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Cristina: Do you know who you are?
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Do you know
what's happened to you?
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Do you want to live this way?
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Shane: There's a hole in the pericardium.
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That's the source of all this blood?
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Cristina:
No, that's what's keeping him alive.
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[monitors beeping]
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Well, hello.
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All it takes is one person,
one patient, one moment,
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to change your life forever.
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Ross, I would like to introduce you to...
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the black mamba.
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It can change your perspective,
color your thinking...
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Um... isn't that the IVC?
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The single trickiest vessel
in the entire human body...
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delicate, unpredictable.
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[gurgling]
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Hear that? The gurgling? That's its song.
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See that? Look how it twitches.
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One wrong move, one misstep,
and this patient is dead.
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You can't repair that
mamba without moving...
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with the mamba. [chuckles]
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Some people say it's impossible to repair.
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One moment that forces you
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to re-evaluate everything you
think you know.
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Come on, mamba.
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Let's dance.
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[door opens]
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You paged?
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MVC victim.
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Wanted you to take a look
at the C-spine X-rays.
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Oh, damn. Poor guy.
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Oh. Hey.
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I just nailed the mamba.
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Do you know who you are?
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The patient's C3 and 4 are obliterated.
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His spinal cord is severed.
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There's no way I can repair that.
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Do you know
what's happened to you?
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Shane: But we just fixed his heart.
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Against all odds. 'Cause I'm awesome.
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Yeah, well, even so,
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he's lost all motor
function from the neck down.
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The man's paralyzed.
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Do you want to live this way?
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[door opens]
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Elise: Wait. What?
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Unfortunately, the impact of the crash
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severed his spinal cord at C3,
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which is quite high in the neck...
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Yeah, no, I'm a nurse. I-I know what C3 is.
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So you're saying...
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he's paralyzed.
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Yes.
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I am so sorry.
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But his brain function is good,
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and I was able to fully repair his heart...
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Uh, is his diaphragm working?
Can he breathe on his own?
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No, he's currently on a ventilator.
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There are options from here,
once he's had time to recover...
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Uh, surgery to fuse
his spine so he can sit up.
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We can, uh, insert a-a permanent trach.
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These are all options we can discuss...
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Will he ever breathe on his own again?
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No. He will not.
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Okay, um...
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I need you to wake him up... right now.
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You can do that, right?
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Elise, your husband just
underwent major surgery.
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I know, and now I'm
asking you to wake him up.
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And I need you to ask him
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if he wants you to remove the vent.
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Well, the vent is breathing for him.
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It's-it's what's keeping him alive.
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I was gonna surprise him tonight.
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[chuckles]
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As an early anniversary gift,
I got us playoff tickets.
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I mean, nosebleed seats,
but we kind of love it up there.
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It's like, pretzels and hot dogs for dinner.
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[chuckles] I mean, it's fun.
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The last thing I thought
when I woke up this morning
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was I'd lose Jason.
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I understand...
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what I'm asking.
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Believe me, I don't want to lose him.
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But... [sighs]
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I know him. I know everything about him.
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I understand how he thinks. I get his humor.
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I could predict what he's
gonna order in a restaurant.
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And I just... I don't
think he would want this.
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I know it.
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I think he would rather die
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than live one more minute
hooked up to a machine.
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[sighs deeply]
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It's your husband's right
to decline treatment,
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if that's what he wants.
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Uh, it'll-it'll take some time
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to fully wean him off the sedation,
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but I'll let you know
when he starts to wake.
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Thank you.
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Alex: I think she really means it.
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Meredith: And that bugs you?
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No. I mean, maybe. I don't know.
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It's just... I don't know.
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It's not like I want to get married
tomorrow, but never?
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But you're with her.
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I-if you love her, who cares
if she's not the marrying kind?
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- I wasn't.
- Yeah, but then you did.
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Right, but some people don't.
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So, what... we just keep
doing what we're doing
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for the next 20 years, and that's it?
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But if you're together, what does it matter?
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[pager chimes]
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Hey!
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Hey.
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Didn't see you there.
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You okay?
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Yep.
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Cristina: Jason?
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My name is Dr. Yang.
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I know you must be very confused right now,
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but I need to ask you some questions, okay?
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There's a tube down your throat,
so you can't speak,
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but you should be able to nod "yes" or "no."
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Think you can do that for me?
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That's great. Okay. Let's get started.
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Do you know who you are?
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Do you know where you are?
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Do you know what has happened to you?
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You were in a car accident.
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Your vehicle was hit from behind,
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and you flipped over into oncoming traffic.
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You're in a hospital right now.
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Do you know who this is?
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Your spine was crushed in the accident,
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and you are paralyzed from the neck down.
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You're currently breathing
with the help of a ventilator.
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That's the tube in your mouth.
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Now, I understand it might be your wish
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for me to remove the vent?
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I want to make sure you
understand what this means.
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The ventilator is breathing for you.
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That means, once it's removed,
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you will not be able to breathe on your own.
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Now, if you can't breathe...
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you will die.
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It might take a few hours... probably less.
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Do you understand this?
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Elise: [voice breaking] Oh, god.
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Do you still want me to remove the vent?
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I love you.
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[sniffles]
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And I want you to know,
whatever you decide...
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[sniffles]
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I'll support you.
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I'll be by your side, no matter what.
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I'm sorry, but I have to ask one more time.
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Jason...
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would you like me to remove the vent?
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Do you know who you are?
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Do you know what's happened to you?
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Do you want to live this way?
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[clattering]
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Ohh! God!
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Hey, you.
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What are we doing?
What the hell are we doing?
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I'm... waiting for an elevator?
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I just spent my day
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saving the life of a man
who's now choosing to die,
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and all I keep thinking is...
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You and I are throwing so much away.
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We should be together.
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You're the love of my life,
and it is stupid...
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just stupid... for us to keep pretending.
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I love you.
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I want to be with you... for real, forever.
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It's as simple as that.
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[laughing]
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[both panting]
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[sighs] That's it.
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We've christened every room in this house.
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Yeah. [chuckles]
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- And it's a pretty big house.
- Mm-hmm.
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I thought I wasn't gonna make
it through the guest room.
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- Yeah, but you rallied at the end.
- Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm, I did.
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You know, the house feels
big for just two of us.
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Don't you think?
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[dogs barking]
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Ah. [chuckles] He is gorgeous.
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- No.
- Oh.
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Okay. Um...
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this one.
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I agreed to a dog, not a horse.
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[chuckling] That's a mid-size dog.
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No, that is huge.
You know what a big dog makes?
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- What?
- Big poop.
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That thing could crap
my entire body weight in a day.
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Hmm. That is a beautiful image. Thank you.
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[growling]
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That one.
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- What?
- That's the one.
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No. [chuckling] No. That is not even a dog.
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That is a rodent, and it looks mean.
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Hey, uh, we want this thing in here.
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Can someone get it out?
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Cristina: Conduit, please.
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Shane: Fresh off the printer.
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Alex: Kid's tiny for 12 months.
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He'll grow when his heart's sending
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a little more blood around the system.
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The first couple kids we put conduits in,
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you can already see
the difference in only a year.
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[sighs] Hey, so, I have an emergency surgery.
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I'm gonna be in the O.R.
for the next nine hours.
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- Okay.
- Mrs. Rodriguez!
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Oh, no. This is gonna take
me at least three hours.
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Well, Mrs. Rodriguez is not gonna make it.
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Is she a cardio patient?
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I could have somebody page you a consult.
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Mrs. Rodriguez will last until
I finish here, and then I'll go.
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- Ross, you'll close for me?
- Yeah.
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Are you sure?
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Well, this is why I said
we should keep the damn dog
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in the kitchen when we're gone.
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I am not locking the dog in the kitchen.
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Well, then you can clean up
the puddle on the rug when you get home.
