1 00:00:02,869 --> 00:00:06,134 MEREDITH: Nobody's memory is perfect or complete. 2 00:00:08,441 --> 00:00:09,874 We jumble things up. 3 00:00:09,943 --> 00:00:11,911 - YOUNG ELLIS: Richard. - YOUNG RICHARD: I'm sorry. I can't. 4 00:00:12,012 --> 00:00:13,104 MEREDITH: We lose track of time. 5 00:00:13,179 --> 00:00:14,476 YOUNG ELLIS: Richard! (SOBBING) 6 00:00:14,681 --> 00:00:15,807 MEREDITH: We are in one place... 7 00:00:15,882 --> 00:00:16,906 You believe that your career 8 00:00:16,983 --> 00:00:18,177 - is more important than mine. - It is! 9 00:00:18,251 --> 00:00:19,240 ...then another. 10 00:00:19,319 --> 00:00:20,877 - I gave it up for you. - I don't want it. 11 00:00:20,954 --> 00:00:23,787 And it all feels like one long, inescapable moment. 12 00:00:23,857 --> 00:00:26,553 ELLIS: I raised you to be an extraordinary human being. 13 00:00:26,626 --> 00:00:29,151 So imagine my disappointment when I wake up after five years 14 00:00:29,229 --> 00:00:31,629 and discover that you're no more than ordinary. 15 00:00:31,698 --> 00:00:33,791 MEREDITH: It's just like my mother used to say. 16 00:00:33,867 --> 00:00:36,461 "The carousel never stops turning." 17 00:00:36,536 --> 00:00:38,401 - You asked for a consult. This is my... - That's not the point. 18 00:00:38,471 --> 00:00:39,665 - I have to control the infection. - Surgery first. 19 00:00:39,739 --> 00:00:40,763 She has an abscess... 20 00:00:40,840 --> 00:00:41,966 MAGGIE: If I don't operate, she will die... 21 00:00:42,042 --> 00:00:43,407 Let's have one conversation. 22 00:00:43,543 --> 00:00:45,602 - Meredith, what do you need? - Pierce paged me. 23 00:00:45,678 --> 00:00:47,509 Yeah, I need a general consult on her chest. 24 00:00:47,580 --> 00:00:49,104 - What about Webber? - I paged Dr. Grey. 25 00:00:49,182 --> 00:00:50,774 Pierce, make your case. 26 00:00:50,850 --> 00:00:52,249 I respect Dr. Shepherd's opinion, 27 00:00:52,318 --> 00:00:54,411 but I need to go in first to debride the infection 28 00:00:54,487 --> 00:00:57,923 before it shuts down her heart, her lungs, all of her organs. 29 00:00:57,991 --> 00:01:00,391 And she is my patient. I paged you for a consult. 30 00:01:00,460 --> 00:01:02,860 I'm sorry, but if the ventricle ruptures, it could be catastrophic. 31 00:01:02,929 --> 00:01:04,157 I can't sit back and let that happen. 32 00:01:04,230 --> 00:01:05,925 If you go in first, she will die on your table. 33 00:01:05,999 --> 00:01:07,899 If you do, she could come out a brain-dead patient. 34 00:01:07,967 --> 00:01:10,765 Owen, will you look at the scans? The abscess is up against the ventricle. 35 00:01:10,837 --> 00:01:13,362 It could cause significant brain edema and severe meningitis. 36 00:01:13,440 --> 00:01:16,170 So, basically, you're both racing the clock on this girl. 37 00:01:16,242 --> 00:01:18,608 - If the time hasn't run out already. - We'll know if her heart stops. 38 00:01:18,678 --> 00:01:20,202 - Grey, what do you think? - I agree with Pierce. 39 00:01:20,280 --> 00:01:22,510 I think we get to the neck and the mediastinum first. 40 00:01:22,582 --> 00:01:25,483 - Look at the head CT. - I did. I still think Pierce is right. 41 00:01:25,552 --> 00:01:27,816 - No, no, no, let me show you. - I know how to read a brain scan, Derek. 42 00:01:27,887 --> 00:01:28,979 I learned from the best, remember? 43 00:01:29,055 --> 00:01:30,818 All right, enough. I know what we're gonna do. 44 00:01:30,890 --> 00:01:32,084 Let's go and talk to the patient. 45 00:01:34,260 --> 00:01:35,727 I'd had a root canal. 46 00:01:35,795 --> 00:01:38,286 Last week, and it's hurt for like a week. 47 00:01:38,364 --> 00:01:39,763 But I figured, it's a root canal. 48 00:01:39,833 --> 00:01:42,028 - It's supposed to hurt, right? - Yeah, well, you should have told me. 49 00:01:42,102 --> 00:01:43,865 Anyway, she passed out at work yesterday, 50 00:01:43,937 --> 00:01:45,336 and she's run a fever ever since. 51 00:01:45,405 --> 00:01:47,600 Holly, you got an infection from the dental procedure 52 00:01:47,674 --> 00:01:50,541 called descending necrotizing mediastinitis. 53 00:01:50,610 --> 00:01:53,738 It spread quickly into your neck and down into your mediastinum, 54 00:01:53,813 --> 00:01:56,077 which is the space between your lungs that houses your heart. 55 00:01:56,149 --> 00:01:58,447 And the fever is caused from the sepsis from the infection. 56 00:01:58,518 --> 00:02:00,782 Holly, in addition to the sepsis, I found a lesion in your brain, 57 00:02:00,854 --> 00:02:02,344 and I think we should start there first. 58 00:02:02,422 --> 00:02:04,413 Are you telling me that my daughter needs brain surgery? 59 00:02:04,491 --> 00:02:05,480 Yes, immediately. 60 00:02:05,558 --> 00:02:06,957 She needs chest debridement as soon as possible. 61 00:02:07,026 --> 00:02:08,891 - What are you saying? - Here is what we're going to do. 62 00:02:08,962 --> 00:02:11,123 You've not responded to the IV antibiotics, 63 00:02:11,197 --> 00:02:14,257 so I would like to run a chest CT with contrast 64 00:02:14,334 --> 00:02:17,201 to determine which infection is most urgent. 65 00:02:17,270 --> 00:02:19,101 We will have a decision very soon, okay? 66 00:02:19,400 --> 00:02:26,500 Ripped By mstoll 67 00:02:26,779 --> 00:02:28,838 - Edwards? - Hi. 68 00:02:28,915 --> 00:02:30,314 What are you doing here? 69 00:02:30,383 --> 00:02:32,578 I am interested in fetal surgery, 70 00:02:32,652 --> 00:02:35,416 and Dr. Webber said that I could do some OB ultrasounds so... 71 00:02:35,488 --> 00:02:37,217 So, you're doing my ultrasound? 72 00:02:37,290 --> 00:02:39,724 - Unless you don't want me to. - No, no, no, it's fine. 73 00:02:39,792 --> 00:02:40,918 You got to learn. 74 00:02:42,195 --> 00:02:44,663 - On me. - I mean, it's fine with me either way. 75 00:02:44,731 --> 00:02:45,720 No, it's all good. 76 00:02:45,798 --> 00:02:47,356 We just don't wanna know the sex, so I'm not gonna look. 77 00:02:47,433 --> 00:02:48,900 I will do all of the looking. 78 00:02:50,503 --> 00:02:53,734 All right, so, there are the feet and the toes. 79 00:02:53,806 --> 00:02:56,673 He's breech, sitting cross-legged like a little Buddha. 80 00:02:56,743 --> 00:02:58,210 Yeah, he does that. 81 00:02:59,379 --> 00:03:00,368 - Oh, my God. - What? 82 00:03:00,446 --> 00:03:01,811 - You said, "He." - No, I didn't. 83 00:03:01,881 --> 00:03:03,815 - Yeah, you did. You said, "He." - No. 84 00:03:03,883 --> 00:03:05,942 - You said, "He." - Oh. (GASPS) Oh, God! 85 00:03:06,019 --> 00:03:08,146 I just said I didn't want to know the sex! 86 00:03:08,221 --> 00:03:09,688 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It was a rookie mistake. 87 00:03:09,756 --> 00:03:12,384 How's it looking in... Hey. 88 00:03:13,193 --> 00:03:14,717 - Stephanie. - STEPHANIE: Hi. 89 00:03:14,794 --> 00:03:16,193 - Why... - I'm practicing. 90 00:03:16,429 --> 00:03:18,021 - Okay. - Yeah. Mmm-hmm. 91 00:03:18,097 --> 00:03:19,826 Yeah. Um... 92 00:03:19,899 --> 00:03:21,833 All right, just don't let her know the sex. 93 00:03:21,901 --> 00:03:23,493 Oh, no. 94 00:03:23,570 --> 00:03:26,403 No, she says the baby's sitting like a little Buddha, just like last time. 95 00:03:27,373 --> 00:03:30,467 - Last time? - Hey, there, little thing, you. 96 00:03:30,944 --> 00:03:32,809 All right, well, I got surgeries most of the day, 97 00:03:32,879 --> 00:03:34,710 - so I'm gonna miss our lunch. Sorry. - (APRIL WHINES) 98 00:03:34,781 --> 00:03:36,646 JACKSON: Torres might get one of our guys back up on his feet today, 99 00:03:36,716 --> 00:03:38,377 and I'm gonna miss that, too. 100 00:03:38,451 --> 00:03:40,351 APRIL: Oh, but, yay, you guys. Good luck. 101 00:03:40,687 --> 00:03:41,847 All right. 102 00:03:42,188 --> 00:03:43,246 (KEYBOARD CLACKING) 103 00:03:45,825 --> 00:03:46,814 (DOOR CLOSES) 104 00:03:47,193 --> 00:03:49,024 And I just lied to my husband. 105 00:03:49,095 --> 00:03:52,064 That's a great way to start parenthood. Lying. 106 00:03:52,131 --> 00:03:53,393 Awesome. Thanks, Edwards. 107 00:03:53,466 --> 00:03:56,196 - I'm really sorry, but we're not done. - Oh, we're done. 108 00:03:59,973 --> 00:04:00,962 (COMPUTER BEEPING) 109 00:04:03,810 --> 00:04:05,971 CALLIE: Whoa, Rick, you're pulling way ahead. 110 00:04:06,045 --> 00:04:07,410 All right, you got to do better than that, Jordan, 111 00:04:07,480 --> 00:04:09,107 if you want to beat Rick's numbers. 112 00:04:09,182 --> 00:04:10,206 Oh. Have we started? 