1 00:00:01,538 --> 00:00:06,168 [Meredith] The problem with being a resident is you feel crazy all the time. 2 00:00:06,243 --> 00:00:08,643 [# The Puppini Sisters: Walk Like An Egyptian] 3 00:00:08,712 --> 00:00:11,010 You haven't slept in years. 4 00:00:11,081 --> 00:00:13,675 [Vacuuming] 5 00:00:19,990 --> 00:00:23,016 You spend every day around people in massive crisis. 6 00:00:23,994 --> 00:00:26,929 You lose your ability to judge what's normal... 7 00:00:26,997 --> 00:00:29,465 Move your crap off the floor before this eats it. 8 00:00:29,533 --> 00:00:31,660 OK, OK, OK. 9 00:00:33,003 --> 00:00:35,494 ... in yourself or anyone else. 10 00:00:37,207 --> 00:00:40,870 And yet people are constantly asking you to tell them how they're doing. 11 00:00:40,944 --> 00:00:42,844 How the hell are you supposed to know? 12 00:00:42,913 --> 00:00:44,881 - Eggs good? - Uh-huh. 13 00:00:44,948 --> 00:00:46,472 [Rebecca groans] 14 00:00:46,550 --> 00:00:49,713 - The baby didn't like the breakfast. - All right, into the can. 15 00:00:49,786 --> 00:00:52,254 [Meredith] You don't even know how you're doing. 16 00:00:52,322 --> 00:00:53,311 [Retches] 17 00:00:53,390 --> 00:00:56,416 We had our first honest conversation about your feelings 18 00:00:56,493 --> 00:00:59,621 and now you want to leave. That doesn't strike you as strange? 19 00:00:59,696 --> 00:01:01,630 No. And I'm still firing you. 20 00:01:01,698 --> 00:01:03,859 - No, you're quitting. - I'm not quitting. 21 00:01:03,934 --> 00:01:06,732 - I don't quit things. - Well, actually you do. 22 00:01:06,803 --> 00:01:09,431 Your mother quit your father, your father quit you, 23 00:01:09,506 --> 00:01:12,771 you quit your boyfriend, and if I read your chart correctly, 24 00:01:12,843 --> 00:01:16,335 you quit your life, momentarily, on a couple of occasions. You quit. 25 00:01:16,413 --> 00:01:19,382 - It's what you know how to do. - Now, you're really fired. 26 00:01:22,352 --> 00:01:24,081 Now, we're getting somewhere. 27 00:01:24,154 --> 00:01:27,715 I want you to handle my consults. Anything you can do without me, do it. 28 00:01:27,791 --> 00:01:30,885 Book time in the robotics lab, I want to give him a tour. Hahn. 29 00:01:30,961 --> 00:01:34,328 Walter Tapley's coming in. Do we have anything he can scrub in on? 30 00:01:34,398 --> 00:01:37,765 - Walter Tapley is coming here? - [George] The chief was his student. 31 00:01:37,834 --> 00:01:40,860 You studied at the right hand of God? 32 00:01:40,937 --> 00:01:42,928 - Wow. - We need something impressive. 33 00:01:43,006 --> 00:01:45,031 I will stab someone in the chest if I have to. 34 00:01:45,108 --> 00:01:48,271 - [Laughs] - O'Malley, get Boyer ready for a CT 35 00:01:48,345 --> 00:01:49,437 and prep my lap chole. 36 00:01:49,513 --> 00:01:52,641 I need to be out of that OR by 1 0:00. Hahn! Plan to be free at 1 0:00. 37 00:01:52,716 --> 00:01:54,980 O'Malley, did Patricia say I had any messages? 38 00:01:55,052 --> 00:01:57,350 Yeah. She said... 39 00:01:57,421 --> 00:02:00,515 She said to tell you your wife hadn't called in the 20 minutes 40 00:02:00,590 --> 00:02:03,024 since you last asked if your wife called. 41 00:02:03,093 --> 00:02:04,082 All right. 42 00:02:06,196 --> 00:02:07,185 Hey. 43 00:02:07,264 --> 00:02:09,960 I'm very optimistic about this new viral cocktail. 44 00:02:10,033 --> 00:02:12,968 Adding an IL-2 should make a big difference. We're close. 45 00:02:13,036 --> 00:02:15,698 - We're going to open champagne soon. - I know. 46 00:02:17,207 --> 00:02:19,698 - Are you OK? - I'm fine. 47 00:02:19,776 --> 00:02:22,108 Listen, clinical trials can be a grind. 48 00:02:22,179 --> 00:02:24,545 If this is getting to you, I can do this on my own. 49 00:02:24,614 --> 00:02:27,811 I'm not a quitter. I don't need you to rescue me. Let's just do this. 50 00:02:27,884 --> 00:02:30,978 [Woman] Waiting is a bad idea. We're talking about your health. 51 00:02:31,054 --> 00:02:33,215 Dr. Shepherd can say no if it's a problem. 52 00:02:33,290 --> 00:02:34,780 What am I saying no to? 53 00:02:34,858 --> 00:02:38,350 Is there any way to push back the surgery a few hours? 54 00:02:38,428 --> 00:02:41,363 My boyfriend's flight was canceled. I want him to be here. 55 00:02:41,431 --> 00:02:43,797 - Greta. - He has some questions. 56 00:02:43,867 --> 00:02:46,392 He's so smart about this. I don't know what to ask. 57 00:02:46,470 --> 00:02:48,438 Are you reconsidering the procedure? 58 00:02:48,505 --> 00:02:51,838 Andre and I have had so little time together. We met in January. 59 00:02:51,908 --> 00:02:55,503 I mean, this treatment could kill me, right? 60 00:02:57,814 --> 00:03:00,977 An aggressive tumor. Don't operate, you're looking at months. 61 00:03:01,051 --> 00:03:03,849 But I'd spend them with Andre. 62 00:03:03,920 --> 00:03:07,617 Do you know how precious that is? Time with the person you love? 63 00:03:07,691 --> 00:03:10,353 - [Woman] Greta. - I'm not saying I want to cancel. 64 00:03:10,427 --> 00:03:14,761 I'm just saying I want to wait for Andre. He'll help me to decide. 65 00:03:14,831 --> 00:03:17,664 - OK, we can't wait for... - He'll be here at 3:00. 66 00:03:23,707 --> 00:03:27,473 Dr. Mark Sloan. I used to be a patient of his. 67 00:03:28,412 --> 00:03:30,312 Rebecca? 68 00:03:30,380 --> 00:03:32,348 - Where have you been? - Hi, Izzie. 69 00:03:32,416 --> 00:03:35,544 I've called you and left, like, 50 messages. 70 00:03:35,619 --> 00:03:39,214 - You seem kind of upset. - You're not pregnant, first of all, 71 00:03:39,289 --> 00:03:42,850 and Alex has been turning his life upside down to be your baby-daddy, 72 00:03:42,926 --> 00:03:46,293 and I can't tell him because of confidentiality. So, yeah, upset. 73 00:03:46,363 --> 00:03:49,264 You can talk to Alex about anything. I want him involved. 74 00:03:49,332 --> 00:03:51,664 And I am pregnant. You kind of know. 75 00:03:51,735 --> 00:03:54,898 OK. So if you're not trying to trap Alex with a fake pregnancy, 76 00:03:54,971 --> 00:03:57,531 you won't mind if I do another test just to be sure. 77 00:03:57,607 --> 00:03:59,905 Trap him? Are you out of your mind? 78 00:03:59,976 --> 00:04:01,944 I'm pregnant. And that's a good thing. 79 00:04:02,012 --> 00:04:05,448 Because I want this baby. I've always wanted a baby. 80 00:04:05,515 --> 00:04:07,710 You have a baby. 81 00:04:07,784 --> 00:04:09,809 Of course I do. I mean I want another one. 82 00:04:10,987 --> 00:04:13,319 Do the stupid test again, it'll be fine. 83 00:04:13,390 --> 00:04:15,915 I need to see Dr. Sloan. Can you help me with that? 84 00:04:16,626 --> 00:04:18,355 Yeah, I'll see what I can do. 85 00:04:19,429 --> 00:04:21,397 - Dr. Shepherd? - Yes? 86 00:04:22,799 --> 00:04:25,233 - There's no Andre. - What? 87 00:04:25,302 --> 00:04:27,361 She made him up. He doesn't exist. 