1 00:00:00,151 --> 00:00:01,922 Previously on In Treatment... 2 00:00:02,092 --> 00:00:05,423 My dad is the most important person to me in this whole world. 3 00:00:05,885 --> 00:00:07,514 You've tried to kill yourself, 4 00:00:07,684 --> 00:00:10,629 and you don't want to tell the most important person in your world? 5 00:00:11,027 --> 00:00:12,131 He has a life! 6 00:00:12,465 --> 00:00:14,546 It's not his fault that I took those pills! 7 00:00:14,716 --> 00:00:17,298 I'm not saying it is his fault. I'm just trying to figure out 8 00:00:17,468 --> 00:00:20,389 why you were so ready to leave the planet and not tell him. 9 00:00:20,965 --> 00:00:23,859 - Are you angry at him for something? - I'm not angry at him. 10 00:00:24,248 --> 00:00:26,232 You told me once that you wanted to move across the country 11 00:00:26,402 --> 00:00:30,044 to be with your dad and his new wife, but that they didn't have a room for you. 12 00:00:30,214 --> 00:00:31,900 I told you, he left her because of that. 13 00:00:32,162 --> 00:00:33,812 After two years, Sophie. 14 00:00:35,279 --> 00:00:37,429 How could he just stop loving me? 15 00:00:37,839 --> 00:00:38,989 What did I do? 16 00:00:52,279 --> 00:00:53,229 Laura, hi. 17 00:00:53,903 --> 00:00:55,453 It's me, Paul. 18 00:00:56,528 --> 00:00:58,278 I hope you're doing okay. 19 00:00:58,465 --> 00:01:00,302 I'm still hoping we could... 20 00:01:00,684 --> 00:01:03,390 talk, meet up maybe, have a coffee. 21 00:01:05,217 --> 00:01:07,367 Okay, I guess I'll try you again. 22 00:01:16,053 --> 00:01:18,525 Transcript: swsub.com 23 00:01:19,332 --> 00:01:22,701 Sync by mulagui 24 00:01:35,841 --> 00:01:36,791 Hey, doll. 25 00:01:43,402 --> 00:01:45,052 What are you doing here? 26 00:01:47,779 --> 00:01:49,478 Good to see you too. 27 00:01:51,839 --> 00:01:52,789 Come here. 28 00:01:56,122 --> 00:01:57,366 Give me a hug. 29 00:02:01,497 --> 00:02:02,580 Look at you. 30 00:02:03,841 --> 00:02:05,191 You're a knockout. 31 00:02:05,964 --> 00:02:07,414 How are these arms? 32 00:02:08,651 --> 00:02:09,501 Perfect. 33 00:02:12,125 --> 00:02:14,104 How did you know I'd be here? 34 00:02:14,778 --> 00:02:15,728 From mom. 35 00:02:16,592 --> 00:02:18,716 She was eager to remind me you had therapy this morning 36 00:02:19,029 --> 00:02:21,579 and that you were benefiting from therapy. 37 00:02:22,341 --> 00:02:24,857 Getting the address was a little harder, though. 38 00:02:25,027 --> 00:02:28,677 Maybe she's afraid I'll embarrass you in front of your shrink... 39 00:02:29,207 --> 00:02:31,030 probably because she has. 40 00:02:35,973 --> 00:02:36,876 So... 41 00:02:38,344 --> 00:02:40,673 this is where the magic happens? 42 00:02:44,151 --> 00:02:47,357 So I hear you kicked ass at the trials, from mom. 43 00:02:47,527 --> 00:02:48,574 Yeah. 44 00:02:51,092 --> 00:02:52,499 How come you didn't call me afterwards? 45 00:02:53,401 --> 00:02:55,796 I was really tired. I just wanted to sleep. 46 00:02:55,966 --> 00:02:58,297 'cause you knew I was waiting for your call, right, kiddo? 47 00:02:59,213 --> 00:03:00,163 Were you? 48 00:03:02,146 --> 00:03:03,802 You could have come to the competion. 