - I don't want to intrude. - You're not intruding. I called you. 39 00:02:49,506 --> 00:02:50,956 I don't want to be in the way. 40 00:02:51,218 --> 00:02:54,320 I promise you nothing terrible will happen if you come inside. 41 00:02:54,490 --> 00:02:56,307 Don't bet the farm on that. 42 00:03:02,798 --> 00:03:06,181 She says she won't come back to therapy if I go in. I don't know what to do. 43 00:03:06,441 --> 00:03:08,600 I think it'll be fine. Come on. 44 00:03:20,325 --> 00:03:22,655 Sophie, can you take your bag off the couch, please? 45 00:03:27,571 --> 00:03:28,578 Thank you. 46 00:03:29,368 --> 00:03:30,376 Please. 47 00:03:43,155 --> 00:03:44,760 I asked you both here today... 48 00:03:44,930 --> 00:03:47,180 Just tell her that I can keep training. 49 00:03:47,794 --> 00:03:49,604 Otherwise I'm stuck at home with her. 50 00:03:49,774 --> 00:03:51,624 She promised she wouldn't go back to training 51 00:03:51,794 --> 00:03:53,985 - unless you said it was okay. - I never said that. 52 00:03:54,155 --> 00:03:56,356 20 minutes ago, you said you wouldn't go back 53 00:03:56,616 --> 00:03:58,931 - unless Paul... - I'll listen to what Paul has to say, 54 00:03:59,101 --> 00:04:00,317 not do what he says. 55 00:04:00,578 --> 00:04:02,648 God, you're like the queen of selective hearing. 56 00:04:02,818 --> 00:04:05,076 It seems crazy to me, after all she's been through, 57 00:04:05,246 --> 00:04:07,548 for her to just waltz back into the gym. 58 00:04:07,718 --> 00:04:09,929 It's not like she's injured. 59 00:04:10,099 --> 00:04:11,674 - That's not the problem. - You are. 60 00:04:11,844 --> 00:04:13,488 I'm the problem. Right. Always. 61 00:04:13,658 --> 00:04:16,826 Yes, always. You're one gargantuan problem. 62 00:04:19,687 --> 00:04:21,160 Let me ask you something, Sophie. 63 00:04:21,330 --> 00:04:23,675 Do you feel that you are ready to go back 64 00:04:24,006 --> 00:04:25,584 - to training? - Yes. 65 00:04:25,754 --> 00:04:28,616 But you can also understand how your mom is... 66 00:04:28,786 --> 00:04:30,363 a little bit concerned about that. 67 00:04:30,533 --> 00:04:33,059 She's a crazy bitch. Nobody understands her. 68 00:04:33,522 --> 00:04:35,061 I think I understand her. 69 00:04:43,563 --> 00:04:44,840 If I stay at home with her, 70 00:04:45,010 --> 00:04:47,197 I will either slit my wrists or I'll go postal, 71 00:04:47,459 --> 00:04:48,991 they'll shut me in the loony bin. 72 00:04:49,252 --> 00:04:51,826 And you won't be there to get me out next time. 73 00:04:56,117 --> 00:04:59,243 I think your mom is concerned about whether you're ready... 74 00:04:59,525 --> 00:05:03,036 mentally for the stress you'll be under when you go back. 75 00:05:03,391 --> 00:05:04,982 I can deal with stress. 76 00:05:05,309 --> 00:05:08,136 If you can't, you don't belong there. It's not for sissies. 77 00:05:08,306 --> 00:05:09,929 - Why are you sighing? - I'm not. 78 00:05:10,189 --> 00:05:13,602 - I just heard you. You were sighing. - Just breathing. Not allowed anymore? 79 00:05:18,659 --> 00:05:20,383 If I don't try out for the olympics, 80 00:05:20,553 --> 00:05:23,209 - I'll kill myself for real. - Sophie, enough. 81 00:05:23,379 --> 00:05:24,736 No more threats. 