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Previously on In Treatment.

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My dad is the most important person to me
in this whole world.

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You tried to kill yourself, Sophie.

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And you don't want to tell
the most important person in your world?

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He has a life!

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It's not his fault that I took those pills!

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I'm not saying it is his fault,

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I'm just trying to figure out why you were
so ready to leave the planet and not tell him.

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- Are you angry at him for something?
- I'm not angry at him.

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You told me once that you wanted to move
across the country to be with your dad

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and his new wife but they didn't have
a room for you?

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I told you he left her because of that.

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After two years, Sophie.

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How could he just stop loving me?

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What did I do?

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Uh, Laura, hi.
It's, uh... it's me, Paul.

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Um... hope you're doing OK.

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I was still hoping we could, uh... talk.

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Meet up, maybe have a coffee.

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Mm, OK, I guess I'II, uh...
I'll try you again.

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Bye.

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(Man) Hey, doll.

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Hey.

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What are you doing here?

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(Laughs)

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Wow, good to see you too.

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Come here.

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Come here. Come here.

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Give me a hug.

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(Growls)

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Look at you.

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You're a knockout.

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How are these arms, huh?

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(Makes creaking sound)
Perfect.

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How did you know I'd be here?

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From Mom.

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She was eager to remind me
you had therapy this morning

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and that you were
benefiting from therapy.

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Getting the address was
a little harder, though.

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Maybe she's afraid I'll embarrass you
in front of your shrink.

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Probably because she has.

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So...

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this is where the magic happens, huh?

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So I hear you kicked ass
at the trials, from Mom.

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Yeah.

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Oh.

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How come you didn't
call me afterwards?

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I was really tired.
I just wanted to sleep.

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Cos you knew I was waiting
for a call, right, kiddo?

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Were you?

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You could have come to the competition.

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I can't just walk away from stuff, Sophie.
You know that.

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And plus, I didn't want
to just show up

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out of nowhere at the last minute
and surprise you.

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I was afraid it might make you nervous.

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What's going on?
How come I haven't heard from you?

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Are you angry at me for something?

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That's quite a stare you've developed there.

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It's kind of freaking me out.

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I gotta get in there.

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Wait, wait. Come here, come here.
Give me a hug.

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Oh!

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I'm so insanely proud of you.

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Mm. (Kisses)

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Crazy, talented kid.

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Mm. (Kisses)

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It just kills me
when I don't hear from you,

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slays me.

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I don't eat. I don't sleep.

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I called, actually.

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- A couple of times.
- But you didn't leave any messages.

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Mom always answers her cellphone.

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I'm not Mom, honey.

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Let's go talk about this over a bite to eat.

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- I haven't had lunch yet.
- Dad, I have therapy now.

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Right. Therapy.

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All right. (Sighs)

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I'll wait. We'll go afterwards.

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- You don't have to wait for me.
- No, I do have to.

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Apparently, that's the only way I'm gonna get
a chance to spend time with my kid.

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So how's it going with this thing...
this shrink thing?

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- OK.
- Yeah?

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What do you guys talk about?

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Stuff.

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What kind of stuff?

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Boy stuff, gymnastic stuff, what?

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Sometimes.

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You talk about me?

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Sometimes.

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You talk about me in there? Really?

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We talk about a lot of things, Dad.

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What do you say about me?

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I don't know.

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You don't know?

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Is that what this is about,
all this weirdness between you and me?

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Is that what's going on?

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It's because of this therapy?

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Fuck me with a rubber hose.
I'm gonna talk to him.

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- Dad.
- No, no, come on.

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It'll just take a second.
You come with me. It'll be fun.

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- Oh...
- Those for me?

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I'm Zach. I'm Sophie's father.

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Ah, nice to meet you.

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Uh, no, these are...
these are for Sophie,

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- for doing so well at the trials.
- Ohh...

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that, s nice.

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Isn't that nice, Sofa? There you go.

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So we thought we'd come in
together today.

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Is that all right?

