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Previously on In Treatment.

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Do you really want me to give you permission
to have sex with your boss?

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Just once.
Just tell me it's not that bad.

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I think it might be that bad.

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Do you really think
sleeping with Reeves will bring back

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the good old reliable angry, controlling Jake?

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The one who fights you and threatens you?

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- Your father died when you were 13.
- Yes.

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- You must have been devastated.
- I was.

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He was a lovely man.
He was affectionate and great.

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And yet when Jake is tender,
and expresses his love through tenderness,

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it makes you angry.

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- Do you feel that you deserve that love?
- It's not love.

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It's neediness. It's weakness.
It's unbearable.

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So it's only love if he stalks you,
tapes you, is jealous of you. Is that it?

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- Hello, Jake.
- Hey, Paul. You miss me?

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(Both laugh)

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Ame's on the phone in the car.
She'll be right in.

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We've been sitting out there for a while.
You got a nice 'hood here.

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It's come a long way since we, uh...
since we bought the house.

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I'll say. The houses here must be
in the seven figures, right?

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Mm. Why do you ask?

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Are you interested in the market?

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(Laughs) No, it's too rich for my blood.

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But, if I were you, I would sell
while the market's still good.

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Get a bunch of acres in Middleburg.
You ever been there? Horse country.

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Mm, I know. My daughter used to take
horse-riding lessons out there.

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I sometimes fool around
with the idea of selling.

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Really? You don't seem the type
who fools around with anything.

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(Chuckles)

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- How long you been here?
- Long time now.

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22 years, maybe.

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You know the Appalachian Trail
goes through this area?

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- Mm-hm, I knew that.
- I hiked the whole thing when I was 17.

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Left high school to do it.
Did I ever tell you that?

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- No.
- I even came into the town to stock up.

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Maybe we met 20 years ago
in a convenience store. (Chuckles)

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Hey, Paul, if a guy like you
and a guy like me

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met under different circumstances,

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- you think we'd be friends?
- Possible, I suppose.

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But I know nothing about
the contemporary music scene.

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We drove here together today.

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It's part of the new plan -

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trying to be agreeable,
accommodating.

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She wanted to come together, we do it.

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She wanted to drive, I let her.

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It's a while since I drove with her in her car,

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and as soon as we pulled out of the driveway,
I remembered why.

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You see, for Amy,

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the car is her favourite place
to conduct business,

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but she doesn't think
it's safe to talk and drive,

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so she has to pull over,
and not just anywhere, Paul, no.

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It has to be a proper parking place.

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No yellow kerbs,
no handicapped spaces for this lady.

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Do you park in handicapped spaces?

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No, I don't park in handicapped spaces,
but I'll park in a yellow or a red, sure.

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- Not worried about getting a ticket?
- No, fuck 'em.

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Hm. So why didn't you offer to drive?

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See, a while ago,

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I fell asleep once at the wheel.

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Once, while I was taking her to the airport.

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I had been working all night
and we were stuck in traffic.

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I must've closed my eyes,
for no more than ten seconds.

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Next thing I know, she's screaming,
"Get out of the car. You almost killed us."

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Ever since then, she never lets me drive her
and I don't like to be driven by a chick, so...

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Nah...

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You know, the truth is,
she's a much better driver than I am anyway.

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- Hello, Paul.
- Hello, Amy.

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Late again, sorry.

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- Making up for last week.
- What happened last week?

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I was early.

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- You were early?
- Yes, last week I was early,

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this week I'm late, I said I was sorry.

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- What?
- What?

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- You've got that face.
- What face?

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I said I was sorry. What do you want to do?
You want to slap my hand? Go on, then.

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What?

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I was late on purpose.
I thought you and Paul could catch up.

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- Ame, it's OK. Relax.
- Don't tell me to relax. It's annoying.

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So how have you both been?

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- Fine.
- (Scoffs quietly)

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- How are you?
- I'm well, thank you.

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I just want to acknowledge, uh, Jake,
that Amy and I met alone last week.

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- He knows that.
- Yes, I know he knows that.

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Then why did you find it
necessary to say it?

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Just so that we'd be clear.

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Yeah, I was meeting
with a producer

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who's talking about buying
some of my songs for this artist of his.

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And is he?

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Are you trying to pick a fight?

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- Just kidding.
- Oh, you're just kidding.

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My bad. I think I left
my funny detector in the car

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so I couldn't tell.