113 00:04:10,283 --> 00:04:11,443 See, I thought this was still the warm-up. 114 00:04:11,517 --> 00:04:12,984 - Oh! Gloves are off. - (JORDAN CHUCKLES) 115 00:04:13,052 --> 00:04:14,383 You don't want a tie, right, guys? 116 00:04:14,454 --> 00:04:16,649 Don't get his hopes up, Dr. T., he can't touch my scores. 117 00:04:16,723 --> 00:04:18,486 Oh, bite me. I'm getting up on that leg first. 118 00:04:18,558 --> 00:04:19,855 Ooh, you gonna take that? 119 00:04:19,926 --> 00:04:21,393 What was it you said my scores were earlier? 120 00:04:21,694 --> 00:04:22,922 - "Phenomenal." - (CALLIE CHUCKLES) 121 00:04:23,029 --> 00:04:24,018 Guys, you're doing fine. 122 00:04:24,097 --> 00:04:26,156 You're both gonna get the leg eventually. 123 00:04:26,232 --> 00:04:27,893 - This is not a contest. - Where's the fun in that, sir? 124 00:04:27,967 --> 00:04:29,025 - Yeah. - (BEEPING CONTINUES) 125 00:04:31,170 --> 00:04:32,694 You're pitting these guys against each other? 126 00:04:32,772 --> 00:04:34,637 I just spent the morning refereeing the surgeons. 127 00:04:34,707 --> 00:04:36,868 I don't need this. This is not a good idea. 128 00:04:36,943 --> 00:04:37,932 They came up with this. 129 00:04:38,011 --> 00:04:40,002 The one to master the virtual-reality leg first 130 00:04:40,079 --> 00:04:41,410 gets to try the real leg first. 131 00:04:41,481 --> 00:04:42,971 It's just a little friendly competition. 132 00:04:43,049 --> 00:04:44,949 I'm just saying don't push them. 133 00:04:45,051 --> 00:04:47,451 Hey, we are this close, Owen. 134 00:04:47,520 --> 00:04:50,182 We're gonna have someone walking today. 135 00:04:50,323 --> 00:04:53,486 - Whoo! Yes! Smoked you, Schultz! - Congrats, man. 136 00:04:54,527 --> 00:04:56,256 See, that's the thing about soldiers, Hunt. 137 00:04:56,329 --> 00:04:58,456 I don't have to push them. They come wired that way. 138 00:04:58,531 --> 00:05:00,897 All right, Carter, you ready to take a walk? 139 00:05:01,601 --> 00:05:03,159 DR. HERMAN: It's a pretty straightforward procedure. 140 00:05:03,236 --> 00:05:06,433 I'll do the initial approach. Robbins, you can do the cutting. 141 00:05:06,506 --> 00:05:07,871 God, this is good. 142 00:05:07,940 --> 00:05:10,534 Did you ever try this? Banana Clambake? 143 00:05:10,610 --> 00:05:12,407 I haven't, and certainly not before 8:00 a.m. 144 00:05:12,478 --> 00:05:15,038 - Does it have actual clams? - You're very perky today. 145 00:05:15,114 --> 00:05:17,139 Why not? Life is short. 146 00:05:17,216 --> 00:05:19,514 And at this point, I can eat whatever the hell I want for breakfast. 147 00:05:19,585 --> 00:05:21,177 - Right, Robbins? - Right. You've earned it. 148 00:05:21,254 --> 00:05:23,654 I just wish I could do that and stay as trim as you do. 149 00:05:23,723 --> 00:05:24,917 Shut up, Graham. 150 00:05:28,661 --> 00:05:30,424 GRAHAM: I'll finish prep. See you in there. 151 00:05:30,496 --> 00:05:32,054 God, that was worth it. 152 00:05:32,131 --> 00:05:34,531 I'm trying to get through every flavor they have 153 00:05:34,600 --> 00:05:35,931 before I cash in. 154 00:05:36,002 --> 00:05:38,596 - ARIZONA: Please don't say that. - Why? Why be so serious? 155 00:05:38,705 --> 00:05:40,297 ARIZONA: Because we're about to operate on a pregnant woman, 156 00:05:40,373 --> 00:05:41,840 and I have no idea if you're in any condition... 157 00:05:41,908 --> 00:05:43,375 - I told you... - You told me nothing! 158 00:05:44,110 --> 00:05:45,941 You told me you have a brain tumor, 159 00:05:46,012 --> 00:05:47,377 but I don't know anything else about you. 160 00:05:47,447 --> 00:05:48,812 (STUTTERS) I don't know if you're married. 161 00:05:48,881 --> 00:05:51,509 That's not the deal. You get access to my knowledge. 162 00:05:51,584 --> 00:05:54,644 - It doesn't give you access to my life. - I'm talking about next of kin. 163 00:05:54,721 --> 00:05:56,621 Like if something should happen to you, who do I call? 164 00:05:56,689 --> 00:05:58,623 God, you are so annoying! 165 00:06:00,960 --> 00:06:03,190 Divorced, no kids. 166 00:06:03,262 --> 00:06:05,492 Marry the work, Robbins. It's always there for you. 167 00:06:05,565 --> 00:06:08,056 So, um, no family? 168 00:06:08,768 --> 00:06:12,829 I have work and you and Graham. 169 00:06:13,906 --> 00:06:15,999 God, that's the saddest thing I've ever said. 170 00:06:17,176 --> 00:06:18,734 - What kind of tumor is it? - Enough. 171 00:06:18,811 --> 00:06:22,008 I need to know if this could affect your motor skills or your cognition. 172 00:06:22,081 --> 00:06:23,343 You don't need to know anything that I haven't... 173 00:06:23,416 --> 00:06:25,646 I need to know if I'm helping you treat patients 174 00:06:25,718 --> 00:06:27,049 with a time bomb in your head! 175 00:06:27,120 --> 00:06:29,680 Robbins, I have a team of neurosurgeons 176 00:06:29,756 --> 00:06:31,690 who are far more experienced than you are, 177 00:06:31,758 --> 00:06:33,487 so your input at this point 178 00:06:33,559 --> 00:06:36,960 is nothing more than an invasion of my privacy. 179 00:06:37,029 --> 00:06:39,395 Stop. Drop it. 180 00:06:41,501 --> 00:06:42,866 ARIZONA: So it's inoperable. 181 00:06:45,037 --> 00:06:47,505 - Who says? - That's it. You're done. You can't focus. 182 00:06:47,573 --> 00:06:49,234 You're off the surgery. Graham can do it. 183 00:06:49,308 --> 00:06:51,208 - Go do consults. - Fine. 184 00:06:53,646 --> 00:06:56,342 - Dr. Shepherd, do you have a minute? - I'm afraid I don't. 185 00:06:56,416 --> 00:06:58,407 I'm Deborah Curzon. I was asked to come talk to you. 186 00:06:58,484 --> 00:07:00,782 Deborah, I'm really sorry, but I don't have time. 187 00:07:00,853 --> 00:07:05,085 Dr. Shepherd, I was asked by the President. 188 00:07:06,192 --> 00:07:08,353 We didn't get a chance to meet when you were in Washington. 189 00:07:08,428 --> 00:07:10,760 I'm the special assistant to the President of the United States. 190 00:07:11,264 --> 00:07:12,390 He asked you to talk to me? 191 00:07:12,465 --> 00:07:14,092 About leadership of the brain mapping initiative. 192 00:07:14,167 --> 00:07:16,328 - We had that conversation. - Oh, I remember. 193 00:07:16,402 --> 00:07:17,562 You told him no. 194 00:07:17,637 --> 00:07:20,470 Confidentially, he doesn't love being told no. 195 00:07:20,540 --> 00:07:23,065 He thought another conversation was the least you could do for him. 196 00:07:23,176 --> 00:07:24,973 Those were the words of the President. 197 00:07:25,044 --> 00:07:27,239 We couldn't have had this conversation through an e-mail? 198 00:07:27,313 --> 00:07:30,510 I know you're busy. I can wait for you. I'll be here. 199 00:07:33,219 --> 00:07:35,449 You already started on her chest. 200 00:07:35,521 --> 00:07:36,954 The sooner I see a head CT... 201 00:07:37,023 --> 00:07:38,991 - We got here first. - I will wait. 202 00:07:39,358 --> 00:07:40,484 (KEYBOARD CLACKING) 203 00:07:41,928 --> 00:07:43,862 - Okay, easy. Easy. - (JORDAN GRUNTS) 204 00:07:47,099 --> 00:07:48,361 (GRUNTING) 205 00:07:48,634 --> 00:07:50,363 - RICK: Whoa. - It's way harder than the simulator. 206 00:07:50,436 --> 00:07:51,835 Yeah. That's all right. That's all right. 207 00:07:51,904 --> 00:07:53,769 - You'll get it back. Just concentrate. - (BREATHING HEAVILY) 208 00:07:54,507 --> 00:07:55,531 (GRUNTS) 209 00:07:55,608 --> 00:07:57,132 Yeah. How does it feel? 210 00:07:57,343 --> 00:07:58,867 - It's amazing. - Yeah? (CHUCKLES) 211 00:07:58,945 --> 00:07:59,969 Friggin' hard. 212 00:08:00,046 --> 00:08:02,708 If I had a dollar for every time you said that about something, 213 00:08:02,782 --> 00:08:04,340 I'd buy a whole robot leg factory. 214 00:08:04,417 --> 00:08:06,544 Suck it, Schultz. He's jealous. 215 00:08:06,619 --> 00:08:07,779 You'll see, man. 216 00:08:08,754 --> 00:08:10,016 You just wait. 217 00:08:12,291 --> 00:08:14,987 I got it. I got it. 218 00:08:15,094 --> 00:08:17,460 - Let me go. - You got it. 219 00:08:20,500 --> 00:08:22,092 - Don't fall, now. - Schultz. 220 00:08:22,301 --> 00:08:23,393 (JORDAN GRUNTING) 221 00:08:23,703 --> 00:08:24,863 Sweet! 222 00:08:28,674 --> 00:08:30,642 - Can I do the stairs? - That's enough for one day. 223 00:08:30,710 --> 00:08:32,541 They don't think you can. 224 00:08:34,680 --> 00:08:37,205 - I got this. - No. No. Seriously, don't. 225 00:08:37,316 --> 00:08:38,408 - (GRUNTS) - (GASPS) No! 226 00:08:38,484 --> 00:08:39,473 (HEAD THUDS) 227 00:08:39,585 --> 00:08:40,779 Jordan! 