82 00:05:25,414 --> 00:05:26,422 No more. 83 00:05:33,781 --> 00:05:35,330 - Thank you, doctor. - Shut up. 84 00:05:35,829 --> 00:05:38,825 What are you even doing here? Get your own life and butt out of mine? 85 00:05:38,995 --> 00:05:41,524 That's right, because my very presence makes any space I enter 86 00:05:41,694 --> 00:05:43,354 automatically toxic to you. 87 00:05:43,524 --> 00:05:45,720 - I hope my money isn't toxic too. - I don't need it. 88 00:05:45,890 --> 00:05:48,217 Right, you can always fall back on your father's money. 89 00:05:58,498 --> 00:06:01,346 So what is it, Paul? To train or not to train? 90 00:06:06,444 --> 00:06:09,149 Olivia, I understand your concerns, 91 00:06:09,965 --> 00:06:12,575 and why you wouldn't want Sophie to go back to the gym. 92 00:06:14,480 --> 00:06:17,564 But, and I have given this a great deal of thought, 93 00:06:20,181 --> 00:06:24,295 I do think that Sophie should continue her program of training. 94 00:06:26,688 --> 00:06:27,692 What? 95 00:06:29,379 --> 00:06:30,259 Are you sure? 96 00:06:31,219 --> 00:06:32,026 Yes. 97 00:06:32,739 --> 00:06:35,431 - I think that the gym is a place... - Okay, but... 98 00:06:37,176 --> 00:06:39,479 I don't know. See, I just thought 99 00:06:39,649 --> 00:06:41,593 - after everything... - Are you deaf? 100 00:06:41,763 --> 00:06:42,850 No, I'm not deaf. 101 00:06:43,020 --> 00:06:45,148 - So you heard him? - Yes, I heard him. 102 00:06:45,409 --> 00:06:46,859 So why are you still talking? 103 00:06:50,349 --> 00:06:52,073 Here come the waterworks. 104 00:06:55,512 --> 00:06:57,577 - I'm gonna wait in the car. - Hallelujah! 105 00:06:57,839 --> 00:07:00,160 - I'd prefer if you stayed. - If she stays, I'm so out. 106 00:07:00,549 --> 00:07:02,113 I can see myself out. 107 00:07:05,401 --> 00:07:06,868 - Dr. Weston. - Paul. 108 00:07:08,978 --> 00:07:10,660 I never got a chance to thank you 109 00:07:10,830 --> 00:07:13,510 for all the strings that you pulled at the hospital. 110 00:07:13,816 --> 00:07:17,026 If it wasn't for you, they'd have committed her for god knows how long. 111 00:07:17,196 --> 00:07:19,541 Actually, it doesn't quite work like that. 112 00:07:19,711 --> 00:07:22,952 She would have had an uncomfortable night or two, but... 113 00:07:25,770 --> 00:07:27,497 In any case, thank you. 114 00:07:42,344 --> 00:07:44,470 Make sure she walked away. She could still be there, 115 00:07:44,640 --> 00:07:48,022 - listening through the door. - She's not listening at the door. 116 00:07:48,773 --> 00:07:49,964 She's gone. 117 00:07:58,777 --> 00:08:00,689 You're pretty confident today. 118 00:08:01,346 --> 00:08:02,520 Confident how? 119 00:08:04,188 --> 00:08:06,972 Sending me back to the gym like nothing happened. 120 00:08:07,701 --> 00:08:09,901 Where do you think my confidence comes from? 121 00:08:10,193 --> 00:08:12,612 Special delivery from old people land. 122 00:08:15,844 --> 00:08:19,083 I'm confident because I think I've figured out why... 123 00:08:19,604 --> 00:08:22,170 Why you took those pills in my bathroom last week. 124 00:08:26,345 --> 00:08:28,429 I think you were testing me, Sophie. 125 00:08:29,443 --> 00:08:31,284 And I passed the test. 126 00:08:31,565 --> 00:08:32,636 Barely... 