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Previously on In Treatment.

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Charmed, I'm sure.

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So yesterday I marched into the gym
and I got up on the beam.

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And when I looked back at my feet,
they were right on the beam.

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Sophie, look at me.

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What goes on in there?

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The new guy with the tequila.

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We had sex and...

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afterwards he said that I fucked like someone
who's been sexually abused.

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Prick.

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I'm trying to kill myself.

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(Whispered) Sophie. Oh, God.

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Do you know what that lipstick colour
reminds me of?

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Dog shit.

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That's right, Sophie. Keep it up.

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That's right, Olivia.
Keep feeling sorry for yourself.

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Do we have to wait until exactly four o'clock?

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If you and your surgical enhancements
step into that room,

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I'm never coming back here... ever.

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He asked me to come.

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And you promised you wouldn't go back
to the gym unless he said it was OK.

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(Laughs) You make it seem like
I'm gonna contaminate the place.

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- I'm sure you will.
- Oh, Sophie, back off.

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Why couldn't you just call him? They have
this thing now, it's called a telephone.

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If I'd called him and he said you shouldn't train,
you would've said I was lying.

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I just want to be in the room with you
when he answers us.

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There is no us. I'm leaving.

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Sophie.

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Please?

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You promised!

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Ah. Hello, Olivia.

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- Nice to meet you, finally.
- You too.

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Come on in. Sophie.

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I... That's OK, I'm just gonna be a minute.

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- Why don't we take that minute inside?
- I don't want to intrude.

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- You're not intruding. I called you.
- But I don't want to be in the way.

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I promise you nothing terrible will happen
if you come inside.

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Don't bet the farm on that.

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She says she won't come back
to therapy if I go in.

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- I don't know what to do.
- I think it'll be fine. Come on.

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Can you take your bag off the couch, please?

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Thank you.

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Please.

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I, um... I asked you both here today because...

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Just tell her that I can keep training.

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Otherwise I'm stuck at home with her.

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She promised that she wouldn't go back

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- unless you said it was OK.
- I never said that.

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In the car, you said you wouldn't go back
unless Paul said...

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I said I'd listen to what Paul says,
not do what he says.

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God! You're like the queen
of selective hearing.

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It just seems crazy to me
for her to just waltz back into the gym.

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I mean, it's not like she's injured,
that's not the problem.

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- You're the problem.
- I'm the problem. Always.

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Yes, always.
You're one gargantuan problem.

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Let me ask you something, Sophie. Do you
feel that you are ready to go back to training?

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Yes.

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But you can also understand how your mom
is a little bit concerned about that.

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She's a crazy bitch.
Nobody understands her.

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I think I understand her.

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If I stay at home with her,
I will slit my wrists or go postal,

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and they'll shut me in the loony bin.

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And you won't be there
to get me out next time.

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I think...

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I think your mom is concerned
about whether you're ready, mentally,

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for the stress you'll be under
when you go back.

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I can deal with stress.

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If not, you don't belong there,
it's not for sissies.

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- (Exhales)
- Why are you sighing?

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- I'm not.
- I just heard you.

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- I'm not allowed to breathe?
- You were sighing.

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Sophie.

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If I don't try out for the Olympics,

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- I'll kill myself for real.
- Sophie, enough.

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No more threats. No more.

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- Thank you, Doctor.
- Shut up.

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What are you even doing here?

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Why can't you get your own life
and butt out of mine?

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My very presence
makes any space I enter toxic to you.

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- That's right.
- My money isn't toxic.

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I don't need your money.

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Because you can always fall back
on your father's money.

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So what is it, Paul?
To train or not to train?

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Olivia, I understand your concerns

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and why you wouldn't want
Sophie to go back to the gym.

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But - and I have given this
a great deal of thought -

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I do think that Sophie should continue
her programme of training.

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(Quietly) What?

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- Are you sure?
- Yes.

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- I think that the gym is a place...
- OK, but, um...

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I don't know, see.
I just thought after everything...

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- Are you deaf?
- No, Sophie, I'm not deaf.

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- So you heard him?
- Yes, I heard him.

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So why are you still talking?

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Here come the waterworks.

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- I'm gonna wait in the car.
- Hallelujah.

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- I would prefer if you stay.
- If she stays, I'm...

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- Sophie, please.
- I can see myself out.

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- Dr Weston...
- Paul.