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I'll leave it for you!
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You got a dog?
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Yes.
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Thing's gonna be dead in a week.
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Wait. You named your dog Mrs. Rodriguez?
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When you meet him, you'll understand.
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Meet him soon... before he dies.
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What? I'm a physician!
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It's not like I'm gonna have trouble
keeping an animal alive.
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Uh-huh.
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Give 5-0 prolene, please.
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What? You think I can't keep a dog alive?
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- Whatever. Don't worry about it.
- He's perfectly healthy.
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[both chuckle]
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Alex, it's not funny.
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I can't believe
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you're gonna dress
the dog in my son's sweater.
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Mrs. Rodriguez gets cold.
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He doesn't have the constitution
for all this damp and rain.
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He gets the shakes.
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[chuckles]
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What?
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You like the dog!
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He's an unusual dog.
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It's not like I'm becoming
someone who likes dogs.
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He just happens to relate
to people like I do.
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- Uh-huh.
- It's true.
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I mean, he doesn't want to talk
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about his feelings or the future.
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If I walk him and feed him
on a regular schedule,
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he'll curl up next to me on the couch,
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and if I don't, he'll bite my ankles.
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It's a set of behaviors
that makes sense to me.
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You like the dog.
261
00:11:53,103 --> 00:11:54,336
The dog gets you.
262
00:11:54,371 --> 00:11:56,071
You're alike.
263
00:11:56,106 --> 00:11:57,839
That's how I talk about my children.
264
00:11:59,209 --> 00:12:01,476
- You have a baby.
- Oh!
265
00:12:01,511 --> 00:12:02,544
A dog baby. [dog barking]
266
00:12:02,578 --> 00:12:04,646
[laughs] Mrs. Rodriguez!
267
00:12:06,682 --> 00:12:08,917
I'm sorry. I know how painful it is.
268
00:12:08,951 --> 00:12:10,184
I've been through it myself,
269
00:12:10,219 --> 00:12:12,253
but it's been
over two years since the injury,
270
00:12:12,288 --> 00:12:14,122
and at some point, you just
have to say enough is enough.
271
00:12:14,156 --> 00:12:15,590
What? No. Y-you have no idea where...
272
00:12:15,625 --> 00:12:17,392
Hey, look, your hand needs
more time, all right?
273
00:12:17,427 --> 00:12:19,461
Just give your hand rest,
throw yourself into the rehab.
274
00:12:19,495 --> 00:12:21,830
I've done the rehab! It's been two years!
275
00:12:21,864 --> 00:12:23,364
It's done, okay? I'm good enough to operate.
276
00:12:23,399 --> 00:12:26,134
I mean, what is this?
Is this about Mr. Willenstein?
277
00:12:26,168 --> 00:12:28,303
- That was a routine...
- The decision has been made.
278
00:12:28,337 --> 00:12:30,539
You can keep your administrative duties,
279
00:12:30,573 --> 00:12:32,574
but you are not cleared to operate.
280
00:12:32,608 --> 00:12:34,943
You're not going back in the O.R.
281
00:12:40,615 --> 00:12:42,215
[door slams]
282
00:12:44,285 --> 00:12:46,386
Any other business before we adjourn?
283
00:12:46,421 --> 00:12:48,589
Actually, uh... yes, there is.
284
00:12:50,391 --> 00:12:52,359
Cristina:
You had to bring it up to the board!
285
00:12:52,393 --> 00:12:53,828
Yeah. It was time.
286
00:12:53,862 --> 00:12:56,864
It absolutely was not time.
We didn't make the decision yet.
287
00:12:56,898 --> 00:12:58,999
Well, clearly, I'm wrong,
'cause we did.
288
00:12:59,033 --> 00:13:00,668
I just wasn't part of it.
289
00:13:00,702 --> 00:13:03,437
Listen, it is the job of a lifetime.
290
00:13:03,472 --> 00:13:06,474
Running the entire military
trauma division with Teddy...
291
00:13:06,508 --> 00:13:08,542
it's-it's what's next for me, Cristina.
292
00:13:08,577 --> 00:13:09,677
I can feel it.
293
00:13:09,711 --> 00:13:11,244
Yeah... in Germany!
294
00:13:11,279 --> 00:13:13,813
We have a house! I have my trial!
295
00:13:15,249 --> 00:13:17,117
We are good here, Owen. We're happy.
296
00:13:17,151 --> 00:13:18,818
We can't just leave everything.
297
00:13:18,853 --> 00:13:20,287
Just listen to me for one second...
298
00:13:20,321 --> 00:13:21,588
No. No. You want to know what?
299
00:13:21,622 --> 00:13:23,056
You're not backing me into this.
300
00:13:23,091 --> 00:13:25,058
[chuckling]
Come on. Nobody backs you into anything.
301
00:13:25,093 --> 00:13:26,193
Believe me... I've tried.
302
00:13:26,227 --> 00:13:27,560
So, you want me to dump my whole trial,
303
00:13:27,595 --> 00:13:29,196
just when I'm starting to get somewh...
304
00:13:29,230 --> 00:13:30,897
That is not what I'm sayi... please stop.
305
00:13:30,931 --> 00:13:33,133
Stop acting like
you're some hit-and-run victim.
306
00:13:33,167 --> 00:13:34,801
I can't have another conversation
307
00:13:34,835 --> 00:13:36,636
where the idea that my career
308
00:13:36,670 --> 00:13:39,606
or, in fact, any of
my wishes might come first
309
00:13:39,640 --> 00:13:42,642
is presented as some...
crime against humanity!
310
00:13:42,676 --> 00:13:43,977
Oh, what? [dog barking]
311
00:13:44,012 --> 00:13:45,645
So, now we're back where we started?
312
00:13:45,679 --> 00:13:46,913
I never give you anything,
313
00:13:46,947 --> 00:13:48,447
so the terms under which we're together
314
00:13:48,482 --> 00:13:50,049
are that your dreams die?
315
00:13:50,083 --> 00:13:52,318
[dog barking] [sighs]
Can you quiet the damn dog?
316
00:13:52,352 --> 00:13:54,420
You know what? You quiet the damn dog.
You wanted the dog.
317
00:13:54,454 --> 00:13:56,588
Not that dog! He doesn't even like me.
He only likes you.
318
00:13:56,623 --> 00:13:59,458
Because you make stupid decisions!
And he knows it!
319
00:13:59,493 --> 00:14:01,693
I'm not moving to Germany!
320
00:14:01,728 --> 00:14:03,062
[scoffs]
321
00:14:03,096 --> 00:14:04,897
Oh, so, that's it? Conversation's over?
322
00:14:04,931 --> 00:14:05,898
Uh-huh.
323
00:14:05,932 --> 00:14:07,099
Of course it is.
324
00:14:07,134 --> 00:14:08,501
[barking continues]
325
00:14:08,535 --> 00:14:09,502
[sighs]
326
00:14:09,536 --> 00:14:10,602
I don't know why
327
00:14:10,637 --> 00:14:12,371
I ever entertained the idea for one second
328
00:14:12,406 --> 00:14:15,007
that we might ever do
anything that I'd want.
329
00:14:15,042 --> 00:14:16,375
[barking continues]
330
00:14:20,680 --> 00:14:21,480
Shh!
331
00:14:21,515 --> 00:14:23,482
[whimpers]
332
00:14:23,517 --> 00:14:24,816
- Coming through!
- Dr. Yang!
333
00:14:24,851 --> 00:14:26,818
Oh, whatever it is, it can wait.
334
00:14:26,853 --> 00:14:28,819
My shift is over, and I am going home.
335
00:14:28,854 --> 00:14:30,688
Come on. Patient 11... Jasper O'Neil.
336
00:14:30,722 --> 00:14:32,424
He's back for his annual checkup.
