1 00:00:00,028 --> 00:00:01,878 Previously on In Treatment... 2 00:00:02,761 --> 00:00:06,244 If there's someone who does not know the meaning of guilt, it's my father. 3 00:00:06,512 --> 00:00:08,900 Mid-'50s, right? Jim Crow, Oklahoma. 4 00:00:09,187 --> 00:00:11,985 This mob with hoods attacked his house. 5 00:00:12,268 --> 00:00:14,718 So my father takes the family, they run downstairs to the... 6 00:00:14,888 --> 00:00:16,738 The boiler room, to the basement. 7 00:00:17,038 --> 00:00:18,632 My grandfather, his father, 8 00:00:18,933 --> 00:00:21,541 was very sick, dying of lung cancer. 9 00:00:21,711 --> 00:00:23,203 He had this hacking cough. 10 00:00:23,373 --> 00:00:26,204 My father puts his hand over his father's mouth and nose 11 00:00:26,374 --> 00:00:28,974 and he kept it there while they searched the basement. 12 00:00:29,243 --> 00:00:30,730 Kept it clamped tight. 13 00:00:31,288 --> 00:00:33,057 And then when they finally cleared out... 14 00:00:33,227 --> 00:00:34,551 my grandfather was dead. 15 00:00:35,067 --> 00:00:36,686 I'd love to see him on this couch. 16 00:00:36,856 --> 00:00:38,893 Doc, you'd have a field day with him. 17 00:00:46,112 --> 00:00:48,017 I'm Paul Weston. I was a friend of Alex's. 18 00:00:48,187 --> 00:00:50,289 My deepest deepest condolences. 19 00:00:50,459 --> 00:00:52,694 Thank you. I... I don't remember... 20 00:00:53,201 --> 00:00:55,090 You played racquetball with him. 21 00:01:13,840 --> 00:01:15,417 Hello, excuse me. 22 00:01:18,561 --> 00:01:21,518 I'm sorry. I didn't know which one of these doors was the right one. 23 00:01:21,688 --> 00:01:24,369 That's okay. It's a terrible day. 24 00:01:26,095 --> 00:01:27,758 Didn't want to knock on your residence. 25 00:01:27,928 --> 00:01:30,716 No problem. This door is usually for people who come in. 26 00:01:30,886 --> 00:01:32,362 That's usually the exit door. 27 00:01:32,661 --> 00:01:34,830 But it doesn't... It doesn't really matter. 28 00:01:35,000 --> 00:01:37,272 You have an entry door and an exit door? 29 00:01:38,103 --> 00:01:41,053 It's for people's privacy. Some people don't like to... 30 00:01:41,223 --> 00:01:43,147 They don't like to run into each other. 31 00:01:43,494 --> 00:01:44,499 Are they ashamed? 32 00:01:46,169 --> 00:01:49,980 No. It's just... It's protocol really. 33 00:01:52,376 --> 00:01:54,580 - Would you like some coffee? - No, I'm a tea man. 34 00:01:54,750 --> 00:01:56,288 But no, nothing, thank you. 35 00:01:56,458 --> 00:01:58,369 - I'm fine. - Please, sit down. 36 00:02:01,968 --> 00:02:03,583 I got a lot of questions. 37 00:02:05,599 --> 00:02:08,482 I'm sure you have. And I hope that I can answer some of them. 38 00:02:08,759 --> 00:02:10,768 One thing I do have to stress from the outset 39 00:02:10,938 --> 00:02:13,243 is that anything that is said 40 00:02:13,413 --> 00:02:16,023 between myself and a patient in this room... 41 00:02:17,435 --> 00:02:18,627 is private. 44 00:02:28,315 --> 00:02:32,081 Something to help me understand what happened to my son. 45 00:02:39,699 --> 00:02:41,746 Transcript: FRM Team Sync: Benj! 46 00:02:55,711 --> 00:02:58,912 You weren't very forthcoming about who you were 47 00:02:59,082 --> 00:03:00,744 when we met at the services. 48 00:03:01,094 --> 00:03:02,746 A friend, you said? 49 00:03:03,028 --> 00:03:04,191 That's hardly the case. 50 00:03:04,361 --> 00:03:07,713 Well, I didn't want to betray Alex's confidence. 