1 00:00:01,941 --> 00:00:03,422 Pai, eu... 2 00:00:03,423 --> 00:00:04,961 Las pe seama ta, Wendy. 3 00:00:04,995 --> 00:00:07,281 Nu. De ce nu cumperi tu biletele 4 00:00:07,315 --> 00:00:09,598 si ne intalnim acolo? 5 00:00:11,216 --> 00:00:13,929 E bine... 6 00:00:13,969 --> 00:00:15,842 E bine asa. 7 00:00:19,462 --> 00:00:21,271 E in regula si cu asta. 8 00:00:21,305 --> 00:00:23,012 Este cam... 9 00:00:23,046 --> 00:00:24,717 O magarie. 10 00:00:25,855 --> 00:00:29,336 Nu. Nu, Wendy. Cum vrei tu. 11 00:00:29,371 --> 00:00:31,544 Ador magariile. 12 00:00:34,989 --> 00:00:37,297 Ok. Oh. 13 00:00:37,331 --> 00:00:40,939 Cobble hill. Ora 6:50. 14 00:00:40,973 --> 00:00:44,617 Nu, sa... ne vedem acolo, ok.? 15 00:00:44,651 --> 00:00:46,289 Eu... uh... 16 00:00:46,323 --> 00:00:48,093 Vreau sa-mi las niste lucruri 17 00:00:48,128 --> 00:00:49,830 la mine acasa. 18 00:00:49,864 --> 00:00:52,337 Opresc langa piata chiar acum. 19 00:00:52,371 --> 00:00:56,113 Lapte de soia. Ok. 20 00:00:56,147 --> 00:00:58,918 - Organic. - Uh... 21 00:00:58,953 --> 00:01:01,289 Ok., ma grabesc, Wendy. 22 00:01:01,324 --> 00:01:04,529 Bine, organic. Am inteles. Vorbim mai tarziu. 23 00:01:04,564 --> 00:01:07,937 Imi cer scuze, eu... nu te-am auzit intrand. 24 00:01:07,971 --> 00:01:09,942 Buna, sunt Adele Brouse. 25 00:01:09,976 --> 00:01:12,414 - Paul Weston. - Te rog sa poftesti inauntru. 26 00:01:12,449 --> 00:01:14,417 Multumesc. 27 00:01:19,999 --> 00:01:39,452 Traducerea si adaptarea: Benoniu-Eugen Cocis eu_genus@yahoo.com 28 00:01:44,337 --> 00:01:46,739 Ei bine... 29 00:01:46,774 --> 00:01:49,277 E, um... 30 00:01:49,312 --> 00:01:52,349 E multa lumina aici. 31 00:01:52,383 --> 00:01:56,923 Al meu, uh... cabinetul meu e intunecos... 32 00:01:56,957 --> 00:02:00,595 Ca... o vizuina. 33 00:02:00,630 --> 00:02:02,265 Sa cobor jaluzelele? 34 00:02:02,300 --> 00:02:04,369 Nu, sunt bine asa. 35 00:02:04,403 --> 00:02:08,542 Ar trebui sa ma debarasez de stilul meu invechit. 36 00:02:16,155 --> 00:02:19,760 Probabil ca soarele... 37 00:02:19,794 --> 00:02:22,797 imi face bine. Se spune... 38 00:02:22,831 --> 00:02:25,968 ca ajuta la somn. 39 00:02:26,836 --> 00:02:29,305 Hmm. 40 00:02:29,340 --> 00:02:31,642 Ar fi ceva, nu? Daca... 41 00:02:31,676 --> 00:02:33,444 asta ar fi de ajuns... 42 00:02:33,479 --> 00:02:35,848 o portie sanatoasa de soare, 43 00:02:35,882 --> 00:02:40,054 as iesi pur si simplu afara, si... 44 00:02:40,088 --> 00:02:42,324 N-ar mai trebui sa vin aici. 45 00:02:42,359 --> 00:02:43,859 Ai prefera sa nu fii aici. 46 00:02:43,894 --> 00:02:47,832 Perspicace, dar adevarul e ca nu ma deranjeaza. 47 00:02:47,866 --> 00:02:50,335 Cata vreme traiesc... 48 00:02:50,369 --> 00:02:53,439 - cu problema mea. - Spuneai la telefon ca-ti trebuie 49 00:02:53,474 --> 00:02:56,777 reinnoita reteta de Ambien? - Da, asa este. 50 00:02:56,811 --> 00:03:00,549 Doar atat imi trebuie, te rog. 51 00:03:03,754 --> 00:03:05,522 Cred ca ti-am explicat, 52 00:03:05,557 --> 00:03:08,626 am dificultati cu somnul. 53 00:03:08,661 --> 00:03:12,465 Doctorul din Baltimore imi reinnoia reteta la distanta, 54 00:03:12,499 --> 00:03:15,735 dar acum nu mai vrea. 55 00:03:15,770 --> 00:03:20,408 Mi-a spus sa gasesc pe cineva din localitate. 56 00:03:20,443 --> 00:03:21,910 Esti in apropiere, 57 00:03:21,944 --> 00:03:25,315 aveai o sedinta descoperita, asa ca... 58 00:03:25,349 --> 00:03:27,384 Inteleg. 59 00:03:27,418 --> 00:03:29,653 De cand iei Ambien? 60 00:03:29,688 --> 00:03:33,859 Cam de cinci ani, cu... intreruperi. 61 00:03:35,562 --> 00:03:37,497 - In fiecare noapte? - Pai, in fiecare noapte 62 00:03:37,532 --> 00:03:40,368 de un an de zile, poate... stiu si eu... 63 00:03:40,402 --> 00:03:42,470 14... 14 luni. 64 00:03:43,439 --> 00:03:45,107 Un an sau 14 luni? 65 00:03:45,141 --> 00:03:47,343 14 luni. 66 00:03:48,879 --> 00:03:51,848 - De cate miligrame? - 10. 