337
00:14:32,458 --> 00:14:34,459
Apparently, he's learning to play hockey.
338
00:14:34,493 --> 00:14:36,394
You handle it. Send him my best.
339
00:14:36,429 --> 00:14:38,063
But if my conduit gets smashed
340
00:14:38,097 --> 00:14:40,765
because they let their kid
get body-checked on the ice,
341
00:14:40,799 --> 00:14:41,766
I'm killing them!
342
00:14:41,800 --> 00:14:42,767
Will do.
343
00:14:42,801 --> 00:14:44,069
[chuckling] Oh! Hi!
344
00:14:44,103 --> 00:14:45,370
Hey, who'd have thunk it?
345
00:14:45,404 --> 00:14:47,472
You and me... we're belly buddies.
346
00:14:47,506 --> 00:14:48,940
No, we're not.
347
00:14:58,853 --> 00:14:59,719
[screaming]
348
00:14:59,754 --> 00:15:01,388
It's okay. You're almost there.
349
00:15:01,422 --> 00:15:02,589
All you have to do is push.
350
00:15:02,623 --> 00:15:04,057
No. No can do.
351
00:15:04,092 --> 00:15:05,893
- We are almost there.
- He's gonna have to stay up in there.
352
00:15:05,927 --> 00:15:08,127
I've got a cozy womb. He'll be happier.
353
00:15:08,162 --> 00:15:10,129
It'll be better for everyone.
354
00:15:10,164 --> 00:15:12,165
- Oh, my god! Oh, god! Oh, god!
- Whoa, whoa. Wait a second.
355
00:15:12,199 --> 00:15:13,733
- You have to wait a second.
- No, I can't!
356
00:15:13,768 --> 00:15:15,468
- You have to wait one second.
- I can't, I can't.
357
00:15:15,503 --> 00:15:17,870
Oh, god. This is a mistake. It's a mistake!
358
00:15:17,905 --> 00:15:19,406
- [crying] I can't! I can't!
- What?
359
00:15:19,440 --> 00:15:21,675
- This is a mistake, Mer!
- Everyone says that.
360
00:15:21,709 --> 00:15:23,710
Obstetrician: Here we go.
We need one more push. [breathing heavily]
361
00:15:23,744 --> 00:15:24,944
Okay, now!
362
00:15:24,978 --> 00:15:28,515
Push! Push! Push! [grunting]
363
00:15:28,549 --> 00:15:31,217
[wailing]
364
00:15:31,251 --> 00:15:33,252
Great! [baby crying]
365
00:15:37,524 --> 00:15:39,058
[gasps]
366
00:15:53,606 --> 00:15:56,275
I screwed up, Mer.
367
00:15:56,310 --> 00:15:59,846
Mer, I screwed up. I really screwed up.
368
00:15:59,880 --> 00:16:01,713
Shh.
369
00:16:01,747 --> 00:16:03,581
[crying] I can't...
370
00:16:07,987 --> 00:16:11,723
[murmuring]
371
00:16:11,757 --> 00:16:13,591
Oh...
372
00:16:15,228 --> 00:16:16,694
Hello.
373
00:16:16,729 --> 00:16:18,196
[crying]
374
00:16:18,231 --> 00:16:20,431
[grunts]
375
00:16:20,466 --> 00:16:23,434
Oh. Go back to sleep. I got this.
376
00:16:23,469 --> 00:16:24,802
Okay.
377
00:16:30,809 --> 00:16:33,811
[crying continues]
378
00:16:56,434 --> 00:16:59,436
[crying continues]
379
00:17:01,606 --> 00:17:04,375
- It's okay.
- You're doing good. You're being so good.
380
00:17:04,409 --> 00:17:05,976
- Yeah.
- He's fine. He's fine.
381
00:17:06,011 --> 00:17:08,577
[baby crying]
382
00:17:08,612 --> 00:17:11,214
This is all my fault.
You know, I was-I was at the park,
383
00:17:11,248 --> 00:17:13,516
and I looked away for
a second when Ross texted me.
384
00:17:13,550 --> 00:17:15,251
I was-I was standing right there.
385
00:17:15,286 --> 00:17:17,153
Listen, it's okay. These things happen.
386
00:17:17,187 --> 00:17:18,554
And have you met our son?
387
00:17:18,588 --> 00:17:20,189
He lunges headfirst into everything.
388
00:17:20,224 --> 00:17:21,624
It's a wonder this never happened sooner.
389
00:17:21,658 --> 00:17:23,293
Well, we can't go back to that park.
390
00:17:23,327 --> 00:17:25,628
They need, like, sand or
some of that soft turf stuff.
391
00:17:25,662 --> 00:17:28,064
I mean, who puts concrete
steps by a play space?
392
00:17:28,098 --> 00:17:29,332
It's completely irresponsible.
393
00:17:29,366 --> 00:17:31,167
It is a superficial cut. He's gonna be fine.
394
00:17:31,201 --> 00:17:32,601
I'm already late for my meeting.
395
00:17:32,636 --> 00:17:34,837
I can't just... I can't just
stick him in daycare, not when...
396
00:17:34,871 --> 00:17:37,372
Slow down. Slow down, okay?
397
00:17:37,407 --> 00:17:39,408
Now, we're gonna figure this out.
398
00:17:39,443 --> 00:17:42,845
And, by the way, daycare
has very capable teachers.
399
00:17:42,879 --> 00:17:45,013
Oh, please. I am capable.
400
00:17:45,048 --> 00:17:47,683
So, your text said
"make sure the phase 3 patients go."
401
00:17:47,717 --> 00:17:49,685
Go to the bathroom? Go away?
402
00:17:49,719 --> 00:17:51,754
Oh. Sorry. I didn't realize. Is he okay?
403
00:17:51,788 --> 00:17:52,788
- Yes.
- No.
404
00:17:52,823 --> 00:17:54,189
Uh, do you want me to reschedule
405
00:17:54,223 --> 00:17:55,324
the phase 3 patient meetings today,
406
00:17:55,358 --> 00:17:56,492
maybe try to squeeze
them in next week, or...
407
00:17:56,526 --> 00:17:58,961
No, just, um...
408
00:17:58,995 --> 00:18:01,129
Ross, will you take them?
You understand the procedure.
409
00:18:01,164 --> 00:18:02,531
You know what to do. Just... I...
410
00:18:02,566 --> 00:18:04,599
You know, I want you to
take over phase 3 from here.
411
00:18:04,633 --> 00:18:05,633
What?
412
00:18:05,668 --> 00:18:07,102
What... are you sure?
413
00:18:07,136 --> 00:18:09,904
Yes. Can you do this for me?
Just do this for me, okay?
414
00:18:09,939 --> 00:18:12,707
Of course, if that's what you want.
415
00:18:12,741 --> 00:18:14,742
[baby crying]
416
00:18:17,113 --> 00:18:20,782
[children screaming, laughing]
417
00:18:20,816 --> 00:18:23,418
[indistinct conversations]
418
00:18:25,420 --> 00:18:28,555
I can't believe Bailey's already 7.
419
00:18:28,590 --> 00:18:30,958
Please tell me he has outgrown that whole
420
00:18:30,993 --> 00:18:33,694
"I fiddle with my junk 24/7" phase,
421
00:18:33,728 --> 00:18:35,963
'cause I have to practically
duct-tape Theo's pants
422
00:18:35,998 --> 00:18:38,032
on his body. [laughs]
423
00:18:38,066 --> 00:18:41,802
Of all the conversations that
you and I have had about boys,
424
00:18:41,836 --> 00:18:43,971
I didn't expect this one to be it.
425
00:18:44,006 --> 00:18:45,339
[both laugh]
426
00:18:46,808 --> 00:18:48,775
[laughs]
427
00:18:48,810 --> 00:18:50,544
Feel any kicks yet?