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Paul.

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I never got a chance to thank you for all
the strings that you pulled at the hospital.

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If it wasn't for you, they would have
committed her for God knows how long.

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Actually, it doesn't work like that.

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She would have had, uh,
an uncomfortable night or two, but...

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Well, in any case, thank you.

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Make sure she walked away.
She could be listening at the door.

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Sophie, she's not listening at the door, she's...

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- (Gate squeaks)
- She's gone.

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You're pretty confident today.

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Confident how?

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Sending me back to the gym
like nothing happened.

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Hm. So where do you think
my confidence comes from?

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Special delivery from old people land.

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(Chuckles)

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I'm confident because
I think I've figured out why...

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why you took those pills
in my bathroom last week.

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I think you were testing me, Sophie.

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And I passed the test.

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Barely.
But I did pass it.

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So maybe you can trust me now,

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cos I trust you.

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One thing that bothers me though -

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what if you decided
to test somebody else,

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and they didn't know it was a test?

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Doesn't matter to me. I'd be dead.

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I think one of the things
that we need to figure out is

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what you find so attractive about...

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about dying.

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What does dying mean to you?

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- Freedom.
- Freedom from what?

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You and your stupid questions.

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And what else?

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My mother.

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So do you think death is the only way
to escape your mother?

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I'm pretty sure even death won't do.

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Well, let me ask you this,
if your mom wasn't around,

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would you still want to die?

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I have no idea, dipshit.

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I'm irritating you now.

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Mm.

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Sophie...

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See, what you're doing now
is you're shutting me out.

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Is that what you do to your mom?

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What else does death mean to you?

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Sleeping well.

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And what does sleeping well mean?

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- Not feeling.
- Not feeling what?

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Anything.

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When you say, "not feeling anything",

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do you mean feeling...

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(Exhales)

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...like calm?

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Is there any place in your life
where you feel calm?

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Not here, that's for sure.

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OK, tell me what you feel when you're here.

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Sophie.

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Sophie.

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Would you like to talk about
what happened last week?

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We went to a...
a pretty painful place.

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It was a place of...

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great feeling.

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And then suddenly you...

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you went to the bathroom
and you put yourself to sleep.

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I...

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Go on.

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I can't describe it.

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- What can't you describe?
- What I felt, Paul.

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God. Does everything
have to be talked about?

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- It's too fucking hard.
- I need you to try, Sophie.

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You try.

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You want me to try to express
what you feel?

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I tried to make myself throw up
but nothing came out.

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Mm.

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Do you remember after the accident you said...

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"I finally killed her"?

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What did you mean by that?

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I don't know.

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You know, we have these two sides
to our personalities,

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the weak side and the strong side,

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and they're constantly
in conflict with each other.

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Sometimes the weaker side
is sneaky and it's crafty, and it wins.

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For example, when you let somebody
buy you shoes that you don't really want,

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or when you have sex with somebody

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that you don't really want to have sex with.

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See, when it comes to sports,
you are completely confident on the beam.

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You are really powerful.

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But off the beam,
when you're not a gymnast,

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when you're just a girl, a young woman,
that part of you is less secure.

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And you seem more...

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What's the word I'm looking for? More...

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- susceptible, do you...
- I know what susceptible means.

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I hate that part of me.

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But they're both you, Sophie.

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So do you really think
it's OK if I go back to training?

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Mm-hm.

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Yes, I do.

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But here's the thing.

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I want you to know that
I'm gonna be here for you...

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any time.

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All you have to do is just call me.

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But on one condition -

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I want you to know this
and understand it really clearly.

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I will not treat you under the threat of suicide.
Do you understand me?

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And if I don't agree,
then I can't go back to the gym.

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Then you cannot come back here, ever.

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So...

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do we have a deal?

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You said before that I was testing you.

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You said that you barely passed.

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The fact that you were testing me at all,
Sophie, that's a kind of a failure for me,

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that you should feel
you had to test my love for you.

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Your love?

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Yeah.

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I can't treat somebody that I don't love.

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I have to find something
in each of my patients that I love,

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otherwise I won't be able to treat them.

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I bet you had to search me with
a magnifying glass to find something to love.

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Well, I remember the first day
that you came here

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and you were walking around the office
and you asked me about these boats.

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You said to me, "Are these here
because you don't really sail?"