67 00:03:54,820 --> 00:03:56,954 Doctorul din Baltimore a fost terapeutul tau? 68 00:03:56,988 --> 00:03:59,489 - Medicul meu. - Medicul tau personal? 69 00:03:59,523 --> 00:04:02,757 Da, medicul la care apelam de obicei. Da. 70 00:04:02,792 --> 00:04:05,526 Esti nou venit in New York? 71 00:04:05,561 --> 00:04:07,428 De cand locuiesti aici? 72 00:04:07,462 --> 00:04:10,163 De doi ani... doi ani si o luna. 73 00:04:10,198 --> 00:04:12,132 Cam de cand practici si tu. 74 00:04:12,166 --> 00:04:15,868 Si exact trei nopti de cand am ramas fara Ambien. 75 00:04:20,406 --> 00:04:22,173 Imi cer scuze. 76 00:04:22,208 --> 00:04:25,977 N-am mai dormit de marti. 77 00:04:26,011 --> 00:04:27,878 Pot aparea probleme daca intrerupi brusc. 78 00:04:27,912 --> 00:04:30,413 Asa e. Crede-ma, stiu ce inseamna. 79 00:04:30,448 --> 00:04:32,615 Nu incetam sa le iau 80 00:04:32,650 --> 00:04:34,617 daca nu mi s-ar fi terminat. 81 00:04:34,651 --> 00:04:39,121 Am inceput sa mai iau o jumatate, in toiul noptii. 82 00:04:39,155 --> 00:04:43,124 - O jumatate... - de pastila. 83 00:04:43,158 --> 00:04:45,159 O jumatate de 10 miligrame, 84 00:04:45,193 --> 00:04:48,261 adica 5 miligrame. 85 00:04:50,064 --> 00:04:51,698 Am inteles. 86 00:04:51,732 --> 00:04:55,234 La inceput de saptamana am vazut ca sticluta era goala. 87 00:04:55,268 --> 00:04:57,636 Aveam o programare la neurolog, 88 00:04:57,670 --> 00:04:59,304 luni dimineata la prima ora, asa ca mi-am spus, 89 00:04:59,339 --> 00:05:01,673 "ei bine, am sa trec cumva peste asta 90 00:05:01,708 --> 00:05:04,209 dupa care o sa-l rog sa-mi scrie o reteta." 91 00:05:04,243 --> 00:05:06,777 Dar cum n-am putut sa fac asta 92 00:05:06,812 --> 00:05:10,680 l-am sunat Alan Burdick. 93 00:05:10,715 --> 00:05:12,415 Mi te-a recomandat. 94 00:05:12,450 --> 00:05:14,784 - Locuiesc aproape. - Corect. 95 00:05:14,819 --> 00:05:19,322 Trebuie sa recunosc, nu ma asteptam sa fii... 96 00:05:19,356 --> 00:05:23,059 atat de... tanara. 97 00:05:24,294 --> 00:05:26,461 Te trezesti dupa cateva ore si... 98 00:05:26,496 --> 00:05:29,597 Da, ma trezesc dupa cateva ore 99 00:05:29,632 --> 00:05:32,934 si nu mai pot sa adorm. Asa ca... 100 00:05:32,968 --> 00:05:37,538 Mai iau o pastila daca mai am ce lua. 101 00:05:37,572 --> 00:05:39,873 De unde il stii pe Alan Burdick? 102 00:05:39,907 --> 00:05:41,841 Oh, am facut facultatea impreuna 103 00:05:41,876 --> 00:05:43,843 in Georgetown. Am... am fost amici, 104 00:05:43,877 --> 00:05:45,711 am continuat sa pastram legatura. 105 00:05:45,745 --> 00:05:47,513 E un doctor excelent. - Da, este. 106 00:05:47,547 --> 00:05:49,881 A spus acelasi lucru si despre tine. 107 00:05:51,650 --> 00:05:55,352 Macar ca nu n-am idee, de unde ar sti. 108 00:05:55,387 --> 00:05:59,489 Pentru ca tu nu practici doar de... cat, 109 00:05:59,523 --> 00:06:02,158 doi, trei ani cel mult? 110 00:06:02,192 --> 00:06:06,061 E a doua oara cand imi spui cat de tanara ma crezi. 111 00:06:07,397 --> 00:06:09,364 Te deranjeaza varsta mea? 112 00:06:09,398 --> 00:06:12,833 Nu. Adevarul e ca, indiferent cata carte ai, 113 00:06:12,868 --> 00:06:15,469 sunt sigur ca ai invatat sa scrii pana acum. 114 00:06:15,503 --> 00:06:19,905 In caz ca esti in stare sa imi scrii o reteta, 115 00:06:19,940 --> 00:06:22,408 atunci varsta ta chiar nu ma deranjeaza. 116 00:06:24,377 --> 00:06:27,780 Uite ce e, trebuia sa fiu mai clar cu tine, 117 00:06:27,814 --> 00:06:29,548 cand am sunat ieri. 118 00:06:29,582 --> 00:06:32,751 Sunt sub tratament de 20 de ani 119 00:06:32,785 --> 00:06:34,385 cu mici intreruperi. Si sunt... 120 00:06:34,419 --> 00:06:37,755 N-am venit azi aici in ideea de a continua. 121 00:06:37,789 --> 00:06:39,723 - Te inteleg. - Ok. 122 00:06:39,757 --> 00:06:43,526 Totusi nu-ti pot prelungi medicatia fara... 123 00:06:43,560 --> 00:06:47,563 Da, inteleg. Trebuie sa-ti faci treaba. 