228 00:08:43,589 --> 00:08:45,352 We're gonna need neuro now! 229 00:08:58,604 --> 00:09:01,038 Could be just a concussion, but it's acting like a bleed. 230 00:09:01,107 --> 00:09:02,540 I've already called CT. 231 00:09:02,608 --> 00:09:03,905 He's gonna be okay, right? 232 00:09:03,976 --> 00:09:06,342 Sir, he's my best friend. He's got to make it. 233 00:09:06,412 --> 00:09:08,676 - We're gonna take care of him. - I'll meet you in the OR? 234 00:09:08,748 --> 00:09:11,148 No. Stay with Rick. You've done enough. 235 00:09:14,453 --> 00:09:15,920 RICK: Is it my fault? 236 00:09:17,223 --> 00:09:18,588 Did I push him too hard? 237 00:09:21,494 --> 00:09:23,553 MAGGIE: Can I get a 3D vascular reconstruction, too? 238 00:09:23,629 --> 00:09:25,654 - Do you need that? - We need the images that we need. 239 00:09:25,731 --> 00:09:26,891 In your opinion. 240 00:09:26,966 --> 00:09:28,593 I'll be right back. 241 00:09:29,602 --> 00:09:31,433 MEREDITH: Derek, why are you pushing back on this? 242 00:09:31,504 --> 00:09:34,769 - Pierce and I both agree... - I'm sorry, but I think you're wrong, 243 00:09:34,840 --> 00:09:36,205 and she called me for an opinion. 244 00:09:36,275 --> 00:09:39,267 - She called me for an opinion, as well. - Of course she did. 245 00:09:39,345 --> 00:09:40,972 She probably thought you could talk me down. 246 00:09:42,315 --> 00:09:44,875 I need a 3D pericardial reconstruction, please. 247 00:09:52,124 --> 00:09:53,250 STEPHANIE: Hey. 248 00:09:53,993 --> 00:09:55,620 - Look at this. - No. Look at that. 249 00:09:55,695 --> 00:09:57,185 He doesn't even eat with me anymore. 250 00:09:57,263 --> 00:09:59,231 Grey is in my bed and my bathroom. 251 00:09:59,298 --> 00:10:01,562 I used to eat with my boyfriend at that table. 252 00:10:01,934 --> 00:10:02,923 Am I being weird? 253 00:10:03,002 --> 00:10:05,402 So, I did an ultrasound on April Kepner today. 254 00:10:05,538 --> 00:10:07,165 Okay, that's weirder, way weirder. 255 00:10:07,239 --> 00:10:09,070 (GASPS) It could have been your baby. 256 00:10:09,141 --> 00:10:10,403 Jo, don't talk. 257 00:10:10,476 --> 00:10:12,876 I'm really bad at these, and I'm pretty sure I'm wrong, 258 00:10:12,945 --> 00:10:15,880 but I think something's wrong with Jackson and April's baby. 259 00:10:18,651 --> 00:10:20,619 Man, your husband can really dig in his heels. 260 00:10:20,686 --> 00:10:23,416 You shouldn't have called me. He's digging in his heels to piss me off. 261 00:10:23,522 --> 00:10:25,615 - Or maybe it's a you thing. - Stop it. 262 00:10:25,691 --> 00:10:28,251 I'm just saying, you got heels, too. You dig. I've seen it. 263 00:10:28,327 --> 00:10:31,160 - She agreed with me to piss him off? - Takes two to tango. 264 00:10:31,230 --> 00:10:32,754 I agreed with you because you're right. 265 00:10:32,832 --> 00:10:35,892 But you shouldn't have called me, not if you think I can sweet-talk Derek. 266 00:10:35,968 --> 00:10:37,629 I called you because you're the best surgeon. 267 00:10:37,703 --> 00:10:40,001 - Why would you say that? - See? It is a you thing. 268 00:10:42,441 --> 00:10:43,999 - What's the matter with you? - Nothing. 269 00:10:47,046 --> 00:10:49,071 I have a patient who got hurt, and Hunt thinks it's my fault. 270 00:10:49,148 --> 00:10:50,979 I'm divorced again, and Arizona thinks it's my fault. 271 00:10:51,050 --> 00:10:52,745 And basically I destroy whatever I touch. 272 00:10:56,389 --> 00:10:58,050 So, by "nothing," you meant "everything." 273 00:10:58,124 --> 00:10:59,489 (CHUCKLES) 274 00:11:00,993 --> 00:11:02,551 (CELL PHONE CHIMING) 275 00:11:03,929 --> 00:11:04,953 Scans are ready. 276 00:11:10,603 --> 00:11:13,470 - You gonna pull a muscle. - What are you talking about? 277 00:11:13,539 --> 00:11:16,633 Yuck. Trying to pretend you're not staring at Pierce. 278 00:11:16,709 --> 00:11:18,472 Your left eye is gonna pop out of your head. 279 00:11:20,279 --> 00:11:21,837 - Ugh! - I don't know what else to do. 280 00:11:21,947 --> 00:11:24,438 I apologized, which she seemed to hear. 281 00:11:24,517 --> 00:11:25,814 But the next move is hers. 282 00:11:25,885 --> 00:11:29,252 At this point, I just have to sit here and wait for her to come to me. 283 00:11:29,422 --> 00:11:30,616 Oh, good idea. 284 00:11:30,690 --> 00:11:32,681 Just sit still and stare like a creep. 285 00:11:32,925 --> 00:11:35,189 That'll get you nothing more than hardened arteries 286 00:11:35,261 --> 00:11:36,660 and a restraining order. 287 00:11:36,729 --> 00:11:37,753 (GAGS) 288 00:11:37,830 --> 00:11:38,819 What is that? 289 00:11:38,898 --> 00:11:40,229 And why on earth do you keep drinking it? 290 00:11:40,299 --> 00:11:42,529 It's a kale smoothie. It's healthy. 291 00:11:42,601 --> 00:11:44,501 - Kale's a superfood. - It looks like bile. 292 00:11:44,704 --> 00:11:46,365 (CHUCKLES) Doesn't taste much better. 293 00:11:47,606 --> 00:11:49,767 I'm just gonna stay out of Pierce's way. 294 00:11:50,176 --> 00:11:52,007 Hey, uh, Richard, do you have a moment? 295 00:11:52,078 --> 00:11:54,603 - Yeah, I might. - Can I have you look at something? 296 00:11:56,182 --> 00:11:57,308 (DOOR OPENS) 297 00:11:57,383 --> 00:11:58,873 How's he look? 298 00:11:58,951 --> 00:12:01,749 CT showed a multifocal hemorrhage with some edema. 299 00:12:01,821 --> 00:12:04,915 I'll know more once I'm in there, but he's gonna need a full craniotomy. 300 00:12:04,990 --> 00:12:06,855 All right. Page me when you're out, okay? 301 00:12:08,060 --> 00:12:09,891 I feel like I owe you an explanation. 302 00:12:10,896 --> 00:12:13,387 - About what you heard last week. - You don't need... 303 00:12:13,466 --> 00:12:16,526 I had a pill problem. I got clean. 304 00:12:16,769 --> 00:12:18,532 Two years ago, I relapsed, 305 00:12:18,604 --> 00:12:21,129 and for a brief time, I got into oxy 306 00:12:22,441 --> 00:12:23,806 and then shooting oxy. 307 00:12:25,144 --> 00:12:26,441 I lost someone. Um... 308 00:12:26,645 --> 00:12:28,738 That was rock bottom, and I have been clean ever since. 309 00:12:28,814 --> 00:12:31,112 Listen, Derek told me everything I need, so you don't have... 310 00:12:31,183 --> 00:12:35,119 I work for you and I respect you and I like you, 311 00:12:35,187 --> 00:12:36,279 so if it's all right, 312 00:12:36,355 --> 00:12:38,721 I don't care to hang my professional relationships 313 00:12:38,791 --> 00:12:40,588 on Derek Shepherd's reputation. 314 00:12:40,793 --> 00:12:42,818 I needed you to hear it from me. 315 00:12:43,896 --> 00:12:46,160 I know it's a choice, keeping me on. 316 00:12:47,800 --> 00:12:50,030 - I know I'm a risk. - We're all a risk. 317 00:12:50,269 --> 00:12:51,258 (CHUCKLES) 318 00:12:51,904 --> 00:12:53,531 We all have something. 319 00:12:55,007 --> 00:12:57,032 I mean, I have my own version. 320 00:12:57,843 --> 00:13:00,641 And it was different. It took a different toll. 321 00:13:01,914 --> 00:13:04,781 It still does, and I push through every day. 322 00:13:05,317 --> 00:13:07,217 And I'm assuming you're doing the same thing, 323 00:13:07,286 --> 00:13:09,447 unless I see otherwise. 324 00:13:09,522 --> 00:13:11,353 - Okay? - Okay. 325 00:13:16,128 --> 00:13:18,255 Look at how the air is tracking through the fascial planes. 326 00:13:18,330 --> 00:13:20,958 - We'll have to debride the neck, too. - We should have been in there already. 327 00:13:21,200 --> 00:13:23,862 - You're scrubbing in with me, right? - Of course. 328 00:13:23,936 --> 00:13:25,062 Any word from your husband? 329 00:13:25,137 --> 00:13:27,128 No, but when he sees these, he'll come around. 330 00:13:27,206 --> 00:13:30,403 Pierce, is this your mediastinitis girl? 331 00:13:30,476 --> 00:13:33,673 That is a massive infection. This is just in a week? 332 00:13:33,746 --> 00:13:35,509 Yeah, that thing moves like a track star. 333 00:13:35,581 --> 00:13:38,015 Have you seen the repeat brain scans yet? Any increase there? 334 00:13:38,083 --> 00:13:40,074 No, but it's already invading the pericardium. 335 00:13:40,152 --> 00:13:41,380 Yeah, but it's tricky, though. 336 00:13:41,453 --> 00:13:43,648 We should wait until we talk to Derek, see what they found. 337 00:13:43,722 --> 00:13:46,384 - Sorry. "We"? - Wait. Why are you here? 338 00:13:46,458 --> 00:13:47,891 Derek asked me to have a look. 339 00:13:47,960 --> 00:13:49,860 - Why? - He wanted a second opinion. 