428
00:18:50,578 --> 00:18:52,713
Uh, no, not really.
429
00:18:54,415 --> 00:18:55,482
Nauseous?
430
00:18:55,517 --> 00:18:56,717
Oh, just tired.
431
00:18:59,453 --> 00:19:03,256
Every day, I go to work and do my job.
432
00:19:03,290 --> 00:19:05,225
Then I come home and do that job.
433
00:19:05,259 --> 00:19:08,228
I'm so tired.
434
00:19:08,262 --> 00:19:10,730
It's like I'm sleepwalking all the time.
435
00:19:10,764 --> 00:19:13,399
Well, you're well into
your second trimester now,
436
00:19:13,433 --> 00:19:15,300
so that'll start getting better.
437
00:19:15,335 --> 00:19:17,637
It's not the pregnancy.
438
00:19:18,605 --> 00:19:20,272
Cristina...
439
00:19:20,306 --> 00:19:23,375
Look how happy he is.
440
00:19:32,719 --> 00:19:35,521
You're not dressed?
441
00:19:35,556 --> 00:19:37,690
We need to get going.
442
00:19:37,724 --> 00:19:40,959
The Harper Avery awards await.
443
00:19:40,993 --> 00:19:44,263
Are you... nervous?
444
00:19:44,297 --> 00:19:45,364
Are you okay?
445
00:19:45,398 --> 00:19:46,631
Do you need a minute?
446
00:19:46,666 --> 00:19:48,800
No.
447
00:19:48,834 --> 00:19:49,834
Maybe.
448
00:19:49,869 --> 00:19:51,437
Okay.
449
00:19:51,471 --> 00:19:52,938
But just a minute.
450
00:19:52,972 --> 00:19:54,773
And then nerves of steel.
451
00:19:54,807 --> 00:19:56,375
Right?
452
00:19:56,409 --> 00:19:57,443
Right.
453
00:19:57,477 --> 00:19:58,477
Okay.
454
00:20:00,846 --> 00:20:04,283
Cristina: The surgical mind
needs to be constantly inspired,
455
00:20:04,317 --> 00:20:06,918
always asking the toughest questions.
456
00:20:06,953 --> 00:20:11,256
The Harper Avery award
is a celebration of that,
457
00:20:11,291 --> 00:20:15,694
of the kind of mind I saw
in tonight's recipient,
458
00:20:15,728 --> 00:20:18,830
even when he was just an intern.
459
00:20:18,864 --> 00:20:22,166
Ladies and gentlemen,
I am honored to present to you
460
00:20:22,201 --> 00:20:24,736
this year's Harper Avery award recipient
461
00:20:24,770 --> 00:20:26,404
to Dr. Shane Ross.
462
00:20:29,508 --> 00:20:31,576
[camera shutters clicking]
463
00:20:37,682 --> 00:20:41,184
Thank you. Thank you.
464
00:20:41,219 --> 00:20:44,387
First and foremost,
I'd like to thank Dr. Yang.
465
00:20:44,422 --> 00:20:45,689
I wouldn't be here
466
00:20:45,724 --> 00:20:49,960
without your guidance,
encouragement, and support.
467
00:20:51,529 --> 00:20:55,065
All it takes is one person, one patient
468
00:20:55,100 --> 00:20:59,169
to change your life forever.
469
00:20:59,203 --> 00:21:01,972
When I first met Jasper O'Neil,
he was 12 months old,
470
00:21:02,007 --> 00:21:05,375
and we didn't think he'd make it to 13.
471
00:21:05,409 --> 00:21:07,011
He's here with us tonight.
472
00:21:07,045 --> 00:21:09,346
Jasper, would you stand up, please?
473
00:21:17,522 --> 00:21:20,490
Meredith: Cristina. Cristina.
474
00:21:20,525 --> 00:21:24,361
Do you know who you are?
475
00:21:24,395 --> 00:21:30,433
Do you know what's happened to you?
Do you want to live this way?
476
00:21:30,468 --> 00:21:31,668
Elise: I love you.
477
00:21:31,702 --> 00:21:33,069
[ventilator hissing]
478
00:21:33,103 --> 00:21:37,740
And I want you to know
that whatever you decide...
479
00:21:37,775 --> 00:21:41,077
[sniffles] I'll support you.
480
00:21:41,111 --> 00:21:42,845
I'll be by your side...
481
00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:45,815
No matter what.
482
00:21:47,051 --> 00:21:50,920
I'm sorry, but I have to ask one more time.
483
00:21:50,954 --> 00:21:53,322
Jason...
484
00:21:53,356 --> 00:21:55,658
would you like me to remove the vent?
485
00:22:33,530 --> 00:22:34,963
[clattering]
486
00:22:34,997 --> 00:22:36,498
Aah!
487
00:22:36,533 --> 00:22:38,066
Son of a...
488
00:22:38,101 --> 00:22:39,201
Hey, you.
489
00:22:39,236 --> 00:22:42,037
I just spent my day saving the life of a man
490
00:22:42,071 --> 00:22:44,106
who could've chosen to die but didn't.
491
00:22:44,140 --> 00:22:48,444
I repaired a heart that
was impossible to repair.
492
00:22:48,478 --> 00:22:53,616
I achieved the impossible today,
and it feels good.
493
00:22:53,650 --> 00:22:55,583
No. More.
494
00:22:55,618 --> 00:22:58,285
It feels... incredible.
495
00:22:59,954 --> 00:23:01,788
What are you doing right now?
496
00:23:01,822 --> 00:23:04,891
Um... waiting for the elevator.
497
00:23:04,925 --> 00:23:06,159
Yeah.
498
00:23:06,193 --> 00:23:07,761
We're gonna have to take the stairs,
499
00:23:07,795 --> 00:23:09,229
'cause I just finished my shift,
500
00:23:09,264 --> 00:23:10,631
and I feel like celebrating...
501
00:23:10,665 --> 00:23:12,332
tonight...
502
00:23:12,367 --> 00:23:13,767
naked...
503
00:23:13,801 --> 00:23:14,801
with you.
504
00:23:14,835 --> 00:23:17,070
Oh. I could be into that.
505
00:23:28,260 --> 00:23:30,161
[both chuckling]
506
00:23:36,268 --> 00:23:38,570
Are you...
507
00:23:38,604 --> 00:23:40,739
sure you're okay with this?
508
00:23:40,773 --> 00:23:43,809
[owl hooting]
509
00:23:43,843 --> 00:23:46,110
Oh, yeah, yeah. I'm very sure.
510
00:23:46,145 --> 00:23:47,145
[chuckles] No, no.
511
00:23:47,179 --> 00:23:50,714
No, not-not this.
512
00:23:50,749 --> 00:23:52,984
Us...
513
00:23:53,018 --> 00:23:55,753
being...
514
00:23:55,787 --> 00:23:57,755
just us.
515
00:23:59,858 --> 00:24:01,659
I know.
516
00:24:01,693 --> 00:24:03,962
And I'm good.
517
00:24:03,996 --> 00:24:05,163
I am.
518
00:24:07,732 --> 00:24:10,034
- You said you were okay. You told me...
- Yeah, I know.
519
00:24:10,069 --> 00:24:12,670
- You told me that...
- I thought I was, okay? But I-I'm not.
520
00:24:12,704 --> 00:24:15,106
- What does that...
- I just need my films.
521
00:24:15,140 --> 00:24:17,808
[sighs] Not right this second, though.
522
00:24:19,845 --> 00:24:22,813
Listen, all I am asking
523
00:24:22,848 --> 00:24:25,382
- is that we just reopen this conversation...
- No. No!
524
00:24:25,416 --> 00:24:27,017
There is nothing left to talk about.
525
00:24:27,051 --> 00:24:28,385
Owen, I was clear about this.