51 00:03:07,985 --> 00:03:10,096 Daniel didn't hesitate in explaining 52 00:03:10,294 --> 00:03:12,998 exactly what your relationship to Alex was. 53 00:03:14,503 --> 00:03:16,099 He's very direct... Daniel. 54 00:03:16,269 --> 00:03:17,508 I like that about him. 55 00:03:17,789 --> 00:03:20,606 Were you surprised to hear that Alex was in therapy? 56 00:03:20,986 --> 00:03:23,643 That he didn't tell me surprised me. 57 00:03:24,211 --> 00:03:27,101 - I mean, what's the big deal? - Why do you think he didn't? 58 00:03:27,379 --> 00:03:29,543 We'll never know the answer to that, will we? 59 00:03:31,080 --> 00:03:32,104 Or I won't. 60 00:03:33,503 --> 00:03:35,663 Maybe that's something you discussed here. 61 00:03:40,522 --> 00:03:42,813 You know, it always puzzled me, 62 00:03:44,191 --> 00:03:46,848 the whole process here, you know? 63 00:03:47,496 --> 00:03:50,804 I mean, that... That a person is in therapy at all 64 00:03:50,974 --> 00:03:53,862 often is never discussed... 65 00:03:54,032 --> 00:03:55,356 Who the doctor is, 66 00:03:56,633 --> 00:03:59,275 what he's there for, how much it cost. 67 00:04:00,947 --> 00:04:02,965 Funny thing is that it's secrecy 68 00:04:03,248 --> 00:04:06,098 or misunderstandings, things never spoken that... 69 00:04:06,465 --> 00:04:08,643 usually land people in therapy in the first place. 70 00:04:08,813 --> 00:04:11,574 - Isn't at ironic? - I don't think it's about secrecy. 71 00:04:11,840 --> 00:04:13,710 I think it's about creating an environment 72 00:04:13,880 --> 00:04:16,453 where people can come and feel safe 73 00:04:16,623 --> 00:04:18,839 to talk about anything. 74 00:04:19,259 --> 00:04:21,630 Safer than with their loved ones? 75 00:04:21,800 --> 00:04:23,741 Sometimes it's easier to talk to somebody 76 00:04:23,911 --> 00:04:25,760 who's totally uninvolved in your life... 77 00:04:25,930 --> 00:04:28,396 Somebody objective. Somebody who has no stake in it. 78 00:04:28,690 --> 00:04:30,997 You mean like a prostitute, hmm? 79 00:04:31,957 --> 00:04:34,831 Someone who's paid for their intimacy and their discretion. 80 00:04:37,467 --> 00:04:40,018 A man should have someone to talk to 81 00:04:40,355 --> 00:04:41,735 who cares about him, 82 00:04:42,153 --> 00:04:45,186 Not someone who charges by the hour. 83 00:04:45,457 --> 00:04:47,508 I really did care for Alex. 84 00:04:48,795 --> 00:04:50,063 And if I hadn't, 85 00:04:50,936 --> 00:04:53,133 I'd actually be a pretty poor therapist. 86 00:05:01,884 --> 00:05:04,917 Do you think Alex spoke about things in this room that he never... 87 00:05:06,222 --> 00:05:08,045 spoke to anyone else about? 88 00:05:08,384 --> 00:05:10,740 That is usually the case with patients. 89 00:05:10,910 --> 00:05:13,877 So you probably know as much about him as anyone did. 90 00:05:14,158 --> 00:05:16,364 Do you feel that you knew your son well? 91 00:05:18,054 --> 00:05:19,772 I knew Alex when he was... 92 00:05:20,030 --> 00:05:21,074 a little boy. 93 00:05:21,252 --> 00:05:23,817 - And what was he like then? - Well, he was... 94 00:05:25,128 --> 00:05:26,133 quiet. 95 00:05:26,443 --> 00:05:27,583 Introspective. 96 00:05:28,077 --> 00:05:29,325 Daydreamer. 97 00:05:31,154 --> 00:05:32,060 Inventor. 98 00:05:33,045 --> 00:05:34,782 Did he ever mention that to you? 99 00:05:35,477 --> 00:05:36,951 He never did, no. 100 00:05:39,746 --> 00:05:42,572 He invented this thing for his mother... 