49 00:03:04,063 --> 00:03:07,806 I can't just walk away from stuff. You know that. 50 00:03:08,270 --> 00:03:10,545 And plus, I didn't want to just show up out of nowhere 51 00:03:10,715 --> 00:03:12,964 at the last minute and surprise you. 52 00:03:13,573 --> 00:03:15,105 I was afraid it might make you nervous. 53 00:03:19,412 --> 00:03:22,365 What's going on? How come I haven't heard from you? 54 00:03:23,837 --> 00:03:25,657 Are you angry at me for something? 55 00:03:30,665 --> 00:03:34,430 That's quite a stare you've developed there. It's kind of freaking me out. 56 00:03:34,845 --> 00:03:36,058 I gotta get in there. 57 00:03:36,228 --> 00:03:37,872 Wait wait, come here, come here. 58 00:03:38,042 --> 00:03:39,192 Give me a hug. 59 00:03:41,713 --> 00:03:45,005 I'm so insanely proud of you, 60 00:03:46,530 --> 00:03:48,538 my crazy, talented kid, 61 00:03:50,535 --> 00:03:54,104 it just kills me when I don't hear from you, slays me. 62 00:03:54,977 --> 00:03:56,816 I don't eat. I don't sleep. 63 00:03:58,011 --> 00:03:59,608 I called, actually, 64 00:04:00,046 --> 00:04:03,227 - a couple of times. - But you didn't leave any messages. 65 00:04:03,603 --> 00:04:05,364 Mom always answers her cell phone. 66 00:04:05,851 --> 00:04:07,301 I'm not mom, honey. 67 00:04:09,852 --> 00:04:11,832 Come on, let's go talk about this over a bite to eat. 68 00:04:12,002 --> 00:04:14,479 - I haven't had lunch yet. - Dad, I have therapy now. 69 00:04:16,649 --> 00:04:17,684 Right. 70 00:04:17,854 --> 00:04:18,859 Therapy. 71 00:04:21,042 --> 00:04:22,075 All right. 72 00:04:22,853 --> 00:04:24,871 I'll wait. We'll go afterwards. 73 00:04:25,041 --> 00:04:27,371 - You don't have to wait for me. - I do have to. 74 00:04:27,541 --> 00:04:28,747 Apparently, that's the only way I'm gonna get a chance 75 00:04:28,917 --> 00:04:30,967 to spend some time with my kid. 76 00:04:33,850 --> 00:04:38,008 So how's it going with this thing, this shrink thing? 77 00:04:38,178 --> 00:04:38,981 Okay. 78 00:04:39,538 --> 00:04:41,608 Yeah? What do you guys talk about? 79 00:04:42,165 --> 00:04:42,965 Stuff. 80 00:04:43,979 --> 00:04:45,429 What kind of stuff? 81 00:04:46,041 --> 00:04:48,672 Boys stuff, gymnastics stuff, what? 82 00:04:50,102 --> 00:04:51,052 Sometimes. 83 00:04:52,290 --> 00:04:53,640 You talk about me? 84 00:04:55,102 --> 00:04:56,052 Sometimes. 85 00:04:57,664 --> 00:04:59,269 You talk about me in there? 86 00:04:59,614 --> 00:05:00,211 Really? 87 00:05:02,476 --> 00:05:04,131 We talk about a lot of things, dad. 88 00:05:04,851 --> 00:05:06,601 What do you say about me? 89 00:05:07,665 --> 00:05:08,815 I don't know. 90 00:05:09,416 --> 00:05:10,666 You don't know? 91 00:05:12,226 --> 00:05:14,683 Is that what this is about ? All this weirdness between you and me? 92 00:05:15,727 --> 00:05:17,019 Is that what's going on? 93 00:05:17,913 --> 00:05:19,863 It's because of this therapy? 94 00:05:21,684 --> 00:05:23,650 Fuck me with a rubber hose. I'm gonna talk to him. 95 00:05:24,041 --> 00:05:25,244 - Dad. - Come on. 96 00:05:25,414 --> 00:05:28,502 It'll just take a second. You can come with me. It'll be fun. 97 00:05:34,432 --> 00:05:35,704 Are those for me? 98 00:05:39,726 --> 00:05:42,427 I'm Zach. I'm Sophie's father. 