88 00:04:27,437 --> 00:04:30,895 My sister, she's not a woman who has boyfriends, OK? 89 00:04:30,974 --> 00:04:32,236 Then four months ago, 90 00:04:32,309 --> 00:04:35,369 she goes on a cruise, comes back saying she met her soul mate. 91 00:04:35,445 --> 00:04:37,379 Around the time her symptoms started? 92 00:04:37,447 --> 00:04:41,383 There are no pictures and nobody has ever seen him. Can you talk to her? 93 00:04:41,451 --> 00:04:44,215 Can you tell her we can't wait for Andre? 94 00:04:44,287 --> 00:04:46,448 Because we could be waiting a long time. 95 00:04:50,794 --> 00:04:52,125 - Is Tapley in there? - No. 96 00:04:52,195 --> 00:04:53,560 - You're lying. - Yes. 97 00:04:53,630 --> 00:04:55,427 [Elevator dings] 98 00:04:55,499 --> 00:04:57,160 - Tapley in there? - No. 99 00:04:57,234 --> 00:04:59,225 - Liar. - Yes. 100 00:04:59,302 --> 00:05:01,566 - Something is wrong with her. - No, I'm fine. 101 00:05:01,638 --> 00:05:05,074 She cleaned. Cleaned the apartment, which she has no idea how to do. 102 00:05:05,141 --> 00:05:07,439 - She pushed dirt around. - Leave her alone. 103 00:05:07,511 --> 00:05:11,470 Not everybody has to be happy. That's not mental health. That's crap. 104 00:05:11,548 --> 00:05:14,312 Walter Tapley's here and she doesn't want to meet him. 105 00:05:14,384 --> 00:05:16,614 - Well, that's bad. - You know what, Torres? 106 00:05:16,686 --> 00:05:19,746 - Mind your own business. - You need to get help. 107 00:05:19,823 --> 00:05:20,915 You're killing me. 108 00:05:21,892 --> 00:05:24,588 Hang out until Hahn gets here, you might meet Tapley. 109 00:05:24,661 --> 00:05:27,459 - I don't give a damn about Tapley. - Cristina. 110 00:05:29,666 --> 00:05:32,260 - Are you in the dark place? - Yeah. 111 00:05:32,335 --> 00:05:33,893 Me, too. 112 00:05:37,541 --> 00:05:40,977 There she is. Dr. Erica Hahn, our chief of cardiothoracic surgery. 113 00:05:41,044 --> 00:05:43,171 It's an honor to meet you, Dr. Tapley. 114 00:05:43,246 --> 00:05:45,942 I use your modified bypass procedure all the time. 115 00:05:46,016 --> 00:05:48,610 Yeah, well, that was an afternoon well spent. 116 00:05:48,685 --> 00:05:52,416 - You came up with that in an afternoon? - It took him six years. 117 00:05:52,489 --> 00:05:54,480 You're a killjoy, Webber. 118 00:05:54,558 --> 00:05:56,822 I didn't really come here for a visit. 119 00:05:57,928 --> 00:06:02,024 I have aortic and mitral stenosis with tricuspid regurg. 120 00:06:02,098 --> 00:06:06,159 I need a double valve replacement and tricuspid repair. 121 00:06:07,671 --> 00:06:09,764 Are you sure? 122 00:06:11,174 --> 00:06:14,007 Charts, echoes, 123 00:06:14,077 --> 00:06:16,443 chest X-rays... everything you need. 124 00:06:17,180 --> 00:06:21,446 I may have invented the modified bypass, but I can't operate on myself. 125 00:06:22,185 --> 00:06:24,551 And my colleagues won't touch me 126 00:06:24,621 --> 00:06:27,784 because I have chronic a-fib, pulmonary hypertension 127 00:06:27,857 --> 00:06:29,882 and a clot in my left atrium. 128 00:06:29,960 --> 00:06:32,827 They think if they operate, they'll kill me. 129 00:06:32,896 --> 00:06:36,024 What makes you think we'll do it, if your colleagues won't? 130 00:06:36,099 --> 00:06:38,567 I didn't start their careers. 131 00:06:38,635 --> 00:06:42,127 They can say no to me. Webber can't. 132 00:06:51,648 --> 00:06:52,979 Absolutely not. 133 00:06:53,049 --> 00:06:55,142 - Now, hold on... - Have you read the file? 134 00:06:55,218 --> 00:06:57,686 His arterial pressure is through the roof. 135 00:06:57,754 --> 00:07:00,552 - He's aware of the risk. - Well, in that case, fine. 136 00:07:00,624 --> 00:07:02,148 What was I so worried about? 137 00:07:02,225 --> 00:07:05,524 I may go down in history as the surgeon who killed Walter Tapley, 138 00:07:05,595 --> 00:07:08,621 - but at least they're writing about me. - Erica, sit down. 139 00:07:10,767 --> 00:07:11,859 [Sighs] 140 00:07:11,935 --> 00:07:15,166 Let me tell you a story. Thirty-eight years ago, when I was a... 141 00:07:15,238 --> 00:07:17,399 I'm sorry. Is this gonna be a story about 142 00:07:17,474 --> 00:07:21,137 how you were a struggling black med student who wanted to be a surgeon 143 00:07:21,211 --> 00:07:24,044 and no one would give you a chance and Walter Tapley did? 144 00:07:24,114 --> 00:07:27,379 He mentored you, without him you wouldn't be in this hospital? 145 00:07:27,450 --> 00:07:30,112 - Yes. - I'm still not gonna operate on him. 146 00:07:30,186 --> 00:07:31,744 [Elevator dings] 147 00:07:31,821 --> 00:07:35,723 I thought the sex was mind-blowing, but I get the impression you had a bad time. 148 00:07:35,792 --> 00:07:37,384 - What? - Why are you avoiding me? 149 00:07:37,460 --> 00:07:41,191 I'm sorry. I lost a patient. I'm not trying to avoid you. 150 00:07:41,264 --> 00:07:44,199 Not calling me after sex is you being a lifesaver? 151 00:07:44,267 --> 00:07:46,701 - It is. - So I'll see you later? 152 00:07:50,106 --> 00:07:51,130 You didn't call her? 153 00:07:51,207 --> 00:07:54,301 When was the last time you called a woman after having sex? 154 00:07:54,377 --> 00:07:57,175 Well, that's gonna change. I'm turning over a new leaf. 155 00:07:57,247 --> 00:08:00,683 What was wrong with the old leaf? They called you a whore, you're happy. 156 00:08:00,750 --> 00:08:03,981 Walter Tapley needs a double valve replacement and Hahn refuses. 157 00:08:04,054 --> 00:08:06,022 - What? - Thinks she's gonna kill him. 158 00:08:06,089 --> 00:08:08,785 - Lightweight. - Since when do surgeons turn me down? 159 00:08:08,858 --> 00:08:12,658 - It's her choice. She's opening him up. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 160 00:08:12,729 --> 00:08:16,392 Another thing. If you spend the night with a woman, call her the next day, 161 00:08:16,466 --> 00:08:19,367 she doesn't call back, does that mean she had a lousy time 162 00:08:19,436 --> 00:08:22,337 or her answering machine was consumed in a fire? 163 00:08:22,405 --> 00:08:25,067 - Chief calls the next day. - You don't have to call. 164 00:08:25,141 --> 00:08:28,508 You just met this person. It's new, it's fun, it's casual. 165 00:08:28,578 --> 00:08:30,512 - It's my wife. - Oh! 166 00:08:30,580 --> 00:08:33,743 - Do I call again? - Well, another call looks desperate. 167 00:08:33,817 --> 00:08:37,344 Send her an e-mail. Invite her to dinner. Just be casual, confident. 168 00:08:37,420 --> 00:08:38,887 Sexy. 169 00:08:38,955 --> 00:08:41,423 - I mean, romantic. - Mmm. 170 00:08:42,459 --> 00:08:45,155 - [Richard] O'Malley! - Yes, sir. 171 00:08:45,228 --> 00:08:48,595 Tapley's in 2062. He's getting an EKG and an echo. I assigned Yang. 172 00:08:48,665 --> 00:08:50,599 All right. Oh, one more thing. 173 00:08:53,369 --> 00:08:57,430 I know I said I wouldn't use you to get my wife back, but I am a desperate man. 174 00:08:57,507 --> 00:08:59,202 - Lay it on me. - Draft an e-mail. 175 00:08:59,275 --> 00:09:01,470 Ask her to dinner. No, no. Don't ask her. 176 00:09:02,245 --> 00:09:04,076 Tell her. She likes a strong hand. 177 00:09:04,147 --> 00:09:07,048 You want me to ask your wife on a date with a strong hand. 178 00:09:07,117 --> 00:09:09,312 - Confident. Casual. - Confident. Casual. 