101 00:05:44,056 --> 00:05:47,504 A pan that made flipping an omelet over very easy. 102 00:05:47,674 --> 00:05:49,208 He worked very hard on that thing. 103 00:05:49,378 --> 00:05:50,716 It was really good. 104 00:05:51,685 --> 00:05:53,863 So where did he get that from? Were you an inventor? 105 00:05:54,033 --> 00:05:56,756 Oh, no. No, man. I was a knucklehead. 106 00:05:57,618 --> 00:05:59,712 My father was an inventor. 107 00:05:59,990 --> 00:06:03,082 He invented this knife-sharpening machine. 108 00:06:03,476 --> 00:06:06,143 It didn't make very much money. He was proud of it. 109 00:06:08,896 --> 00:06:10,407 Alex reminded me of him. 110 00:06:10,577 --> 00:06:11,809 In what way? 111 00:06:13,281 --> 00:06:15,187 You trying to shrink me, doctor? 112 00:06:15,478 --> 00:06:16,543 I'm just curious. 113 00:06:16,713 --> 00:06:18,676 Or perhaps you can't help yourself. 114 00:06:19,662 --> 00:06:21,164 That's probably true too. 115 00:06:24,478 --> 00:06:26,112 My father and Alex... 116 00:06:28,049 --> 00:06:30,828 had the same mannerisms, the same sense of humor. 117 00:06:31,110 --> 00:06:32,424 It was unsettling. 118 00:06:32,687 --> 00:06:34,584 When Alex was a little boy 119 00:06:35,134 --> 00:06:38,646 and my father had been dead almost 20 years... 120 00:06:42,087 --> 00:06:43,317 There he was... 121 00:06:45,199 --> 00:06:47,969 Sitting across the dinner table looking at me... 122 00:06:48,505 --> 00:06:50,977 Through me with those eyes of his 123 00:06:51,147 --> 00:06:52,941 on Alex's face. 124 00:06:57,068 --> 00:06:59,725 Is your father still living, Mr. Weston? 125 00:07:00,008 --> 00:07:00,988 Yes. 126 00:07:02,641 --> 00:07:05,645 Yes, his body is in good health, 127 00:07:05,852 --> 00:07:06,913 But his... 128 00:07:09,595 --> 00:07:11,078 His mind is gone. 129 00:07:11,645 --> 00:07:12,806 Were you close? 130 00:07:13,808 --> 00:07:16,212 We had our differences, of course. 131 00:07:17,686 --> 00:07:19,104 But we were close. 132 00:07:19,461 --> 00:07:21,010 We are close, I mean. 133 00:07:21,738 --> 00:07:23,004 How often do you see him? 134 00:07:23,290 --> 00:07:24,548 About once a month. 135 00:07:24,877 --> 00:07:26,567 Does he know you're there? 136 00:07:28,062 --> 00:07:30,673 No. I don't think so. 137 00:07:31,653 --> 00:07:34,977 But the visit is more for my sake. 138 00:07:35,636 --> 00:07:37,129 What do you get out of it? 139 00:07:40,292 --> 00:07:41,324 Connection, 140 00:07:42,869 --> 00:07:44,212 a sense of... 141 00:07:45,967 --> 00:07:47,216 belonging. 142 00:07:48,758 --> 00:07:51,800 Do you ever have conversations with him in your head? 143 00:07:53,090 --> 00:07:54,780 Both sides of the conversation? 144 00:07:56,706 --> 00:07:57,805 Yes. 145 00:07:58,063 --> 00:08:01,513 When I was younger everything he said went in one ear, out the other. 146 00:08:02,288 --> 00:08:04,128 Now I hear his voice in my head 147 00:08:04,298 --> 00:08:06,495 Loud and clear every day. 148 00:08:06,783 --> 00:08:09,369 That's the sense of connection that you mentioned. That's... 149 00:08:09,539 --> 00:08:11,876 That's what I feel slipping away 150 00:08:12,046 --> 00:08:15,145 with each passing day since Alex's death. 151 00:08:15,470 --> 00:08:16,662 That sense of... 152 00:08:19,432 --> 00:08:22,095 I'm trying to find his voice, 153 00:08:22,265 --> 00:08:23,701 you know, but... 154 00:08:26,369 --> 00:08:27,767 He won't talk to me. 155 00:08:31,401 --> 00:08:33,503 If you don't mind me saying so, Mr. Prince, I think 156 00:08:33,673 --> 00:08:37,204 that it's still too soon. 157 00:08:38,379 --> 00:08:41,355 You're probably still in a state of shock. 