526
00:24:28,419 --> 00:24:29,720
I was so clear.
527
00:24:29,754 --> 00:24:32,055
I can't give you more than
what I am already giving,
528
00:24:32,090 --> 00:24:33,791
and if now you need more...
529
00:24:33,825 --> 00:24:35,726
- Yes, I think I do! I think I do!
- If now...
530
00:24:35,760 --> 00:24:37,294
well, then-then get it somewhere else.
531
00:24:39,831 --> 00:24:41,331
Oh.
532
00:24:43,568 --> 00:24:44,602
Okay, I will.
533
00:24:47,138 --> 00:24:48,873
[door opens]
534
00:24:52,944 --> 00:24:54,478
[panting]
535
00:24:54,512 --> 00:24:56,646
Cristina: It's-it's over.
536
00:24:56,680 --> 00:24:59,316
No, this time, Owen and I are really over.
537
00:24:59,350 --> 00:25:02,785
I mean, we can't keep falling
back into the same pattern.
538
00:25:02,820 --> 00:25:05,422
It's just...
539
00:25:05,456 --> 00:25:08,458
Mer? You awake?
540
00:25:08,493 --> 00:25:12,295
Yeah. You and Owen are over again.
541
00:25:12,330 --> 00:25:14,097
I'm totally listening. Continue.
542
00:25:14,132 --> 00:25:15,632
Well, see? That's the point...
543
00:25:15,666 --> 00:25:17,501
I-It can't continue the way it is.
544
00:25:17,535 --> 00:25:19,636
It's-it's not good, it's not healthy.
545
00:25:19,670 --> 00:25:21,838
Cristina: Your heart's healthy enough now
546
00:25:21,872 --> 00:25:23,873
that you'd be an excellent candidate
547
00:25:23,908 --> 00:25:26,576
- for the type of research they're doing.
- Mm-hmm.
548
00:25:26,610 --> 00:25:27,544
Could it hurt him?
549
00:25:27,578 --> 00:25:28,945
No. It is a surgery.
550
00:25:28,979 --> 00:25:31,680
I would implant an array of
wireless sensors into his skull
551
00:25:31,714 --> 00:25:33,649
that would transmit electrical activity.
552
00:25:33,683 --> 00:25:35,984
But none of our subjects
ever complained of pain.
553
00:25:36,019 --> 00:25:37,986
It's a chance to help us,
to help revolutionize treatment
554
00:25:38,021 --> 00:25:40,289
- For people like yourself.
- Hmm?
555
00:25:40,323 --> 00:25:41,323
What do you think, hon?
556
00:25:41,358 --> 00:25:44,160
[ventilator hissing]
557
00:25:44,194 --> 00:25:47,463
It'll help people... "people like me"...
558
00:25:47,497 --> 00:25:49,731
It won't help me?
559
00:25:49,766 --> 00:25:52,134
Honey, wouldn't it be
nice to have a place to go
560
00:25:52,169 --> 00:25:54,336
instead of sitting around the house all day?
561
00:25:54,371 --> 00:25:57,839
It's something, Jason.
It's something we can do.
562
00:25:57,874 --> 00:25:59,741
Please?
563
00:25:59,776 --> 00:26:01,142
[ventilator hissing]
564
00:26:01,177 --> 00:26:02,944
I don't care.
565
00:26:02,978 --> 00:26:04,345
Fine.
566
00:26:10,252 --> 00:26:13,020
Um, thank you, Dr. Yang, for thinking of us.
567
00:26:13,055 --> 00:26:15,323
Oh, no, actually, it was chief Hunt's idea.
568
00:26:15,357 --> 00:26:17,625
He-he told us about Jason. [chuckles]
569
00:26:17,659 --> 00:26:18,826
[Owen clears throat]
570
00:26:18,860 --> 00:26:20,861
Elise: Oh, well, thank you, Dr. Hunt.
571
00:26:20,896 --> 00:26:22,430
It's gonna be great for him.
572
00:26:22,465 --> 00:26:23,864
Well, good luck.
573
00:26:27,536 --> 00:26:28,669
What?
574
00:26:28,704 --> 00:26:30,938
That was a really nice
thing you did for them.
575
00:26:30,973 --> 00:26:32,440
Oh, well... [chuckles]
576
00:26:32,475 --> 00:26:34,942
I'm a really nice guy, or so I've been told.
577
00:26:34,977 --> 00:26:36,276
[chuckles]
578
00:26:36,311 --> 00:26:38,713
Cristina: I would never ask you for that.
579
00:26:38,747 --> 00:26:42,216
- You're not asking. I am telling you.
- Well...
580
00:26:42,250 --> 00:26:44,184
I don't believe you.
581
00:26:44,219 --> 00:26:46,854
[sighs] Cristina, people change.
582
00:26:46,888 --> 00:26:49,790
I mean, you're not the same
person that you were when we met.
583
00:26:49,825 --> 00:26:50,825
I can change, too.
584
00:26:50,859 --> 00:26:53,494
Really?
585
00:26:53,528 --> 00:26:57,865
People who want kids don't
just stop wanting them.
586
00:27:00,669 --> 00:27:02,003
Don't give up things for me.
587
00:27:02,037 --> 00:27:04,905
Hey, I'm not.
588
00:27:04,940 --> 00:27:06,607
I haven't.
589
00:27:09,111 --> 00:27:11,112
I'm not giving up anything.
590
00:27:16,684 --> 00:27:18,818
Callie: Good. [motors whirring]
591
00:27:18,853 --> 00:27:21,220
Good. Good.
592
00:27:21,255 --> 00:27:23,156
Yeah, slowly but surely.
593
00:27:23,190 --> 00:27:26,459
Just focus on your balance.
594
00:27:26,493 --> 00:27:30,596
How does it feel, Jase, to walk again?
595
00:27:30,631 --> 00:27:32,799
It's...
596
00:27:32,833 --> 00:27:33,900
pretty good.
597
00:27:33,934 --> 00:27:35,635
Yeah, I think he needs to concentrate.
598
00:27:38,572 --> 00:27:41,940
It's amazing, in just a few years?
599
00:27:41,975 --> 00:27:43,976
Unbelievable. [chuckles, sniffles]
600
00:27:44,010 --> 00:27:45,900
Is Dr. Yang busy?
I would love for her to see this.
601
00:27:46,000 --> 00:27:46,844
I can check, okay?
602
00:27:46,880 --> 00:27:48,747
Jason, are you all right?
603
00:27:50,383 --> 00:27:51,817
[gasps] Jason!
604
00:27:53,386 --> 00:27:55,387
- Owen: Get a crash cart!
- Derek: Jason?
605
00:27:57,290 --> 00:28:00,592
[motor whirring]
606
00:28:00,626 --> 00:28:01,794
Hey, I need you.
607
00:28:01,828 --> 00:28:03,128
Yes.
608
00:28:03,163 --> 00:28:04,529
Uh, no. I can't.
609
00:28:04,564 --> 00:28:06,832
Uh, these abstracts were
supposed to go out an hour ago.
610
00:28:06,866 --> 00:28:09,101
You know what? Okay. On-call room, but fast?
611
00:28:09,135 --> 00:28:11,070
No, no, it's not, um... it's Jason Castor.
612
00:28:11,104 --> 00:28:12,937
He just had an accident in the BCI lab.
613
00:28:12,971 --> 00:28:15,139
He has rhabdo, renal failure.
614
00:28:15,174 --> 00:28:18,009
Grey is putting a shunt in him,
but his wife's asking for you.
615
00:28:20,112 --> 00:28:22,814
Jason Castor... your patient,
the quadriplegic?
616
00:28:22,848 --> 00:28:24,782
We, uh, put him into
Derek and Callie's trial.
617
00:28:24,817 --> 00:28:27,219
- His wife is...