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- Did you plan to come together?
- No. He was waiting for me outside.

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- Does it matter?
- Actually, it does, yes.

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Why? What's the problem?

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Well, I'd have to talk to Sophie

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and see how she feels
about the three of us meeting.

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Oh, it's...
No, it's... it's fine.

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She's fine.
You're cool with it, right, Sofa?

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- Whatever.
- It's cool.

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Can we come in?

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Why don't we schedule a meeting...

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a joint session for all three of us
next week?

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No time like the present.

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I think Sophie and I need to consider

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whether or not a joint session
would be to her benefit.

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We need time to prepare...

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Time to prepare for what?
I'm her father.

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- Dad, be cool.
- No, I'm...

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- It's not a big deal.
- I'm totally cool, kiddo.

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It's this guy who seems to have something
wedged up his ass.

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Dad, we can do it
next week, OK? Please.

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Dad! Don't go!

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- I'll tell him that he has to let you in.
- Forget it.

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He's just trying to protect me.

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Protect you? From what?
From your dad?

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Oh, good. That's a relief.

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I'll tell him that I'll cancel the session
if you don't come in.

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Do you honestly think
I would go back in there now?

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Do you have any idea
how humiliating that was,

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me standing in front of your therapist

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like I'm... I'm what?

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What does he think I am?

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What's the matter with you?

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Are you actually taking this guy seriously?

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It's... It's like... it's like he's
brainwashing you or something.

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Brainwashing me about what?

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You have to prepare
to meet with your dad?

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Boy, is that bullshit.

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Can't even look me
in the eye. Boy...

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That just breaks my heart.

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I raised you to be smarter than this.

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You didn't really raise me.

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Excuse me?

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Most of the time you were far away.

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I can't believe what I'm hearing.

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(Scoffs)

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(Sophie) He said he'd never
been more humiliated in his whole life.

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I can't let him in
without an appointment.

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- He's my father.
- Mm, even still.

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You let my mother in.

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We'd made an appointment
with your mother ahead of time.

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Why couldn't you just let him in?
It wouldn't have bothered me.

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I know you're used to your father
coming in and out of your life,

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but that doesn't mean
it doesn't bother you.

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In fact, I suspect
it bothers you very much.

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And he's not exempt
from the rules of this office.

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You and your fucking rules.

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If your wife walked in,
would you chase her away,

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tell her to come back next week?

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I would absolutely
tell her or anyone else

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if I thought their presence in my office
was inappropriate.

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I need time to prepare for a session
with both you and your father.

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So it wasn't even about me at all.

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You're so full of it.

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What?

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I suddenly understand
what your mother must feel.

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What is that supposed to mean?

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You're easy on your father.

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He disappears for months,
then barges in unannounced,

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wants to break into your therapy.

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He invades your private space,

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but still you defend him.

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He's always the king.

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You don't have to worry
because he's never coming back here again.

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So you can have
your crown back.

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OK, let's say he does come back.

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- He won't.
- But let's say

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we were able to get him here,
would you want that?

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- Yes.
- Why?

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Because it's important to him.
Isn't that obvious?

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To him or to you?

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- Don't you have kids?
- You know I do.

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Well, don't you ever do things
just to make them happy?

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- That's a very different situation, Sophie.
- Not really.

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He is the parent, not you.

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So what?

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(Sighs)

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- You don't see the difference?
- Don't patronise me!

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I am not patronising you.

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These are your sessions, Sophie, not his.

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One of the reasons
even adults go into therapy

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is to separate who they are

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from what other people want them to be.

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Do you analyse your daughter too?

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No, well, I try not to.

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- Why not?
- Because it's just not a good idea.

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It's not possible to treat
one's own children.

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- Why?
- Parents play a big role

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in the development of
the child's personality.

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So as a doctor it would be
very hard for me

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to keep my role as a father
separate from the therapy.

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Because you are part of the problem.

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Correct.

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I couldn't even tell him about my accident.
That is so fucked up.

