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Previously on in Treatment.

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You'll get a call
from one of your compatriots.

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He's a navy doctor named Connell.
He'll be checking up on me.

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Can you imagine yourself back in an aeroplane
flying a mission after what happened?

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That's what everybody wants,
my father included.

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He and Michaela are united
in everything.

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You're putting me
in a very difficult position, Alex.

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- You don't expect me to lie, do you?
- Look, cut the crap. I need this.

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Tell me, what would you do?

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I would stay in therapy.

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I would continue to deal with the difficult issues
that we've been talking about,

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not sweep them under the carpet
like you've been doing in your life.

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They will creep up on you again.

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But you won't tell me not to fly.

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(Bells toll)

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- Hi.
- You'll want to wait till the next hymn,

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the service has already started.

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- But they said ten.
- For the Garrity funeral?

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- The Prince funeral.
- Oh, sorry.

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That's in the Gold Chapel.

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OK, thank you.

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(# Ave Maria)

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I'm Paul Weston.
I was a friend of Alex's.

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- My condolences.
- Thank you for coming.

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- I'm deeply sorry.
- Thank you very much.

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I'm deeply sorry.

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Shit.

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That's OK. Don't worry about it.
It will dry off in a minute.

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- Hi, I'm Paul.
- Roy.

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I was a friend of your dad's.

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He was really proud of you.
He used to talk about you all the time.

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He would be mad to know
I cussed just now.

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You know, today I think it would be OK
to say any cuss word you wanted.

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Yeah.

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Mm-hm. I'm saying them. In my head.

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Without saying them out loud.

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Cos of what I feel about
what happened to your dad.

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Do you think swearing is better than crying?

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Um...

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I think crying's OK too.

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I don't want to.
That would just make everyone more upset.

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You know, you don't have to be strong.

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My dad was always telling me
I needed to be strong.

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Ah.

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Whenever he'd go away he'd say to me,

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"Take care of Mom.
You're the man of the house."

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Yeah, I kinda know what he means.

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But, you know,
being the man of the house also means

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letting other people know
how you feel inside.

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You know, whether you're angry or sad or...

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The chances are
your mom feels the same and...

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maybe the two of you could
help each other feel better.

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Your dad told me
that you were an incredible chess player.

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Did you leave the king and the rook
with your father on the casket?

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There's this move called castling.
Do you know it?

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Kind of, yes.

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- It was my dad's favourite move.
- Oh.

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He swapped them sometimes.

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You sacrifice your rook to save your king.

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Mm.

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(Woman) Roy?

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- Goodbye.
- Yeah, goodbye.

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Hi. Thanks for calling me.

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Sure. Well, I, uh...
I wanted to reach you

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before you read about it
or saw it on the news.

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Are you OK? You look...

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Have you slept?

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Ah, not really. Uh...

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Sometimes I think it's better not to, you know?
I keep dreaming about this.

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Hm.

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I never had a patient die before in treatment.

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You'd think in 20 years
it would've happened before, but...

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it hasn't.

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You should take some time off.

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Well, I'm definitely gonna
take the morning off, I...

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- I have to keep my afternoon appointments.
- You shouldn't do that, Paul.

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I know, but I've promised, so...

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Also, I...

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I also don't just want to sit there
and not give anything back.

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No, you need to cancel
for your sake, Paul.

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Yeah. Yeah, you're right.

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Was that his son?

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He seems to be doing OK.

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I was, uh...
I was talking to him earlier on.

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What the hell do you say to a nine-year-old kid
whose father is...

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not coming home?

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It's hard to see so many people in pain

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and not be able to...
help them in some way.

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Maybe helping is easier
than feeling the pain.

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- True.
- Mm.

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Dr Laura.

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(Both chuckle)

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You know,
my mother is buried in this cemetery.

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- I didn't know she...
- Mm.

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- When did she die?
- Oh, a long time ago.

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18 years.

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Do you visit her often?

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Well...

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See, we named our daughter
after my mother, Rosemary.

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So...

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it's my daughter's name
on the gravestone in a way, so...

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I can't bear that, so no,
I don't... I don't visit often.

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Actually, I agonised whether or not
I should come today.

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- Mm?
- I didn't want to be disrespectful.

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Why would you be disrespectful?

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Well, to her, his wife.

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I mean, she lost her husband.
The children lost their father.

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That's something meaningful.
What am I?

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A what, an ex-fling?

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I think it's really great
that you came today.

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The truth is he was a nice guy.

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Yeah, he was funny
and sweet and beautiful.

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If our timing had been different

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or if we hadn't met through you

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or if I had been
an entirely different person, maybe...

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Well, big ifs.

