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Previously on In Treatment.

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If there's someone who does not know
the meaning of guilt, it's my father.

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Mid '50s, right? Jim Crow, Oklahoma.

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This mob with hoods attacked his house.

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So my father takes the family, they run
downstairs to the boiler room, to the basement.

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My grandfather, his father, was very sick,

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dying of lung cancer,
he had this hacking cough.

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My father puts his hand
over his father's mouth and nose

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and he kept it there
while they searched the basement.

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Kept it clamped tight.

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And when they finally cleared out,
my grandfather was dead.

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Man, I'd love to see him on this couch.
Doc, you'd have a field day with him.

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I'm Paul Weston, I was a friend of Alex's.
My deepest, deepest condolences.

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Thank you.
I... I don't remember...

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You played racquetball with him.

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(Thunder)

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Hello, excuse me.

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- Hi.
- I'm sorry.

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I didn't know which one of these doors
was the right one.

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That's OK. It's a terrible day.

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Didn't want to knock on your residence.

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No problem.
This door is usually for people who come in.

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And that's usually the exit door.

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But it doesn't...
it doesn't really matter.

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You have an entry door and an exit door?

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It's for people's privacy.
Some people don't like to...

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They don't like to run into each other.

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Are they ashamed?

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Oh, no. No, no, no.
It's just, uh... It's protocol really.

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- Would you like some coffee?
- No, I'm a tea man.

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- Ah...
- But no, nothing, thank you.

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- I'm fine.
- Please, sit down.

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I got a lot of questions.

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Uh, I'm sure you have,
and I hope that I can answer some of them.

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One thing I do have to stress from the outset

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is that anything that is said
between myself and a patient in this room...

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is private.

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- Even if the patient is dead?
- Yes, even then.

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Well, I'm sure we'll find something
to talk about...

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Something to help me understand
what happened to my son.

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You weren't very forthcoming
about who you were

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Well, I didn't want to betray Alex's confidence.

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Daniel didn't hesitate in explaining

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exactly what your relationship to Alex was.

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He's very direct, Daniel.
I like that about him.

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Were you surprised to hear
that Alex was in therapy?

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That he didn't tell me surprised me.

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- I mean, what's the big deal?
- Why do you think he didn't?

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We'll never know the answer to that, will we?

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Or I won't.

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Maybe that's something
you discussed here.

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You know, it always puzzled me,

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the whole process here, you know?

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I mean, that a person is in therapy at all
often is never discussed.

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Who the doctor is,
what he's there for,

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how much it cost.

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Funny thing is that it's secrecy
or misunderstandings, things never spoken

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that usually land people
in therapy in the first place.

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- Isn't that ironic?
- I don't think it's about secrecy.

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I think it's about creating an environment

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where people can come and feel safe
to talk about anything.

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Safer than with their loved ones?

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Sometimes it's easier to talk to somebody
who's totally uninvolved in your life,

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somebody objective,
somebody who has no stake in it.

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You mean like a prostitute, hm?

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Someone who's paid for their intimacy
and their discretion.

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A man should have someone to talk to
who cares about him,

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not someone who charges by the hour.

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I really did care for Alex.

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And if I hadn't,

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I'd actually be a pretty poor therapist.

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Do you think Alex spoke about things
in this room that he never...

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spoke to anyone else about?

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That is usually the case with patients.

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So you probably know as much about him
as anyone did.

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Do you feel that you knew your son well?

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I knew Alex when he was a... little boy.

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And what was he like then?

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Well, he was a...

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quiet, introspective, daydreamer.

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- Inventor.
- Oh.

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Did he ever mention that to you?

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He never did, no.

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Really? He, uh...

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He invented this, uh, thing for his mother...

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a pan that made flipping an omelette over
very easy.

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He worked very hard on that thing.
It was really good.

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So where did he get that from?
Were you an inventor?

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Oh, no. No, man.
I was a knucklehead.

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My father was an inventor.

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He invented this knife-sharpening machine.

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It didn't make very much money.
He was proud of it.

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- Alex reminded me of him.
- In what way?

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You trying to shrink me, Doctor?

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- I'm just curious.
- Or perhaps you can't help yourself.

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(Chuckles) That's probably true too.

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My father and Alex...

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uh, had the same mannerisms,
the same sense of humour.

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It was unsettling.
When Alex was a little boy

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and my father had been dead
almost, uh, 20 years...

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there he was...

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sitting across the dinner table looking at me...

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through me with those eyes of his
on Alex's face.

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Is your father still living, Mr Weston?

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Yes.

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Yes, his body is in... (Sighs)
...good health, but his...

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his mind is gone.

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Were you close?

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We had our differences, of course.

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But we were close.

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W-We are close, I mean.

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How often do you see him?

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- About once a month.
- Does he know you're there?

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No. I don't think so.

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But the visit is more for my sake.