340 00:13:49,929 --> 00:13:51,396 Of course. Any opinion but mine. 341 00:13:53,365 --> 00:13:54,992 - Just do it. - I don't think I can. 342 00:13:55,067 --> 00:13:57,228 It's bad, and I'm not good at doing bad stuff. 343 00:13:57,303 --> 00:13:59,328 - Will you do it? - What am I doing? 344 00:13:59,772 --> 00:14:03,003 - I can't tell you. It's so bad. - Then what am I doing here? 345 00:14:03,075 --> 00:14:05,373 You know what? I don't want to know. Whatever it is, you can do it. 346 00:14:05,444 --> 00:14:06,843 - Just do it. - Okay. Okay. 347 00:14:07,713 --> 00:14:08,702 (SIGHS) 348 00:14:10,950 --> 00:14:12,815 Hi. Um, this is Dr. Robbins. 349 00:14:14,053 --> 00:14:16,988 I'm Amelia Shepherd's fellow at Grey-Sloan. 350 00:14:17,122 --> 00:14:19,784 Um, yeah. I'm calling about a patient of Dr. Weaver's. 351 00:14:19,859 --> 00:14:21,326 Nicole Herman? 352 00:14:21,393 --> 00:14:23,088 Yep. Uh-huh. No. I'll wait. 353 00:14:23,162 --> 00:14:24,789 (EXHALES SLOWLY) 354 00:14:25,397 --> 00:14:27,092 She is? Oh, great, great. 355 00:14:27,166 --> 00:14:28,633 Um, Dr. Herman is requesting 356 00:14:28,701 --> 00:14:31,864 that her neuro records be sent to Dr. Shepherd. 357 00:14:32,438 --> 00:14:35,168 Yeah, yeah, histories, scans, CTs. 358 00:14:35,241 --> 00:14:38,074 (STUTTERS) You know what? Actually, could you send it all? 359 00:14:38,177 --> 00:14:39,906 Yeah. Care of Robbins. 360 00:14:39,979 --> 00:14:41,708 Thank you. Thank you so much. 361 00:14:42,581 --> 00:14:43,843 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 362 00:14:47,753 --> 00:14:49,482 Oh... Thanks for taking the time. 363 00:14:49,555 --> 00:14:51,785 - Yeah, I don't have a lot of time. - Then I'll cut to the chase. 364 00:14:51,857 --> 00:14:55,315 I was told not to come back to DC without a "yes" from you. 365 00:14:55,394 --> 00:14:58,693 And I have a dog who's gonna starve, so I have to get back. 366 00:14:59,665 --> 00:15:00,996 Help me out. 367 00:15:01,100 --> 00:15:03,000 - What kind of dog do you have? - Springer spaniel. 368 00:15:03,068 --> 00:15:04,695 Damn it. That's a good dog. 369 00:15:06,071 --> 00:15:07,800 Deborah, I'd like to help you out, I would, 370 00:15:07,873 --> 00:15:11,570 but turning down this post was the hardest decision I ever had to make. 371 00:15:12,111 --> 00:15:13,738 And I made that choice for my family. 372 00:15:13,812 --> 00:15:15,439 I know he will understand that. 373 00:15:17,016 --> 00:15:18,176 Yes. 374 00:15:19,118 --> 00:15:21,086 He's just a hard man to say no to. 375 00:15:21,153 --> 00:15:24,452 I know, but I did it, and I know it can be done. 376 00:15:25,691 --> 00:15:26,715 Good luck. 377 00:15:31,363 --> 00:15:32,352 (SIGHS) 378 00:15:34,033 --> 00:15:37,969 Hi. Did you get anything messengered for, um, Dr. Shepherd? A chart? 379 00:15:38,037 --> 00:15:40,232 It might have been addressed to Dr. Robbins. 380 00:15:40,306 --> 00:15:41,637 - WOMAN: Mmm... I don't... - Looking for this? 381 00:15:43,208 --> 00:15:45,073 Yeah. Yeah. 382 00:15:45,144 --> 00:15:46,543 Thanks. 383 00:15:47,780 --> 00:15:48,940 Is this our Nicole Herman? 384 00:15:49,915 --> 00:15:51,382 Dr. Herman? 385 00:15:51,450 --> 00:15:53,042 What's going on? 386 00:15:53,452 --> 00:15:55,886 (INHALES SHARPLY) It's bad, right? 387 00:15:56,622 --> 00:16:00,581 It's spectacular, a big, bad mother of an astrocytoma. 388 00:16:00,659 --> 00:16:02,388 See how it ignores the anatomical borders? 389 00:16:02,461 --> 00:16:03,689 It's like a perfect butterfly. 390 00:16:04,196 --> 00:16:05,857 Look, it starts in the subfrontal 391 00:16:05,931 --> 00:16:08,661 and extends practically into the hypothalamus. 392 00:16:08,734 --> 00:16:10,702 That is a thing of beauty. 393 00:16:12,037 --> 00:16:15,598 - Is she showing symptoms? - No. No, but she's... 394 00:16:15,674 --> 00:16:17,403 Wait. What kind of symptoms would they be? 395 00:16:18,444 --> 00:16:20,742 Oh, God. With this, it could be almost anything 396 00:16:20,813 --> 00:16:23,805 from dizziness, headaches, 397 00:16:23,882 --> 00:16:26,146 uh, vision loss, inappropriate sexual behavior, 398 00:16:26,218 --> 00:16:28,448 impulse control stuff, fatigue... 399 00:16:28,520 --> 00:16:30,010 Fatigue? 400 00:16:30,089 --> 00:16:31,249 Uh... 401 00:16:32,057 --> 00:16:34,753 She texted me earlier to say that she needed to lie down for a while. 402 00:16:34,827 --> 00:16:37,819 Arizona, who else knows about this? People know about this, right? 403 00:16:37,896 --> 00:16:40,421 Yeah, everybody who needs to know knows. 404 00:16:40,499 --> 00:16:42,660 But she'd prefer discretion, you know. 405 00:16:42,735 --> 00:16:44,202 If you could just keep it to yourself... 406 00:16:44,269 --> 00:16:46,931 Of course. I'm a locked box. 407 00:16:47,006 --> 00:16:49,338 Thanks. See you. 408 00:16:50,743 --> 00:16:54,076 Based on the information we have, we'd like to take Holly to surgery now 409 00:16:54,146 --> 00:16:57,547 to get out as much of the chest infection as possible. 410 00:16:57,616 --> 00:17:00,517 Wait. Wasn't there talk about brain surgery? 411 00:17:00,586 --> 00:17:03,146 - We feel we can't wait any longer. - My throat hurts. 412 00:17:03,222 --> 00:17:05,315 - Can we get her some water? - Not before surgery. 413 00:17:05,391 --> 00:17:07,882 Mom, I just want to go home. Please take me home. 414 00:17:07,960 --> 00:17:10,952 Whatever you think is best. Just tell us what to do. We'll listen. 415 00:17:11,030 --> 00:17:12,895 Dr. Pierce's approach is the way to go. 416 00:17:12,965 --> 00:17:16,025 Let's take care of that chest infection, and then we'll do the brain surgery. 417 00:17:16,135 --> 00:17:17,227 (COUGHING) 418 00:17:17,302 --> 00:17:18,462 (GASPING) 419 00:17:18,537 --> 00:17:21,233 Holly? Holly? 420 00:17:21,740 --> 00:17:23,367 What's happening to her? 421 00:17:23,442 --> 00:17:25,842 - Step out of the way, please. - Holly. 422 00:17:26,612 --> 00:17:29,172 Her airway's completely closed, and she's too swollen to intubate. 423 00:17:29,248 --> 00:17:30,840 I need a crash cart and a crike tray now! 424 00:17:30,916 --> 00:17:31,905 WOMAN: Right away! 425 00:17:33,185 --> 00:17:34,652 (MONITOR BEEPING) 426 00:17:42,227 --> 00:17:44,627 - Shepherd said he's in a coma. - Yeah. 427 00:17:44,696 --> 00:17:46,664 Early signs of herniation. 428 00:17:46,732 --> 00:17:48,700 It's impossible to tell how deep the damage is, 429 00:17:48,767 --> 00:17:51,099 and there's no signs of him coming around. 430 00:17:54,606 --> 00:17:56,767 - (SIGHS) I told you. - Hey, I didn't push him. 431 00:17:56,842 --> 00:17:58,400 I know you think I did, but they pushed each other. 432 00:17:58,477 --> 00:18:00,069 - You should have stopped them. - Owen, they're... (SCOFFS) 433 00:18:00,412 --> 00:18:01,401 You know these guys. There's... 434 00:18:01,480 --> 00:18:03,107 You don't know the first thing about them. 435 00:18:03,182 --> 00:18:05,446 You don't know what risk means to them. 436 00:18:05,517 --> 00:18:09,146 Jordan is a 22-year-old kid who's asked to defuse bombs 437 00:18:09,221 --> 00:18:11,155 left in a supermarket filled with families. 438 00:18:11,223 --> 00:18:12,884 That's risk to them. 439 00:18:13,525 --> 00:18:15,925 These guys have to decide in an instant 440 00:18:15,994 --> 00:18:17,757 whether the person they're about to shoot 441 00:18:17,830 --> 00:18:19,764 is an insurgent with a pistol 442 00:18:19,832 --> 00:18:21,663 or a school kid with a cellphone. 443 00:18:21,733 --> 00:18:22,757 That's risk. 444 00:18:23,168 --> 00:18:26,797 So, no, they don't see the danger in stepping up on a stair. 445 00:18:30,476 --> 00:18:32,171 You should have stopped him. 446 00:18:40,385 --> 00:18:41,613 Dr. Herman? 447 00:18:42,454 --> 00:18:43,512 Dr. Herman... 448 00:18:43,589 --> 00:18:44,749 (DR. HERMAN BREATHING HEAVILY) 449 00:18:44,823 --> 00:18:47,053 Robbins. Occupied. 450 00:18:47,192 --> 00:18:48,716 (BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY) 451 00:18:49,795 --> 00:18:50,853 Sorry. 452 00:18:55,033 --> 00:18:56,625 MAGGIE: Trach tube and dilator. 453 00:18:56,702 --> 00:18:58,966 - We got you. We got you. - What happened? 454 00:18:59,037 --> 00:19:00,766 We lost her airway, so Pierce criked her. 455 00:19:00,839 --> 00:19:03,672 - This is what I was worried about. - This is why I'm taking her to surgery. 456 00:19:03,742 --> 00:19:06,176 - Pierce, I think Derek's right. - What are you even doing here? 457 00:19:06,245 --> 00:19:08,270 Pierce, the steroids you gave her may have ruptured her abscess. 