179 00:09:09,385 --> 00:09:11,819 - Sexy. Tell her... - [elevator dings] 180 00:09:11,888 --> 00:09:15,654 Tell her the train is leaving the station, she'd better get on it. 181 00:09:15,725 --> 00:09:17,386 Yeah. 182 00:09:18,795 --> 00:09:21,662 - Can I talk to you? About Rebecca? - I'm busy. 183 00:09:21,731 --> 00:09:25,599 Alex, I gave her a pregnancy test last week. She's not pregnant. 184 00:09:25,668 --> 00:09:28,068 - I wanted to tell you. - You're telling me now. 185 00:09:28,138 --> 00:09:31,335 When I told her, she... she said I was wrong. 186 00:09:31,407 --> 00:09:33,898 She thinks it's some false negative. It isn't. 187 00:09:33,977 --> 00:09:36,275 She was puking and her boobs are all blown up. 188 00:09:36,346 --> 00:09:38,940 - I ran it twice. - Well, labs are wrong all the time. 189 00:09:39,015 --> 00:09:42,951 You're wrong all the time! Mind your own business and stay out of my life! 190 00:09:44,487 --> 00:09:45,511 [Knocks] 191 00:09:46,422 --> 00:09:48,549 You have my chart and I prefer you didn't, 192 00:09:48,625 --> 00:09:50,650 because I fired you. Can I have my chart? 193 00:09:50,727 --> 00:09:53,195 It's not appropriate to show up unannounced. 194 00:09:53,263 --> 00:09:54,821 You didn't fire me, you quit. 195 00:09:54,898 --> 00:09:57,833 So, if you would like to un-quit, make an appointment. 196 00:09:59,469 --> 00:10:00,959 You know... 197 00:10:02,005 --> 00:10:05,338 Make an appointment, Grey, it's what we do. 198 00:10:10,947 --> 00:10:13,677 [Inhales] At the moment no surgery's scheduled, 199 00:10:13,750 --> 00:10:16,218 so focus on keeping him stable and comfortable. 200 00:10:16,286 --> 00:10:18,686 Anything he wants. He wants a steak, kill a cow. 201 00:10:18,755 --> 00:10:20,882 Karev, bedside PFTs and an ABG. 202 00:10:20,957 --> 00:10:24,154 - Yang, run a central line... Sorry. - [Pager beeping] 203 00:10:25,361 --> 00:10:28,956 [Grunts] Damn daycare pages me every time he gets a runny nose. 204 00:10:29,032 --> 00:10:31,967 Find out what they want. I need Bailey focused on Tapley. 205 00:10:32,035 --> 00:10:33,900 - To the daycare? - [Richard] Quickly. 206 00:10:33,970 --> 00:10:35,631 Right man for the job. 207 00:10:38,374 --> 00:10:40,239 Grey. Tapley needs a central line. 208 00:10:40,310 --> 00:10:41,470 Do it. 209 00:10:41,544 --> 00:10:44,536 - I don't understand. - Take a needle, 210 00:10:44,614 --> 00:10:48,050 jab it into his subclavian so he can receive medicine and not croak. 211 00:10:48,117 --> 00:10:51,746 - A central line. - But I've never done one! Dr. Yang? 212 00:10:52,755 --> 00:10:54,552 Hey! How'd it go with Greta? 213 00:10:54,624 --> 00:10:56,888 - I haven't spoken to her yet. - You haven't? 214 00:10:56,960 --> 00:10:59,485 I mixed the virus and the IL-2. We have six hours. 215 00:10:59,562 --> 00:11:02,190 We're not gonna wait six, we're gonna wait three. 216 00:11:02,265 --> 00:11:04,529 The guy we're waiting for doesn't exist. 217 00:11:04,601 --> 00:11:07,263 I want to give her a little more time to enjoy him. 218 00:11:07,337 --> 00:11:09,168 Or the idea of him, if nothing else. 219 00:11:09,239 --> 00:11:11,537 We remove the tumor, it's gonna disappear. 220 00:11:11,608 --> 00:11:15,066 It's not real. It's OK if it disappears, she can go back to her life. 221 00:11:15,144 --> 00:11:18,477 She was probably a Ionely person. She found a way to have love. 222 00:11:18,548 --> 00:11:22,279 Of course, because that's where love exists. In delusional fantasies. 223 00:11:22,352 --> 00:11:24,183 Real love isn't like that. 224 00:11:25,221 --> 00:11:26,711 Good to know. 225 00:11:32,996 --> 00:11:35,396 - [Babbles] - He punched someone named Harrison. 226 00:11:35,465 --> 00:11:37,433 You punched a child? 227 00:11:37,500 --> 00:11:39,627 There was a graham cracker involved. 228 00:11:39,702 --> 00:11:41,397 Over a graham cracker? 229 00:11:41,471 --> 00:11:43,405 They said they want you to talk to him. 230 00:11:43,473 --> 00:11:46,135 He's 1 4 months old. What do they think I'm gonna do, 231 00:11:46,209 --> 00:11:48,541 lecture on nonviolent conflict resolution? 232 00:11:48,611 --> 00:11:50,704 - I really don't know. - Uh... 233 00:11:50,780 --> 00:11:54,113 - My son punches children. Perfect! - [Toy squeaks] 234 00:11:54,183 --> 00:11:58,483 Hey! Dr. Yang, who's even more evil than usual, asked me to do a central line. 235 00:11:58,554 --> 00:12:01,022 This is the big day that could change things for me. 236 00:12:01,090 --> 00:12:03,354 In there is Tapley and Tapley is God. 237 00:12:03,426 --> 00:12:06,224 I'm the chief's intern, that makes me close to God, 238 00:12:06,296 --> 00:12:10,062 which means I can't help you right now, as un-Christian as that may sound. 239 00:12:10,133 --> 00:12:13,762 No. I'll do Tapley's line. So I puncture his lung, he'll get over it. 240 00:12:13,836 --> 00:12:16,168 She wants you to do Tapley's line? I'll do it. 241 00:12:16,239 --> 00:12:19,936 Yay! Yay for Georgie. Georgie saves the day. 242 00:12:20,009 --> 00:12:22,842 I give you Tapley and you pass it over to your intern? 243 00:12:22,912 --> 00:12:24,504 What the hell is wrong with you? 244 00:12:24,580 --> 00:12:27,947 Do you think if you kiss the chief's ass by taking care of Tapley, 245 00:12:28,017 --> 00:12:30,645 something magical's gonna happen? Like what? 246 00:12:30,720 --> 00:12:34,019 You'll earn your magical resident wings? Well, no. 247 00:12:34,090 --> 00:12:36,957 No, not gonna happen, George. You're stuck. 248 00:12:37,026 --> 00:12:38,823 You are where you are. 249 00:12:38,895 --> 00:12:41,659 The only way out of your situation is if Burke were here 250 00:12:41,731 --> 00:12:44,029 because you were Burke's guy. 251 00:12:44,100 --> 00:12:48,161 For some reason he pitied your pathetic ass, but he's gone now. 252 00:12:48,237 --> 00:12:50,068 No wings for Georgie. 253 00:12:54,377 --> 00:12:56,368 Was I happy when I was with her? 254 00:12:56,446 --> 00:13:00,109 - Off and on. - I think I idealize it. 255 00:13:00,183 --> 00:13:03,380 I mean, you wouldn't hang on to a woman who's unavailable, 256 00:13:03,453 --> 00:13:06,286 unpredictable, right? You'd move on, keep it casual. 257 00:13:06,356 --> 00:13:09,951 Don't sell yourself short. Allow yourself to grow with Rose. 258 00:13:10,026 --> 00:13:14,463 - Share experiences. Build memories. - Is this the new leaf? 259 00:13:14,530 --> 00:13:17,021 - Yeah. - [Laughs] Needs work. 260 00:13:17,700 --> 00:13:19,827 Oh, my God. This is gonna kill me. 261 00:13:20,603 --> 00:13:24,505 Nice work. You found the subclavian on the first try. 262 00:13:24,574 --> 00:13:26,337 Got yourself a good resident. 263 00:13:26,409 --> 00:13:29,901 - Actually, sir, I'm an intern. - The best intern in the hospital. 