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What do you get out of it?

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Connection,

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a sense of...

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belonging.

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Do you ever have conversations with him
in your head?

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- Both sides of the conversation?
- (Chuckles)

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Yes.

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When I was younger, everything he said
went in one ear, out the other.

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Now I hear his voice in my head
loud and clear every day.

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See, that's the sense of connection
that you mentioned.

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That's what I feel slipping away

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with each passing day since Alex's death.

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That sense of...

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I'm trying to find his voice,
you know, but...

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he won't talk to me.

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If you don't mind me saying so, Mr Prince,
I think that it's...

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still too soon.

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You're probably still in a state of shock.

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But his voice...

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will come back to you.

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I apologise for comparing
what you do to, uh... prostitution.

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I don't believe they're the same at all.

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Apology accepted.

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How would you describe...
my son Alex?

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I'm not asking you for a diagnosis.

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You don't have to tell me what he thought,
just what you thought of him personally.

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(Inhales deeply)

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(Clears throat)

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I thought that Alex was

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an extremely...

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capable man.

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Strong sense of mission.

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A very strong sense
of what was expected of him.

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- Mission or purpose?
- What do you mean?

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Well, Alex was a military man.

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Military men have missions, uh...

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To have a purpose, a sense of purpose,
that's, uh, something...

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something you do on your own,
something you want for yourself.

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Did he have that?

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I think that Alex was struggling to find out
what he wanted for himself.

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- Did he say that?
- No, sir, he didn't.

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I'm just giving you some of my impressions

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without betraying what he confided in me.

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Frankly, it's more than I'm allowed to do.

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Were you in the service yourself, Mr Prince?

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Um, eight months,
after they drafted me.

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Had an asthma attack
and they discharged me.

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Probably saved my life.

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Funny, a breathing problem was...

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my salvation

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and my father's death knell.

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Alex told you about
what happened to my father?

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These are facts about my life,

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not Alex's treatment.

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Do you happen to know how my father died?

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Yes or no? Simple question.

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Yes. Yes, I do.

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(Mr Prince sighs)

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Anyway, I wasn't a war hero like my son,
if that's what you were wondering.

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How did you feel about Alex's...
service in the navy?

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Oh, I was proud of it, of course,
like any father would be.

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- Was he, do you think?
- Do you suspect that he wasn't?

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I want to understand my son, Mr Weston.

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And instead of helping me,
you answer questions with questions.

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I think your son found it
increasingly difficult to, um...

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compartmentalise,

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to keep his feelings
apart from his obligations

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and to live up to the expectations of others.

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The expectations of the navy?

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Expectations to excel
like he had always excelled.

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And at the expense of his own needs

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and his real desires.

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Are you saying that Alex
was ill-equipped emotionally

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to handle the pressure?

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- Mr Prince, you're asking me to sh...
- I'm asking your opinion.

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Alex's emotional state is not something...

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You're playing a little fast and loose here,
Mr Weston.

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I can know my son was troubled,
just not how troubled?

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I want to know what his therapist believed
he was capable of,

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how far he would go.

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How far he'd go to what, Mr Prince?

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I...

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(Exhales sharply) I've spoken to
a couple of Alex's fellow pilots.

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(Exhales)

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It was a training flight.

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They simulate a battle,
one plane against another.

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The other pilot made a snap decision,

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tried to get away, apparently flying low.

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They say Alex
didn't have time to straighten out.

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There's also a rumour going around
that Alex killed himself.

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He was a superb pilot.
It wasn't combat, it was a training exercise.

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It was a training exercise.

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There hasn't been any (Clears throat)
...official...

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finding, Mr Prince.
You said that yourself.

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There's an ejection seat.

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Why didn't he jump?

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M-Maybe he...

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didn't think he needed to use it.

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Well...

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Michaela's... been in church,

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you know, on her knees

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praying, looking for answers.
My wife also.

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I told 'em, you know...

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that's the wrong place to look.

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Uh... God and me,
we've been over for a while.

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My faith died

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when my father died.

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A boy once beat Alex up.

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He was about 10 or 11.

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He took his shoes.

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Little shit punk, you know?

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Alex did nothing to fight back.
He didn't defend himself.

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He wasn't a fighter.
He was a...

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He was a frail kid.

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You know?
Thin-skinned.

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That scared the hell out of me.

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Where I come from,
thin black skin could get you killed.

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And that was the kind of world
that Alex was born into?

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What are you implying?

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I'm simply asking if he...

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Let me tell you something.

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I saw more injustices as a child.

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Horrors.

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Did they...

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Did they affect my view of the world?

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Of course.

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Did they shape the manner
in which I raised my boy?

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How could they not?

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Strength.

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Strength was essential to survival.

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Vulnerability

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was often a death sentence.

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I wanted him to be safe.

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I envy the time you spent talking with him.