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Amy's been really stressed out at work.

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I'm not. Work's the same as usual.

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You've been killing yourself.

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Your boss is an asshole
and he's been working her to the bone.

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- Will you stop it?
- What?

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"Works me to the bone."
You make it sound like I work in a factory.

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- I just think you've been working too hard...
- I'm fine.

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- Can I be worried about you?
- No, stop it. You're annoying.

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Wow.
I don't know what to say here, Paul.

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When you walk into a minefield,
usually there's some warning signs, right?

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Sorry.

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I guess I'm a little tired.

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I don't get where this is all coming from.
I thought we had a really good week.

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Amy, how did you, uh...

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how did you feel about the week?

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I thought before today,

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it's been pretty smooth sailing
on the sea of matrimony here.

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She'd come home, I'd cook, we'd have
a glass of wine on the porch. It was nice.

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I've become your lapdog too, so that helps.

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My lapdog? What does he mean by that?

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Two weeks ago I castrated myself here
before your eyes.

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You don't remember?

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You mean when you were honest
with Amy about how you felt?

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Yeah, I mean when I begged her
to give a damn about me.

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- Hm. Do you regret that?
- No.

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- I don't, not if that's what she needs.
- What do you mean by that?

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What I mean is I'm trying to keep the peace.

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Now look, I realise I haven't been
the easiest guy to love

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but I'm trying to make this work.

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I wanna make this work. So I'm trying.

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I really thought we were happy this week.

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Of course you did,
because you were happy.

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I have been bending over backwards
far enough to stick my head up my own ass.

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You think that's been easy for me?
I... I don't know what you want.

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If I'm worried about you, it's not good enough.
If I back off, it's no good. I can't win.

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"I worry about you.
I back off. I can't win."

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I, I, I, I.

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- What do you want?
- Nothing. Forget it. I shouldn't have come.

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I'm sorry. I'm in a bad mood.
I'll just mess things up. He's been great.

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Jake's just wonderful.
I don't know what's wrong with me.

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This really just started. She's been great.
The last two weeks have been amazing.

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There hasn't been a lot of drama.
We haven't even argued about Lenny.

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I really... I really felt like I was
giving her what she needs.

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(Laughs)

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Sorry.

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- What the fuck was that?
- Sorry, Jake.

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No, did I say something funny?

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No, it's just, you said
you know what I need.

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- Yeah?
- For some reason I found that funny.

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(Laughs)

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That's the face Jake makes when
he's about to hit something, so watch out.

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(Sighs)

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What do you need, Amy?
Just tell me what you need.

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- Tell me what you need.
- I got what I need, you.

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I just told you, I thought
everything was fine for a change, I really did.

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Well, I'm not coming home exhausted.
You've become a fucking tranquilliser.

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At least before you used to grab my arse
or kiss me.

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Now you're so tender and sensitive...

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When I grabbed you,
you said I was treating you like an animal.

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That's true.

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What do you think it is that you want, Amy?

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I don't know.

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I wanna go home.
I shouldn't have come here today.

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- It was a mistake.
- Why do you think that, Amy?

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(Quietly) It was a mistake.

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- My stomach aches.
- How convenient.

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Amy gets these
perfectly timed stomachaches.

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They're like her secret weapons.

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Would you like some tea, Amy?

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Mm-mm.

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- What does it feel like?
- Like she's having a conversation

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- she'd rather not have.
- I'm asking... I'm asking Amy.

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It feels like my stomach is cramping.

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The classic stomach cramp.

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You see, it's just vague enough
to be completely untreatable.

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Is it something
that you've had before?

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(Sighs)

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I had the first one
when my father died,

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but a thousand times
worse than this, you know?

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(Sighs)

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I remember I couldn't stand up.

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I... I was lying curled up on the pavement

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with tears streaming out of my eyes and...

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I couldn't move.

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(Amy sighs)

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Where was this?

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Outside an ice-cream store.
That's where he died.

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He took me for an ice cream.
My mother was in a horrible mood

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and I went to my dad's office
and said, "I wanna run away,"

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and he said, "That's OK.
I wanna run away too,

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"but let's stop first
and get an ice cream."

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And I knew what he was doing
but I didn't care, I, um...

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I just wanted to get out of the house
and spend time with my dad.

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We sat down on the curb outside the store,
eating our ice-cream cones

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and we were racing to see
who could finish first, and I won.