124 00:06:47,597 --> 00:06:49,798 Daca vrei sa imi pui niste intrebari, atunci... 125 00:06:49,832 --> 00:06:51,566 Nicio problema. 126 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:55,937 Apoi ai scapat de mine. 127 00:06:55,971 --> 00:06:58,172 Cu cine ai facut treatment? 128 00:06:58,206 --> 00:07:02,308 Cu Gina Toll de la Institutul de Psihahaliza din Washington-Baltimore. 129 00:07:02,343 --> 00:07:03,610 Nu o cunosc. 130 00:07:03,644 --> 00:07:06,178 Mi-a fost profesoara la institut. 131 00:07:06,213 --> 00:07:09,048 E unul din cei mai buni psihanalisti. 132 00:07:09,082 --> 00:07:13,685 M-a supervizat multi ani, apoi a fost psihologul meu. 133 00:07:13,719 --> 00:07:18,189 A analizat-o si pe sotia mea destul de multa vreme. 134 00:07:18,223 --> 00:07:19,890 Impreuna? 135 00:07:19,925 --> 00:07:21,825 Da, impreuna. 136 00:07:21,860 --> 00:07:23,560 Destul de multa bataie de cap. 137 00:07:23,594 --> 00:07:25,028 Da. 138 00:07:25,062 --> 00:07:27,229 Iar tu esti psihanalist? 139 00:07:27,264 --> 00:07:28,931 Da. 140 00:07:28,965 --> 00:07:32,433 Bine. Atunci de ce nu imi spui exact 141 00:07:32,468 --> 00:07:34,435 ce fel de probleme ai cu somnul? 142 00:07:36,604 --> 00:07:38,205 Pai, la inceput 143 00:07:38,239 --> 00:07:42,074 nu puteam sa adorm, stii. 144 00:07:42,109 --> 00:07:44,076 Luam o pastila 145 00:07:44,110 --> 00:07:46,712 si ma tinea in jur de sase ore. 146 00:07:46,746 --> 00:07:48,880 - Dar nu mai tine? - Nu, nu mai tine. 147 00:07:48,914 --> 00:07:51,616 Ma trezesc dupa doua sau trei ore. 148 00:07:51,650 --> 00:07:54,351 Si cum te simti ca dormi atat de putin? 149 00:07:54,386 --> 00:07:57,621 - Esti agitat? - Nu. N-as putea spune, nu. 150 00:07:57,655 --> 00:08:00,357 - Ingrijorat? - Obosit. 151 00:08:00,391 --> 00:08:02,325 La ce te gandesti? 152 00:08:02,359 --> 00:08:05,361 Ca vreau mai mult Ambien. 153 00:08:07,363 --> 00:08:09,764 Asculta, niciodata nu am dormit bine. 154 00:08:09,799 --> 00:08:12,233 Mereu am avut probleme sa adorm. 155 00:08:12,267 --> 00:08:14,702 Dar cand reusesti sa adormi, dormi profund? 156 00:08:14,736 --> 00:08:16,970 - Esti nelinistit? - Nu prea. 157 00:08:17,005 --> 00:08:19,206 Visezi des? Ai cosmaruri? 158 00:08:19,240 --> 00:08:22,308 Nu-i ceva neobisnuit pentru cei care au probleme cu somnul. 159 00:08:26,946 --> 00:08:30,048 De cateva luni ma tot trezesc 160 00:08:30,082 --> 00:08:33,117 avand acelasi vis dar... 161 00:08:33,151 --> 00:08:35,252 Uite ce e, chiar nu vreu sa discutam despre asta. 162 00:08:35,287 --> 00:08:38,822 Cunosc semnificatia visului. Stiu ce refulez. 163 00:08:38,857 --> 00:08:43,126 Stiu ce incearca sa imi comunice subconstientul dar... 164 00:08:44,761 --> 00:08:47,162 Nu vrei sa-mi spui nici macar in general... 165 00:08:47,197 --> 00:08:50,098 - Nu, nu vreau. - Bine. 166 00:08:52,034 --> 00:08:54,402 Ai vrea sa-mi spui ce crezi ca vrea 167 00:08:54,436 --> 00:08:57,337 visul sa iti comunice? 168 00:09:10,149 --> 00:09:13,684 Am avut o pacienta care a venit pentru prima oara 169 00:09:13,719 --> 00:09:17,087 la inceput de saptamana... Frances. 170 00:09:17,121 --> 00:09:21,157 E... E actrita... 171 00:09:21,191 --> 00:09:23,359 Actrita renumita... 172 00:09:23,393 --> 00:09:27,662 dar totusi nu atat de renumita cat se crede. 173 00:09:27,697 --> 00:09:29,497 Poate ca nu era cazul... 174 00:09:29,532 --> 00:09:33,067 Presupun ca sti despre cine vorbesc, dupa prenume. 175 00:09:33,101 --> 00:09:35,269 Sa zicem ca nu. 176 00:09:35,303 --> 00:09:38,338 Mai mult ma intereseaza ce legatura are ea cu visul tau. 177 00:09:38,372 --> 00:09:42,475 Ok. Sora ei e pe moarte, are cancer la san... 178 00:09:42,509 --> 00:09:45,577 Sora ei mai mica, Patricia. 179 00:09:45,612 --> 00:09:47,546 Nu mi-a spus direct. 