158 00:08:43,701 --> 00:08:45,109 But his voice... 159 00:08:45,922 --> 00:08:47,443 will come back to you. 160 00:08:57,588 --> 00:08:59,747 I apologize for comparing what you do 161 00:08:59,917 --> 00:09:03,344 to, uh, prostitution. 162 00:09:04,653 --> 00:09:06,484 I don't believe they're the same at all. 163 00:09:06,760 --> 00:09:08,192 Apology accepted. 164 00:09:16,640 --> 00:09:18,151 How would you describe 165 00:09:19,738 --> 00:09:20,949 my son Alex? 166 00:09:21,780 --> 00:09:24,756 I'm not asking you for a diagnosis. 167 00:09:24,982 --> 00:09:26,784 You don't have to tell me what he thought, 168 00:09:26,954 --> 00:09:28,972 just what you thought of him personally. 169 00:09:39,351 --> 00:09:41,219 I thought that Alex was... 170 00:09:41,526 --> 00:09:43,357 an extremely... 171 00:09:44,155 --> 00:09:46,291 capable man. 172 00:09:47,568 --> 00:09:49,379 Strong sense of mission. 173 00:09:49,651 --> 00:09:53,586 A very strong sense of what was expected of him. 174 00:09:54,313 --> 00:09:55,664 Uh, mission or purpose? 175 00:09:55,834 --> 00:09:58,564 - What do you mean? - Well, Alex was a military man. 176 00:09:59,428 --> 00:10:01,663 Military men have missions. 177 00:10:03,153 --> 00:10:05,142 To have a purpose, a sense of purpose, 178 00:10:05,312 --> 00:10:07,416 that's something... 179 00:10:08,360 --> 00:10:11,515 Something you do on your own, something you want for yourself. 180 00:10:12,134 --> 00:10:13,350 Did he have that? 181 00:10:14,900 --> 00:10:17,332 I think that Alex was struggling to find out 182 00:10:17,502 --> 00:10:19,173 what he wanted for himself. 183 00:10:19,587 --> 00:10:21,474 - Did he say that? - No, sir, he didn't. 184 00:10:21,766 --> 00:10:24,110 I'm just giving you some of my impressions 185 00:10:26,035 --> 00:10:28,352 without betraying what he confided in me. 186 00:10:28,841 --> 00:10:31,225 Frankly, it's more than I'm allowed to do. 187 00:10:34,935 --> 00:10:37,320 Were you in the service yourself, Mr. Prince? 188 00:10:40,532 --> 00:10:43,893 Eight months, you know, after they drafted me. 189 00:10:44,644 --> 00:10:46,737 Had an asthma attack and they discharged me. 190 00:10:46,907 --> 00:10:48,334 probably saved my life. 191 00:10:48,612 --> 00:10:50,771 Funny, a breathing problem was... 192 00:10:51,259 --> 00:10:52,530 my salvation, 193 00:10:54,220 --> 00:10:56,060 and my father's death knell. 194 00:10:59,632 --> 00:11:02,731 Alex told you about what happened to my father? 195 00:11:08,851 --> 00:11:11,076 These are facts about my life, 196 00:11:11,884 --> 00:11:13,357 not Alex's treatment. 197 00:11:16,565 --> 00:11:18,123 Do you happen to know 198 00:11:19,138 --> 00:11:20,687 how my father died? 199 00:11:21,062 --> 00:11:22,917 Yes or no? Simple question. 200 00:11:25,639 --> 00:11:27,376 Yes. Yes, I do. 201 00:11:35,275 --> 00:11:38,223 Anyway, I wasn't a war hero 202 00:11:38,430 --> 00:11:41,012 like my son, if that's what you were wondering. 203 00:11:45,235 --> 00:11:47,657 How did you feel about Alex's... 204 00:11:48,578 --> 00:11:49,798 service in the Navy? 205 00:11:50,090 --> 00:11:52,910 I was proud of it, of course, like any father would be. 206 00:11:54,803 --> 00:11:57,544 - Was he, do you think? - Do you suspect that he wasn't? 207 00:11:57,714 --> 00:11:59,793 I want to understand my son... 208 00:12:00,995 --> 00:12:02,909 mr. Weston. And instead of helping me, 209 00:12:03,079 --> 00:12:05,352 You answer questions with questions. 