- Oh! Right, right, right. Yes. Um...
618
00:28:27,253 --> 00:28:28,553
Does he need a heart consult?
619
00:28:28,588 --> 00:28:30,855
No, no. She's just scared,
and she trusts you...
620
00:28:30,889 --> 00:28:32,824
You know, Owen, I-I have to finish this.
621
00:28:32,858 --> 00:28:34,158
I've got seven prints going.
622
00:28:34,193 --> 00:28:35,927
Where-where's Ross?
623
00:28:35,961 --> 00:28:37,195
Ross can't do this.
624
00:28:37,230 --> 00:28:39,997
I'm one step away from
funding for animal trials.
625
00:28:41,534 --> 00:28:43,335
Owen, he's not my patient anymore.
626
00:28:43,369 --> 00:28:44,736
If the guy's heart is fine,
627
00:28:44,770 --> 00:28:47,338
I don't have time to hold
someone's hand right now.
628
00:28:52,711 --> 00:28:55,146
You know what? You saved her husband's life.
629
00:28:55,180 --> 00:28:56,814
You were the first doctor she met.
630
00:28:56,849 --> 00:28:59,550
She likes you, she trusts you,
and now she's waiting for you.
631
00:28:59,584 --> 00:29:02,053
About a million heart patients
are waiting for me, too.
632
00:29:03,756 --> 00:29:05,689
Right.
633
00:29:05,724 --> 00:29:07,424
You can't let people down. [sighs]
634
00:29:07,459 --> 00:29:09,593
[door opens]
635
00:29:17,960 --> 00:29:19,961
Owen: Hey.
636
00:29:19,995 --> 00:29:21,862
[chuckling] Oh.
637
00:29:21,896 --> 00:29:23,364
Thanks.
638
00:29:23,398 --> 00:29:25,433
Um, was it because of the suit?
639
00:29:25,467 --> 00:29:28,836
No. His kidneys failed,
and that caused him to pass out.
640
00:29:28,870 --> 00:29:30,637
But the surgery is going well,
641
00:29:30,672 --> 00:29:32,940
and then we'll get him on dialysis.
642
00:29:32,975 --> 00:29:38,245
This is just a complication
of Jason's... condition.
643
00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:40,680
It's all just complications.
644
00:29:40,714 --> 00:29:43,549
And he should be able to
continue with the study, so...
645
00:29:43,584 --> 00:29:44,750
He won't.
646
00:29:46,553 --> 00:29:48,288
Yeah, this-this will be his excuse,
647
00:29:48,322 --> 00:29:50,490
and he'll never forgive
me for making him do it.
648
00:29:50,524 --> 00:29:53,326
[scoffs] What? You didn't make him do this.
649
00:29:53,361 --> 00:29:55,661
He told me once... w-we were fighting,
650
00:29:55,696 --> 00:29:57,998
and he told me that when we woke him
651
00:29:58,032 --> 00:30:00,500
to ask him if he wanted to live,
652
00:30:00,534 --> 00:30:04,270
he only said yes because
he was looking at me...
653
00:30:04,305 --> 00:30:07,207
That if it had been up to him...
654
00:30:07,241 --> 00:30:09,275
if I wasn't there...
655
00:30:09,310 --> 00:30:11,478
he would have said no.
656
00:30:13,780 --> 00:30:15,081
So all this is because of me.
657
00:30:15,116 --> 00:30:17,250
I mean, he-he's miserable
every day because of me.
658
00:30:17,284 --> 00:30:19,318
And I-I'm-I'm...
I'm-I'm not a wife anymore.
659
00:30:19,352 --> 00:30:22,254
I'm a nursemaid and a cook and an orderly,
660
00:30:22,288 --> 00:30:24,756
and I never go home from that work.
661
00:30:24,790 --> 00:30:28,293
I am that work.
That's all I am anymore.
662
00:30:33,366 --> 00:30:35,100
I wanted to have a child.
663
00:30:38,338 --> 00:30:41,673
And I will never, ever have a child.
664
00:30:44,177 --> 00:30:46,245
[crying] I'm sorry.
665
00:30:46,279 --> 00:30:47,779
I'm being selfish. I'm horrible.
666
00:30:47,813 --> 00:30:48,813
No, you're not.
667
00:30:48,848 --> 00:30:50,649
No, no, no, no. Not at all.
668
00:30:50,683 --> 00:30:52,851
Not at all. I-I totally understand.
669
00:30:56,989 --> 00:31:01,960
Mm...
670
00:31:01,994 --> 00:31:04,062
Uh...
671
00:31:04,096 --> 00:31:06,565
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
672
00:31:06,599 --> 00:31:09,167
Mnh-mnh. No. It's okay.
673
00:31:09,201 --> 00:31:12,503
Get on out! Ha! [cheers and applause]
674
00:31:12,538 --> 00:31:14,973
Okay, now, that is a healthy heart sip
675
00:31:15,007 --> 00:31:17,408
that's both delicious and nutritious.
676
00:31:17,443 --> 00:31:20,045
[laughing]
Thank you very much for that.
677
00:31:20,079 --> 00:31:24,883
Next up, I'm going to debunk the top five
678
00:31:24,917 --> 00:31:26,651
biggest health myths for you folks,
679
00:31:26,686 --> 00:31:28,553
coming up right after this.
[applause]
680
00:31:28,588 --> 00:31:31,890
She better include my suggestion
on too much calcium
681
00:31:31,924 --> 00:31:34,459
increasing your risk of heart disease.
682
00:31:34,493 --> 00:31:36,860
People pop those pills like candy.
683
00:31:38,329 --> 00:31:40,397
[clears throat]
684
00:31:40,431 --> 00:31:42,132
I haven't seen you in two days.
685
00:31:42,166 --> 00:31:44,334
Yeah, I took a couple extra night shifts.
686
00:31:44,368 --> 00:31:46,336
I-I went by the trailer this morning.
687
00:31:46,370 --> 00:31:48,706
Yeah, I just crashed in the on-call room.
688
00:31:53,979 --> 00:31:55,545
Is something going on?
689
00:31:55,580 --> 00:31:57,581
[chuckles]
690
00:32:03,588 --> 00:32:06,389
I need more, Cristina. You know?
691
00:32:06,424 --> 00:32:09,693
I just can't keep...
692
00:32:09,728 --> 00:32:11,361
I just need more, you know...
693
00:32:11,395 --> 00:32:14,098
more from you, more from us.
694
00:32:14,132 --> 00:32:16,566
- Another, please?
- Bartender: You got it!
695
00:32:16,601 --> 00:32:18,102
Okay, let's just get out of here.
696
00:32:18,136 --> 00:32:19,268
Nope. [clears throat]
697
00:32:19,302 --> 00:32:20,870
Let's go home. Just sleep this off,
698
00:32:20,904 --> 00:32:22,972
and let's talk about it
in the morning, can we...
699
00:32:23,007 --> 00:32:25,207
[chuckling]
We don't have a home, Cristina.
700
00:32:25,242 --> 00:32:28,410
I have a trailer, and you
have a room at Karev's house.
701
00:32:28,445 --> 00:32:29,946
It's not...
702
00:32:32,449 --> 00:32:34,450
- Another, please.
- Right up!
703
00:32:40,390 --> 00:32:42,391
[peanut cracks]
704
00:32:46,130 --> 00:32:48,330
- There you go.
- Thank you.
705
00:32:48,365 --> 00:32:50,667
Oh! There's too many.
706
00:32:50,701 --> 00:32:52,301
The kids outnumber the adults.
707
00:32:52,335 --> 00:32:55,071
Should've thought of that
before we adopted again.
708
00:32:55,105 --> 00:32:58,107
I mean, what if there's a mutiny?
Derek and I will lose.