127 00:08:33,135 --> 00:08:34,504 But I did pass it. 128 00:08:34,833 --> 00:08:36,814 So maybe you can trust me now, 129 00:08:37,759 --> 00:08:39,120 'cause I trust you. 130 00:08:43,779 --> 00:08:45,787 One thing that bothers me, though: 131 00:08:46,648 --> 00:08:49,494 what if you decided to test somebody else, 132 00:08:49,664 --> 00:08:51,484 and they didn't know it was a test? 133 00:08:52,772 --> 00:08:54,612 Doesn't matter to me. I'd be dead. 134 00:08:55,212 --> 00:08:57,989 I think one of the things that we need to figure out is... 135 00:08:58,250 --> 00:09:00,694 what you find so attractive about... 136 00:09:01,016 --> 00:09:02,086 About dying. 137 00:09:03,378 --> 00:09:05,241 What does dying mean to you? 138 00:09:07,762 --> 00:09:09,772 - Freedom. - Freedom from what? 139 00:09:09,997 --> 00:09:11,978 You and your stupid questions. 140 00:09:13,546 --> 00:09:14,775 And what else? 141 00:09:17,564 --> 00:09:18,606 My mother. 142 00:09:19,052 --> 00:09:21,633 So you think death is the only way to escape your mother? 143 00:09:21,803 --> 00:09:24,009 I'm pretty sure even death won't do. 144 00:09:24,179 --> 00:09:27,388 Well, let me ask you this: if your mom wasn't around... 145 00:09:28,072 --> 00:09:30,260 Would you still want to die? 146 00:09:31,797 --> 00:09:33,650 I have no idea, dipshit. 147 00:09:33,911 --> 00:09:35,740 Oh, I'm irritating you now. 148 00:09:50,368 --> 00:09:53,314 See, what you're doing now is you're shutting me out. 149 00:09:53,863 --> 00:09:55,590 Is that what you do to your mom? 150 00:09:59,479 --> 00:10:01,293 What else does death, 151 00:10:02,363 --> 00:10:03,424 mean to you? 152 00:10:09,250 --> 00:10:10,443 Sleeping well. 153 00:10:11,436 --> 00:10:13,234 And what does sleeping well mean? 154 00:10:13,404 --> 00:10:14,543 Not feeling. 155 00:10:15,120 --> 00:10:16,534 Not feeling what? 156 00:10:17,520 --> 00:10:18,565 Anything. 157 00:10:21,195 --> 00:10:23,323 When you say "not feeling anything", 158 00:10:23,493 --> 00:10:25,527 do you mean feeling... 159 00:10:27,535 --> 00:10:28,664 Like, calm? 160 00:10:37,924 --> 00:10:40,879 Is there anyplace in your life where you feel calm? 161 00:10:43,326 --> 00:10:45,136 Not here, that's for sure. 162 00:10:45,742 --> 00:10:48,541 Okay, tell me what you feel when you're here. 163 00:11:02,104 --> 00:11:05,231 Would you like to talk about what happened last week? 164 00:11:09,831 --> 00:11:12,520 We went to a pretty painful place. 165 00:11:13,976 --> 00:11:15,456 It was a place of... 166 00:11:17,025 --> 00:11:18,219 Great feeling. 167 00:11:18,868 --> 00:11:20,532 And then suddenly you... 168 00:11:21,941 --> 00:11:24,689 You went to the bathroom and you put yourself to sleep. 169 00:11:27,903 --> 00:11:28,807 Go on. 170 00:11:31,813 --> 00:11:33,351 I can't describe it. 171 00:11:35,382 --> 00:11:37,909 - What can't you describe? - What I felt, Paul. 172 00:11:38,079 --> 00:11:40,637 God. Does everything have to be talked about? 173 00:11:41,420 --> 00:11:44,339 - It's too fucking hard. - I need you to try, sophie. 