99 00:05:43,607 --> 00:05:46,317 Nice to meet you. No, these are... 100 00:05:47,015 --> 00:05:49,552 for Sophie, for doing so well at the trials. 101 00:05:50,763 --> 00:05:52,547 That's nice. 102 00:05:53,996 --> 00:05:56,808 Isn't that nice, Sofa? There you go. 103 00:05:58,608 --> 00:06:02,523 So we thought we'd come in together today. Is that all right? 104 00:06:04,729 --> 00:06:06,026 Did you plan to come together? 105 00:06:06,288 --> 00:06:07,986 No. He was waiting for me outside. 106 00:06:08,854 --> 00:06:11,073 - Does it matter? - Actually, it does, yes. 107 00:06:11,853 --> 00:06:15,627 - Why? What's the problem? - Well, I'd have to talk to Sophie 108 00:06:15,797 --> 00:06:17,996 and see how she feels about the three of us meeting. 109 00:06:20,580 --> 00:06:23,120 She's fine. You're cool with it, right? 110 00:06:23,290 --> 00:06:25,527 - Whatever. - It's cool. 111 00:06:25,791 --> 00:06:26,922 Can we come in? 112 00:06:29,602 --> 00:06:31,370 Why don't we schedule a meeting, 113 00:06:31,540 --> 00:06:34,681 A joint session for all three of us next week? 114 00:06:34,942 --> 00:06:36,692 No time like the present. 115 00:06:38,541 --> 00:06:40,457 I think Sophie and I need to consider 116 00:06:40,627 --> 00:06:43,861 whether or not a joint session would be to her benefit. 117 00:06:44,700 --> 00:06:47,902 - We need time to prepare... - Time to prepare for what? I'm her father. 118 00:06:49,956 --> 00:06:51,154 Dad, be cool. 119 00:06:52,605 --> 00:06:55,284 - It's not a big deal. - I'm totally cool, kiddo. 120 00:06:55,544 --> 00:06:57,911 It's this guy who seems to have something wedged up his ass. 121 00:06:58,173 --> 00:07:00,748 Dad! We can do it next week, okay? Please. 122 00:07:25,038 --> 00:07:26,148 Dad! 123 00:07:26,318 --> 00:07:27,150 Don't go ! 124 00:07:27,504 --> 00:07:29,366 I'll tell him that he has to let you in. 125 00:07:29,536 --> 00:07:30,554 Forget it. 126 00:07:30,724 --> 00:07:32,446 He's just trying to protect me. 127 00:07:33,070 --> 00:07:34,754 Protect you? From what? 128 00:07:34,977 --> 00:07:37,163 From your dad? Oh, good. That's a relief. 129 00:07:37,333 --> 00:07:41,129 I'll tell him that I'll cancel the session if you don't come in. 130 00:07:41,582 --> 00:07:43,957 Do you honestly think I would go back in there now? 131 00:07:45,259 --> 00:07:48,119 Do you have any idea how humiliating that was. 132 00:07:48,289 --> 00:07:50,455 Me standing in front of your therapist, 133 00:07:50,625 --> 00:07:52,296 Like I'am... 134 00:07:52,601 --> 00:07:54,752 I'm what? What does he think I am? 135 00:07:55,662 --> 00:07:57,512 What's the matter with you? 136 00:07:58,474 --> 00:08:00,305 Are you actually taking this guy seriously? 137 00:08:01,738 --> 00:08:04,020 It's like he's brainwashing you or something. 138 00:08:05,658 --> 00:08:07,397 Brainwashing me about what? 139 00:08:08,934 --> 00:08:12,157 You have to prepare to meet with your dad? 140 00:08:13,475 --> 00:08:14,946 Boy, is that bullshit. 