264 00:13:30,380 --> 00:13:35,147 [Sighs] O'Malley, start Dr. Tapley on a loading dose of Amiodarone, 265 00:13:35,218 --> 00:13:38,016 - followed by a continuous infusion. - [George] Yes, sir. 266 00:13:38,087 --> 00:13:40,419 Why the hell would he start me on Amiodarone? 267 00:13:40,490 --> 00:13:43,926 O'Leary, would you give Amiodarone to a man who's about to have 268 00:13:43,993 --> 00:13:48,054 - an open-heart procedure? - George, wait outside, please? 269 00:13:50,500 --> 00:13:51,831 - [Sighs] - [Door closes] 270 00:13:51,901 --> 00:13:54,768 If you can't get the head of cardiothoracics 271 00:13:54,837 --> 00:13:56,532 to do a valve replacement, 272 00:13:56,606 --> 00:13:58,870 then you're not the chief I thought you were. 273 00:13:58,941 --> 00:14:02,308 And this is not the facility I thought it was, 274 00:14:02,378 --> 00:14:04,846 so maybe it's better for all of us 275 00:14:04,914 --> 00:14:07,906 if I don't get cut open here. Would you get these lines off me? 276 00:14:07,984 --> 00:14:10,612 Would you get back in that bed? 277 00:14:13,623 --> 00:14:16,114 I'll talk to her again. 278 00:14:16,192 --> 00:14:19,719 [# Alaska In Winter: Your Red Dress] 279 00:14:19,796 --> 00:14:22,526 You're not even gonna watch the Tapley surgery? 280 00:14:22,598 --> 00:14:26,329 I don't want five minutes with Walter Tapley. I want five years. 281 00:14:26,402 --> 00:14:29,303 Tapley's a star-maker. That's why the chief's a star. 282 00:14:29,372 --> 00:14:33,741 Five minutes is a slap in the face, like giving an alcoholic a sip of wine. 283 00:14:33,810 --> 00:14:37,473 Lexie's coming over. Let's try to keep the carnage to a minimum. 284 00:14:37,547 --> 00:14:40,573 Hey, can I talk to you about something? 285 00:14:42,218 --> 00:14:45,085 - Maybe some other time. - Uh, but... 286 00:14:45,154 --> 00:14:49,523 Look, you know, she hates you. OK? She's not going to say it to your face. 287 00:14:49,592 --> 00:14:53,790 She's too polite. But you're annoying. Showing up here like the good girl 288 00:14:53,863 --> 00:14:57,128 Daddy didn't abandon is the worst that's happened to her in months. 289 00:14:57,200 --> 00:14:59,930 And that's saying a lot coming from Meredith Grey. 290 00:15:06,509 --> 00:15:08,374 [Exhales] 291 00:15:08,444 --> 00:15:11,242 - It's gonna be OK. - Wanna bet? 292 00:15:14,350 --> 00:15:15,408 Mm. 293 00:15:15,485 --> 00:15:17,749 Two minutes, I'll meet you in the on-call room. 294 00:15:17,820 --> 00:15:20,084 We're gonna sit and enjoy a meal together. 295 00:15:20,156 --> 00:15:22,624 - [Scoffs] I don't get it. - I turned over a new leaf. 296 00:15:22,692 --> 00:15:25,627 From now on, if you want this, you're gonna get this too. 297 00:15:25,695 --> 00:15:26,957 Ew. 298 00:15:27,029 --> 00:15:31,489 Shove over, Sloan. Torres and I are gonna share a Sapphic salad. 299 00:15:31,567 --> 00:15:34,593 - Did I miss something? - Yeah, we're lovers. Didn't you know? 300 00:15:34,670 --> 00:15:37,366 [Sultry voice] It's a love that dare not speak its name. 301 00:15:37,440 --> 00:15:41,035 Uh-hm. Look me in the eye and tell me you're not thinking about a threesome. 302 00:15:41,110 --> 00:15:43,374 I'm not. Old Mark would, but that's no more. 303 00:15:43,446 --> 00:15:47,007 Really? You're not thinking about her and me and you 304 00:15:47,083 --> 00:15:49,142 [whispers] and a video camera. 305 00:15:51,354 --> 00:15:54,346 - [Laughs] On-call room, ten minutes. - No! 306 00:15:55,525 --> 00:15:58,926 - I am the chief of surgery. - I am not killing Walter Tapley, 307 00:15:58,995 --> 00:16:00,257 I don't care who you are. 308 00:16:00,329 --> 00:16:01,990 - Should I leave? - No. 309 00:16:02,064 --> 00:16:06,398 He's dying anyhow. You'd rather see him die on my watch than under your knife? 310 00:16:06,469 --> 00:16:07,663 - Yes. - I should leave. 311 00:16:07,737 --> 00:16:10,865 No. Is something going on with all the women that when I speak, 312 00:16:10,940 --> 00:16:14,967 they simply ignore it? You don't leave. You review the file again. 313 00:16:15,044 --> 00:16:19,242 If you see my wife, tell her the polite thing to do is return a man's call. 314 00:16:23,252 --> 00:16:25,948 See, a tumor in the temporal lobe can blur the line 315 00:16:26,022 --> 00:16:28,422 between imagination and reality. 316 00:16:28,491 --> 00:16:32,188 It's possible that Andre is part of that confusion. 317 00:16:35,031 --> 00:16:38,489 She likes being the successful sister with a husband and kids, 318 00:16:38,568 --> 00:16:40,365 while I'm the single, pathetic one 319 00:16:40,436 --> 00:16:43,496 who has to send herself flowers on Valentine's Day. 320 00:16:43,573 --> 00:16:46,269 I found someone. And she can't deal with it. 321 00:16:46,342 --> 00:16:49,243 - But there are no pictures of him. - You want a picture? 322 00:16:51,180 --> 00:16:53,671 There. There. 323 00:16:53,749 --> 00:16:56,343 And there. And there. 324 00:16:56,419 --> 00:16:59,411 [Meredith] Those are drawings made from images in your head. 325 00:16:59,488 --> 00:17:02,787 - I'm an artist, that's what I do. - The journals and writing? 326 00:17:02,858 --> 00:17:05,019 - Did you do that before? - Leave her alone. 327 00:17:05,094 --> 00:17:07,324 I didn't have anything to write about before. 328 00:17:07,396 --> 00:17:10,092 [Meredith] There's a symptom called hypergraphia. 329 00:17:10,166 --> 00:17:12,100 - It's compulsive... - Leave her alone. 330 00:17:12,168 --> 00:17:13,965 [Greta] I'm in love with a man. 331 00:17:14,036 --> 00:17:18,029 I've touched him and held him. He is not a figment of my imagination. 332 00:17:18,107 --> 00:17:20,166 [Woman] Tell them how you met. 333 00:17:20,243 --> 00:17:24,202 I was on a cruise around the Greek Islands and we'd stopped at Santorini. 334 00:17:24,280 --> 00:17:26,874 I was running to get to the ship and my shoe fell off. 335 00:17:26,949 --> 00:17:29,474 The horn was blowing, so I didn't stop. I left it. 336 00:17:29,552 --> 00:17:33,989 That night, at dinner, Andre found me. He had my shoe. 337 00:17:34,056 --> 00:17:36,820 - [Woman] Sound familiar? - [Greta] You're mocking me. 338 00:17:36,892 --> 00:17:39,156 No, I'm not. I'm trying to make you see. 339 00:17:39,228 --> 00:17:42,129 Dr. Shepherd, does anything about that sound familiar? 340 00:17:43,633 --> 00:17:45,601 Sounds like Cinderella. 341 00:17:45,668 --> 00:17:47,966 [Woman] What else happened on the boat? 342 00:17:48,704 --> 00:17:51,036 - Greta. - I had my first blackouts. 343 00:17:51,107 --> 00:17:52,938 Andre was there. He carried me to... 344 00:17:53,009 --> 00:17:55,773 A woman found you on the floor of the bathroom. 345 00:17:55,845 --> 00:17:58,837 - Prince Charming didn't carry you... - All of you, get out! 346 00:17:58,914 --> 00:18:00,779 This is stupid, stupid! 347 00:18:03,219 --> 00:18:05,210 Stupid conversation. 348 00:18:06,389 --> 00:18:08,983 Greta, the serum that we use to kill the tumor, 349 00:18:09,058 --> 00:18:12,323 - it only lasts a few hours. So... - Is it going to expire by 3:00? 