709
00:32:58,142 --> 00:33:00,309
No, not until the third one can walk.
710
00:33:02,146 --> 00:33:04,146
So, you broke up again?
711
00:33:06,916 --> 00:33:10,418
Same thing, over and over.
712
00:33:13,923 --> 00:33:17,492
You know what else is the same?
713
00:33:17,526 --> 00:33:18,860
This.
714
00:33:20,262 --> 00:33:24,399
You and I laying in this bed,
talking about you and Owen.
715
00:33:24,433 --> 00:33:26,935
Why do you keep doing this to yourself?
716
00:33:30,873 --> 00:33:32,874
[voice breaking] I need help.
717
00:33:37,413 --> 00:33:38,714
Mer, you have to help me.
718
00:33:38,748 --> 00:33:41,850
Don't let me go back to him...
719
00:33:41,884 --> 00:33:44,753
for his good and mine.
720
00:33:44,787 --> 00:33:46,287
Please help me.
721
00:33:46,322 --> 00:33:49,490
Of course. Of course I'll help you.
722
00:33:56,064 --> 00:33:58,165
What do you mean? It's been six
months since my last procedure!
723
00:33:58,200 --> 00:33:59,400
Your hand's still not healed!
724
00:33:59,435 --> 00:34:02,203
You need more P.T.
and more time in the skills lab.
725
00:34:02,238 --> 00:34:04,405
You are not stepping into that O.R....
726
00:34:04,440 --> 00:34:05,840
not today, maybe not ever!
727
00:34:05,874 --> 00:34:07,808
All right, first of all,
you need to lower your voice.
728
00:34:07,843 --> 00:34:09,577
[laughing] Oh, okay!
So, what, nobody can yell at you?
729
00:34:09,612 --> 00:34:11,713
- Why's that? Why is that?!
Because you're an Avery?
- Excuse...
730
00:34:11,747 --> 00:34:14,349
- That has nothing to do
with any of this, and you...
- Some pampered little rich boy
731
00:34:14,383 --> 00:34:16,117
- Who was gifted a hospital...
- Oh!
732
00:34:16,151 --> 00:34:18,152
So he thinks that it's okay to go ahead
733
00:34:18,186 --> 00:34:21,021
and endanger patients,
'cause he's too damn proud to admit
734
00:34:21,056 --> 00:34:22,423
that he can't operate anymore!
735
00:34:22,458 --> 00:34:23,491
Dr. Hunt!
736
00:34:34,035 --> 00:34:37,938
Do you know how many infants are
born without a pulmonary artery?
737
00:34:37,973 --> 00:34:39,073
Cristina, I'm so sorry.
738
00:34:39,107 --> 00:34:40,941
But there is a surgery to correct it.
739
00:34:40,976 --> 00:34:42,276
It's called unifocalization,
740
00:34:42,310 --> 00:34:45,045
which I was doing with a robot.
741
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:46,313
But now Shane is finishing it
742
00:34:46,347 --> 00:34:48,315
because you paged me "911"
like a million times.
743
00:34:48,349 --> 00:34:50,384
- So whatever it is, it better be...
- It's Owen.
744
00:34:50,418 --> 00:34:52,953
He wanted to work a shift.
I didn't feel comfortable.
745
00:34:52,988 --> 00:34:56,056
He only agreed to get
in a bed if I paged you.
746
00:34:56,091 --> 00:34:58,893
[sighs] You came.
747
00:35:01,061 --> 00:35:02,962
Give us a minute.
748
00:35:07,268 --> 00:35:10,337
[grunts]
749
00:35:10,371 --> 00:35:12,339
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!
750
00:35:12,373 --> 00:35:14,240
Oh, god, you stink.
751
00:35:14,275 --> 00:35:16,142
[chuckles]
752
00:35:16,177 --> 00:35:18,144
You tried to start a shift?
753
00:35:18,179 --> 00:35:20,714
Are you insane? You could've hurt someone.
754
00:35:20,748 --> 00:35:24,250
Yeah. Yeah. I love you.
755
00:35:24,285 --> 00:35:27,921
- This has got to stop.
- I love you.
756
00:35:27,955 --> 00:35:31,256
I love you. I love you, and, uh...
757
00:35:31,291 --> 00:35:33,793
I-I see you every day,
758
00:35:33,827 --> 00:35:35,661
and I can't have you. [sighs]
759
00:35:35,696 --> 00:35:37,596
So... [clears throat]
760
00:35:37,631 --> 00:35:40,599
so how am I supposed to keep doing this,
761
00:35:40,634 --> 00:35:42,468
keep working here, when...
762
00:35:42,502 --> 00:35:45,003
every time I turn around...
763
00:35:47,974 --> 00:35:49,074
I see your face.
764
00:35:49,108 --> 00:35:50,976
Owen...
765
00:35:52,312 --> 00:35:53,779
Owen, Owen, Owen, Owen...
766
00:35:53,814 --> 00:35:56,215
I love you. Please. Please.
767
00:35:56,249 --> 00:35:58,917
Please marry me. Just marry me.
768
00:35:58,952 --> 00:36:01,554
- Owen...
- Why can't you just marry me?
769
00:36:01,588 --> 00:36:04,256
Please, I'm begging you. I'm begging.
770
00:36:04,290 --> 00:36:05,357
I am begging you.
771
00:36:05,391 --> 00:36:07,993
I mean, we should never
have called it quits.
772
00:36:08,027 --> 00:36:12,430
- We should never have called it
quits when we did. Please.
- Shh, shh, shh, shh.
773
00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:15,934
[sniffles]
774
00:36:15,969 --> 00:36:18,370
[sighs] Just...
775
00:36:18,404 --> 00:36:20,305
[sighs] Please marry me.
776
00:36:31,340 --> 00:36:33,341
[sighs deeply]
777
00:36:36,712 --> 00:36:38,246
Well, there's no sign of him yet,
778
00:36:38,280 --> 00:36:39,781
but there's still plenty of time,
779
00:36:39,815 --> 00:36:41,249
so there's no reason to panic.
780
00:36:41,283 --> 00:36:42,951
- I'm not panicked. [sighs]
- Okay.
781
00:36:42,985 --> 00:36:44,986
- Can you get my belt?
- Sure.
782
00:36:46,822 --> 00:36:49,957
[breathes deeply]
783
00:36:49,991 --> 00:36:51,425
You look beautiful.
784
00:36:51,459 --> 00:36:52,993
[sighs] Thanks.
785
00:36:53,028 --> 00:36:54,028
He is late.
786
00:36:54,062 --> 00:36:56,096
How could he be late to this?
787
00:36:56,130 --> 00:36:58,131
I'll go look for him again.
788
00:37:02,771 --> 00:37:04,304
[sighs deeply]
789
00:37:04,338 --> 00:37:06,907
Owen: Okay, we've got a full house, people.
[siren wailing]
790
00:37:06,942 --> 00:37:08,475
- Page-page anyone who's available.
- Yes, sir.
791
00:37:08,509 --> 00:37:10,210
- Watch your back.
- 10-year-old female thrown from a vehicle.
792
00:37:10,244 --> 00:37:12,245
Multiple blunt injuries and hypotensive.
793
00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:14,815
Hey, you... assess her,
then rush her up to radiology
794
00:37:14,849 --> 00:37:17,617
- get a C.T. with contrast.
- Uh-huh.
795
00:37:17,651 --> 00:37:18,683
- Then page me as soon as...
- Um, excuse me.
796
00:37:18,783 --> 00:37:20,728
- Um, contrast, like the iodine dye?
- Yeah.
797
00:37:20,828 --> 00:37:23,322
I'm allergic to that. Do you
think my daughter could be, too?
798
00:37:23,356 --> 00:37:26,158
We'll run a test and check.
Not a problem. Excuse me.
799
00:37:26,193 --> 00:37:28,061
What've you got?