141 00:08:19,602 --> 00:08:22,152 You can't even look me in the eye. Boy... 142 00:08:23,474 --> 00:08:24,915 That just breaks my heart. 143 00:08:28,850 --> 00:08:31,004 I raised you to be smarter than this. 144 00:08:32,601 --> 00:08:34,451 You didn't really raise me. 145 00:08:36,850 --> 00:08:37,800 Excuse me? 146 00:08:39,163 --> 00:08:41,413 Most of the time you were far away. 147 00:08:45,304 --> 00:08:47,628 I can't believe what I'm hearing. 148 00:09:07,371 --> 00:09:10,502 He said he'd never been more humiliated in his whole life. 149 00:09:10,788 --> 00:09:13,922 - I can't let him in without an appointment. - He's my father. 150 00:09:15,105 --> 00:09:16,368 Even still. 151 00:09:16,538 --> 00:09:18,088 You let my mother in. 152 00:09:18,723 --> 00:09:21,012 We'd made an appointment with your mother ahead of time. 153 00:09:22,829 --> 00:09:26,179 Why couldn't you just let him in? It wouldn't have bothered me. 154 00:09:26,349 --> 00:09:29,931 I know you're used to your father coming in and out of your life, 155 00:09:30,101 --> 00:09:31,741 but that doesn't mean it doesn't bother you. 156 00:09:31,911 --> 00:09:34,442 In fact, I suspect it bothers you very much. 157 00:09:34,849 --> 00:09:37,429 And he's not exempt from the rules of this office. 158 00:09:37,599 --> 00:09:39,807 You and your fucking rules... 159 00:09:40,102 --> 00:09:42,805 If your wife walked in, would you chase her away, 160 00:09:42,975 --> 00:09:44,304 tell her to come back next week? 161 00:09:44,474 --> 00:09:47,119 I would absolutely tell her or anyone else 162 00:09:47,289 --> 00:09:49,833 if I thought their presence in my office was inappropriate. 163 00:09:50,784 --> 00:09:54,638 I need time to prepare for a session with both you and your father. 164 00:09:54,850 --> 00:09:57,000 So it wasn't even about me at all. 165 00:09:57,350 --> 00:09:58,884 You're so full of it. 166 00:10:01,476 --> 00:10:02,478 What? 167 00:10:02,973 --> 00:10:05,849 I suddenly understand what your mother must feel. 168 00:10:07,915 --> 00:10:09,865 What is that supposed to mean? 169 00:10:10,599 --> 00:10:12,449 You're easy on your father. 170 00:10:12,951 --> 00:10:15,993 He disappears for months, then barges in unannounced, 171 00:10:16,163 --> 00:10:17,681 wants to break into your therapy. 172 00:10:17,851 --> 00:10:21,729 He invades your private space, but still you defend him. 173 00:10:22,840 --> 00:10:24,159 He is always the king. 174 00:10:25,913 --> 00:10:28,808 Well, you don't have to worry because he's never coming back here again. 175 00:10:28,978 --> 00:10:30,874 So you can have your crown back. 176 00:10:31,288 --> 00:10:34,233 - Okay, let's say he does come back. - He won't. 177 00:10:34,403 --> 00:10:37,679 But let's say we were able to get him here. Would you want that? 178 00:10:37,849 --> 00:10:38,851 Yes. 179 00:10:39,268 --> 00:10:40,213 Why? 180 00:10:41,912 --> 00:10:44,556 Because it's important to him. Isn't that obvious? 181 00:10:44,726 --> 00:10:46,265 To him or to you? 182 00:10:50,914 --> 00:10:53,392 - Don't you have kids? - You know I do. 183 00:10:53,912 --> 00:10:56,993 Well, don't you ever do things just to make them happy? 