350 00:18:12,395 --> 00:18:13,623 No, it is not. 351 00:18:13,696 --> 00:18:16,062 - Dr. Shepherd... - It is not. 352 00:18:17,667 --> 00:18:22,434 We can wait until 3:00. We can't wait all day, but we can wait until 3:00. 353 00:18:28,444 --> 00:18:30,571 Hey, you! How's the? 354 00:18:36,385 --> 00:18:39,946 Some of my best work. Any pulling around the suture lines? 355 00:18:40,022 --> 00:18:43,014 No. It's perfect. I'm just not sure if it goes with the body. 356 00:18:45,761 --> 00:18:47,388 See what I mean? 357 00:18:47,463 --> 00:18:51,763 Face is a head turner, but the boobs aren't stopping anybody on the street. 358 00:18:53,436 --> 00:18:54,994 You can close the gown. 359 00:18:56,305 --> 00:19:00,105 It doesn't match! Doesn't go with my face, doesn't go with my personality. 360 00:19:00,176 --> 00:19:03,270 - It's all wrong. - Didn't you tell me you were pregnant? 361 00:19:03,346 --> 00:19:07,180 I don't need a lecture. I just need you to finish what you started. 362 00:19:07,249 --> 00:19:09,513 Can you do that? 363 00:19:09,585 --> 00:19:13,021 [# Electrocute: Uh-Oh] 364 00:19:14,757 --> 00:19:17,317 - I need to talk to you. - [Wyatt] Make an appointment! 365 00:19:17,393 --> 00:19:20,590 I don't want an appointment, just my chart back. Get it now. 366 00:19:20,663 --> 00:19:24,724 [Wyatt] I'd like to go to the bathroom in peace. Everybody's dissatisfied here. 367 00:19:24,800 --> 00:19:27,633 Where do you get off suggesting I'm a coward, a quitter? 368 00:19:27,703 --> 00:19:30,263 Are you trying to make me feel bad so you can fix me? 369 00:19:30,339 --> 00:19:33,740 - [Wyatt] Talk about it in therapy. - No! I don't need therapy! 370 00:19:34,877 --> 00:19:37,345 - [Sighs] I forgive you. - Lexie. 371 00:19:37,413 --> 00:19:40,314 No. I forgive you. I forgive you for treating me like crap 372 00:19:40,383 --> 00:19:42,510 and letting your friend treat me like crap. 373 00:19:42,585 --> 00:19:44,450 - Lexie. - I don't know how you get up. 374 00:19:44,520 --> 00:19:47,546 I honestly don't. Our dad abandoned you. 375 00:19:47,623 --> 00:19:50,490 Your mom, by all accounts, was the meanest person ever. 376 00:19:50,559 --> 00:19:53,551 You can't let Derek love you and it all really sucks. 377 00:19:53,629 --> 00:19:57,531 But ever since I knew you existed, I had this fantasy about my big sister. 378 00:19:57,600 --> 00:20:01,536 And you have failed, on every occasion, to live up to that fantasy. 379 00:20:01,604 --> 00:20:05,734 But I still love you, whether you are capable of letting me or not. 380 00:20:05,808 --> 00:20:08,299 So... I forgive you. 381 00:20:08,377 --> 00:20:10,277 [Toilet flushes] 382 00:20:11,414 --> 00:20:13,279 - 2:00 work for you? - Yeah, OK. 383 00:20:14,950 --> 00:20:17,612 If this man dies under my knife, Richard, so help me, 384 00:20:17,686 --> 00:20:21,622 I will tell every reporter in the land that you insisted we do this. 385 00:20:21,690 --> 00:20:24,750 - You will look like an idiot. - Relax! I'll be fine. 386 00:20:24,827 --> 00:20:26,089 [Scoffs] 387 00:20:26,162 --> 00:20:28,392 - [Door opens] - She has impeccable judgment. 388 00:20:28,464 --> 00:20:30,329 [Door closes] 389 00:20:30,399 --> 00:20:33,300 And this may be the dumbest thing I've ever done. 390 00:20:36,639 --> 00:20:39,631 Ted Ginsburg would have done this. 391 00:20:39,708 --> 00:20:43,974 But I wanted a friend, in case I went into the OR and didn't come back. 392 00:20:44,680 --> 00:20:47,308 I wanted an old friend to say goodbye. 393 00:20:50,286 --> 00:20:52,584 - I'm honored. - Don't be. 394 00:20:54,790 --> 00:20:56,985 I should have had a wife 395 00:20:57,059 --> 00:20:58,617 and a bunch of kids... 396 00:20:59,962 --> 00:21:04,194 ...so I wouldn't have to track you down to get someone to be at my deathbed. 397 00:21:08,304 --> 00:21:12,331 Stevens. What are you treating Rebecca Pope for? 398 00:21:12,408 --> 00:21:14,968 A pregnancy she doesn't have but thinks she does. 399 00:21:15,044 --> 00:21:17,274 Doesn't one of you have science on your side? 400 00:21:17,346 --> 00:21:19,041 Yes. She is acting really weird. 401 00:21:19,114 --> 00:21:22,311 She wants breast enhancement surgery. She thinks her new face 402 00:21:22,384 --> 00:21:25,182 doesn't match her body. May be acute stress disorder. 403 00:21:25,254 --> 00:21:28,781 It happens when people have massive plastic surgeries and trauma. 404 00:21:28,858 --> 00:21:32,191 You look in the mirror, you're not sure you are the same person. 405 00:21:32,261 --> 00:21:33,728 It can lead to odd behavior. 406 00:21:33,796 --> 00:21:37,425 Thinking you're pregnant when you're not, forgetting you have a baby? 407 00:21:37,500 --> 00:21:40,936 Make it clear to her she's not pregnant and get her a psych consult. 408 00:21:41,003 --> 00:21:42,698 - And have psych call me. - OK. 409 00:21:43,906 --> 00:21:45,601 Here you are, chief. 410 00:21:45,674 --> 00:21:48,973 Read that to me. I can't see anything on that tiny screen. 411 00:21:49,044 --> 00:21:51,774 - Oh, no, that's a bad idea. - Speak up, O'Malley. 412 00:21:53,382 --> 00:21:56,351 "Dear Adele, eat with me. 413 00:21:56,418 --> 00:21:59,512 The love train is leaving the station. 414 00:21:59,588 --> 00:22:01,988 - You know you want to take a ride." - O'Malley! 415 00:22:02,057 --> 00:22:04,025 "Take a ride on my love train..." 416 00:22:04,760 --> 00:22:07,320 Sir, I didn't come up with the train or the station. 417 00:22:07,396 --> 00:22:09,762 - Give that to me. I'll do it myself. - Yes. 418 00:22:10,866 --> 00:22:13,096 Hey, so, let me get this straight. 419 00:22:13,168 --> 00:22:17,070 If I wander into an on-call room, you are not gonna follow me? [laughs] 420 00:22:17,139 --> 00:22:21,166 You ever think about why you need sex all the time? Is it replacing something? 421 00:22:21,243 --> 00:22:23,234 I use it to clear my head. So... 422 00:22:23,312 --> 00:22:25,246 [singsong]... on-call room. 423 00:22:25,314 --> 00:22:27,976 We can sit there and talk, but we're not having sex. 424 00:22:28,050 --> 00:22:30,416 Why? What are we gonna talk about? 425 00:22:30,486 --> 00:22:32,579 At lunch, you wanted to talk threesomes. 426 00:22:32,655 --> 00:22:34,748 You are so not a new man. 427 00:22:34,823 --> 00:22:37,087 I mean, I guess if you had to have a threesome, 428 00:22:37,159 --> 00:22:39,354 Erica Hahn wouldn't be a bad choice, right? 429 00:22:39,428 --> 00:22:40,895 She brings that whole, 430 00:22:40,963 --> 00:22:44,592 "We're naughty, getting sent to the principal's office" thing to it. 431 00:22:44,667 --> 00:22:49,695 You never thought about reaching across the OR table and pulling down her mask, 432 00:22:49,772 --> 00:22:52,832 ripping off her scrub cap, so that you can grab 433 00:22:52,908 --> 00:22:55,604 a handful of that blonde hair... 434 00:22:55,678 --> 00:22:59,341 Stop! Stop talking about Erica Hahn. 435 00:22:59,415 --> 00:23:01,713 [Exhales] Forget it. 436 00:23:04,687 --> 00:23:05,847 Everything all right? 