458 00:19:08,347 --> 00:19:10,679 There's no evidence of that, and she is hypotensive. 459 00:19:10,749 --> 00:19:13,843 Pierce, with respect, I have been here longer than you. 460 00:19:13,919 --> 00:19:15,784 You asked for my advice. You ignored it. 461 00:19:15,854 --> 00:19:17,481 We're doing this. It's done. 462 00:19:19,725 --> 00:19:20,783 You take over. 463 00:19:21,660 --> 00:19:22,752 Book an OR. 464 00:19:22,828 --> 00:19:25,126 As soon as she is stable, I am taking her up. 465 00:19:25,197 --> 00:19:26,892 - Excuse me. - Derek, you cannot just... 466 00:19:26,965 --> 00:19:28,796 Meredith, I am begging you. This is not about you and me. 467 00:19:28,867 --> 00:19:30,892 This is about this girl. If we don't do this, 468 00:19:30,969 --> 00:19:33,437 her mother is gonna be bathing and feeding her for the rest of her life. 469 00:19:33,505 --> 00:19:36,736 - I am sure of this. - And as sure as you are, I am, too. 470 00:19:36,808 --> 00:19:38,435 - You are pulling rank here. - Meredith, listen. 471 00:19:38,510 --> 00:19:40,273 - And you don't have rank to pull. - From what I saw on the... 472 00:19:40,345 --> 00:19:42,813 I mean, can we all agree that this is Dr. Pierce's patient here? 473 00:19:42,881 --> 00:19:45,145 She is the department head, and Derek is not, 474 00:19:45,217 --> 00:19:47,151 so if there's any rank to pull, it's hers. 475 00:19:47,219 --> 00:19:49,278 So, what would you like to do, Dr. Pierce? 476 00:19:55,294 --> 00:19:56,591 Let's take her up. 477 00:20:05,103 --> 00:20:07,765 - How long has that been happening? - None of your business. 478 00:20:07,839 --> 00:20:10,273 How long? Was it sudden? Was it just today? 479 00:20:10,342 --> 00:20:12,537 It's happened more than once. 480 00:20:12,611 --> 00:20:14,909 - You're jealous. - Okay. It stops now. No more. 481 00:20:14,980 --> 00:20:16,106 You're taking advantage of her. 482 00:20:16,181 --> 00:20:17,205 I beg your pardon. 483 00:20:17,282 --> 00:20:19,273 She's the one in the power position here. 484 00:20:19,351 --> 00:20:21,251 She suggested it. I'm just scoring points. 485 00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:22,981 Oh, God, shut up. 486 00:20:23,055 --> 00:20:24,147 STEPHANIE: Dr. Robbins? 487 00:20:24,223 --> 00:20:25,713 You could try. She's pretty open to ideas. 488 00:20:26,058 --> 00:20:27,389 Go away. Go away, Graham. 489 00:20:27,459 --> 00:20:29,222 Dr. Robbins, I just need you to look at this ultrasound. 490 00:20:29,294 --> 00:20:30,955 - Yeah. Oh... Sure. - (SIGHS) 491 00:20:31,029 --> 00:20:33,429 Is it what I think it is? I mean, it's not, right? 492 00:20:33,498 --> 00:20:35,864 Yeah, it could be, type II or III maybe. 493 00:20:35,968 --> 00:20:37,868 - Oh, God. - What's the matter? 494 00:20:38,670 --> 00:20:40,399 I shouldn't say. Or maybe I should. 495 00:20:40,472 --> 00:20:41,598 I don't know. Tell me what to do. 496 00:20:43,141 --> 00:20:45,609 This is April Kepner's baby. I haven't told her. I haven't told Jackson. 497 00:20:45,677 --> 00:20:47,975 I didn't know what to do. I just wanted us to be sure. 498 00:20:48,046 --> 00:20:49,343 Don't mention it to either of them. 499 00:20:49,414 --> 00:20:51,905 I'II, uh... I'll ask Herman. 500 00:20:52,584 --> 00:20:53,812 Because maybe we're wrong? 501 00:20:54,686 --> 00:20:55,983 I hope so. 502 00:21:00,592 --> 00:21:03,527 - So, what happens now? - (SIGHS) 503 00:21:03,996 --> 00:21:07,193 Well, listen, take some time. 504 00:21:07,266 --> 00:21:10,565 And we'll get you up as soon as you're ready. 505 00:21:11,770 --> 00:21:13,397 I'll be ready when Jordan's awake. 506 00:21:13,939 --> 00:21:15,998 He's going first. 507 00:21:16,074 --> 00:21:18,702 - How long till he can walk? - We're not sure when he'll wake up. 508 00:21:18,777 --> 00:21:20,438 It could be days, months. 509 00:21:20,545 --> 00:21:21,637 I'm not just gonna give up on him. 510 00:21:21,713 --> 00:21:23,112 Oh, that's if we're lucky. 511 00:21:23,282 --> 00:21:26,046 (SIGHS) Look, I know. I know how bad you feel. 512 00:21:26,918 --> 00:21:28,044 I do. 513 00:21:28,954 --> 00:21:30,182 But it doesn't mean that you should give up on 514 00:21:30,289 --> 00:21:32,223 the possibility of walking yourself. 515 00:21:32,291 --> 00:21:33,758 I'm sure that Jordan wouldn't want you to. 516 00:21:33,825 --> 00:21:35,759 Yeah? You know what he wants? 517 00:21:36,428 --> 00:21:39,295 - See, he's my best friend. - Oh, no, no, no. I didn't mean it like that. 518 00:21:39,364 --> 00:21:41,389 See, when I got shipped home to rehab, 519 00:21:42,467 --> 00:21:44,196 I was ready to give up. 520 00:21:44,269 --> 00:21:46,260 I wanted to quit every day. 521 00:21:47,172 --> 00:21:48,196 But Jordan... 522 00:21:48,807 --> 00:21:49,831 (INHALES SHARPLY) 523 00:21:49,908 --> 00:21:52,502 ...he had this stupid plastic football 524 00:21:53,378 --> 00:21:56,108 that he'd just throw at me every time I'd complain. 525 00:21:57,749 --> 00:21:59,341 At my face, hard. 526 00:22:02,254 --> 00:22:05,917 And every day, I got a little bit better 527 00:22:05,991 --> 00:22:08,118 just so I could throw it back at him. 528 00:22:09,795 --> 00:22:10,921 He saved my life. 529 00:22:12,698 --> 00:22:14,791 He's gonna wake up. 530 00:22:14,866 --> 00:22:17,494 And when he does, he's not gonna see that I... 531 00:22:17,569 --> 00:22:21,403 That I stole what's his, what he earned. 532 00:22:21,506 --> 00:22:23,371 I am so sorry, but we just... We don't know how... 533 00:22:23,475 --> 00:22:26,535 What are we to you? What are we, trash? 534 00:22:26,611 --> 00:22:29,603 He broke, so you just throw him away, move on to the next one? 535 00:22:29,681 --> 00:22:31,046 Screw that. 536 00:22:32,484 --> 00:22:35,419 - He's gonna wake up. - Rick. Rick. 537 00:22:49,701 --> 00:22:50,725 Are you okay? 538 00:22:53,605 --> 00:22:54,936 Uh... (CHUCKLES) 539 00:22:55,006 --> 00:22:56,667 I will be. I will be. 540 00:22:59,077 --> 00:23:01,807 Could... Could we just pretend 541 00:23:01,880 --> 00:23:03,541 that everything between you and I is okay, 542 00:23:03,615 --> 00:23:05,913 just for a little bit? 543 00:23:05,984 --> 00:23:06,973 I could use that. 544 00:23:08,153 --> 00:23:09,245 Yeah. 545 00:23:12,791 --> 00:23:14,088 (SIGHS) 546 00:23:14,159 --> 00:23:17,925 I feel like everything is going wrong, and I have no idea what to do about it. 547 00:23:18,363 --> 00:23:20,797 I feel... (CHUCKLES) 548 00:23:20,866 --> 00:23:24,358 ...like every single thing I am doing is wrong. 549 00:23:27,739 --> 00:23:29,036 (ARIZONA SIGHS) 550 00:23:30,442 --> 00:23:32,706 You will figure it out. (CLEARS THROAT) You will. 551 00:23:34,279 --> 00:23:35,712 You will, too. 552 00:23:37,682 --> 00:23:38,808 Thanks. 553 00:23:44,322 --> 00:23:45,346 (SIGHS) 554 00:23:48,727 --> 00:23:52,254 Do you miss me at all? 555 00:23:53,665 --> 00:23:54,962 Of course. 556 00:23:56,768 --> 00:24:00,898 Just not enough. 557 00:24:11,583 --> 00:24:13,813 MEREDITH: This infection is a lot deeper than the CT showed. 558 00:24:13,885 --> 00:24:15,580 - How are you doing? - MAGGIE: Okay. 559 00:24:15,654 --> 00:24:17,918 It's really adhered to her ascending aorta. 560 00:24:17,989 --> 00:24:20,082 MEREDITH: Be careful. I'm coming across a lot of adhesions. 561 00:24:20,158 --> 00:24:21,352 MAGGIE: I think this would be a lot easier 562 00:24:21,426 --> 00:24:23,155 without those two breathing down our necks. 563 00:24:23,228 --> 00:24:24,855 MEREDITH: Welcome to my life. 564 00:24:27,365 --> 00:24:29,890 That girl's brain could be herniating right now. 565 00:24:30,969 --> 00:24:32,630 She thinks I've been working against her. 566 00:24:32,704 --> 00:24:35,434 And to be truthful, 567 00:24:35,507 --> 00:24:38,704 I have given her plenty of reason to believe that. 568 00:24:38,777 --> 00:24:42,076 But that is not the case right here. I swear it. 569 00:24:42,147 --> 00:24:43,774 Yeah, I know. 570 00:24:43,882 --> 00:24:44,974 (EXHALES) 571 00:24:45,317 --> 00:24:46,978 And I know how frustrating it can be 572 00:24:47,052 --> 00:24:49,680 when someone chooses only to see you one way. 573 00:24:50,021 --> 00:24:52,080 They're both so much like their mother. 574 00:24:52,491 --> 00:24:55,892 You really screwed me here, with Pierce. 575 00:24:55,961 --> 00:24:57,758 First the dinner, now this. You know that, right? 576 00:24:57,829 --> 00:24:59,694 Yeah. Sorry about that. 577 00:24:59,764 --> 00:25:00,822 (MONITORS BEEPING RAPIDLY) 578 00:25:00,899 --> 00:25:02,799 MAGGIE: She's bradying. Constrictive pericarditis. 