180 00:09:47,580 --> 00:09:49,781 Avea altele sa-mi zica. 181 00:09:49,815 --> 00:09:53,317 E... cum ma asteptam sa fie, stii... 182 00:09:53,352 --> 00:09:55,619 Egocentrista, narcisista, 183 00:09:55,654 --> 00:09:58,488 A jucat in "Beckett", la Londra 184 00:09:58,523 --> 00:10:00,757 Dupa ce mi-a spus asta... 185 00:10:02,660 --> 00:10:04,060 Ce? 186 00:10:04,094 --> 00:10:06,628 A inceput sa vorbeasca de un test genetic 187 00:10:06,663 --> 00:10:09,831 pentru cancerul de san... gena brca1 . 188 00:10:09,865 --> 00:10:12,800 Ca l-a avut mama ei, iar acum sora ei, 189 00:10:12,835 --> 00:10:16,737 ca se mosteneste. 190 00:10:24,878 --> 00:10:28,680 Tatal a murit de Parkinson acum doi ani. 191 00:10:30,149 --> 00:10:33,484 De asta ai fost la neurolog saptamana trecuta. 192 00:10:33,519 --> 00:10:36,987 Ti-e teama sa nu ai Parkinson. 193 00:10:38,589 --> 00:10:41,991 Mainile imi tremura cam de trei saptamani. 194 00:10:43,660 --> 00:10:47,662 - Ai avut si alte simtome? - Rigiditate, nesiguranta. 195 00:10:47,697 --> 00:10:51,099 Scap lucruri. 196 00:10:51,133 --> 00:10:54,501 - Ai spune ca teama... - nu-i o temere, doctore. 197 00:10:54,536 --> 00:10:57,237 E un fapt. Mainile imi tremura. 198 00:10:57,271 --> 00:10:59,172 Tata a avut Parkinson. 199 00:10:59,206 --> 00:11:01,507 De asta am consultat un neurolog, 200 00:11:01,541 --> 00:11:04,476 ca neurologul sa-mi confirme. 201 00:11:04,511 --> 00:11:06,278 Aceasta... 202 00:11:06,312 --> 00:11:08,246 Aceasta ingrijorare vis-a-vis de Parkinson... 203 00:11:08,280 --> 00:11:11,448 Crezi ca are vreo legatura cu visul pe care il ai? 204 00:11:11,483 --> 00:11:15,251 Am ignorat simptomele evidente ale bolii 205 00:11:15,286 --> 00:11:19,088 dar subconstientul meu nu vrea sa le mai ignor. 206 00:11:20,724 --> 00:11:23,625 Trebuie sa-ti fi fost foarte greu sa treci peste... moartea tatalui. 207 00:11:26,829 --> 00:11:31,032 Se intampla in timpul tratamentului cu Gina Toll? 208 00:11:31,066 --> 00:11:33,701 - Ai simtit... - te rog, ajunge. 209 00:11:33,735 --> 00:11:36,670 Am trecut peste asta. 210 00:11:36,704 --> 00:11:41,007 Frustrarea ca tata ne-a parasit cand eram practic inca copil. 211 00:11:41,041 --> 00:11:43,976 Ca mama s-a sinucis cand aveam 17 ani; 212 00:11:44,011 --> 00:11:47,145 Nevoia de a salva oameni drept consecinta... 213 00:11:47,180 --> 00:11:49,681 Mi s-au spus chestiile astea la nesfarsit 214 00:11:49,715 --> 00:11:52,816 de unul din cei mai buni psihanalisti de pe Coasta de Est. 215 00:11:52,851 --> 00:11:56,453 Stiu toate astea. 216 00:11:56,487 --> 00:11:59,555 Chiar n-ar mai fi nimic ... 217 00:11:59,590 --> 00:12:02,191 Nimic cu ce ai putea sa vii in completare. 218 00:12:02,225 --> 00:12:04,993 Vreau sa ma asigur ca mi-e clar ceva. 219 00:12:05,028 --> 00:12:07,328 Bine. 220 00:12:07,363 --> 00:12:10,598 - Ai zis ca Gina ti-a fost profesoara. - Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 221 00:12:10,632 --> 00:12:13,934 - Apoi supervisorul tau? - Da. 222 00:12:13,968 --> 00:12:15,869 - Dupa care, psihanalistul tau. - Da. 223 00:12:15,903 --> 00:12:17,938 V-a consultat pe tine si sotia ta 224 00:12:17,972 --> 00:12:20,373 - in terapia de cuplu? - Mm-hmm, corect. 225 00:12:21,575 --> 00:12:24,343 Da, inteleg. 226 00:12:25,445 --> 00:12:27,312 Cum adica, intelegi? 227 00:12:27,346 --> 00:12:30,681 - Ce vrei sa insinuezi? - Nu insinuez nimic. 228 00:12:30,716 --> 00:12:32,650 Incerc sa inteleg metodele aplicate 229 00:12:32,684 --> 00:12:36,553 de o foarte buna psihanalista de pe Coasta de Est. 230 00:12:37,488 --> 00:12:39,722 Iti bati joc de mine? 231 00:12:39,757 --> 00:12:41,791 - Cati ani ai, vreo 36? 232 00:12:41,825 --> 00:12:44,326 De cat timp practici, trei sau patru ani cel mult? 233 00:12:44,361 --> 00:12:48,397 Cine naiba te crezi sa-mi verifici 20 de ani de tratament? 