437 00:23:05,921 --> 00:23:10,585 One of the founding fathers of cardiothoracic surgery is on the table 438 00:23:10,659 --> 00:23:13,594 and I'm about to slice open his chest. Give me a minute. 439 00:23:16,332 --> 00:23:18,527 [Exhales] OK, scalpel. 440 00:23:21,337 --> 00:23:23,100 [Richard] Don't screw it up. 441 00:23:24,106 --> 00:23:25,869 [Chuckles] I'm gonna kill you. 442 00:23:27,543 --> 00:23:30,011 We've got this patient. 443 00:23:30,079 --> 00:23:33,378 And she's got true love. Do you want to know why? 444 00:23:33,449 --> 00:23:35,747 Because her boyfriend doesn't exist. 445 00:23:35,818 --> 00:23:38,412 Derek is all broken up over her, 446 00:23:38,487 --> 00:23:42,617 like it means something that she's having an affair with a hallucination. 447 00:23:42,691 --> 00:23:45,819 Derek wasn't ready to give up on the relationship, you were. 448 00:23:45,894 --> 00:23:50,058 No, I didn't give up. I wanted to try again. And then he went and kissed Rose. 449 00:23:50,132 --> 00:23:52,623 So he's the one who messes up. Not me. 450 00:23:52,701 --> 00:23:55,864 But it's a relationship. People make mistakes. 451 00:23:55,938 --> 00:24:00,398 And you stand back, waiting for him to fail so you can say, "A-ha! Now I quit." 452 00:24:00,476 --> 00:24:02,000 No! It wasn't working. 453 00:24:02,077 --> 00:24:05,171 Was life not working when you let that slip out from under you? 454 00:24:05,247 --> 00:24:07,909 When are you gonna stop suggesting I'm suicidal? 455 00:24:07,983 --> 00:24:10,679 When you act like somebody that wants to be alive. 456 00:24:10,753 --> 00:24:12,243 - Give me my chart! - Why? 457 00:24:12,321 --> 00:24:14,949 I'm not suicidal. If it says that, it's wrong. 458 00:24:15,024 --> 00:24:17,117 What happened when you fell in the water? 459 00:24:17,192 --> 00:24:21,094 - Almost drowned. I did that for kicks? - You put your hand in a body cavity 460 00:24:21,163 --> 00:24:23,324 that contained unexploded ordinance. 461 00:24:23,399 --> 00:24:25,833 I was trying to save a patient! 462 00:24:25,901 --> 00:24:30,201 Why is it that every other person in that room had the sense to hit the deck? 463 00:24:30,272 --> 00:24:34,368 You know, people run away from this line between life and death. 464 00:24:34,443 --> 00:24:37,606 You seem to stand on it and wait for a strong wind 465 00:24:37,680 --> 00:24:39,545 to sway you one way or the other. 466 00:24:41,050 --> 00:24:42,950 You're careless with your life. 467 00:24:43,018 --> 00:24:45,851 You're not slitting your wrists, but you're careless. 468 00:24:45,921 --> 00:24:49,448 Probably because your mother told you you were a waste of space. 469 00:24:49,525 --> 00:24:52,426 The problem is you believed her. If you don't watch out, 470 00:24:52,494 --> 00:24:55,429 one of these days you're gonna die because of it. 471 00:24:58,033 --> 00:25:00,228 Hand me my chart. 472 00:25:01,804 --> 00:25:03,101 Now! 473 00:25:10,379 --> 00:25:13,314 And don't ever talk about my mother again. 474 00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:20,750 - [Erica] What the hell is? - [Beeping] 475 00:25:20,823 --> 00:25:23,223 There's a leak. Go back on bypass now! 476 00:25:23,292 --> 00:25:25,726 [Richard] Take clamps off the aortic and venous lines. 477 00:25:25,794 --> 00:25:28,763 - [Bailey] Grey, take the suction. - The left atrium is torn 478 00:25:28,831 --> 00:25:31,925 where that clot was adhered. Metzenbaum scissors! [exhales] 479 00:25:32,000 --> 00:25:35,197 This was a mistake. It was irresponsible and stupid, 480 00:25:35,270 --> 00:25:37,761 and I cannot believe I let you talk me into it! 481 00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:40,638 My reputation's gonna be in the toilet at the end. 482 00:25:40,709 --> 00:25:43,735 Dan Slocum at Mercy is gonna have a field day with this, 483 00:25:43,812 --> 00:25:46,110 - condescending tool that he is. - Erica. 484 00:25:46,181 --> 00:25:50,140 Don't "Erica" me, Richard. It's not your good name we're gonna destroy, 485 00:25:50,219 --> 00:25:54,155 - much as I wish that it was. - Dr. Hahn, it's done. 486 00:25:59,294 --> 00:26:01,524 No leak. The repair's holding. 487 00:26:02,598 --> 00:26:05,692 - You were saying? - [Chuckles] 488 00:26:06,335 --> 00:26:10,066 [# The National: About Today] 489 00:26:35,330 --> 00:26:36,957 [Greta] Is that clock right? 490 00:26:37,032 --> 00:26:38,761 I'm sure it is. 491 00:26:43,205 --> 00:26:45,833 Maybe his plane was delayed. 492 00:26:45,908 --> 00:26:49,537 His phone is off. Maybe his phone is off because he's still on the plane. 493 00:26:50,445 --> 00:26:51,969 He's coming! 494 00:26:55,217 --> 00:26:58,414 [Sobbing] 495 00:27:01,323 --> 00:27:02,551 Here. 496 00:27:05,294 --> 00:27:08,229 - My head did this? - No. 497 00:27:08,297 --> 00:27:10,265 Your tumor did this. 498 00:27:14,436 --> 00:27:16,461 He was never there? 499 00:27:22,477 --> 00:27:24,035 Oh, God. 500 00:27:25,480 --> 00:27:27,345 [Sobs] Oh, God! 501 00:27:35,557 --> 00:27:37,787 How can he not be real? 502 00:27:39,795 --> 00:27:41,422 I'm sorry. 503 00:27:42,297 --> 00:27:44,231 [Groans] 504 00:27:45,667 --> 00:27:48,761 [Crying loudly] 505 00:27:52,875 --> 00:27:54,399 [Greta] Oh, God! 506 00:27:59,281 --> 00:28:01,215 [Babbling] 507 00:28:01,283 --> 00:28:03,080 Hey, there, baby boy! 508 00:28:03,151 --> 00:28:05,483 You managed to make it through the day? 509 00:28:05,554 --> 00:28:10,218 Our son has been punching other children. 510 00:28:10,292 --> 00:28:12,658 - Yeah, I know. - What do you mean, you know? 511 00:28:12,728 --> 00:28:15,219 It's happened before. I'm dealing with it. 512 00:28:16,698 --> 00:28:20,794 Wait. I had to bribe the director of the daycare center to get him back in. 513 00:28:20,869 --> 00:28:24,930 I had to bring apple slices and give free mammograms to the teachers. 514 00:28:25,007 --> 00:28:28,101 Now, why aren't you telling me what's happening? 515 00:28:28,176 --> 00:28:31,509 I don't judge how you do surgery, don't judge how I deal with the baby. 516 00:28:31,580 --> 00:28:34,242 You didn't deal. He's punching other children! 517 00:28:34,316 --> 00:28:37,012 Of course he's punching! He used to be with me all day. 518 00:28:37,085 --> 00:28:40,816 Now, he's in day care so he spends ten minutes with you every three hours. 519 00:28:40,889 --> 00:28:43,153 - So that's making him violent? - [Knocking] 520 00:28:43,225 --> 00:28:47,525 Hey, Tuck! Hey! Can I take him to say hi for a minute? 521 00:28:47,596 --> 00:28:52,033 - Uh... Yeah, sure, sure. - Want to play with the office supplies? 522 00:28:55,203 --> 00:28:58,832 Look, if you can't communicate well enough to tell me... 523 00:28:58,907 --> 00:29:02,638 Don't lecture me, Miranda Bailey. I'm not one of your students. 524 00:29:02,711 --> 00:29:05,942 With all the time you spend here, it's hard to differentiate. 