800
00:37:34,101 --> 00:37:36,268
Meredith: Do you want me to call him again?
801
00:37:36,303 --> 00:37:37,470
No.
802
00:37:37,504 --> 00:37:40,006
[cellphone beeping]
803
00:37:47,714 --> 00:37:49,448
[cellphone beeping]
804
00:37:49,483 --> 00:37:51,984
[sighs] Do you have to take that?
805
00:37:52,018 --> 00:37:54,686
'Cause you can go. It-it's not like
806
00:37:54,721 --> 00:37:57,789
you haven't been through
this with me before.
807
00:37:57,824 --> 00:38:00,459
It's a general page, for whoever's on call.
808
00:38:00,494 --> 00:38:03,429
I'm not even on call.
I'm not going anywhere.
809
00:38:08,034 --> 00:38:09,602
What happened? [monitors beeping loudly]
810
00:38:09,636 --> 00:38:11,270
She was seizing... severe allergic reaction.
811
00:38:11,304 --> 00:38:14,106
I was passing by and saw
this intern freaking out.
812
00:38:14,141 --> 00:38:15,508
I've given her a .3 epi.
813
00:38:15,542 --> 00:38:16,633
Well, did anyone order contrast?
814
00:38:16,733 --> 00:38:18,344
Was she tested for allergies?
815
00:38:18,378 --> 00:38:19,478
I got paged. What's going on?
816
00:38:19,513 --> 00:38:21,846
Hey. We need to get her
to the O.R. immediately.
817
00:38:21,880 --> 00:38:24,649
Let's start her on benadryl
and steroids, stat!
818
00:38:24,683 --> 00:38:26,017
- Is this your patient?
- Yes.
819
00:38:26,051 --> 00:38:28,453
Why didn't you screen her
for any contrast allergies?
820
00:38:28,487 --> 00:38:29,454
- I did.
- It's not here.
821
00:38:29,488 --> 00:38:30,821
I mean, there's no record of any tests.
822
00:38:30,856 --> 00:38:31,722
- I ordered it.
- You did?
823
00:38:31,757 --> 00:38:32,557
- Yes!
- You sure?
824
00:38:32,591 --> 00:38:34,058
- Yes.
- You did?
825
00:38:34,092 --> 00:38:36,794
Hey, I ordered the damn test!
826
00:38:36,828 --> 00:38:37,862
Didn't I?
827
00:38:42,635 --> 00:38:44,835
Cutting it a little close, don't you think?
828
00:38:44,870 --> 00:38:46,371
Hi. Sorry I'm late. I know.
829
00:38:46,405 --> 00:38:48,605
I got held up, and there was traffic and...
830
00:38:48,640 --> 00:38:50,207
anyway, sorry. I'm here now.
831
00:38:50,241 --> 00:38:52,609
You look incredible.
832
00:38:54,179 --> 00:38:55,412
Thank you.
833
00:38:55,446 --> 00:38:58,282
Well... shall we do this?
834
00:38:59,417 --> 00:39:01,351
Let's.
835
00:39:01,386 --> 00:39:05,122
[door opens and closes]
836
00:39:05,157 --> 00:39:07,124
This is unacceptable.
837
00:39:07,159 --> 00:39:08,726
Things like this keep happening,
838
00:39:08,760 --> 00:39:10,594
and this time there was a kid involved.
839
00:39:10,628 --> 00:39:12,697
And I'm not looking
the other way any longer.
840
00:39:12,731 --> 00:39:14,699
He's unreliable, a danger to his patients.
841
00:39:14,733 --> 00:39:15,833
I mean... [scoffs]
842
00:39:15,867 --> 00:39:20,337
[sighs] Did you smell his breath?
843
00:39:20,371 --> 00:39:22,239
Yeah, well, let's just wait
for the breathalyzer results.
844
00:39:22,273 --> 00:39:25,242
No. We-we need to convene
an emergency board meeting.
845
00:39:25,276 --> 00:39:27,578
[sighs] Right now, Derek. Right now.
846
00:39:27,612 --> 00:39:31,181
She's a pioneer, an inspiration, a mentor,
847
00:39:31,216 --> 00:39:35,385
and, I'm proud to say,
my friend for over 15 years.
848
00:39:35,420 --> 00:39:36,520
Please welcome,
849
00:39:36,554 --> 00:39:39,256
for an unprecedented
fourth consecutive year,
850
00:39:39,290 --> 00:39:41,758
tonight's Harper Avery award recipient,
851
00:39:41,792 --> 00:39:42,992
Dr. Cristina Yang.
852
00:39:44,629 --> 00:39:46,663
[cellphone beeping]
853
00:39:47,732 --> 00:39:49,432
Meredith: I came as soon as I could.
854
00:39:49,466 --> 00:39:51,767
You know he's just sitting
out there waiting.
855
00:39:51,801 --> 00:39:53,736
April, you run the trauma department.
856
00:39:53,770 --> 00:39:56,672
You work with him more closely
than anybody else. Do you...
857
00:39:56,707 --> 00:39:59,675
Do you trust Owen Hunt to treat patients?
858
00:39:59,710 --> 00:40:02,645
He is my mentor, and he trained me. I...
859
00:40:02,679 --> 00:40:05,648
We value your opinion, April.
That's why you're here.
860
00:40:05,682 --> 00:40:08,016
Just be honest.
861
00:40:08,051 --> 00:40:10,219
Do you trust the man?
862
00:40:20,264 --> 00:40:21,230
[sighs deeply]
863
00:40:21,265 --> 00:40:24,267
No, I don't.
864
00:40:24,301 --> 00:40:27,303
I move to terminate him,
effective immediately.
865
00:40:27,337 --> 00:40:30,138
If there's one thing I've
learned over the years,
866
00:40:30,172 --> 00:40:35,243
it's that it only takes one person,
one patient, one moment,
867
00:40:35,278 --> 00:40:37,812
to change your life forever...
868
00:40:37,846 --> 00:40:42,317
to change your perspective,
color your thinking,
869
00:40:42,351 --> 00:40:46,521
to force you to re-evaluate
everything you think you know...
870
00:40:46,555 --> 00:40:51,058
to make you ask yourself
the toughest questions...
871
00:40:52,361 --> 00:40:54,061
do you know who you are?
872
00:40:55,765 --> 00:40:59,200
Do you understand what has happened to you?
873
00:40:59,234 --> 00:41:02,369
Do you want to live this way?
874
00:41:02,404 --> 00:41:03,905
[applause]
875
00:41:06,141 --> 00:41:08,943
Cristina:
I'm sorry, but I have to ask one more time.
876
00:41:08,977 --> 00:41:12,213
Jason...
877
00:41:12,247 --> 00:41:14,448
would you like me to remove the vent?
878
00:41:14,482 --> 00:41:16,383
[ventilator hissing]
879
00:41:16,418 --> 00:41:18,352
[monitor beeping]
880
00:41:32,301 --> 00:41:34,302
Okay.
881
00:42:10,704 --> 00:42:13,139
[clattering]
882
00:42:15,108 --> 00:42:16,075
Hey, watch your hand.
883
00:42:16,109 --> 00:42:17,676
Oh. Thanks.
884
00:42:17,710 --> 00:42:19,644
Oh, no problem.
885
00:42:23,816 --> 00:42:26,185
Hey, Cristina. Hey, you got a sec?
886
00:42:26,219 --> 00:42:27,753
I could use a set of eyes on my patient.
887
00:42:27,787 --> 00:42:29,255
Uh, yeah. Um, just give me one, uh...
888
00:42:29,289 --> 00:42:31,257
[elevator bell dings, doors open]
889
00:42:33,826 --> 00:42:35,861
Never mind. Uh, what do you got?
890
00:42:39,020 --> 00:42:42,981
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