184 00:10:57,163 --> 00:11:00,070 - That's a very different situation. - Not really. 185 00:11:00,332 --> 00:11:03,074 He is the parent, not you. 186 00:11:04,036 --> 00:11:05,034 So what? 187 00:11:07,976 --> 00:11:10,494 - You don't see the difference? - Don't patronize me! 188 00:11:10,664 --> 00:11:12,837 I am not patronizing you. 189 00:11:13,719 --> 00:11:15,808 These are your sessions, not his. 190 00:11:15,978 --> 00:11:18,492 One of the reasons even adults go into therapy 191 00:11:18,662 --> 00:11:20,832 is to separate who they are 192 00:11:21,002 --> 00:11:23,844 from what other people want them to be. 193 00:11:26,910 --> 00:11:28,491 Do you analyze your daughter too? 194 00:11:28,661 --> 00:11:30,490 No, I try not to. 195 00:11:30,977 --> 00:11:33,974 - Why not? - Because it's just not a good idea. 196 00:11:34,225 --> 00:11:36,065 It's not possible to treat one's own children. 197 00:11:37,349 --> 00:11:38,117 Why? 198 00:11:38,287 --> 00:11:41,682 Parents play a big role in the development of the child's personality. 199 00:11:41,852 --> 00:11:44,116 So as a doctor it would be very hard for me 200 00:11:44,286 --> 00:11:46,886 to keep my role as a father separate 201 00:11:47,056 --> 00:11:48,494 from the therapy. 202 00:11:49,537 --> 00:11:51,663 Because you are part of the problem. 203 00:11:52,601 --> 00:11:53,762 Correct. 204 00:11:57,633 --> 00:11:59,557 I couldn't even tell him about my accident. 205 00:11:59,727 --> 00:12:01,277 That is so fucked up. 206 00:12:06,188 --> 00:12:07,277 Shit... 207 00:12:14,354 --> 00:12:17,022 Let him in. Let's just do this. 208 00:12:18,911 --> 00:12:20,317 I want to talk to him. 209 00:12:21,536 --> 00:12:22,402 Are you sure? 210 00:12:33,497 --> 00:12:35,304 I need you to listen to me... 211 00:12:35,474 --> 00:12:37,238 Come on in, please. 212 00:12:42,657 --> 00:12:45,992 Oh, you've decided it's okay, dad is not a leper? 213 00:12:47,005 --> 00:12:48,887 Would you care to sit down? 214 00:13:14,288 --> 00:13:18,083 All right, you said I didn't raise you 215 00:13:18,344 --> 00:13:20,233 and that I wasn't there for you. 216 00:13:20,965 --> 00:13:23,213 So while I was outside 217 00:13:24,096 --> 00:13:26,048 I made a list. 218 00:13:33,652 --> 00:13:35,477 Every morning 219 00:13:36,448 --> 00:13:38,896 from the time you were six until you were 10, 220 00:13:39,400 --> 00:13:42,412 I would get up with you at 5:00, 221 00:13:43,248 --> 00:13:45,546 get you dressed 222 00:13:46,622 --> 00:13:47,545 and take you to practice. 223 00:13:47,715 --> 00:13:50,793 And I would wait outside of practice until you were done, 224 00:13:50,963 --> 00:13:53,002 so I could take you to school. 225 00:13:56,558 --> 00:13:58,755 And then I would stay up with you, 226 00:14:02,001 --> 00:14:05,627 so you could do your homework, because you'd fall asleep if I didn't. 227 00:14:08,772 --> 00:14:10,261 Except that I... 228 00:14:11,873 --> 00:14:13,222 sucked at math, 229 00:14:13,908 --> 00:14:16,936 so I got evening tutoring lessons 230 00:14:17,106 --> 00:14:19,339 three nights a week. 231 00:14:24,965 --> 00:14:26,115 And when you-- 232 00:14:31,486 --> 00:14:34,239 When you couldn't sleep, 233 00:14:35,750 --> 00:14:37,591 I would hold you... 234 00:14:41,983 --> 00:14:45,003 And dance with you until you would go to sleep. 