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Previously on In Treatment.

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Why didn't you tell me
your father was in Miami?

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- Why was it a secret?
- It's not a fucking secret.

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So he doesn't know about
your attempted suicide.

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It's not his fault that I took those pills.

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- Are you angry at him for something?
- Shut the fuck up about him!

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I want you to remember something, Sophie.

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There are other places
where you can feel safe.

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And here in this room

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is one of those places.

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Oh.

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Hold up, Paul.
I've just got to finish this.

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Take your time.

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I'll just Google myself.

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(Laughs) It's my dad.
He's in Boston.

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- I might go visit him next week.
- Hm.

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Oh, my God, the most amazing thing
happened last night.

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You wouldn't believe me,
but I don't care.

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- Why wouldn't I believe you?
- Because...

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You think that my dad and me
being connected is bullshit.

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I never said it was bullshit.
I said I might be surprised, but...

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Free your mind, Paul.
The rest will follow.

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Hm. Hm.

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Oh, my God, it was incredible.

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I had this dream
that my father was in danger.

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I woke up feeling a little freaked, you know,
so I called him.

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He's staying in a hotel
with his girlfriend.

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Turns out, last night,

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somebody broke into his room
and stole his favourite camera.

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Hm.

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So, guess you must be feeling
pretty silly now, huh?

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Because you have all these doubts
about my father and our telepathy.

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- You basically hate the man.
- I hate your father?

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Last week you were insinuating...

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Forget it.
The point is, we're connected.

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It's been proven once and for all.
You can't take that away.

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You said that you might go to Boston.

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Don't you have the Olympic trials coming up?

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Those are after I get back.

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So it's OK to miss training
this close to a competition, is it?

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Oh, I'm sorry, Cy.
I was looking for my shrink.

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(Paul laughs)

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Look, it's not a big deal.

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It's just more important for me
to spend quality time with him.

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- It's been too long.
- Maybe he could come here?

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That way you could see him
and you could still continue to train.

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What do you care? Did you, like,
bet on me to win a medal or something?

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(Laughs)

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When was the last time
you saw your father?

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About...

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six months ago.

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- He was in town for a weekend.
- And how was that? Was it fun?

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It was fine.

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We went to this fancy restaurant.
His girlfriend came with us.

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And my dad started flirting
with the waitress.

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His girlfriend started to cry,

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so we had to leave,
which kind of sucked, but...

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doesn't matter, it was fine.

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Was it the same girl from Boston?

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I think so. I don't keep up.

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How did you get on with her?

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Fine. She's peachy.

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Hm. What's her name again?

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Darren, Taryn, Karen -
something like that.

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Cleo.

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I think it's still Cleo.

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- I'm like the little sister she never had.
- (Laughs)

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I wish he'd leave her in Boston.

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We haven't taken a trip together,
just my dad and me,

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- since my 13th birthday.
- Where did you go then?

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We went to Paris.
He took me to everything,

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from the Eiffel Tower
to Monet's garden - the works.

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At this sidewalk café
I had this cup of chocolate.

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You had to eat it with a spoon.

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Two words - awe-some.

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(Laughs)

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We stayed in this huge apartment.

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It was like a loft.

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Belonged to some woman -
I met her for, like, five seconds

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just as I was leaving
to fly back home.

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She was going into the apartment
as I was going out.

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The elevator reeked of her perfume.
Made me want to throw up.

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I did, literally.

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Right on the street,
in front of the cab.

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Nobody saw it.

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That's not true, the cabbie saw,
but my dad didn't.

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He stayed upstairs.

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So you took a cab to the airport
by yourself?

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Yeah. I was 13, Paul.

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Mm.

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So, you want to tell me more
about that dream that you had?

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Not really. It doesn't matter.

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It's just a stupid dream.

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But I felt that he was in danger,
that's the important part.

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I can feel him.

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We're linked.

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Radar love.

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It was a terrible dream.

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More like a nightmare.

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Do you get those?

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Sometimes.

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What happens in yours?

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Well...

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There's one I've... I've had...