525 00:29:06,014 --> 00:29:10,417 No, I spend my time here because I'm building a life for us! 526 00:29:10,485 --> 00:29:12,953 I spend time here because I don't have the luxury 527 00:29:13,021 --> 00:29:16,286 of being able to take a year off and spend it with our child, 528 00:29:16,358 --> 00:29:19,486 knowing my career's waiting for me when I'm ready to go back! 529 00:29:19,561 --> 00:29:22,155 Luxury? So you think spending all day every day 530 00:29:22,230 --> 00:29:25,063 wiping noses and changing diapers is a luxury? 531 00:29:25,133 --> 00:29:27,795 No, I think it's a beautiful thing that you get to do. 532 00:29:27,869 --> 00:29:30,303 - You take it for granted! - Take it for granted? 533 00:29:30,372 --> 00:29:32,306 - Yes! - I take our family for granted? 534 00:29:32,374 --> 00:29:33,966 - I did not say... - You did say! 535 00:29:34,042 --> 00:29:36,442 - You did say! - I work because we... 536 00:29:36,511 --> 00:29:38,911 - You love your work! - And I love my family, too! 537 00:29:38,981 --> 00:29:41,347 It is going to be OK. 538 00:29:42,684 --> 00:29:45,915 Uncle George says it is going to be OK. 539 00:29:46,755 --> 00:29:47,881 [Beeps] 540 00:29:47,956 --> 00:29:50,925 [Rebecca] This happened when I was a kid. I'd get a strep test, 541 00:29:50,993 --> 00:29:53,257 - it'd come back negative. - Look. 542 00:29:53,328 --> 00:29:56,559 OK, that's your uterus. There is nothing in there. 543 00:29:56,631 --> 00:29:58,531 No fetus, no sac. Nothing. 544 00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:01,899 But it's too early. It's tiny, you can't see anything yet. 545 00:30:05,073 --> 00:30:07,871 - What the hell are you doing? - I paged you 20 minutes ago. 546 00:30:07,943 --> 00:30:09,001 [Sighs] 547 00:30:09,077 --> 00:30:11,637 Rebecca, look. OK? 548 00:30:11,713 --> 00:30:16,013 This is a fetus at six weeks. Right? It's a tiny spot, but it's there, 549 00:30:16,084 --> 00:30:17,449 you can see it. 550 00:30:17,519 --> 00:30:20,647 Look at your uterus, there's nothing there. Nothing. 551 00:30:21,656 --> 00:30:23,146 Get out. 552 00:30:25,360 --> 00:30:28,386 Here are her labs. There's a chart note from Dr. Sloan. 553 00:30:28,463 --> 00:30:31,694 - I can get a psych consult if you want. - Look, just get out! 554 00:30:35,470 --> 00:30:37,267 What? 555 00:30:38,573 --> 00:30:40,541 There's no baby. 556 00:30:41,610 --> 00:30:44,545 - I lost the baby? - No, you weren't pregnant. 557 00:30:45,480 --> 00:30:49,883 If you had been pregnant, your beta-HCG level would be elevated. It's zero. 558 00:30:49,951 --> 00:30:52,749 You didn't miscarry, there never was a baby. 559 00:30:56,258 --> 00:30:58,818 I can't believe I lost our baby. 560 00:30:58,894 --> 00:31:01,158 Rebecca. You're not hearing me. 561 00:31:01,229 --> 00:31:03,993 I'm so sorry. 562 00:31:04,066 --> 00:31:08,469 I'm so... I'm so sorry I lost our baby. 563 00:31:08,537 --> 00:31:09,970 [Whimpers] 564 00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:14,206 Shh. It's OK. 565 00:31:14,276 --> 00:31:15,868 You're gonna be OK, all right? 566 00:31:18,814 --> 00:31:22,113 Remember, we need to stay in synch. Ready? Go. 567 00:31:23,485 --> 00:31:25,112 Good. Easy, slow, slow down. 568 00:31:25,887 --> 00:31:29,152 - Right there, right there. Good. - [Beeping] 569 00:31:29,224 --> 00:31:31,818 Pressure's rising, she's getting bradycardic. 570 00:31:31,893 --> 00:31:35,886 So let's push one gram per kilo of Mannitol, 20 Lasix, see if we can 571 00:31:35,964 --> 00:31:37,795 avoid increased ICP. 572 00:31:46,041 --> 00:31:47,668 Is there a problem, Dr. Grey? 573 00:31:49,744 --> 00:31:51,473 Andre's here. 574 00:32:06,061 --> 00:32:10,395 You run everywhere, or is it just you're scared of me? 575 00:32:10,465 --> 00:32:14,196 - I'm trying to stay on top of things. - You're doing a fine job. 576 00:32:14,269 --> 00:32:15,861 It's very impressive work. 577 00:32:19,841 --> 00:32:22,469 Sir, if you would mention to the chief you like my work? 578 00:32:22,544 --> 00:32:24,637 I was held back as an intern. 579 00:32:24,713 --> 00:32:27,739 There was some personal... stuff. 580 00:32:27,816 --> 00:32:31,308 I'm good. And if you would say something to him... 581 00:32:31,386 --> 00:32:35,288 Webber would not have made that decision lightly. 582 00:32:35,357 --> 00:32:37,848 Learning is like healing. 583 00:32:37,926 --> 00:32:39,985 It happens over time. 584 00:32:43,865 --> 00:32:47,062 Listen. Keep running. 585 00:32:47,135 --> 00:32:49,797 But not because you want to cut corners, 586 00:32:49,871 --> 00:32:52,999 - because it makes you a better doctor. - [Door opens] 587 00:32:53,475 --> 00:32:57,343 - You're not supposed to be talking. - O'Leary and I were just marveling 588 00:32:57,412 --> 00:32:59,573 at the fact that you haven't killed me yet. 589 00:32:59,648 --> 00:33:01,809 Well, there's always tomorrow. 590 00:33:01,883 --> 00:33:05,216 Check his post-op echo, make sure there's no residual prolapse. 591 00:33:05,287 --> 00:33:06,845 Yes, sir. 592 00:33:09,124 --> 00:33:10,455 [Door opens] 593 00:33:11,660 --> 00:33:13,218 [Door closes] 594 00:33:13,295 --> 00:33:16,492 [# Bon Iver: The Wolves] 595 00:33:24,472 --> 00:33:25,769 [Sighs] 596 00:33:25,840 --> 00:33:28,604 - Are you OK? - Don't ask me if I'm OK. 597 00:33:28,677 --> 00:33:29,905 - OK. - [Grunts] 598 00:33:29,978 --> 00:33:33,072 You make me sick. Have some fire. 599 00:33:33,148 --> 00:33:35,639 Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. 600 00:33:35,717 --> 00:33:39,847 Be better than anyone here and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. 601 00:33:39,921 --> 00:33:43,254 There are no teams here. No buddies. 602 00:33:43,325 --> 00:33:45,816 You're on your own. Be on your own. 603 00:33:51,600 --> 00:33:56,503 Dr. Yang, I just scrubbed in on Walter Tapley's double valve replacement. 604 00:33:56,571 --> 00:34:01,975 I watched Dr. Hahn excise a piece of his pericardium from three inches away. 605 00:34:02,043 --> 00:34:05,444 That's what I got to do while you made notes in charts. 606 00:34:05,513 --> 00:34:08,744 So whatever crap you want to rain down on my head, go for it. 607 00:34:08,817 --> 00:34:12,014 Because I just saw the inside of Walter Tapley's heart, 608 00:34:12,087 --> 00:34:14,954 and that is something you will never take away from me. 609 00:34:18,260 --> 00:34:20,660 Yeah. OK. 610 00:34:20,729 --> 00:34:22,321 OK then. 611 00:34:28,737 --> 00:34:31,934 Hey, Tuck! Here's Tapley's file. The new labs are in there. 612 00:34:32,007 --> 00:34:34,840 - Just put it on the pile. - Tucker didn't take him? 613 00:34:34,909 --> 00:34:37,377 I wanted the evening with him. 614 00:34:37,445 --> 00:34:39,310 You guys get to the bottom of anything? 615 00:34:39,381 --> 00:34:40,814 [Tuck babbles] 616 00:34:42,517 --> 00:34:46,783 Why don't I take Tuck for a couple hours? You can go talk to him. Go fight. 