235 00:14:50,400 --> 00:14:53,284 And when you got injured, I sat with you in the hospital 236 00:14:54,187 --> 00:14:56,317 day and night. 237 00:14:59,214 --> 00:15:01,041 Enough, dad. It's okay. 238 00:15:01,211 --> 00:15:04,064 Just don't tell me I didn't raise you. 239 00:15:05,305 --> 00:15:08,352 Do you have any idea 240 00:15:09,141 --> 00:15:10,858 how much it kills me 241 00:15:11,028 --> 00:15:13,043 when I don't hear from you for two weeks? 242 00:15:13,213 --> 00:15:14,366 I can't eat. 243 00:15:14,769 --> 00:15:16,114 I can't sleep. 244 00:15:16,545 --> 00:15:17,905 God, look, 245 00:15:18,540 --> 00:15:20,456 my hands are shaking. 246 00:15:23,486 --> 00:15:27,754 You didn't see me for almost 3 years. It didn't seem to matter so much then. 247 00:15:31,239 --> 00:15:33,313 What are you talking about? 248 00:15:34,215 --> 00:15:36,804 When you moved to New York with that woman. 249 00:15:40,694 --> 00:15:42,911 What does that have to do with anything? 250 00:15:43,224 --> 00:15:46,357 - We spoke on the phone every day. - It wasn't the same thing. 251 00:15:46,527 --> 00:15:49,277 I knew everything that was going on with you. 252 00:15:50,777 --> 00:15:52,027 No, you didn't. 253 00:16:00,106 --> 00:16:02,553 Well, it was two years, not three. 254 00:16:02,891 --> 00:16:05,813 - Two and a half. - Look, kiddo... 255 00:16:09,004 --> 00:16:10,541 You knew... 256 00:16:11,850 --> 00:16:14,199 - that I wanted you live with us. - It never happened. 257 00:16:14,369 --> 00:16:16,355 Which is why I left. 258 00:16:16,825 --> 00:16:18,471 After two and a half years. 259 00:16:18,733 --> 00:16:21,015 We never went a day without speaking. 260 00:16:21,276 --> 00:16:23,017 I was still part of your life. 261 00:16:23,524 --> 00:16:26,481 - You know nothing about me now. - Why do you keep saying that? 262 00:16:26,651 --> 00:16:28,273 What haven't you told me? 263 00:16:28,535 --> 00:16:30,795 You knew how depressed mom was. 264 00:16:30,965 --> 00:16:34,112 You knew it sucked being at home. I wanted to come live with you. 265 00:16:34,374 --> 00:16:38,189 - And I wanted that too. - Apparently not badly enough. 266 00:16:39,963 --> 00:16:41,120 I left her. 267 00:16:41,400 --> 00:16:45,332 - After two and a half years! - I left her, Sophie. 268 00:16:45,592 --> 00:16:48,086 I loved her and I left her for you. 269 00:16:49,941 --> 00:16:51,583 And if she changed her mind 270 00:16:51,753 --> 00:16:54,550 and let you come live with us, I would go back to her in an instant. 271 00:16:56,057 --> 00:16:59,057 To the woman who wouldn't take your daughter in, 272 00:16:59,569 --> 00:17:00,807 right? 273 00:17:13,149 --> 00:17:15,278 Sometimes grownup things are just hard to explain. 274 00:17:15,587 --> 00:17:16,837 Grownup things? 275 00:17:18,651 --> 00:17:19,354 Grownup things? 276 00:17:19,524 --> 00:17:22,062 You've got to be kidding me. Just go. 277 00:17:22,775 --> 00:17:23,575 Leave. 