174 00:11:44,509 --> 00:11:45,365 - You try. 175 00:11:45,626 --> 00:11:48,360 You want me to try to express what you feel? 176 00:12:00,316 --> 00:12:03,405 I tried to make myself throw up but nothing came out. 177 00:12:10,905 --> 00:12:13,874 Do you remember after the accident, you said, 178 00:12:15,525 --> 00:12:17,302 "I finally killed her"? 179 00:12:19,557 --> 00:12:21,382 What did you mean by that? 180 00:12:22,501 --> 00:12:23,655 I don't know. 181 00:12:27,210 --> 00:12:29,480 We have these two sides to our personalities, 182 00:12:29,650 --> 00:12:31,878 the weak side and the strong side 183 00:12:32,339 --> 00:12:34,647 They're constantly in conflict with each other. 184 00:12:34,817 --> 00:12:36,434 Sometimes the weaker side 185 00:12:36,660 --> 00:12:39,185 is sneaky and it's crafty, and it wins. 186 00:12:40,253 --> 00:12:43,346 For example, when you let somebody buy you shoes 187 00:12:43,516 --> 00:12:47,136 that you don't really want or when you have sex with somebody 188 00:12:48,051 --> 00:12:50,904 that you don't really want to have sex with. 189 00:12:53,122 --> 00:12:56,914 See, when it comes to sports, you're completely confident on the beam. 190 00:12:57,084 --> 00:12:59,106 You are really powerful. 191 00:12:59,890 --> 00:13:01,927 But off the beam, when you're not a gymnast, 192 00:13:02,097 --> 00:13:04,235 when you're just a girl, when you're a young woman, 193 00:13:04,496 --> 00:13:06,507 that part of you is less secure. 194 00:13:07,881 --> 00:13:08,691 And, 195 00:13:09,825 --> 00:13:13,082 you seem more... What's the word I'm looking for? More... 196 00:13:14,156 --> 00:13:16,957 - Susceptible. do you... - I know what susceptible means. 197 00:13:23,173 --> 00:13:24,558 I hate that part of me. 198 00:13:24,893 --> 00:13:26,735 But they're both you. 199 00:13:40,089 --> 00:13:42,900 So do you really think it's okay if I go back to training? 200 00:13:44,837 --> 00:13:45,941 Yes, I do. 201 00:13:46,563 --> 00:13:47,972 But here's the thing: 202 00:13:50,379 --> 00:13:53,312 I want you to know that I'm going to be here for you, 203 00:13:53,710 --> 00:13:54,744 anytime. 204 00:13:55,375 --> 00:13:58,749 All you have to do is just call me. But on one condition: 205 00:13:59,368 --> 00:14:01,793 I want you to know this and understand it really clearly. 206 00:14:02,055 --> 00:14:04,264 I will not treat you under the threat of suicide. 207 00:14:04,434 --> 00:14:06,074 Do you understand me? 208 00:14:10,580 --> 00:14:12,887 And if I don't agree, then I can't go back to the gym. 209 00:14:13,148 --> 00:14:15,573 Then you cannot come back here, ever. 210 00:14:27,189 --> 00:14:28,586 Do we have a deal? 211 00:14:39,489 --> 00:14:42,036 You said before that I was testing you. 212 00:14:42,206 --> 00:14:44,300 You said that you barely passed. 213 00:14:44,628 --> 00:14:46,596 The fact that you were testing me at all, 214 00:14:46,766 --> 00:14:48,996 that's a kind of a failure for me, 215 00:14:49,383 --> 00:14:52,364 that you should feel you had to test my love for you. 216 00:14:53,457 --> 00:14:54,804 Your love? 217 00:14:55,557 --> 00:14:58,726 Yeah. I can't treat somebody that I don't love. 218 00:15:01,445 --> 00:15:05,019 I have to find something in each of my patients that I love. 219 00:15:05,676 --> 00:15:07,610 Otherwise I won't be able to treat