210 00:12:09,494 --> 00:12:10,950 I think your son 211 00:12:11,795 --> 00:12:14,724 found it increasingly difficult to 212 00:12:16,446 --> 00:12:18,315 compartmentalize, 213 00:12:18,867 --> 00:12:20,596 to keep his feelings 214 00:12:20,953 --> 00:12:23,310 apart from his obligations 215 00:12:23,986 --> 00:12:26,549 and to live up to the expectations of others. 216 00:12:27,322 --> 00:12:28,912 The expectations of the Navy? 217 00:12:29,082 --> 00:12:30,566 Expectations to excel 218 00:12:30,848 --> 00:12:32,829 like he had always excelled. 219 00:12:34,178 --> 00:12:36,084 And at the expense of his own needs 220 00:12:36,254 --> 00:12:39,982 and his real desires. 221 00:12:40,559 --> 00:12:43,460 Are you saying that Alex was ill-equipped emotionally 222 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:45,353 To handle the pressure? 223 00:12:45,812 --> 00:12:48,588 - Mr. Prince, you're asking me to... - I'm asking your opinion. 224 00:12:48,867 --> 00:12:51,325 Alex's emotional state is not something... 225 00:12:51,495 --> 00:12:54,313 You're playing a little fast and loose here, aren't you, mr. Weston? 226 00:12:54,483 --> 00:12:56,698 I can know my son was troubled, just not how troubled? 227 00:12:56,868 --> 00:12:59,877 I want to know what his therapist believed 228 00:13:00,061 --> 00:13:02,845 he was capable of, how far he would go. 229 00:13:03,123 --> 00:13:06,357 How far he'd go to what, Mr. Prince? 230 00:13:15,089 --> 00:13:17,286 I've spoken to a couple of Alex's fellow pilots. 231 00:13:20,266 --> 00:13:21,991 It was a training flight. 232 00:13:24,179 --> 00:13:27,127 They simulate a battle, one plane against another. 233 00:13:33,150 --> 00:13:35,347 The other pilot made a snap decision, 234 00:13:36,275 --> 00:13:39,026 Tried to get away, apparently flying low. 235 00:13:40,038 --> 00:13:42,526 They say Alex didn't have time to straighten out. 236 00:13:43,983 --> 00:13:45,293 There's also a rumor 237 00:13:45,495 --> 00:13:47,861 going around that Alex killed himself. 238 00:13:51,952 --> 00:13:53,313 He was a superb pilot. 239 00:13:53,588 --> 00:13:56,083 It wasn't combat, it was a training exercise. 240 00:13:57,483 --> 00:13:59,023 It was a training exercise. 241 00:14:02,830 --> 00:14:04,304 There hasn't been any... 242 00:14:04,971 --> 00:14:05,985 official... 243 00:14:07,516 --> 00:14:08,567 finding, 244 00:14:09,335 --> 00:14:11,401 Mr. Prince. You said that yourself. 245 00:14:11,690 --> 00:14:13,204 There's an ejection seat. 246 00:14:15,711 --> 00:14:17,176 Why didn't he jump? 247 00:14:20,199 --> 00:14:21,777 Maybe he... 248 00:14:22,977 --> 00:14:25,690 didn't think he needed to use it. 249 00:14:29,847 --> 00:14:30,927 Well... 250 00:14:36,940 --> 00:14:40,123 Michaela's been in church, 251 00:14:41,438 --> 00:14:43,465 you know, on her knees, 252 00:14:43,635 --> 00:14:46,044 praying, looking for answers. My wife also. 253 00:14:46,231 --> 00:14:47,781 And I told 'em, you know... 254 00:14:49,323 --> 00:14:51,116 That's the wrong place to look. 255 00:14:54,065 --> 00:14:56,170 God and me, we've been over for a while. 