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I admit...

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those kind of talks
embarrass the hell out of me.

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- This where he sat?
- Yes.

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Alex could talk. (Chuckles)

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Oh, yeah.

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He and his boy, they'd talk for hours.

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He even once told Roy that he loved him.

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Boy, I tell you...

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did I give him hell for that.
"What are you trying to do?

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"Make the kid some kind of sissy?"

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It was bad enough
that he didn't want to best Alex at anything.

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He'd rather throw a chess game

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just so as he wouldn't have to beat his father.

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Oh, now, come on.
That's no way to raise a boy to be a man.

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I mean, you have to challenge him,
make him compete,

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teach him how to fight, take care of himself.

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It's interesting that you regret
not being more gentle yourself with Alex,

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and yet at the same time,
you seem to justify being harsh.

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I hear you saying that you're a little conflicted
about the notion of...

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Mister, I'm not in conflict about anything.

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Is that how you tried to help Alex?

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Second-guessing every word
that comes out of his mouth?

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A stranger,

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completely unfamiliar with his background.

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You go explaining his world to him.

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Actually, our sessions were mostly

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about me listening to what...
to what he had to say.

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Yeah, well,
there we go again with the listening, huh?

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He has his own personal, professional listener.

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Listen, when I smothered my father

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do you think I paid someone
to listen to me, hm?

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You can't stop
and dwell on every ache and pain.

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"Maybe it's because of what my dad did
or what my mother did."

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Come on, you've got to keep moving, man.

286
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You know? What good does all the talk do?

287
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It's not gonna bring my father back.
You know what?

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People like you...
you never stop to think

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that we have a subconscious for a reason.

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Because there are things about ourselves

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that we cannot face,
that we should not face.

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Or else how in the world
do we get up out of bed in the morning?

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I'll tell you, World War III comes...

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(Sighs)
All those people who've been through

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all of this psychoanalysis,

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spend hundreds... thousands of dollars,

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are gonna be the first ones
to lose their heads, mm-hm.

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Darwin had a theory.
He called it survival of the fittest.

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The fittest, not the most self-reflective.

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With all due respect,

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I think that Alex started coming here
because he felt that he needed to.

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And you had to take him apart,
didn't you, mm?

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You had to pick at the scab, mm?

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Do you think that Alex's therapy here

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had something to do...
with his death?

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You're the one who told him

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he had to go look inside.

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To reflect,

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examine, feel.

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Oh, yeah, he felt.

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Yeah. And what did that get him?
Now he's a human pancake.

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You're a hell of a miracle worker, Doctor.

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(Sighs)

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You have a son, Mr Weston?

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Yes, I do.

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And if another man,

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someone from a different culture,

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started giving him advice every week...

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advice that you were pretty sure

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would be harmful to your son...

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- What would you do?
- Your son was a mature man

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who decided to come here of his own...

323
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What would you do?

324
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What would you do?

325
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I would try to stop him

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if I could.

327
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I can't get over the feeling...

328
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that I was torn apart in this room.

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People have a misunderstanding

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about what happens in rooms like this.

331
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It really isn't about

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blaming or looking for scapegoats.

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He was an outstanding person.

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He was kind,

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devoted,

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loyal.

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Too loyal.

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Often, I wished that he...

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would've just pleased himself, not me.

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But we want to please,

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don't we, Mr Weston?

342
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He did a lifetime of trying to please me.

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All that...

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that tough...

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that tough schooling...

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and the training and...

347
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the achievements...

348
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that was for me.

349
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I'm the one who needed it.

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To feel...

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that he was safe.

352
00:22:58,720 --> 00:23:00,711
You know?

353
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Your son loved you.

354
00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:10,958
And he had huge admiration for you.

355
00:23:12,240 --> 00:23:14,151
He told me that.

356
00:23:18,080 --> 00:23:20,355
Don't tell me that, man.

357
00:23:22,840 --> 00:23:24,990
You think that comfort...

358
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you think that comforts me?

359
00:23:30,360 --> 00:23:33,875
No. I would have rathered

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that he hated me.

361
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I would have rathered

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that this was his "fuck you" to me.

363
00:23:52,800 --> 00:23:55,189
Why do you say that?

364
00:23:56,800 --> 00:23:59,633
For pushing him so hard...

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to be...

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tougher...

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than the rest of the world.

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(Whispered) So stupid.

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(Sighs)

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00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:28,470
Did I kill my son?

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I killed my father with my own two hands.

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Did I kill my son too?

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No, whatever happened up there
was not your fault.

374
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You're not responsible.

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We'll never know, will we? (Laughs)

376
00:25:08,640 --> 00:25:11,632
Well, thank you.
Thank you for your time.

377
00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:18,993
I'd appreciate it very much
if you'd call me a taxi, please.

378
00:25:19,040 --> 00:25:20,519
Sure.

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