them. 220 00:15:09,340 --> 00:15:11,385 I bet you had to search me with a magnifying glass 221 00:15:11,555 --> 00:15:13,370 to find something to love. 222 00:15:17,926 --> 00:15:19,692 I remember the first day that you came here 223 00:15:19,862 --> 00:15:22,495 and you were walking around the office and you... 224 00:15:22,665 --> 00:15:25,211 And you asked me about these boats. You said to me, 225 00:15:26,970 --> 00:15:29,507 "Are these here because you don't really sail?" 226 00:15:30,539 --> 00:15:32,007 And I said, "Yeah." 227 00:15:32,704 --> 00:15:33,898 And you said, 228 00:15:34,136 --> 00:15:36,532 "Well, maybe you should make one of those glass windows 229 00:15:36,702 --> 00:15:39,867 like they have on boats, so that you can see the world." 230 00:15:40,037 --> 00:15:41,519 Do you remember that? 231 00:15:42,363 --> 00:15:43,961 When you said that... 232 00:15:45,658 --> 00:15:49,427 I think that's when I started to... To love who you are. 233 00:16:00,997 --> 00:16:02,757 You say it like it's easy. 234 00:16:03,579 --> 00:16:06,472 You're not used to people saying "I love you"? 235 00:16:08,073 --> 00:16:09,106 My dad. 236 00:16:10,891 --> 00:16:13,509 - He tells you that? - He doesn't have to. 237 00:16:16,871 --> 00:16:20,432 I was surprised I didn't see him in the hospital when I visited you. 238 00:16:21,415 --> 00:16:22,871 You just missed him. 239 00:16:25,771 --> 00:16:28,130 What does he do, do you think, 240 00:16:28,403 --> 00:16:30,505 to earn your love? 241 00:16:31,902 --> 00:16:32,706 Why? 242 00:16:32,876 --> 00:16:35,864 Maybe I can steal his secrets and give them to your mom. 243 00:16:37,465 --> 00:16:38,474 Hilarious. 244 00:16:43,476 --> 00:16:45,883 How do you know he does love you if he doesn't say it? 245 00:16:46,260 --> 00:16:48,138 I don't need to hear him say it. 246 00:16:48,308 --> 00:16:50,483 Words are bullshit. Everybody lies. 247 00:16:56,668 --> 00:16:57,983 I feel his love. 248 00:16:59,498 --> 00:17:02,265 And he feels me, even when I'm far away. 249 00:17:11,048 --> 00:17:12,668 Want to know a secret? 250 00:17:13,028 --> 00:17:15,069 I have to wear glasses all the time. 251 00:17:15,330 --> 00:17:18,532 Most of the time I walk around half-blind. Do you know why? 252 00:17:19,734 --> 00:17:22,105 - Why? - 'Cause I prefer it that way. 253 00:17:22,481 --> 00:17:25,240 With my glasses on, everything is too sharp. 254 00:17:25,601 --> 00:17:27,735 Without them, everyone looks... 255 00:17:28,193 --> 00:17:29,918 Looks like they've got perfect skin. 256 00:17:30,179 --> 00:17:32,421 So my mother must look like a supermodel to you. 257 00:17:37,900 --> 00:17:39,207 Why are you telling me this? 258 00:17:39,377 --> 00:17:42,254 I think your father looks better in the distance, 259 00:17:42,428 --> 00:17:43,524 far away, 260 00:17:44,360 --> 00:17:47,225 blurry. But your mother is right up close, 261 00:17:47,395 --> 00:17:49,851 and she's kind of painfully clear. 262 00:17:51,959 --> 00:17:54,183 I'm really over this conversation. 263 00:17:56,392 --> 00:18:00,166 Before you passed out last week, you said something about models, 264 00:18:01,046 --> 00:18:03,994 something about a photo shoot not beginning on time. 265 00:18:04,255 --> 00:18:07,629 I remember that you told me that your dad was a photographer. 