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(Gate squeaks)

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Oh, shit.

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Let him in, Paul. Let's just do this.

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I want to talk to him.

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Are you sure?

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I need you to listen to me.

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Come on in.
(Quietly) Please.

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You've decided it's OK?

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Dad's not a leper?

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Would you care to sit down?

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(Sighs)

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(Sighs)

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All right, you said,

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I didn't raise you
and that I wasn't there for you.

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So, while I was outside,

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I made a list.

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Every morning...

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from the time you were six
until you were ten,

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I would get up with you at five o'clock,

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get you dressed

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and take you to practice,
and I would wait outside of practice

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until you were done,
so I could take you to school.

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And then I would stay up with you,

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so you could do your homework
because you'd fall asleep if I didn't.

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Except that I...

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sucked at math,
so I got evening tutoring lessons

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three nights a week.

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And when you...

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When...

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When you couldn't sleep,

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I would hold you...

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and dance with you
until you would go to sleep.

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And when you got injured,
I sat with you in the hospital

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day and night...

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Enough, Dad. It's OK.

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Just don't tell me I didn't raise you.

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I mean, do you have any idea

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how much it kills me when I don't hear
from you for two weeks?

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I can't eat. I can't sleep.

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God, look, my hands are shaking.

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You didn't see me for almost three years.

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It didn't seem to matter so much then.

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What are you talking about?

256
00:15:02,840 --> 00:15:05,559
When you moved to New York
with that woman.

257
00:15:09,040 --> 00:15:11,474
What does that have to do
with anything?

258
00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:14,557
- We spoke on the phone every day.
- It wasn't the same thing.

259
00:15:14,600 --> 00:15:17,910
I knew everything that was going on with you.

260
00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:20,671
No, you didn't.

261
00:15:27,720 --> 00:15:30,234
Well, it was two years, not three.

262
00:15:30,280 --> 00:15:33,272
- Two and a half.
- Look, kiddo...

263
00:15:36,280 --> 00:15:40,159
You knew that I wanted you
to live with us.

264
00:15:40,200 --> 00:15:43,670
- It never happened.
- Which is why I left.

265
00:15:43,720 --> 00:15:45,517
After two and a half years.

266
00:15:45,560 --> 00:15:47,949
We never went a day
without speaking.

267
00:15:48,000 --> 00:15:49,877
I was still part of your life.

268
00:15:49,920 --> 00:15:51,512
You know nothing about me now.

269
00:15:51,560 --> 00:15:54,916
Why... why do you keep saying that?
What haven't you told me?

270
00:15:54,960 --> 00:15:57,235
You knew how depressed Mom was.

271
00:15:57,280 --> 00:16:00,511
You knew it sucked being at home.
I wanted to come live with you.

272
00:16:00,560 --> 00:16:04,519
- And I wanted that too.
- Apparently not badly enough.

273
00:16:05,880 --> 00:16:08,952
- I left her.
- After two and a half years!

274
00:16:09,000 --> 00:16:11,275
I left her, Sophie.

275
00:16:11,320 --> 00:16:14,357
I loved her and I left her for you.

276
00:16:15,360 --> 00:16:17,828
And if she changed her mind
and let you come live with us,

277
00:16:17,880 --> 00:16:20,155
I would go back to her in an instant.

278
00:16:21,360 --> 00:16:26,309
To the woman who wouldn't
take your daughter in, right?

279
00:16:36,560 --> 00:16:39,996
(Sighs) Sometimes grown-up
things are just hard to explain.

280
00:16:40,040 --> 00:16:41,553
Grown-up things?

281
00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:45,474
Grown-up things?
You've got to be kidding me.

282
00:16:45,520 --> 00:16:48,432
Just go! Leave!

283
00:16:48,480 --> 00:16:51,278
I don't want you here any more!

284
00:16:57,320 --> 00:17:00,153
You think you can walk in and out of my life

285
00:17:00,200 --> 00:17:02,794
like I'm some sort of fucking train station!