579 00:25:02,868 --> 00:25:04,699 I'm gonna have to strip the entire pericardium. 580 00:25:04,769 --> 00:25:05,758 - Grey. - MEREDITH: I'm here. 581 00:25:05,871 --> 00:25:07,168 MAGGIE: Dry laps and a 15 blade, please. 582 00:25:08,206 --> 00:25:10,106 - Are they still watching? - MEREDITH: You can count on it. 583 00:25:18,116 --> 00:25:20,482 Hey, um, Dr. Edwards and I would like you to look at an ultrasound. 584 00:25:20,552 --> 00:25:21,678 Have to be later. 585 00:25:21,753 --> 00:25:23,812 Got paged for an emergency C. You'll assist. 586 00:25:23,955 --> 00:25:26,480 - Uh, will you excuse us, please? - (STAMMERS) Come find me later. 587 00:25:27,192 --> 00:25:29,558 You spoke to Graham? 588 00:25:29,628 --> 00:25:32,529 - You spoke to Graham? - I was worried. 589 00:25:32,597 --> 00:25:35,862 Robbins, I don't know how many orgasms I have left in life, 590 00:25:35,934 --> 00:25:38,300 but it may be fewer than flavors of ice cream, 591 00:25:38,370 --> 00:25:40,235 so I can't spare any. 592 00:25:40,305 --> 00:25:42,466 Stop stealing my orgasms. 593 00:25:42,541 --> 00:25:45,169 - I didn't try... - And stop invading my privacy. 594 00:25:45,243 --> 00:25:46,642 I was worried about you. 595 00:25:46,711 --> 00:25:49,771 - It's not your business to be worried. - I'm a doctor. It's my nature. 596 00:25:49,848 --> 00:25:52,248 And you're sick. And I want to help. 597 00:25:52,317 --> 00:25:54,649 I want to keep you and our patients out of danger, 598 00:25:54,719 --> 00:25:56,880 and I just found you having a quickie with Graham. 599 00:25:56,955 --> 00:25:58,547 Graham, okay? 600 00:25:58,623 --> 00:26:00,648 And I have a hard time believing that that's not a symptom, 601 00:26:00,725 --> 00:26:02,852 and also, it's against hospital rules. 602 00:26:02,928 --> 00:26:05,362 Robbins, when you have an expiration date of five months, 603 00:26:05,430 --> 00:26:09,230 it's amazing how many rules you don't give a damn about. 604 00:26:09,301 --> 00:26:12,702 Graham is a nominal surgeon, and he's a complete tool, 605 00:26:12,771 --> 00:26:16,867 but he's young, he's attractive, and he's very physically fit. 606 00:26:17,108 --> 00:26:20,339 What you saw was not a symptom of a tumor. 607 00:26:20,412 --> 00:26:23,108 It was a symptom of dying soon. 608 00:26:24,249 --> 00:26:27,412 So I'm gonna screw as many Grahams as I can. 609 00:26:29,654 --> 00:26:32,418 And I totally support that. 610 00:26:33,592 --> 00:26:35,150 C-section. Let's go. 611 00:26:37,896 --> 00:26:39,056 You paged me 911? 612 00:26:39,130 --> 00:26:40,791 - Is it a me thing? - Is what a you thing? 613 00:26:40,865 --> 00:26:43,333 God, can you keep something in your head for like two seconds? 614 00:26:43,401 --> 00:26:45,232 Me and Derek and this patient. 615 00:26:45,303 --> 00:26:47,533 Am I just digging in because it's him? 616 00:26:48,139 --> 00:26:49,333 911 for this? 617 00:26:49,407 --> 00:26:52,069 I was telling a mom her 5-year-old has a spinal malformation. 618 00:26:52,143 --> 00:26:53,337 I need two minutes. 619 00:26:54,012 --> 00:26:55,138 Two minutes. 620 00:26:55,213 --> 00:26:56,771 And promise me you won't crash in my bed tonight. 621 00:26:56,848 --> 00:26:58,941 Because we saved this patient from organ failure, 622 00:26:59,017 --> 00:27:01,247 but now she could wake up with brain damage. 623 00:27:01,319 --> 00:27:02,308 What if you were right? 624 00:27:02,387 --> 00:27:05,322 What if he wasn't being a stubborn, pig-faced jackass? 625 00:27:05,390 --> 00:27:07,824 - What if it is me? - Take Shepherd out of the equation. 626 00:27:07,892 --> 00:27:10,486 If it was another doctor you were going up against, if it was me or... 627 00:27:10,562 --> 00:27:12,029 Someone who was really good, like Bailey? 628 00:27:12,097 --> 00:27:14,998 Would you have made the same decision for your patient 629 00:27:15,066 --> 00:27:16,533 if it wasn't him? 630 00:27:19,904 --> 00:27:22,202 - Thank you. - Sure. And bite me. 631 00:27:23,441 --> 00:27:25,875 I ended up taking a stand against Pierce. 632 00:27:25,944 --> 00:27:28,242 That doesn't sound like staying out of her way. 633 00:27:28,313 --> 00:27:31,111 Ah, I didn't know what I was getting myself into. 634 00:27:31,182 --> 00:27:32,672 I thought it was just a consult. 635 00:27:32,751 --> 00:27:34,776 Shepherd screwed me again. 636 00:27:34,853 --> 00:27:36,821 I don't care for the way that sounds. 637 00:27:39,024 --> 00:27:42,357 - Where are you going? - Up. I got my wrist thingy on. 638 00:27:42,427 --> 00:27:44,190 I've got to get my billion steps a day. 639 00:27:44,429 --> 00:27:48,126 I feel like I'm making a bunch of steps in the wrong direction. 640 00:27:48,199 --> 00:27:51,032 - Maybe I should apologize to Pierce. - Apologize? 641 00:27:51,102 --> 00:27:53,093 Haven't you apologized enough already? 642 00:27:53,171 --> 00:27:55,537 You are a good man, a great surgeon. 643 00:27:55,607 --> 00:27:58,804 You shouldn't be turning yourself inside out for her or anybody else. 644 00:27:58,877 --> 00:27:59,935 You deserve better. 645 00:28:00,011 --> 00:28:02,036 And if she can't see that, she doesn't deserve you. 646 00:28:02,113 --> 00:28:04,911 I'm just afraid I've undone the progress I've already made. 647 00:28:04,983 --> 00:28:06,450 Okay. Now I'm bored, 648 00:28:06,518 --> 00:28:09,578 bored with kale smoothies and walking up stairs 649 00:28:09,654 --> 00:28:10,985 and listening to you talk about Pierce. 650 00:28:11,056 --> 00:28:12,216 You sound like a broken record. 651 00:28:13,625 --> 00:28:14,922 Sorry. 652 00:28:14,993 --> 00:28:16,460 Kale rage talking. 653 00:28:16,528 --> 00:28:17,825 But I'm not wrong. 654 00:28:19,330 --> 00:28:20,558 Do not follow me. 655 00:28:24,736 --> 00:28:25,760 (DOOR OPENS) 656 00:28:25,837 --> 00:28:28,305 - Shepherd, you were looking for us? - Yes. 657 00:28:28,707 --> 00:28:31,835 Uh, Jordan's awake. He came around. 658 00:28:31,910 --> 00:28:33,468 - Thank God. That's great. - (SIGHS IN RELIEF) 659 00:28:33,545 --> 00:28:36,275 Wait. He is awake but unresponsive. 660 00:28:36,648 --> 00:28:38,240 There's no new or recurrent hemorrhage, 661 00:28:38,316 --> 00:28:40,477 but it's too soon to know how much function he'll regain 662 00:28:40,552 --> 00:28:43,020 or if there will be deficits. I'm sorry. 663 00:28:43,088 --> 00:28:45,181 Does he have people, besides his friend? 664 00:28:45,256 --> 00:28:47,918 His parents are in Florida. They're on their way. 665 00:28:47,992 --> 00:28:50,358 - Hunt, can I talk to you outside? - Sure. 666 00:28:57,102 --> 00:28:59,969 - You have people, right? - What do you mean? 667 00:29:00,505 --> 00:29:03,497 I just mean... I mean, you're not trying to... 668 00:29:04,509 --> 00:29:06,602 It's hard to deal with all this stuff on your own. 669 00:29:06,678 --> 00:29:08,873 But you have Meredith and Derek, so... 670 00:29:08,947 --> 00:29:10,608 Yeah. 671 00:29:10,682 --> 00:29:11,842 And meetings. 672 00:29:12,617 --> 00:29:15,381 I'm pushing through. That's what we do. 673 00:29:15,453 --> 00:29:16,511 Right. 674 00:29:18,723 --> 00:29:19,951 Do you? 675 00:29:21,993 --> 00:29:25,326 - Have people? - I'm... That's... 676 00:29:26,064 --> 00:29:28,294 - Um, I'm fine. - No, I know. 677 00:29:28,366 --> 00:29:29,765 But you're right there, 678 00:29:29,834 --> 00:29:33,235 living in that little tin box on my brother's back lawn. 679 00:29:33,304 --> 00:29:34,601 I mean, I keep saying I'm gonna move out, 680 00:29:34,672 --> 00:29:37,436 but I'm still up at the house, watching them glare at each other. 681 00:29:37,509 --> 00:29:40,706 Let me know if you, you know, if you need people. 682 00:29:41,980 --> 00:29:44,414 - I'm around. - Thanks. 683 00:29:45,784 --> 00:29:47,308 And thanks for the update. 684 00:29:55,226 --> 00:29:57,990 I don't think I can do this. I think I need to take a step back. 685 00:29:58,062 --> 00:30:01,964 - What do you mean? - The program, the vets. I'm... (SIGHS) 686 00:30:02,033 --> 00:30:04,263 You were right, Owen. I don't know these guys. 687 00:30:04,335 --> 00:30:05,927 I'm trying to help them. 688 00:30:06,004 --> 00:30:08,029 - I'm ruining their lives. - It was an accident. 689 00:30:08,106 --> 00:30:09,937 I know I was angry, but you can't just stop. 690 00:30:10,008 --> 00:30:12,067 Rick says he won't move forward until Jordan's all right. 691 00:30:12,143 --> 00:30:14,668 - Callie, that is... - Jordan might not be all right. 