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consistently since I was a kid.

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I'm sitting in this rocking chair
and I'm rocking back and forward,

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and every time I go to get off,
I can't get off,

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and the chair keeps
rocking back and forward.

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And my...
my mother is calling me from upstairs,

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and I'm trying to get out of the chair,

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but I... I just can't let go.

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(Sighs)

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What do you think it means?

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I think it means that...

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uh, maybe that I am scared that
I'm gonna disappoint my mother,

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that I'm not gonna be there for her.

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Did you disappoint her?

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In real life?

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No, I...

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I don't think so.

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Anyway, back to your dream.

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OK, so...

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I was waiting for my father
in a hotel room...

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when a man knocked on the door.

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I let him in.

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He asked me where my father was
and I told him he was on his way.

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Just as I said it - I was so stupid -

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I realised that this guy
was a serial killer.

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So, he sat down to wait with me,

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and I knew that the moment
my father walked into that room,

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this guy was going to kill him.

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And I didn't know how to stop it.
It was awful.

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What did the man look like?

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I don't remember.

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Had you been in this hotel room before?

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No.

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What was it like?
Can you describe it?

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It was dark.

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Dark wood, dark furniture.

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Sort of like a cave or a tunnel.

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Yeah, like a tunnel, but it wasn't scary.

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You could see light at both ends,

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like where the tunnel started
and where it ended.

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I remember looking back and forth,

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trying to figure out which way was the entrance
and which was the exit.

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Anything else you remember about it?

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The man was wearing shoes like yours.

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Not those shoes.
The black ones that you usually wear.

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Like my other ones?

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Not like your other shoes,
they were your shoes.

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So the serial killer
was wearing my... my shoes?

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It was you...

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in the hotel room.

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You were waiting to kill my father.

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Did I tell you why I was gonna kill him?

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- Did your father ever show up?
- No.

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We just sat there.

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We made small talk.

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And the whole time I was trying to
figure out how to get out of there,

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to call somebody or something.

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Do you remember what
this small talk was about?

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I don't...

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I'm not sure. Something about...

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It makes perfect sense, doesn't it?

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You're always insinuating
shit about him -

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that he's the mystery man,
that there's some big secret,

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that he's the person
who really fucked me up.

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But the joke's on you,
because there's nothing there.

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My father didn't cross the line
or break any rules

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or any of that crap
you love to throw around.

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You're so wrong it's ridiculous.

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My father has always
been there for me.

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His work and me
are the only important things in his life.

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How do you feel
about his photographs?

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They're beautiful...

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if you look at them with an open mind,

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which of course you can't.

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He loves the human form.

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He believes the body
can be the perfect...

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expression...

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of every human emotion
and experience.

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Is that how he speaks about his work?

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What are you saying, Paul?

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That I can't form an opinion
of my own father's work?

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You think I'm quoting him?

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You know, he says a lot of shrinks
are failed artists or writers.

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Maybe you're jealous of him.

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He travels around the world,
he works with models.

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Meanwhile, you're trapped in your cell
with fuck-ups like me.

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I'd take a fuck-up like you any day
over one of those supermodels.

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(Laughs)

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- No, you wouldn't. Shut up.
- Yes, I would. It's true.

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So, how was that for you,

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your father being constantly
surrounded by beautiful women

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when you were a kid?

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He's an artist. It was his job.

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Besides, nudity was
totally normal in my house.

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I got used to it.

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Nudity?

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Nude models.

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The female form.

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It's like drawing class 101, Paul.

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An artist must work
from the purest inspiration.

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His studio was at home

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so there were a lot of models
walking around naked.

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It wasn't a big deal. We were cool.

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So this was normal for you,

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to be exposed to adults being naked, yeah?

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"Exposed".

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Ooh, nudity. How scary.

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- Breasts - terrifying!
- (Laughs)

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So were you ever naked
around the house?

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Of course not.

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Look at your face.

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You think that's my big secret?

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I saw my father naked
and now I'm scarred for life?

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Isn't that kind of a cliché?