286
00:17:02,840 --> 00:17:04,956
What are you talking about?

287
00:17:05,000 --> 00:17:07,798
Is this what he tells you?
Is this what your mother tells you?

288
00:17:07,840 --> 00:17:10,798
This has nothing to do with her.
This is about me.

289
00:17:10,840 --> 00:17:12,876
About you?

290
00:17:12,920 --> 00:17:15,957
Do you have any idea how much I love you?

291
00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:17,877
- Do you?
- You can't love me.

292
00:17:17,920 --> 00:17:19,353
You don't even know me!

293
00:17:19,400 --> 00:17:21,630
Why do you keep saying that?
I'm your father.

294
00:17:21,680 --> 00:17:24,877
- Who knows you better than I do?
- He does.

295
00:17:31,840 --> 00:17:33,273
He does?

296
00:17:35,320 --> 00:17:38,039
Really? But you're not the father, are you?

297
00:17:38,080 --> 00:17:40,116
One day a week
for a few weeks,

298
00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:43,391
it's not really the same thing
as the first seven years, is it, Doctor?

299
00:17:43,440 --> 00:17:45,590
No, it's not.

300
00:17:48,160 --> 00:17:50,310
And what do you have to say to this?

301
00:17:50,360 --> 00:17:54,114
Or is this just your voice
coming through her mouth?

302
00:17:54,160 --> 00:17:56,993
I've been listening to Sophie
for quite a while now...

303
00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:02,990
and what I hear from her
is a great anger and resentment.

304
00:18:04,240 --> 00:18:07,550
But I also hear from her
the need for you to reclaim

305
00:18:07,600 --> 00:18:10,433
your relationship and to fight for it.

306
00:18:13,440 --> 00:18:15,158
(Sobs)

307
00:18:26,680 --> 00:18:28,079
(Quietly) Oh...

308
00:18:33,800 --> 00:18:35,791
All right, uh...

309
00:18:39,080 --> 00:18:41,355
I never stopped loving you.

310
00:18:44,560 --> 00:18:46,676
What's the difference?

311
00:18:46,720 --> 00:18:49,837
You weren't there.
You chose her.

312
00:18:50,640 --> 00:18:51,834
(Sobs)

313
00:18:51,880 --> 00:18:54,519
I didn't plan it that way.
I... If I...

314
00:18:54,560 --> 00:18:56,915
- If I could do it over again...
- You can't.

315
00:18:56,960 --> 00:18:58,552
I know, I know, but if I could...

316
00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:00,636
You can,t.

317
00:19:01,640 --> 00:19:04,632
You can't do anything over again.

318
00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:09,029
You can't say you're sorry
and make it better.

319
00:19:09,080 --> 00:19:13,471
You can't...
make somebody trust you if they don't.

320
00:19:13,520 --> 00:19:17,149
And you can't
put a family back together.

321
00:19:17,200 --> 00:19:19,589
It doesn't work like that.

322
00:19:19,640 --> 00:19:21,870
That's grown-up!

323
00:19:32,960 --> 00:19:35,838
Did you know I tried to kill myself?

324
00:19:39,720 --> 00:19:41,517
What?

325
00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:45,671
When?

326
00:19:47,680 --> 00:19:50,148
I didn't have an accident.

327
00:19:51,560 --> 00:19:54,472
I rode my bike into a car on purpose.

328
00:19:55,160 --> 00:19:58,550
- I got tired of being alive.
- (Exhales)

329
00:19:59,920 --> 00:20:01,717
Oh, God, kiddo.

330
00:20:05,360 --> 00:20:07,749
I want you to leave now, OK?

331
00:20:07,800 --> 00:20:09,392
No. No.

332
00:20:09,440 --> 00:20:11,032
- Please.
- Sophie, please.

333
00:20:11,080 --> 00:20:12,911
- No!
- I want to stay. Please.

334
00:20:12,960 --> 00:20:14,996
Let me stay, please.

335
00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:20,431
It's my therapy.