617 00:34:46,855 --> 00:34:50,723 You're not gonna fix anything in one day, but you can go on and keep trying. 618 00:34:57,766 --> 00:34:58,790 What are you doing? 619 00:34:58,867 --> 00:35:02,530 I need clothes. She's staying with me. She didn't bring enough stuff. 620 00:35:02,604 --> 00:35:04,936 - Did you call her husband? - She doesn't want to. 621 00:35:05,006 --> 00:35:06,735 Did you get a psych consult? 622 00:35:06,808 --> 00:35:11,677 Alex, she had a hysterical pregnancy. Sloan thinks she may have a stress... 623 00:35:11,746 --> 00:35:13,543 She's fine, OK? I can handle it. 624 00:35:13,615 --> 00:35:17,415 I'm gonna take care of her. Just give me some damn girl clothes. 625 00:35:26,695 --> 00:35:28,754 [Whispers] Put your arms up a little bit. 626 00:35:35,603 --> 00:35:36,968 There you go. 627 00:35:40,909 --> 00:35:44,538 Tomorrow's board and Dr. Tapley's echo. Hahn is seeing him now. 628 00:35:44,612 --> 00:35:46,978 What are you doing with Bailey's child? 629 00:35:48,283 --> 00:35:49,716 Dr. Bailey and I are in love. 630 00:35:49,784 --> 00:35:53,345 I'll be heading to Vegas with her as soon as my divorce is final. 631 00:35:54,923 --> 00:35:56,413 We need to write Adele again. 632 00:35:56,491 --> 00:35:59,289 She replied to my e-mail, but all she sent was a typo. 633 00:35:59,361 --> 00:36:01,329 She's no better at this than I am. 634 00:36:01,896 --> 00:36:05,889 - That's not a typo, that's a wink. - A semi-colon and a closed parentheses? 635 00:36:05,967 --> 00:36:07,696 Turn it sideways. 636 00:36:08,803 --> 00:36:11,363 - What the hell does this mean? - She's flirting. 637 00:36:11,439 --> 00:36:12,997 Oh! 638 00:36:13,074 --> 00:36:14,769 - Oh, that's good! - Yeah. 639 00:36:15,543 --> 00:36:17,170 O'Malley. 640 00:36:18,646 --> 00:36:20,807 Good work today. 641 00:36:24,619 --> 00:36:29,056 You know what that was? That was the "attaboy." 642 00:36:29,124 --> 00:36:32,924 This may have been the most exhausting day of my life, my back is killing me, 643 00:36:32,994 --> 00:36:37,522 no offense, and I haven't seen the inside of an OR in... 644 00:36:37,599 --> 00:36:40,864 ...I don't know how long, but I got the attaboy. 645 00:36:40,935 --> 00:36:42,732 I'm turning it around. 646 00:36:42,804 --> 00:36:45,796 And you're gonna get the punching under control, right? 647 00:36:45,874 --> 00:36:48,570 You and me. 648 00:36:48,643 --> 00:36:52,079 Boy, it takes us a while, but we get there. 649 00:36:54,682 --> 00:36:56,479 We reached the tumor. 650 00:36:58,753 --> 00:37:01,984 But there was swelling in Greta's brain. 651 00:37:02,056 --> 00:37:04,616 We did an MRI, 652 00:37:04,692 --> 00:37:09,595 and it suggested that the swelling in her brain caused a great deal of damage. 653 00:37:10,799 --> 00:37:13,029 It doesn't look like she's gonna wake up. 654 00:37:15,970 --> 00:37:19,633 Mr. Barret, we're so sorry. 655 00:37:21,142 --> 00:37:23,269 We should have waited. 656 00:37:23,845 --> 00:37:25,642 We didn't think... 657 00:37:27,582 --> 00:37:30,449 I didn't think you were coming. 658 00:37:31,953 --> 00:37:35,411 The whole story just sounded so incredible. 659 00:37:37,125 --> 00:37:38,922 She told you about the shoe, right? 660 00:37:41,396 --> 00:37:43,455 It makes us both sound crazy. 661 00:37:45,800 --> 00:37:48,826 I could never get that image out of my head... 662 00:37:51,039 --> 00:37:53,667 ...her running up the gangplank with one shoe. 663 00:37:53,741 --> 00:37:55,368 Wind in her hair. 664 00:37:56,578 --> 00:37:58,569 Most beautiful thing I've ever seen. 665 00:38:00,582 --> 00:38:02,379 She might wake up, right? 666 00:38:03,218 --> 00:38:06,551 I mean, it's been a fairy tale from the start. They always wake up. 667 00:38:06,621 --> 00:38:09,613 [# Joshua Radin: Sky] 668 00:38:14,596 --> 00:38:17,656 [Meredith] Don't wonder why people go crazy. 669 00:38:19,234 --> 00:38:23,000 - Wonder why they don't. - [Sobbing] 670 00:38:34,082 --> 00:38:36,983 In the face of all we can lose in a day... 671 00:38:39,254 --> 00:38:41,415 ... in an instant... 672 00:38:46,427 --> 00:38:48,486 ... wonder what the hell it is... 673 00:38:50,665 --> 00:38:52,826 ... that makes us hold it together. 674 00:38:55,403 --> 00:38:56,768 [Groans] 675 00:38:57,238 --> 00:38:58,535 [Elevator dings] 676 00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:07,905 Ladies. 677 00:39:08,850 --> 00:39:11,284 He's thinking about a threesome. 678 00:39:11,352 --> 00:39:12,876 - I am not. - You are. 679 00:39:12,954 --> 00:39:16,685 He has been... all day. 680 00:39:17,559 --> 00:39:21,051 OK, fine. I got a new leaf, not a lobotomy. 681 00:39:21,129 --> 00:39:23,290 You couldn't handle the two of us. 682 00:39:23,364 --> 00:39:26,333 Oh, but I could. I won't, but I could. 683 00:39:26,401 --> 00:39:28,892 You wouldn't find it intimidating? 684 00:39:28,970 --> 00:39:30,562 Not at all. 685 00:39:30,638 --> 00:39:32,265 [Scoffs] 686 00:39:38,680 --> 00:39:40,170 [Elevator dings] 687 00:39:43,217 --> 00:39:45,515 See? Too much for you. 688 00:39:50,191 --> 00:39:53,524 Damn it! On-call room, right now. 689 00:40:10,745 --> 00:40:12,303 Rose. 690 00:40:15,383 --> 00:40:18,511 - You want go have dinner? - No, I'm sorry. I can't. 691 00:40:18,586 --> 00:40:20,816 - Oh, come on. - Derek. 692 00:40:20,888 --> 00:40:23,118 We spent a night together and you vanished. 693 00:40:23,191 --> 00:40:26,854 I wish I was secure enough to handle that without a bruised ego and sugar, 694 00:40:26,928 --> 00:40:28,793 - but I'm not. - Wait, wait, wait. 695 00:40:28,863 --> 00:40:30,956 - Can't we just make this easier? - [Scoffs] 696 00:40:31,799 --> 00:40:33,266 I don't... 697 00:40:33,334 --> 00:40:36,770 Look, I don't want... See, I've done complicated. 698 00:40:36,838 --> 00:40:39,136 I don't want to do that again. 699 00:40:39,207 --> 00:40:40,868 Can't this just be easy? 700 00:40:43,111 --> 00:40:44,339 Fun? 701 00:40:46,247 --> 00:40:49,876 We don't need that fairy tale thing right now. 702 00:40:49,951 --> 00:40:51,680 We just need a little happy. 703 00:40:52,954 --> 00:40:54,182 Hm? 704 00:41:05,466 --> 00:41:06,956 [Door opens] 705 00:41:08,536 --> 00:41:09,901 [Door closes] 706 00:41:14,575 --> 00:41:15,837 [Sighs] 707 00:41:21,215 --> 00:41:22,807 [Breathes deeply] 708 00:41:22,884 --> 00:41:24,112 [Exhales] 709 00:41:27,088 --> 00:41:28,453 [Sniffs] 710 00:41:33,327 --> 00:41:35,295 [Exhales] 711 00:41:36,964 --> 00:41:39,956 My mother tried to kill herself when I was a kid. 712 00:41:41,536 --> 00:41:44,164 After the love of her life disappeared. 713 00:41:47,141 --> 00:41:49,302 I never told anybody that before. 714 00:41:50,311 --> 00:41:52,871 - [Sniffs] - OK. 715 00:41:55,049 --> 00:41:56,914 So you think I'm broken? 716 00:41:58,419 --> 00:42:00,683 Fix me. 717 00:42:00,755 --> 00:42:02,347 Because I'm no quitter. 718 00:42:04,926 --> 00:42:06,450 Let's go. 719 00:42:06,527 --> 00:42:08,995 [Sirens wailing]