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So your father was naked
and your mother as well?

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- (Laughs)
- Why are you laughing?

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My mother always wore clothes,
even in the shower.

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(Laughs)

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But she was perfectly comfortable
with the models?

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She was clueless about the whole thing.

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Sorry, I'm having a difficult time following.

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I thought you said that
people were naked all the time?

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OK, not all the time,

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a lot of the time.

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During the day,
while my mother was at work.

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So would you say
that your father was, um...

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hiding it from her?

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I'd say she was a fucking idiot

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who couldn't see what was right in front of her.

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They were having sex.

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Who was having sex, Sophie?

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My dad...

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with the model du jour.

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How do you know?

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I saw them.

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I came home from school
early one day.

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The mom who drove car pool that day
had to pick us up early.

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I walked into my parents' bedroom
and my father was there with a model.

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- Does your father know that you saw?
- Oh, yeah. He got up.

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He came over to me
and just looked at me.

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I said something like,

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"I thought the models
only came at fixed times."

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And what did he say?

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I don't remember.

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Something like,
"You're supposed to be at school."

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And then he shut the door...

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and locked it.

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I remember the sound
of the latch sliding.

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How old were you?

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I don't know. Seven and a half?

254
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Why are you being so dramatic?
It was no big deal.

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My father is an artist.

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They don't live like other people do.

257
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They have to be in touch with...

258
00:14:08,440 --> 00:14:11,671
They have to crap on conventional things
in order to create.

259
00:14:11,720 --> 00:14:14,951
- Did you talk to your mother about this?
- No.

260
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Did your father tell you not to?

261
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No.

262
00:14:20,360 --> 00:14:22,749
But you walked away
from that door knowing that...

263
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you weren't supposed to say anything,
that you had a secret.

264
00:14:28,600 --> 00:14:32,388
Maybe that's when the idea of telepathy
between you and your dad began?

265
00:14:32,440 --> 00:14:36,558
This idea that you can
understand each other without words.

266
00:14:38,600 --> 00:14:40,830
That's your big theory?

267
00:14:40,880 --> 00:14:43,189
After all your insinuations?

268
00:14:43,240 --> 00:14:45,231
- Pretty lame.
- You keep accusing me...

269
00:14:45,280 --> 00:14:48,590
You keep suggesting that
somebody crossed the line with me,

270
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that I don't have the ability to say no.

271
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You're saying that...

272
00:14:54,080 --> 00:14:55,638
What?

273
00:14:55,680 --> 00:14:58,069
...that I've been sexually abused.

274
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You think that's the secret I'm looking for?

275
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- Aren't you?
- No, I'm not.

276
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No, right.

277
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Do you think something happened to you?

278
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Are you listening to me?

279
00:15:15,000 --> 00:15:18,879
I told you nothing happened.
You're the one who keeps implying...

280
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I don't think you were
sexually abused, Sophie.

281
00:15:21,920 --> 00:15:25,549
Good. Then we can finally
stop talking about that.

282
00:15:27,880 --> 00:15:30,314
Why didn't you ever
tell your mother what you saw?

283
00:15:30,360 --> 00:15:32,032
Don't be an idiot.

284
00:15:32,080 --> 00:15:35,755
So this secret has been there
between you and she all these years?

285
00:15:35,800 --> 00:15:37,950
So what? I barely speak
to the woman anyway.

286
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You don't think there's any connection
between those two things?

287
00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:43,309
I don't speak to her
because she's pathetic.

288
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She's a moron.

289
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She couldn't see what
was right in front of her face.

290
00:15:50,160 --> 00:15:53,277
Sometimes I think
she's still waiting for him,

291
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like Santa Claus or something.

292
00:15:55,800 --> 00:15:58,473
She would never admit it,
but it's so obvious, it's pathetic.

293
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If you told her what you saw,
she might not wait for him any longer.

294
00:16:01,560 --> 00:16:04,199
It's not my job to make her face reality.

295
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I'm the child!
She's supposed to be smarter than me.

296
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You know, she sits there,
day after day,

297
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waiting for him to come to his senses.