266 00:18:08,630 --> 00:18:11,293 Did your dad work with... With models? 267 00:18:11,553 --> 00:18:13,420 Why are you picking on him? 268 00:18:13,758 --> 00:18:16,897 My dad is the only person in this world who really loves me. 269 00:18:17,067 --> 00:18:19,551 Why is that so hard for you to get your head around? 270 00:18:22,542 --> 00:18:24,045 What are you doing? 271 00:18:24,489 --> 00:18:26,875 I forgot to give you the money to pay Paul. 272 00:18:27,045 --> 00:18:30,396 - Are you listening through the door? - Of course not. I was in the car. 273 00:18:31,221 --> 00:18:33,184 I'm not gonna let her go back to the gym. 274 00:18:33,451 --> 00:18:35,358 That place is killing her. 275 00:18:35,672 --> 00:18:38,612 Who are you to take the risk? She almost died here 276 00:18:38,872 --> 00:18:40,855 on your sofa, and you're just 277 00:18:41,025 --> 00:18:43,385 dusting her off and sending her back. 278 00:18:44,687 --> 00:18:46,488 - No. - If you don't get away from him, 279 00:18:46,658 --> 00:18:48,917 I'm leaving here and I'm never coming back. 280 00:18:49,087 --> 00:18:50,725 - I'll go to dad. - To dad's? 281 00:18:50,895 --> 00:18:51,890 I will. 282 00:18:52,610 --> 00:18:55,000 - Good. Go ahead. - I will. 283 00:18:56,057 --> 00:18:58,582 Cry a little harder, mom. That's great. 284 00:18:58,969 --> 00:19:01,857 If I brought home a medal, you'd probably drown in your own tears. 285 00:19:02,027 --> 00:19:03,636 If you brought home a... 286 00:19:03,897 --> 00:19:07,057 Stop making me look like a monster in front of the shrink! 287 00:19:12,588 --> 00:19:14,240 Yes. 288 00:19:14,467 --> 00:19:17,608 Yes, I think that the competition is insane 289 00:19:17,869 --> 00:19:20,810 and you're putting unbelievable stress on your young body, 290 00:19:20,980 --> 00:19:23,699 but I am so proud of your accomplishments. 291 00:19:27,076 --> 00:19:29,490 Isn't every mother proud of their daughter? 292 00:19:29,660 --> 00:19:32,957 Don't ask him! You want to go to therapy, get your own guy. 293 00:19:33,219 --> 00:19:35,140 Nobody wants you here. Now get the fuck out! 294 00:19:35,310 --> 00:19:38,032 Not until he tells me how he can sit there 295 00:19:38,307 --> 00:19:40,121 - and let you go back to... - Let me? 296 00:19:40,291 --> 00:19:41,591 You think I'm like you? 297 00:19:41,852 --> 00:19:45,322 I'm some sort of child who needs permission to do anything? 298 00:19:45,695 --> 00:19:47,776 If I want to train, I'll train. 299 00:19:48,163 --> 00:19:50,455 If I want to kill myself, I'll kill myself. 300 00:19:50,625 --> 00:19:52,850 If I want to fuck Cy in my hospital room 301 00:19:53,020 --> 00:19:54,730 while you're banging on the door, 302 00:19:55,756 --> 00:19:58,075 then that's what I'll fucking do. 303 00:19:59,446 --> 00:20:00,694 What did you say? 304 00:20:01,053 --> 00:20:02,274 You heard me. 305 00:20:05,016 --> 00:20:07,743 You are not going back to that gym. 306 00:20:09,389 --> 00:20:11,997 Fine. Start looking for my burial plot. 307 00:20:14,459 --> 00:20:17,002 I'm going back to training next week for the olympics, 308 00:20:17,172 --> 00:20:19,963 and if you try to stop me, you will never see me again. 