336
00:20:22,160 --> 00:20:24,151
Mine.

337
00:20:45,240 --> 00:20:47,231
(Sophie inhales sharply)

338
00:20:58,280 --> 00:21:00,874
(Gate squeaks, closes)

339
00:21:13,400 --> 00:21:15,630
(Sniffs)

340
00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:18,274
Jesus, I kicked my father out.

341
00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:21,631
But you know what?

342
00:21:21,680 --> 00:21:24,797
This is a great insight that you've had...

343
00:21:26,640 --> 00:21:29,871
that you have the power to let your parents
into your life when you want them

344
00:21:29,920 --> 00:21:32,036
and to keep them out
when you don't want them.

345
00:21:32,080 --> 00:21:35,072
I think it's a sign of maturity.

346
00:21:39,600 --> 00:21:42,194
I'll probably never see him again.

347
00:21:42,240 --> 00:21:44,231
I think you will.

348
00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:49,833
You know, maybe he'll realise
that he's caused you pain.

349
00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:53,470
And that this will change him.

350
00:21:54,400 --> 00:21:56,072
People can change, you know.

351
00:21:56,840 --> 00:21:58,751
- You think?
- Mm-hm.

352
00:21:59,600 --> 00:22:01,750
I think you've changed.

353
00:22:10,920 --> 00:22:13,593
I'm going to go out
and see if I can catch him.

354
00:22:13,640 --> 00:22:15,437
OK.

355
00:22:19,360 --> 00:22:21,635
I'm going away to Denver to train.

356
00:22:27,760 --> 00:22:30,149
I want to be by myself for a while,

357
00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:33,630
to take care of myself,

358
00:22:34,520 --> 00:22:37,080
without my mom,

359
00:22:37,120 --> 00:22:39,315
or you.

360
00:22:39,920 --> 00:22:42,388
No offence.

361
00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:44,431
No offence taken.

362
00:22:46,720 --> 00:22:50,395
I've got to run it by my mom,
but I think she'll be OK with it.

363
00:22:57,000 --> 00:22:58,752
It's good.

364
00:22:58,800 --> 00:23:00,791
It's what I want now.

365
00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:05,360
You know you can call me
any time you want?

366
00:23:07,440 --> 00:23:10,591
Yeah, yeah, I know the drill, Doctor.

367
00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:41,755
Are there hugging rules too, Paul?

368
00:23:42,840 --> 00:23:44,319
Yep.

369
00:23:55,440 --> 00:23:57,670
Farewell, old fart.

370
00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:01,720
- Farewell, young fart.
- (Laughs)

371
00:24:04,040 --> 00:24:06,713
Take care of yourself, OK?

372
00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:18,277
(Gate squeaks)

373
00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:31,233
- Is it OK?
- Sure.

374
00:24:32,480 --> 00:24:34,232
So what's going on?

375
00:24:34,280 --> 00:24:36,430
- I just saw that patient leaving.
- Mm.

376
00:24:36,480 --> 00:24:38,471
Know she used to go to my school?

377
00:24:38,520 --> 00:24:40,397
Yeah.

378
00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:42,957
- Is that her dad?
- Mm-hm.

379
00:24:44,240 --> 00:24:46,231
He looks cool.

380
00:24:48,080 --> 00:24:49,513
Why are you smiling?

381
00:24:49,560 --> 00:24:51,232
Mm...

382
00:24:51,280 --> 00:24:53,271
No reason. (Sighs)

383
00:24:58,000 --> 00:25:00,434
Mom seems a little tense.

384
00:25:00,480 --> 00:25:03,631
You mean, about her daughter
disappearing into the night?

385
00:25:03,680 --> 00:25:06,035
No, that's not what I mean.

386
00:25:08,360 --> 00:25:10,715
You guys are talking about everything, right?

387
00:25:10,760 --> 00:25:13,433
Yeah, well. We're, uh...

388
00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:16,074
We're trying. Mm.

389
00:26:53,040 --> 00:26:54,029
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