298
00:16:11,960 --> 00:16:13,598
I want to scream at her,

299
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"He doesn't give a fuck about you!

300
00:16:16,040 --> 00:16:17,996
"You're stupid. You're useless.

301
00:16:18,040 --> 00:16:20,873
"Just get the fuck up
off your clueless ass and get a life!"

302
00:16:20,920 --> 00:16:24,356
- Why didn't you tell her about his affairs?
- It's not my fucking job!

303
00:16:24,400 --> 00:16:26,868
Maybe you didn't tell her
because you were afraid?

304
00:16:26,920 --> 00:16:30,196
Maybe you were afraid that they'd separate
and it would be your fault,

305
00:16:30,240 --> 00:16:34,791
just like you thought that you'd ruined
Cy and Darlene's marriage, remember that?

306
00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:37,752
Why didn't you tell your mother
after they divorced?

307
00:16:39,320 --> 00:16:42,118
What was I supposed to do?
Rub her face in it?

308
00:16:42,160 --> 00:16:45,630
- So you're angry she couldn't see that?
- Yes! Fuck yes!

309
00:16:46,880 --> 00:16:48,757
Sophie, in all these weeks of therapy,

310
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you've never once allowed yourself
to be angry at your father.

311
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It's never even been a possibility for you.

312
00:16:54,560 --> 00:16:56,755
Why do you think that is?

313
00:16:58,640 --> 00:17:01,200
I think that your father
made you his accomplice.

314
00:17:01,240 --> 00:17:04,038
He burdened you with this secret,

315
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way too heavy for any child to carry,

316
00:17:06,280 --> 00:17:09,829
and he drove this wedge between
you and your mother with this secret.

317
00:17:09,880 --> 00:17:12,440
Maybe you're afraid
to get angry at him because

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if you did, you'd lose him for good.

319
00:17:14,720 --> 00:17:17,996
And maybe you never told your mother
because part of you still hopes

320
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that they're gonna get back together again.

321
00:17:23,920 --> 00:17:27,469
I know that's never going to happen.
I'm not an idiot.

322
00:17:27,520 --> 00:17:30,080
You wouldn't have to be an idiot
to believe that.

323
00:17:30,120 --> 00:17:32,350
I know plenty of grown-ups

324
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whose parents have separated 20, 30 years,
have even died,

325
00:17:35,920 --> 00:17:37,911
and they still hope
in their heart of hearts

326
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that their mother and father
still share a bed in heaven.

327
00:17:45,240 --> 00:17:47,595
He wouldn't be a good husband
if he came back.

328
00:17:47,640 --> 00:17:49,312
He'd just leave her again.

329
00:17:49,360 --> 00:17:51,271
And you.

330
00:17:51,920 --> 00:17:53,273
What?

331
00:17:53,320 --> 00:17:55,675
He left you too, didn't he?

332
00:17:55,720 --> 00:17:57,631
No.

333
00:17:57,680 --> 00:17:59,671
He just moved out.
He's still my dad.

334
00:17:59,720 --> 00:18:01,278
Of course he's still your dad,

335
00:18:01,320 --> 00:18:03,880
but he did literally leave you, didn't he?

336
00:18:03,920 --> 00:18:05,148
He moved away.

337
00:18:05,200 --> 00:18:08,909
He's not around. He doesn't even
know about your daily life.

338
00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:10,359
He was working.

339
00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:12,436
Why can't you let yourself be angry at him?

340
00:18:12,480 --> 00:18:14,675
Why should I be angry at him?

341
00:18:14,720 --> 00:18:16,836
She's the one who...

342
00:18:16,880 --> 00:18:19,553
- who pisses me off.
- Why?

343
00:18:19,600 --> 00:18:22,910
Because she's pathetic and annoying and...

344
00:18:22,960 --> 00:18:24,632
And she's always around.

345
00:18:29,280 --> 00:18:32,590
I can understand why you might be
angry at her too, though.

346
00:18:32,640 --> 00:18:37,430
Because you feel that maybe she didn't
protect you from what was going on at home.