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Big ifs.

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Mm.

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Lf...

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I'm sorry, uh, did you get one of these?

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Directions to the grave site.
It's a huge cemetery, bit of a labyrinth.

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OK, thank you.

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- Dr Weston?
- Yes.

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I'm Daniel Alterio.
I called you the other day with the news.

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It's nice to meet you. Thank you.

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I recognised your voice. I hope I wasn't
too abrupt on the phone, I had a...

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long list of people to call and, uh,
I was still reeling myself.

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I understand.

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Maybe you're the person
who can explain to me why...

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almost every person
that I gave the news to,

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their first response was,
"But I just saw him."

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Maybe this is just their mind's way
of processing the shock.

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- I'm sorry. Daniel.
- Laura.

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- Hello.
- Hi.

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So had you just seen him?

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No, he was staying with me,

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but, um, we've both been so busy.

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I tried to get him to go to the opera
with me the other night.

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Sean offered Alex his ticket, but, um...

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our Alex wasn't the opera kind of guy.

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He was afraid of opera.

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- I'm afraid of flying.
- Me too.

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- Terrified. Thank God for drugs.
- Amen.

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Alex was always trying to get me
to fly with him.

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Promised if he took me up, I'd, uh...
I'd be safe.

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I'm sure that's true.

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Yeah.

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I just never thought
that it would end like this for him.

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I mean, I knew the risks, but, um...

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I just never thought
he'd get into trouble up there.

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Then again, everything I ever thought of Alex

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got turned on its head sooner or later.

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But look who I'm telling - the authority.

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- It was good to meet you.
- You too, Daniel.

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I'm sorry. Laurie, was it?

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- No, Laura. Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you too.

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- I'll see you both in about a half-hour.
- OK, thank you.

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Are you OK?

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Yeah. Are you?

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Yeah. And if you weren't,
would you say anything to me?

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- I would.
- Cool.

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Excuse me. Do I know you?

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Oh, I'm Paul Weston.
I was a friend of Alex's.

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My deepest, deepest condolences.

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Thank you. I... I don't remember...

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You played racquetball with him.

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No, no, no, that was a Walton.
I'm sorry, that was somebody - Walton.

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Alex, you know,
he had so many friends I never met...

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until now.

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It's a terrible thing, you know,

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to have to pick out a plot for your child.

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Michaela, she, uh...

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she left it to me.

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Alex, he liked to lay in the sun, you know.

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He'd lay on the roof like a lizard, you know?

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Anyway, uh, I picked a spot

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that's really out in the open.

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You'll see it.
You'll see it when you get there, OK?

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I didn't get the chance to say it before, sir,
but you have my deepest sympathy.

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Thank you very much for coming,
you and your husband.

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You're a very lucky man,
you have a lovely wife.

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Actually, Laura and I...

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- No, no, no.
- I'm sorry, I...

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I'm just all out of sorts today.

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I understand.

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(Inhales deeply, exhales)

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It's so quiet.

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When I was a little girl

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I'd make my mother tie my shoes so tight

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that sometimes the laces would snap.

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And I liked the bed sheets pulled really taut

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so that it was hard to turn over.

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I liked the feeling of something holding me in.

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I think I was afraid that maybe I'd float away
and no one would notice.

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Sorry about that before, I...

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- I should've introduced you properly.
- It's OK.

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- It kind of caught me on the hop.
- Paul, it's fine.

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When I was growing up

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people always thought
my stepmother was my...

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was my sister.

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She was...

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26 years younger than my father.

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A few times, actually,
she and I were mistaken for a couple.

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And the old man would play into it,

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as if she and I were a pair of newlyweds

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taking the old man out
for a night on the town.

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God, he loved it so much,
being with her because she was so...

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you know, young and beautiful.

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So proud of the fact that...

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she was with him.

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How did they meet?

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He was a doctor.

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And, um... Heart surgeon.

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She was... she was a patient

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and he did a bypass on her.

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They started to date
and then he left my mother.

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It was a nightmare.

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When I was a teenager I was always...

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always in trouble.

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I remember once this counsellor said to me,
"What are you gonna be when you grow up?"

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And I remember saying to him,
"Anything except my father."

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My father was a really selfish man.

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Whatever he wanted, he just took it.

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No regard for anybody's...

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feelings or...

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Hm...

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I, uh... I think you should go without me.

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What?

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I don't know, I...

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just don't feel up to it.

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Everything's, uh, caught up with me,

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and watching them put him in the ground
is just a little too much for me.

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- You sure?
- Yeah, you go.

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Pay your respects.

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No one knows who I am anyway.

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Hey.

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I know who you are.

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English SDH