234 00:12:50,099 --> 00:12:54,469 Te-ai opus discutiilor inca de cand ai intrat. 235 00:12:54,503 --> 00:12:58,939 Incerc sa imi dau seama care ar fi motivul. 236 00:13:05,179 --> 00:13:07,646 Imi cer scuze daca te-am jignit. 237 00:13:10,150 --> 00:13:12,317 Pari stresat. 238 00:13:12,352 --> 00:13:15,720 Normal ca sunt stresat. N-am dormit toata saptamna. 239 00:13:17,723 --> 00:13:20,391 Sotia a divortat de mine. Ma indepartez de copii mei 240 00:13:20,425 --> 00:13:22,993 care locuiesc cu ea si cu partenerul ei. 241 00:13:23,027 --> 00:13:26,629 Se va marita. Eu tocmai constientizez ca am o boala. 242 00:13:26,664 --> 00:13:31,266 Care o sa ma imobilizeze intr-un scaun... paralizat... 243 00:13:31,301 --> 00:13:33,702 peste 5 ani, 244 00:13:33,736 --> 00:13:36,638 si poate ma va ucide peste 10. 245 00:13:36,672 --> 00:13:39,674 Cred ca sunt destule motive sa fiu stresat. 246 00:13:39,708 --> 00:13:42,609 Si poate suficiente ca sa am probleme cu somnul, nu crezi? 247 00:13:42,644 --> 00:13:45,111 Evident ca da. 248 00:13:47,414 --> 00:13:49,148 Da. 249 00:13:49,182 --> 00:13:51,917 Inainte sa completez reteta, 250 00:13:51,951 --> 00:13:55,120 trebuie sa-ti pun niste intrebari despre sanatate. 251 00:13:55,154 --> 00:13:57,221 Mai ai si alte afectiuni 252 00:13:57,256 --> 00:13:59,757 decat cele neurologice pe care le-ai mentionat? 253 00:13:59,791 --> 00:14:01,025 Nu. 254 00:14:01,059 --> 00:14:03,060 Esti sub tratament medicamentos? 255 00:14:03,094 --> 00:14:05,061 Uh, doar... 256 00:14:05,096 --> 00:14:08,464 Lipitor, 20 de mg pe zi; 257 00:14:08,499 --> 00:14:12,635 Oh, aspirina pentru copii, o tableta pe zi. 258 00:14:12,669 --> 00:14:14,770 - 81 de mg? - Da. 259 00:14:14,804 --> 00:14:17,372 - Altceva? - Uite, vreau sa sti ca 260 00:14:17,407 --> 00:14:20,175 tratamentul cu Gina ... s-a dovedit util. 261 00:14:20,209 --> 00:14:22,877 Cum spuneam, e foarte capabila. 262 00:14:22,911 --> 00:14:27,247 Stie foarte bine ce are de facut la o adica. 263 00:14:27,282 --> 00:14:28,882 Ma stie bine. 264 00:14:28,916 --> 00:14:32,818 A existat incredere si respect intre noi. 265 00:14:32,853 --> 00:14:35,220 Si... uh... 266 00:14:35,255 --> 00:14:37,722 Da. 267 00:14:37,757 --> 00:14:39,991 Inteleg. 268 00:14:42,327 --> 00:14:45,229 Imi cer scuze daca te-ai simtit ofensat. 269 00:14:50,101 --> 00:14:53,236 Pot sa te intreb ce simti 270 00:14:53,270 --> 00:14:55,304 cand citesti romanul propriul tau psihanalist? 271 00:14:55,338 --> 00:14:59,474 Nu puteam sa nu-l observ. 272 00:14:59,509 --> 00:15:01,943 E romanul ei, nu? Gina Toll? 273 00:15:01,977 --> 00:15:04,912 Da. Da. 274 00:15:04,946 --> 00:15:07,147 Pai, cum iti spuneam, 275 00:15:07,182 --> 00:15:09,549 este o femeie extrem de capabila. 276 00:15:09,584 --> 00:15:11,851 Are pacienti, supervizeaza, scrie. 277 00:15:11,886 --> 00:15:14,754 N-ar fi exclus sa apara la trapez. 278 00:15:14,788 --> 00:15:18,056 Am vazut reclama despre ea in ziar, ieri. 279 00:15:18,091 --> 00:15:21,659 Venind incoace, am trecut pe langa libraria strazii. 280 00:15:21,694 --> 00:15:25,429 Am zarit-o in vitrina, asa ca... 281 00:15:25,464 --> 00:15:27,431 Nu m-am putut abtine. 282 00:15:27,465 --> 00:15:30,133 Adica, daca ma gandesc putin la parerea ta despre carte, 283 00:15:30,168 --> 00:15:32,268 ti-as fi cerut o punga. - Si care-i parerea mea? 284 00:15:32,303 --> 00:15:34,537 - Ei... - Nu, spune-mi ce crezi. 285 00:15:34,571 --> 00:15:36,171 Chiar trebuie sa iti spun? 286 00:15:36,206 --> 00:15:38,140 Un pacient intra in cabinetul unui nou terapeut 287 00:15:38,174 --> 00:15:40,775 tinand in mana o carte scrisa de vechiul sau terapeut. 288 00:15:40,810 --> 00:15:44,345 Cu chipul ei enorm pe coperta din spate? 289 00:15:44,379 --> 00:15:45,646 Este... 290 00:15:45,680 --> 00:15:47,748 Ce? Ce voiai sa spui? 291 00:15:50,418 --> 00:15:54,153 Este oarecum... jenant, zau. 292 00:15:54,187 --> 00:15:57,889 Ca un scut sau aparatoare 293 00:15:57,924 --> 00:16:00,225 ori, stii, ca un fel de carte de vizita. 