256 00:14:56,846 --> 00:14:58,161 My faith died... 257 00:14:59,070 --> 00:15:00,620 when my father died. 258 00:15:06,515 --> 00:15:10,478 A boy once beat Alex up. 259 00:15:12,212 --> 00:15:13,836 He was about 10 or 11. 260 00:15:14,193 --> 00:15:15,658 He took his shoes. 261 00:15:17,921 --> 00:15:19,593 Little shit punk, you know? 262 00:15:21,011 --> 00:15:22,512 Alex did nothing to fight back. 263 00:15:22,682 --> 00:15:25,543 He didn't defend himself. He wasn't a fighter. He was a... 264 00:15:27,421 --> 00:15:28,914 He was a frail kid. 265 00:15:29,272 --> 00:15:30,887 You know? Thin-skinned. 266 00:15:32,906 --> 00:15:34,736 And that scared the hell out of me. 267 00:15:34,906 --> 00:15:37,976 Where I come from, thin black skin could get you killed. 268 00:15:38,537 --> 00:15:40,772 And that was the kind of world that... 269 00:15:41,048 --> 00:15:42,435 That Alex was born into? 270 00:15:42,697 --> 00:15:44,085 What are you implying? 271 00:15:44,365 --> 00:15:47,927 - I'm simply asking if he... - No. Let me tell you something. 272 00:15:48,203 --> 00:15:50,602 I saw more injustices 273 00:15:50,772 --> 00:15:51,927 As a child. 274 00:15:52,584 --> 00:15:53,645 Horrors. 275 00:15:55,801 --> 00:15:56,844 Did they... 276 00:15:59,059 --> 00:16:01,707 Did they affect my view of the world? 277 00:16:02,801 --> 00:16:03,956 Of course. 278 00:16:05,966 --> 00:16:09,264 Did they shape the manner in which I raised my boy? 279 00:16:09,790 --> 00:16:11,189 How could they not? 280 00:16:11,895 --> 00:16:13,078 Strength. 281 00:16:15,332 --> 00:16:19,741 Strength was essential to survival. 282 00:16:21,412 --> 00:16:23,430 Vulnerability 283 00:16:23,633 --> 00:16:25,579 was often a death sentence. 284 00:16:26,157 --> 00:16:27,828 I wanted him to be safe. 285 00:16:45,434 --> 00:16:48,767 I envy the time you spent talking with him. 286 00:16:48,946 --> 00:16:49,979 I admit... 287 00:16:50,825 --> 00:16:53,369 Those kind of talks embarrass the hell out of me. 288 00:16:55,495 --> 00:16:56,744 This where he sat? 289 00:16:57,347 --> 00:16:58,389 Yes. 290 00:17:21,419 --> 00:17:22,584 Alex could talk. 291 00:17:25,175 --> 00:17:27,343 He and his boy, they'd talk for hours. 292 00:17:30,434 --> 00:17:33,401 He even once told Roy that he loved him. 293 00:17:33,716 --> 00:17:35,115 Boy, I tell you... 294 00:17:36,244 --> 00:17:38,056 Did I give him hell for that. 295 00:17:40,150 --> 00:17:42,368 "You're trying to make the kid a sissy or something?" 296 00:17:42,650 --> 00:17:46,090 It was bad enough that he didn't want to best Alex at anything. 297 00:17:46,383 --> 00:17:48,420 He'd rather throw a chess game 298 00:17:48,699 --> 00:17:50,878 just so's he wouldn't have to beat his father. 299 00:17:51,347 --> 00:17:54,712 Oh now, come on. That's no way to raise a boy to be a man. 300 00:17:54,891 --> 00:17:57,350 I mean, you have to challenge him, make him compete, 301 00:17:57,520 --> 00:17:59,363 Teach him how to fight, take care of himself. 302 00:17:59,533 --> 00:18:02,566 It's interesting that you regret not being 303 00:18:02,736 --> 00:18:06,068 more gentle yourself with Alex, and yet at the same time, 304 00:18:06,612 --> 00:18:09,359 You seem to justify being... being harsh. 305 00:18:09,641 --> 00:18:12,864 I hear you saying that you're a little conflicted about the notion... 306 00:18:13,034 --> 00:18:15,575 Mister, I'm not in conflict about anything. 307 00:18:21,859 --> 00:18:24,131 Is that how you tried to help Alex? 308 00:18:24,898 --> 00:18:27,424 Second-guessing every word that comes out of his mouth? 