309 00:20:20,553 --> 00:20:23,151 Right, I heard you. You'll go to your father's. 310 00:20:23,673 --> 00:20:26,752 Only he's in Miami photographing supermodels, 311 00:20:27,023 --> 00:20:30,097 no one can get ahold of him. He doesn't even know she was in the hospital. 312 00:20:30,358 --> 00:20:33,564 - Shut up. - He hasn't called her in over a month. 313 00:20:33,734 --> 00:20:35,505 He doesn't even know what happened. 314 00:20:35,719 --> 00:20:38,524 But of course she'll go to him, to New York, 315 00:20:38,784 --> 00:20:41,317 to Miami, to fucking Timbuktu. 316 00:20:41,704 --> 00:20:44,529 He's not here and it's my fault! 317 00:20:44,833 --> 00:20:46,982 It's my fault because I am here. 318 00:20:48,214 --> 00:20:51,391 Maybe I'll leave you alone for a few months 319 00:20:51,561 --> 00:20:53,603 and then maybe you can love me just a little. 320 00:20:53,882 --> 00:20:55,207 Yes, just fuck off! 321 00:21:31,073 --> 00:21:33,879 If she came to therapy, you'd need a tissue plant next door. 322 00:21:34,049 --> 00:21:36,518 Did you have sex with Cy at the hospital? 323 00:21:38,544 --> 00:21:39,350 No. 324 00:21:40,348 --> 00:21:42,802 You're 16 years of age. You're a minor, 325 00:21:43,683 --> 00:21:46,266 I've thought long and hard about bringing legal action 326 00:21:46,436 --> 00:21:47,804 against this guy. 327 00:21:48,882 --> 00:21:51,904 You told me there was no sexual contact between you and him 328 00:21:52,074 --> 00:21:53,765 after the first time. Is that true? 329 00:21:54,025 --> 00:21:54,833 Yes. 330 00:21:56,543 --> 00:21:58,103 Nothing else has happened. 331 00:22:04,932 --> 00:22:07,456 - Do you want it to happen again? - No. 332 00:22:09,581 --> 00:22:12,485 - Should I be worried about you and Cy? - No! 333 00:22:25,821 --> 00:22:27,925 - Why is my mom so pathetic? - You know what? 334 00:22:28,095 --> 00:22:31,344 I don't think she is pathetic. In fact, I think she's pretty strong. 335 00:22:31,605 --> 00:22:33,647 She swallows all the crap that you give her, 336 00:22:33,817 --> 00:22:36,725 she still comes back for more. She's making every mistake in the book, 337 00:22:37,229 --> 00:22:39,628 but you know, you punish her in a million different ways 338 00:22:39,798 --> 00:22:41,702 and she's never given up on you. 339 00:22:42,296 --> 00:22:43,817 I know you don't want to hear this, 340 00:22:43,987 --> 00:22:46,629 but I don't think you've given up on her either. 341 00:22:56,860 --> 00:22:58,287 We're out of time, aren't we? 342 00:22:58,699 --> 00:23:02,125 Why didn't you tell me that your father didn't know you tried to kill yourself? 343 00:23:03,617 --> 00:23:06,672 - Why was that such a big secret? - It's not. I have to go. 344 00:23:11,506 --> 00:23:13,052 What about our agreement? 345 00:23:14,277 --> 00:23:17,209 - Let's talk about it next week. - No, we won't talk about it next week. 346 00:23:17,379 --> 00:23:19,221 What about our agreement? 347 00:23:25,799 --> 00:23:29,276 I won't try and kill myself as long as I'm in therapy, all right? 348 00:23:29,538 --> 00:23:30,736 Say it again. 349 00:23:32,956 --> 00:23:36,250 I won't try and kill myself as long as I'm in therapy.