294 00:16:00,259 --> 00:16:02,594 _ Carte de vizita? - Te rog. 295 00:16:02,628 --> 00:16:06,730 Doamne, ce pacat ca nu am o punga. Hmm. 296 00:16:07,899 --> 00:16:10,600 Da. Poza e destul de reusita. 297 00:16:13,204 --> 00:16:15,771 E grafica color, 298 00:16:15,806 --> 00:16:17,706 dar arata bine. 299 00:16:19,976 --> 00:16:21,609 Ce zambet satisfacut! 300 00:16:21,644 --> 00:16:24,211 Foarte multumita de ea. 301 00:16:24,246 --> 00:16:27,814 Cred si eu, uh... cu o reclama ca asta. 302 00:16:27,849 --> 00:16:29,950 Ai citit pe spate? 303 00:16:29,984 --> 00:16:32,485 "intuitiva si abila. 304 00:16:32,519 --> 00:16:36,488 Incursiunea unui maestru in chinuitul psihic uman." 305 00:16:36,523 --> 00:16:38,423 Zice Lorrie Moore. 306 00:16:38,458 --> 00:16:43,294 "Inteleapta si profund empatica"... Amy Bloom. 307 00:16:43,328 --> 00:16:45,429 Presupun... Cred ca-i buna. 308 00:16:45,463 --> 00:16:48,865 Ce simti cand citesti aceste pareri? 309 00:16:51,601 --> 00:16:54,436 Laude la adresa unei femei cu un talent si intelect 310 00:16:54,471 --> 00:16:56,605 pe care spuneai ca le respecti. Ai citit ca... 311 00:16:56,639 --> 00:16:59,240 - Ma bucur pentru ea. - Sincer - Ok. 312 00:16:59,274 --> 00:17:03,343 Pai vezi, nu pretind ca... ca nu-i complicat, 313 00:17:03,378 --> 00:17:07,080 Exista un pic de... gelozie. 314 00:17:07,114 --> 00:17:09,582 Evident, dar... desigur. 315 00:17:09,616 --> 00:17:12,484 Ar trebui sa astept pana citesc eu personal. 316 00:17:12,519 --> 00:17:15,020 Dar... dar eu uh... Ma bucur pentru ea, da. 317 00:17:15,054 --> 00:17:17,322 De ce esti gelos? 318 00:17:20,559 --> 00:17:23,327 Pai, e clar ca acum duce o altfel de viata, 319 00:17:23,361 --> 00:17:26,329 a gasit o cale sa scape... 320 00:17:26,363 --> 00:17:29,432 de pacienti ca mine. 321 00:17:29,466 --> 00:17:31,467 Mare isprava... ca o pasare phoenix. 322 00:17:31,501 --> 00:17:34,002 De ce esti convins ca Gina a vrut sa scape de tine? 323 00:17:34,036 --> 00:17:38,105 Acorda-mi 10 minute si totul o sa-ti fie cat se poate clar. 324 00:17:40,275 --> 00:17:42,976 Poate ca deja banuiesti despre ce e vorba. 325 00:17:43,010 --> 00:17:46,879 - Nu. N-am idee. - Esti politicoasa. 326 00:17:48,448 --> 00:17:51,483 Simti si tu nevoia asta, sa scapi de pacientii tai? 327 00:17:53,219 --> 00:17:55,953 Stii, ii spuneam odata Ginei 328 00:17:55,987 --> 00:17:59,389 ca alaturi de pacientii mei ma simt de parca... 329 00:17:59,424 --> 00:18:03,426 am fi doi soareci prinsi intr-o cursa... 330 00:18:03,460 --> 00:18:06,996 blocati, imobili, 331 00:18:07,030 --> 00:18:09,864 neajungand niciunde. 332 00:18:09,899 --> 00:18:12,033 Nu i-a placut deloc sa auda asta. 333 00:18:12,067 --> 00:18:14,335 Inca mai ai impresia asta? 334 00:18:15,837 --> 00:18:17,937 Sunt psiholog de... 335 00:18:17,972 --> 00:18:19,839 De 25 de ani, stii? 336 00:18:19,873 --> 00:18:22,875 - Te inteleg. - N-ai cum sa ma intelegi acum, 337 00:18:22,909 --> 00:18:24,510 dar vei intelege. 338 00:18:24,544 --> 00:18:26,745 - Devine... - Cum? 339 00:18:26,779 --> 00:18:29,614 Frustrant. Frustrant. 340 00:18:30,849 --> 00:18:33,283 Incepi sa-ti dai seama de limite, 341 00:18:33,318 --> 00:18:35,686 ca totul e fals. 342 00:18:35,720 --> 00:18:38,254 In ce fel? 343 00:18:38,289 --> 00:18:40,723 Sunt foarte curioasa. 344 00:18:41,725 --> 00:18:44,193 Alt psihanalist sa-l am in fata mea... 345 00:18:44,227 --> 00:18:46,728 Chiar vreau sa cunosc din experienta ta. 346 00:18:46,762 --> 00:18:49,397 Mi-ar placea... sa stiu ce ma asteapta. 347 00:18:50,465 --> 00:18:54,267 Acest adolescent, Jesse. 348 00:18:54,302 --> 00:18:57,236 Are 16 ani, 349 00:18:57,271 --> 00:19:00,773 adoptat, gay, 350 00:19:02,442 --> 00:19:06,744 agresiv... respinge pe toata lumea. 