692 00:30:14,779 --> 00:30:17,009 And I'm not just gonna throw Rick aside and move on to someone else. 693 00:30:17,081 --> 00:30:18,708 I can't do that. 694 00:30:19,417 --> 00:30:21,214 So you're gonna just stop 'cause things got hard? 695 00:30:21,286 --> 00:30:23,846 'Cause you're hurt? That is not acceptable. 696 00:30:23,922 --> 00:30:25,583 You push through it. 697 00:30:25,657 --> 00:30:27,591 You're not gonna give up on the program or on Rick. 698 00:30:27,659 --> 00:30:29,456 - Get him back here. - Owen, for what? 699 00:30:29,527 --> 00:30:31,552 - Get him back here, and... - I don't want to give him false hope. 700 00:30:31,629 --> 00:30:33,028 Then give him real hope. 701 00:30:34,632 --> 00:30:36,827 Okay. Okay. I get it. 702 00:30:37,068 --> 00:30:39,593 Stop throwing the football at my face. 703 00:30:40,171 --> 00:30:41,798 (SCOFFS) What? 704 00:30:42,941 --> 00:30:45,933 Nothing. It worked. 705 00:30:52,217 --> 00:30:54,583 Okay, Claire, I need to do a neuro check. 706 00:30:54,652 --> 00:30:56,381 I thought you said the surgery was successful. 707 00:30:56,454 --> 00:30:59,218 We just have to make sure there was no problem with the brain abscess. 708 00:30:59,958 --> 00:31:02,654 - She could have brain damage? - He's just making sure. 709 00:31:02,727 --> 00:31:03,887 Can you follow this? 710 00:31:10,969 --> 00:31:12,095 Can you give me a good squeeze? 711 00:31:14,939 --> 00:31:16,201 Try and squeeze. 712 00:31:18,643 --> 00:31:19,769 Is she okay? 713 00:31:22,714 --> 00:31:25,547 - Dr. Shepherd? - From what I can see... 714 00:31:26,985 --> 00:31:29,613 You know, actually, why don't we ask her? 715 00:31:29,687 --> 00:31:31,484 Holly, how are you feeling? 716 00:31:45,904 --> 00:31:48,873 Her second surgery for the brain abscess will be tomorrow, 717 00:31:48,940 --> 00:31:51,204 but I don't foresee any problems. 718 00:31:52,043 --> 00:31:53,374 Thank you so much. 719 00:31:53,778 --> 00:31:55,109 Mmm-hmm. 720 00:31:56,948 --> 00:31:58,108 Doctors. 721 00:32:02,620 --> 00:32:05,020 DR. HERMAN: Nice work delivering the placenta. 722 00:32:05,089 --> 00:32:07,580 Your sutures need improvement, which is surprising. 723 00:32:07,659 --> 00:32:08,921 - Now? - Yes. Um... 724 00:32:08,993 --> 00:32:10,722 We need to show you an ultrasound. 725 00:32:10,828 --> 00:32:14,457 Uh, I... I don't trust myself, and Robbins thinks we might be wrong. 726 00:32:14,532 --> 00:32:16,966 Robbins, a fetal surgeon who can't read an ultrasound 727 00:32:17,035 --> 00:32:18,730 is like a chef who can't boil water. 728 00:32:18,803 --> 00:32:20,100 Just tell me what I'm looking at. 729 00:32:25,176 --> 00:32:26,404 (TABLET BEEPING) 730 00:32:28,246 --> 00:32:29,838 - What do you think it is? - I'm asking you. 731 00:32:29,914 --> 00:32:31,438 I want to know what you think you know. 732 00:32:31,516 --> 00:32:33,916 I'm concerned that it's osteogenesis imperfecta. 733 00:32:33,985 --> 00:32:35,816 - Define it, please. - A congenital birth defect 734 00:32:35,887 --> 00:32:37,514 in which the child has fragile bones 735 00:32:37,588 --> 00:32:39,453 that are easily broken and for no reason. 736 00:32:39,524 --> 00:32:41,014 With the more fatal cases, 737 00:32:41,092 --> 00:32:42,753 sometimes you can see the fractures in utero. 738 00:32:42,827 --> 00:32:45,421 I assume that we're wrong. I mean, it's so rare. 739 00:32:45,496 --> 00:32:46,588 What makes you suspect it? 740 00:32:46,664 --> 00:32:48,825 Size and mineralization of the head, 741 00:32:48,900 --> 00:32:52,358 no movement in the fetus, short femurs that haven't grown. 742 00:32:52,971 --> 00:32:54,097 Prognosis? 743 00:32:54,172 --> 00:32:56,538 That's what I'm asking you. 744 00:32:58,977 --> 00:33:00,444 It's very sad. 745 00:33:00,511 --> 00:33:03,969 If it is, indeed, type II and the infant survives birth, 746 00:33:04,048 --> 00:33:06,812 they don't usually live more than a couple of days or weeks. 747 00:33:08,720 --> 00:33:10,711 Robbins, someone you know? 748 00:33:11,022 --> 00:33:12,046 A friend. 749 00:33:13,024 --> 00:33:14,924 I'm very, very sorry. 750 00:33:15,660 --> 00:33:17,821 There's got to be something we can do. 751 00:33:17,895 --> 00:33:19,658 I mean, what can I do? 752 00:33:22,166 --> 00:33:23,565 Be there for her. 753 00:33:41,819 --> 00:33:43,218 Oh! Uh, Edwards! 754 00:33:45,223 --> 00:33:48,021 - I forgive you. - You... Why? 755 00:33:48,092 --> 00:33:50,925 For spilling the beans about our little Buddha boy. 756 00:33:50,995 --> 00:33:53,520 It was an honest mistake, and I was a total jerk. 757 00:33:53,598 --> 00:33:56,795 I'm honestly kind of glad to know. I'm gonna tell Jackson tonight. 758 00:33:57,035 --> 00:33:58,297 Okay. 759 00:33:58,770 --> 00:34:00,237 Um, well... 760 00:34:02,874 --> 00:34:03,932 (EXHALES SHARPLY) 761 00:34:04,008 --> 00:34:05,236 I'm sorry. 762 00:34:05,376 --> 00:34:08,368 Uh... Like I said, it's really okay. 763 00:34:19,123 --> 00:34:21,091 RICHARD: You're really committing to this thing, aren't you? 764 00:34:21,159 --> 00:34:22,183 Got to get my steps in. 765 00:34:22,260 --> 00:34:24,728 - Dr. Webber! - Ooh, look who's coming around. 766 00:34:24,796 --> 00:34:26,127 Do not apologize. 767 00:34:28,199 --> 00:34:30,565 - You sided with Shepherd today. - I did. 768 00:34:30,635 --> 00:34:33,570 - I want to know why. - Pierce, it was a coin toss. 769 00:34:33,638 --> 00:34:34,832 Could have gone either way. 770 00:34:35,073 --> 00:34:37,803 But, uh, I'm glad it went yours. 771 00:34:38,276 --> 00:34:40,437 I'm not asking for an "attaboy" here. 772 00:34:41,312 --> 00:34:44,509 You really didn't think the lesions in her chest warranted immediate care? 773 00:34:44,582 --> 00:34:47,244 Absolutely. But it was a catch-22, 774 00:34:47,318 --> 00:34:49,786 so I did a quick risk/benefit analysis, 775 00:34:49,854 --> 00:34:53,085 outcome measurements, adverse effects. 776 00:34:53,157 --> 00:34:56,183 - It makes quite a quantitative list. - Really? 777 00:34:56,260 --> 00:35:00,390 It's not infallible, obviously, but it's right most of the time. 778 00:35:00,465 --> 00:35:04,162 - May I see it? - No. I do it in my head. 779 00:35:04,368 --> 00:35:06,529 - All of... All of that? - (CHUCKLES) 780 00:35:06,604 --> 00:35:09,095 Well, uh, I had lots of years of practice. 781 00:35:09,173 --> 00:35:12,609 I'd be very interested in going over that list with you if you have time. 782 00:35:14,145 --> 00:35:15,169 Um... 783 00:35:15,246 --> 00:35:19,046 You know, now's not a great time, 784 00:35:19,117 --> 00:35:21,813 but, you know, maybe I could catch up with you in the morning 785 00:35:21,886 --> 00:35:23,410 or we could grab coffee. 786 00:35:24,422 --> 00:35:27,186 I would appreciate that. Thank you. 787 00:35:32,330 --> 00:35:33,797 (CELL PHONE CHIMES) 788 00:35:33,865 --> 00:35:35,332 (EXHALES) 789 00:35:35,399 --> 00:35:38,300 - Can you hurry up? - Hang on. It's Meredith. 790 00:35:38,803 --> 00:35:40,498 She and Shepherd are having a thing. 791 00:35:40,571 --> 00:35:42,061 Oh, do you want to wait for her? 792 00:35:42,140 --> 00:35:43,903 We could give her a ride to our place, 793 00:35:43,975 --> 00:35:45,806 save her the trouble of coming over later. 794 00:35:45,877 --> 00:35:49,313 You could tuck her in, leave a little mint on her pillow. 795 00:35:49,380 --> 00:35:52,838 - Come on. She's not there that much. - She's always in our bed. 796 00:35:52,917 --> 00:35:55,010 And now Arizona is in our shower. 797 00:35:55,086 --> 00:35:57,953 I actually feel like I'm part of a commune. 798 00:35:58,022 --> 00:36:00,286 Shut up. Look, I told you it's your house, too. 799 00:36:00,358 --> 00:36:02,326 Yeah, apparently, you say that to all the girls. 800 00:36:03,227 --> 00:36:05,787 Listen, that house was always open. 801 00:36:05,863 --> 00:36:08,331 Even when Mer hated me, I could be there. 802 00:36:08,399 --> 00:36:10,833 People went through their crap, they needed a place to be, 803 00:36:10,902 --> 00:36:11,960 they came there. 804 00:36:12,036 --> 00:36:14,004 You should understand that more than anybody. 805 00:36:15,773 --> 00:36:17,673 And as long as I'm the... 806 00:36:19,343 --> 00:36:21,277 It stays open, all right? 807 00:36:23,414 --> 00:36:24,608 All right. 808 00:36:25,416 --> 00:36:27,316 And come on. 809 00:36:27,385 --> 00:36:30,946 You in my bed and Meredith in my bed are two really different things. 