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And I said, "Yeah."

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And you said, "Well, maybe you should
make one of those glass windows

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"like they have on boats
so that you can see the world."

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Do you remember that?

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When you said that...

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I think that's when I started to...

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to love who you are.

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You say it like it's easy.

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You're not used to people saying "I love you"?

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My dad.

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- He tells you that?
- He doesn't have to.

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Mm.

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I was surprised I didn't see him in the hospital
when I went to visit you.

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You just missed him.

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Oh.

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What does he do, do you think, to...

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to earn your love?

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Why?

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Maybe I can steal his secrets
and give them to your mom.

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Hilarious.

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How do you know he does love you
if he doesn't say it?

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I don't need to hear him say it.

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Words are bullshit. Everybody lies.

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I feel his love.

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And he feels me,
even when I'm far away.

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Want to know a secret?

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I have to wear glasses all the time.

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Most of the time I walk around half-blind.
Do you know why?

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- Why?
- Cos I prefer it that way.

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With my glasses on,
everything is too sharp.

251
00:16:49,400 --> 00:16:51,709
Without them, everyone looks...

252
00:16:51,760 --> 00:16:53,751
Iooks like they've got perfect skin.

253
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So my mother must look like
a supermodel to you.

254
00:17:01,120 --> 00:17:02,553
Why are you telling me this?

255
00:17:02,600 --> 00:17:05,592
I think your father looks better in the distance,

256
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far away, blurry.

257
00:17:08,080 --> 00:17:13,108
But your mother is right up close,
and she's kind of painfully clear.

258
00:17:14,800 --> 00:17:17,189
I'm really over this conversation.

259
00:17:19,080 --> 00:17:23,471
Before you passed out last week,
you'd said something about models.

260
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Something about a photo shoot
not beginning on time.

261
00:17:26,480 --> 00:17:30,678
And I remember that you told me
that your dad was a photographer.

262
00:17:30,720 --> 00:17:33,439
Does your dad work with...
with models?

263
00:17:33,480 --> 00:17:35,471
Why are you picking on him?

264
00:17:35,520 --> 00:17:38,398
My dad is the only person in this world
who really loves me.

265
00:17:38,440 --> 00:17:40,431
Why is that so hard for you
to get your head around?

266
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(Knocking)

267
00:17:43,880 --> 00:17:45,916
What are you doing?

268
00:17:45,960 --> 00:17:48,155
I forgot to give you
the money to pay Paul.

269
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- Are you listening through the door?
- Of course not. I was in the car.

270
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I'm not gonna let her
go back to the gym.

271
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That place is killing her.

272
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Who are you to take the risk?

273
00:17:58,400 --> 00:18:00,755
She almost died here on your sofa

274
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and you're just dusting her off
and sending her back.

275
00:18:05,400 --> 00:18:07,277
- No.
- If you don't get away from him,

276
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I'm leaving and I'm never coming back.
I'll go to Dad.

277
00:18:10,360 --> 00:18:11,873
- You'll go to Dad's?
- I will.

278
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Good. Go ahead.

279
00:18:14,160 --> 00:18:16,116
- I will.
- Go ahead.

280
00:18:16,160 --> 00:18:18,720
Cry a little harder, Mom. That's great.

281
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If I brought home an Olympic medal,
you'd drown in your own tears.

282
00:18:21,960 --> 00:18:23,632
If you brought home an Olympic...

283
00:18:23,680 --> 00:18:26,911
Stop making me look like a monster
in front of the shrink!

284
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Yes!

285
00:18:33,720 --> 00:18:37,030
Yes, I think that the competition is insane

286
00:18:37,080 --> 00:18:40,152
and you are putting unbelievable stress
on your young body,

287
00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:42,873
but I am so proud
of your accomplishments.

288
00:18:46,080 --> 00:18:48,435
Isn't every mother
proud of their daughter?

289
00:18:48,480 --> 00:18:51,756
Don't ask him! You want to go to therapy,
get your own guy.

290
00:18:51,800 --> 00:18:53,916
Nobody wants you here.
Get the fuck out!

291
00:18:53,960 --> 00:18:56,633
Not until he tells me
how he can sit there

292
00:18:56,680 --> 00:19:00,036
- and let you go back to some place...
- Let me? You think I'm like you?

293
00:19:00,080 --> 00:19:03,789
I'm some sort of child
who needs permission to do anything?