309 00:18:28,572 --> 00:18:29,868 A stranger, 310 00:18:30,178 --> 00:18:33,417 completely unfamiliar with his background. 311 00:18:33,774 --> 00:18:36,205 You go explaining his world to him. 312 00:18:36,375 --> 00:18:38,829 Actually, our sessions were mostly 313 00:18:38,999 --> 00:18:42,398 about me listening to what... To what he had to say. 314 00:18:42,669 --> 00:18:44,966 Yeah, well, there we go again with the listening, huh? 315 00:18:45,136 --> 00:18:48,175 He has his own personal professional listener. 316 00:18:48,345 --> 00:18:50,925 Listen, when I smothered my father 317 00:18:51,095 --> 00:18:54,524 do you think I paid someone to listen to me, hmm? 318 00:18:54,904 --> 00:18:57,383 You can't stop and dwell on every ache and pain. 319 00:18:57,636 --> 00:18:59,484 Maybe it's because of what my dad did 320 00:18:59,769 --> 00:19:01,574 or maybe it's because of what my mother did. 321 00:19:01,744 --> 00:19:03,593 Come on, you've got to keep moving, man. 322 00:19:03,763 --> 00:19:06,710 You know? What good does all the talk do? 323 00:19:06,880 --> 00:19:09,265 It's not gonna bring my father back. You know what? 324 00:19:09,869 --> 00:19:11,877 People like you... You never stop to think 325 00:19:12,047 --> 00:19:15,178 that we have a subconscious for a reason. 326 00:19:16,053 --> 00:19:19,598 Because there are things about ourselves that we cannot face. 327 00:19:19,884 --> 00:19:21,864 That we should not face. 328 00:19:22,143 --> 00:19:25,533 Or else how in the world do we get up out of bed in the morning? 329 00:19:26,848 --> 00:19:28,923 I'll tell you, World War III comes... 330 00:19:30,059 --> 00:19:32,468 All those people who've been through 331 00:19:32,638 --> 00:19:34,774 all of this psychoanalysis, 332 00:19:35,008 --> 00:19:37,564 spend hundreds... Thousands of dollars, 333 00:19:37,734 --> 00:19:39,732 are gonna be the first ones to lose their heads. 334 00:19:41,028 --> 00:19:44,089 Darwin had a theory. He called it survival of the fittest. 335 00:19:45,020 --> 00:19:47,697 The fittest, not the most self-reflective. 336 00:19:47,867 --> 00:19:50,069 With all due respect, I think that 337 00:19:50,361 --> 00:19:52,244 Alex started coming here 338 00:19:52,789 --> 00:19:54,294 because he felt that he needed to. 339 00:19:54,464 --> 00:19:56,915 And you had to take him apart, didn't you? 340 00:19:59,505 --> 00:20:01,261 You had to pick at the scab. 341 00:20:02,481 --> 00:20:05,241 Do you think that Alex's therapy here 342 00:20:05,411 --> 00:20:08,735 had something to do with his death? 343 00:20:08,931 --> 00:20:11,260 You're the one who told him 344 00:20:11,922 --> 00:20:14,504 he had to go look inside. 345 00:20:16,309 --> 00:20:17,905 To reflect, 346 00:20:18,519 --> 00:20:20,764 examine, feel. 347 00:20:21,032 --> 00:20:22,900 Oh yeah, he felt. 348 00:20:23,976 --> 00:20:27,648 And what did that get him? Now he's a human pancake. 349 00:20:28,205 --> 00:20:30,561 You're a hell of a miracle worker, doctor. 350 00:20:57,006 --> 00:20:58,950 Do you have a son, Mr. Weston? 351 00:20:59,851 --> 00:21:01,016 Yes, I do. 352 00:21:01,186 --> 00:21:02,859 And if another man, 353 00:21:03,178 --> 00:21:05,688 someone from a different culture, 354 00:21:06,437 --> 00:21:08,976 started giving him advice... 