278 00:17:24,400 --> 00:17:26,350 I don't want you here anymore. 279 00:17:33,713 --> 00:17:36,357 You think you can walk in and out of my life 280 00:17:36,527 --> 00:17:39,167 like I'm some sort of fucking train station? 281 00:17:39,337 --> 00:17:41,187 What are you talking about? 282 00:17:41,587 --> 00:17:44,543 Is this what he tells you? Is this what your mother tells you? 283 00:17:44,713 --> 00:17:47,393 This has nothing to do with her. This is about me. 284 00:17:47,655 --> 00:17:48,605 About you? 285 00:17:49,901 --> 00:17:52,451 Do you have any idea how much I love you? 286 00:17:53,212 --> 00:17:54,795 - Do you? - You can't love me. 287 00:17:54,965 --> 00:17:57,478 - You don't even know me! - Why do you keep saying that? 288 00:17:57,648 --> 00:18:00,198 I'm your father. Who knows you better than I do? 289 00:18:00,460 --> 00:18:01,744 He does. 290 00:18:09,549 --> 00:18:10,564 He does? 291 00:18:13,214 --> 00:18:15,338 Really? But you're not the father, are you? 292 00:18:16,045 --> 00:18:18,263 One day a week for a few weeks-- 293 00:18:18,433 --> 00:18:21,357 It's not really the same thing as the first seven years, is it, doctor? 294 00:18:21,527 --> 00:18:22,677 No, it's not. 295 00:18:26,651 --> 00:18:28,729 And what do you have to say to this? 296 00:18:28,899 --> 00:18:31,949 Or is this just your voice coming through her mouth? 297 00:18:32,727 --> 00:18:35,566 I've been listening to Sophie for quite a while now 298 00:18:37,086 --> 00:18:40,436 and what I hear from her is a great anger 299 00:18:40,791 --> 00:18:42,330 and resentment. 300 00:18:43,359 --> 00:18:46,816 But I also hear from her the need for you to reclaim 301 00:18:47,117 --> 00:18:49,623 your relationship and to fight for it. 302 00:19:19,713 --> 00:19:21,903 I never stopped loving you. 303 00:19:25,346 --> 00:19:27,013 What's the difference? 304 00:19:27,608 --> 00:19:29,064 You weren't there. 305 00:19:29,234 --> 00:19:30,864 You chose her. 306 00:19:33,468 --> 00:19:37,337 I didn't plan it that way. If I could do it over again-- 307 00:19:37,598 --> 00:19:39,756 - You can't. - I know, but if I could-- 308 00:19:40,088 --> 00:19:41,038 You can't. 309 00:19:43,336 --> 00:19:46,073 You can't do anything over again. 310 00:19:47,464 --> 00:19:50,214 You can't say you're sorry and make it better. 311 00:19:50,964 --> 00:19:52,367 You can't 312 00:19:52,537 --> 00:19:56,190 make somebody trust you if they don't. 313 00:19:56,360 --> 00:19:58,913 You can't put a family back together. 314 00:19:59,370 --> 00:20:01,032 It doesn't work like that. 315 00:20:02,086 --> 00:20:03,336 That's grownup. 316 00:20:15,867 --> 00:20:18,587 Did you know I tried to kill myself? 317 00:20:23,011 --> 00:20:24,126 What? 318 00:20:27,095 --> 00:20:28,143 When? 319 00:20:31,276 --> 00:20:33,026 I didn't have an accident. 320 00:20:35,259 --> 00:20:38,065 I rode my bike into a car on purpose. 321 00:20:39,088 --> 00:20:41,273 I got tired of being alive. 322 00:20:44,004 --> 00:20:45,614 Oh, God, kiddo... 323 00:20:49,661 --> 00:20:51,810 I want you to leave now, okay? 324 00:20:53,882 --> 00:20:55,462 - Please. - Sophie, please. 