347
00:18:37,480 --> 00:18:40,313
But she's also a rock.

348
00:18:40,360 --> 00:18:42,999
She's incredibly patient.
She's persistent.

349
00:18:44,320 --> 00:18:46,311
She's not going anywhere.

350
00:18:47,680 --> 00:18:51,195
She's really something
when you think about it.

351
00:18:51,240 --> 00:18:52,992
Isn't she?

352
00:18:58,520 --> 00:19:00,351
(Phone)

353
00:19:15,600 --> 00:19:16,953
(Sighs)

354
00:19:20,160 --> 00:19:22,151
There's something I haven't told you.

355
00:19:22,200 --> 00:19:23,872
What's that?

356
00:19:25,200 --> 00:19:28,351
I'm not really that interested
in gymnastics any more.

357
00:19:28,400 --> 00:19:29,799
What?

358
00:19:31,720 --> 00:19:33,438
Why not?

359
00:19:33,480 --> 00:19:35,152
I don't know.

360
00:19:35,200 --> 00:19:37,953
Used to be everything to me,

361
00:19:38,000 --> 00:19:39,991
and now it's not.

362
00:19:40,920 --> 00:19:42,797
And why do you think that is, Sophie?

363
00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:45,434
No, you tell me, Paul.

364
00:19:48,920 --> 00:19:50,512
OK.

365
00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:55,993
I think that when you were growing up
there weren't enough boundaries at home.

366
00:19:57,040 --> 00:20:01,431
Boundaries to protect a child from...
What were you, six, seven?

367
00:20:01,480 --> 00:20:04,756
From things that could impact your...

368
00:20:06,800 --> 00:20:10,475
your view of sex, your body,

369
00:20:10,520 --> 00:20:12,238
your attitudes toward men.

370
00:20:13,280 --> 00:20:14,872
I think it was also an environment

371
00:20:14,920 --> 00:20:18,071
where you were expected to be
complicit in the lies of grown-ups.

372
00:20:18,120 --> 00:20:22,671
And I think you wanted to escape,
so sports became the perfect outlet for you.

373
00:20:22,720 --> 00:20:28,636
A place with rules and order,
where discipline protected you and guided you.

374
00:20:32,840 --> 00:20:37,038
I think that gymnastics was always a place
that you were able to run away to,

375
00:20:37,080 --> 00:20:39,071
to be in control.

376
00:20:42,120 --> 00:20:43,917
Maybe...

377
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:48,953
Maybe you don't need
to run away to that world any more.

378
00:21:00,720 --> 00:21:02,438
- Shit.
- What?

379
00:21:03,840 --> 00:21:06,308
I'll never make the Olympic team now,

380
00:21:06,360 --> 00:21:08,237
not with that attitude.

381
00:21:09,880 --> 00:21:13,668
Well, I don't think
that's necessarily true.

382
00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:17,992
I'm gonna suck at it.

383
00:21:18,040 --> 00:21:19,758
Hm.

384
00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:21,472
Have you ever failed before?

385
00:21:21,520 --> 00:21:23,511
Never, but...

386
00:21:23,560 --> 00:21:25,551
What?

387
00:21:27,680 --> 00:21:30,638
The times, they are a-changin'.

388
00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:35,915
It's from a Bob Dylan song.

389
00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:38,951
My gift to you.

390
00:21:39,920 --> 00:21:41,069
Thank you.

391
00:21:42,280 --> 00:21:44,316
You're welcome.

392
00:21:44,360 --> 00:21:47,670
He's an old geezer... like you.

393
00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:51,031
Thanks.

394
00:21:51,080 --> 00:21:52,195
(Laughs)

395
00:22:03,680 --> 00:22:05,716
Our time is up.

396
00:22:34,280 --> 00:22:36,271
(Paul sighs)

397
00:22:54,120 --> 00:22:57,112
So, uh, I'll see you next week, then.

398
00:22:58,160 --> 00:22:59,957
OK?

399
00:24:36,280 --> 00:24:37,269
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