355 00:21:09,692 --> 00:21:10,988 Every week... 356 00:21:12,838 --> 00:21:15,340 Advice that you were pretty sure 357 00:21:16,645 --> 00:21:18,688 would be harmful to your son... 358 00:21:20,991 --> 00:21:22,137 What would you do? 359 00:21:22,419 --> 00:21:24,371 Your son was a mature man 360 00:21:24,541 --> 00:21:27,178 who decided to come here of his own... 361 00:21:27,348 --> 00:21:28,906 What would you do? 362 00:21:34,021 --> 00:21:35,354 What would you do? 363 00:21:41,964 --> 00:21:43,494 I would try to stop him, 364 00:21:45,314 --> 00:21:46,478 If I could. 365 00:22:02,700 --> 00:22:04,381 I can't get over the feeling... 366 00:22:09,036 --> 00:22:11,374 That I was torn apart in this room. 367 00:22:13,722 --> 00:22:14,999 People have... 368 00:22:16,148 --> 00:22:18,936 a misunderstanding About what happens in... 369 00:22:19,500 --> 00:22:21,115 In rooms like this. 370 00:22:23,082 --> 00:22:24,819 It really isn't about... 371 00:22:26,197 --> 00:22:29,277 blaming or looking for scapegoats. 372 00:22:41,399 --> 00:22:43,089 He was an outstanding person. 373 00:22:45,897 --> 00:22:46,977 He was kind, 374 00:22:47,972 --> 00:22:49,014 devoted, 375 00:22:50,413 --> 00:22:51,465 loyal... 376 00:22:54,598 --> 00:22:55,612 Too loyal. 377 00:22:57,968 --> 00:22:59,621 Often, I wished that he... 378 00:23:00,589 --> 00:23:03,077 would've just pleased himself, not me. 379 00:23:03,736 --> 00:23:07,632 But we want to please, don't we, Mr. Weston? 380 00:23:10,184 --> 00:23:13,085 He did a lifetime of trying to please me. 381 00:23:13,356 --> 00:23:14,409 All that... 382 00:23:17,819 --> 00:23:19,016 That tough... 383 00:23:22,269 --> 00:23:24,015 That tough schooling... 384 00:23:26,888 --> 00:23:28,991 And the training and... 385 00:23:30,860 --> 00:23:32,400 the achievements... 386 00:23:36,286 --> 00:23:37,582 That was for me. 387 00:23:38,381 --> 00:23:40,005 I'm the one who needed it. 388 00:23:43,732 --> 00:23:44,821 To feel... 389 00:23:46,307 --> 00:23:47,725 that he was safe. 390 00:23:50,310 --> 00:23:51,324 You know? 391 00:23:56,011 --> 00:23:57,349 You son loved you. 392 00:23:59,992 --> 00:24:02,349 And he had huge admiration for you. 393 00:24:04,402 --> 00:24:05,594 He told me that. 394 00:24:10,432 --> 00:24:12,103 Don't tell me that, man. 395 00:24:15,504 --> 00:24:17,044 You think that comfort... 396 00:24:17,729 --> 00:24:19,654 You think that comforts me? 397 00:24:23,263 --> 00:24:26,240 No. I would have rathered... 398 00:24:26,981 --> 00:24:29,395 that he hated me. 399 00:24:34,426 --> 00:24:36,276 I would have rathered 400 00:24:37,313 --> 00:24:41,848 That this was his "fuck you" to me. 401 00:24:47,001 --> 00:24:48,391 Why do you say that? 402 00:24:50,917 --> 00:24:53,349 For pushing him so hard... 403 00:24:56,151 --> 00:24:59,728 To be tougher... 404 00:25:02,492 --> 00:25:04,445 than the rest of the world. 405 00:25:04,999 --> 00:25:06,510 I was so stupid. 406 00:25:21,456 --> 00:25:22,987 Did I kill my son? 407 00:25:29,518 --> 00:25:32,683 I killed my father with my own two hands. 408 00:25:35,348 --> 00:25:37,141 Did I kill my son too? 409 00:25:37,483 --> 00:25:40,900 No, whatever happened up there was not your fault. 410 00:25:41,351 --> 00:25:42,862 You're not responsible. 411 00:25:55,652 --> 00:25:57,380 We'll never know, will we? 412 00:26:05,829 --> 00:26:07,547 Thank you. Thank you for your time. 413 00:26:12,439 --> 00:26:15,349 I'd appreciate it very much if you'd call me a taxi, please. 414 00:26:16,758 --> 00:26:17,763 Sure.