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So I asked him for money
to buy another cone

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and I went back inside and...

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a car swung...

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into the parking lot
and ploughed right into him.

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One minute he was sitting there
and the next he was dead.

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Did you see it happen?

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Yes, it happened, and then all of a sudden

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there was this wave of pain
through my stomach.

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It folded me over.
I had to lie down on the pavement,

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and there were people staring at me.

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Someone came over
and tried to touch me to help me.

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And I just started screaming,
the pain was so great.

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And the paramedics arrived
with two stretchers.

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They put my father on one...

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and me on the other
and they took me to the hospital

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and my father to the morgue.

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I don't think my mother
ever forgave me.

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Forgave you for what?

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It's OK.

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- It wasn't your fault...
- Oh, shut up.

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You don't know what
you're talking about.

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- What? No, you were just a kid.
- Stop it!

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You don't know. You don't know anything.
You don't know me at all.

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- I've done terrible, terrible things.
- It was an accident.

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Really terrible things. I had sex with Ben.

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I didn't even enjoy it.
Felt like a whore.

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He picked me up from here last week
and we went out drinking.

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And then we went back to the office
and fucked on the floor.

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Everyone had gone.
He kept saying disgusting things.

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Degrading things.

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And I was asking myself,
"Why am I doing this?"

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But I couldn't stop.

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When we finished, he said,
"Lock up. I'm tired."

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And he walked out.

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I sat alone for two hours,
drinking coffee,

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thinking about what I should do.

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And I planned to come home and tell you
and quit my job the next day.

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But in the cab
on the way home, I realised...

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I couldn't tell you.

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(Laughs)

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- You're laughing.
- Apparently so.

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- How can you be laughing?
- I don't know.

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(Laughs)

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What is he doing?

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Maybe he's relieved.

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Yeah.

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I think that's... that's it.
I think that's exactly it. I'm relieved.

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This is...

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(Exhales)

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It's always been my...

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my worst nightmare,
what I'm scared of the most.

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And now it's happened
and I feel like...

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I feel like this huge weight
has been lifted off my shoulders.

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It's gone.

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I feel bad for you.

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Yeah. And sad.

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I think it's really sad that a woman
whose husband breaks down

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saying he can't live without her,

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fucks someone else and hurts herself so bad.
I think that's sad.

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Do you think it's related, Jake?

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Your telling Amy that you love her

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- and her cheating on you?
- Yeah.

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It seems pretty obvious to me, but...

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what's surprising me, Paul, is -
and maybe I'm just in shock -

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is that I don't feel jealous.

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I don't feel jealous or angry.

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My God, I think I am really
being outstanding here, guys.

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I mean, is anyone else
as impressed with me as I am? Hm?

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I've imagined this over and over again

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and I can tell you that I've nev...

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I can tell you that l-I've never
behaved like such a gentleman.

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Yeah, I just... I feel sad.

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For her, for us.

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He's right about the connection
between what happened with Ben

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and what happened here.

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From the moment Jake broke down,

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I've been feeling like
I was gonna lose control.

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Jake...

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I feel awful.

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Say something.

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- How many times did this happen?
- Just once.

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It won't happen again.

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Why did I do this?

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Maybe you've always wanted
to make Jake angry

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because...

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because you don't trust his tenderness.

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And because there's
something deep inside you

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that wants to be punished.

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But Jake has been working hard lately
to be more patient and supportive,

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and he's no longer
giving you what you need in that way.

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And so now you've started to punish yourself

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by having sex with somebody that,
as you said yourself, you find repulsive.

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You said that after your father died
your mother never forgave you.

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Maybe you've never
forgiven yourself, Amy,

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for leaving your father on the curb
while you went to get an ice cream.

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Maybe you feel that
if you degrade yourself enough...

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maybe someday
somebody will forgive you...

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for...

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for everything.

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What do you see in me?

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How could you possibly be with me?

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I loved you.

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Loved?

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That's it?

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I deserve it.
You can hit me if you like.

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- Amy.
- No, you can, you can hit me.

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I don't want to hit you, Ame.

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- We have to pick up Lenny.
- There's still time.

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- Well, I really wanna see him.
- No, don't go, don't go!

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It's too early.
The class doesn't finish until seven.

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Just don't go, please. Let's just sit here.

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Let's just sit here with Paul.
Let's just be quiet for a minute.

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Will he forgive me?

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Why don't you ask him?

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