351 00:19:06,779 --> 00:19:09,680 In fine, um... 352 00:19:09,714 --> 00:19:14,084 Mama lui naturala l-a sunat saptamana asta 353 00:19:14,118 --> 00:19:16,719 asa din senin. 354 00:19:16,754 --> 00:19:19,855 N-a putut sa spuna nimanui, nici macar mamei sale, 355 00:19:19,890 --> 00:19:22,524 - Niciunui prieten... - dar ti-a spus tie? 356 00:19:22,558 --> 00:19:24,559 Da. 357 00:19:25,494 --> 00:19:27,495 Mi-a spus mie. 358 00:19:27,529 --> 00:19:30,798 L-am ascultat cu atentie. 359 00:19:32,533 --> 00:19:36,669 Sunt momente in incaperea aia cand simt... 360 00:19:36,703 --> 00:19:40,105 ca chiar comunic cu el, 361 00:19:40,140 --> 00:19:43,808 interactionam. 362 00:19:43,843 --> 00:19:45,843 Apoi brusc se retrage in lumea... 363 00:19:45,878 --> 00:19:48,279 In lumea reala, cea actuala... 364 00:19:48,313 --> 00:19:50,314 si... 365 00:19:50,348 --> 00:19:52,149 se razvrateste in sine 366 00:19:52,183 --> 00:19:56,319 iar tot ce realizam impreuna se duce pur si simplu... 367 00:19:57,788 --> 00:19:59,221 pe apa sambetei. 368 00:20:00,557 --> 00:20:03,091 Cunosc acest sentiment. 369 00:20:03,126 --> 00:20:05,026 E extrem de frustrant 370 00:20:05,061 --> 00:20:08,129 - Sa simti ca nu progresezi. - Mm-hmm. 371 00:20:08,163 --> 00:20:13,266 Dar nu crezi ca doar faptul ca il asculti, conteaza pentru el? 372 00:20:14,435 --> 00:20:17,303 Mai am unul, unul pacient nou... 373 00:20:17,337 --> 00:20:21,106 Emigrant din Calcutta. 374 00:20:21,140 --> 00:20:23,274 Sotia i-a murit acum sase luni. 375 00:20:23,309 --> 00:20:25,510 Fiul si nora sa 376 00:20:25,544 --> 00:20:27,311 il tin izolat in camera de oaspeti... 377 00:20:27,345 --> 00:20:29,580 Fara prieteni sau cineva cu care sa schimbe o vorba. 378 00:20:29,614 --> 00:20:31,314 Asa ca l-au tarat la cabinetul meu 379 00:20:31,349 --> 00:20:34,717 ca sa fac sa-i fie mai bine. 380 00:20:34,752 --> 00:20:36,953 Tot ce isi doreste... 381 00:20:36,987 --> 00:20:39,755 Tot ce vrea de la mine 382 00:20:39,789 --> 00:20:42,057 e sa-i aduc sotia inapoi. 383 00:20:44,493 --> 00:20:48,195 Are cel mai singuratic chip pe care l-am vazut vreodata. 384 00:20:50,031 --> 00:20:53,767 Hmm. Sta in fata mea ca un neputincios, 385 00:20:53,801 --> 00:20:57,336 fara pic de credinta ca as putea sa-l ajut cumva. 386 00:20:57,371 --> 00:21:01,407 Uneori imi vine sa-i spun, "Sunil, ai dreptate. 387 00:21:01,441 --> 00:21:05,643 Chiar nu pot face nimic pentru tine." 388 00:21:09,447 --> 00:21:12,082 I-ai descris pe ambii pacienti 389 00:21:12,116 --> 00:21:14,884 ca neavand cu cine sa discute, cui sa se confeseze... 390 00:21:14,919 --> 00:21:16,986 In afara cabinetului tau. 391 00:21:17,021 --> 00:21:19,789 Dar tu? 392 00:21:22,492 --> 00:21:24,726 Eu... ce... 393 00:21:24,761 --> 00:21:26,895 Eu ce? 394 00:21:26,929 --> 00:21:30,598 Tot ce-i mai important in viata ta... 395 00:21:30,632 --> 00:21:33,000 Cei pe care i-ai amintit aici... 396 00:21:33,034 --> 00:21:37,604 Tatal tau, sotia, Gina... s-a terminat. 397 00:21:37,638 --> 00:21:42,174 Spui ca-ti vezi copiii tot mai putin. 398 00:21:42,209 --> 00:21:44,476 Adica, ai pe cineva... vreun prieten, 399 00:21:44,511 --> 00:21:48,146 vreun tovaras, o persoana adulta... cu cine sa discuti? 400 00:21:50,449 --> 00:21:52,316 Spuneai ca ai fost prieten in facultate 401 00:21:52,351 --> 00:21:55,553 cu Dr. Burdick care m-a recomandat. 402 00:21:55,587 --> 00:21:58,588 - Vorbesti cu el? - Da dar, uh... 403 00:21:58,623 --> 00:22:00,323 Nu. Nu suntem chiar prieteni. 404 00:22:00,358 --> 00:22:02,458 Mai degraba cunostinte vechi. 405 00:22:02,493 --> 00:22:06,395 Dar da, este cineva cu care discut. 406 00:22:06,429 --> 00:22:09,631 Am o... O cheama Wendy. 407 00:22:09,665 --> 00:22:11,032 Ne mai vedem din cand in cand. 408 00:22:11,066 --> 00:22:13,267 Da, vorbesc cu ea. 409 00:22:13,302 --> 00:22:15,202 Noi doi... 410 00:22:15,237 --> 00:22:17,538 discutam. 