294
00:19:03,840 --> 00:19:06,115
If I want to train, I'll train.

295
00:19:06,160 --> 00:19:08,515
If I want to kill myself, I'll kill myself.

296
00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:13,475
If I want to fuck Cy in my hospital room
while you're outside banging on the door,

297
00:19:13,520 --> 00:19:15,511
then that's what I'll fucking do.

298
00:19:17,200 --> 00:19:19,953
- What did you say?
- You heard me.

299
00:19:22,320 --> 00:19:25,118
You are not going back to that gym.

300
00:19:26,600 --> 00:19:29,194
Fine. Start looking for my burial plot.

301
00:19:29,600 --> 00:19:31,272
Sophie!

302
00:19:31,320 --> 00:19:34,118
I'm going back to training
next week for the Olympics,

303
00:19:34,160 --> 00:19:36,833
and if you try to stop me,
you will never see me again.

304
00:19:36,880 --> 00:19:40,190
Right, I heard you.
You'll go to your father's.

305
00:19:40,240 --> 00:19:43,357
Only he's in Miami
photographing supermodels

306
00:19:43,400 --> 00:19:44,799
and no one can get hold of him.

307
00:19:44,840 --> 00:19:46,558
He doesn't even know she was in hospital.

308
00:19:46,600 --> 00:19:48,477
- Shut up!
- He hasn't even called her

309
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in over a month.

310
00:19:50,120 --> 00:19:54,636
He doesn't even know what happened.
But she'll go to him, to New York,

311
00:19:54,680 --> 00:19:57,319
to Miami, to fucking Timbuktu.

312
00:19:57,360 --> 00:20:00,397
He's not here and it's my fault!

313
00:20:00,440 --> 00:20:02,431
It's my fault because I am here.

314
00:20:03,840 --> 00:20:06,957
You know, maybe I'll leave you alone
for a few months

315
00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:09,116
and then maybe you can love me just a little.

316
00:20:09,160 --> 00:20:10,639
Yes, just fuck off!

317
00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:18,831
(Gate squeaks, closes)

318
00:20:44,760 --> 00:20:47,672
If she came to therapy,
you'd need a tissue plant next door.

319
00:20:47,720 --> 00:20:50,109
Did you have sex with Cy at the hospital?

320
00:20:52,120 --> 00:20:55,237
- No. That was just...
- Sophie, you're 16 years of age.

321
00:20:55,280 --> 00:20:56,872
You're a minor.

322
00:20:56,920 --> 00:21:01,948
And I've thought long and hard about whether
I should bring legal action against this guy.

323
00:21:02,000 --> 00:21:05,993
You told me there was no sexual contact
between you and him after the first time.

324
00:21:06,040 --> 00:21:08,031
- Is that true?
- Yes.

325
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:10,953
Nothing else has happened.

326
00:21:17,440 --> 00:21:19,829
- Do you want it to happen again?
- No!

327
00:21:21,800 --> 00:21:25,315
- Should I still be worried about you and Cy?
- No!

328
00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:40,956
- Why is my mom so pathetic?
- I don't think she is pathetic.

329
00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:42,831
I think she's pretty strong.

330
00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:46,350
She swallows all the crap that you give her
and she still comes back.

331
00:21:46,400 --> 00:21:48,960
She's making every mistake in the book,

332
00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:53,391
but you punish her in a million different ways
and she's never given up on you.

333
00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:58,798
And I know you don't want to hear this,
but I don't think you've given up on her either.

334
00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:08,678
We're out of time, aren't we?

335
00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:13,510
Why didn't you tell me that your father
didn't know you tried to kill yourself?

336
00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:15,551
Why was that such a big secret?

337
00:22:15,600 --> 00:22:17,556
It's not. I have to go.

338
00:22:20,560 --> 00:22:22,835
What about our agreement?

339
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:26,918
- Let's talk about it next week.
- No, we won't.

340
00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:29,030
What about our agreement?

341
00:22:34,840 --> 00:22:38,389
I won't try and kill myself
as long as I'm in therapy, all right?

342
00:22:38,440 --> 00:22:40,078
Say it again.

343
00:22:41,600 --> 00:22:45,115
(Louder) I won't try and kill myself
as long as I'm in therapy.

344
00:22:50,120 --> 00:22:51,348
OK.

345
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