810 00:36:31,022 --> 00:36:32,956 - They better be. - What, you need me to prove it? 811 00:36:33,157 --> 00:36:34,419 Uh-huh. 812 00:36:48,139 --> 00:36:50,733 - Where are you going? - I think I need more convincing. 813 00:36:52,777 --> 00:36:53,835 Come on! 814 00:36:53,911 --> 00:36:55,378 (JO GIGGLING) 815 00:36:57,248 --> 00:36:58,237 (RICK EXHALES SHARPLY) 816 00:37:04,422 --> 00:37:05,548 Can I? 817 00:37:08,125 --> 00:37:09,217 Go for it. 818 00:37:21,806 --> 00:37:22,830 Hey. 819 00:37:22,907 --> 00:37:24,272 There you are. Listen, I think... 820 00:37:24,342 --> 00:37:26,207 I got your page. Why are you down here? 821 00:37:26,344 --> 00:37:28,244 Wait. (STUTTERS) What are you doing? 822 00:37:28,379 --> 00:37:30,074 You told me to be discreet, so I set up in here. 823 00:37:30,147 --> 00:37:32,513 - Nobody comes down here. - No. No. Take them down. 824 00:37:32,583 --> 00:37:34,881 - Why? - Give it back. Just give it all back. 825 00:37:34,952 --> 00:37:37,079 If she finds me with these, she will kill me. 826 00:37:37,154 --> 00:37:38,746 Just... You know what? Forget that I ever told you. 827 00:37:38,823 --> 00:37:40,848 I thought you said that everybody who needed to know knew. 828 00:37:40,925 --> 00:37:42,552 Yeah, and that's her and that's me, 829 00:37:42,660 --> 00:37:45,356 and she doesn't know that I know all of this, okay? 830 00:37:45,429 --> 00:37:48,660 - She cannot find out that I stole these. - Arizona... 831 00:37:48,733 --> 00:37:50,564 I thought that she was dangerous and reckless, 832 00:37:50,635 --> 00:37:53,103 and it turns out that she's just dying. 833 00:37:53,170 --> 00:37:55,001 And she's alone and she's smart 834 00:37:55,072 --> 00:37:57,506 - and she's funny and horny and lonely. - Arizona, listen... 835 00:37:57,575 --> 00:37:59,509 And she deserves to die however she wants to. 836 00:37:59,577 --> 00:38:01,340 And I know what to look for now, and I can watch her. 837 00:38:01,412 --> 00:38:03,471 And she deserves to die with whatever dignity she can possibly... 838 00:38:03,547 --> 00:38:05,378 Arizona, shut up and listen to me! 839 00:38:07,118 --> 00:38:10,349 I think I can remove this tumor. I think I can save her life. 840 00:38:13,891 --> 00:38:14,915 STEPHANIE: Dr. Herman? 841 00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:17,860 Can I just ask you about these scans again? 842 00:38:17,928 --> 00:38:20,453 Oh, yes. Good catch, by the way. Sharp eye. 843 00:38:20,665 --> 00:38:22,599 Is there really nothing to help their baby? 844 00:38:22,667 --> 00:38:25,830 I mean, if anyone knows some way to help them, it's you. 845 00:38:25,903 --> 00:38:28,030 Edwards, I wish I could tell you there was, 846 00:38:28,105 --> 00:38:31,040 but it wouldn't serve you or them. 847 00:38:32,143 --> 00:38:34,441 Cases like this are usually hopeless. 848 00:38:34,512 --> 00:38:38,209 This baby would have a very short, painful life. I'm sorry. 849 00:38:38,449 --> 00:38:40,917 So cute, sitting like a little Buddha. 850 00:38:46,090 --> 00:38:47,751 What was that about? 851 00:38:51,729 --> 00:38:53,822 I can get the kids if you want to just go home. 852 00:38:53,898 --> 00:38:56,366 Did you remember Zola's coat? You forgot it yesterday. 853 00:38:56,434 --> 00:38:57,560 I remembered the coat. 854 00:38:57,635 --> 00:39:01,093 She can't keep going out in the cold if she doesn't have a coat. 855 00:39:01,172 --> 00:39:03,163 - She has the coat. - Yesterday you forgot it. 856 00:39:03,240 --> 00:39:06,141 I remembered the damn coat. Why don't you trust me? 857 00:39:06,310 --> 00:39:08,972 (SCOFFS) For God's sakes, Meredith, of course I trust you. 858 00:39:09,080 --> 00:39:11,810 Why did you call Richard today for a second opinion? 859 00:39:11,982 --> 00:39:14,815 If that had been any other surgeon, Dr. Bailey, would you have done it? 860 00:39:14,885 --> 00:39:16,011 It was a surgical consult. 861 00:39:16,087 --> 00:39:18,885 It doesn't matter whether it's a surgical consult or a coat. 862 00:39:18,956 --> 00:39:21,754 You don't trust me, and all you want to do is fight me. 863 00:39:21,826 --> 00:39:22,918 I don't want to fight with you, 864 00:39:22,993 --> 00:39:24,688 but I'm not gonna compromise myself, Meredith, 865 00:39:24,762 --> 00:39:26,286 - just because you think I... - You've already done that. 866 00:39:26,364 --> 00:39:29,527 You've already compromised yourself and diminished yourself for me. 867 00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:32,433 I feel that, your pissiness and your resentment, Derek. 868 00:39:32,503 --> 00:39:35,631 You know why? Do you know why I resent you? 869 00:39:35,706 --> 00:39:37,333 Because you've never had my back on this, 870 00:39:37,408 --> 00:39:39,399 not since the day I told you I would stay. 871 00:39:39,510 --> 00:39:42,206 I told you that you and the kids were more important. 872 00:39:42,279 --> 00:39:44,577 You have been determined to prove me wrong, 873 00:39:44,648 --> 00:39:45,706 that this is the wrong choice. 874 00:39:45,783 --> 00:39:48,149 I have proven it, because you can't be happy here. 875 00:39:48,219 --> 00:39:50,915 - You diminish everyone around you. - I did this for you. 876 00:39:50,988 --> 00:39:53,320 I gave up everything for you. 877 00:39:53,391 --> 00:39:55,154 There it is. Everything. 878 00:39:55,259 --> 00:39:56,920 You gave up everything. 879 00:39:56,994 --> 00:39:58,689 That was everything to you? 880 00:39:59,730 --> 00:40:00,924 Where are you going? 881 00:40:02,433 --> 00:40:05,368 MEREDITH: Nobody's memory is perfect or complete. 882 00:40:09,473 --> 00:40:11,065 We jumble things up. 883 00:40:12,009 --> 00:40:13,340 We lose track of time. 884 00:40:13,577 --> 00:40:15,408 - Derek, slow down. - No. I'm done. 885 00:40:15,479 --> 00:40:17,640 I'm not gonna do this anymore, this constant battling. 886 00:40:17,715 --> 00:40:19,842 I'm not battling, but I just am not gonna let you just... 887 00:40:19,917 --> 00:40:21,817 Yes. Yes, you think I'm some sort of tyrant 888 00:40:21,886 --> 00:40:23,114 determined to keep you down. 889 00:40:23,187 --> 00:40:25,621 You keep you down, and now I'm paying for it. 890 00:40:25,689 --> 00:40:27,179 And I don't know how to fix it. 891 00:40:27,258 --> 00:40:30,091 - You should have just gone to DC. - Is that what you want? 892 00:40:30,161 --> 00:40:32,595 - Because that door is wide open. - That's what you want! 893 00:40:33,330 --> 00:40:36,629 Meredith, they offered me the job again today. 894 00:40:36,700 --> 00:40:38,827 I could take this job right now. 895 00:40:38,903 --> 00:40:40,268 MEREDITH: We are in one place... 896 00:40:42,373 --> 00:40:43,931 - Derek. - MEREDITH: Derek. 897 00:40:44,341 --> 00:40:45,399 Right. Meredith. 898 00:40:46,811 --> 00:40:48,073 ...then another. 899 00:40:50,414 --> 00:40:52,746 You should. Take it. 900 00:41:00,224 --> 00:41:03,318 Deborah, it's Dr. Shepherd. Glad I could catch you. 901 00:41:04,628 --> 00:41:06,323 It was great that you came by today. 902 00:41:06,397 --> 00:41:09,992 Please tell the President I would be thrilled to accept the post. 903 00:41:10,701 --> 00:41:11,929 Yes, absolutely. 904 00:41:12,002 --> 00:41:13,970 We can talk more then. 905 00:41:14,038 --> 00:41:16,268 I look forward to it. I will see you soon. 906 00:41:19,210 --> 00:41:20,734 - Good. Go. - Oh, I'm going. 907 00:41:20,811 --> 00:41:23,109 No. I mean it. Go now. 908 00:41:24,114 --> 00:41:27,572 MEREDITH: And it all feels like one long, inescapable moment. 909 00:41:27,651 --> 00:41:28,709 Go. 910 00:41:30,588 --> 00:41:32,419 So, what does it mean? 911 00:41:32,490 --> 00:41:33,479 YOUNG ELLIS: Richard! 912 00:41:33,557 --> 00:41:34,819 MEREDITH: What do we take away? 913 00:41:37,761 --> 00:41:39,661 Which pieces will haunt us? 914 00:41:39,730 --> 00:41:43,461 And I was jealous. 915 00:41:44,134 --> 00:41:45,465 So I ruined it. 916 00:41:45,536 --> 00:41:46,628 MEREDITH: Hurt us? 917 00:41:46,704 --> 00:41:48,433 YOUNG ELLIS: Richard! 918 00:41:51,175 --> 00:41:52,642 MEREDITH: End us? 919 00:41:55,179 --> 00:41:56,510 Inspire us? 920 00:41:57,281 --> 00:42:00,682 He's very dreamy. But he is not the sun. 921 00:42:01,485 --> 00:42:02,713 You are. 922 00:42:02,820 --> 00:42:05,050 MEREDITH: It's just like my mother used to say. 923 00:42:05,656 --> 00:42:07,681 "The carousel never stops turning. 924 00:42:08,959 --> 00:42:09,948 (INAUDIBLE) 925 00:42:13,731 --> 00:42:15,596 "You can't get off." 926 00:42:18,500 --> 00:42:26,500 Ripped By mstoll