411 00:22:17,572 --> 00:22:20,674 Cea cu care vorbeai la telefon cand ai asteptat in hol? 412 00:22:20,708 --> 00:22:24,076 - Da. - I-ai spus ca te aflai altundeva. 413 00:22:24,111 --> 00:22:26,245 Unde, la magazin? 414 00:22:28,248 --> 00:22:30,315 Ei bine, ea are 37 de ani. Eu am 57. 415 00:22:30,349 --> 00:22:32,450 N-am gasit inca locul si momentul 416 00:22:32,484 --> 00:22:34,785 in care sa fiu dispus sa-i spun 417 00:22:34,820 --> 00:22:36,286 ca am Parkinson. 418 00:22:36,321 --> 00:22:39,422 Inteleg ca nu vrei sa-i spui prietenei 419 00:22:39,457 --> 00:22:41,991 ca s-ar putea sa ai Parkinson, 420 00:22:42,026 --> 00:22:44,794 dar sa n-o lasi sa stie ca ai sedinta la psiholog 421 00:22:44,828 --> 00:22:46,762 nu prea mai inteleg. 422 00:22:46,797 --> 00:22:48,730 N-ai venit la mine pentru Parkinson. 423 00:22:48,765 --> 00:22:51,266 Totusi, are.. are legatura cu asta, nu-i asa? 424 00:22:54,103 --> 00:22:56,537 Cum asa? Tot am un vis, si nu pot sa dorm. 425 00:22:56,571 --> 00:22:58,338 Pentru ca nu pot sa dorm, ma aflu aici... 426 00:22:58,373 --> 00:23:00,007 Mai ca intarziu la film, 427 00:23:00,041 --> 00:23:03,443 asteptand sa-mi scrii o reteta. 428 00:23:04,344 --> 00:23:06,112 Am priceput. 429 00:23:10,450 --> 00:23:13,485 - Mergi la film? - Da. 430 00:23:13,519 --> 00:23:15,587 Cu Wendy? 431 00:23:15,621 --> 00:23:18,556 Da, Wendy si cu mine. 432 00:23:18,590 --> 00:23:20,691 Am sa-ti prescriu niste medicamente ce le recomand. 433 00:23:20,725 --> 00:23:23,294 Pe unii i-a ajutat sa doarma in timpul noptii. 434 00:23:23,328 --> 00:23:25,362 - Multumesc. - Tine minte... 435 00:23:25,397 --> 00:23:29,099 Nu mai poti lua una decat dupa sase ore. 436 00:23:30,234 --> 00:23:32,267 Cum ai dormit azi-noapte? 437 00:23:32,302 --> 00:23:35,470 M-am trezit la 2:30 438 00:23:35,505 --> 00:23:37,405 si n-am mai putut adormi. 439 00:23:37,439 --> 00:23:40,107 - Din visul acela? - Mm-hmm. 440 00:23:45,746 --> 00:23:48,715 Ai folosit cuvinte asemanatoare cand vorbeai 441 00:23:48,749 --> 00:23:51,584 nu doar de posibilitatea sa ai Parkinson 442 00:23:51,618 --> 00:23:55,954 ci si de experienta ta ca terapeut. 443 00:23:55,988 --> 00:23:59,757 Ziceai de Sunil care sta acolo izolat in camera de oaspeti, 444 00:23:59,791 --> 00:24:04,628 ca te simti prins intr-o cursa de soareci alaturi de pacienti. 445 00:24:04,662 --> 00:24:08,164 Acelasi limbaj: evadare si blocaj 446 00:24:08,198 --> 00:24:11,967 ai folosit cand te refereai la Gina. 447 00:24:14,904 --> 00:24:19,574 Ma intreb daca visul tau nu e vizual similar. 448 00:24:23,144 --> 00:24:24,912 Nu. 449 00:24:25,913 --> 00:24:28,648 Chiar nu. 450 00:24:35,388 --> 00:24:37,522 Iti multumesc. 451 00:24:40,426 --> 00:24:42,727 O ultima intrebare? 452 00:24:42,761 --> 00:24:44,428 Da. 453 00:24:44,463 --> 00:24:46,897 Spuneai ca ai avut iar acest vis azi-noapte? 454 00:24:46,932 --> 00:24:47,931 Da. 455 00:24:47,966 --> 00:24:50,199 Ceva ma nedumereste... 456 00:24:50,234 --> 00:24:54,102 Daca acum cateva nopti i-ai descifrat mesajul, 457 00:24:54,137 --> 00:24:56,738 continutul lui ti-a fost comunicat de la nivel subconstient 458 00:24:56,772 --> 00:25:00,441 la nivelul constientului. Atunci, de ce-l mai visezi? 459 00:25:04,145 --> 00:25:05,946 Trebuie sa plec. 460 00:25:07,315 --> 00:25:09,649 - Vizionare placuta. - Multumesc. 461 00:25:09,683 --> 00:25:11,551 Daca te hotarasti sa mai vorbesti despre asta, 462 00:25:11,585 --> 00:25:14,019 esti binevenit oricand. 463 00:25:15,288 --> 00:25:17,389 Cum ai spus? 464 00:25:38,474 --> 00:25:40,208 Max? 465 00:25:40,242 --> 00:25:42,877 E totul in regula? 466 00:25:42,911 --> 00:25:44,678 Salut, tati. 467 00:25:45,747 --> 00:25:48,181 Ce... ce cauti aici? 468 00:25:48,216 --> 00:25:50,984 Am venit sa locuiesc cu tine.