325 00:20:56,321 --> 00:20:59,021 I want to stay. Please. Let me stay, please. 326 00:21:03,194 --> 00:21:05,173 It's my therapy, 327 00:21:07,147 --> 00:21:08,887 mine. 328 00:22:03,068 --> 00:22:05,281 Jesus, I kicked my father out. 329 00:22:07,383 --> 00:22:08,783 But you know what? 330 00:22:09,320 --> 00:22:11,778 This is a great insight that you had, 331 00:22:14,498 --> 00:22:16,937 that you have the power to let your parents into your life 332 00:22:17,107 --> 00:22:20,025 when you want them and to keep them out when you don't want them. 333 00:22:20,195 --> 00:22:22,670 I think it's a sign of maturity. 334 00:22:28,006 --> 00:22:30,156 I'll probably never see him again. 335 00:22:30,598 --> 00:22:31,385 I think you will. 336 00:22:34,402 --> 00:22:38,169 You know, maybe he'll realize that he's caused you pain 337 00:22:40,065 --> 00:22:42,340 and that this will change him. 338 00:22:43,340 --> 00:22:44,857 People can change, you know. 339 00:22:45,902 --> 00:22:47,046 You think? 340 00:22:48,826 --> 00:22:50,755 I think you've changed. 341 00:23:00,592 --> 00:23:03,125 I'm going to go out and see if I can catch him. 342 00:23:03,592 --> 00:23:04,392 Okay. 343 00:23:09,464 --> 00:23:11,550 I'm going away to Denver to train. 344 00:23:18,174 --> 00:23:20,393 I want to be by myself for a while, 345 00:23:21,918 --> 00:23:24,021 to take care of myself 346 00:23:25,331 --> 00:23:26,502 without my mom 347 00:23:27,863 --> 00:23:28,777 or you. 348 00:23:30,851 --> 00:23:32,870 No offense. 349 00:23:33,402 --> 00:23:34,752 No offense taken. 350 00:23:37,855 --> 00:23:41,497 I've got to run it by my mom but I think she'll be okay with it. 351 00:23:48,654 --> 00:23:49,862 It's good. 352 00:23:50,498 --> 00:23:52,076 It's what I want now. 353 00:23:54,838 --> 00:23:57,096 You know you can call me any time you want. 354 00:23:59,497 --> 00:24:01,809 Yeah yeah, I know the drill, doctor. 355 00:24:32,871 --> 00:24:35,051 Are there hugging rules too, Paul? 356 00:24:36,465 --> 00:24:37,545 Yep. 357 00:24:49,527 --> 00:24:51,468 Farewell, old fart. 358 00:24:53,404 --> 00:24:54,954 Farewell, young fart. 359 00:24:58,527 --> 00:25:00,166 Take care of yourself, 360 00:25:00,478 --> 00:25:01,605 okay? 361 00:25:24,072 --> 00:25:25,234 Is it okay? 362 00:25:25,404 --> 00:25:26,254 Sure. 363 00:25:28,122 --> 00:25:29,728 So what's going on? 364 00:25:30,091 --> 00:25:32,141 I just saw that patient leaving. 365 00:25:32,653 --> 00:25:35,320 - You know she used to go to my school? - Yeah. 366 00:25:37,215 --> 00:25:39,149 Is that her dad? 367 00:25:40,526 --> 00:25:41,676 He looks cool. 368 00:25:44,465 --> 00:25:45,915 Why are you smiling? 369 00:25:47,778 --> 00:25:49,067 No reason. 370 00:25:54,904 --> 00:25:56,654 Mom seems a little tense. 371 00:25:57,404 --> 00:26:00,544 You mean, about her daughter disappearing into the night? 372 00:26:00,714 --> 00:26:02,564 No, that's not what I mean. 373 00:26:05,715 --> 00:26:08,294 You guys are talking about everything, right? 374 00:26:08,464 --> 00:26:09,914 Yeah, well, we're-- 375 00:26:10,966 --> 00:26:12,116 We're trying.